#so i want to kill myself

[nenehyuuchiha]

God fucking damnit my tummy hurts

#and i have emetophobia #so i want to kill myself #i'm not even joking #better not get near the cleaning products for now

[lilowoof]

#I made this to let out the feels of loving my friends who love me back #if I haven't met some of yall I would have literally killed myself so I am forever grateful #and the fact that those feelings have returned....but I still have you guys....it's heartwarming to know that #I love yall #*I walk away to cry out my emotions* #I am not sure if I will make it to the end of the year tbh but I also want to in order to be around my pals and to play games with them #that's how important yall are to me #god #sorry for being so emotional on a thursday night. it just hit me really hard tonight hahha

[ohposhers]

yeah so @bulliestrollsmade me draw fanart for his Paw Patroll AU which i thought was kind of weird but ok i guess go send him asks about his epic new AU its a really cool AU guys

#im so fucking sosry #Paw Patroll AU #im killing myself #bully ily #trolls #trolls band together #floyd trolls #john dory trolls #my art #im going to thrwo up from lauhinh #in case it wasnt obvious this is a joke there is no paw patroll au #but i guess there could be #be the change you want to see in the world

[dizzybizz]

"this is regrettably the best kiss of your life, you understand?"

#that “you understand?” kills me everytime... #i love how high condis voice got during this bit its so fkn funny DHASHGFSFGHASFhg #hi yes have the inevitable ep21 crit kiss piece except i watched ep53 today and am so 😀 im so 😀 damn i m so 😀 #i love eps where they just go through so many different gimmick rooms its so fun its so fun when its not so painful 😀 #happy valentines too ig #just roll with it #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #jrwi chip #jay ferin #jrwi fish and chips #my art #i had a bit of a meltdown over gill through uhm... 1-3am today and i just hm #sorry to everyone in the mayors QAC uhm im not really sorry but like sorry if you could hear every msg ping uhm yeah #it was like hours of me sobbing to myself in the interests channel and it was really good for my mental health ngl like its really therapeu #-tic to just scream abt a blorbo all night #and i ended up dreaming abt infodumping to one of my brothers friends of all ppl n i got so intense abt how much i love marshall john n my #brother came into the room and dragged his friend out 😭😭😭 i just wanted to ramble abt the himbo pls..... #my walls of tags are so consistent... only consistent thing abt this fkn blog smh.

[fandom-geek]

i think the thing that really gets me about pre-canon durge is their absolute sense of duty, and their utter isolation outside of the cult of bhaal.

most of the cultists seem eager to see durge upon their return, and one even says they were the first to feed him flesh. gortash tells them of an exhibition of a bhaalspawn's corpse and another bhaalspawn's creations and durge immediately plans to attack the hall of wonder to recover them. they then apparently entrust said bhaalspawn's corpse to sceleritas fel to "restore" through taxidermy. they deride orin for her artistry with corpses explicitly because "bhaal will never care" and because orin "[does] not understand lord bhaal".

even their infamous prayer for forgiveness is framed around their absolute submission to bhaal's plans, and the crime that requires forgiveness? admiring his rival's chosen. that's one line, and the next three paragraphs are swearing to carry out his plan exactly as they've been told to, all for his forgiveness.

hell, even their room reinforces this. orin has barely touched the place aside from installing her mother's corpse and her manifesto - and that is some of the only decoration. what was it before orin, an empty room with skulls, a bed, a desk, some chests and a wardrobe?

the durge didn't have any semblance of a life outside of bhaal, aside from gortash. and is it any surprise? the only other hint they ever had a life outside of the cult is the flashback of kid durge murdering their adopted family, all thanks to their father's urging.

bhaal even tries to force them back into isolation after they've been tadpoled by forcing them to kill alfira, and then trying to force a durge who resists him to kill their lover. if they continue resisting, bhaal kills them. bhaal will not allow them to have a life outside of him and, if it weren't for jergal, he would've succeeded.

#bg3 spoilers #the dark urge #honestly writing this all out it's weird that bhaal doesn't try to kill your party when you're at the temple #it'd be perfectly in line with everything else he'd done to durge up until that moment #also just makes me think of how sceleritas will tell an evil durge that the worst thing they've ever done #is giving a beggar a coin without asking for anything in return #ymmv and everyone has their own headcanons but pre canon durge was not a happy or enthusiastic participant as far as canon shows #which is reinforced by gortash saying you've always been better at controlling your urges than orin! #why would durge bother to do that when 'all father wants is death in droves death in numbers'! #honestly i think it's v reasonable to think that durge could've been tempted into bane worship given what little we know of them pre canon #anyway haven't played evil durge myself so very curious abt any insights from that route #baldur's gate

[taxinealkaloids]

kill your darling, it's just that easy!

