#she also gave me a job lol

[lovestory]

I showed my hairdresser a picture of Sabrina carpenter for bangs inspo yesterday and she somehow gave me the most ugly fucked up little bangs I’ve ever seen, that go straight all the way across my forehead, nothing like Sabrina’s. A week before the eras tour and I look like a dumbass. My life is a jokedgdjngjkdsnkjfg

#she always does such a good job but this time and also one time last year before i was going to see peach she gave me microbangs #IM SO PISSED I LOOK SILLY>Djkgnkj #i'm just gonna be wearing a headband if you see me next week LOL #so annoying cuz the rest of my hair looks sick #these kind of bangs don't suit my face at allllllllll

[woodsy-hoe]

said yes too hastily to a new position at my job and now have to go back like a dog with its tail between its legs to say no, this will be the end of me lol tgif 🤪

#i was offered a lead teaching position and while i’m flattered and love those kids their curriculum and materials are foreign to me #also dealing with parents directly and just the stress of the job is not going to work for my health issues like #my boss completely ignored that bit and gave me less than 24 hours to decide sooo this is kinda on her lol #let’s hope my ‘old’ job still exists 😩 bc she’s trying to get rid of assistants but that’s all i can do realistically #becca speaks

[pupkou]

i have a party to go to tonight and my former roommate who talked shit about me and referred to me solely by the nickname she gave me, “cockblock”, is going to be there ^_^

#she also quit the job that I gave her without saying anything to me #And she would complain last year when I would buy her candy #Because she said it made her feel like she had to be my friend when she desperately didn’t want to be #And there’s like a million other things lol #But I’m gonna gonna let her make me uncomfortable or anxious because she’s the one who did all those things that are wrong #I’m literally just a guy and she’s literally just a girl and she’s not gonna stop me from celebrating my friends birthday #knight rambles

[natandacat]

Shot my shot for an internship next year.....

#i would have said it was gonna be easy and fun #but the last 2 supervisors who loved me and never gave me shit for my disability left 😔 #and the new one has been... frustrating #at least since i fought to get accessible training again shes been able to avtually interact with me and see that im good at my job lol #also i do so much for them for free???? like cmon #l and m... i miss yall 😭 #like im pitching the place where i volunteer for context #bc with my health i cant always give 2 days a month #but if u get me as an intern... u get 2 days a week! #and it means i can help yall more #like. if they say no im not gonna feel bad anymore for not always being able to do 2 days a month lol #like i gave yall an opportunity to get more free labor and u said no

[wickedhawtwexler]

i found out today that i wasn't the only person on my team to get laid off, which makes me feel better. misery loves company etc

#they axed TWO people on my team of FIVE. absolute massacre #the other guy is here on a visa too so he has to find a new job in 2 months or else he gets deported #fucking awful!!!!! at least i can take my sweet time. which i intend to lmao i need a week or two to recover #i get 8 weeks severance and i'm still gonna get my annual incentive in april which'll probably be another month of salary #and i do have savings. if i'm frugal i could be fine until the end of the year #but i obviously don't want to do that lmao i'm aiming for being employed or at least close within 2 months #anyway my work bestie gave me the scoop today. she's taking over my work for me when i'm gone #my last day is the 26th and from now until then all my meetings are with her to ~*~ knowledge transfer ~*~ #half our happy hour squad was laid off 😭 our friend who works at the parent company was also laid off #we're gonna go out and get trashed friday night as a last hurrah #work bestie and i are still down to keep the happy hours going lol but we'll see how the other half of the squad feels #m.txt

[theflyingfeeling]

still sick but alive, unfortunately 🤧

#last morning when i got up i wasn't at all sure i'd live to see the release of deadzone lol #since then i've been able to walk and stand up somewhat normally without wanting to cry and/or die #last night i slept more than the two previous nights combined. which still isn't that much but at least i did sleep #i did also wake up so completely drenched in my own sweat (from mild fever going down after i had taken a painkiller for a headache)- #-that i had to get up and dry myself with a towel 😂 #and there was a huge wet spot (of sweat) on my bed where i had lied 🙂 #i have lost three fourths of my vocal range so i can't e.g. laugh #(not that i've had a whole lot to giggle about these past few days 💀) #i'm bummed out i can't do preparations for my new job #i definitely should've started earlier but i would've had plenty of time this week had i not caught the cold at the stupid festival 🤧 #i did not plan this! besides i'm not gonna start working weeks ahead for a job i'm not even getting paid for yet #for the same reason no one can expect me to work while sick for a job i haven't gotten a single penny from #hell even if i WAS paid no one could expecte me to work while sick #so i shouldn't feel guilty for wanting to work on my fic instead of the course plans #which btw i already sort of have because my predecessors gave me practically ALL the material i might need #so all i reallly need to do is change the dates of the course plans and bob's your uncle #but i'd like to also study the material a bit before teaching it so that i'll at least seem like i know what i'm talking about 💀 #mom said on the phone that i've managed situations like this before so i will manage this too and she's right i guess but 😭😭😭 #but yeah i guess this is some sort of developement from last year when i had the 'rona- #-and felt awful about ordering food/groceries in because ''i don't want to be a bother'' 😂

