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walaskart · 5 months
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Let's Hang Together
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Chapter 3/7
The next morning, you wake to a loud knocking at your door. You quickly pull on your robes and boots, then open the door to see Mother Superior.
“Sister, the Papa has summoned you. Come with me.”
Without being able to respond, she begins to walk to the Papal chambers. You follow behind her, wondering why on earth Papa would want to speak with you. When you arrive, the Mother raps on the doors to the Papal office. You hear Papa call, “Come in!” from inside. The Mother opens the door for you to step in and as soon as you do, she closes it, leaving just you and Papa alone in the room.
Papa sits behind his desk, in his black robes and cornette. “Please, sister. Have a seat.”
You sit in one of the chairs in front of his desk, fiddling with the fabric of your robe between your fingers.
“Sister, I have an important compito, ah, important task for you. Now, we’re waiting on one more person to arrive but I suppose I can just fill you in before he arrives, si?”
You simply nod in response, not wanting to say the wrong thing.
“Good, good.” Papa claps his hands together and smiles. “First, some good news! With this task comes a promotion! You’ll be getting new chambers and less work comes with the position, something we could all use, eh? I know I want less work these days. Sister Imperator just keeps sending me on tour after tour and now so many summer festivals!”
“What exactly will I be doing, Papa?”
“Yes, yes. Scuse.” Before he can continue, there’s a knock on his door. “Perfect, this is who we are waiting for,” He says to you. Then louder, “Come in!”
Mother Superior opens the door, letting Swiss step into the office, then closes the door behind him.
“Congratulations, sister! You’ll be Swiss’s personal assistant.”
You look to Swiss in shock, just to see him standing there with a stupid smile on his face.
Slowly looking back to Papa, you speak as calmly as you can. “Thank you.” Those seem to be the only words you can get out.
“Of course. Ora vai! Off you go.” He claps again. “Shoo, shoo. Get to know each other, I have my own work to get to.”
You stand and bow, rushing to leave the office. Swiss is right behind you, laughing as soon as the door shuts.
“What did you do?” You turn to face him, stopping in the hallway.
“Nothing.” Swiss shrugs and walks passed you. “I just told Papa I wanted a sister to help me with  some things.”
“And?” You catch up to him, walking behind him, trying to give him a glare but he just kept his attention ahead of him.
“And that I knew the perfect nun for the job.”
“Why me?”
“You’ve caught my attention.”
“And if I don’t want to?”
Swiss stops short and turns around quickly, making you walk right into his chest. He grabs both your wrists to keep you from falling and pulls you close to him to keep you steady. “Let’s make a deal, honey.” He looks at you through those big lenses and smiles under the mask. That damned smile. From this close to his face, you notice he has two sharp fangs in the top row of his teeth. “You’ll be my assistant. You’ll be nice about it. And if you do a good job, if you last a week, I’ll take my mask off for you.”
“And if I don’t?”
Swiss lets go of your wrists and you take a step back. “I’ll leave you alone. Since that’s what you want so bad.” He leans forward, mouth right next to your ear to whisper, “I’d believe that lie a little more if you stopped blushing so much around me.” You feel your face get redder, whether it is with anger or attraction you couldn’t tell. You push past him, just wanting to get out of this conversation. Before you can get far, Swiss yells to you, “Is that a yes?” You just keep walking.
When you get back to your room, you see three nuns standing in front of your door with a pile of empty boxes. One of them speaks, “Mother Superior sent us to help you move.” You sigh and agree, opening your door to let them in. It takes you about two hours to pack everything from your room into the boxes.
“Do any of you know where I’m moving to?” You stack two of the boxes and hold them in your arms, ready to move.
The other sisters pick up the rest of the boxes and walk in front of you, guiding you to your new chambers. The one who answered your question when you first arrived answers you again. “You’ll be moved to the ghoul’s wing of the ministry. Your new room will be across from whatever ghoul you’re serving.”
You mumble some complaints to yourself as you walk. As much as you want space from him, you can’t help but want to understand him more. There was something about him that made you want to stay with him, but you also just wanted a normal life again.
As you turn down the hallway of the ghoul's wing, you see Swiss leaning against a wall. When he sees you behind the boxes you’re holding he perks up and jogs over to you. He takes the boxes from you and brings them into your new room.
“Alright, sisters. I’ll take care of her from here.” He winks at you before taking more boxes from the other sisters. They put down the rest of the boxes and leave quietly, intimidated by Swiss’s presence. “Thanks for your help.”
You start to unpack the boxes as he carries them into your new room. “I don’t have to call you ‘sir’ now, do I?”
Swiss chuckles as he brings in the last box. “Only if you want to, honey.” He opens the box labeled ‘decor’ to help you unpack. “You never answered me by the way.” He takes out your posters and sets them on the bare mattress to come back to.
“About what?” You’re unpacking your clothes, moving your shirts one by one into the new dresser.
“My deal. The mask.” He takes out some small statues from the box next and goes to stand next to you. He places the statues on the top of the dresser as he waits for your response.
“Sure. Only out of curiosity.” As you finish unpacking your shirts, you fold the empty cardboard box and place it on the bed next to the posters.
“Shake on it.” He places down the last statue and reaches his hand out. You roll your eyes and put your hand in his. His hand completely covered yours as he held it in a firm grip. After shaking his hand, you pulled back and tried to get back to unpacking.
“Pass me that box.”
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I'm so glad you're normal about Taika/Rita because so many people haven't been. And unfortunately, a big chunk comes from people just not respecting Rita.
I'm not saying she's perfect, she's made some mistakes, she's human. But people have looked down on her for years, mostly for vey flimsy reasons like 'tries too hard'. I even found an article from 2014 that basically called her the 'punching bag of the music industry'. Even when she wasn't really on my radar, people on Twitter and Reddit kept saying shit like 'never seen a Rita Ora fan, how is she successful', even though its understandable to anyone with an actual brain who thinks about it for a minute.
I remember when it came out she and Taika were together, people were just so rude about her (this was a bit before the huge turn against Taika). Just saying stuff like 'what do they even TALK about???' etc. They clearly though she was beneath him. I know people can date for shallow reasons, but it was the just so mean and disrespectful. Not even considering that he might actually like her for more than just her appearence.
As i'm typing this, im realising this might be another reason they work together (obligatory i don't know them), they both know what its like to be unfairly targeted and ridiculed by the media and the internet. It's one thing to sympathise with someone, it's another to actual have them understand how it feels.
