#set in covid times

[emylilas]

“I know what it is to feel you deserve something different than what this life gives you. To wonder why you couldn't just stay home, love the people you love, grow old with them, protect them, support them. But the truth is you’ve been called to greatness… The fate of all of us rests on you now. On the decisions you make in the coming days. On the strength you find within. [The wheel] calls you to this, whether you can bear it or not. The Last Battle is coming. What any of us wants now is meaningless.”  - The Wheel of time, S1E6, "The Flame of Tar Valon".

#warrior nun #my first gifs ever! #Covid fever started this 18 gifs project thinking it was a good idea #It was fun (frustrating at times) #Now I can say I've learnt how to gif AND how to use photoshop #Quotes from The Wheel of time #Because Siuan's speech worked too well with Warrior Nun #It was supposed to be a video edit at first but it's not progressing fast enough #So it'll be a gif set for now

[houseswife]

trying to write the ducklings taking dennis’ medical history in my always sunny x house md crossover fic and I’m absolutely dying trying to imagine how they would deal with the fact that he’s done every drug imaginable, barely eats, has consumed a dog and a pigeon and monkey fluids (among other things), is constantly being exposed to Sludges and Fumes, is an alcoholic, works in a place filled with carbon monoxide, has probably never worn a condom in his life, does dangerous and suspicious cosmetic treatments, has been shot before, once got poisoned from drinking blended pizza, doesn’t get vaccinated, sniffs glue and gasoline, can get hard at record speeds and also lower his own chronic high blood pressure, HAS BPD,

#WHERE WOULD THEY EVEN START #I haven’t even gotten to the part where house is faced with this info but I just know he’s gonna go batshit #atp they just gotta put him down like a dog there’s no solving that man’s issues #oh and he also had covid so bad he unleashed patrick bateman for realzies that one time #but I don’t know if I’m ready to write a housefic that’s set post-2012 #on account of the. you know

[marsbotz]

my list of pretentious art critic media that changedddd my brain chemistry like actually.

- the beginners guide

- its such a beautiful day

- the stanley parable (AND the demo.)

- swiss army man

- presentable liberty

- fight club

#and more. that i forget bc my memory sucks #ohhhh stanley parabel demo save me…… #not even a contest. even tho its funny #ummm. best to quickly get into is tsp demo. its free and like 15 mins #and honestly yeah for me its as good as the full game #w the nature of tsp as a game the demo is completely different to the full version #different themes different setting. and not multiple paths #but ohhhhh my god its so so good. #if you do one thing for me ever pplssss pls play tsp demo. #rlly funny AND makes me cry. IN 15 MINS #tbg i wld rec to anyone who considers themself a creative of any sort #speaks so well to the experience of posting art online #swiss army man is REALLY weird. so i wldnt rec it to most ppl but it is super interesting #i rlly love the trans allegory interpretation.. #fight club is like the most basic on this list but i like it. and its vaguely conplicated and Themey so it belongs #PRESENTABLE LIBERTY…. i have never even actually played #super artsy tho lol. ur stuck in a jail cell the whole game and get letters that tell u abt the world dying off from a plague (n capitalism) #hits very different after covid but its superrrr super good. CRAZY boring but its the point. lol #oh yeah thr actually stanley parable. one of my favs of all time. EVER #rlly funny. but also crazy fucking sad #the relationship between stanley and the narrator is super interesting and it makes me sad theres not more exploration of it in fandom outsi #outside shipping #in terms of ending a few of my favs r explosion.. phone #uhhh. space. and of course confusion #in terms of ultra deluxe i REALLY love the 2 endings. rlly dont like all the bucket endings #i think some are fun but it feels a little bit of a mean trick. promising so many more endings and then them all being just alt versions of #oh by 2 endings i mean the epilogue LOL. its been a while. but yeah all that shit was STELLARRR esp the skip button room #i cld make a whole post on my tspud thoughts. but yeah. i still prefer the original by far but the sequel/epilogue stuff is awesome #UM. think i deleted the tags for space isabd is sooo good but so draining. rlly rlly rough watch but so good. makes me bawl

[stars-inthe-sky]

So, hey. How did you and your family celebrate Passover when you were a kid? How about now?

