#she got Fucked Up tho

[inkskinned]

so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.

first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.

it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.

and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.

you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.

and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.

your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.

in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.

in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.

so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.

you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.

once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.

and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"

you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?

hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!

you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.

we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?

#where's the word woman in this u might wonder if u suck #good news i am nonbinary and have a uterus so that is something that can happen #im also gender fluid tho which means im immune to certain psychic damage bc if u call me a woman i'll be like <3 okay <3 #writeblr #the tightrope of ''ppl need access to this'' #and like also #''what the fuck is going on over there'' is like. so difficult as an activist #i was <3 punctured <3 during mine #and almost bled out on the table :) they didn't have anyone standing by bc it's ''just a little insertion'' #so i started crashing and i vaguely remember apologizing for the fuss as i heard my heart rate monitor start going <3 tachycardic <3 #she wasn't even a bad doctor tbh #ps btw the reason i even HAD a heart monitor is that i have a genuine heart condition and they knew GOING IN that there was a chance #i'd crash on the table #like my heart just likes to do fun little tricks and <3 stop working <3 (i do not want to discuss the specifics ty i am okay im ontop of it #and they were like 'oh u will be fine' and then she did do a puncture thru my uterus . pop! #and im sitting there dizzy and feeling my heartrate start to drop bc it feels almost. beautiful. like. the whole ground just #woosh! out from under you. and shit is like grey's anatomy. i'm looking up at her grey eyes #she's old she wears this nice shawl she's like got Cool Lesbian vibes and people are sprinting into the room #from other parts of the clinic unrelated to me. while the monitor is like a little aria singing #and shes like hey youre okay stay awake stay with me something went wrong we have to keep trying #and i remember thinking - i was trying to think of nice things. i have so many beautiful places that now overlap #with this terrible memory #i became dimly aware that there was too much on her wrists and hands. like #that was too many liters #and then when they had finished all this. i packed up and drove myself home #i have had (bad thing) happen to me. and the same feeling happened after #that numb almost lamblike bleating. you cry without noise. like. ur body is so shocked and ur mind so empty #you just stare at the road and everything everything is happening behind glass and static and you are standing so far away from it #while you hold ur hands at 10 and 2. and something in ur brain is SCREAMING at you - IT WAS BAD AND IT SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED #and ur just watching the alarms in your body going off and youre thinking. a little pinch! ha. i think i just lost something important.

[send-me-a-puffalope]

just watched the new ghostbusters movie with my friend and truly, awkward teenage lesbians will both end and save the world.

#guys i have a type #blonde girls who are manipulated due to/by family and end up fighting for the side of good anyways #i saw melody and her Issues™️ and got attached to a dead girl #her whole thing with phoebe was gay as fuck tho you cant convince me #they did the thing that natasha did in what if to peggy where she looked back at Phoebe longingly and then stepped into the light #truly a tragedy that she was. yknow. dead and her whole arc was moving on into the afterlife #so she couldn’t have a sapphic little relationship with mckenna grace #some of the writing was kind of weak and it felt like a lot of fan service cause a lot of the characters didn’t do anything during #the climax of the movie or i just didn’t care for their story #but it’s really fun as a movie itself and i highly enjoyed myself so honestly that’s all that matters to me #ghostbusters frozen empire #phoebe spengler #melody ghostbusters #nat’s rambles

[quirkle2]

i would literally kill a man for her.

#qkdraws #she's? so cool. #i wanna be just like her when i grow up <- is an adult #she's 100% my second fav of pkmn sv. arven is first and rika takes a close second #the Moment i saw her i was like ''holyshit . ohmyfu kfign god. holy fuckign jesuschruist what the fuck ohm y'' #of course she has blue hair and pronouns #her transgender swag is unmatched and her team genuinely gave me the most trouble even tho she's the first elite four #i swept everybody else but for some reason she like . beat my ass a little bit #she's so cool. holy shit girl go #pokemon #pkmn #pokemon scarlet and violet #pkmn sv #pokemon rika #rika pokemon #pkmn rika #rika elite four #elite four rika #i gave her some scars. i do what i want #she's a pkmn trainer she's got scars. shit's dangerous

[otrtbs]

dating is so hard bc wdym neither of us knows how to drive like … if i’m a passenger seat princess and you’re a passenger seat princess then who’s driving the car ???????