[orchideius]

genuinely, when will it end??? I am so tired of being here and I am not sure how much longer I can push myself to keep going. i’m exhausted.

#it’s 4am and I am feeling the Deep Darkies #I literally passed out at 9pm from mental exhaustion & also bc I wanted to start to get up early to start a morning routine #so I actually got a ton of sleep but the second I woke up I felt like I wanted to cry and now I feel so depressed out of no where #like girl WHYYYY #genuinely I am so debilitatingly depressed I have suicidal thoughts every single day #and I feel like ive tried everything to help myself like ive been to therapy ive been on and off meds for over a decade at this point #im starting to eat better and sleep more #like what the duck else do I do? #I genuinely feel like my brain is broken #I just want to cry and lay in bed every single day #like I cannot articulate the profound sadness into words but it’s. so bad #and it takes literally all my brain power to do one assignment a day for class like none of this is sustainable #and I just feel so much shame over it bc whenever I tell my mom she gets mad like it effects her or something and the few times ive made th #mistake of trying to confide in my dad he gave me the whole pull yourself up by the bootstraps talk so never again lol #my entire family has made me feel so much shame over it and none of my friends here even bother to ask how I feel and don’t make me feel #comfortable enough to talk to bc i’m always the fucking therapist friend helping everyone else #hence why I always vent on here lol I have no one to talk to #I just really don’t know what to do at this point like I feel like I need inpatient therapy at this point but that’s expensive and I don’t #want to tell my job why i’d need extended time off bc that would be so embarrassing and plus now i’m in school #so like what do I do #im tired of feeling like this I know this isn’t how life is supposed to be but it’s also all ive ever known #and what’s the point of living if i’m going to feel like this everyday? I don’t know how much longer I can take it #personal

[look-at-the-stars-tonight]

snw uhura is quickly becoming one of my favorite star trek characters EVER 

#snw #uhura #i just relate to her SO hard #like i remember watching that one comet episode last year when I was. in a Bad place in terms of my job #and i swear it healed me #and the last couple episodes with her this year are also so. #just relatable #i KNOW THAT'S CRINGE TO SAY I DON'T CARE #like her admitting to mariner that she's only 22 #and the amount of responsibility she has is ridiculous and she's just trying not to drown and figure everything out #and how it's so tough cause everyone around her is like 'it's you! you're smart and amazing and you got this' #and if u hear that over and over and over and over it's just. it's very sweet but also so much fucking pressure #like babygirl i know ur not real but do u understand that i'm right there with u hand in lovable hand suffering under the weight #of all these fucking Expectations #this is exactly why i gave up in high school lol #and ALSO #mariner going back in time and being like ??? she's so serious what the fuck? #and trying to teach the girl how to have fun #people recently keep coming up to me and being like lighten the FUCK up #as if it's that Easy #and like yes there's a whole team backing her up but there's also some stuff that's Solely On Her #and it's just #ahhh #i love her i want to give her a big hug and take her to an arcade and teach her that it's ok to take breaks #and do the same with myself i think #maybe i will go have that drink with andrew #if i don't DIE from this STUPID COLD

[corvidcall]

Did you ever tell the story of why ******* kicked you out because she forgot to pick you up from work on here? I remember it happening in real time and it was not funny but in retrospect, it's 200 upvotes on reddit material lol

LMAO its so funny you censored her name. like shes gonna be here or something. cant let her know i still think shes a bitch!!!!!

anyway heres fun little anecdote about that time i was forced to move out, in the style of an aita post, fake names and all

AITA for being mad at my roommate for not driving my somewhere?

I (22nb) live with two roommates, Makenzie (22f) and Justin (19 trans m). We all met because we worked at the same place, and we've been living together for almost a year. Of the three of us, I'm the only one who has lived with roommates before, but I can't tell if I'm being TA here?

