#so I dont feel comfortable rbing it :

[chaudharis]

honestly posting stuff for av has probably been the best "fandom" experience ive had in a very very long time, if not entirely. it has only been a week but its been the best week ive had in a really long time

#txt #ppl are so nice....... who knew it would make u happy when ppl are nice to u! #it probably helps that its so small but the same like 5 ppl are p active and very cool. u know who u are!!!! #i put fandom in quotes btw bc its like. ehhh i wpuldnt call it that when im referring to like. a specific group of ppl. not rlly a- #whole fanbase. again u know who u are #i had like 100% come to accept that ill be lucky if i get a rb here and there for my art which is fine! i dont mind anymore #but its just really nice having like. a few very vocal and nice ppl interact and its also helped me come out of my shell a bit #which ive kinda needed #like. u see me replying to posts but gamers i literally never do that. interacting with ppl is incredibly hard for me! #so its nice having smth where im like. i feel comfortable enough to do so. to even interact beyond rbing and rambling in tags #anyways sorry for this word dump in the tags ive just been thinkin abt this and its a really nice feeling! #its nice being noticed and have ppl be kind! who woulda thunk!

[obscure-entity]

ok so going back to this post from wayy back in august (rbing it again would be a mess)

i think it'd be important for me to give a reflection on what this was about. i was making a planning-presentation months ago, which i shouldnt be so afraid to show but rereading my writing produces the same guttural yuck and fear that looking at my old art used to. and it led to all of these pieces. click for full view bc some of them are cropped

writing being the one thing im horrified of is ironic for me asking. but i have to ask if anyone's sincerely interested in my personal analysis of these ? i considered video format but if i wuss out of using my voice i might find some other way

and um. as for how i feel about them, i love these to death and can feel my hand aching thinking about every colored-pencil motion but i just dont feel like i attached myself to these in the way i wanted to. EXCEPT the second piece where a lamb is being snatched by the sky itself. although they do live up to their own messages to me

i discovered that, while i wanted to focus a lot on the aspects of feeling inhuman as a personal identity, in the second half it shifted more to perception. every individual is some sort of monster, creature, or animal because they are not "known" or acknowledged by hypothetical human-set standards, thus making them "unknown." this entire mini-portfolio is literally about the "unknown." the "unknown" is something i keep repeating a lot when im trying to grasp at this same concept. if a person cannot read your expression or wants to mischaracterize what you're thinking, you are "unknown." its really basic nature to be afraid of the unknown, but it's another step to invent new reasons to be afraid via an untrained disgust reaction for anything not reasonably comfortable, familiar, safe. and the attempt at creating "familiarity" is through assigning labels to things around you, simply put. which is just a bandaid shutting the teeth of some beast, to me

after all these months i still dont know what part of me this is about by the way. something behavioral. for example im pretty sure i weird people the FUCK out by staying silent or keeping to myself. and it took me years to realize that actually has a reason to scare people

what im saying is. dear marginalized ppl please keep depicting yourselves as weird monsters that scare people and bite. or some other strange thing that accomplishes the task of Just Sitting There.

im so happy this is essentially completed by the way ? i had another piece i never finished (im not sure i want to, colored pencils fucked me over hard) its just that i didnt think the months would pass that fast. writing about it was really nice when i was trying to kind of realize the mindset for my future personal art too. idk if anyone from the old post is still here but thanks again for the resources :)

#text #nudity

[softwarmfur]

i get genuinely flustered when a mutual or someone i follow posts a nude or risque foto like i rarely if ever feel comfortable enough to slide into the comments and say what i want 2 say. im afraid the op will single me out saying you just got too comfortable with my foto bitch. and then a gaggle of people will show up in my home to execute me via shooting me in the head point blank. i also generally dont reblog nudes of people to my main idk why its just a rule my brain made up for me so i have to follow it. i also have a nsfw sideblog which i probably would be more comfortable rbing to but these are the nudes of people i actually know....they deserve my main blog...i often end up just liking the post and scrolling away all embarrassed like a little virgin cuckboy

#half the time im tempted immensely to leave some shit like i want 2 suck u! in the comments. the other half of the time i would leave #incoherent moaning onomatopoea. shit like eyuuuughhhh and aoooughhhhh and AUWAUWAUWAUW

[ofthenoseclan]

1, 23, 31, 35, 42!!

