#so I feel like I’ve figured it out now

[daredoodles]

I HAVE FIGURED IT OUT! the key to drawing matt murdock is 1950’s sewing patterns

#I’ve been struggling to figure out how I want to draw him for so long #there’s never a solid visual of him in my mind but now I feel like I’m getting somewhere! #matt murdock #daredevil fanart #daredevil comics #eliott draws things

[omaano]

For your ployam drawings, could I suggest 2-D for Paz/Din/Luke?? Luke loves his boyfriends and is glad they're getting along (finally.)

It's a face ship of mine and one that I love writing for! 💌

I didn’t feel like figuring out how far I should have tilted their heads to make them touch in armor so I thought I’d bring back my worst nightmare and draw some Mando helmets for you! (It was actually because I didn’t want to pick a face for Paz 🫣) Thanks for asking! ❤️

Help me get back into sketching through some of these polyam/platonic pose prompts :3 (I'm still slowly doing these, they help powering through this little artistic crisis I'm suffering rn)

#tumblr where are my colours?? #luke skywalker #din djarin #dinluke #paz vizsla #dinpaz #dinlukepaz #I think? #my art #answers #poly sketches #the mandalorian fanart #tatooinetourism #also that cheek kiss is the hardest for me to figure out and draw for whatever reason #so I really chickened out here with the helmets 😅😅🥲 #Luke looks a lot like his dad… I just noticed now that I’ve drawn both of them with their fluffy hair #I don’t know how I feel about that realization XD

[why-the-heck-not]

19.12.23, tuesday

0.5h of coding lol

wasn’t having the best day so decided to finally watch the barbie-movie (it’s on hbo rn) bc figured that could cheer me up

but bc the universe loves a good timing, on the grocery store trip after, some dudes came to me like ”which one of us would u fuck?” and that annoyed me way more than it should’ve. Like cmon, it’s 10pm at a grocery store; if you’re not cottage cheese or olive oil get tf out of my face

just a short evening walk bc it was windy and I was annoyed

#also the barbie-movie; it was fine #not my favorite but I didn’t think it’d be bc I don’t rly usually go for that genre #also at this point the hype had got to me so my expectations were very unfair #the set tho; it looked so good #I love how I planned that I’d be a machine now this week so could actually not stress during christmas but it’s looking out to be like one #of the most unproductive days I’ve had all autumn lol #i’m thinking if I should just call it and start the holidays now and just idk catch up on some of the days in between christmas & new years #and I do have 8 days after new years before other courses start #but idk if I do thay I might not rly be able to chill during christmas #like rn I’m thinking if I should bring my laptop with me just in case I could squeeze a couple hours here & there during the few days #which is not the thing to do obviously; like it’s 5 days I can be apart from my laptop for 5 days #but it feels like with the amount of stuff I’ve gotten done I rly couldn’t afford a 5 day break rn #idk I’ll figure it out I won’t bring a laptop just to haunt me #(I’m bad at fully relaxing; there’s always the ’’u could be doing something productive tho’’-voice) #(which I don’t listen but then I just get nothing done and also never rly relax which is good super good) #(can u tell im still annoyed at everything rn lol sorry for the tag rant) #december 2023 #2023 #today

[strawbubbysugar]

Ough as the end draws near I’m seeing more and more comments that are making me nervous that the ending won’t live up to all the hype & expectations aaaa aa

#ask #for example #there’s a few notes I’ve forgotten about that we’re gonna be important but now make no sense in the story #so I’ve gotta figure out how to work them in #without it feeling forced #and at the same time #continuing with the idea I’ve been married to for a few weeks about what the ending is gonna be #but now I’m so nervous that people won’t like the ending #and I’ll have ruined this fic #sobs #ik most of you will hopefully enjoy it!! but even seeing a few be like ‘aw :( I hoped something else would happen’ is gonna be ROUGH #but honestly #thank you all for the amazing experience you’ve given me writing this #I never realized just how much I enjoy writing until I started writing this fic #and all the love has been so sos o life changing #so thank you all <3 #one person specifically said I was ‘stalling’ but like :( I’m drawing out the tension. if I do things too quickly it won’t have any umph. #I just haven’t been able to stop thinking abt that comment sigh #personal

[figofswords]

anybody remember the stephanie brown essay I was working on under a research grant fully last summer? yeah it’s not done yet it super needs to be done and I’ve been avoiding working on it for weeks. someone tell me to just do it already

