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yoiku · 6 months

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Went to the vet with the little old man on monday and the vet emailed me the results from blood tests today. I was suspecting thyroid issues and she suspected the same after the check up. But it turns out he has liver inflammation/hepatitis. Starting antibiotics for at least few weeks, and from now on he'll be on special kibble+ supplement that support liver problems. He is still doing pretty well all things considered, and most importantly still has an appetite. This makes me hopeful for the chance of recovering from the worst of it. He is very thin, he could double his weight and still be in the normal range for male coons. But it's been really good that i've been able to get him atleast some weight in the last 6 months, because it's likely been on a steady decline for a very long time by now. (and mom hadn't noticed it at all, so who knows when it started) He did have a little murmur in the heart, and his left side and is a bit weaker than his right, but those are likely just old cat things. For his age he does have very good dental health though! That I am very happy about, because if something in pet healthcare is expensive as hell, it's dental surgeries... Eyes and ears were all good too. And the vet was absolutely lovely and did such a comprehensive check up, it was actually much more than I thought it would be for the price I paid.

The new diet means the price of cat food pretty much quadrupled for me, just like that. That is something I could manage to pinch from my welfare, but it does put a pretty big money stress loop into my head. And well, I need to take him for a control visit after maybe 1-2months on the new diet, to see if the blood test results have improved. That's gonna be another 300€ moneysink. and THAT is an amount I don't have lmao. So expect some comm slots opening in the next few months. I'm still planning on taking this month easy though, I need the battery charge xux

I have an important doctor visit for myself tomorrow and all of my thoughts are just in... cat health instead. Agh. Will have to try and write down a list of things I need to remember to bring up.

#shut up yoi #having a senior pet is fun eh #he's lucky i love and care about him more than money

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shop-cailey · 9 months

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MIAMI - DEADLY - HURRICANE

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AM - PLACING - TOPPER - 2 IN

THEN - ADDING - BAMBOO YES

BEDSHEET - ABOVE - THUS

GREGORY - HAITI - WEIRDO

1 - CAR - STOPPED - 4 - HIM

ALONE - GAVE - HIM - FOOD

ONLY - LATE - AT - NIGHT HE

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HORDERS - LUNCH TIME HE

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EVERYONE - HUNGRY - HE

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ohimesama · 1 year

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11.26.22 Saturday

7:32 pm

10th day of us here being in the dark meaning we don't have electric angels... I'm just here in my neighbor's house named Ely, asking a favour for 10 days now and decided to do a journal now and drinking coffee here in their place.... I brought my own coffee but the hot water came from them here... Downloading movies and charging for 10 days....Surviving coz of watching movies...

Oh! God,I don't know how to start this cheap issues here...

Well,10 days taught me some things in life. Knowing people and learning their deep inside... Asking help is not bad at all coz we are all child of God connected with religious heart but the question is, if they are religious enough or bunches of people who are just making a black agenda on someone...

Yeah! Our electric is cut and this is major serious problem... The people who I thought will be a good friend for awhile,in times of defeat such as these days... People I figured out that are only fake care on me just want to know something about me...

Well, Uncle DD is such a weird uncle as well as Uncle Jun... We are facing money crisis...

We are on tight budgeting... I met Ate Lizah the carinderia'Z outside our house, I thought she understood everything my words from the start but I was kinda doubting... It wasn't really my thing to introduce myself coz of our present situation.

Making friends now,sometimes I want them to know and like me as me....Not asking me about everything about me and my family...

So, I wasn't able to pay in full my credit now in carinderia'Z coz I had other creditz on store and the other carnderia'Z.

But I told and asked Ate Lizah if she can assist me until next year coz will get a job soon and yeah! I need to work and I need money... She said yeah! Well, I know creditz should be paid by the borrower,like in my case... She said yeah! I will assist you. It was really something serious... She knew our electric was cut since 17th of this month.... I remember her weird smiled at me but she commented that "it is normal Peachy, don't take life seriously it happens, don't think of any negative thoughts".

The issue about Uncle DD,this is an old story that he is handling the fundings....Well, I just need a witness coz sometimes he will give this negative scary reaction about budgeting here and feels weird...

Sometimes,Uncle DD couldn't understand the situation that he was 3 days delayed last week on giving their food allowance here and this week 4 days delayed supposed to be last Wednesday another food providence, so meaning everything is over-lapping...

Let's go back to Ateh Liza, she is always asking about my allowance or money or she will comment that Peachy you can pay for all of this using your allowance... I said on a serious tone I said Ate Lizah I need to get a job in a lil while... It looks like she is not believing on things that I'm telling her...

Then,the situation awhile ago... I was kinda irritated coz I wasn't expecting that reaction on someone who I thought who is willing to assist me coz we talked about it and for me it was a serious talk though I was kinda laughing. But I always tell her,I'm serious ate Lizah...

Ate Lizah said I can't let you get food now coz Sunday-Monday is her off... I gave her down payment of the entire amount. I was just shocked that oh! meaning she didn't care at all if we eat or not... Gets?

My point is we talked about assisting me... Coz I know when people are poor, there is a group in the society that helping each other until you can or until you can get a job...

Not saying that I'm a good example or I'm perfect... This is a lesson learned that I need to get a job soon... Having a bread and butter is important to have...

About Uncle Jun well according to him his salary can't help us now... It is just really small...

My point it is difficult to find people who can truly be true to their words and difficult to find people who are fully mature on viewing life...

It is difficult to find people who can truly help you having a genuine heart....

I hope Ate Lizah is not part of any cult of ManaloZ.... It just feels weird at the beginning...

A bit funny thing... To update you angels, on the 2nd day of us without electric here... 2nd birthday of my bebeh John... I made him Pesto...

Is this my punishment crowning Prince of Dubai?

To be continued...

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raspberrykraken · 2 years

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If Deadpool was in a She-Hulk crossover episode

Like all my weird ideas they always come in the dead of night fever dreams that make no sense until I try putting them to paper. Then decide it's also a good idea to post on the internet.

Anyway

Jennifer wakes up on her couch from watching tv late at night and Deadpool is sitting in her chair cracking open a rooter.

"Oh hey Sunshine, want to fight in a kumite?" He asks, lifting his mask above his chin to take a sip.

"How did you get in here?" She said, rubbing her eyes.

"This phantom lock picking set. It's a hobby that's really taking off." He said putting zipped up pouch on the coffee table.

Jennifer gets up off the couch and goes into the bathroom shutting the door. She uses it, washes her hands, washes her face. Hearing the tv turn up in volume and channels being flipped through the door before settling on wrestling.

She leaves the bathroom, goes into her kitchen seeing a swathe of food left out on her stove and counter. She grabs some pieces of pizza and a chicken leg putting them onto a paper plate.

"You paid?" She asked sitting on her couch.

"It would be rude not to. You tipped." He said, spreading himself out more comfortable. He makes noises with the wrestling on screen.

She eats, watching the wrestling as well. Studying some of the moves.

"Here you go bestie." He said sliding over and unopened can of ginger ale to her.

"Why a kumite?" She said wiping some sauce off her mouth.

"Investigating the underground fighting rings. Looking for someone specific. Sparky." He said, burped but put the empty can onto the coffee table.

"Unless you're sharing the money then no." She said putting her now empty plate on the coffee table.

"Its not about the money. It's a message. He signed me up for all kinds of subscriptions and loot boxes. I didn't realize the Paleton bike wasn't a gift." He said sadly.

"Well we can file civil court claim and work with the companies to reverse the charges." She said typing on her phone.

"No no no no, its about sending a message. I already canceled most of these things. I got new cards." He said fanning out his wallet.

"Then pay me so you'll be my client and we'll handle this in my office." She said sipping her pop.

"Or I pay you and we go have girls night out." He said, flashing a huge wedge of cash.

"I'm not feeling up for it." She said, picking up the trash and goes into the kitchen throwing it away and looks into her freezer for ice cream.

"Oh come on, we can have so much fun in this crossover episode." He said, standing in the doorway.

"Unless your paying for everything, no alcohol. I'm not responsible for what happens but Monday we will file our motions. Sparky get to be alive but not too bloody." She said disappointed in not finding anything she wanted.

"Or we have a wonderful time going head to head with some of the worlds strongest, even some who are from the multiverse! How cool is that?" He said, pushing the freeze door close and making goggly eyes.

"Buy me ice cream." She said, goes into her bedroom to change into something more comfortable to go out in.

He was waiting by the front door with the tv turned off.

"Milady." He said opening the door for her and they headed out for shenanigans.