1. wakko warner, emerald (pokespe), taranza. basically anyone else i tag when rbing art of them are huge faves of mine, but these are the ones id go browse fanart for first if im feeling down or something so i think theyre the ones that count most, i think thats the distinction for what counts as a comfort character? idk

23. not a huge fan of the cold but i like the aesthetic of the season. if i didnt grow up in a place where i needed to shovel snow daily in the winter most of my life id probably like it more

31. grounded specifically? probably ambient idm does the trick. i usually dont listen to music be in the moment often though

35. pst!

42. discord is the only other one im on religiously besides this, its where i talk with online friends and mutuals most. my lil friend collecting app

[butterscotch-brigade]

i watched a bluey ep for the first time recently with my youngest sibling and its a very cute show, it actaully disapoints me people are very weird about it though. and i mean both people who dislike people for watching it and those who are just gross about it. i really hope that doesnt affect the show :( i know that happens sometimes.

but anyway i think you really pushed me into watching it and you rbing bluey reminded me i did and i loved it it made me feel like a little kid. but i have to ask how do you tell the characters apart because i had such a hard time doing so and i don't know why?? maybe i just need to watch some more lol.

!!!! AHHHH IM SO GLAD I WAS ABLE TO HELP INTRODUCE U TO THIS SHOW!!!! its so so cute and funny and charming and heartwarming im glad u like it :) and yeah, every show has its fair share of haters and Weirdos which is unfortunate :( thankfully ive been lucky enough to avoid seeing Gross stuff when searching for fan content which is a relief bc i remember stumbling across that stuff all the time in the mlp/brony days lol. i think thats why a lot of ppl are concerned abt there being a Fandom for it and while that is an understandable worry i personally havent had any problems w the community (Yet AJSJDJ) and while i know for a fact there are ppl who are Gross abt it i think its generally easier to avoid them compared to how it was back then which im glad about LOL i do hope its the same for kids bc i dont want them to have to go thru what i went thru as a young mlp fan 😔😔😔😔

and YEAH AKSKSJS i can see how telling the characters apart could be p challenging at first. i didnt rly have a problem w it but there is a p large cast of side characters so i can understand forgetting who some characters are, especially when some of them have relatives who look like them and make it difficult to remember whos who. in my experience the more i watched the show the more i started to remember characters names and designs, so its probably just a matter of waiting it out until youre used to em. i think it also depends on what order u watch the episodes in; i try to watch eps chronologically bc i find its easier for me to remember characters that way.

but!!!! once again im rly happy u enjoy the show, its become a big comfort for me recently and it took me a while to be less self conscious and more open abt liking it so im glad u were able to fall in love w it too!!!! ty for the kind words anon i hope u have a great day :)

#vanilla answers #bluey

[caramelmochacrow]

u can call me crow, i draw and write so u might see some posts abt my drawings and writings.

DNI if u just want to be an asshole or annoying. as long as ur chill we're chill. if i feel uncomfortable w u i might block u. sorry, no hard feelings. i just want to feel comfy here. i am a minor btw so keep that in mind when u interact w me.

if i say/do anything that is harmful to you or other people please tell me and explain to me what i did wrong i so wont repeat it, i want to learn from my mistakes.

i have a tendency to overreact and be super emotional abt stuff, especially when it comes to stuff i like, if u see me post in all caps, post a lot of mashed keyboard stuff, and maybe cursing a bit, that's just me being extremely emotional, sorry in advance.