Hey Anon! Sorry for the delay, trying to catch up on asks, lots of write ins the last couple days! Thanks! I think a lot of us are a lot more normal about Taika/Rita but the assholes tend to be louder. I LOVE that I'm seeing so many people since that IG post of his really rally together and start pushing back. You all are so inspiring and sweet! I know some people are being shits though on twitter so remember to block if people start getting nasty because no one needs that kind of abuse. Some super sweet folks here are getting harassed on twitter and I'm getting very mama bear about it. To your point, you're right, she's human, she makes mistakes, we all do, seriously. If you don't like her, fine but don't be a dick about it? Like spreading rumors and being shitty does nothing but make you feel better (the royal you, not you anon!). That's an interesting point, it's possible they bonded over their both having to deal with trolls, and it seems like their personalities really match up-- they're both goofy and fun, so having someone who has had that same kind of life experience would be really helpful supportwise.
I think what we've learned from all of this is that people are just dicks sometimes and if we can, ignore/block them because not everyone feels that way and the more voice we give them the more they'll shout.
Anyway, thanks for writing in anon, I'm so glad to hear there's so much love and support for Taika and Rita despite their faults. <3 The more we talk about it, the more it'll become normalized again and we can help make that happen.
Hope you have a lovely weekend anon! Take care!
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ask-velvette-official · 2 months
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Miss velvette please tell us you and @ask-cna-tadc Jerry's sercret to befriending Caine for I wish to ask him out on a date
:[ we're all desperate to know!!!
Also, 3 more questions that C&A hasn't really gave us a clear answer for, sorry again for askinh but uh
1. do you know what was on the friendship contract that Corrupt Caine gave to Jerry??
2. Is Corrupt Caine only tolerating Jerry because he acts like a male bisexual version of Pomni..??
And 3. Since you're his and @rabid-mercenary15 sassy auntie, do you know what happened to TADC Corrupt Au Jerry cause the last clue we got about his disappearance was him being chased by Bubble Dogs
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"Annoying pests is what you all are being... but since one of you had the decency to ask nicely, I shall inform all that I know. In return for this information, I claim your souls and you shall work for me since you piss babies like to mess with me, my work, bully poor @baxter-science-fish , or torment the Caines with marriage requests.. it's only fair after all this bullshit yes.."
Velvette huffs as she glanced over while she had her phone opened.
"Since Jerry a pathetic human with a living soul, I automatically took the time to make a private deal with him discussing certain manners in which I obtained his soul through a contract of my own of course.. which legally binds the deal, but.. regarding this deal.. I do have a few pieces of information to give out to you all, so by agreeing to give me your souls by signing here. You'll get your info.."
[VELVETTE SOUL DEALING CONTRACT]
By agreeing to sign and exchange your soul, you will by law be dragged to hell and forced to work with Miss Velvette until extermination, contract expiration, or decide to sign another contract to disable this one.. she'll receive an increase in power, status, and popularity.. you'll receive free information, legal labor, protection from other overlords except from Valentino & Vox, and the ability to temporarily shape-shift yourself but not your body. The curse you'll receive from breaking this contract by a certain series of contract breaking actions will be the curse of external hate and beauty lost. If you make a deal with another demon, specifically a higher overlord, the curse will be deemed ineffective. However, if the party signing this contract commits the following actions then legally the curse will be effective immediately. The following actions are considered: Harming the Three Vs, affiliating with Alastor, harming Baxter, ruining the three Vs reputation, harming Miss Velvette adopted mortals, and failing a job.
° If you agreed to sign then click here 💅✨️
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"You fucking idiots the sercret is patience, kindness, understanding of personal privacy, and manners you dumb fucks." Velvette laughed for a brief amount of time before she sighs and then conutine.
"Now then, the contract between Corrupted Caine and Jerry is not in public domain therefore it is illegal to state what was on it and I don't even know what was on it.. to answer your second question, from what I have heard he doesn't seem to know Jerry a 'male pomni' as you call him and from their past conservations he seems to befriend Jerry for their knowledge of weapons and how to kill.. also rabid did publicly state Caine thought he was pathetic which who wouldn't.. and third, from lovely private conservations (COUGH COUGH pms with C&A-) Corrupt Jerry is being hunted down by Lil corrupted caine so he can use him as a servant but also to use him to be taller than big corrupted Jax.. that's all you get.."
"Oh, and one more thing.. putain d'idiots, j'ai menti sur la troisième question et c'est ce que vous méritez pour m'avoir harcelé avec ces questions, vous faites chier les bébés et bonne chance pour traduire cela et réaliser. Che sei stato fregato alla terza domanda.. ora se hai traslato questa versione italiana.. sappi solo che quando tradurrai una o entrambe le traduzioni avrò messo una taglia sulla tua testa e la attiverò nel caso in cui farai un'altra domanda simile a Questo."
Velvette spoke three languages in a single sentence... God damn that was crazy..
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kaioftime · 5 months
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Lady Chronoa, so if you are the Supreme Kai of Time in Universe 7, does that mean there are other Supreme Kai of Time in other universes and by any chance, have you met them?
Also may you have a good day or night. 💖
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I am going to answer these together, since they're pretty similar!
To start with, it's a big case of yes, no, and everything everywhere all at once. I primarily watch over the timelines of Universe 7, working with other Supreme Kais of Time when needed. Our universe is... well. Lets just say it tends to be more troublesome than the others are. They don't have to deal with Time Breakers or other... anyways!!
I've met them, yes! I know the Supreme Kai of Time of Universe 6 the best out of all of them, Oras! But even then, we all RARELY interact unless it's a dire situation. This is a dangerous and touchy height of power, and we must be careful with what we do to keep our universes along the same time stream.
As for what I think of what you call "GT", I don't have any strong feelings about it? But it does match up closest to what my best squad come from, so perhaps I have a tiny bias! My lovely Xeno Warriors!
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gingericywolf · 1 year
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One of my personal headcanons is that Rei is a big pokemon fan.
Mainly because it was one of the first things he met at the start of his journey when he left the village.
When he was not training or checking out the food, or during long hours of travelling, you would see him play on a gameboy he got thanks to daitenji. He probably started either with the first gen or the second (not sure yet but I'm really leaning in him starting with Gold/Silver because it's the gen Raikou is from and you know... electric tiger thing is kind of all Rei's deal). Anyway he did play all the games. If he started with Gold/Silver he would have gotten Red/Green/Blue/Yellow at some point not long after, and really gets into the glitches that the first games where. His copy of Red is probably broken beyond hope.
With the years he gets all the new games, maybe not always at launch but as soon as he can for sure. He always gets one of the pair and then the third title, collecting the second game of the pair after. Diamond/Pearl/Platinum is when he starts getting more into the world building of the games, replaying the older ones and trying to want to put together all the little bits (look pokemon lore is. Something. Someone in there really cares and wants to build something).
