#so a lot of opportunities have opened up

[soups-archive]

Thoughts on Purgatory Day 4:

God what a fun day, and yet funnily enough a much more relaxed one.

It's gonna be interesting to see what the ramifications of blue's logout strat are gonna be because it's definitely going to be banned, but, from my understanding, blue used this strat to prove a point: that red's strategy was unfair.

Which is true, or at least I think it was true.

Personally, I feel like it was mostly unfair due to how difficult it used to be to get to global, but I feel like the admins have pretty fairly counteracted that and balanced things with today's introduction of the spawn portals.

Because with red's strat players HAD to physically travel to global and turn in the contracts within at least the last 30 minutes of gameplay. The portals now easily allow other teams to show up and at least put up a good fight, and we actually got to see how effective they are today with cellbit and charlie's assist they pulled for roier. If they had been just slightly quicker, green might've been able to steal back the win.

Which I think brings me to the other potentially unfair part of red's strat that I've seen be brought up which is that it isn't fair for streamers in European timezones/streamers who play earlier. Which is a fair criticism, but honestly I haven't personally been able to think of a way for the admins to balance the contracts around that without either: A) completely changing how contracts work, or B) unfairly punishing later streamers.

I think it's complicated, and I feel like the main thing that's gonna result from today isn't going to be them banning turning in tasks late but instead banning logging out right in front of the global NPCs. Knowing the admins, they'll probably figure out something I hadn't thought of and make the whole thing more fair for everyone.

Competition and lore wise, tomorrow is gonna be really interesting as well. A small alliance might be blooming between red and green and that might have massive ramifications going forward. That and I think (???????) that players might be getting their eggs tomorrow (?????). I know they described a period in which they had to keep them alive and the actual event ends on the 10th so I'm guessing they're arriving tomorrow. If they are, that shit is going to be crazy.

(Side note: It was also a delight to see teams casually hanging out more together today. As much as I enjoy the competition, I missed them all just chilling)

Overall, congrats blue on the win! Cheesy as fuck and they knew it but it was absolutely deserved! They worked their asses off! And green put up a hell of a fight! I hope they get their chance to win as well tomorrow!

#qsmp #soup speaks #it could be perceived that way but this really isnt meant to be a discourse post #i just like thinking about strategy and gameplay balancing lol #this event has been so delightful for me i love disecting possible tactics and ways the admins can make things more fair #while still rewarding interesting and smart strategies #because red's strategy WAS smart #and with the addition of the portals its a lot more fair and opens up opportunities for some sick ass skirmishes over global tasks #i think it also opens up a lot of opportunities for teams to get creative #because all the teams DO have streamers who log in later #even if theyre not their pvp heavy ones #off the top of my head blue has tina missa and rivers #and green has bagi quackity and roier #and not all of those people are the best at pvp but thats where creativity and strategy come in #id love to see blue team come running in with a bunch of explosives or poisoned arrows or other ranged attack methods #to try and stop red team or green team without getting too close contact #like AHHH!!!! i wanna see teams get really creative with this!!! i love fun strategies!!!! #theres so much fun bullshit you can do in this scenario #like god i could sing red's praises so much theyre so tactical and think so strategically its fucking awesome #their cave base made specifically so that it would be less detectable using cave layers? and convincing people they still live at spawn? #delightful #and shoutout blue team for the way they've let people play to their strengths #they caught on to so many good strats early on like moving their base off island and tea being the best food source #and god the way green really came back together today was such a delight to watch #i hadn't caught much of their pov prior to today but i tuned in while they were grinding to fight blue and it was so much fun #i hope them and red actually commit to the little alliance they've formed and try to secure green the win tomorrow #god this event spawns such shit discourse but also im so delighted by it #sorry for the fucking essay in the tags i just have so much to gush about this event kudos to the admins this is sick #qsmp purgatory #really putting the blog back in tumblr blog with this one huh