i explain things really weird, so im sorry in advance, u can ask me to explain further to clear things up.

i might make vent posts from time to time, i wont be putting them in my talking tag and will add a cut before it so u may avoid it.

please dont repost my art, i'll allow you if you ask and tell me what you're going to do w it.

u can find me on ao3 as dat_toffee_crow, i got a ton of aa fics and im currently working on an au called Phoenix Wright: Ex Babysitter! (currently on hiatus tho, im not yet in the right mind to work on it yet ahaha....)

but! if u arent here for my aa stuff, i also write d4dj fics (and on the way to write bandori ones) and maybe a few king of fighter ones.

speaking of, my main interests at the moment are d4dj, bandori, and ace attorney. i also like a couple other stuff like revue starlight, revolutionary girl utena, major/major 2nd, haikyuu, blue period, kof, guilty gear, greek mythology, norse mythology, pokemon, and digimon. im also a fan of birds so u might see me rbing some posts abt them.

a couple of my comfort/favorite characters from my main interests are (comfort characters are bolded):

d4dj: all of rondo, all of merm4id, all of peaky p-key, sophia abyssmare, saki izumo, hayate tendo, kokoa shinomiya, noa fukushima, weronika abyssmare, and rei togetsu.

bandori: moca aoba, chu2 (chiyu tamade), all of hhw, all of roselia, tomoe udagawa, MASKING (masuki satou), LAYER (rei wakana), kasumi toyama, tae hanazono, hina hikawa.

ace attorney: ema skye, kay faraday, sebastian debeste, klavier gavin, apollo justice, trucy wright, and athena cykes.

#introductory post #wwwwwwww #aghhhh iy feels like im introducing myself in a classroom i hate it #is this normal?? #aghhh whatever whatever #edit: i still feel like im introducing myself in a classroom lol #edit 2: added a few comfort guys and revue and rgu into the interests also edited that one part w the vent posts

[shimenawas]

sending u hugs and comfort samie!! <3333 idk how it feels to find someone using ur work to gain attention/clout and shit but like it sounds annoying to go experience 🙄 ngl im embarrassed for the person LMAOOOO BUT ANYWAYY FEEL BETTER SOON SAM:((( LETS HOPE THAT PERSON SHUTS UP ABT CLAIMING THAT UR WORK & IDENTITY IS THEIRS BC LIKE U DONT DESERVE THIS TREATEMENT<3

U HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO BE ANGRY GO SAM SUPPORT KTA DIYAN SA GALIT MO😍‼️i forgot if u spewk tagalog but yeah

ngl at the start i was just a mess of anxiousness and scared when i first found out abt it 😭?? i was shaking p badly i kept making typos and rbing the wrong posts wkdjdjej i tried calming myself down and reaching out to mutuals (@astrxealis give star a follow pls <3) but YEAH I WAS SHAKING A LOT AND COULDNT CALM DOWN SO I COULD ONLY REACH OUT TO ONE MUTUAL JWJDJEK

but afterwards tho all i felt was plain annoyance lollllllll they haven't made like an announcement to abt it yet in their blog abt clearing things up so idk

#BUT NYXYWXIE UWU DITO KA LANG PO SA SIDE KO 🙈🙈🙈 #omg wow ikaw na standard ig #HWHAHSJDJKENE #━☆*:₀. visitor: nyx ೃ

[combeauferre]

the n word thing about my brother in christ literally isn't true tho. i mean I'm sure some ppl do use it like that but it's also a legit religious/christian phrase in some places. my grandmother has been using it as long as i can remember and im pretty sure neither her nor her church use it as a fill in for that word LMAO

(2/2) like don't get me wrong, dont use it if you want. we def don't need more christian stuff but i really dont like how ppl seem to like claiming the phrase only just appeared to just be an n word substitute

i think when it's a christian talking to or about another christian that's a completely different thing than using it in meme format. im also a christian and i can definitely differentiate between sincerely describing another christian as a sibling in christ vs using it in meme format. if the meme began in racist circles as a replacement for the n word then that should be acknowledged as separate from the christian and biblical use of the term. as a phrase used in christian circles people are literally describing someone who is connected to them through christ. in meme format it doesnt hold the same importance.

there's nothing wrong with saying "my brother in christ" in the correct and sincere christian way and the post isnt calling people out for that. its origin as a meme is separate from the religious term itself.