Ask him about black and white you will not be able to stop him from explaining everything. The whole ideals Vs truth thing of the games and how Reshiram and zekrom are some of the best looking legendaries since Ho-Oh and Lugia (and that is just cause those where his first games). And also not a third game but a Duo Of Sequels?? White 2 and Black 2 gave him too much hope.
XY where enjoyable. The topic of life and death, more lore, the AZ thing. Megaevolution? Dam yeah! mega kangaskan broken af, amazing. Didn't really like the starters tho and overall the game left a bit of a weird feeling, like something that didn't reach it's full potential. Something that was changed at last minute. The post game with looker was nice yet seemed a bit out of place and Team Flare felt like a joke to the previous evil teams. Also NO THIRD GAME? NO Pokemon Z? No Zygarde lore? Damn.
I haven't tackled the remakes yet but Omega Ruby and Alpha Sapphire in this gen where probably his favourites of them all other than the Heart Gold and Soul Silver. The ORAS post game was great. Really anything that adds to pokemon worldbuilng and delves into the past of world is like catnip to him.
His Sun and Moon and Ultra Sun/Ultra Moon experience was kinda ruined by the fact that basically all the important bits where spoiled by the trailers and leaks, being when he starts being more online and active in online spaces. But Also these games are like a bomb of lore, maybe not well approached but fucking multiverse being canon in pokemon is wild. Ultra wormholes sucking people in and trowing people around causing them amnesia? He hopes none pf his faves suffers this (oh dear if only you knew ) yet maybe a little bit he hopes they do just to see them again earlier. Also the fact that is the first game where the grunts of the team you fight aren't really the evil team and the villain is someone else? Nice change. He liked team skull. On the other hand Lusamine initially reminded him of Judy a bit on first impression, until Lusamine goes completely batshit insane(Really the anime made her too nice for the little I have seen and she is awful in the games). And Again a duo of sequels, but this time they don't work as well, not adding much until later in postgame.
Now we enter in switch territory which for me is harder to work with, not having it and not being able to first hand play but
He is a nostalgic so of course he liked the Let's go. Seeing the pokemon in the overworld and seeing shinys was great, also using the joycon to launch the balls
Sword and Shield Are good, too linear, but good. Also first games that get DLCs. The new pokemon where nice, but didn't like any of the starters, and he enjoyed trying them and making different combinations. Hell he even got more into the pokemon competitive scene and loved it, he made his own teams for each different season! The combination of having more free time by not being a blader full time anymore and the lockdown really made him go down the hole of making the perfect team for him. He wanted to run a Rain team so that thunder had 100% precision but he felt good runnign a Sun team near the end of the season. He was close to reach the world championship but at the end didn't have enought points for the smallest margin. His pokemon flame was burning more than ever in this period.
At the same time the Diamond and Pearl remakes felt like a slap in the face. After ORAS he was exited to see how the lore would have been expanded in a 4 gen remake. Instead Brilliant Diamond and Shining Pearl are the exact same games as the original but with a style choice that.. works well in pixel and not that great like this. Anyway it was nice not having to wait 45 minutes for a chansey health bar to go down.
Then Legend Arceus came around and OH BOY YES. It felt like everything he ever wanted. Semi open world, able to see and catch pokemon on sight, playing in the past of a region he already knows, the region that started his lore obsession and it is not disappointing! The story, the characters, oh is that the train man for 5 gen? Cool! OH no wait, SAD!! why couldn't it be the other one. Sure maybe the graphics could have had some more work and there are some minor bugs but in the overall the game WORKS
He was working in his competitive team for the last tournaments before the worlds, so he played these last games slowly and mostly after the worlds. He enjoyed them even while the 9 gen talk was full on and leaks where booming everywhere. He had to block the pokemon tag to not get spoiled and the little he heard and saw made him worry
And when the games came out his worries where confirmed. Scarlet and Violet. When he sees the first experience shared He is disappointed. More than that. He feels cheated on. If he felt that XY where unfinished with these games it's an objective fact. Sure he is a nostalgic but there was no need to have a game so buggy and glitchy at times. Some are fun sure and he knows he abused the shit out of glitches in the first games but this has a different taste. And he is angry because he realizes he has been part of the problem for the longest time. That these games where pushed too fast. There was already a pokemon game out this year, what need was there to push another one. What bad could have done to delay it a little bit more. He knows it is not possible with the cards and everything else around it but is stills does not feel right. And he is sad. Because once again he sees potential. He sees improvment in certain aspects, He sees the work someone has put into these games, in the stories they want to tell, but the shell all around is just not working playing it. His friends watching him play can feel the duality of the feelings inside of him. Yes he got the games, he got them because he wants to compete again. Build a team early and test it. He is not fond of the estetic of the new mechanic but he already has found it interesting on how it challenges his knowledge of typings. There are not many new pokemon that he likes, he will still try them. Sometimes you just have to run with one to find a surprise bond with them. Still there are so many old gen pokemon that he likes that it is hard sticking to the new ones. Of course his starter is sprigatito. I mean he is a cat. He probably would change starter only if playing with a special someone that really wants the grass cat.
He is such a pokemon nerd that he even considered and then got the eeveelutions rings for him and his partner.
Anyway yeah this was supposed to be short but Rei said no you listen to me now I have things to say and feelings about this whole ordeal so here this is sorry for the long post
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doubleddenden · 6 months
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So Nintendo announced that they're fully shutting down any servers that the 3ds and wii u use for games
Except Pokémon Bank
Which is still on life support and, according to TPC, they encourage us to transfer to Home soon, meaning they WILL be shut down, probably within the year.
Realistically this was at the back of my head back when they first introduced Bank almost 10 years ago, but I'm still irritated about it.
First of all, let's look at the shut down of servers. XY, ORAS, SM, USUM all lose wonder trading, online trading, and gts- effectively meaning trade evolutions and version exclusives are forever lost to those games once that happens. That also means the only instance of gts we'll ever have now is in fucking Home. And that sucks.
Here's another thing: When Bank shuts down, what does that mean for transferring?
Well, we'll still have gen 3 to gen 4 to gen 5 transfer, they can't take that away from us because that was back when they cared enough to make transferring an in game mechanic.
But now we have the issue of gen 5 onward, and for that matter the gen 1 and gen 2 Virtual Console games. The only way to transfer those pokemon will be through Transporter, which btw has to connect to Bank, which is a cloud based service. Even further complicating things, you cannot transfer to or from gen 6 or gen 7 once it shuts down. Basically, pokemon obtained prior to gen 5 are stuck in gen 5, gen 1 are stuck to gen 1, gen 2 to gen 2, gen 6 to gen 6, and gen 7 to gen 7.
Looking at the current situation on Switch, we'll only have access to Kanto via the Let's Go games, Sinnoh/Hisui via BDSP and Legends Arceus, while Galar and Paldea are currently unaffected.