#the problem is. actually there are several problems #1) I’ve been out of the Batman/dc comics phase for almost a year so I don’t care that much about the topic #2) I am fifteen pages in and have not touched it in months so I’ve completely lost my train of thought #3) I can’t just reread it because I hate first five pages or so and I know I need to change it but I was trying to finish before editing #so now my only solution is I need to open up a new doc and completely restructure the whole thing by splicing together the existing writing #so that I can figure out where the hell im going with this and make sure things fit together better #unfortunately that sounds fucking exhausting #but I told my mentor I would have an update for him by the end of the week and. well. it’s the end of the week #I have to present it in April. I have to write and submit an abstract in March #the school gave me $1500 for this stupid essay and if I don’t have anything to show for myself. #well. I don’t know they can’t take the money BACK but it’s not a good look #and also I would feel bad #I did the research!!! i interviewed comic writers even!!! I just haven’t finished WRITING IT DOWN #and I KNOOOOWW once I get started it’ll be fine once I’m going I’m going #but STARTING is hard because I feel like I have to finish it in one go which makes it so huge and daunting #I’m like. slamming my head into a wall. just write a couple sentences Jess something is better than nothing #just start it you don’t have to finish just START just MAKE the new DOC #I know!!!!! that is what my therapist would say!!!! Jess you’re trying to oneshot it bc of your dumb adhd brain!!!! #stop looking at it like that and making it scarier!!! #but even tho I know that logically I’m still like oh I should put away the dishes o should make bread #I should work on my six different art pieces I should do laundry i should play with the puppy I should go for a walk I sh

[verdantglow]

Fuck it, time to be loudly cringe & find my 30 weirdos.

Trafficstuck AU

Because even 12 years after starting Homestuck, I still found myself in bed one night, trying to sleep, but unable to because all I could think about was Griann <> Gudtym Wiscar.

(I’ve got so much figured out for this AU that I don’t know how to share. Please send me asks about your fave/anything you’re curious about so that I can have some direction for this lore vomit!)

#I’ve got troll names & blood colors for everyone #plus a handful of their quadrants figured out #I have so many more ideas tho that I haven’t written down yet #(I should really write this stuff down…) #I can tell you right now tho that there are A Lot of ships in this #mostly because quadrants but also because like #what not have polyamory if it’s my AU & I want to? #also lots of quadrant confusion #because feelings are complicated #(also I promise for my followers who are looking for SmallEtho or scarian) #(that there is plenty of both in this AU.) #trafficstuck #hermitstuck #(because that tag gets seen more & I might expand to all the hermits as well once I know them better!) #traffic smp #trafficblr #verdant art #also I drew these like. Over a month ago. #it was the doodle of Gudtym & Griann that actually drove me to join this fandom. #(this fandom being mcytblr) #I drew these nerds as trolls & suddenly the brain rot had claimed me lol #scarian #I supposed I should tag that just in case. #as it’s explicitly stated here.

[catboyidia]

how i think asgzc handles being/behaves while sick

(except im actually projecting because im really sick and miserable and mildly (very) delirious)(also this was written mostly in the short period between like 30 min fever dream plagued naps… so its all over the place and don’t expect accurate characterization)

angeal: hes that one motherfucker that can have a high fever and will still insist on doing everything, he could be on his deathbed and still trying to do stuff and care for everyone else until everyone else literally forces him to stop and rest, and even then he will still try to downplay his illness and worry about everyone else

sephiroth: realistically he doesn’t get sick but like… we’re ignoring that… he’s absolutely pitiful but without even meaning to be, like he’s perfectly fine being alone and letting it run its course but he ends up just looking so pitiful that genesis and angeal can’t resist him, they won’t leave him alone and end up trying to comfort sephiroth in any way possible, and upon trying to cuddle him, sephiroth will immediately cling to them, betraying his original ability to be alright alone

genesis: gets super clingy and whiny and refuses to let sephiroth or angeal leave him alone, inevitably forcing them to get sick with him, and hes total crybaby the entire time, needing reassurance about everything he has ever done and will ever do because for some reason being really sick makes him reflect on himself which makes him emotional and regret everything he’s ever done and fear that he isn’t good enough for sephiroth and angeal, all the emotional baggage and insecurities come flooding out until he cries himself to sleep again, wakes up from the strangest fever dream, clings to whoever is closest and the cycle continues, only breaking every so often when he forces sephiroth and angeal to feed him or they force genesis to take medicine, all the necessities ect.