#i hope that makes sense #no i wont continue rbing the meme when i see it #ive seen a few people say the meme makes them uncomfortable and it honestly doesnt surprise me that it has that origin #also if Some people use it that way then it's just better to not use it at all outside of the correct context #so you can be sure that other people feel safe and comfortable around you and dont have to guess if that's what you mean or not #ollie answers #anon

[chisatowo]

I want to find good hinanami content but god it's so hard to find shit that isn't clearly intended to be ai chiaki

#rat rambles #rat vents #? #but yeah I am thinking so so hard abt them but I rly rly hate it when its ai chiaki #and like!!! thats all people post!!! since shes the one most people mean wheb talking abt chiaki!!! #and like sometimes its anbiguous enought that I could maybe feel ok reblogging it but idk what the artist was intenting #so I dont feel comfortable rbing it :/ #also theres a surprusing amoubt of post game hinanami abd I hate it #stop!!! thats a teenager and an adult!!!! stop it!!! #do I dare look elsewhere? would it even be worth it?

[phobiium]

fun fact bdubs's voice isnt really like that! he does exaggerate it in his newer videos. the last time we heard probably the closest thing to his real voice (i think) though in videos is like 2014 lol the american accent is still very much there though

#its funny though i looked back at the old videos to try and find proof to see if i was imagining it or not #but when you go back to those videos hes just a guy! just a man ! its so strange #someone made a post abt his voice but i dont know them enoguh to feel comfortable rbing it so ! #i was just shaking with the need to put this information somewhere so you all get it instead

[omeno]

rant/vent in tags. fandom neg //

#yeah i think im done with this #the bad outweights the good #like i wont stop watching their content/thinking about my aus/crying at lore & rbing art but i wont be as deep and focused as i've been #like i wont religiously keep up with shit & let it eat my brain & i'll look for something new to possibly hyperfixate on #im.just too tired i have been tired since i joined & it will not get better #i have lost. a lot of respect & comfort for some ccs & the excitment that came from just their voices has been slowly banishing #im just not very happy w this anymore & like i said the bad finally out weights the good & that's simply not how i roll #anywho #might start rbing other shit now :) probably anime or just cool art #this isnt rlly about any new development or drama btw #like i do not fucking care #my people pleaser dumb of ass can not handle the constant hatred & disgust some ppl have for this fandom #its bullshit but i can not handle it like in a very personal fundamental 'i-feel-guilt-&-shame-for-merely-breathing-daily' type of way #& for a while it was worthy bc i felt very good & contained & comfortable & warm and shit but now i dont #the hyperfixation slowly faded & it took away a very large chunk of my mindless enjoyment #so yeah #thats that i guess #neg #i guess??? #im not dissing anyone lol #also tumblr your new tagging system sucks. #personal rant

[valeskass]

What if 😳😳 we kissed 👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨 💏 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 during pride month 🏳️‍🌈🌈🏳️‍🌈 (and we are both nb 👭👫👬)

#pride #nonbinary #ok2rb #i saw a mlm one and a wlw one but i didnt feel comfortable rbing either bc i Still dont know my identity so i made This #bc fuck gender #forensic report

[sapropel]

UB is being insanely oversensitive & so is everyone around them. Not wanting mutuals rbing someone who clearly doesnt give a fuck if they make terfs/fascists feel comfortable is normal. Very weird for them to consider u too online when theyre having such a huge freakout online over smthn theyre pretending they dont care abt.