That means when Bank shuts down- and they will shut it down next year probably- we lose access to Johto, Hoenn, Unova, Kalos, and Alola- which btw Alola is not even 10 years old yet.
Even with a positive outlook that Unova and Johto are next up for remakes/re-remakes/revisits, that's still means that we no longer have access to 3 regions, and especially Alola for at LEAST 10 years at this rate.
Even further complicating things, as it stands with Indigo Disk on the horizon, we'll still be missing a few pokemon across the Switch games. It's a small handful, but those are still unusable.
Look, I get some of you have already labeled me an asshole manchild getting upset over something we all saw coming- fuck you btw, but I get it. It still just sucks so much ass. I know people that don't transfer don't get the big deal and are already typing up why i'm stupid and should just get over it- but to me, I've always enjoyed keeping each pokemon that's made a difference to my playthroughs throughout the years. That was a unique thing for Pokemon as a series that separated it from other games- i actually still have Pokemon from when i was 9.
What this means is that once Bank is gone, your pokemon are stuck, you cannot transfer anymore! If you want to play through those games, you'll have to erase any new pokemon! If you encounter a shiny in X or something after Bank closes, tough titties! It's basically gone forever.
This absolutely sucks. I literally haven't experienced this since I learned I couldn't transfer my very first pokemon from gen 2 to gen 3 back when I was a kid.
It also just highlights a humongous issue with modern games in general. Too much reliance on services that won't be available 10 years from now. Too much reliance on the assumption that game companies will care enough about preservation to keep things going even when it's not AS profitable- which it still would be.
Like again, I get that they couldn't "realistically" keep it up forever- Except tbh they could have if they actually gave a shit beyond what makes them more money than they'll ever need. I fucking hate corporate gaming. Like you CAN NOT realistically tell me they don't make enough money from Home subs and Go to just keep the damn servers up. It isn't that old! The technology can probably run from like, 1 broom closet at most.
Listen, if anyone smart out there can do this, I have an idea for you: create some sort of hardware that directly copies info from gba, ds, 3ds, and switch cartridges- especially Pokémon games- by plugging in said cartridges to a program of some kind. That program can then be used to essentially copy the process that Transporter, Bank, and Home uses to copy the specific data of of each specific pokemon and then inject that data straight into the cartridge, with no cloud service needed. At the very least fans need to figure a work around like they did the DS DNS servers for events and gts, or else we just have even more corporate sponsored lost media.
I'm upset, man. Fuck corporate pokemon. Fuck Nintendo too. Fuck all of this. There's no need for any of this except greed. I don't want to hear how Pokémon was being "gracious" by giving us more time, they're a corporation and I'm not kissing their asses anymore for doing the bare minimum, they can and should do better by their fans and have been getting away with far too much bullshit lately.
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gamerswift13 · 11 months
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Fallout 4!
Kia ora, friendos!
So I finally finished the main storyline in Persona 3 Portable a few weeks ago, and I just wasn’t quite in the mood to jump right into Persona 4 Golden just yet, so I’ve been kinda just bouncing around between a few different games and trying to find something that would stick while I work up the energy to get into P4G. I’ve played a bunch of stuff, but nothing really clicked… until…
Age of Empires 2: Definitive Edition has been out for a while on PC, but it recently (finally) made it’s way to console and of course, because it’s a Xbox Game Studios game, it arrived day-one on Game Pass. I adored this game when I was a kid, and, don’t tell the cops this but, it was the very first game I ever pirated. I still remember the disc, it was so cool. It was this beautiful gold colour (the images below don’t really do it justice) and it felt really neat to have a game I liked so much on this rad gold CD.
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So far I haven’t played a ton of the new remastered version, but I’ve played a few skirmish matches against the AI and it’s still a lot of fun - some of the best matches happen when you make the map as big as it can possibly be, set the population limit to maximum (500 vs the 200 in the original!) and then go off to build your empire, and next thing you know three hours have passed. I haven’t dared to venture into the online multiplayer matchmaking stuff yet, but I was looking at it the other day and I saw that you can play co-op with another human against the AI, and I thought that sounded really cool so I will probably give that a go sometime soon.
So that’s been one of my timesinks lately. Another is Cities: Skylines Remastered! This also recently came to Xbox Game Pass, supercedeing the Xbox One Edition version, which you can still play, but this one just looks and runs a bit better on the Series X|S consoles and on Cloud Gaming. And no, it does not include all of the DLC like the name kind of implies - that stuff is all still locked away in the Xbox Store. I don’t know for sure, but I would bet that it’s the same deal on PC, too.
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If you’re into simulation games, I probably don’t need to tell you about this one - it’s basically the answer to the question ‘What if SimCity, but good?’ Cities has taken over that whole genre for me nowadays, I don’t know if I’ve even thought about SimCity at all until writing this and thinking about how to describe Cities. But I digress. This game is great, and it is one of the biggest timesinks out there for me personally, with its never-ending gameplay loop of expand, add infrastructure and zoning, make the people happy (or don’t 🤷🏻‍♀️), rinse, repeat. I can spend many hours in a row playing this game without noticing, pretty much the very definition of a timesink. This past week I turned on a bunch of “cheats” so I could just mess around and not have to worry about money (I do that enough in real-life lol) or space and build whatever I felt like, whenever I felt like. But that’s enough about that.
Now for the big one: about a week and a half ago, I was going through my (ridiculously large) library of digital Xbox games, looking ostensibly for something I had not played yet, but when my eyes tracked across the screen and spotted Fallout 4 my brain said “We haven’t played that (in several years)!” and so I said “Fine.” And the rest was history. I’ve since completed the main story route with the Brotherhood of Steel, blew up the Institute, built a number of small settlements, and killed a lot of raiders, robots, and feral ghouls. At the time of writing, it is currently 3:30am because I stayed up all night playing this game. My cat is now very mad at me and wants me to go to bed.
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Fallout is great. But this one is my favourite, because of all the endless opportunities to scavenge in the Commonwealth for resources, and then go back to your bases to use said resources to build buildings or craft weapons, gear, or ammo. I can spend hours not even doing quests at all, just collecting garbage and turning it into something useful and cool. Plus there are so many great little easter eggs you can find around the world, which is why I decided to include two screenshots instead of just one.
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If you’ve never played a Fallout game, I think this is probably the best one to start with. A lot of people will argue with me and say that Fallout New Vegas is the better game, but those people are wrong. It’s at its core an immersive sim. Think things like Deus Ex Mankind Divided, or the more classic examples from Arkane; Dishonored and Prey. Except this one is set in a post-apocalypse some 277 years in the future. I really can’t recommend this series enough, and if all you have available to you is 3 or New Vegas, those are still really great entries in this IP.