zack: whiny clingy and needy, will cling to cloud like his life depends on it and uses cloud as a living teddy bear, unable to be left alone because if anyone even mentions leaving him alone for a second he immediately starts looking like a kicked puppy and clings on even tighter, desperate to be comforted, and needs to be distracted often from the fact that he is sick or else he will complain about how shitty he feels 24/7, also he will throw a fit and refuse any medication like a child until angeal either shoves a pill down his throat like a dog or crushes it up and hides it in some kind of food… also like a dog… angeal basically has to employ every dog medicine giving tactic

cloud: tries to isolate and let the illness do its thing, not wanting to get anyone else sick, and also not really wanting anyone else to see him sick and think he’s weak because he thinks every little thing, including unavoidable things like getting sick, will make him seem weak, but zack refuses to leave him alone, trying to comfort cloud in any way possible, trying to tend to every single one of clouds needs and constantly makes sure cloud is okay, although cloud tries to push zack away because he doesn’t want zack to get sick, plus unfortunately zack can get a bit stressful and be a bit of a pain in the ass to handle at times

#… maybe i projected really hard on one of them in particular… no one will ever guess who… #the answer is genesis and part of it is actually based off of a specific time i got sick as a kid #i am miserable and feel super shitty and cant do much so im doing what i can… making a questionable post i probs wont remember later :) #but that kinda seems like part of the fun! #unleash it and let others determine how much sense your half asleep sick fever dream brain makes #im not thinking straight at all i’ve been sick for a few days already so im slightly better now but not enough to think right yet #but then i also get to figure it out and make sense of it when im better enough to think :) #ff7 #ffvii #final fantasy 7 #crisis core #asgzc #angeal hewley #sephiroth #genesis rhapsodos #zack fair #cloud strife

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

went to go clothes shopping today and i got the cuntiest misa-esque dress for like $8 at the thrift store <3

#it’s covered in hearts and it’s strapless w a low lace-up back and the skirt is short and poofy but it’s sewn at the edges so that the #skirt is like a sphere-ish shape that holds fairly well and i should prob just draw it so what i’m saying makes sense but it is super cute #and i also got some jeans which is new for me i’ve not worn jeans since. um. i think the last time i wore jeans i was. idk. before #i started dressing myself? so under 5 maybe? idk pants feel really restricting to me and jeans esp that’s why i’m always wearing skirts #but i feel up to it rn bc i’ve always thought they were cute and also i think i’m comfortable enough in my skin to do so which i think it’s #usually the opposite for ppl they like pants and are afraid of dresses bc they’re uncomfortable/self conscious/whatever but for me #skirts have always been a safety blanket and they are so comfortable but sometimes skirts are just not practical so i need to like #get comfortable wearing pants and i tried doing it a couple years back but i was like in the midst of an eating disorder so that didn’t go #down well but i’m cool now i’m chill abt things and wearing skirts all the time makes ppl peg me as fem and i’m like ahhhhh stop she/her-in #me when i’m obvi in femboy mode or like when i’m being androgynous but i happen to be wearing a skirt w my outfit it’s annoying #anyway it took me two fucking hours to figure out what size i was bc skirts u don’t really have a size bc u just need it to fit ur waist #and ur golden but pants are so complicated and i have wide hips and thick thighs and it took me foreverrrr to find the right size #but i did and now i will never have to do all of that ever again <3 bc it was stressful every second that i wasn’t looking in the mirror #and making bedroom eyes at myself <3

[gregmarriage]

okay, i’m genuinely curious: do people find me intimidating?

#that’s crazy to me but i wanna hear it from you #bc i get intimidated by other people i deem too cool for me whether that’s silly or not #but like to think other people find *me* intimidating? #idk i feel im very jaded and my own perception of myself very obviously will probably not match other people’s #idk i’m thinking about that kinda stuff lately #both in the context of friendship and otherwise #and just trying to both be more grown up and putting myself out there and making new adult relationships #and also balancing that with autism and the struggle to do so #my experience with friendship is weird and i wanna actually learn to be better basically #idk i always feel i’m a bad friend but like i do try really really hard and if i was really a bad friend i wouldn’t try at all would i? #idk it’s very complicated and it comes from a werid childhood and yadda yadda #whatever my big thing right now is communication i guess? #and relearning how to do it etc #as i’ve said in multiple posts #and i guess i’m trying to bare with myself as well as asking other people to do the same #bc i wanna talk and make friends but i’m currently on a slow road to figuring stuff out in my life so uhh yeah #that’s the guist of it i guess #anyways imaooo this post got away from me #gwen rambles #gwenposting