I wouldn't know I'm over here minding my own business. Love and light

#half irony #this is literally just standard tumblr circlejerk backlash its fine #losers get mad at me all the time on here

[omorifanblog]

I don't know how common this is so I can't speak for anyone else, but personally as someone with a blank blog that only likes content, I DO know how tumblr works and admittedly wish I could help circulate posts a bit more, I'm just reeeally shy and having any sort of online presence larger than the occasional anonymous ask makes me very anxious. I also feel like I don't have much to contribute at the moment besides simply reblogging things as I'm not really comfortable making text posts. Not trying to argue or anything, just letting you know there are other reasons why people might have empty blogs besides not knowing how reblogs work.

thats fair, honestly. i do think you should make a pinned explaining it, or at least decorate your blog so you dont look like this

on the note of circulating... its not uncommon for users to check the users in their notes and find themselves in a rabbit hole. kind of like wikipedia

sometimes after following or rbing a post, the op goes onto your own blog and finds the stuff you rb too. sometimes they follow you, sometimes they rb posts because they also like it. (i do this, and i see it happen in my notifs)

i wont push you on how to run your blog. however, if your worried on contribution, that stuff ends up working itself out

#op is chatty #forgot my ask tag ermmm #asks from headspace #i think #but yeah i think the most you can do is just Not look like a bot #i've been here for years now and others longer. the signs of a bot are very commonplace now #and if it helps... some ppl dont rb just for circulation! they also use it to quickly find stuff they wanna remember #some people have inspiration tags n stuff #but again i wont push you on how to run your blog. its your own curated space in the end

[mellointheory]

two different people recently have asked me to marry them, like as a joke I think, but it's literally the most uncomfortable thing in the world and I'm KILLY AAAAAAA I hate it sm (I'm not rbing cause I think they follow me so uh) I just- like we're not friends and the other person I don't even know who they are and I just hate it it makes me violent >:( - ender

ohhhh like oh when someone you dont know THAT well goes "haha marry me" or does the flirty thing when you dont fuckin know them

tbh if it was like sent in an ask or smthn or in a message you could just be like "haha idk u that well and i dont feel entirely comfortable with that" or you could disguise it in a joking manner by going like "oh u gotta be a level 69 friend before you can propose to me"

#mello asks #poor ender :(

[pocmuzings]

i know you're the one giving compliments here but here's a compliment/funfact for you!! i've been following you for like forever now and i actually got really fucking excited when you followed me back bc i was like this funny/sweet/super nice person wants to follow mE??? anyways 🍓

omg . . imagine complimenting ME . . saying nice things like this  . . to ME . . ur local rat . . incredible . . .anyways . i literally . dont know wheree  to begin ? excuse me , im drunk and emotional but u’ve been one of my fave blogs to follow by far . seeing u on my dash is so utterly soothing  . its weird to say but i know ur url like off by heart and when i see u rb anything from me i Squee a lil bc im a LOSER . anywasy  i know we dont talk a lot , and im so sorry . but i love that we have this mutual respect and this friendship built , silently , from that ? like u always pop up randomly , to answer my posts , or add onto my rbs . ur always There and ur presence is SO welcomed by me . its so comforting to see u tbh ? theres something about u thats so homely and warm and welcoming . idk how to put it other then that , and that i love seeing u on my dash , in my notifications, or rbing anything from me . it literally lights me up , bc i really really do adore u and ur blog  . so much . its so WILD to me that u would even feel remotely the same abt me ?? like wow . . what joke world is this .. do u even know how amazing YOU are ?? 

NO MORE PLEASE ( but i’ll probably still compliment u anyways bc im a sucker )

#basically im utterly in love with u #like u have no idea #i know ur blog religiously #its creepy how well i know it #like u sending this to me #is like . . sza suddenly mssging me and saying #' im such a big fan of ur work !' like . .wtf #im a fan of UR WORK #???? #shutup g. #sorcerry