also i miss being in youth group myself as a teenager and having a youth leader who would lend me a shoulder to cry on bc I don't always want to go crying to my mom but now that I'm an adult I can see that every Trusted Older Person also has their own difficulties and troubles in life and so I can't burden them with mine as well
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“your anxiety doesn’t show when you’re doing a presentations, you’ve done a good job working through it!” yeah cool thanks a) i get loud and fast when i’m anxious not quiet . so i come across as annoying <3 and b) that’s bc i’ve sublimated all my social anxiety into Unending Terror about The FutureTM
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Thinking about how transphobes are always like "debate with me! Justify your existence to me! Explain why you're mad! Make this make sense to me!" But you can be as levelheaded and straightforward as possible, you can beat yourself down and make yourself small and nonthreatening or you can be stern and hold your ground. You can post countless sources and news articles. You can give them statistics. Undeniable proof. But they just don't fuckin care. And the second we become mad and aggressive they use it against us. They say they don't take us seriously because we're too sensitive and irrational. But that's a lie. They won't listen to us or take us seriously no matter how we act because they just fucking hate us! There is nothing we can possibly do to be better to these people.
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i do believe that its a rotator cuff tear but the doctor did an 'xray' apparently, and they couldnt find anything wrong with my arm????
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Man loving bugs is so gd rough sometimes like you try to show off a cool picture you got or reassure someone who’s scared of them that what they are dealing with isn’t dangerous and you’re just met with dismissive comments or “just kill it” and shit like man one day I am going to fucking snap
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It's really frustrating to be trying really really hard and feel like you're doing the equivalent of paddling in place- even though you should be moving forward-
but the other person is not seeking out resources for how to paddle, or manage their part of the kayak, and you're starting to sink because of it.
And like, you know, if you're feeling the water on your ass, and you're at the front, they've gotta be up to their waist or more in it. But you're busy keeping things sort of okay, you can't check in on them. So you only feel that you're getting wetter than you should be, and going nowhere, and they're struggling. And it's your problem- because you're in the same fucking boat- but they won't take your help. They won't listen. They half hear the directions. They can't help it.
But after a while, it's so. Fucking. Frustrating. And it feels like it'd be easier, despite having made it so far, to swim back to shore alone, and try crossing again.
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