#she’s like ‘u can drive to come pick me up 🥰’ #and 27281 curbs are injured and i pull up shaking and crying x #when i live in a walkable city with public transportation again then EVERYONE will be sorry !!!!!!!! #nat vs car and the car wins every time. #i once got almost crushed by an 18 wheeler on my to austin and it was 2933928% my fault #:( #i’m not like a super bad driver tho i just hate it immensely and never want to do it bc. well. it’s fucking scary.

[azure-clockwork]

I love three houses discourse because I'm pretty sure everyone just picks their route based on which house leader they're the most gay for and then tries to defend their pick by pointing out the other sides's war crimes via twitter memes. Reader, all four of them do substantial quantities of war crimes. So many. We're just here because the woman with Issues and a big fuck-off axe said so, and then we gotta justify everything she did in the name of dismantling the class system. I mean, I'm here for that, but you could also try justifying Charm Man uses poison and perfidy to try to stop racism, A Sad Little Meow Meow gives no quarter instead of doing therapy, or the Thicc Pope tries to bring back her mom via human experimentation, depending on your tastes

#This is 100% swinging at a hell of a hornet's nest #Do I tag it? #Yeah fuck it we ball #fe3h #fe16 #edelgard von hresvelg #claude von riegan #dimitri alexandre blaiddyd #rhea fire emblem #I should probably clarify that I love all of these characters quite dearly #Well except Rhea #I think she's a good character but I'm not feral about her like Edelgard or charmed by her like Claude or desperate to save her like Dimitr #discourse #edelgard discourse #Edit: I actually don’t care about 3H discourse either way lol #there’s plenty of interesting shit to talk about in this game #also I get that the people who say “x did war crimes” actually don’t mean “this was bad because it violated the Geneva Convention” #but any time I see something about how many war crimes someone did (usually Edelgard or Dimitri) I just think: #“Hah it’s a war crime to deploy Cyril to rescue Flayn because he’s still 14 then” #also I got into this game because someone told me ‘so there’s a gal with an axe and trauma’ and I booted it up #and I have a friend who likes Rhea despite his moral reservations solely because ‘she’s hot tho’ #and that’s also really funny #point is I don’t really wanna participate in most fe3h discourse cuz I have shit to do but this post isn’t meant to be a dunk on anyone #I’m not upset when I see it; it’s either funny or fine or sometimes right #I’m just gay for Edelgard and amused by the idea of applying the Geneva Convention to a world where it Clearly Isn’t A Thing

[blaithnne]

The first Heron design I showed off was from before Confidential Casefiles, so I thought I’d show you guys her look after she gets her new arm. Plus a few changes I made to her character for this AU! Just realised the way I placed my signature makes it look like I’M her worst enemy, whoops.

Meet the Cast!

╰┈➤ Canon ☄. *. ⋆

→ Scrooge McDuff → Matilda McDuff → Hortense McDuff → Goldie O'Gilt → Jack Duckworth → Bentina Beakley → LÙ Huifen (pre-caseflies)

╰┈➤ OCs ☄. *. ⋆

→ Lucrais NicRiada

#fuck you *turns your turtleneck into a cheongsam* #hope im spelling that right lol #this look is still from the 60s era btw!! #I’d make some slight changes for her modern day look UNLIKE CANON #don’t know what I’d change tho cause I really like this design #also may and june don’t exist in this au sorry lol #gonna replace their storyline with some original stuff if I ever do present day art for this au! #I might repurpose them for something else #maybe they can be daisies nieces #but yeah canon heron is a fucking child abuser and I think that’s where beakley would draw the line and I’m a beakheron shipper till death #sooooooo that’s not happening a #lso. I hate s3 BUT IM NOT GONNA START RANTING ABT THAT NOW I SWEAR ANYWAYS HUIFEN SUPREMACY OK BYE #art #my art #digital art #fanart #doodle #drawing #ducktales #ducktales human au #<- I need a better/more unique name for this au hmm #black heron #LÙ Huifen #hope I got the stràc the right way round #I forget the English word #humanisation #gjinka #also if this were a cartoon set in the present day. I think Huifen would be introduced as Beakleys worst enemy with a vendetta against her #and beakley is convinced it’s bc she fucking blew up her arm bc duh #until it’s revealed heron is just mad that beakley retired bc I THOUGHT WE HAD SOMETHING SPECIAL. I THOUGHT WE WERE ARCH RIVALS

[cheecats]

Alone again, naturally.