My Rhode Island aunt and uncle almost always hosted a big family Seder, and it was the absolute best. A good Seder is educational, food-filled, and legit fun—it's a ritual meal that includes storytelling, singing, prayers, and a general focus on including and teaching everyone involved, regardless of age or even whether attendees are Jewish. (If ever you're invited to a friend's Seder, go! Do not bring a challah, which my actually-bar-mitzvahed brother-in-law did once as an attempt at a thoughtful host gift. We still make fun of him.)

And my uncle (the same one who officiated at my wedding, and the wedding of my other sister) may well be the greatest host/leader there is; over the years he compiled from a medley of sources what added up to his own Haggadah (basically the guidebook to the Seder—there are a million published and informal versions working off the same template, with readings and activities and interpretations that can go kid-centric or feminist or traditional or whatever). It was always just insanely fun, and warm, and joyous, with incredible food and an increasing array of baked-in, just-us traditions.

Since I went to college basically down the street from their house, and then lived just an hour away in Boston for so long, that was pretty much the heart of my and my family's celebration most years—right up until Passover 2020, at which point the pandemic negated what had been plans to travel from our new home in Illinois for it, and they also downsized and had their own kids scatter geographically and gain very little ones, so that particular tradition is at best on hiatus now.

But there are fun Seders everywhere—well, the Zoom ones of the pandemic years were a mixed bag, but we've found friends who've make a good go of it, over the years, too, if not quite as an elaborately planned out hourslong celebration as my uncle would do. When I studied abroad in Denmark, Boyfriend and I went to an Orthodox Seder that was in a mix of Danish and Hebrew, for instance—that was novel, and so much of the procedure and the Hebrew was familiar enough to follow along.

Still working on exactly where we'll be for those two nights this year (we haven't really met any Jewish families in Pittsburgh yet to garner an invite, and none of the Reform or Conservative synagogues seem to have community events, which is surprising? And I don't really want to go to Chabad?) but we'll figure something out.

That said, as fun as the Seders can and should be, the rest of Passover is a slog of not eating bread or adjacent products, and experiencing whatever it is matzah does to one's digestive system over the course of a week. It's a meaningful observance, and the fact that the relevant rabbinical boards have stopped including rice and legumes in the "no" column in recent years has been great, but...it's ultimately a holiday recalling the story of the Exodus, and how we were slaves once, so, like, there are some less-fun elements. But the freedom celebration parts usually outweigh that!

#ask me ask me ask me #stpauligirl #passover #pesach #jews! #jewish holidays generally have fairly set observances and the details come down to your family/community/congregation #as well as interpretation and denomination and general religiosity #but basically anyone celebrating passover will be doing some seders and no bread and lotsa matzah #and no it will never stop being amusing how often goyim seem to enjoy eating matzah and how jews *always* eat an assload and do not enjoy i #i'm sure it's because it's an imposed week out of the year and not a novel cracker alternative but anyway #a potentially amusing sidenote: #boyfriend has been in the picture since the beginning of college and always came to the family seder thereafter #the first time he remembered that his mom told him not to go to someone's house empty-handed and procured (in lieu of flowers or whatever) #a moses action figure which then graced that seder table proudly from 2006 onward #'moshe rabenu' also made an obvious and necessary appearance at our wedding #and another tidbit for the jews here #the first covid seder i'd seen someone do this on the internet somewhere #and so for the zoom seder made a separate account labeled 'eliahu ha'navi' and had it request admittance at the appropriate moment #got a BIG laugh. still pleased about pulling that off.

[liesmyth]

me 2 days ago: wow I'm having the worst day ever why do I feel off

me tonight: think i hauve covid

#IT'S NOT COVID my mum got me one of those nose pap test things but I simply can't stay awake more than 3 hours at a time #thank god for autocorrect #cant fucking type eylither #randomly set my keyboard to the Azerbaijan one

[thebongomediaempire]

#Covid is back #this time set a good example #WEAR YOUR MASK #it's no joke - it's a REAL KILLER #Jason Voorhees #Paramount Pictures #Bongo Media Empire #PSA #public service announcement

[manasurge]

