Bassically this is thier first time seeing each other again after thier first meeting, before he had died.
now flower fruit mountain is burning and Nezha see's the kind man with orange hair in an entirely different light.
also the little breakdown is just my hc about nezha disguising himself as an adult so he's not constantly condescended and fearing anyone seeing through the disguise.
So I decided to redraw my “humanizations” of the equestria girls (no you won’t be seeing that drawing it was bad) and it kinda spawned a hyperfixation. I care them so much.
They’re just 😭💕✨✨✨
Y’know? Probably not. But like I just had so much fun with this. The redesigns that give me the most serotonin are probably Rainbow Dash, Pinkie Pie and Fluttershy. The one that gives me the most gay panic is probably Applejack. Twilight has such a gender. And Rarity is just like so iconic. Also their names are supposed to be what I feel their handwriting would look like.
Idk I just it hit me like a train seeing my art of them again. Like I had the insatiable urge to draw them again. And then I searched for fanart to give me inspiration I just I care them so much and then the hyperdixation spawned and I got silly and went a little crazy so many ideas omg lmao
you know what is so annoying. how im capable of having Eloquent Thoughts about some media but not others. like i wrote an entire essay on lilith clawthorne's experiences with glass child syndrome and how it affected her treatment towards eda in the first season, but with dndads i will just point at the oak family and be like. oh neat
When you say 'I am constantly thinking about death' I just hope it's a morbid fascination and interest in the topic, and not the desire to die. I hope it's because you think bones are cool and maybe you want to get into Vulture Culture, and not thinking of ending your life.
I hope you know that you are valued. People love you and this world would be a much less beautiful place without you in it. I hope it's not suicidal thoughts and I hope you just want to show off your bone collection, or your hoard of preserved creatures in jars.
I hope you don't think of leaving yet. I hope the reason it's constantly on your mind is because you long for your moots to be by your side, helping you reconstruct critters from a pile of bone you found wherever you got them.
It's not really morbid fascination, but thoughts I'm forced to have? I don't like these thoughts and I'm only thinking them when I'm at a really low place. More often than not, I am very happy to be alive and witness the word around me!! I love my family and art and strangers online and the sky and the clouds and a fun video game with a whole fandom around two of it's characters! These thoughts are suicidal and scary to me. I feel them very strongly and there are times I want to crash my car! But I won't! Because I know I don't want to in the long run! I love being alive and I have a very strong desire to be alive and seek help instead of leaving. I think these are more like intrusive thoughts! And they hit at my weakest moments which makes them feel real, but they aren't! I'm staying right here for as long as I can! I wanna make it to 100!
Staring up with her big autistic eyes. Vibrates so subtly that it's near imperceptible but the hum is just faint enough to be excruciatingly obnoxious.