#my art #cheez design #Warrior Cats #tawnypelt #rowanclaw #rowanstar #dawnpelt #flametail #rowantawny #// i'm not even a massive tawny stan but HOLY FUCK ENOUGH ERINS STOP DOING THIS TO HER- #// she still got tiger & her grandkids tho thank god #// but MAN... the reoccurring motif of family and loss with tawnypelt is so fucked up deadass #// experiencing the loss of two children with rowanclaw and them leaning on each other though it... only to lose him too <:( fuck off man..

[hisbutler-problematic]

what i really love about black butler is they said what if there was one little boy and for some unknown reason absolutely unhinged occult stuff ALWAYS happened around him

they try to play it off by being like “oh he’s a phantomhive, they deal w all kinds of stuff” but then they make it very clear that this little boy is the only one who has to deal with shit like demons and shinigami and werewolves and zombies, etc

like no one is super surprised when he’s like “oh just another day dismantling the zombie factory” but there’s also a distinct “wtf do you mean zombie factory” air to it

queen: there’s witches and werewolves in germany that you have to deal with ciel: why the fuck do i have to go to germany (his only problem w that sentence)

and then the little boy has the audacity to be like “tbh don’t really believe this witch and werewolf thing :/“ to his DEMON butler

#kuroshitsuji #black butler #our ciel #im obsessed w this little dude ngl #remember that time he said ‘i’m not interested in the occult’ right in front of his demon butler with whom he holds a demon contract #hes so fucking funny #the overall attitude towards his everyday is hilarious honestly #imagine rolling up to buckingham palace and being like. hello your majesty it turns out the problem was zombies #completely straight faced #and then the queen just goes ‘oh zombies? alright’ #and it’s not just ciel it’s not just the queen #lizzie heard ‘corpses’ and freaked out but got over that FINE. #there are bigger problems to deal with than moving corpses. how will i stay CUTE through all this!! #shes right tho #also shout out to her family for hearing ‘you need to go for their heads’ and questioning nothing and just being like ‘cool tnx 4 the info’ #like. what the fuck were the phantomhives involved in BEFORE ciel ever brought a demon into all this #sky posting

[evilkitten3]

team minato modern middle school au where kakashi is the annoying genius who skipped like two grades, rin somehow lives in a hospital (no one's sure which nurse/doctor is her parent but. it's one of them. right? it's gotta be. no way did a bunch of worked-half-to-death medical staff accidentally adopt a baby someone forgot about. definitely one of them is her parent. her birth certificate is around here somewhere i'm sure look i'll get back to you once my shift ends in six hours), and obito is the class clown who lives with his awful anarchist stoner grandpa and calls his house "the cave"

minato is a former student of kakashi's dad's friend and he's their carpool driver bc no way in hell would that man be allowed to teach in real life

#naruto #naruto shippuden #team minato #team seven #hatake kakashi #nohara rin #uchiha obito #uchiha madara #namikaze minato #hatake sakumo #jiraiya #nobody knows who kakashi's mother is. his dad isn't sure he has one. he doesn't know where the kid came from but. the dna tests are clear #obito thinks it's the science teacher. y'know the one with like a bajillion different weird animals. only in this case they are all snakes #kakashi thinks that's dumb bc mr orochimaru is definitely a man probably #also bc when he asked he just got creepy laughter and a lecture on how to clone humans #i'm not kidding about rin btw no one at the hospital has any fucking clue where she came from #none of them are going to be the first to admit it tho #they tried to run a paternity test for her but the only match in their system was a man named nohara isobu. who's been mia for like 30 year #and yes being raised by an ever-changing stream of people none of whom had enough time for her did mess rin up a bit #on the bright side. she is easily the most medically proficient seventh grader in the history of anything ever #and she'll have recommendations for days when she applies to medical school #gai and his dad are also there but they're pretty much the same

[vvienne]