Makenzie is the only one of us who can drive, and she agreed when we moved in together that, if we gave her some money to buy her mom's car, then she would drive us places whenever she was able. I work a little over a mile away from our apartment, so I CAN walk, but since I get off work at around 9pm, and the sidewalks aren't really well-maintained (it's a really industrial part of town, so it's not GREAT for walking), she agreed that she would pick me up after work every day.

Last week, I got off work, and waited for her to show up, and she never came. I texted her a few times, and when she didn't respond after I'd been waiting for almost an hour, I texted that I would be walking home. Apparently, she'd fallen asleep, and midway through my walk home, she woke up, got in her car, and tried to come find me to drive me home. She couldn't find me (the sidewalk is really hard to see from the road, and it's extremely dark, so I'm not surprised), and then frantically tried to get a hold of me to make sure I wasn't dead. I didn't see her texts because I was 1. walking and 2. on the phone with my partner. When I got home, she was pissed that I made her worry. She thinks I did it on purpose to get revenge? I told her I was just busy, and she seemed to accept that, but today she and our other roommate sat me down and told me that I needed to find a new place to live, because "this wasn't working out."

According to her, I'm not entitled to a ride anywhere, so I had no right to be mad at her for not giving me a ride, and I certainly didn't have a right to make her think I was dead (I literally told her I was walking home??). She also brought up that I never do my chores on the chore wheel (she made the chore wheel without asking. She just announced that she'd made a chore wheel and I had to clean the living room, which I'm almost never in anyway) and that I owe her $200 (from when we adopted our cat, which I think is weird to bring up when you're trying to kick me out?? it's not like I'm gonna get to keep the cat). She's saying I'm entitled and inconsiderate, but I feel like she's punishing me for the fact that she flaked. AITA?

Edit: If it helps, she's flaked on rides before. A few months ago, she agreed to take me to the doctor, and then the day before my appointment, she told me she couldn't give me a ride. The reason she flaked was because she wanted to go to the weed dispensary instead :/ she said it was fine, because "your mom will just get you an uber anyway". My mom agreed to pay all my necessary expenses while I'm in school (I'm a full time student; she pays my rent and I use the money from my part time job to pay for my food) but she's not like. Rich. I don't feel good about just spending her money on stuff I don't have to.

UPDATE: Makenzie made a post on Facebook about how "it's so sad when someone would rather lose a friendship than admit they were wrong." I shouldn't have commented, but I did, asking her if she forgot we were facebook friends, and then I blocked her. In retrospect, I should have just blocked her without commenting, but I'm only human.

UPDATE 2: Well, I'm moving out. Justin started harassing me, accusing me of stealing his shampoo and letting the cat loose on purpose, neither of which I did. I have my own nicer shampoo, and I love cats (I just was asleep when he told me the cat was missing, because it was midnight and I wake up at 6 am to go to school. I guess the fact that I didn't immediately leap to my feet to find our cat means I wanted him dead???) Makenzie is refusing to give back my deposit, because she says she needs to have the carpets in my room professionally cleaned before a new roommate can move in. Why? Your guess is as good as mine. But I guess I'm willing to pay a couple hundred dollars to not deal with this anymore. Still, sucks. :/

#anime life #she only gave me like half of my deposit back :/ #anyway their real names were madison and travis lol. sometimes i think about what happened and i get sooooo upset all over again #even though it literally doesnt matter #i dont even live in the same state as them anymore #honestly i think she and travis just resented me because i had the largest bedroom (even though i paid more in rent) #and they didnt think i worked as hard as them #they both had full time jobs and i had a part time job. but i was also a full time student!!!!!!! #i woke up at 6 am and when i worked i got back at 10 pm!!!! #but when i didnt work i was back home before either of them woke up. #so i guess to them my school time just. didnt count??? #also they were mad i kept asking them to keep it down at night. even though they KNEW that i was going to need that when we all moved in #i dont know how many times i can tell a person that i have to be up at 6 so i can catch my bus to school #so i need them to be quiet after midnight #ALSO ALSO neither of them had ever had weed before we moved in together and then they both started smoking ALL THE TIME #and they were absolutely fucking intolerable after that #frankly if i didnt already think weed should be legal nationwide. this would have convinced me that no one should ever have it #sorry. it makes you too annoying. #long post

[synthville]

the ‘raffi is so wild and impulsive and emotional and can’t handle her shit’ schtick has gotten real old tho can’t lie. like it was already stale when plcard told her she was being ‘too emotional’ literal seconds after elnor died (um hello sir have you ever heard of grief? you might not participate but let a bitch breathe! thank you!) but having worf (who im actually liking so far) pull the same ‘she’s irrational, violent etc’ thing is just like. eye roll. obviously the writing isn’t doing my girl any favours by cheaply and gleefully playing into it with cliches left and right but my goodness can they come up with something else!