#Marvel #She-Hulk #Deadpool #crossover #fever dream

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nblmnblnb · 2 years

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wednesday, june 22, 2022

i'm broke as fuck and cannot afford to buy microsoft word since my subscription finally expired, so i'm left making journal entries either here or on google docs. nobody follows this blog and i assume nobody reads it, so it's probably fine to just do it here. if you're reading this...idk, why would you?

i finally Finally found a way to get medication. i'm supposedly now being subscribed venlafaxine, which is the anti-anxiety medication i took most recently that seemed to work the best, through an online website thing that's actually advertised on tumblr, which is highly embarrassing. it's supposed to be delivered next week, and it's probably going to take 4-6 weeks to start working, which sucks, but it is what it is. i'm just trying to hold on and not quit my job out of despair in the meantime. i'm currently sitting at home because atlas was exposed to someone with covid and i'm Technically showing symptoms (ie allergies in this rapidly changing spring/summer weather) and i still haven't gotten my pcr results back. i just hope to god i'm getting paid for this because i have seventeen entire dollars in my checking account and zero in my savings and all my money is on my credit card, which is terrifying and upsetting.

however, the bright side is that everything is paid for this month, and i was planning on putting july's rent on my credit card and immediately paying off my portion because i owe atlas almost $900 for my starter. i get paid this friday and i worked almost exactly 40 hours last week, so it should be a good paycheck. i also get paid again on the 1st, so between those two, i should be able to cover rent and everything that comes out at the beginning of the month, which is most of my monthly expenses. i wrote everything out for my remaining paychecks, and i can probably find a way to make my student loan payment due halfway through the month instead of at the beginning so i'm not always paying it late. they haven't charged me late fees yet but i'm worried they may if i continue to pay it late.

i'm floating the idea of working at fedex part time, like two days a week, and bartending or serving at a higher-end restaurant (where i can make $30-40/hour) on friday and saturday nights. this way, i can probably work only 4 days a week with fewer hours, and while it will be a weird schedule, i can work to make it consistent week to week. my paychecks will also be relatively consistent, and i can write during weird hours when the mood strikes me. i don't think i'm a monday through friday, 9 to 5 kind of person, and trying to make myself that way is making me miserable. my job is labor intensive, and it's just plain difficult for me to do 40 hours a week (closer to 60 with an hour total commute every day and unpaid breaks i'm required to take). it's making me deeply unhappy, and i'm just not going to continue to be able to carry on like this for very much longer.

however, i have zero bartending experience (though i do have years of restaurant and food-handling experience) and i'm wondering if it would be a struggle to break in to the industry (in a place where the stress would be worth the pay). i have to make at least $30/hour with tips (before taxes) and preferably closer to $40/hour to make the whole thing worth it, and none of that is guaranteed. i don't even know what the base pay is (though seattle minimum wage is above $17/hour and i think king county is above $16). i think i have to obtain some sort of certification, and since i'm not much of a drinker and don't know popular drinks, there's a lot of learning i'd have to sit down and do. it would also be a heavily customer service-oriented job, and i would likely have to put up with people i don't really want to deal with. my goal is to be at a gay bar, but i imagine those are more in-demand and harder to just get a job at with no actual bartending experience. being at a loud bar surrounded by loud, drunk straight people sounds terrifying, and that's not even to mention, you know, the pandemic.

i just really don't know. i know i can't keep working full-time at fedex forever. i also feel like it's pointless to make the effort of trying to get some sort of planning job. i just feel like i'm going to be become burned out and overwhelmed no matter what i'm doing if i'm trying to do it 40 hours a week. if it was an office/desk job or work from home job, then maybe i could because i could spend some time dicking around, but those either pay $18/hour for grunt work or you need a degree or experience i don't have, and there doesn't seem to be any meaningful in-between area. i literally cannot make less than $25/hour for 40 hours work, and i really, honestly need to work around 30 hours a week for my mental health, and no more than 35. i think working a full, difficult week last week is what literally made me feel sick this week. my body and brain have literally had enough. i pretty much constantly have headaches, i struggle to stay awake almost all the time, my stomach and digestive tract and are almost always upset, and stress and anxiety are taking a toll on almost all parts of my body. i'm literally going to have a heart attack before i'm, like, 32 at this rate.

my dad's voice in my head is telling me that i'm not doing enough, that i need to just "deal with it", but i have to push it out. i have to remind myself that i'm not like him, and i don't have to do what he says. he's quite literally on the other side of the continent, and he can get mad and stay mad about my choices for all that i care. i transitioned and did everything else without his approval, and i can do this too. i know who i am, and i know what i am and am not capable of. it's okay that i'm not like other people. i don't have to be anything other than who i am, even if it's an anxious, sensitive, autistic, "different" person. this world is not built for people like me, and i can (and should) modify it to fit my needs. a monday-friday "normal" workweek is just not for me, and i need to stop trying to force myself to do it. i had to quit the bank after a year and a half (and multiple panic attacks) and i'm probably going to have to quit fedex after 13 months of doing it again. i just can't, and that's okay. i can figure something out. getting on medication and clearing my head a little will allow me to figure things out too, i hope.

i need to try to think about good things. we're going to the seattle pride parade this weekend, and paddleboarding out near north bend. we're also planning a road trip to utah to go to moab, canyonlands, and arches in september. i need to think about the good things that are happening and not the bad. i can figure this situation out. i really did genuinely enjoy working at restaurants, and as long as i'm not doing it all the time, i think it would be manageable (same thing for working for fedex). i can also look into transferring to the renton/kent fedex station so i a) have a shorter commute, and b) can potentially become a swing driver and make $2-3/hour more, since i already don't know the area very well. i could work an 8-10 hour shift monday and tuesday or whatever combination of days they need me. i can probably check on the fedex portal and see if they're hiring part-time swing drivers and/or ask managers about transferring. i could just mention that i moved and also that i have another part time job lined up.

i know that i can make something happen here, and figure things out for myself so that i'm not painfully broke and unhappy. i need to use the things i've learned about myself to move forward, instead of trying to force myself into being someone that i'm not. switching jobs will also give me the opportunity to meet new people, people that i have more in common with and could potentially become friends with, which is another huge problem. working mostly alone sounds great until i don't actually get to meet anyone and then feel awkward around my coworkers constantly and never talk to anyone.

i want to, and i Need to, make a better life for myself.

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the-yearning-astronaut · 2 years

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Currently feeling anxious and very on edge and I was going to say idk why but I actually very much do know why I just don't know what to do about any of it.

Under the cut because there's a lot and I don't want to big down anyone's dash....

I'm in a sort of limbo right now. School has finished. It's been my literal driving force and my primary routine for three years. That routine and security is now completely gone.

I have an awkward 2.5 weeks between finals ending and my internship starting. That is both too much time (I'm doing too much overthinking and dwelling) and not enough time (I have so much to do and pack and idek where to start).

I don't know what to pack and no one seems to be able to get me a clear idea of what I should bring. I know I need to pack for essentially three different seasons because the temps can have a 40°F difference between night and day. Gotta love the desert. I know I need bedding and towels and basic kitchenware. But that's it. Do I need hangers for a closet or do I only have a dresser? Do I need a bath mat or shower curtain or is the place I'm staying basically fully furnished? There are no TVs -- is taking my own too excessive? What about taking my playstation? My houseplants? How much space in the kitchen will I have to store food in? Why does no one else seem to have these questions and why are they ok with just... Packing a few things and moving somewhere for 3 months?

Also I'm supposed to have been paid my first lump sum last Monday so that I actually had money to get the food and supplies and gas I'll need to get down there but ofc someone in HR or wherever fucked up and I haven't received a payment and no one seems to know where the money is coming from or who's in charge of making sure I get it.

Idk how to handle disability disclosure. My disabilities have the potential of putting my safety at risk -- especially considering where I'll be -- so for safety reasons alone I feel I should mention POTS at least. But the entirely new routines, new people, new location, new everything is.... That's gonna really mess me up for a while or will at least be a recurring issue through the duration of the program. I feel that I can count on at least few meltdowns. I'll be at high elevation, outside, in the desert. My medications make me more sensitive to UV rays than my pasty skin already makes me. I burn really easy, really quick regardless of whether I remembered sunscreen or not. And I have NO idea how to bring up the issue of fibro flare ups. Like hi yes I know I have a full schedule today but I'm gonna have to either limit my hours or not participate at all because I'm currently in bed experiencing full body pain and I can't think clearly atm. No idk if I'll feel better in 4 hrs or 4 days. And ofc high stress and anxiety situations are triggers for flare ups so it's basically a vicious cycle.

I'm scared because I really really want this. I've been wanting this internship for a full f-ing year and it's doing exactly what I want to do in one of my absolute favorite places and it's going to open doors to other jobs but. I'm so worried I'm gonna f-it up. That I'm gonna have to quit early with my tail tucked between my legs and I KNOW sometimes you have to stop and acknowledge that some things just aren't possible and it's not your fault but I've already done that again and again and I don't know what else I'd do with my life if not this. I can't keep living at home but I can't move out unless I have a full-time job and even the I probably can't afford rent anyway and I don't have friends I can move in with.

I'm so tired and overwhelmed and I feel like I can't turn to my mom for help because she's working two jobs and is already providing emotional support to her sister as she works through the death of my uncle. My bro is working two jobs and has far too much of his own BS to worry about and I definitely can't count on my dad for anything.