Okay folks, that’s gonna do it for this week. Thanks, as always, for reading. Y’all are the reason I keep doing this. Stay safe out there, and I’ll talk to you soon. Ka kite anō au i a koe. 💚
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It’s a TOKARU!
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***WARNING!: THE FOLLOWING POST CONTAINS SPOILERS!***
So there is a pretty big story behind this set of drawings I did last year. A while back I had a conversation with @malamiteltd​ about how the Tokaru in The Utopian Legend got their name. It actually was caused by what is known as a grandfather paradox.
The story goes that Ora, the sunk lady seen in the first drawing, possesses the power to manipulate time and matter. One day she decides she needs to do something to help deal with the dark energy crisis. But instead of just throwing herself into the conflict, she decides to take herself back in time to gather as much information about how the crisis all began in the first place.
She ends up in some kind of mysterious laboratory within a castle, some time around 200+ years ago. Quietly, she tries to see what exactly is going on. That’s when she spots this tank with a floating blue creature of some kind. But it’s not just some mysterious creature. She’s seen this kind of creature before. Taken by surprise she bursts out “It.. it...it.. it’s a TOKARU!” just as the creature in the tank begins to open its eyes for the first time. Ora panics and decides to leave quickly. Thinking she just made a big mistake and possibly altering the timeline, she decides that she must take on a new personality and disguise herself if she is to continue using time travel.
However, this event is very significant as there is a Tokaru that’s around 200 years old that recalls something similar to this event. A Tokaru by the name Dan Tucker, Sketch Tucker’s grandfather. His earliest memory is floating within what seemed like an endless ocean hearing a woman’s voice say “Tokaru”, which is how he came up with the name. As it turns out, the Tokaru are not true Legends of Utopia, but are actually creations. But who or what created them in the first place, and why?
Now, I don’t know if I got the details of this drawing or story exactly right. I unfortunately do not have a log of the chat we had about this. So there maybe some details here that maybe inaccurate. But, this is how I pictured the this part of the story occurring since we talked about it.
The Utopian Legend © 1999 - 2022 @malamiteltd​ Artwork © 2021 - 2022 NS-Games
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uybawalmalaman · 1 year
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Potassium Entries
A written entry from May 6, 2022
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I feel like there is really something wrong with me. I can't stop looking at you. I know it's wrong 'cause my dearest friend likes you a lot, but how can I ignore you if you look that good? Plus, I hate the small details, it's probably nothing from you or even others, but for me it is a big deal, we have the same color of our shirt, last last week it was such a bummer that I changed my mind in wearing a gray blazer, cause you are wearing one. Now that we are wearing the same color, I felt like it was some sort of a sign. I am so delusional, don't you think? Mind you, I still do not like you and yet I feel these things. You know what's more funny? Nung nasa jeep ako hinihiling kong magkasabay tayo, like before, I am getting my shit together by not expecting that since I found out naman na may motor ka, pero nung napadaan na ako sa inyo tiningnan ko kung nandun ka, pero wala. Nung nasa school na ako, ikaw pa rin ang iniisip ko. When I had to go somewhere to photocopy our paper I wished na sana magkita tayo. Na papasakayin mo ako sa motor mo, na isasabay mo ako, pero wala na naman. Sinusubukan ko talagang alisin ka sa isipan ko, pero grabe, epekto siguro ito ng fact na dalawang taon na akong kulang sa landi kaya kumikinang ka sa aking mata. I should stop.
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Sa Avr ikaw lang ang tinitingnan ko, wrong move na sa unahan ka pumwesto, ako dapat ang nasa unahan para kahit likuran ko lang masilayan mo. Papansin lang ganon. Hindi na naman natupad ang delusions ko, na magkatabi tayo Group 8. Group 9. Bakit hindi na lang ginawang ganon? Ang turning point lang ata nung araw na ito ay nung bigla kang sumulpot sa likuran ko, swear nagulat ako. Bakit naman ganon? Tapos you strike up a conversation. My introvert ass kicked in. Tinanong mo ang title namin, sinabi ko ang simula pero dahil sa iyong mukha naging blangko ang utak ko kaya sinabi ko na lang na "Basta, ayun, mahaba," then yung reflexes ko kinuha yung papel namin and pinakita ko sayo. Sabi mo pare-parehas ot connected pala mga research natin. Sumagot na lang ako ng "Oo nga eh." Doon na natapos ang lahat. Alam mo kulang ako sa aruga eh, kaya simpleng gantong bagay big deal na sa akin. Nagflashback na naman lahat. Simple lang naman ito.
An Entry from July 27, 2022
He's too friendly... And too nice because if I were him I won't talk to me.
I am in my mess up state, had this big ass pimple on my forehead.
Of course, I couldn't look at him because he might sense something in my eyes. Eyes don't lie, you know. If I would be honest, he looked good, always do. I like his style. So much.
I don't want to like him, not 'cause my friend like him, but because I know I have no right to like someone in my batch ever again.
I made some horrible shits, and pretty sure he knows some of those. I can't be with someone who knows my shitty college life.
Plus, I do not want to like someone who supposedly liked me, but actually not.
If I have a chance, a chance to talk to him alone, I will ask him what was his deal during that time, was it to make fun of me? Or was it because he pity me? I want answers! I want to know why he found me good. Why he said "kainlab"?
I will only ask that if we are close enough... if dadating man ang panahong yon.
When I heard marami ang pumapantasya sa kanya ayoko nang makisali pa, I don't want to hurt myself anymore.
Wala akong time dahil baka sayangin ko na naman ang oras ko sa isang tao while also wasting my freedom.
Potassium 2.0
Why am I scared to like him if I obviously want him?
I want to... but I can't. Wait— am I making any sense?
Honestly speaking I feel like I am scared kasi baka mamaya spur of the momennt lang ito kasi dalawang taon na simula noong tumibok ang puso ko... kay Dennis iyon.
Plus, sa konti ng mga lalaking nakakasalamuha ko, it triggered my hormones.
Yes, I find him attractive, that's one of the sign.
But I also found other men yesterday as cute or not so bad.
But Potassium? He's cute and I really like his outfit, he has this shirt underneath his button off blue polo shirt, a washed jeans and white shirt.
White ang mask niya pero pinagpawisan siya ng malala kaya ayun nanghingi ng mask... I was perplexed... automatically ko na lang kinuha yung mask sa bag ko without saying anything. I gave the disposable mask to him.
And then I remembered, I tried that once kasi ayun dapat susuotin kong mask.
Shit.
But it was too late to say sorry.
That's one of the things I will apologize for when I talk to him... REMEMBER THIS MARGA.