I literally woke up in the middle of the night like God will dark rise is so fucking screwed. The line that’s like. “Everyone wanted to kill the Dark King.” What’s the part where he looks at Violet helplessly, haunted, almost pleading for mercy? But of course he reveals nothing of substance to anyone. Elizabeth is too young to understand but the reader knows what “Her relationship with that boy was…unnatural” can mean. Tying him to bedposts? Failing to strangle him? What else? Never not even once seeing beyond a mythological identity Will himself didn’t know he had? What did he think was the reason? That he was just intrinsically hateful? Of course he says nothing. Of course Violet can’t trust him- he’s given her nothing as painfully real as what she’s given him. So he gives her the sword hoping at least he can die at the hands of someone he loved, but even that doesn’t work out - she gives the sword to a Visander still furious at SARCEAN. The pattern continues; no one looks at Will, who vomits when he realizes what’s happened to James, Will who is much of a liar and killer and sneak as Elizabeth accuses but nonetheless wants to be different. Even when he doesn’t remember his own past. There’s no way out for him that doesn’t hurt. Hope this obsession passes soon given the one and a half years of waiting required for book 3

#dark rise series #dark heir #rarely does a cliffhanger pain me so much #bc rarely am I ever THAT invested in a plot I am sad to say #nona the ninth was so cathartic in of itself I’m content marinating before alecto #BUT PACAT ONLY EVER GIVES EMOTIONAL CRUMBS #have any of these bitches ever known peace fr #maybe this is what reading princes gambit and not immediately having the follow up might’ve been like #honestly it’s possibly damen and Lauren just generally had less problems tho #more than his relationship even with James. will/Violet is perhaps the genuine source of like. I WISH HED GIVEN HER A REASON. #the narration that describes Violet as Will’s star in the night…….. like fuck fine #will can’t reach any level of genuine intimacy with James bc the mess of fraught noncon dynamics is this massive unspoken horrible thing #wills identity is personal w James in a way it is with no one else but James is so fucking oblivious of undercurrents it comes unbalanced #and will knows it. but (as far as we know) violet isn’t reborn has no history with sarcean the dark king she’s literallt just Some Guy #and that almost makes it worse???????? that they are so loyal to each other even as he’s keeping a massive secret? #they weren’t dated or destined to entangle the way will is w characters like James and Katherine #and I think that makes his rship with Violet possibly the realest and truest experience of trust and love will has ever had #like it’s nothing bro. truly she knows nothing about him other than his lies of omission and her faith in him goodness which may or may not #beiltimately justified. but that was probably as honest and close will ever got to anyone. and him to her.

[ninthriven]

they are divorced c: 

#destiny #destiny 2 #destiny 2 art #destiny the game #xio thinks tal died during the red war and tal doesn't remember xio bc of a spontaneous reset #she woke up in the smoking ruins of a building and got the FUCK out and has been wandering the system since #(her ghost is ruthless & never liked her kindhearted himbo gf so she's taken full advantage of the reset to refocus her on the power trip) #(she came back for forge and splicer tho but missed seeing her wife by a HAIR both times) #also yes i am writing a pilgrim guard/warlord love story no i haven't ACTUALLY written it yet it is all in my brain #also also i forgot to indicate tal's height and compared to xio she's a short queen clocking in at 5'7

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

pros of a wood furnace: cozy home. cozy everything. i can now safely set fires within the house

cons: my cats are so fucking grimy and im in smoke detector hell

#i came out of my room to see letti absolutely Melted on the floor in front of the furnace #i have never seen that cat so relaxed and blissful #and then i Realized. #and then she got up. and i saw all of the ash now all over her fur #i need to figure out a low effort cleaning regiment for the floor surrounding the furnace #or maybe find a way to set up a place that will encourage my cats to hang There near the furnace instead of on the ashy floor #HER WHITE SPOTS ARE SMEARED WITH GRAY. #THIS IS THE CAT THAT LOVES SLEEPING ON MY BED. #i dont even want to think about what her beans look like #stg if i have to give her a bath.... #actually i probably will bc they need to go to the vet soon #SHE LOOKED SO COZY THO 🥺 #absolutely unprompted #and the fuckign. hell on earth experience i had the other day #both smoke detectors going off at once. #that nearly took my out for the entire fucking day #i Could Not Think i Could Not Breathe Properly i Could Not Form Words #i had to put mrs. piggy on my head for the next hour or so. thats how fucked up it got me