[celestial-toys]

crawls out of my writing cave on all fours, disheveled and holding a twenty-four-thousand-word-long document between my teeth

#i have. finally finished the WIP i’ve been struggling to write for the last 3 months!!! #Seven’s Celestial Commentary #writing stuff #[N]MbD #[Not] Made by Design #this little hurt/comfort oneshot got. a bit out of hand. and now has way more plot than i originally intended #but i am Quite happy with the direction it went in so it’s all good #just gotta figure out how to split it into chapters for readability on AO3 #24k feels too long for one page even tho it’s a oneshot… sigh it’s AEIWNF all over again #anyways i’m so happy to have gotten that fic out of my brain. feels good man #i’m so ready for [N]MbD’s series to consist of more than one (1) spicy fic. there’s So much more to the AU than that #new hefty installment in the [N]MbD AU comin’ atcha… Soon™️ #soon meaning once i finish publishing the rest of AEIWNF and the shorter [N]MbD oneshot that i want posted first #now that i’m sitting on a number of finished WIPs for other things i finally feel ready to return to writing for ES #i’d like to chip away at the next few chapters of that fic while i post my backlog of other stuff that’s ready to go

[purplepenntapus]

Im sorry I love the Zoro Mihawk Perona dynamic but the fandom trend of turning it into “Mihawk adopts Zoro and Perona as children and raises them” makes me want to die

#the fact that it pervades so many au fic is another reason I rarely read one piece aus #first of all I’m not a fan of changing characters’ backstories in such a drastic way #Zoro in canon and Zoro raised as mihawks child would be two very different characters #second of all it’s indicitive of a very odd trend I’ve noticed where fandom takes character with non traditional family dynamics and #creates a narrative where they have what more or less boils down to a nuclear family dynamic #like Zoro already has a family #the straw hats #but bc zoro is one of the only straw hats that you can’t point to a specific character and say ‘that’s his father figure’ ‘thats his sister’ #people feel the need to give him a Proper Family with a Dad™️ and a sister™️ #which is particularly odd in the Found Family Anime™️ #it’s giving superfamily #idk it wouldn’t be bad if it was just a fun thing now and again but god it’s like every single zoro-centric au I see #rambles #sorry I had to rant about this because I just closed out of a fic because of this and I’m just -Keanu smoking meme- #it’s very hard when you dislike a very pervasive fandom trope #if this ends up in the tag and you’re mad about it I’m sorry I don’t want to sensor every word tumblr might pick but I’m not tagging #it myself so please don’t yell at me blame tumblr

[liesyousoldme]

so i told the girl id been talking to that i just wanted to be friends and now the friend that set us up is upset with me 🫠

#idk why she is surprised like i’ve spoken 2 times to her about my lack of feelings #ugh this just sucks #im like trying to figure out if im potentially aro and/or ace and she knows that’s what’s going on #and everyone kept being like it’s not a big deal it’s just texting and one date #except now they’re treating it like a big deal #so now i feel shitty even though i really didn’t do anything wrong #amber talks

[napping-sapphic]

Hey there's this girl in my class who's been writing me (outta 250 ppl in our class).

At the beginning it was to have sum information about a trip she couldn't go to, but now she keeps writing me without a reason n all my friends think it's bcuz she likes me but she didn't make my gaydar blip or anything... Actually she looks hetero 100%

How do I understand if she's being gay or just polite wtf please send help🙏☠️

Ahh the good ole “is she flirting” dilemma gotta love it

Unfortunately (again) i am really not the person to ask as i am both Oblivious™️ and lacking like most of the other context to this but if I had to give advice i would say:

Don’t discount her on stuff like gaydar like maybe mine is just faulty af but i get it wrong CONSTANTLY lol I learned really quick to just not try and guess and let people tell me themselves. And then also just be patient with it! Maybe she’s interested in you romantically or maybe she’s interested in being your friend! And both are great things to have :) either way if she keeps reaching out it sounds like she’s been enjoying talking with you so maybe just persue the connection naturally and see where it goes!

Idk maybe try inviting her out to a casual lunch and see how it goes, it’s hard to tell if a relationship will develop without first developing the base relationship at all imo

I’m really sorry I can’t be of any actual help but good luck with it all!!