Tis' the season where I mentally and physically suffer. Complaining below (feel free to ignore, I'm just venting. I usually do this every year to get most of it out of my system lol):

mmm the fall/winter SAD is indeed in full swing. No warmth + no sun = a bad bad time. I always get so annoyed when ppl assume that I love winter bc I'm a "winter baby", as if that has any sort of divine intervention on instantaneously adapting you to perfectly fit the climate you were born in. NOPE. Silly human superstition. I start to freeze once it hits below 20C. I wish I lived in a warmer climate o|-< The depresso is probably going to make me very whiny and moody until next spring, so an early forewarning bc I'm EXTREMELY annoying about it this time of year bc it's the only way I know how to deal with it. But moreso in addition to the physical stuff is how badly it messes with my mind, making me so depressed to the point of just... sitting in non-moving silence where I become stiff as a board (very painful btw) and I isolate, making the bad depresso brain time even worse where I overthink everything bc of the silence and isolation. It's also always the time of year where everyone goes quiet too, which is understandable, but also makes things 10x worse (I am very alone in my life and where I am, and kind of rely on online friends bc they're all I have. I don't even have a pet. I'm literally just, loner mode. I don't really have much family to speak of, and only one family member I do speak to. I have little to no connections at all. But regardless, this is still the best living situation I've been in my whole life, so that's saying something).

#i hate the cold; I hate ice; cold air hurts my skin and burns my lungs #i hate snow (I'm sorry I just don't think it's pretty. It's gross; erases all colour/everything; blinding; kills everything; claustrophobic #I hate long nights; i hate all the darkness #I take Vitamin D drops every day during winter and they don't really help #I also use those special lights meant to help during the long darkness for the same reason; and they also do not help #nothing works!!!!!! eating and drinking hot things doesn't help me stay warm bc heat dissipates away quickly and doesn't help my extremitie #the cold makes me SO dry and dehydrated; makes my bones hurt; makes outside DANGEROUS AF. ICE IS BAD. BE CAREFUL. #I can't retain heat; my hypothyroidism makes me colder by default and I just don't metabolize good/fast enough to keep myself warm #(my body temp is lower than average; fun fact! same with my blood pressure! both of them are very low) #I think my average from all the times I've had it scanned during covid was 32-36C. No idea how that works; I just remember checking it a lo #my fingers and hands are going to freeze; making it harder to draw/type/etc. #I'm not going to wear gloves inside my home bc that's dumb and they don't help anyways. It will just screw up my ability to use my hands #I get to be in pain for months with increased potential of being sick :/ #also I HATE bundling/layering myself with clothing or blankets; it's suffocating; restricting; sensory hell for me; sweaters are uncomfy :( #also whenever I try to do that all it does is insulate the cold for me; keeping me colder for even longer!!!!! it's so unfair!!!! #I've worn out 2 space heaters already and they don't work properly anymore (I used them both so much I wore out my preferred settings lol) #sobs; i'm a sad plant lizard

[edalynn]

Day 4 of Autistic Hunter Week- red/gold!! I like how in show red is always a color characters gravitate to for self expression/coming into their own while straying away from gold (hunter, Eda) so I kinda wanted to show that here, making everything but his golden guard outfit and flapjack (red, pulling away from the gold) monochrome.

#meltdown hunter time #to be set post hollow mind etc etc #not as happy with this one as my other days bc covid isn’t kicking my ass rn #autistic hunter week #toh #the owl house #hunter toh #toh hunter #hunter owl house #hunter wittebane #hunter clawthorne #toh flapjack #my art #fanart #toh fanart #the owl house fanart

[arsonist-chicken]

Do you ever like.. get a sudden surge of love and admiration and just general happiness because of a friend, so much so that it's almost overwhelming, and you are just so, so glad you met them and hope you'll never have to let them go and get to keep them in your life forever? Yeah ❤️💖🐗🧚‍♂️🦄