I'm just. Really at a loss rn and after that fiasco of a semester I don't have the emotional energy to deal with any of it.

#fox thoughts #tbd #actually autistic #disability #fibromyalgia #chronic pain #adulting #summer internship #POTS #dont mind me just having a panic spiral as i lose every routine ive had for the last three years #overwhelmed #suggestions would be welcome if anyone has any #just gonna go... eat one of my safe foods and turn on Leviathan Wakes while repotting some of my plants

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miazeklos · 3 years

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Some days the only progress you can really make is not moving backwards and I feel like I've got to accept that before trying to take steps forward again.

#cw for everything ever in the tags #as I vent #it was my father's name day and he invited me over for dinner #which was nice because no one else in my home manages to be a functional adult #so I'm in charge of the food but will get paid on Monday so the food situation is currently... dire #and it was nice to eat something not questionable #a n y w a y s #what I did eat was a bowl of nettle soup #and I was full so he gave me the rest of my meal for back home #but like... I don't usually eat... meals #like it's a bite here and a bite there but eating a whole bowl/plate of a thing is a no-no #and I guess it triggered some sort of muscle memory when I went home and took a shower because it's a familiar scenario #it's a holiday -> I eat more than usual -> I'm in the bathroom -> some Interesting Impulses occur #had to stand there and talk myself out of doing some stupid shit for a good few minutes #ended up just crying in the shower for a hot second which is also pathetic but hey it's not a relapse?#I would've been pissed if I'd done that because I have been historically pissed about it every time it's happened #but for a moment it's so so tempting #and so difficult to overcome #and I'm so glad I did #reminder to self #for the worse days #text

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disease-danger-darkness-silence · 2 years

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Content warning: homelessness, disability, poverty, the usual from your friendly neighborhood screw-up: AN UPDATE, PART TWO

This is an update to this post.

Links ahead of time:

Ko-Fi | PayPal.Me | Needs Wishlist | Car Wishlist | New Place Wishlist

As always, PayPal and cashapp are both tashabot. If it says Nova, Cat-Thulu, or has a delivery address where my name starts with an N and the zip code is 89701, that's all me.

We were supposed to sign a lease on a shitty refurbished motel room today but 1. They wanted to charge pet rent on assistance animals, and 2. They wouldn't let us have one of the rooms with an apartment-sized fridge because those rooms aren't pet-friendly, so we're back to me not being sure of what the fuck to do. I need to be able to grocery shop and prepare food because I'm fucking diabetic.

So my Toyota, the better of my two cars that I wanted to get fixed, got repossessed yesterday (March 17 - luck of the Irish, my ass). That means any of the things I needed in relation to it are gone, but it also means that I have to pay more in gas, and that I need to fix the Kia up hardcore because it's not an option anymore. I also need to drive to Sparks (~45 minutes away or so) on Monday to get my stuff out of the Toyota car, because I wasn't sure where my keys to the car were while it was being towed. And while I've paid a few things, new things have come up.

Total raised as of today: $538/$2797

Below the cut is an updated list of stuff.

A LOT OF THIS IS STRAIGHT-UP COPY-PASTED FROM THE OTHER POST.

First is that I need to re-home Kono. I've been crying about it for a few days, but it's just not fair to confine her to 250 or less sqft with Emily, who picks on her. Emily is Raven's therapy cat, and she does wonders for their mental health, but she picks on Kono something fierce. So I need to figure that out, on TOP of everything else. If I'm short on updates, this is why.

Most of the physical stuff needed can be found on the wishlists. We get SNAP benefits, so we have food covered, although I will NOT turn down unused fast food or pizza place gift cards. Also useful would be gift cards to auto parts places and tire places, or really any other gift card.

Car stuff: $50ish, depending on taxes/shipping. It’s the first three things listed on the Car Stuff wishlist.

Car insurance: I paid the late balance, but now I owe this month's. I haven't called Geico yet to remove the Toyota from my insurance, but as of now, that's, $73.

Phone Bill: I now have two months of bills because of a SNAFU, but I was able to work out a payment arrangement. The downside is that now it's for two months' worth of bills. This means I have to pay $345 on March 29th, and $345 on April 12th. Total: $690. I need to get caught up with T-Mobile so I can take one of the lines off of my plan when I move.

Title Loan: I now only have the one title loan to worry about. It's a much more reasonable amount. The next payment is $129 and it's due on April 4th. It's $395 to pay off in full.

Storage: Because we’re going to be in such a wiggly situation, my mom has agreed to let us store some of our stuff at her house, stuff I can’t or won’t get rid of (my dad’s notes and journals, my books, baking stuff, things like that), but it’ll be stored outdoors. This means I need weatherproof totes now, as well as the regular ones. I found a four-pack, and I’ll need around eight of them. They’re on the needs wishlist going for $130 a four-pack. I also found an 8-pack of the regular kind for $71. Total for totes: roughly $220 with tax.

Cat carriers: $100. If I re-home Kono I want to include a cat carrier.

U-haul: (And dump runs on the days leading up to move -we’re getting rid of a lot of stuff too. Also gas. I’m probably underestimating, fuck.) $300, including deposit.

Cat food: $25.

Cat litter: $35. We recently discovered that clay and crystal litter hurts two of our three cats’ feet and are looking to switch to a corn-cob based litter, and it’s a little pricy, but they’re legit ESA’s. They take care of us, so it’s up to us to take care of them.

Allergy meds: $9. Still need these.

Gas: Recently shot up in price to $5 a gallon so probably $200ish. Hasn't changed.

Sundries: ~$150. Raven and I both desperately need underwear and we are running out of toiletries and toilet paper.

Cigarettes: $150.

The unimportant thing on this list is still a computer. I had listed a Chromebook before I realized we may very well be traveling around a lot and I won’t be able to rely on my giant desktop computer. I need a Windows laptop in order to do freelance work (graphics, video, sound, writing, etc.) and reliably try to find jobs. The cheapest one with a screen I can reliably see (and a hard drive that isn’t laughably tiny) at my local Walmart is this one. Trying to find something equal on Amazon is frickin’ impossible so I’m left allocating roughly $400 for a new laptop. This is literally last on my list of shit I need, but it’s still important.

If you’ve made it this far, thank you so much. I appreciate you, regardless of what your situation is and whether you can financially help out. Please consider signal boosting here and on other platforms - I could use the help.

#poverty #financial insecurity #homelessness #fundraising #donations

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nina-skamfan-16 · 2 years

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On a warm winter night, Sander and Robbe were making popcorn and making coffee to watch a movie from the 90s, which Sander loves so much, Robbe was adjusting the sofa so that the two of them could be as comfortable as possible, and Sander was watching from far from the kitchen to his dear angel with a bright smile, and while he looked at him he thought: how can this world have a being as beautiful as the light of the moon ", and after being immersed in that thought, robbe He called him asking if everything was ready and Sander replied: yes, honey, I immediately took him to the sofa table, and well when Sander took the things to eat and drink to the sofa table, and finally they both sat down and both sat down. they approached each other to eat together while they watched the beginning of the movie, and well from eating so much, constantly looking at each other and smiling at each other and giving each other tender kisses on the cheek and lips, and finally if they paid attention to the movie ula was very minimal, because both were immersed in their world, immersed rather in the two of them, in their love so deep and beautiful that they didn't even need words to be able to tell each other, and finally both fell asleep in each other's arms.

When the morning peeked into their faces with that sun that shone brighter than ever, robbe was the first to open his eyes, and yawned a little, and looked at sander who still kept his eyes closed and robbe couldn't help but smile at that boy who stole her heart, that boy she met on that trip to the beach and who is now in her life, in her eyes every time she looks at him, in her thoughts in everything really, and then sander feels a look on him , and he smiles and then walks over to robbe to kiss him, and robbe ends up saying: "it seems that I have to look more often to be able to receive

a kiss from those lips that I love", and sander just laughs a little and kisses him again, it starts with a slow kiss and then turns into a passionate kiss where robbe places his hands on his cheeks and sander grabs his hip her boyfriend to bring him closer to him, after that they both get up from the sofa and go to the room and continue their kiss and their mutual caresses that had briefly paused a bit, and both proceeded to be a little more passionate than it was the moment, and both ended their morning full of kisses, we love you very much, I love you very much, many mutual hugs, both giving each other food during breakfast or rather what was left of the morning breakfast day, and robbe miro ña time on his cell phone and realized that he was almost running late to enter the university he had almost forgotten that it was Monday and proceeded to tell Sander who was giving him kisses everywhere from his face to his neck.

