#shiishki.rambles

[shiishki]

tell me you hate me

tell me you don’t want to see me ever again

tell me how horrible i am, how much you dislike me

tell me how you hate the way i act, the way i speak and look

tell me that i’m the worst person you’ve ever known

tell me you hate me, so that i can finally stop missing you

tell me you hate me, so that the thought of coming to see you leaves my mind

tell me you hate me, please, so that i won’t wonder about you

tell me you hate me.

#shiishki.rambles #poetry #back with my bs i guess lmao

[shiishki]

I HAVENT SEEN YOU IN AGES HELLO ???? HOPE YOURE DOING WELL LOVEL MY I MISS TALKING TO YOU GRRRR 🩷🩷🩷

OMG HELLOOO i have been a mere ghost here recently qwq

i’m doing good!! hbu?? we haven’t talked in forever shidgskd i missed u too <33

#shiishki.rambles

[shiishki]

sometimes i see people have reblogged my very old stuff, the old fanfics i have written and then buried in the depths of my blog and it just. it just makes me so incredibly happy that some people find those fics and that they bring them joy <3 yes especially when they leave their reactions in the tags? of my dear heart

#something i made brings people at least a little bit of joy akdjfjf #that’s the reason why i didn’t delete them #i know i have a few from a fandom in which there’s not all that much self inserts and so i just left mine up #also this is tumblr #who’s gonna judge me for posting silly little fanfics here?? #shiishki.rambles

[shiishki]

i am so disgusting for making my silly little things without spending money, aren’t i?

#just a rant post #but how are you supposed to react when someone asks you how you made xyz and you tell them the cheap way in which you did and they just #they just stare at you. they stare with such disgust that it makes all the pride you had of that nice xyz thing die #and for what. there’s literally nothing disgusting about people creating something in a maybe unconventional way and without spending money #that person also apparently doesn’t know about thrift stores #shiishki.rambles

[shiishki]

WIP Intro: temporarily lnd

[ID: gray toned picture of towers partially hidden by mist with a text in the middle saying temporarily lnd with a gradient of dark to light as the text is layered on the dark coloured towers.]

Rhys is a boy who tried to save everyone. Ren is a shapeshifter who doesn’t know what she is anymore. Gene is boy who keeps spiraling into deeper trouble. Cailie is a witch on the run from her family. Afisto is a boy who lived in lies. Caeden is an elf who just wanted to see the world. And their realities keep shattering. Additionally, Mezenel is there.

current status: draft 1

wordcount goal: at least 70.000 words

genre: fantasy, dark fantasy, YA/New Adult

themes/tropes: lgbtq+, poc cast, found family, finding your own truth and morals

pov: third person limited, past tense, multiple povs

taglist: @shjdqkwnkdnwkndkneidbienifn @tommie-hildebrandt @hysteriwah @henrike-does-writing-sometimes @the-starlight-writer @absolute-nonsense-scribblings

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#not me being anxious about no one caring :) #wip intro #shiishki.rambles #shiishki.writes #shiishki.wip; temporarily lnd

[shiishki]

wait actually don’t watch link click you’re gonna be a wreck and i don’t need the responsibility

#it just follows me everywhere now o-O #i had an idea for fanart with a cool background so i sat there just sketching but what if i add blood splashes #like what owO where did that come from #listen. i know it looks great. gay time travelers? yeah that had me on the edge of my seat too #but you get sprinkles and crumbs of backstory and fruity moments in comparison to just.. angst. heavy feels #so uh if you value the time you spend crying over fictional characters maybe don’t watch it #but also it’s amazing and i loved it #i might rewatch it actually and have tissues this time #shiishki.rambles #shiishki.is being unreasonable #link click #shiguang dailiren

[shiishki]

“Is something the matter, commander?” he asked carefully.

“No it’s-” a sigh escaped his lips, he leaned in closer to Rhys as his voice dropped to a breathy whisper. “Just be careful around the officer, she’s… she doesn’t like when things don’t go her way.”

Rhys furrowed his brows at the remark, he looked into Thatcher’s gaze, almost expecting him to burst in laughter, but he didn’t. Instead commander Thatcher just nodded a few times too much, as if to reassure himself before he began moving again.

