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arsillanola · 4 months
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Here is something that sounds very silly:
I cannot open a crisp packet upside down.
There are games everyone plays at school. It starts all the way back in Reception or Year One, you're four or five or maybe six and everyone has to play Kiss Chase, you have to chase the person you like around and if you catch them they have to kiss you, and everyone has to play, and that has to be a crush, he's a boy and you're a girl, you have to like them, you can't just be friends.
(But you're a girl who is friends with a boy, why does it matter? You say because you like someone else but I don't understand what you mean)
(He's just my friend. And he's so much faster than me, I'll never catch him, which means I can stop them telling me I have to play and I know I'll never win, which means I never have to kiss anyone)
There's a game you play at primary school, at secondary school, and you twist the stalk of your apple and each twist you say a letter, the letter the stalk breaks off the apple gives you the first initial of the person you're going to marry. And then you tap the apple and the each tap you say a letter and the letter you break the skin gives you the last initial of the person you're going to marry and it's just a silly game.
(It doesn't matter that the stalk never breaks. Marrying is for grown-ups and that's forever away, maybe I'll never be a grown-up, I don't want to be one)
(Maybe it not breaking means you never have to get married, you'll joke one day and there will be a part of me that I won't understand and I won't know the name of for years yet that will rise up and feel joy at that, before I push it back down and wrench the stalk next time and jam the stalk so hard so I can have a letter and fit in with you all)
Who do you have a crush on, comes the question after I say truth and I panic and say no one because I told you I would tell the truth. You can choose dare instead you say, as if it's because I want to lie, but no, I say, I'm telling you the truth, I don't have one, I don't think I ever have.
(What about your friend, you'll say. You're a girl and he's a boy, and you always ask to be his partner in chemistry. No, I'll say, we're just friends. And you'll leave it and move on to the next person but you won't believe me. I wouldn't lie to you, you're my friends, why won't you believe me?)
(That will be the last time I ever agree to play truth or dare)
One day I will find a word on the internet. Asexual. And it will call to me but the people calling it discourse will follow and will argue this word that is the only thing that has ever made sense to me isn't real, is wrong, needs fixing, and how can I ever tell you when that is what it leads to?
(We're not broken, the people like me will say, we can still love like you do)
(So why are these feelings taking so long to come?)
It was Valentine's Day, the first time I considered maybe this is a crush. I was at the pub, with a whole group of friends, but it was only two of us who had gone up to the bar and these two ladies who were dressed up for a hen do called us a cute couple. No, we're just friends, he said, and it was true. But this is like the feeling before, the one I said we were friends and you thought it was a crush and you didn't believe me, and I didn't know I was asexual then, so maybe you were right and I just didn't know what one feels like.
(It's friends, even if it is a crush, I don't want to do anything about it, I'll decide so very quickly, and it won't be the only one, I'll have this feeling for other friends too, but I like being friends with you, I don't want to ruin that bringing up crushes and relationships, and it still feels so grown up and I'm still not sure I want to be, so I'll push these feelings into just being friends and do nothing else with them)
(Why is there so much relief with the thought of ignoring it?)
There's a thing, they say, where if you open a crisp packet upside-down it means you have a crush on someone. It's a silly thing primary school children say and it means nothing.
(We're five years old and I remember so very little but I remember so clearly how you all told me I had to have a crush and being so confused by what you meant and so upset none of you believed me when I was telling you the truth. You would drag me along into Kiss Chase after that, and I was lonely and I wanted to be friends so I would let you even though I didn't want to play, but only for so long before I would be too frustrated with you thinking me a liar. Pushing and pushing for an answer I will never be able to give you)
Two decades later I will still be confused, I still won't know, I will be lost and the word aromantic will find me and reach out and call to the part of me I felt so long ago and didn't understand and it will pull it up and tell me I was always right.
It's the absence of romantic attraction, the definition says, but the feeling it gives isn't an absence, it's a joy, it's understanding, it's knowing I'm not alone. Knowing that I was right.
It will find me and wrap me in a hug and I will finally know what this part of me is.
But there will always be a six-year-old inside me who can't stop checking to make sure nothing is opened upside down because she cannot let anyone think she has a crush.
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maiden-after-dark · 1 year
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zytes · 5 months
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this manatee looks like it’s in a skyrim loading screen
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gibbearish · 6 months
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love when ppl defend the aggressive monetization of the internet with "what, do you just expect it to be free and them not make a profit???" like. yeah that would be really nice actually i would love that:)! thanks for asking
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storm-of-feathers · 11 months
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I'm very fond of this video
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elodieunderglass · 7 months
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changes and trends in horror-genre films are linked to the anxieties of the culture in its time and place. Vampires are the manifestation of grappling with sexuality; aliens, of foreign influence. Horror from the Cold War is about apathy and annihilation; classic Japanese horror is characterised by “nature’s revenge”; psychological horror plays with anxieties that absorbed its audience, like pregnancy/abortion, mental illness, femininity. Some horror presses on the bruise of being trapped in a situation with upsetting tasks to complete, especially ones that compromise you as a person - reflecting the horrors and anxieties of capitalism etc etc etc. Cosmic horror is slightly out of fashion because our culture is more comfortable with, even wistful for, “the unknown.” Monster horror now has to be aware of itself, as a contingent of people now live in the freedom and comfort of saying “I would willingly, gladly, even preferentially fuck that monster.” But I don’t know much about films or genres: that ground has been covered by cleverer people.
