#shes more like a carer sort of idk how to word it and frankly idgaf

[wingedbeings]

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#therapists can just be.. so annoying sometimes lmao #like stop feeling bad for me for things ive accepted n know rnt going to change #stop becoming awkward abt it bc u cant accept whats been mt entire life #im not here to sit and make u feel better abt my circumstances? the fuck #idk im just mad this shit sucked #like that is not what theyre here for #like she would help me get a psychiatrist again for my meds n get my papers sorted n next steps n shit #like options or whatever idk #not whine at me abt my own situation #i dont feel like even explaining it to her #like the details and whatever #it doesn't fucking matter #thats not what her job description is and what we decided on #shes not a therapist in the sense of like being a therapist #idk how to explain it bc its region specific #shes more like a carer sort of idk how to word it and frankly idgaf #im just mad bc i dont care to do pointless shit anymore that will just open shit back up i have to repress and remain dissociated from to #survive #theyre not going to give me shit in terms of stabilisation and trauma therapy and frankly ive given up on treatment i just want to get my #meds and diagnostic papers sorted which is what sheshere for -_- not whining to me abt my own situation that literally cannot be changed #like i am repressing this shit in order to survive lol just leave it alone #dont think repressing is the right word bc were dissoxiating from it and shit like that n overall just still doing the trauma survival #response but ya -_- idgaf rn im just tired of the healthcare system and ppl who pretend to give a fuck #this isnt explained right so dont think u get the whole situation from this single post n make assumptions and what not #im just venting abt parts of it n already explained more than i wanted to #moss.exe #i dont feel like making this shit palatable for others n whayever anymore i tried not to mask as much today too n shit bc i just am so #genuinely tired and just mad like i don't feel like makingmyself care anymore #i have to still mask n hide shit n phrase it specific ways to even receive the bare minimum lmao but im just so over doing anything more #we were going to say more but dissociation n whatnot so cant remember :) byee