Aftereffects
It's been five days and I stopped thinking about him, kaninang pagkagising ko si Tolentino ang nasa isip ko, I don't know why, hi di ko naman na gusto si T pero wala eh miss ko lang siguro, so I guess what I felt on July 26th, it was only a spur of the moment emtions lang talaga, bawi na lang ako sa next life ko for him lols, how I wish naging friends kami 'cause same kami ng humor. Too bad, I am a depressed individual who does not want to deal with any human interactions.
Lovestruck (October 30, 2022)
Kailangan ko na bang tanggapin na talagang tinamaan na ako sayo? Na I am just letting my brain and heart fight over that matter?
You see, this feels so wrong, hindi kita tipo, pero you have some things na I feel attracted to.
Mababaw lang ako, sobrang babaw ko to the point na nagiging crush ko na ang isang tao kapag nakipag-apir siya sa akin like noong grade 11 ako. Ganoon ako kababaw. Pero pag dating sayo nilalakasan ko ang loob ko upang huwag mahumaling sayo.
Ayoko sayo.
Oo, tama, siguro mas okay na kamuhian na lang kita, kaysa makisali pa ako sa mga taong nakapila para sayo.
Bakit kita pipilahan kung alam kong baka paglaruan mo lamang ako?
Batid kong may lihim kang agenda, hindi ko lang mawari kung tama ba ang instinct ko this time, pero minsan lagi akong tama.
Kaya alam kong may gusto kang makuha mula sa akin.
Kung nais mong mabaliw ako sayo, pasensyahan na lang tayo, hindi papayag ang utak kong pairalin yung puso.
Aminado naman akong nagkakatalo na sila pag dating sayo.
Sayo lang sila nagkaganito nang malala, pero dahil mataas pride ko, hindi ko hahayaang manalo ang puso kong minsa'y nafaflatter sayo.
Tangina bare minimum kikiligin? Porket nalaman na crush ako dati? Ang babaw, never nang papayag ang utak ko sa ganitong pangyayari, alam ng utak ko kung ano ang tama at hindi kaya kahit anong mangyari, hindi ka magwawagi, Potassium.
Sa totoo lang, sige friendly ka, pero gara naman na kung kailan nalaman kong crush mo ako dati tsaka ka magpapaka friendly sa akin. And wait is it even friendly if you are trying to ask fucking answers from me always?
Nakakaturn off. Kaya hindi ako papayag mahulog sa tulad mo. You're the worst.
Alam mo its better off na lang na nag stay ka as someone na bet ko dahil you are neat, talented and nice. But, damn, you are entirely not my type.
I like men who study well, who listen carefully sa lessons, someone na papakinggan ko dahil alam kong may sense ang sinasabi.
Are you even that type of person???
Hindi, 'di ba?
I hate you.
I don't want to despise you that much, but you are leaving me with no choice.
I am talking with guys because of you, so that I could erase you from my mind.
Para hindi na kita maalala. I even had a crush with Ram na sapilitan lang para lang huwag kang maging crush.
Ngayon, siguro oras na para kamuhian ka.
I fucking hate you with all my brain. Cause fuck my heart have a soft spot for you.
Tangina, February pa lang pinipigilan ko na sarili ko, kaya kakamuhian na lang kita.
I hope I hate you until the end of semester.
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sayitaliano · 2 years
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30+1 days Challenge w/ @lovelybluepanda
Everyday this month (May 2022), me and @lovelybluepanda will share our personal finds and opinions on a specific subject we decided beforehand. You can join us too in the comments or simply by tagging us in your post!
DAY 1 - MEDICINE
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"Baby, did you forget to take your meds?". This is my first thought on this subject. Meds by Placebo. Yeah. I have a song for whatever.
I have a very weird relationship with medicine: I like it, it intrigues me, but it also makes me uncomfortable. Maybe cause I had to take meds for a while in my life (and I still have to take some, especially because I'm allergic to whatever). Maybe cause my great-uncle wanted me to follow his steps and choose Medicine at the University. But I couldn't. It's not for me.
Medicine has been used since when the very first human communities were created: women were searching herbs to cure the infirms. Moving to the Ancient Mesopotamia, the Hammurabi Code holds the responsabilities of a doctor and also the punishments written in 13 clauses. You know, this means it's a big deal. And what to say about the Hippocratic Oath? Hippocrates has been the first to separate medicine from its religious and magical correlation (in the past, it was believed that illnesses were God-sent as a punishment for something people had done), making it a more rational science. And you really have to mean your vow, when you pronounce it. And it's getting harder these days, isn't it? Cause of all that is going on (but my problem is not about this... it's just that that's not my call: I do believe one has to feel a call whe it comes to their career, especially for this type of careers in which you have to have the will and guts to take care of others, no matter what).
BTW did you know there's an Italian village called "Medicina" (=medicine) near Bologna?
And knowing this, how cool is to think that, according to Bynum (History of Medicine Professor), exactly in Bologna, has been made one of the first dissections in Europe (1315, followed by one in Spain and another in Austria)? Still, dissections didn't become a routine until the XVI Century. Kinda cool news, right? Yes, probably a little too much. Sorry.
E ora un pochino di italiano: il corso universitario di Medicina e Chirurgia dura 6 anni, e prevede un test d'ingresso di cultura generale (molto generale, almeno fino ad alcuni anni fa, da quanto mi hanno detto amici ed amiche che lo hanno fatto). Molte matricole (gli iscritti al primo anno), svengono assistendo alla prima autopsia, e i ragazzi degli altri anni devono portarle fuori.
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This has a really dance, monkey, dance vibe to it. Way to dehumanize entertainers. And I'm not saying Taika (or Chris) is a saint. But he's not committing any crime or hurting anyone now is he, through his swinger parties or whatever? He's a grown man; the people he parties with all are adults and likely consenting. What's the big deal? None of this makes his politics terrible or disqualifies him from advocating for human rights issues.//
Well rita ora and taika threw an illegal party during the lockdown in london that even had to be broken up by the police. They didn't give a damn that people are suffering and even dying because of the virus... Taika was also accused of using his power to sleep with actresses. I don't know about you but they definitely don't have the level of judgment IMO to take political advice from them. He's just a hypocrite, in my opinion, trying to blind us with the common blah blah. If you think my opinion is dehumanizing, then I guess I'm dehumanizing him 🤷🏽‍♀️
PS: His lifestyle is anything but healthy. Drugs can kill you! He can ruin his life if he wants to but don't pretend his lifestyle is totally fine. Young people will take your word and will imitate him since your selling it as "not a big deal"...