I don’t actually like horror or movies. What interests me at the moment is how horror of the 2020s has an element of perception and paying attention.
Multiple movies in one year discussed monsters that killed you if you perceived them. There are monsters you can’t look at; monsters that kill you instantly if you get their attention. Monsters where you have to be silent, look down, hold still: pray that they pass over you. M Zombies have changed from a hand-waved virus that covers extras in splashy gore, to insidious spores. A disaster film is called Don’t Look Up, a horror film is called Nope. Even trashy nun horror sets up strange premises of keeping your eyes fixed on something as the devil GETS you.
No idea if this is anything. (I haven’t seen any of these things because, unfortunately, I hate them.) Someone who understands better than me could say something clever here, and I hope they do.
But the thing I’m thinking about is what this will look like to the future, as the Victorian sex vampires and Cold War anxieties look to us. I think they’ll have a little sympathy, but they probably won’t. You poor little prey animals, the kids will say, you were awfully afraid of facing up to things, weren’t you?
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ra3kiv · 2 months
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apollos-boyfriend · 10 months
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so my younger cousin is flying in to visit from brazil on sunday, and will be staying here for like, the entirety of july. which, don't get me wrong, is super cool! i love the kid! but it felt like a super weird move, considering his parents are the SUPER strict and borderline helicopter parents. even the smallest prank/roughousing with him/his little sister would lead to a strict talking to from his parents, he couldn't ever do anything without their clear permission, that sort of stuff. so letting him fly at alone at 16 to a whole different country and stay there for a whole month seemed WILDLY out of character. additionally, it just felt like a super last-minute trip. it's not like we have any plans to do when he gets here, and the flight itself and stuff only got booked like, midway through june.
and i was talking to my mom about it, kind of trying to nudge some answers out of her, and after a while she went, "yeah, i think they're sending him over here to get away for his boyfriend. see if the distance breaks them off." which, first of all, surprised me because last i checked, they didn't KNOW he had a boyfriend. literally everyone in the family did EXCEPT for them because while that entire side of the family being semi-conservative, his parents (mostly his dad) are EXTREMELY old-fashioned. so clearly something already went wrong. and considering the only reason the rest of the family knew is because one person found out and it spread like wildfire, i have a sneaking suspicion he wasn't the one to tell them, either.
and second of all. they're sending him HERE. to try to make him forget his homosexuality. i couldn't do anything but just wordlessly gesture to the multiple pride flags scattered around my room, then to myself, because really? he has like two other cousins in the us and they're sending him to me? honey i am about to introduce this kid to queer scenes you have never even heard of. he'll be returning home with labels only shrimp can perceive
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derpiedoxie · 6 months
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I like the silly little new indie show
Someone give Pomni a cookie
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xignis · 1 year
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ok
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kittyprincessofcats · 3 months
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ICJ Ruling
Okay, let's get into this.
First of all, I get the frustration at the court not ordering a ceasefire. I was disappointed and frustrated at first too, since a ceasefire was the biggest and most important preliminary measure South Africa was requesting - and of course we just all want this horror to finally end for the people in Gaza. So I get the frustration and disappointment, I really do.
However, I do think this ruling is still a major win for South Africa, Palestine, and international law as a whole and here's why:
The court acknowledged that it has jurisdiction over this case and completely dismissed Israel's request to throw out the case as a whole. It will now determine at the merits stage (that will probably take years) whether Israel is actually commiting genocide.
The court acknowledged that Palestinians are a "distinct national or ethnic group and therefore deserving of protection under the genocide convention". Pull this out next time someone tells you "there's no such thing as Palestinians, they're all just Arabs".
The court acknowledged very unambiguously that "at least some" of Israel's actions being genocidal in nature is "plausible". South Africa has a case, officially. Israel is accused of genocide, in a way the ICJ deems "plausible", officially. This is huge. (And seriously, how freaking satisfying was it to hear all of those genocidal statements by Israeli politicians read out loud and used as justification for this rulling?)
The court might not have ordered a "ceasefire" in those words, but they did order Israel to "immediately end all genocidal acts" (which includes killing and injuring Palestinians) and submit proof that they actually did. How are they going to comply with this ruling without at least severly reducing or changing what they're doing in Gaza?