#paused my s1 rewatch bc the interrogation scene gave me s2 war flashbacks #at least raffi gave jl a firm dressing down that was nice #did want her to hit big worf with a ‘who do you think you are’ tho #like he was making some points but also who tf was he talking to lol #idk i hate how they continuously flatten her and then stick her with a partner whose job it is to ‘reign her in’ #it’s like they think if they write her in her full capacity her partner will wilt and to that i say Not Her Problem! #she can be competent and still get into shenanigans! it don’t gotta be one or the other #she’s a star idk what they want from her lol #as always the writing in the first season was meh but seemed like it could blossom with clear direction #but after that #s2&3 said oh you wanted some introspection? some nuance? some complexity? fuck you! you’ll get nostalgia bombed and you’ll like it! #it’s like tropes cliches and flat characters abound #especially the women #like fuck a bechdel test this is straight up early 2000’s misogynistic patronization #like these ladies (slight exception of raffi depending on the scene but still not great) are getting love interest/punching bag & it’s hell #moreso because it’s obvious the show thinks it’s actually saying something new and interesting #and not just sticking familiar faces into unbearably bland and done scenarios #anyway it is what it is (and what it is is hell lmao) #.rfi #raffi musiker

[unnecessarilygrandiose]

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#okay rant time lol. spoilers for 6x18 #i think i will have to say that this may have been my least favourite of all 6b episodes #haha ik i should probably give myself time to process the episode but idk i'd rather just write everything out #i just. just yesterday i was complaining about some people treating 911 like it's the buck show and today... it was the buck show? #and like! an episode being extra focused on one character is absolutely fine!! great even!! i really enjoyed 6x11!! #but in the season finale you expect each character to get a more equitable amount of focus right? #and like. even 4x14 which had a significantly less focus on eddie than one might expect had the will scene #and maddie had a bit less focus in that episode too but even she quit her job and it was obvious she was Going Through Stuff #and these slightly restricted screentimes gave jumping off points for their respective very spectacular s5 arcs #but this episode? like it wasn't that it didn't focus on other characters but it was mostly buck #and... idk man it does make sense given that he had the longest running plotlines this season but also #i just wish we had focused more on other characters as well #and like? as for buck? the couch? #i'll be honest i'm disappointed they introduced romance this season for buck at all when the season began with him choosing to be single #i really thought he wouldn't date at all for this one season at least yk? #and yeah ik we live in an amatonormative world but cmooon a guy can have his happy ending without getting together with someone #also bucktalia feels a little odd to me rn especially given the number of false starts they had #if they'd done this exact same storyline but at the beginning of next season i'd probably love it... right now tho i'm very meh over it #as in there is potential but it's like... idk mannnn why do we need him to end up with someone at allllll... i'm too aro for this shit #starting something new this close to the end of the season instead of tying off the two arcs that were already ongoing for him #was certainly a choice #aah well. at least natalia seems good for him. she came back which is the most important thing buck would want in a partner right? #still tho. i really wish we'd gotten to know more about the new henren baby than we did #i wish we'd gotten to see madney discussing plans instead of just the exact moment where they decide they want to marry on the patio #i wish we'd gotten the entire conversation that lead up to chris hyping (or snarking at) eddie to call marisol #i wish we'd gotten bathena hurriedly packing for their trip and may making fun of them as she helps #i just wish we'd gotten more of others!! #oh well. at least we still got chimney time and captain hen and cheddie working together and hen and eddie leaning on each other #you win some you lose some i guess #anyways if you actually read all the way til down here thank you for your time hehe

[scottishstoner]

3 straight days of work starting tomorrow at the Hilton, then next week I’m booked in for waiting shifts there again for a couple days and hopefully I’ll get shifts at this other fancy place I done waiting shifts at before next week too coz it’s cool working there and I need the shifts lol

Is it sad I’m excited to work lol? I haven’t worked since the 6th and I’m so use to a busy schedule with work I’ve been kinda going crazy lmfao