"Sander love, I have to get dressed so I can go to university before it gets late and Sander told him: love it's Monday and besides you're just starting the week one day less than going is nothing apart you can borrow notes and homework from yasmina, and robbe told him: no, sander, i'm not going to keep thinking about it apart, i have to be responsible, so, dear mr. he got up completely, and robbe told him: love seriously, i have to go and sander takes him completely by returning him to bed and robbe laughed at his boyfriend's action, and sander says: love come on, just this day and nothing more, is that I want to have you just for me this day, apart from today I have work off since my boss got sick and is going to take this day to recover and so, robbe told him: love just for today and tomorrow yes or yes i go to my classes and i will ask yasmina and zoe for the notes since they are the only ones in charge that i have in my class, and sander celebrated his emotion with a more than passionate kiss, and said: "you don't know how happy you make me my love" and robbe He replied: "I have no doubt, love, I love you so much, honey", and Sander finally replies: "I also love you so much, my angel" and that's how they ended their morning full of kisses and endless caresses.

The afternoon came and robbe was writing his notes in his notebooks, and sander was painting and taking pictures of robbe and robbe noticed and said: "love what are you doing, while playfully removing his boyfriend's camera from his face and sander told him: i'm taking pictures of the most beautiful and favorite man and person in this world for me, and robbe said: "oh my god sander why do you have to be so corny and sander said: you love this corny that is all yours , and robbe told him I'm all yours too forever love, and they both kissed, robbe surrounded sander with his arms and sander brought him closer to him and so both soulmates will always continue to love each other.

💫- I hope you guys like it

#sobbe #sander #robbe #robbe ijzermans #sander driesen #soulmates #loveislove

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f4irymxri · 3 years

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- 𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘢𝘬𝘢 𝘹 𝘣𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘧𝘦𝘮! 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳

chapter 11

Y/N

Today I was supposed to make a shit ton of desserts for my bake sale and Jemila was helping me out. I put her in charge of making the cookies and cherry cheesecakes and she went over to Kageyama's house with the supplies so that it could be done faster. Tanaka was knocked out in my room while I made the cake and donuts. I was mixing the cake batter in a pan while the donuts were frying. I had some music playing in the background as I hummed to the tunes.

I was about to add the cake mixture into the pan when I felt someone's arms being wrapped around my waist. "Good morning," a hoarse voice whispered in my ear. "Good morning," I smiled. I turned around and saw Tanaka shirtless, with his volleyball shorts on. Damn... "You need help?" he said. "Yea, but put a shirt on and go wash your hands, please," I said, scraping the batter out of the glass bowl. "Yes, ma'am," he said, walking back to my room. I placed the cake pans in the oven and started making more dough for the donuts.

Tanaka came back to the kitchen, and I explained to him what he could do. I taught him how to roll the dough and use the cookie cutter. After a couple of minutes, he was actually doing pretty well and things were going by much quicker. We spent the next two hours making donuts and cakes and when we were finished, the kitchen was an absolute mess. We were both covered in flour and food coloring. I dusted the flour off Tanaka's face and he dusted the flour off mine.

Kageyama and Jemila came back with all the desserts and everyone helped me load them into the trunk. After we got all the food in the trunk, I went to take a quick shower. I put all my flour-covered clothes in the hamper and got in the shower. I did my business and did a little extra so I would smell nicer. I put on my lotion and my clothes and went to the kitchen. Everyone else was still getting dressed and I was looking for the cat food so I could feed Almond. Then the doorbell rung. I put Almond's bowl on the floor and went to open it.

I swung it open and there were 2 girls standing at the door. One of them had frizzy black hair in two ponytails and had on this cute pink sanriocore themed dress. The other girl had a light grey lace front and she was wearing a grey top with matching baggy pants. She had a small chain across her nose and she had an industrial piercing. "Are you Y/N?" the girl with the grey hair said. "Yes...?" I said, confused. "Oh, we're your new business partners," she said. At first, I was confused then it hit me. "OH. Are you guys Amie and Angelique?" I asked them.

They both nodded and smiled. "Oh you're supposed to show me where the bakery is right?" I said. "Yea. Koharu told us to come here," the girl with the pink dress said. "Okay wait, who's Amie and who's Angelique?" I said, shaking my hands. "I'm Amie and this is Angelique," the girl with the grey lace front said. "But you can call me Angie," she smiled. "Oh okay," I nodded my head. "Okay well let me get my stuff then we can go," I said. I ran back to my room and got my phone and my bag. "TANAKA," I yelled. He came into my room, dressed with his outfit suspiciously coordinating with mine. "Nigga- ok," I said.

"I'm about to go see the bakery, do you wanna come?" I said, tilting my head. "Nah. I'll stay here, when you come back, I'll take you out," he smirked. I nodded my head and smiled. "See ya later, my dude," I said. "Y/N, I'll kill you," he laughed. "Try it," I said, shutting the door before he could respond. I went outside and Amie and Angie led me to the bakery. Surprisingly, I had passed it a million times and hadn't even noticed. "THIS PLACE IS OURS?" I said. "Hell yea. Koharu did what she had to do," Angie said. "Damn," I said. The bakery was right next to Sakanoshita Market which meant I would probably be seeing Coach Ukai a lot more now.

The bakery was literally amazing. There was like a light blue theme and everything in the bakery was either painted or colored a pastel light blue. "But there's one problem," Amie said. "Which is?" I said, tilting my head. "We don't have a name," Angie said. "We'll come up with one. It'll come to us one way or another," I said. "Well, when do we start working?" Amie said. "Well, who's the boss here?" I said. "Technically, Koharu since she owns the place but without her presence, it would be me," Amie said. "Okay well I got a million desserts in my car," I said.

We then made a plan. Kageyama and Jemila were gonna pass out the fliers Tanaka made earlier around school that there's a new bakery in town. Then everyone from school will come down to try the new desserts. Then we asked Koharu to come down here to tell us all about the schedule, how things would work, etc. I learned a lot about Amie and Angie, including how they would be transferring to Karasuno High next week. Finally, some more black females.

We had just finished arranging all the desserts into the freezers and displays when we started getting a few customers. This first girl came in and she looked so much like someone I knew. She had short, blond hair, long eyelashes and she was wearing this black tank top. I couldn't put my finger on who she looked like but I just brushed it off. "My brother told me to come and check out this place. Could I get a cupcake please?'" she said, in an energetic voice. Brother? "Sure," I smiled and I gave her a red velvet cupcake in a light blue box. "Thanks, Y/N," she winked at me and left. Wait, how the hell does she know my name?

I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion as she left. Then in my head, I put the pieces together. Brother. Familiar face. Y/N. "Ain't no way I just met his sister," I said. I went on my phone and called Hinata. I waited for the line to ring and it clicked. "Hello?" his cheery voice said on the line. "Hey Shoyo, does Tanaka have a sister?" I said. "Yup. Saeko," he said. "Does she have short blond hair and long eyelashes?" I asked. "Yes...?" he said, most likely confused. "Okay thanks," I said. "Bye," he said and hung up the phone.

Koharu had made her way over to the bakery and helped us out. She told us we would be switching days meaning after school and on weekends, except for Saturdays. I would be working Mondays and Wednesdays after school, Angie got Tuesdays and Thursdays and Amie got Fridays and Sundays. Tanaka and Kageyama said they would help out whenever they could so for now, everything was inset. Tanaka picked me up from the bakery and I grabbed a red velvet cupcake for him. I exchanged socials with Amie and Angie and got in the car.

"Hi," I smiled. "Hey," he said. I handed him the cupcake and put on my seatbelt. He opened the box. He took a small whiff of the cupcake and his eyes instantly lit up. I laughed and he pulled out of the driveway. "So where are we going this time?" I said. "Fair," he smirked. I nodded my head and leaned back in my seat. I was looking out the window as I dozed off. Something about his car was so relaxing. Whether it was the pleasant aroma of sandalwood or Tanaka's presence itself.

I woke up when I felt my body being lifted. I opened my eyes to see Tanaka carrying me out of the car, bridal style. He put me down but my legs wobbled, causing me to almost fall on the ground. "Woah there," he said as he grabbed my love handles. He kissed my forehead and held me until I fully woke up and could stand on my own. "Thank you," I said, pecking his lips and grabbing my bag from the car. Tanaka took my hand and led me into the carnival. There were a lot of people around so I held onto his hand tightly.

We paid for our tickets and we started going around the park. Tanaka and I were both what you would call daredevils and we went on every single ride in the park. By the time we finished riding everyone, it was now dark out. "Wanna get some food?" He said. I nodded my head and we went to look for a booth. They didn't have any places that sold actual food so we just got a huge roll of cotton candy to share. Then this man came up to us and asked if he could take a picture of the both of us. At first, we were hesitant, but he showed us his Instagram page and he seemed legit. He had all this equipment and he got me and Tanaka into a pose.

Tanaka looked at me, holding the cotton candy as I looked down, taking a piece. The photographer took a couple of shots and showed us the pictures. They actually came out pretty good. He followed us both on Instagram and said he would share them with us. He also gave us his number in case we wanted pictures taken in the future. We thanked him and we continued with our trip. It was very dark outside and all you could see was a few lights here and there but the illuminating glow of the Ferris wheel stood out to me. "Let's go on the Ferris wheel," I said.