#asks #for those keeping count i am now 0 for 3 in terms of advice asks😌 #putting the useless back into useless lesbian frfr #i usually tell my irl friends things similar to this when they ask me advice #but then they say ‘no that’s not how it WORKS’ #so i can only assume i’m misunderstanding some fundamental part of dating at all times #idk like even if you start dating early i always feel like you gotta be friends first #so there’s no harm in trying to be friends with someone while ALSO trying to figure out if a dating relationship is on the table #again though i’ve been told i’m missing something there so i’m probably wrong somehow lol #oh and by friends first i mean just like establishing a friendly connection beyond like school or work communication #do NOT mean people have to go through months of friendship to date #to clarify #idk im really out of my depth with this kind of thing if you can’t tell😓 #🍀 <- four leaf clover to wish you luck!

[rosicheeks]

hi Princess

i hope you are doing well

please tell us a little about your new job with the doggies!

#here are a few pictures from today 🥰🫶 #I have SO many pictures now it’s crazy #I should probably go through them cause I’m sure a lot of them are blurry but some are gems I must say #my favorite parts are probably when my yard is quiet and calm for a little bit (usually at night) and I sit down #and usually a bunch of them come rushing over to sit next to me #I can’t tell you how much I love it when a puppy lays on me or sits on my lap #it’s the best 🥰 #there are definitely a few challenges to the job but I’m sure I’ll be able to deal #the hard part is it doesn’t give me enough hours and I don’t think it’ll be enough $$ either #so I’m gonna have to find another job which really really sucks #I’m already so exhausted with this one idk how I’m gonna juggle another one on top of it #but I need to figure out a way to get my own car and move out of my parents place #I love my parents so much but why can’t they just let me be me? #my friend literally said it sounds like they’re putting me on a leash and that’s EXACTLY what it feels like #not gonna get into it but it’s been rough lately #life hasn’t been the best so I’m sorry I’ve been so quiet lately #haven’t replied to anyone in awhile #but thankfully work has been good and I’ve been able to meet some amazing angels 🫶🥰❤️❤️❤️❤️ #I just wish it paid better #also gotta figure out a way to wear my headset so it doesn’t trigger my migraines cause that’s been a struggle #really really REALLY hope one day I’m able to get my own puppy but at least for now I get to take care of other dogs 🥰🥰🥰🥰 #ask #thanks for asking 🫶

[miodiodavinci]

(head in hands) man.

#i’m laying in bed trying to sleep but suddenly got the urge to look for that old render of crevan using warp.exe #but to find it i had to dig through my entire crevan tag and just #really hit me just How much i don’t like crevan sgkfgdsjfk #like not in a ‘aw man this voicebank could be so much better :(‘ kind of way #but in a ‘i am physically no longer the same person i was when i made her’ kind of way #in a ‘i don’t know if i ever really liked her or if she was just one big running bit i had because i was so scared of being cringe’ #kind of way #because let’s be real #there are very few moments in that tag where i’m not purposefully distancing myself from the things i liked #and being unnecessarily mean and snarky instead so i’d somehow ‘be better’ for not ‘giving in’ #whether to the temptation to be honest and genuine or the temptation to do the sorts of silly things i actually wanted to do #maybe a huge portion of it is also that i hadn’t figured out i was gay or trans yet #and felt the need to curate this horrible she/her creature to try to rectify the gender dysphoria i was feeling #but yeah #doesn’t feel great honestly #i love being open and kind and honest with what i love #and i don’t think i can ever really relate to crevan’s old ‘purposefully mean and cruel and antagonistic’ schtick #now that i’ve gone about that change #anyway sghlfsfjdg

[katierosefun]

started watching leverage . . . god help me but i would actually watch those gremlins scam the living hell out of billionaires every single fucking time. the episodes essentially follow the same formula and it makes me giggle kick my feet twirl my hair i want every single one of them

#caroline talks #so infuriating. good day to be queer (has a massive crush on every single member of the leverage squad) #it truly is. COMPETENCY…. #the other day one of my coworkers was trying to figure out my type #and I was like. ‘…..i dunno. i feel like everyone I’ve ever had a crush on/dated for a while #looked very different from each other’ #and even then. there were some people i dated who i just kinda did bc I was bored not bc I actually liked them #BUT LIKE…….REALIZING NOW…….IT’S THE COMPETENCY….. #I’m sorry but like?? people who know enough of the rules to get around them and restore partial justice partial VINDICTIVE REVENGE? #love every single one of them they’re all so ‘person is asking us for help.’ #‘that’s nice but while we help them get personal justice what if we also just obliterated a corporation’ #and that is SO SEXY OF THEM!!!!!