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#yea uhm sowwy rhys the next chapter is gonna be so mean to you #but the show needs to go on #let the angst happen #shiishki.rambles #shiishki.is being unreasonable #shiishki.writes #shiishki.wip; temporarily lnd

[shiishki]

not me starting a new wip. again. and only like a week before i need to go back to school owo

#i have such wonderful timing #it’s gonna be a first time writing like.. very modern stuff. i’m talking stark tech kinda thing #not me just thinking of all the other wonderful games with that futuristic aesthetic #actually i’m in the mood for more 👀 #shiishki.rambles

[shiishki]

[ID: a painting with warm tones, and a hand in the middle facing upwards. there’s a golden arrow between the fingers downwards. in the middle is a white line with creamy almost white text spelling “myth wip”.]

The myths are fading. Only a few of the ancient stories are still whispered in hushed tones, deformed and nameless like Casics. New ones born and fading from memory, some surviving and thriving in their own legends like Felice, eager to see more of the world.

In that world, Sen is a simple human, with wishes and dreams, discovering myths by accident. Noe carries small empty bottles with him, chased by fears and nightmares.

current status: brainstorming/draft 1

word count goal: 50.000

genre: fantasy, dark/high fantasy, adventure, YA/New Adult

themes/tropes: lgbtq+, poc cast, witchcraft, pagan and wicca, religious beliefs

pov: third person limited, past tense, multiple povs

taglist: @shjdqkwnkdnwkndkneidbienifn @tommie-hildebrandt @godknives

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#finally got this done :3 tho i think i might change the description soon to something better #shiishki.rambles #shiishki.writes #shiishki.wip; myth wip

[shiishki]

i completely neglected my event 🥲

#and it’s just #i just lack the energy to do it i guess? #like oh #shiishki.rambles

[shiishki]

not me getting my feelings snatched by a pretty person again

#am i gonna listen to a bunch of cheesy love songs? yep #shiishki.rambles #shiishki.is being unreasonable

[shiishki]

dumbass by day and anonymous dumbass simp online by also day because i pretend to sleep at night

#shiishki.rambles #shiishki.is being unreasonable

[shiishki]

After a bit of hesitation he knocked on the door, almost expecting it to fall apart. It didn’t, instead Gene whipped around, dagger in hand.

“Hello there, I suppose you saw my request?” the man- boy, spoke. He had a grin on his face as wind ruffled his sandy hair. He stood a comfortable enough distance away, though Gene kept the dagger in his grasp.

“Of course I saw it, just like any other thinking person, was the group expecting you armed to their teeth a part of your genius plan?” Gene spat out.

He looked like Afisto. Or, what Gene imagined Afisto to look like now.

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#don’t we love ourselves some memories #also gene i’m really sorry for what’s about to happen #shiishki.rambles #shiishki.is being unreasonable #shiishki.writes #shiishki.wip; temporarily lnd

[shiishki]

someone’s gonna be in the teams meeting to play a game with us to give us job ideas. i have no idea if it’s gonna help my chaotic brain any further but i’m looking forward to not doing math.

#a week camp was supposed to help me do job things. spoiler it didn’t #it taught me that my ‘friends’ won’t bother asking me if i’m ok if i don’t come to them and sull in their faces #fun #shiishki.rambles

[shiishki]

i am torn between two lines; „you’re gonna die here. yes!” and „what exactly are we trying to raise up? hope?”

#yes i have it again #very swert very bitter #shiishki.rambles #shiishki.posts tiktok stuff #shiishki.is being unreasonable

[shiishki]

"Of course that was a lie, Afisto! You came there to kill me, do you really think I'd tell you the truth?"

"That's not true, I received a report so I had to question you-"

"You tried to find out if I could be executed, not about why I used magic against that guard," Hirath hissed.

"So you did use magic?" Afisto raised a brow.

"I never said I didn't, I said I didn't use it to seduce him," Hirath said with hurt in his voice.

"Why did you use it then?" Afisto asked.

"Why would I tell you?"

Afisto blinked, Hirath's gaze returned to the cold ground of the cell. The chains and shackles jingled as he shifted in hopes of being more comfortable or at least a little less cold. Afisto thought back to when he visited Vinni in her cell, shortly before her execution. He still wasn't sure whether the choices he made were the right ones, but he didn't want to think of her now. Not when he was with Hirath.

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#mhmm love myself some angst #i love them #i also hate afisto at the same time but that’s not important #hirath tho? i’m sorry for him i’m way too cruel #shiishki.rambles #shiishki.writes #shiishki.wip; temporarily lnd