"A little cliche don't ya think," he said. "Oh shut up," I said and I took his hand and led us to the Ferris wheel. We got on and it started going around. As it went higher, I saw Tanaka fumbling with his fingers. "You okay?" I asked, taking his hand in mine. "Yea, I'm okay," he smiled. The Ferris wheel was going in circles at a slow pace and of course, as soon as we got to the top, it jammed. "We'll get it up and working in a minute, guys," someone yelled from the ground.

𝗢 𝗠 𝗡 𝗜 𝗦 𝗖 𝗜 𝗘 𝗡 𝗧

You sighed in distress and laid your head on Tanaka's shoulder. He wrapped his arm around you. The scenery was relaxing and tranquil so it wasn't all that bad. "Y/N," Tanaka called your name. You had closed your eyes and were half asleep. "Y/N, thank you so much for being my peace. I have no idea how I lived my life without you and in these past few weeks, you have truly been my everything. Thank you for that," he said. Tanaka kissed your forehead, not realizing that you had heard everything that he had said.

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Tanaka was now driving you back home and you were about to doze off until you got a notification on your phone. The photographer had sent you both the pictures he took earlier. You smiled at the picture and chose one. You posted the picture to your Instagram and dozed off.

#haikyuu x black reader #tanaka x reader #blackreader #blackyn

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riderdrauggrim · 4 years

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Day Unknown. Sat, Sep 26, 2020.

Nervous about randomly hiding in 4G Motorsports parking lot, I'm awake a few short hours later around 6:30. I have the tent packed by 8:30, and huddle beside the bike, waiting for staff.

9:00 rolls around and I approach the doors, making my way back to the Parts/Service desk. A young woman who's family shifts her between Alberta and Toronto seems thrilled to meet someone else from Ontario. We check if they have a replacement battery in stock. They do not. And their mechanics are not in on the weekends.

But!

There's a MAGNACHARGE Battery megaemporium RIGHT across the street!

Heartened my luck might be improving, I trot over.

Nope.

They're closed on weekends.

I trot back to 4G, on the way calling Riverside Honda in St. Albert, the blokes who'd changed my tires. They sold their last YTZ14S on Friday. BUT they'd ordered more and they should arrive at the start of this coming week.

I run over my problems with their parts guy. He suggests I remove the battery and try starting the bike with another random battery attached; That might be able to isolate if it is my battery or my starter system/charging stator/rectifier/words.

Sounds good.

Back at 4G I ask if they have a charger or a booster. The parts girl knows where a tender is, but not how to use it. It's okay, I do. They graciously let me push the bike inside their service bay so I can tinker on it, good thing too as it starts to drizzle outside.

So! My battery: Out and Charging.

My bike: New battery hooked up to test the ignition.

My key: In the ignition, turning to activate the bike-*Crack*.

One of the few flaws I've found with the NC750 design is the key is needed in a secondary lock. Turn one way to unlock the frunk (front trunk) where the gas tank USUALLY sits on a motorcycle. Turn the other way to unlock the latch securing the passenger seat, this allowing you to lift it up to reveal the gas cap to fill the tank, which sits under the rider. The problem with this lock is the key does not fully insert. It's about 3/4 depth to the ignition proper.

Over time, this has created something of a weak point on the key itself, occasionally twisting ever so slightly if too much pressure is applied, if the latches are sticky, or the frunk is overfull and a bit jammed. This was usually corrected by sticking the key in and turning it the other way, straightening the blade out again. For this trip, due to the tail luggage making lifting the passenger seat incredibly difficult at best, I had opted to outright remove the pillion cover, leaving the gas cap exposed for easy access. All I needed the secondary lock for was to get in and out of the frunk, which I was doing several times a day to fetch out Goose and Hat, or store drinks, or change power banks.

Perhaps it was this excess of one direction twisting that finally did the blade in.

Perhaps it was just six years of use and wear.

Perhaps life just wanted to take the difficulty level up a notch.

In any event.

I was left holding the top quarter of my key. The remainder still inside the ignition. Even if I can get a new battery, I can now no longer turn on the bike.

My coworker who helped fund this adventure texts me to see how things are going. I tell him my key just snapped in half. He says if I didn't have bad luck, I'd have no luck at all. We discuss options. I'm 3,505 km from home. I'm 427 km from the nearest Honda dealership. I just want to Abandon Quest and Hearthstone out of here, but that's not an option. So I work through various plans.

I call Riverside back and get the Service department. Nick remembers me. I fill him in on the last twelve hours. "Wow." Indeed. He puts me on hold and consults his coworkers. If I can get it there, they'll try and squeeze me in and get this sorted. Some people have good luck using super glue to get broken keys out and then jury rigged back together. With my luck, I'll make a mess and fuse the tumblers and need an entirely new ignition system. The key is also a newer blade style, not a normal tooth house lock key. It's supposed to be stronger, amusingly enough. But it's not the sort of thing local locksmiths should be able to replicate, it needs a Dealership. So even if I got a Fort McMurray locksmith to fish the main part out, if he can't make a new one, I still can't Go.

AND there's the pressing matter of the battery.

During all this my battery on the tender has completed charging. I restore it into the bike, or try to, as the damn nut in the contact for the red lead slips out of the holder and falls precisely through the ONE (1) hole at the bottom of the compartment and somewhere onto the engine block. I don't hear it hit the belly pan, and wedging my fingers into every nook, curve and cranny yields nothing but grimy hands.

I call CAA anew. I get the same woman as the night before, so that helped since she already knew the first part of this story. I now have Multiple Problems that can not be fixed locally. St. Albert is outside the Alberta tow range of 350km. But my membership is from Niagara, and I'm covered for 500km. She calls them to approve it. They say 'of course'. One hurdle down.

She contacts the tow company. New hurdle.

Due to the nine hour round-trip commute, they don't run every single broken vehicle south to Edmonton every time someone breaks down. They wait for multiple items, load them all on a long truck, and do a couple runs a week. So. Yes, they can get my bike to St. Albert. Eventuallllyyyyy.

I get it; from a logistics and efficiency and financial perspective it makes perfect sense.

From a "but... my bike..." and waiting for a nebulous amount of time in a hotel somewhere just for it to get TO the mechanics, nevermind the unknown timeframe of the shop having time to look at it, figure out what's wrong, order new parts if needed, and install them.... Hrrrggggnnnnn.

So EMI came with the short bed and picked up the bike from 4G. The logic being, now it's in their secure compound, ready to go, and when they have a load ready, they'll shove it on and take it south for me. Solid.

How do -I- get back to Edmonton.

Well, there's several buses that run the corridor, presumably for the mine workers to get up and back around their shift days. Awesome!

Oh but they don't run again until Monday. Less awesome!

But what can you do.

My bike won't leave until monday at the /earliest/ anyway, so me being there any sooner really makes no difference.

I book a ticket - cheap at 65$! For a nearly five hour trip? I paid 85$ plus tip for the 20 minute taxi ride from Supertest Hill to Fort McMurray the night prior.

Leaving Monday at 8:30am, arrive near downtown Edmonton. Found a hotel for 80$ within a block of Riverside Honda, not as cheap as my beloved Whitemud, but Whitemud Inn being at the south center of the Edmonton bubble, I'd be paying more than the 15$ a night difference in a cab to get up to St. Albert region. So I'll be right nearby the bike if we can get it going, or I need something from my bags.

In the meantime.

I found an RV campsite literally next door to the bus stop. I called the owner and explained my experiances, and my need for somewhere to simply hide in a tent until Monday morning. Sure, I could try and hide -anywhere-, but for my own safety, and nerves, if I can do this cheap and legal, the better for it. She says she can help me out. She offers a site for a price considerably cheaper than the nearby hotels, which I of course agree to. It's a twenty minute walk from 4G, made longer by hauling two drybags of tent/sleeping bag and essentials, and a third partial of food. Plus wearing my gear. And being somewhat small and scrawny. I take several rests. I drink my Gatorades. I make it. She has the sweetest tabby cat with white socks, no tail, and the SOFTEST fur. Name 'Trouble'. Awwww.

Transaction complete, I set up my tent, kindly serenaded by a curious magpie.

I hear a nearby RV owner pull up, truck doors closing, and then I see a giant white monster making a beeline straight for me. My best guess would be Lab/Samoyed. The head was very much the rectangle block and jowls of a lab, but the pelt was definitely a living cloud. It gives an very quick sniff at my tent, and promptly accepts me petting it. I realize I've been pet-starved during my journey. All my stress is put on pause as I scruffle the heck out of this random dog's sides. In fact, twice I tried to move one hand to teach for my phone for a photo, and he turned in annoyance to see why I'd partially stopped. I hear a woman calling, and ask if he needs to go. He makes no move. In fact he tries to push backwards closer. On a whim, I drop to my rear and make a bowl with my legs. He promptly fills said bowl with his rump. Me on my butt and him on his haunches, I came up to his shoulders.