#work #it’s all waiting/wine waiting/bar stuff . mostly waiting tables or wine waiting or plate waiting #it’s a fancy function tomorrow I had to find a black tie that would fit me coz I’m so small lmfao #i applied for those shifts might get booked in. hope so. it’s a temp agency app this one #my other main work has no shifts rn or they’re mad at me and if so idgaf lol #I done nothing ok maybe I skipped work a few times with excuses but I was very depressed and not even caring at the time #i pick and choose my shifts even with the main company I work for however they may ask me a favour to do a shift out the blue and if I can #and I want to I will and I do enjoy it. but I have applied to other bars with more stable hours tbh #but I can still do temp work but idk about my main work bc it isn’t agency it’s just..they staff.. #various venues and bars but they’re the main ones if that makes sense?? lol #rambles in tags #what happened was I gave myself time off but then I got very dark and depressed lol and declined shifts but now I’ve gone mad and am trying #to book every shift available that I enjoy which is bar/waitressing . IDK WHY I WNJOY IT #bar work is the best but I still enjoy waitressing. I’ve had some shitty jobs man. i enjoy it but it’s more than that ifk #I don’t question it if I’m happy I’m happy. I’m quite bubbly irl kinda annoying to some but whatever #worker at this Hilton so many times but usually it’s breakfast/afternoon tea service but this is a fancy function but I’ve done loads #of those but point is: different permanent staff idk work there whereas I’ve gotten to know ALL the fucking morning:afternoon staff & #they’ll be at another part probably which isn’t far away lol I just wonder who tf my manager tomorrow will be #but I know my temp agency worker will be there for everyone this time but she isn’t usually they must be desperate for staff she’s known to #also help out when needed which is so cool of her #it’s funny you get to know the agency workers. i know a few we even message each other lol.. we run into each other almost all the time #sometimes you get on with people sometimes not lol but if it flows it flows so whatever right? idk I’m high but yes

[gardenhotspot]

didnt even touch the monster rack

#garden hotspot #gcwtual #lol what a wreck. i gave up on annuals 20 min in and did other things. #i did a lot? but it felt like nothing. #also dl came out and was like 'ferns in the middle are leaving' so that derailed half my plans and bt and i made space for those outside #she did a lot with ferns and then said she thinks shes allergic. .b and i talked at our cars and i was like #i think i need you to physically hold me for moral support every time she says shes allergic to smth #shes sweet but is also. idk. think typical white girl? yeah. #i also need to somehow break it to her that when it reaches 3:30 she csnt up and leave she has to put away carts and finish stuff. #bc i end up staying 30+ min every day fixing stuff from our projects. sigh. #itd obv take less time if she could help. idk i think itd be a lot easier with 3 ppl out here doing my job #wish my boss would interview the other lady already

[countess-of-edessa]

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#it’s become obvious my roommate feels some type of way about the fact that my parents still contribute to me financially #which it’s a free county #she can think and be however she likes #idk im annoyed that i literally just venmoed her today for the chipotle she used her account to mobile order (and she specifically asked if #we could order together so she can get the points for her account) #and then when i mention me buying us chick fil a thé other day she’s like oh yeah i thought you were just using up the rest of your dining #account money but i can pay you if you want. #like yes it is fortunate my parents still help me (i mean #not extremely unbelievably fortunate; i think it is normal and good not to cut children off as soon as they turn 18 esp while they are in #school preparing for careers and unable to get jobs) #but your parents also give you money #the ten grand they gave you though was for your wedding which is in less than a year #it’s not my fault that you decided to get married which does kind of imply that you should be cut off from your parents and living off your #own income #it isn’t like my family is rolling in money. all our clothes are from goodwill all our groceries are freedoms choice commissary brand lol #my parents specifically chose when they had kids that they didn’t want them to have to work in college like they had and so made plans #early on to do help us with that because it was one of their core values. #and i still had a job in undergrad! they pay for my groceries and my textbooks anything i want that’s fun comes out of the money ive earned #working through undergrad. it really annoys me

[rubberbandballqueen]

okay so i have three days of work in, and i have learned three things:

everyone hates our supervisor, bri

everyone loves our boss, tam

and we have no union

#it's actively hilarious how much everyone hates our supervisor i'm glad my vibe check was correct on that first day #apparently she gave a coworker the plague a while back bc she tested positive 'but had no symptoms' n then coughed up a storm in her office #and then they all said nice things abt our boss they were like 'oh yeah. he's super chill. we love him' #and also all my coworkers do lots and lots of drugs it seems. like wow. #the person who was training me for the front desk i was like 'hmm. kinda gay vibe here.' n i was right #the worm speaks #it seems i've also basically landed myself my first bullshit job like. truly nothing happens on front desk shifts lol