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Hi! Congrats on finishing the comics for season one! I genuinely enjoyed every single one of them. I drew the nameless red disciple and ouyang zizhen to express my gratitude for making me feel so much joy through your adorable art ^-^

please excuse the poor quality, i didn't even take out my drawing tablet for this because i wanted it to be authentically poorly drawn :P it was nice to finally draw a simple drawing without being pressured to make it perfect :P (also I had forgotten how hard it is to draw without a tablet. I have become weak and mollycoddled😩✨ ) I might draw some proper fanart for them soon, if you don't mind?👀

(also also, I think I have said this before but your art is so pretty and intricate even though you call it poorly drawn. The color combinations are so soft and matching, and I LOVE THE WAY YOU DRAW HAIR😭)

ANyway. Have a great week!

It's them!! The disciples I wrongfully pitted against each other in a poll before realizing that love deserved to win! Thank you very much for this! I wish you all the best in drawing without the pressure to be perfect B*)

#ask #fanart #I've been trying to push myself maybe little too much so I am happy to be reminded that it's fine to just draw B'*) #It's only poorly drawn when you don't put heart into it <3 #I am actually the opposite when it comes to tablets. All my muscles go limp and my bones crumble to dust when I try to draw with one #but I would like to get better at it because it certainly opens up a lot of opportunities to Get Better At Art #And thank you so much for the kind words about my art B'''*) I really am out here just trying to learn how to draw #I have found a lot of joy in using my pens and markers! Even if...some of them are going dry and I need to buy more... #PS: I would crumble to the happiest dust on earth if you did more fanart...I already have with this one B*) #PPS: Thank you so kindly for all your lovely messages on my comics! You're one of my consistent regulars and I really appreciate it!

[pepprs]

misery despair suffering etc etc

#purrs #delete later #two thoughts about separate things both causing the despair. thought / thing number 1 which i think ive talked abt on here many times before #but im saying it again: i am not good at being a friend in the ways my friends need me to be a friend. and in the ways friendship is thought #of societally i guess. i isolate myself constantly. i pull away from the opportunity to get closer with people i don’t know as well. i don’t #text back and then when im finally ready it’s been so egregiously long since it was appropriate for me to respond or reciprocate or #whatever it is i am so crushed by guilt and shame and embarrassment that i can’t bring myself to do it. i have so many unread messages and i #wont even let myself open them. and ive been like this for years. and i hurt someone very badly many years ago by being that way. and it was #more complicated than that but sometimes i remember it and how i acted and how i treated them. and i wonder sometimes if they check up on me #and i don’t want to be immature or weird or whatever for talking about it or wondering that openly. but if you do read this and you know who #you are: i am so sorry. i meant whst i said that i would never stop wishing you well and hoping the very best for you. and i hope you have #all of that and more. and im so sorry for not being brave enough to communicate with you or stick around. i really really am. and im sorry #to all the other people i have hurt by pulling away and shutting down and shrinking inside myself and not talking. ik it’s weird to post #that instead of just telling people directly but it’s the guilt. i am fully aware of how many people / groups of people i owe things to / #for but also just… miss. a lot. and want to talk to even though i won’t let myself. i don’t know why im like this and i don’t know how to #stop. but im sorry im not a good friend or even acquaintance or community member. and im talking to everyone now i guess including anyone #reading this bc god knows how many asks and messages i have on here. im sorry. i want to be a better friend. but i also never have spoons. a #and i also want to stay spoonless and cocooned on myself forever and never come out. and i hate that. i want to be a friend. i want to be #kind and giving and loving and generous in the ways you all have been with me. i want to hang out with people and send messages and be there #to lift people up and celebrate with them. but all i can muster is tapping like on social media and it’s horrific. i have gifts to make and #hello / checking in messages to reply to and roleplay starters to post and i just can’t do it right now and im scared i’ll never be able to #again. but it’s a self fulfilling prophecy. if i say i can’t do it then iwont. it’s not enougu to just be aware of it i have to act on it #and change it. but im exhausted and hurting right now and i have been for years and i need to heal first but what if this is healing. #idk. i rambled on that for much longer than i thought i would so nowim gonna say the second thing in a separate post. and it’ll be weird to #post about that in light of this and it’ll be weird to post this at all. but its been weighing on me so heavily today and i don’t want #anyone to think im ignoring them or not aware of being like this or whatever. and posting into the void is easier than telling individual #people to your faces even though i know it’s cowardly. im really truly sorry. i will try to get better once i have the strength to try. #actually yeah no not gonna say the second thing yet. it would be weird to say it now. this needs to sit a little first