Good dog.

A woman shouts again, more insistent. I give him a bump with my leg. He resigns himself to getting up and heading home. I realize the owner can't see us, so I pop up and apologize for stealing her dog. She realizes he hadn't just ran off for no reason, and laughs, saying he loves people. Yes, I had learned this.

I needed that.

There's a valley beside the camp ground.

The trees are spent matchsticks, grey and charred and empty against the sky. New growth slowly fills in around the dead wood. I don't know if this is a remainder of the BIG fire of 2016, or another more recent event. It's a staggering amount of devastation, and only a small fragment of the damage done.

The clouds out here... I love skyscapes.

Beautiful.

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shop-cailey · 1 year

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She's back IV

Characters: Exo, Red Velvet, Y/N

Pairing: Y/N x Baekhyun?

Genre: Fluff/Angst

Warnings: none yet.

It was your boyfriend calling, so you got up and told Baekhyun you'd be back. “Hey babe”, you answered your phone as you walked away. Baekhyun just sat there in shock seeing you walk away as you happily spoke to another man, who apparently was your boyfriend. He didn't know how to react because he thought you were single. He felt his heart become heavy and couldn't believe someone else had what he has been wishing was his since the day he met you. You kept your phone call short and returned to the bench where Baekhyun was sitting quietly, as he stared off into the sky. “Hey”, you said to get his attention and he turned to look at you with a sad expression. “What's wrong Baekhyun?”, you asked with concern. “Nothing, I'm just tired”, he replied with a small smile. “It is getting late”, you said as you looked around for Mongryong. Baekhyun got up as he called out for Mong and he ran up to both of you immediately. “Come here boy”, you cooed and picked him up. “Let's go”, Baekhyun said.

The walk back to the apartment was quiet and once you were in front of your door, you handed Mongryong back to Baekhyun. “Thank you for joining us”, Baekhyun said as he held onto a whining Mongryong. “He really likes you”, Baekhyun chuckled. “No problem I really like him too and I enjoyed spending time with Mongryong and you”, you responded with a smile. Mongryong kept whining and trying to get your attention, so you petted his head while saying, “Mongryong baby, I'll see you around, don't cry”. You stopped petting Mong and Baekhyun continued to pet him. "Goodnight Y/N, sleep well”, Baekhyun said. “Goodnight Baekhyun and Mongryong”, you replied with a smile and went inside your apartment.

Baekhyun's POV

I walked into my apartment and put Mongryong down, but he stood at the entrance with me and stared at the door. I just can't believe that Kyungsoo said she was single, but she isn't. No actually I can't believe that I thought she would still be single. I mean she's beautiful, smart, nice, .. perfect...she's perfect! How could I think that any man would be dumb enough like me and not ask her out. “Ugh”, I said with frustration as I walked to my room with Mongryong following me and still whining. “Stop whining Mong, you'll see her another day”, I said as I layed down. “She may have a boyfriend, so I can't be with her, but she doesn't have her own dog Mong, you'll have her to yourself”, I told him as I got my phone to call Kyungsoo. “Did you know?”, I asked as soon as he answered.

End of Baekhyun's POV

Kyungsoo panicked when he saw Baekhyun calling, but answered anyways. “Hey, wha…”, Kyungsoo started, but Baekhyun interrupted him. “Did you know?”, he asked and Kyungsoo knew what he was talking about. “She barely told me today”, Kyungsoo replied. “Ok”, Baekhyun said. “Baek I..”. “No, it's fine, it's my fault”, Baekhyun interrupted. “I should have known, I mean why would she be single all this time… how long has it been?”, Baekhyun said. “It's been almost two years Baek… he's coming to Korea in a month..”, Kyungsoo responded with a sigh. “There's nothing I can do now… thanks Soo..”, Baekhyun sighed. “Baek..”, Soo said with concern. “Don't worry I'll be okay.. I have been for the past years.. I can do it.. I'll see you on Saturday at the party”, Baekhyun replied and ended the call.

The following days passed quite fast even if you mostly spent them at home watching TV because your job was going to start until Monday and your friends were busy with their jobs. You hadn't seen much of Baekhyun either, just a couple of hellos when you both went to check your mail or he was leaving to work you assumed. Luckily it was finally Saturday because you were dying of boredom and you honestly much rather have Joy forcing you out of bed to go shopping for a new outfit like she currently was. “Why do I need a new outfit?”, you groaned as she pushed you up off the bed. “Because I said so”, she replied with a big smile. “I guess”, you said as you walked into the restroom to take a shower. “Hurry up!”, she yelled. Once you were showered, you brushed your teeth, put your hair into a bun, applied light makeup and threw on some jeans and a tshirt. “Where are they doing the party at?”, you questioned Joy as you walked into the kitchen where she was stealing your strawberries. “Well, we were thinking that it should obviously be at the person's home, which is yours, but then Soo suggested that we do it at his restaurant instead”, she replied with her mouth full. “Ok, so were dressing fancy...and stop stealing my strawberries!”, you yelled.

As you both walked out of your apartment, Baekhyun was leaving also. “Hey Baekhyun”, Joy and you said at the same time. “Hey, where are you both going?”, Baekhyun asked as you three got into the elevator. “Shopping!!”, Joy cheered. “Good luck…”, Baekhyun replied with a laugh while looking at you. You pouted and mouthed a “help me” as Joy dragged you out of the elevator and towards your taxi. Baekhyun mouthed an “I'm sorry” and laughed, which made you glare at him for laughing at your misery. He winked at you and walked to his car. Once you were at the shopping center, Joy dragged you into so many stores that you lost count. Eventually after what felt like an eternity, you had both bought some nice dresses, a couple of accessories and new shoes, so you both walked over to the food court because you were starving due to skipping breakfast. “Shouldn't we help the guys with getting everything thing ready?”, you asked. “No, they'll kill me if I take you to the restaurant before it starts!”, Joy replied. “But..”, you whined. “But nothing Y/N, Soo is in charge of the food and the rest of the girls and guys are helping him prepare the other stuff”, she answered with a glare. “Fine, let's go to my apartment at least, so we can talk some more and get ready”, you replied. Soon it was time to leave and you were both ready, so Joy started taking pictures. “Stop”, you said as you put on your shoes. “Selca selca please”, she whined. "Later", you replied. “Fine....just be ready though because someone's going to have a heart attack when he sees you”, Joy teased. “What are you talking about?”, you questioned. “Oh nothing.. let's go”, she replied with a smirk as you both walked to the door. You both heard someone knock and saw Baekhyun standing at the door when you opened it. He stayed staring at you with his mouth slightly open as he looked at you from head to toe. You also didn't miss the chance to check him out from head to toe when you realized he was wearing a nice blue suit matching your dress. 'Hmm he looks really good.... wait what Y/N.. what's wrong with you?', you thought. “Yo, dude… hello?”, Joy said interrupting yours and Baekhyun's moment. "Ohh look you're both matching and her dress is from Privé", she added with a wink and smirk towards Baekhyun. You looked at Joy upon hearing the dress was from Baekhyun's clothing company with a surprised expression due to the fact that you hadn't even paid attention to the brand when she insisted that you had to buy it for tonight. “Wow…I mean Hey... I actually designed that dress myself, he replied with a big smile. "Really? it's very nice", you replied while blushing. 'Wait why am I blushing?', you thought. "I'm going to take you both to the party”, Baekhyun replied interrupting your thoughts as he shifted his eyes towards the elevator. “Okay... let's go then”, you replied with a small smile.

Once you were close to Baekhyun's car, Joy started walking faster while yelling, "Shotgun in the back!". "I'm pretty sure that's not how it works!", you yelled and laughed while looking at Baekhyun who was also laughing. Joy was already sitting in the back when you reached Baekhyun's car. He was about to open the door for you, but hesitated and made eye contact with you. "What? Is there something on my face", you immediately panicked. "No ... you just... you look beautiful", he said while looking into your eyes. You wanted to respond a thank you, but the words wouldn't come out and you were pretty sure your face looked like a tomato at the moment, so you turned to look at the door handle instead. He chuckled at how cute you looked while blushing and felt his heartbeat racing because he was the cause of it. You reached for the door handle, but Baekhyun beat you to it and opened the door. Once you were seated, he closed it and Joy started teasing you, "Why are so red, what did he say?". "Shut up", you said while rolling your eyes making her laugh. "Why are you laughing", Baekhyun asked Joy once he was in the car. "She's looks like a tomato", Joy said while laughing louder. "You're crazy", you immediately replied with a whine. "Joy stop..", Baekhyun said with a stern voice while trying to hide his smile, but you saw it. "Evil friends", you pouted. "Ok, ok I'll stop... let's go", she replied while trying to not laugh and failing.