#tlt #my art #i reblogged these outfits the other day that were giving me big ianthe & naberius vibes so i wanted to draw something with them #got really funky w/ this one! i just wanted to play around i havent had the chance to draw in a while #so i just kinda let myself do whatever w/ the colors and art style and everything #idk how i feel about it but it was fun #anyway ive seen some posts suggesting that ianthe somehow cheated the system by sacrificing naberius and like... #no she absolutely did not? she paid that price exactly by the book (making her one of the few to actually do so) #and now she suffers forever for it :) #oh the line on top is a quote from the book and the caption is a lyric from 'kill your darling' by cloudy june #(which aside from that one line is not at all a ianthe&naberius song lmao)

[hazel2468]

Hey. You.

The world is better with you in it.

#seeing all this shit about that one suicide #and how people are straight up glorifying it #is making me remember when I wanted to kill myself so #remember that the world IS better with you in it

[wriochilde]

a redraw of something from 2020

the original version + the 2022 version

#sigh. no i am not a dsmp fan anymore this is just a redraw #my art #dsmp #c!tommy #c!techno #bedrock bros #ANYWAYS. time to get sentimental #i almost didnt want to post this because of that weird shame i have from enjoying this...specific piece of media #but i cant help but be appreciative to the series that kept me from killing myself lol #it felt so weird drawing tommy without all my post revival headcanons and i had to stop myself from adding all the white streaks in his hai #i never draw techno so this was tough #CLICK FOR BETTER QUALITY AUUUGGGHHG

[tardxsblues]

CLARA OSWALD IN SERIES 8

Don't you dare lot me in with the rest of all the little humans that you think are so tiny and silly and predictable. You walk our Earth, Doctor. You breath our air. You make us your friend, and that is your moon too, and you can damn well help us when we need it.

#happy pride to clara oswald #she has several other quotable lines #but the kill the moon one always gets me #doctor who #dwedit #dwgifs #timelordgifs #moffatedit #clara oswald #dws8 #jenna coleman #tvedit #gifwarning #some of these turned out so good i could kiss myself #and some of them make me want to commit arson

[pastelhooman]

"You risked your life to protect so much. I couldn't bear... to let that goes to waste."

---- timelapse ----

#wailing howboutyou- #vash needs a nap #i swear getting refs for them means subjecting myself to pain #cuz i have to reread #think ive talked about this b4 but o well it stays true ig TT^TT #originally i wanted to cap it with “this man killed a man.” but without the proper context it sounds so silly #spoiler #trimax spoiler #trigun maximum spoiler #trigun maximum #trigun #if your not reading trimax what are you doing gET YOUR ASS UP N READ IT!!! #vash #vash the stampede #trimax vash #nicholas d wolfwood #wolfwood #legato #legato bluesummers #i blacked out during painting so there's a vid timelapse this time #cuz i might need it lol

[nerdy-hyperfixations]

Wallace! Watch out! Scott’s having gay thoughts about you two making out right next to you! Oh no, he’s snoring!!! he can’t hear us!!!

1. In a phase where every song I listen to is about them and Blurt by Mega Mango ABSOLUTELY is about them. You can’t tell me otherwise. (So is Say It Back by Luna Day. I plan on writing a fanfiction around that song but I’m… probably not going to 😅) I’m happy I “found” the time to make this comic finally (I’m procrastinating)

2. Uhh. For legal reasons I didn’t make this. Especially if you’re one of my two friends that know my account, this doesn’t exist.

#scott pilgrim #wallace wells #scott pilgrim vs the world #scott pilgrim takes off #scott pilgrim fanart #scollace #scott x wallace #just realized the lyric is ‘if’ not ‘when’ #gonna kill myself lol #I’m not changing it because then I have to fix the spacing #I don’t want to #so deal with it

[mewtwo24]

Not to be That Guy but like.

Am I the only one that can't stop thinking about how Tianlang-Jun says about Luo Binghe that he pretends to be cold-hearted like his mother. The hint of fondness there, the heartache in that utterance.

Like it drives me absolutely insane. Imagining her putting on a front of strength, cold and driven and unrelenting. Why does TLJ say that about her. Did she secretly look for solutions that meant reconciling with demons instead of hurting them when her sect wasn't looking? (I wonder this because I feel like his weird fondness for SQQ would lowkey track if it's connected to the woman he once loved.) Did he mean that she was tasked with basically assassinating him and she fell in love with him instead (re: failed step one)? Did he mean that she was fond and doting in her own way (e.g. conceding he was attractive, paying for his exploits and humoring him)? Did he mean that, like LBH, she thought that power would be the thing to protect her--and that it was disguising a person who was deeply and privately wounded? All four????? I don't need sleep I need a n s w e r s

Did she know about the Huanhua Palace Master's skeevy ass intentions before she met TLJ? Or did those only come to significant light after she fell in love with TLJ? Is that why she never anticipated that level of betrayal, because initially she had no intention of being with anyone romantically? And HHPM just assumed she would be under his thumb forever?? Was she furious at her own indiscretion or did she try to use the pregnancy as a bargaining chip, a way to try to stop the immortals of Cang Qiong Mountain from attacking TLJ (plus the bonus of marriage entrapment no takesies backsies this is where LBH gets it from)? Did she try to use that claim on her to dissuade HHPM from his covetous advances, framing herself as tainted so that she could finally escape? Did she dream of a life by TLJ's side, far away from Cang Qiong Mountain?