[bitchfitch]

Thing I want to draw when i have the time and hand mobility:

a short comic of Adonis and Ione at the grocery store. Ione is carrying the basket which seems to mostly have meat candy and booze in it.

Adonis picks something up off the shelf.

I: Oh wait. Check to make sure it's not sugar free, i can't have a lot of types of artificial sweeteners.

A: How do I check?

I: It's usually written on the box? Look for something that says 'sugar free' or 'artificially sweetened.'

Adonis holds the box up and examines it closely before looking back up at her.

A: I can't read.

I: Ah.

#Hes an acomplished sculptor and widely beloved performer/strong man. He does a lot of security work #And hes still 6 years old and has had very little opportunity to learn how to read #Like this would still be in the time period everyone is calling him 'Stones' because they have no way of finding out his name #he cant talk or spell or read #Adonis isnt exactly a common name thats going to show up on lists #so even though its an A name just reading off a baby naming book until they find it isn't going to work #They're lucky one of the acrobats knew sign because her sisters deaf and could start teaching him the very basics needed #for him to communicate more than 'yes' and 'no' #and that Ione is a quick learner and got touch signing down so that the two of them could chat too #People are a Lot less weird about her when shes got someone with her and the sorta Assumptions people tend to make #when its her and Adonis together specifically #Like it goes from 'Oh shit the giant snake woman who can turn living flesh to stone with just a look is coming this way' #to 'oh hey shes got a stone statue guy with her and they're obviously close and hes opening the door for her and #warning her of the obstacles she cant see because of her blindfold. Thats actually kinda cute' #tbh the joke is the absurdity of a medusa and a stone statue having this conversation in a piggly wiggly or somethin.

[datastate]

please think before promoting a post that - while having an understandable critique of people who remove themselves (through headcanons) from a media to a degree that they may as well make ocs - includes “race headcanons” in this criticism.

#are you fucking w me. you know what this (white. might i add) person's talking abt. don't you. #jestersvaguely #like obviously i have my own criticisms when it comes to m/m pairings especially where i feel like people would be better off just watching #like. romance anime because at this point they've just flattened the characters and completely removed the original world #but in my experience. usually race headcanons include expanding upon what's already established in-canon lol. like esp if it's someone /of/ #that race there is usually so much more thought put into it and how it'll tie and bring out emphasis in other scenes #and i know - for myself. as someone who enjoys character studies. i like applying this to how it affects themselves/family/life #as well as their personal perceptions/importance of it. there is just... it opens up a lot of opportunities #yes. there is a point where projection does soften up or destroy the original character. but this isn't where it typically happens #rubs my face. i'm not articulate right now but this is not where critique should be directed #if it's thoughtlessly making characters poc and playing into racist biases then that's relevant but otherwise... what's the pointtt #it's not ridding the character of anything.