This is what Y/N and Baekhyun are wearing:

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1 2 4 7 8 9 13 18 20 26 27 29 30 32 39 40 41 43/44 45 46 49 51 53 55 56 57 59 63 65 that is. so many dghsdghsdgv I'm sorry I just see an ask meme and go crazy aaaa go stupid aaaa. You can just answer whichever u like from those!! also 69(nice): you seem rly nice and funny from your 🅱️osts and I appreciate u... I hope you can find better irl friends who aren't trash

HDSKFJKS I completely understand but lucky for u I LOVE to talk !!

1) How are you?

Pretty good, actually!! Which is a nice change of pace. I went to Walmart with some friends yesterday and got a few things, baked a family recipe that my friends LOVE, and finally did my laundry (it’s been a couple weeks we love depression and executive dysfunction dfhkjsfd). I went to Cracker Barrel with some friends and earlier and played a 4-way game of Tetris after. :3c

2) Post a picture of yourself.

Here you go !!

4) What is your entire name?

Sierra Alexis and my last name is something constantly misspelled so I’ll give you the name of a historical figure whose name is a letter off from mine: George B. McClellan, to whom I may or may not be related because last name variations are fuckin’ WEIRD.

7) Your zodiac/horoscope and if you think it fits your personality.

I’m a Capricorn sun and moon, and Libra rising !! And from what I’ve read on Twitter from various astrologers, like Milkstrology, I LOVE her, I’d say it’s pretty accurate with my personality!! I like to say Capricorn’s aren’t cold bitches but, I Have A Tendency To Be One !!

8) What did you do on your last birthday?

God what DID I do on my last birthday… it was in January, so like, I SHOULD remember… OH I went to IHOP with my friends !! I share a birthday with another friend and I got a JoJo notebook and something called a Fuggler! They’re stuffed animals more or less but designed to be “ugly.” I got one that looks like Philadelphia Flyers mascot Gritty because I LOVE Gritty… he’s so fun and funky.

9) What is one thing you’d like to accomplish before your next birthday?

Get all my requests in my inbox over on my writing blog done KJHFDJKSF it’s been a few months and life has been. Hectic to say the least.

13) If you could change your eye color, would you?

There’s so much weird as hell brown-eye-phobia so like… I think blue eyes would be pretty neat. OR PURPLE… give me some unnatural eye colors pls...

18) Do you have any tattoos?

Not yet!! I’m going to get one the next time I go back home for break. :3c And I have a few ideas for other ones!! I wanna get a big-ass “Dragon Age: Origins” tattoo that’s the dragon on the cover on my thigh. I also wanna get a DA2 and “Inquisition” tattoo… and the Joestar birthmark… too many ideas…

20) Left or right handed?

Right-handed !! I could have been left-handed or ambidextrous if I broke my arm AFTER I started kindergarten, but alas that was before.

26) Something you are working on right now:

This !! But also the script for my next podcast episode that I record on uhhh Monday I think. Should probably figure that one out dsjfjhsf

27) Do you have any “rules” about food?

I answered that in the last ask !!

29) What would you say is your best quality?

I also answered this in the last ask !!

30) What do you think you’re really good at?

Writing, I’d say! And memorizing trivia about the stuff I’m super into. If it’s stuff pertaining to “M*A*S*H” or old movies or TV shows or actors or specific historical events, I will know that shit FOR LIFE. Don’t ask me to do math pls thank u

32) What talent do you wish you’d been born with?

I wish I was able to do stuff with music. That was never really in my blood, despite all the music classes they make you take in elementary school. I just never learned how to memorize or read sheet music. :/ I would have loved to play violin, tho… my friend plays and she says I would have been a good cellist.

39) Do you sleep with a stuffed toy?

YES… have for years. I still have my Care Bear from when I was 5, Gritty as mentioned above, a plush of my school’s mascot, and a little Fugo !! He’s so tiny.

40) What do you think about the most?

Everything and constantly and all at once. But the past really because I can never let stuff go and even the small things I mess up on haunt me forever… Wish that wasn’t the case but it is !!

41) Share two habits:

Biting my nails and having a very specific routine in which I get ready when I wake up. Like, I’ve gotta go brush my hair before I put my important cards in my left pocket, then put on my silver bracelet, then my beaded bracelet, then my earbuds in my right pocket, then put my earrings in. I HAVE to do it in that order…

And other oddities that include, like, if I need to go around something I HAVE to follow the urge to go one way and not the other, lest I feel the need to go back and fix it. And then which foot goes first before I reach a crack in the sidewalk, or up or down a curb, etc.

43) What are your career goals?

If I can just make people happy or get some kind of joy out of the things I do, I’d call that enough. :)

44) What is your ideal career?

Mmm, either a film historian or a film professor !! Preferably at the college I’m at right now but wherever the wind takes me, I’ll go! Or a Twitch streamer or YouTuber, it really depends on my mood jdhfjskf

45) Is your life anything like it was two years ago?

It was pretty much the same !! Freshman year was pretty lively, I didn’t have a job on campus yet though, or my podcast. Everything else is basically the same!

46) Do you replay things that have happened in your head?

CONSTANTLY… good or bad it’ll play back over and over and over again.

49) Do you have any phobias?

HOO BOY, DO I… fear of heights; fear of insects/bugs/arachnids/bees/wasps; I have a strong dislike of the number 13 but I don’t know if it’s a phobia, I just. REALLY hate it; the unknown, more or less what lurks somewhere beyond where I can see. Not so much a fear of the dark with that one, just what could BE in it.

51) Are you allergic to anything? If so, what?

I answered this in my last ask, as well!

53) Ever come close to death?

Two or three times, maybe? Two of them involved what’s called a laryngospasm, typically it can happen when your sick, which is what happened to me both times. Basically your throat just closes up on your for a hot minute and you can’t breathe. The first time I genuinely thought I was going to die (and my dad still sent me to school that day… HOE), the second time I was also sick and was losing/had lost my voice DURING A JOB RETREAT and it happened in the middle of the night so that was funny sitting there gasping for breath in the pitch dark.

At the FIRST retreat I went on for that job, you had to take pictures as part of a scavenger hunt, and the place used to be an old military fort, so there were still the old bunkers there. We had to take one on top of it and I was taking the picture, and it’s a wide shot so I go to take a step back but before I do I look behind me. If I hadn’t I would have fallen a good 10-15 feet down onto solid Civil War-era bunker concrete. I’d consider that being a “close to death” moment because I really could have died!

55) A random fact about yourself:

I have a half-brother !! My sis and I finally found him after her 23andMe results came back (which she decided to do despite us being like THE GOVERNMENT WILL COLLECT OUR DATA) and we didn’t think our mom would be happy she found him but she was !! My sis might reach out and contact him, she just wanted our mom’s permission first to do it.

56) What are three things most people don’t know about you?

Well, that I have a half-brother. I don’t mention it a lot. Aside from y’all on here and my sister, most everyone else doesn’t know I’m nonbinary! Everyone else knows I’m bi though lmao. And that there were times I’d stretch or bend the truth or lie about something just to impress someone else. It’s a… Bad Habit. Another thing is that most people don’t know I like coffee? Like I need to put a shit ton of creamer in with it because I’m a Bitch, but yeah.

57) An unknown fact about your life:

I wouldn’t call this an “unknown” fact but I’d used to go to work with my dad every now and again when he worked at the Home Depot and he was assistant manager. I’d either chill in the back room which was an office he shared with two other guys, or walk around the store with him. I had my own apron, too, which was my name with “Mini Mac” next to it, “Mac” being my dad’s nickname and something easier to say than my last name. I actually helped a few customers out so I wonder if I should have gotten paid for that despite being like, ages 9-13 when I’d go jshfkjd

And I guess I technically tested video games as a kid? Basically, when my dad was stationed at Fort Knox, they’d get demos of video games that hadn’t come out yet to test I suppose? and I still have a few somewhere. He’d hand them off to me and I’d play them so there’s that.

59) Five weird things that you like:

Eating globs of wasabi for no reason.

Scaring my friends also for no reason.

I wouldn’t say using cotton swabs to get wax out of your ears because it feels good is weird, just more medically inadvisable if anything.

When I was younger I’d like to floss really hard because the slight pain from it felt good. Young me was a #Freaque KJHDFJJDHF

I don’t know if being fond of alphabetizing and reorganizing things is considered weird but I LOVE doing that.

63) A quote you try to live by:

“It matters not how strait the gate, / How charged with punishments the scroll; / I am the master of my fate: / I am the captain of my soul.” It’s from the poem “Invictus” and the last two lines are what I’m getting tattooed !!