In fact, this wording might actually be more appropriate for a genocide (vs a war), as author and journalist Ali Abunimah notes on Twitter:
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He's completely right. Israel lost today, by overwhelming majority (I mean, 15 to 2? I heard people predict the rulings would be very close, like 9 judges vs 8, but instead we got 15 to 2 (and even 16 to 1 on the humanitarian aid). Holy shit.) The court disimissed almost everything Israel's side of lawyers said, while acknowledging that South Africa's accusations are "plausible".
And this is important especially because of Mr Abunimah's second tweet there^. Because the question is, where do we go from here?
This ruling means that Israel is officially /possibly/ commiting genocide and that should have huge international consequences. The rest of the world now HAS to take these accusations seriously and stop arming and supporting Israel - and if they won't do it on their own, we, the people, have to make them. This is THE moment to rise up all around the world, especially in the countries most supportive of Israel (the US, the UK, Germany): Protest, call your representatives and demand a ceasefire and an end of arms deliveries to Israel.
We now have a legal case to back our demands: If Israel is, according to the ICJ, "plausibly" commiting genocide, then all of our governments are, according to the ICJ, "plausibly" guiltly of aiding in genocide. And we need to hold that over their heads and demand better. We need to do that right now and in huge numbers. Most politicians only care about themselves and saving their skin. We have to make them realize that they could be accused of aiding in genocide.
(As a German, I'm thinking of Germany here in particular: After South Africa's hearing, our government dismissed their case as having "no basis" - how are they going to keep saying that now that the ICJ officially thinks otherwise? Over the last months, people here have been arrested at protests for calling what's happening in Gaza a genocide. How are the police supposed to legally keep doing that now that the ICJ has officially deemed this accusation "plausible"? I used to be scared to use the word "genocide" at protests or write it on my protest signs - not anymore, have fun trying to arrest me for that when the ICJ literally has my back on this one 🖕🏻.)
So yeah - don't be defeatist about this, don't let Israel's narrative that they "won" (they didn't) take over. This might not be everything we wanted, but it's still a good result. Don't let what the court didn't say ("ceasefire"), distract you from the very important things that they did say. Let this be your motivation to get loud and active, especially if you live in any country that supports Israel. Put pressure on your governments to not be complicit in genocide, you now officially have the highest international court on your side.
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astralpenguin · 1 year
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self care is writing a fic that you’re literally the sole target audience for
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glorious-spoon · 6 months
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i know we all laugh (mostly fondly) about the paper-thin plots in porn that only exist to make the sex happen, but i was reading some old stargate fic over the weekend, and i really think we're sleeping on the paper-thin hurt/comfort plot that only exists to force the characters to FEEL THINGS.
like, is this scenario realistic? no. does it make any rational sense? no. does it provide a built-in excuse for a character to collapse, bloody and disoriented, into the arms of his beloved/friend/partner? obviously, that's the whole point of this exercise.
i love it. it's my favorite thing in the world.
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[person 500 years ago knitting a sock] O Sister Margaret, regale me again with the tale of Vicar Wesley's scandalous elopement with the baker's daughter!
[me today knitting a sock] O Youtuber Hbomberguy, regale me again with the tale of SHERLOCK IS GARBAGE, AND HERE'S WHY
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tojisun · 4 days
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hhnngrf i know it's been done before already but thinking about pornstar!reader today :(
you had always been faking your moans while shooting but on the day that you were filming with pornstar!simon, the director had to stop the shoot because you just, well, you sounded different.
you don't sound the way you always do—whining, mewling, your moans reverberating from the base of your throat. you used to even croon, stuttered words slipping from your kiss-swollen lips as you sang how good everything felt.
instead all they heard from you today were the quiet rasps of your gasps, hitched breaths, and warbled whimpers that barely got picked up by the mic.
were you sick? did you need to take a break?
of course not.
you haven't felt so good in a while now, if not for ghost. his cock was big, if not short, but it filled you up so well that it rendered you speechless. he was hitting everything, stroking everywhere. ghost was the first to hold you down and fuck you deeply; the first to stuff all of his cock and make you feel every stretch, every thrust. pleasure hummed underneath your skin, spasming along your synapses until your brain was fried in your delirium.
others were able to coax your orgasm with their fingers or their tongues, sure, but ghost had been the first in a while to make you cum just with his cock.
"christ," his voice rumbles somewhere behind you. you startle, whirling to look up at him—his eyes are dark, his lips tugged up in the faintest of smiles.
he pushes your hair away from your sweaty face.
"i knew you doctored y'r voice but who knew that you sound completely different when pleasured, huh?"
he's mocking you, you know, but your eyes stray past his gaze and flit towards his groin, your throat constricting at the sinful image his cock makes underneath a skimpy towel.
god, you want more.
"aren't you just an open book?" ghost trills, giddy. you glance at him again, brows furrowed in your confusion.
he chuckles and bends forward just enough to hover his lips above your ear. then, he whispers, "meet me in my trailer in ten. i need to know what else you've been fakin'."
he kisses your cheek goodbye, leaving you to feel warmth flood into your cheeks and raze through the plane of your spine.
fuck.
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