[magentagalaxies]

officially going to be taking a standup comedy class next semester!!! now my schedule is literally:

improv class

sociology class about queer history

standup class

buddy cole documentary which counts as a class despite only meeting with the professor when i want to and being a project i would work on even if i didn't get college credit

god i love majoring in comedy in college

#i realized my science credit was already taken care of by a dual enrollment class i did in high school so that gave me an opening #and i already have a plan to take care of all the other general education stuff later so i might as well load up on comedy courses #unfortunately due to some bullshit that's not as interesting as i think it is a lot of the comedy classes aren't running this fall #so the only one at my level with open seats is standup #and y'know typically i do NOT enjoy performing standup. i love watching standup very much but performing it's not for me #(plus ik my nemesis is in that class and she's also in my 2 other real classes so ugh i'm gonna be seeing a lot of her) #HOWEVER. i've already taken a course with this professor and he likes me #he's a kith fan so if i have to miss class or get an extension bc of work on the buddy cole doc he'll probably be super understanding #and!!! most importantly!!! he's really into character standup which not a lot of students choose to do #but for me. this gives me a perfect opportunity to actually work on some of my aubrey material as a ''standup character'' #or at the very least shoehorn buddy cole into discussions lmao #also. my improv class is right before this one and improv is probably the type of comedy i'm most confident in #so maybe that will give me a nice push to get more confident in standup #and as for the ''constantly having to be around my nemesis'' thing. well i can hope that she manages to chill out by then #but even if she is insufferable. i can take solace in being the one with kith connections and paul will almost definitely let me rant to hi

[kaoharu]

okokkk :taps the mic:

#✧ chatting ! #so like. ive been thinking abt this a Lot actually since im gonna be turning 18 and like. thats such a weird age to me #like all the minors will suddenly think of uu as an Adult but all the adults still think of uu as a Baby. ykwim ?? #which neither side is necessarily wrong but i think it often opens up more opportunities for Bad Things to happen online #like i feel like ive seen so many 18y/os be given so much grief over say. liking a chara thats like 16/17 by younger audiences #and then w older audiences its kinda hard to be in their spaces at times since they technically are kinda more mature than someone who was— #—literally just 17 and wasnt allowed into / shldnt have been in adult spaces if that makes sense ??? #and also a lot of times i think ''adults'' are given less forgiveness for stuff even if they are unaware of why smth cld be bad #i dunno. aging is weird i think im having some sort of crisis good lord

[weenhands]

listening that 2013 podcast of frank getting jamias name tattooed on himself only three months after meeting. i know i always throw in the ol frank iero being my boyfriend to cope thingy but. listening to it really makes me want to believe in love again through this perspective that maybe there really is someone out there who is meant to be with me who will love me like frank loved jamia. or i will love someome like the way how jamia was loved by frank. and it'll all be healthy and happy. nothing less yet possibly even better. just the way how frank is so very much in love with her makes me not want to settle for anything less and to drop everything i feel or hang onto in a toxic manner when it comes to love and to just trust that there's someone out there who will give me such a lovely relationship like theirs....parasocialism with frank iero ends in t minus 10....9...

#yea.. #idk ive had a lot of ups and downs with love and i just wanna be open and reciprocal to whoever it is that will bring me the love i really #deserve and crave for since i was a little girl.... #and frank as a person somtimes just makes me think wow he is so amazing. his morals and values are so aligned with mine ( #(scorpio in their big three gang) #and i just love him so deeply. and it makes me believe that if ppl like frank exist then i dont really need to hang onto or feel bad for #any fallouts i have or any missed opportunities #because theres amazing ppl out there like him

[slippery-minghus]

dunno if i'm gonna rally the spoons and nerve to apply to some new jobs (i suppose we'll see how this week's vibe goes) but i updated my resume and i'm feeling pretty good about it 💪