65) Weird things you do when you’re alone:

Practice the “Lucky Star” dance. I GOT THE LYRICS DOWN… JUST NEED TO DO THE DANCE NOW…

69) Leave me a compliment:

“you seem rly nice and funny from your 🅱️osts and I appreciate u... I hope you can find better irl friends who aren't trash”

Anon pls 🥺 I do my best to be nice but my friend really do test me sometimes... my feelings bounce back n forth like if they do something my feelings can switch to angry or like, hate, and then if they do something nice I’ll like them again. It sucks but ! I just take it one day at a time. Anon I care for u 💜💜💜

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mirkwoodshewolf · 7 years

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Welcome to the Guardians kid; GOTG x teen reader

This request does have some triggers so if car accidents and loss of parents aren’t your cup of tea I WARN YOU IN ADVANCE just skip down to the keep reading link and just skip over it. Other than that being briefly mentioned throughout the oneshot and maybe the occasional swearing not really anymore warning, I hope you guys enjoy this :)

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*July 7th, 2004*

I was just 7 years old at the time when it happened. At first it was just a calm summer's day with my parents, we went out to the beach for about 2 weeks every summer to visit my grandparent's. Well right now the two weeks were up and we had to head back because my dad's company wanted him back to work by Monday so we left early Saturday morning. But as we drove it started to rain and it got worse and worse as time went on.

So bad that my dad didn't see the oncoming headlights in front of us. He swerved the car but it drove us down the hill and we were stopped by a tree. I don't remember much after that because I blacked out from hitting my head against my mom's seat.

Next thing I knew I woke up to bright lights and the sound of beeping sounds. I then realized I was in the hospital with minor injuries because I was safely buckled up and right behind my mom, but unfortunately my parents weren't so lucky. They died right on impact, my dad from internal bleeding in his head and my mom well foolish woman didn't have her seatbelt on and slammed her face right through the mirror and died instantly from that. I was now the dreaded word no child should have to be labeled as.

I was an orphan.

Without thinking twice, I removed myself from the hospital bed and took off running. Doctors and security tried to stop me but I escaped them with ease and just took off running as far as I could in the storm. I don't know how far or fast I ran but I suddenly collapsed to my knees and just sobbed in my grief for who knows how long.

It was then I saw a bright light shine down on me and next thing I knew I was taken away from Earth.

*12 years later*

While the rest of the ravagers were asleep from a long night of stealing and celebrating their victory, I quietly packed up all my junk and walked towards my ship to hurry and make a break for it. Even though Yondu and the rest of the ravagers took me in and raised me like one of their own, I still don't feel like home here, nor are we even a family we just steal from others and lie to each other and talk smack about the person next to us even when they're standing right behind us.

So at 19 years old I figured enough is enough.

Just as I finished loading up my ship, I heard a faint whistle and felt an arrow to my head.

"You even think about gettin on the ship girl, and you'll regret it". I slowly raised my hands up and slowly stood up and said.

"Hey Yondu, whatcha doin stalking around the ship at night?"

"Shouldn't I be askin you that (l/n)?"

"Well how to put it nicely Yondu," quick as lightning, I disarmed Yondu and pinned him down to the ground with my gun now pointed straight to the center of his forehead. "It's been a long run, but screw you all and leave me alone!" I knocked him out by slapping him with the back of my gun and boarded my ship and took off hoping that the rest of the ravagers didn't hear the commotion between their boss and me.

Setting new coordinates to the farthest place the galaxy had to offer, I punched it and off and flew off hoping for a new life.

Somewhere far from the galaxy, I managed to smuggle myself into the population of Nowhere and worked there doing various jobs that I could get my hands on that paid top money for me to get enough money for more food, supplies, and hopefully even find another place to live.

But on that fateful day when I would meet a certain team of Guardians, it would be then that my life would change forever.

I had stepped out of my job at the local pawnshop for a quick lunch break and when I returned, I took notice of a bunch of odd people heading into the shop. A tall live tree, a raccoon, a strong guy covered in red tattoos, a slim but tough looking green woman and a man looking similar to me but wearing the same ravager garb I was wearing. Fearing that he and the rest of his gang were working secretly under Yondu, I quietly went through the back way through the store and readied my sword and gun ready to attack these intruders.

"Hello!? Hello?" I heard one of the men cry out.

"No one seems to be here Peter". The female voice said.

"Well that means more parts for us then, come on Groot help me with some of this stuff" a rough almost Brooklyn accent said. I then charged out and attacked the intruders. I managed to knock down the man wearing ravager garb, the raccoon and disarm the tree by cutting off his arms but both the woman and the big guy proved to be tougher to take down.

The big guy disarmed me and held me in a tight hold against his chest while the woman pinched a nerve on my neck and next thing I knew, I was now in darkness.

When I awoke I heard voices surrounding me.

"Did you really have to go and do that Gamora?"

"And what else was I suppose to do? Allow her to continue fighting us?"

"She's right, the kid went way out of line back there".

"I am Groot".

"You said it pal".

"Wait shh, she's waking up!" I saw the five of them standing over me but I also took notice that my arms and legs were bounded onto a bed. As I began to struggle and thrash around trying to get myself free the man in ravager clothing said to me.

"Whoa, whoa, whoa easy kid. We didn't come here to rob you of your store".

"Easy for you to say Quill". The raccoon said.

"Well almost all of us but don't mind him he's always like that".

"Why are you in those clothes?" I snapped at him.

"What? Oh you mean this, it's just a costume you know an outfit".

"Yes I know, but I know where those come from cause you see me wearing the exact same thing. Now if you take me back to Yondu I swear I will kick your ass from here to the end of the galaxy!" I threatened him.

"Oh damn Quill, kid’s got fire, I like her".

"Look we just want to know why exactly you attacked us like that?" The green woman stated.

"I already told you, I don't want to go back to them".

"And you wont. Jesus kid".

"Then why bring me into this ship?"

"Well we couldn't just leave you there back at Knowhere unconscious like that, someone could've robbed you or worse sold you off to black market. Plus we wanted to apologize in a place where there aren't that many witnesses" the man in ravager clothing stated again.I took a deep breath and said.

"Alright I'm sorry, it's just I didn't want to go back to Yondu and his crew, I already beat the crap out of him trying to escape, if I go back there he'll do worse to me that just give me a black eye again or beat me until I can't eat".

"Whoa wait a minute, you actually beat the shit out of Yondu? Wow you are pretty spunky kid, you definitely got some skill to do that". The raccoon stated proudly.

"I am Groot".

"Oh stop it you big baby! Let me have this chance to praise her for her antics!"

"I agree, she shows spirit and would make a keen ally plus she is a worthy opponent" said the big guy in red tattoos.

"I agree" said the green woman.

"Okay why don't we start off with introductions. The raccoon here is Rocket, the tree here is Groot, big muscle guy is Drax, and this green female assassin who only thinks of stab, stab, stabbing is Gamora. And I'm—"

"Peter Quill, otherwise critically self-claimed the famous Star Lord, yeah I know who you are, Yondu talked about you a lot, said in a way I'm like you, I'm (y/n) by the way" I said. Peter then loosened the bonds and said as I rubbed my wrists trying to wake them up.

"So, in what ways does he say we're alike?"

"Well we're both from Terra aka Earth. He picked me up when I was just 7 years old. I ran from the hospital shortly after waking up from a car accident. My parents and I visit my grandparents' beach house every summer for 2 weeks, but as we came back we were driving through a terrible storm, the rain was pouring so hard and so bad that my dad barely saw the headlights coming towards us. We went off the edge and hit a tree, I managed to make it with minor scratches but my parent—they both died. My dad instantly from internal bleeding, and my mom died with her face through the windshield, they tried to save her since she was still barely alive but they failed. Heartbroken I ran and next thing I knew, I was taken onboard the ravagers ship with Yondu and his men, just like you Quill. Now 12 years later after having enough of their crap, I wanted to make something better of myself. Hopefully find myself a new life, a new home. Hoping that I can belong somewhere, stupid I know right?"

Everyone remained silent at my sad tale but it was then Peter said.

"Well it seems your wish has finally come true".

"Huh?"

"Tell me this (y/n), how would you like to be apart of the Guardians of the Galaxy?" I turned to the others seeing them smile softly with acceptance in their eyes then turned to Peter and said.

"Are you serious?" Peter nodded then I turned to the other Guardians and Gamora said as she came up to me.

"You definitely got some skill as a warrior, Drax and I wouldn't mind helping you train to become more agile and stronger on your next battle". Drax nodded in agreement then Rocket said.

"And from the craftsman work I've seen on your weapons I assume they weren't made by just anyone right?"

"Yeah, some of my own designs I was trying out" I admitted sheepishly.

"Well I could always use a helping hand in building some new big guns".

"Rocket you're not gonna blow up any moons or planets, not after last time" Gamora said.

"God you just wanna suck the joy out of everything Gamora".

"I am Groot".

"Hey that honestly was an accident! That planet wasn't even my preferred target!"

"I am Groot" Groot said to me.

"He said to you that he's in with you joining the team".

I then turned to Peter who said.

"So what do you say? Wanna join the team and save the world as well as cause some trouble?" As I looked at them I began to feel that feeling that I thought I had lost the day I lose my parents. The feeling of finally belonging somewhere, the feeling of being accepted for who I am.

The feeling of having a family again.

I smirked and said.

"When do we start?"

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