[laugtherhyena]

Dungeon meshi fans i understand the catgirl hype now

#Izutsumi trully is the best character #that part with her and the succubi was so far my favorite segment of the entire manga #we stand an aroace queen #tho im thinking like. and please bigger dungeon meshi fans anwser this for me if yall see this #were Izutsumi and those other girls from Shuro's party basically his slaves?? #that's kinda what i got from what we saw of Izutsumi's backstory #she even had that curse put on her. which makes me wonder if the other girls also have curses on them or if it was casted just on her #fucked up. i don't like that guy #dungeon meshi #izutsumi #hyena ramblings

[revvethasmythh]

Still turning over the fact that Relvin didn't know anything about Liliana's powers until a couple of years after Imogen was born. Like, he knew she dreamed of somewhere bigger than Gelvaan (and spent time imagining going there with her), but can you imagine thinking you know someone, thinking you're building this life (on trust, on honestly, on partnership) with someone, and then they drop this bomb on you, the things they see in their dreams and what they can do with their mind and how afraid they are that your child will inherit the same gift curse? Relvin has no idea when her powers started. They may have been there from the day they met, for all he knows. And then, after telling him this, after sharing her fears for herself and for Imogen, she leaves. And he doesn't understand anything of what this means, he is confused and in the dark and now alone. All he can do is hope Imogen won't go through the same thing, while trying to swallow all the resentment and anger he holds toward Liliana for her sake. Absolutely impossible situation to be in, tbh

#note: i am not being judgemental toward liliana for this more so than pointing out this was Fucked #like people are people and i never have any interest in demonizing them #i can see how she got here! from her pov this probably made sense as she tried to get on with her life #without giving in to the desire to figure out her powers #imogen being the clinch point to change that for her is interesting tho because like you have put that child in danger #and you have left that child to try and solve the danger. which is a double whammy #juicy situation all around. i love a fucked up family dynamic #critical role #bells hells #relvin temult #nonsense will be removed from notes and you will be blocked <3

[ahagisborn]

I typed up an impassioned rant yesterday about some family bullshit that I'm in the middle of but by the time I was done I wasn't Yosemite Sam-levels of angry anymore, but just quietly frustrated and sad so I'll post the gist (bc I do still need attention and I think my mom is sick of talking to me)

my cousin's husband's mom had knee surgery on Thursday, but they also left for vacation on Thursday? I guess they thought she'd have inpatient rehab, but said cousin's husband would come home early if needed. well obviously she got discharged to home the next day and I started getting texts from my cousin about how much money flights back were. I told them all I couldn't be the "on-call" person for this but I guess they decided they could just disregard that and now cousin's husband is not coming home until next weekend and I am indeed the "on-call" person for this? which I know from my cousin's husband's mom asking me to do all this shit I said I couldn't do, as my cousin has stopped texting me and her husband NEVER ONCE texted me

#okay this was still a rant lmao but you should've seen the state of the one yesterday. i had smoke coming out of my ears #i just feel so disrespected it's unreal. like i guess i'll just go fuck myself then? #thankfully my other cousin (cousin's brother) is here and he got roped into the horseshit so he's helping me out but this is not our fuckin #job. we're not her children. strong case for having more than one kid tho as backup if your one is a fucking flop. #when i picked her up she was saying she didn't want to stress him out and that he should just enjoy his vacation. well i hope it's the wors #worst vacation he's ever had and he gets stung by a jellyfish and has diarrhea on the plane

[von-karmas-a-bitch]

just remembered a silly doodle i did of a franmaya date that i never posted here so. franmaya enjoyers come get y'all juice

#edit: good lord tumblr fucked this one up please click for better quality #i am projecting onto maya here bc i also know very little german and was is dein lieblingsfach is also the only german song i know #that and the snappy crocodile one. it's like a german nursery rhyme that generally only german-speakers tend to know #but my sis went to boarding school with some swiss german speakers and they showed her and it got stuck in her head so she showed me #but maya wouldn't know that song bc she isn't that wordly. until she left kurain she didn't even know what a meme was #she's wordly now tho. she's on a vacay in germany with her girlfriend where the legal age for drinking strong alcohol unsupervised is 18 #fanart #my art #silly #franmaya #franziska von karma #maya fey #ace attorney