#been reading lots of AskAManager and she has some interesting tips on resume writing #to not so much list your job description (though to do it a little for those keywords) but to list your achievments instead #and i've built up a good handful of those actually #in the very least it'll be that much more ready to go when the time comes #and i'm still *fingers crossed* hopeful about that internal role someday #we're in a hiring freeze (except for most dire need) and there were just more layoffs higher up so idk if the creation of this position #is actually a viable thing to hope for but.... i'd be SO DAMN GOOD AT IT #there's a job i'm looking at on indeed that looks pretty interesting and isn't much further from where i already work #it doesn't seem like it'd have much opportunity to grow - and would be a lot like what i do now - but it's not exactly like i have much room #to grow where i'm at anyway. short of that one role they have me (and who knows who else) in mind for that may or may not ever open up #and... i don't want to leave. per se. but if the coworker i can't stand doesn't leave soon i may have to leave first #personal

[quick-drawn]

VERSE: WHISKEY & NICOTINE ↪ modern.

he never liked the idea of retirement. he's estranged from the deadlock gang — but gun running was all he's ever known, aside from drinking and smoking. so he bought that shady biker bar at the end of 5th street and opened the high noon saloon.

a young colton cassidy is found strapped for cash after the passing of his father and late stage diagnosis of his mother's cancer — following in the footsteps of his main verse, he finds a quick fix in GUN RUNNING. he recruits a team and makes DEADLOCK a very well known name in the business throughout the american southwest. so it doesn't take long for the LAW to get word of a new player in the streets.

they're assigned to a task force specializing in dismantling nationwide gang operations, who watches him and the gang very closely over the next few years, compiling all evidence needed to greenlight a sting operation on what was believed to be the gang's headquarters.

it's considered successful at the time, after partially disbanding the team and taking the then 21 year old colton in for questioning and holding. impressed with skill and mental fortitude, as well as vast knowledge on their current subjects, they offer the kid an ULTIMATUM: join up or lock up.

he chooses the former.

he works on this specialized task force for a little over 10 years. they have their ups and downs, but they get by and get the job done. shortly after getting word of the resurrection of the DEADLOCK GANG, the team is hit hard — assumingly by the aforementioned gang.

the force crumbles — half dead, the rest severally injured, the team's disbanded. colton, having paid his dues, hits dirt and goes into hiding, roaming from town to town for the next several years.

as the heat finally dies down, an investment opportunity lands in his lap. an old, shoddy bar in a middle-of-nowhere town full of nobodies — perfect for a nobody with nowhere to be.

he buys the bar and rebrands as the HIGH NOON SALOON. with a little help from an old friend, bars, in the kitchen, the place is brought back to life, quickly drawing in the locals and travelers alike — and all the TROUBLE that comes with them...

#✯ — [ ʷʰᶤˢᵏᵉʸ & ᶰᶤᶜᵒᵗᶤᶰᵉ ] ⨯ modern #✯ — [ ᵃ ᵐᵃᶰ'ˢ ᵍᵒᵗᵗᵃ ʰᵃᵛᵉ ʳᵘˡᵉˢ ] ⨯ psa #this doesn't go in my psa tag #but i don't have one for detailed verse posts yet smh... #i've been messing around in modern a lot lately and i feel like it'd be a lot easier for some of y'all to interact in this verse than ovw. #i mean...it's very similar but #not. #it's also very flexible. i made this verse for ease of interaction with my non ovw mutuals so PLEASE TAKE ADVANTAGE OF IT. #i can also tweak things to fit your verse from here #so if you have any thoughts or ideas when plotting with me please don't be shy #give me all of them. thank you. #but this is also open for my ovw mutuals. it's fun to mix things up a little bit sometimes. #and this gives more opportunity for that...simple domestic life stuff y'know — #i live for that shit. #but also i finally typed this up because i've had to explain it to like #three different people here lately and wouldn't it be easier if i just #had my shit together and sent y'all a link to this instead ?? idk. #anyway i've gotta go to the bf's concert here in a bit #but i'll be around later tonight for things i think. #i didn't proofread this —

[gloopdimension]

Getting to Talk to leo casually(outside of his work) isnt too difficult. but getting to know him is trickier