Like. Literally every single permutation of what this could mean guts me to hell. Do you ever just cry about tianxi because I--[loud bawling noises]

#svsss #tianxi #tianlang jun #su xiyan #like this shit keeps me awake at night #i'm trying to put fic ideas together and every time i go back to that line i just #find myself trying to parse and hone out su xiyan's mannerisms/personality #zzl's descriptions help a great deal but i also love that they're limited in the sense that #1. zzl was clearly scared shitless of/disconcerted with her LMFAO #2. he was suspicious of her (as a cultivator fundamentally) and its fascinating that TLJ did not seem to share this suspicion at all #or one could argue tlj just didn't care beyond his attraction and glee being around her jkahglfdskjhsfkhjg #there is also the hilarious implication that part of what turned tlj on so much about sx is the fact that she could prbly kill him #tlj really said 'i love a woman who can and WILL kick my ass' #'none of that soft power seduction shit manhandle me or nothing' #like he always believed deep down--or at the very least wanted to believe--that she loved both him and lbh dearly #i'm not usually the fix-it fic type but the Way I Need To See Su Xiyan Destroy Huanhua Palace Master's Entire Life. #i just want sx and her boytoy to live happily ever after is that so wrong? #i also think of that person (im so sorry tumblr user i dont rmr who u are at the minute) that said there had to be trust between tlj and sx #because YES. ABSOLUTELY. I AGREE. AND I WANT IT FOR ME #don't mind me just the usual descent into madness anytime i think too hard about svsss #i need to outline damn you airplane and your refusal to expand on LBH's juicy ass backstory #ill never forgive the chinese (joke)

[liauditore]

cw// implied character death, double life nonsense

because you are love itself.

#my art #trafficblr #double life #divorce quartet #<-- insane about how scott killed pearl in limlife. #this comic has been sitting unfinished in my files for a good month its def not finished to my usual quality but god it needed to be done #so uh scott... yeah. i like villain scott but not pure evil scott. i like a scott whos scared of being loved and manipulates others to spar #himself the pain. i like a scott who ditched pearl because their friendship was actually becoming real and when the server gods confirmed i #with DL he freaked out a bit and ran off. #ofc u can interpret this comic however u want but i was just thinking way too hard abt smajhor #i feel like often ppl get divided into scott did nothing wrong vs scott is pure evil alot of the time #which is understandable cus like i said with fanart/fic u only have so much space to show someones personality #but idk i like him all angsty. like i know im a bad person but to keep myself safe i need to keep being like this. #hes so blorbo *puts him in a blender* #i hate him *wraps him up in a blanket and takes him home* #cw implied death #cw implied violence #scott #pearl

[st-hedge]

It wasn’t on my 2024 bingo card that I’d draw V again. Anyway I’ll go ahead ramble in the tags

#devil may cry 5 #dmc5 #dmc v #so I’ve replayed dmc5 a stupid amount of times since March #but to be fair it’s a very short game #but I’ve developed a hobby of trying to connect dots between v and Vergil #cuz the detail is actually so good #for instance even how he holds the cane is similar to how he handles Yamato #his expressions are so alike but it’s not obvious #but then I thought #why is vergil’s humanity some dweeb who is like 20 something #he is like closest age wise to his dmc3 version #(this has probably been answered but I wanted to figure it out myself) #then I remembered the line from v about how his humanity has finally returned #so has it been subdued and dormant ever since he got imprisoned by mundus #and is that why his humanity resembles his younger self #cuz the human vulnerable side of him has been dead #this is the only edition of Vergil I won’t drop kick on sight #human v is a dork ass goth who has a soft squishy heart #and he can’t even kill his brother who he hates so much when given the chance #UUUGGHHHHHHHHHH #don’t even get me started about the ordeal with Nero #v tried so hard to just see him as a tool but he knows that wasn’t the case

[kastillia]

Truth is only an illusion.

#mizuki date #mizuki okiura #ai the somnium files #ai nirvana initiative #aistf #i didn't get a chance to mention it here but i bought nirvana initiative as a christmas gift to myself and played it earlier this year #honestly nothing will beat the mizuki route from the first game for me but i had fun #also knew i was in for a ride right off the bat bc uchikoshi pulled out that fourth wall break immediately #i wanted to draw her for the m prompt but i couldn't get it right #but now here she is :) matching her- #...i want so badly to say big brother but date is technically her adoptive father #which on one hand is very funny #but on the other hand very weird #uchikoshi posted a very cryptic message the other day but it was also on april fools so idk what to think smh this man is killing me #my art

[bizarrelittlemew]

S2x01 | S2x06 ⋙ please stay?

#they want each other so bad i am going to hurl myself into space and kill god #good omens #good omens gifs #good omens s2 #good omens spoilers #gos2spoilers #ida.stuff #blame josh for this one im drunk giffing #goodomensgifs