Before this conversation goes any further, I’m going to need you to provide context or proof of his use of drugs (I don’t follow him closely so I don’t read news articles about him). Otherwise this is dancing into slander/libel territory. 🧜🏻‍♀️
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ladyappletun · 20 days
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Pokémon Improvements I Loved
Gold to Ruby
The MUSIC! I never thought I was the biggest fan of RSE's soundtrack (I think my favorites are DPPt, HGSS, and XY), but just hearing the improvement in the quality of the music, seeing how the composers could play with more instruments and parts to make the music more dynamic, was really cool. I was particularly fond of the Dive theme.
RUNNING SHOES!!! It is soooo nice to be able to go fast without getting on and off the bike constantly. I'm not sure running had to be associated with an item, especially these days, but just the fact that you can run at all and run so easily was wonderful.
Being able to choose your gender. It's kind of wild how, 20 years ago, having the choice between a boy and girl player avatar was a big deal, especially because games nowadays are kind of moving away from that (e.g., in Animal Crossing New Horizons, you're prompted to choose your "style" instead of your gender, and you can change it at any time). But for me at least, being able to play as a girl is nice. I could mostly ignore the fact that you have to play as a boy in RBY, but in Gold and Silver, there's quite a bit of gendered language and it just took me by surprise. My favorite is when you battle Blue; before the fight, he says "Ready, Johto boy?" P.S. I know you could play as a girl in Crystal, but since I played Gold as my Gen II game, this is the first time I'm getting the option.
The game makes it much clearer when an attack misses and when an attack doesn't affect the opponent. In Gens I and II, if an attack misses or it doesn't affect the opponent (like, using a ground move on a flying type), the game just says "It didn't affect ____!" It was really unclear to me, so I'm glad they finally changed it in Gen III.
When you're going to teach a Pokémon a new move, the game shows you a screen with all its current moves and the new one. You can see all the moves' power and accuracy, so you can make an informed choice about which moves you want your Pokémon to have.
The little pop-ups that tell you what route or town you're (again, I know this was added in Crystal, see my point on gender above).
Every city has unique houses, which really sets them apart from each other.
Dive is a really cool concept as an HM. Unfortunately, I didn't end up using it that much, because I didn't have enough patience to deal with the slow movement speed. But it's such a neat idea! Diving underwater to discover new Pokémon and hidden caves (especially as a part of the Regi Trio side quest) made me feel like I was discovering an uncharted new world. I'm looking forward to diving more in ORAS, where your character will hopefully move faster than in the originals.
Double battles! As I've said before, I'm not a huge fan of the meta game, but double battles give a lot more variety for Pokémon. It's nice to just have a different style of battling in the main game from time to time. Plus, at least in later games if not this one, you can team up with a friend in multiplayer battles, so battling with your friends can be a teamwork experience or an adversarial one.
Every Pokémon has a unique sprite in the party menu. It's nothing particularly mind-blowing, but it's a nice touch.
The PC's Pokémon storage system! God, it is so much easier to organize your Pokémon into little boxes instead of having a bunch of lists to navigate. It makes the Boxes feel much bigger, too, like you can store more Pokémon than you used to.
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A Sword Through the Fog
Scene 7: DawnHeart
"God-cursed fog," Juhn muttered to himself. "Are we going to be sitting here for another day?"
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The three adventures were sitting in the airship's dining hold. The Crossheart was more of a light corvette, able to hold upwards to twenty people of various sizes if the need was there. She laid her boots onto the table, invoking a look of scorn from her brother.
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"My ship, my rules," she said addressing his expression. "You wanted to get here now. Do you want to head back while Gusc loads us up?"
Juhn shook his head wildly. "No, no. We might as well just organize our equipment. Are you bringing your rifle?"
"Of course, I'm bringing my guns. I have authorization to carry. L.A.D.D.E.R agent privileges."
Raina shifted nervously. Juhn laid a hand on her shoulder.
"I'll show you to the sleeping quarters and you can relax as sister and I go through the lift-off checklist."
Raina nodded as Juhn led her below.
Lialka rubbed her chin as she mused over the trip they'd be taking as soon as the fog lifted. They had food, mostly beans and tack, six months worth of water and enough munitions for a mission or two. A mission or two in Eirstead, given the hordes of undead that skulked around at night.
"Raina," she sighed. "Why do you have to be so weird?"
Weird things were a common happening whenever the two siblings visited. She just attracted strange things. Fey creatures, lake beasts, even her boogeyman friend. It didn't matter what rare creature it was, it always found her. And now, the book. That damned book. Juhn had told Lialka that he'd begun seeing things. Not to the same extent as Raina - he could only see destruction, but since he touched the book he'd been more on edge. Almost as if he expected to be harmed.
This was why Lialka joined the Secure & Protect division of L.A.D.D.E.R. More freedom and getting to the bottom of the strangeness that surrounded Atasora. Those were what appealed to her. After all, it gave her an excuse to visit Raina more often and get closer to the forest. Lialka didn't know why, but the trees always called to her when she visited. She hadn't actually anticipated that Raina would become part of her job. She sighed again as she got up and pulled out some papers in one of the many crates she had dragged in on her way to Inthal. It was the size of a cannonball, filled to the brim with papers.
"Dreyus is going to want a report," she muttered to herself.
She thought up an excuse for Raina without having to inform her superior about what was really going on. Lialka didn't want to lie about Raina's strange abilities, but she knew all too well Dreyus' obsession with amassing strange and dangerous artifacts. The last thing she wanted was for Raina to become yet another one of his "toys". It was bad enough she had to deal with master sergeant Ravencroft from time to time. Hopefully, she wouldn't have to deal with him anytime soon on this adventure.
Even if she had been in reverie, she'd have heard the shallow taps coming from her left.
Dorathi, that bitch, she thought to herself. Which wasn't totally correct. If she were speaking ontologically, she'd be the bitch. After all, she was part wolf-kin.
She licked her fangs as she reflected on that fact. She arched an eyebrow as she felt the sharp pang of a cut on her tongue. She'd have to file her teeth down.
"Yes, I'm alone. They'll be a while," Lialka said softly.
Dorathi pulled back the boards on the wall and carefully crawled out. She took a piece of chalk and marked an x on the boards she had entered from.
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"My crossbow's there," she said.
"Why are you here? I thought you were going to stay in Dimspire. Please tell me you're the only one."
"You're the only one."
"Ora-Laho's big toe! Dorathi, why do mom's goons have to get involved?!"
"It's been a long time since the two sisters have had anyone to listen to them. Hardly anyone listens."
Dorathi's eyes narrowed as she finished her sentence. Lialka grimaced.
"Wait, isn't Juhn a Grail-knight? Doesn't that count?"
"He's not connected to Galiloen."
"Raina's connected to Galiloen?!"
Dorathi facepalmed before looking for an exit. Lialka chuckled.
"It's fine. The crew quarters are soundproofed."
"That's a security risk."