#its not that he pushes people away or lies abt things. #hes very honest. if you ask him his route back home he Wont tell you. hell say Thats a bold question yakno? #hes just cautious abt who he opens up to abt his personal life bc ITS DANGEROUS for him to! #casual convo is easy and fine. smile:). you could meet him at the bar playin pool and grumbling abt the people who are causing trouble after #one too many drinks. #But hes gotta like you a lot to let u into his lil mansion bc THERE ARE Valuables there. #im eepy so this isnt as thorough w his charcater as id like but ahh #Oh for consistent communication during work hours and opportunities to build trust. ummumum #i think youd have to ssupply his goons w their weapons and such #I think meetings can commence that way. #my ocs

[killerchickadee]

So on the 7th of September (which is a truck day!!! The busiest day of the week for me!!!!) some really really high head honchos are gonna come to the store. Like my boss's boss's boss's boss.

Which means I'm gonna have a very bad week trying to make sure every nitpicky thing is perfect. But it's also one of those visits where if I want to move up the ladder (which tbh I'm not sure I do) that's the time for me to show off. Like our store is 150% better than it was when I started, and a lot of it is because of me. But I gotta make sure we're on top of freight and planograms and all the random stuff they look for that we don't even think about.

#moving up the ladder would mean a significant pay increase #and also look fantastic on a resume #they're opening four new stores in the milwaukee area in the next few years so i do actually have a lot of opportunities coming up #if i stay with the company #and i don't really want to but there's not a lot of good options for me at the moment #like i don't want to just move from one shitty retail job to another #if i leave the company it's gotta be for something better #so idk #but yeah gonna have a rough week

[chris-spacehere]

ok I usually dont do this kind of posts but if you could, PLEASE help me boost this tweet up! Schaffrillas is one of my favorite youtubers ever (people who followed me anywhere in 2022 know) and It'd be a dream to make a thumbnail for him

so please please please drop a like or something at least, this is a once in a lifetime opportunity and I just want to make sure he sees it tysm

#please please please #i love schaffrillas and this could open up a lot of opportunities incase I have a chance #plus it'd be a dream come true so PLEASE #just drop a like or something thats all i need

[disorderly]

.......

#vent #vent in tags #I realized how triggering it would be to go to psychiatrist / therapy appts with my brother #for some reason I feel invalidated having to talk about someone else's trauma because the attention is not aimed at me #when I have a lot of my own trauma to deal with. but we grew up in the same house so idk why I feel that way ..... #I don't think my brother will easily open up to someone without me there to kick things off a little though #he did get along with one therapist I think but that was because they were trans...and my very wise mom decided not to go back #and her reason was because it was a long drive and she didn't like the therapist 😍 #like great! put your own comfort before your childs...the one who will actually be speaking to the therapist.. #if you can get my brother to open up to someone why THE FUCK wouldn't you take the opportunity...I don't know #I've realized my parent's don't prioritize much if it involves our health in anyway so

[gyudons]

despicable

updates as of 22 oct

Travis Dermott knew that he would draw attention with his actions in the Coyotes’ home opener against the Anaheim Ducks at Mullett Arena on Saturday. The Arizona defenseman just hoped that the spotlight might shine on the issue that he was addressing, not on him.

“You don’t really want to go against rules that are put in place by your employer, but there’s some people who took some positive things from it,” Dermott said. “That’s kind of what I’m looking to impact.

“You want to have everyone feel included and that’s something that I have felt passionate about for a long time in my career. It’s not like I just just jumped on this train. It’s something that I’ve felt has been lacking in the hockey community for a while. I feel like we need supporters of a movement like this; to have everyone feel included and really to beat home the idea that hockey is for everyone.”

“I won’t lie,” said Dermott, who is playing on a one-year, two-way contract. “From the outside, it’s easy to see that I’m putting my career on the line for something. I definitely went through some emotional ups and downs that night, not regretting anything by any means, but I’d love to have maybe done a couple of steps a little different by making sure that everyone was aware of what was going on before I did it.

“I don’t want to put my teammates or my coaches or my GMs or the equipment managers in any kind of bad light when it’s their job to kind of look out for something like this happening. It was definitely something that I did just by myself and was prepared to kind of deal with whatever repercussions the league decides to push towards that. I’m not going to back off and say that this battle is won, but we’re going to find better ways to do it.”

As Dermott noted, LGBTQ+ inclusion is an issue that he has supported for a long time. Without getting into specifics, Dermott said the issue is personal for him because it impacts people close to him.

“I’d be lying if I said I haven’t shed tears about this on multiple occasions,” he said. “So yeah, it’s something I’m definitely very passionate about.

“I’ve met a lot of people that from the outside, it looks like they have everything going right in their life and they have a smile on their face every time they talk to you. But sometimes when we get closer to people and get comfortable enough for them to open up to you, you can see that there’s some pretty dark stuff happening to some good people. It doesn’t take too many times encountering something like that for it to really change someone.

“I’ve been blessed to have some of those opportunities put in front of me to really change my view of what being a good person means; what being a good father and a good example and role model means going forward. You really see how people are hurting and it’s because of a system that maybe no one’s intentionally trying to be malicious about, but until you’ve really had that first-person experience seeing people hurting from it right in front of you, it’s tough to kind of take steps.”

It would be a surprise if the league handed down any sort of punishment. The optics alone would add to the public relations damage that the original ban created. Even so, Dermott reiterated his desire to bring the entire franchise into the fold before he takes similar actions in the future, but he also made it clear that he will not be silenced on the topic.

“It’s not like I’m shutting up and going away,” he said. “I know more questions are going to be coming. We’re just going to be as prepared as we can be to just spread love. That’s the thing. It’s gay pride that we’re talking about, but it could be men’s health. It could be any war. It’s just wanting world peace. Everyone’s got to love each other a little bit more.

“Like my parents said growing up, ‘How awesome would it be to be the guy that people look up to?’ That’s what really hit home when I was a kid, especially from my mom. You want to grow up and be that guy. You want to be the guy that’s having the impact on kids like NHL players had on you. If they had been racist or bigoted, that’s going to have an effect on you.

“With how many eyes are on us, especially with the young kids coming up in the new generation, you want to put as much positive love into their brain as you can. You want them to see that it’s not just being taught or coming from maybe their parents at home. They need to see it in the public eye for it to really make an effect.”

#nhl #pride #lgbt #gay #queer #hockey

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

"she didnt take much notice of you last time" theyre so fucking cute

#its an interesting space bc what is this like a week after the flux give or take? #which for the doctor also only lasted like a few days at most. for yaz years obviously but #the relief of the reunion + the promise of 'i'll try not to hide things from you anymore' seems to have like. opened doors #plus yaz came out obvs. i wonder if that changed anything on her side but i dont think much? #shes been like this since the beginning but i think theres a little bit more openness here in this ep bc. shes. hopeful. maybe. ouch #but also i think that like there wasnt much opportunity for this earlier like if you imagine between revolution and flux #i dont think they were having a LOT of fun #like frustrations have been building for a While in the halloween apocalypse #theres a tension and a holding back there that i think is relieved a little bit in the sea devils episode #which makes it so sad that it's immediately put back on at the end #bc theyre so FUCKING cute #'have i impressed you yet? :)' #'you cant impress me anymore <3' #its adorable #the doctor trying so hard and yaz being like babe ive known you for 5 years the time for cool first impressions is Definitely over #which is like so much better bc the doctor is trying to catch up and start from the beignning as usual and yaz is like #'yeah i WAS impressed. like the first day. i just love you now' #like yaz has been impressed infatuated heartbroken frustrated and disappointed like. we're Well Past impressed hfgjkghj #and the doctor is like i can win her over!!! #its adorable. i want 5 big finish boxsets of this behaviour #or you know 3 of this 2 of bickering we can mix it up