"The ladder leading to makes chiming sounds as you walk on them. And there's an alarm and a command word to activate it in the case of an emergency. We're safe here. Except from you until Boto gets back."
It was Lialka's turn to narrow her eyes.
"I still don't know how he's able to track me. Even you have trouble finding me."
"Not always. Sometimes I just let you get away. After all, you're family. And you work for mom."
"My loyalty is to the Wizards of the Scrying Eye, not it's arch wizard."
"It still doesn't change the truth."
"Lialka, when will you stop confusing facts for truth. What I said was it. It's only a fact that your mother is in charge for now."
Lialka arched an eyebrow.
"I'll be in my hidey holes. I'll come to you if I need anything."
"Need anything?" Lialka asked.
"I have rations," Dorathi replied.
Dorathi grabbed her crossbow, wiped the chalk off of the wall and climbed up to the ships deck.
Lialka sighed. Hopefully the ship would be ready by evening latest.
I wonder what those two are up to, she thought looking towards the crew quarters.
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i-wrote-this-4-u · 6 months
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september 21, 2023 — thursday
i almost forgot that i have this blog. i used to type all my feelings away kasi i'm not really good at expressing it sa salita and i feel like hindi ako nagmamake sense kapag sinasabi ko sya. so i'm gonna try to make this one since di pa rin naman ako inaantok. then maybe, i can show this to you or maybe not.
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dear marco,
i love you. i just wanna make that clear. i love you more than our arguements, i love you more than our misunderstandings, i love you more than our fights. idk why i always have this urge na ipaliwanag ang sarili ko para maintindihan ng maayos, siguro kasi i am always misunderstood since i was a child and nadala ko na paglaki haha. grr ewan
for me to better explain my feelings, i know i have to put my feelings away when explaining. so here's the gist of our conversation earlier and my take on it without being dramatic lol
- late ka ng 20 mimutes sa oras ng usapan natin.
again for nth time, I ALWAYS UNDERSTAND whatever reason kung bakit di ka nakasunod, and I KNOW na few minutes SHOULDN'T BE A BIGDEAL it is just a matter of YOUR CHOICE.
ang big deal sakin para dito is the fact that (a) we already have an agreement, and i always expect you to adhere to it. (b) adhering to our agreement makes me feel like YOU VALUE me, and I MATTER TO YOU. yes, hindi naman nga sukatan yon pero thats what it feels like sakin kaya siguro ganun na lang reaction ko. but i love you, regardless.
• i promise to try and not be so hard on you when it comes to things like this. i appreciate naman and i can see it na you are respecting me and our agreement, i just alwats tend to look way past that kasi naooverpower ako ng nararamdaman ko. i'm sorry mahal, i love you.
now, i wanted you to know this para na lang sa ikatatahimik ko kasi feeling ko pag di ko to nasabi eh mababaliw ako.
(1) OA
- when we have our conversations like this, it is so important to me na masabi ko lahat kasi it (again) validates my feelings. i wanted you to be aware of the situation and how i felt about it. BUT having this in thought, naiisip ko din na, hala baka ang OA OA ko na at baka napapalaki ko na lang mga bagay bagay, baka nakakaikirta na ako.
• siguro mahal kapag ganito, hayaan mo lang akong magpaliwang ng feelings ko para ma satisfy nya yung need ko na ipaliwanag ang sarili ko — i am fully aware naman na nagegets mo agad point ko sa mga unang salita pa lang, but listening to me, engaging with the conversation, and understanding me makes me feel like I AM HEARD. na validate yung mga naramdaman ko. pumapasok din dito yung sinabi mo na tama na kasi madami pang dadagdag na unnecessary shits kapag magexxplain ako, kasi hahaba. and you are right, hmm i guess its just the matter how we communicate lalo na sa mga oras na we really need to COMMUNICATE.
(2) Instant Snap
- earlier you cut me off and bigla kang napataas ng boses and sinabi mo na, "mahal tama na" while i am still speaking. i understand where your coming from. the perspective na, naiintindihan naman na nga pero I still kept on explaining my side, nakainom kaya syempre siguro antok na din. but despite knowing that, I was stunned. for a brief momemnt there I was genuinely hurt and was like "wow okay??" thats why when I ended the call I couldn't even say i love you. but again after ilang minutes i tried calling you kasi i realized that was a dumb move
• i know this part is on me. masyado ako palagi nadadala ng emotions ko. i guess, i really have to have a system wherein i could take things slow muna whenever we have a misunderstanding so when I talk with you na, it doesn't seem big deal than it once were.
lastly, siguro mas okay na ibuhos ko muna yung mga gusto ko sabihin dito before sending it to you. i know na sometimes I am too much too handle, and nafrufrustrate ka agad sa mga bagay na madali naman na sana solusyunan but me being me, gusto ko naipapaliwanag ko pa ng ayos yung effect sakin, without thinking na it has an effect din sayo. for that, again, i'm sorry mahal.
i love you so much.
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morningmouse · 8 months
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8/7/2023
Hello! It's been months since I uploaded here and now I'm gonna talk about what happened so far in my life. My friends in college graduated already last June and it was a bittersweet feeling as I am happy for them but at the same time, I don't have anyone to rely on in my last year of college (hopefully) because they're not in school anymore. Also, last time when they are preparing for graduation I have this feeling of kasuya to them because they are graduating and I'm not. I kept on overthinking my past like regretting my actions before and thinking of the future. Pero karon kay medyo okay na akong feeling and ginatry nako mag focus sa present. I need to practice what I preach. I kept on saying na live on the present but somehow I find myself sometimes overthinking about the future. Well, I still sometimes worry about future but I'm working on the present me. I've been working on myself lately, minsan dinadalaw ng insecurities minsan naman hindi. The guy that I'm talking to last May kay gastorya gihapon mi now. I was asked by an acquaintance by "what was I holding to in your relationship?" I really don't know. Maybe I got attached to him kaya siguro maglisod ko ug end sa iya even though I want to end it. He's good but not for me. Nagsisi ko kay nag reply back ko sa iyang ily's na for me it's a big deal. Nadala jud ko sa emotions last time ayy. I don't really have a reason para iend kay gusto sad nako sya as pampalipas oras but he's kinda getting on my boundaries sometimes. Like we talked in mornings, afternoons, and evenings everyday and it's getting on my head sometimes. I need to clarify more about this relationship cause all I know murag di kaayo sya good sa ako. Well, magklase nami this 9th of August and wala koy ginalook forward jud sa college. I don't really have friends na nailook forward nga muadtog school. Kailangan na nako sanayon akong sarili nga mag isa. I'm gonna be greedy this year, like good greedy ig. Higher grades, higher good performance, passing thesis, passing all exams and subjects, getting into intern, having a high paying part time job, better me, declaring these in the universe✨✨✨
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