#i should go to sleep #but these are the moments i wonder again if i know what a crush feels like and if i can tell the difference between periodical very strong #but platonic affection for a friend and having a tiny crush on them #oh well. in the end does it matter? #but it would still be nice to be able to tell the difference. if nothing else then to know when i actually have a crush on someone i'm not #that close to like that friend or that fond of #fucking hell god please never let me have to let them go. i don't think i've ever met someone i'm that comfortable around and around whom #it's so easy to just be myself #or rarely. maybe with two other friends i don't feel the need to hold back myself from blurting stuff out and interrupting them and #apologising and asking them to continue or just like.. say whatever comes to mind or touch electric pasture fences to see if it still stings #(it does btw but in a sensorally really nice way 10/10 would recommend) #why do amazing people often live so damn far away? last time i met a bunch of people i really got to love was almost lifesaving and #definitely mental health saving. we used to talk every day and now i barely know what any of them are up to :( covid really fucked us over #with everyone just trying to survive and stay sane. we really lost touch and now it #*it's hard to get that back because we're strewn across europe and brasil and the us and everyone's an adult with responsibilities now #i miss them :( gotta try harder to rekindle that #anyway @the universe or whatever fuckers listening: if you put me in circumstances that make me lose touch with her like with them #i'll set the world on fire. she's become far too important to me to let that happen #okay as always i couldn't damn shut up in the tags alright bye bye good night whatever my cat's purring now instead of snoring #scientists of tumblr invent a teleportation machine now. i want to lie in a park and watch dogs and read side by side and remember how good #life can be #mine

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

Hnnnng I want to have the energy to do one of the several projects I have on the docket for this weekend, but I currently have 0% energy and my body just wants to take Poorly Timed Naps

#the never-ending struggle #wish i wasn't exhausted 90% of the time #need to paint #need to take a new set #need to clean apartment #need to do anything but sit fighting to keep my eyes open #and truly not sure if it's depression tired or long covid tired or just regular exhausted by capitalism/life tired #maybe all of them #one of the reasons I miss having someone to talk to every day is it gave me extra pep to get shit done #because turns out i thrive on positive reinforcement and having someone to tell when I'm doing stuff #because then I feel obligated to do the things so I'm not lying to the person #basically i need accountability to even do fun stuff 😬 #life of faye

[juhotonin]

SF9 ⊹ RPM

#sf9 #byfantasy #kpopco #malegroupsnet #mrgroupsedit #eyestrain #flashing tw #tw eyestrain #*gifs #is this set toooo long?? #I didn't intend for this set to be that long #plus I have covid I have the time for this

[emo-eyemakeup-evildude]

fun fact! my voice used to be as deep as Astor’s but it got fucked by a chest infection three years ago! it’s fine!!!

#astor age of calamity #it's uh it's time I fixed it #I'll do like a 20 minute set or an hour long lecture and my voice is just. gone. #yes I got a chest infection in march of 2020 and it was probably not covid yay me #I spent too long making an astor version of that meme don't worry about it

[thethingything]

had to lay down. woke up at nearly 7am. got overwhelmed by our sleep schedule once again being fucked because yesterday we actually went to bed at roughly the right time and thought "oh this is great we've fixed it". decided that we're just gonna deal with it and it'll be fine. and then our brain decided that no actually we're gonna have a combination of emotions that's maybe gonna give me another breakdown if I can't figure out how to deal with them but I have no fucking clue what to do with them

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #I fucking hate this. we barely did anything yesterday because we were too fatigued and then slept at a weird time #and we're still too fatigued to do much and we need to do the stuff we'd normally do before bed #and by the time we've done that we'll probably need to nap because we will feel so much worse if we don't #and I don't want to have to try and fit my whole day around trying to fix my sleep schedule but once again what else do I fucking do #and the whole last month has been like this over and over and it's because we got covid in February and have been way more fatigued #so we have to keep laying down and when we do that we just pass the fuck out #also waking up at like 7am (shortly before what should be our bedtime) leads to us feeling really sick #the way we used to feel when we had to get up early for college. like our body can't handle it and makes us feel like shit #and to top it all off the emotional shit I'm dealing with has nothing to do with this and it just another overwhelming thing on top of it #dysphoria and homesickness my fucking beloathed #I just want to be awake at the right time and have a nice stress free day and feel relaxed for once #like we keep trying to take time to relax and set aside time to do something fun and relieve some stress #and we still end up just as stressed and when we decided to spend a whole day just trying to relax we just ended up even more anxious #I'm so fucking tired. just let me sleep at the right time. just let me fucking relax for once in my life

[strongintherealgay]

Wednesday I chewed out my coworkers for not taking covid seriously and making me feel crazy for giving a shit, bringing up the fact it's in our wastewater so we know it isn't around, reminding them that covid impacts one's immune system and also not seeming to give a shit that our clients are youth experiencing homelessness and therefore are high risk for covid and dying of covid. None of them had good comebacks. Even my boss' comeback was a fucking lie. I love most of my coworkers but I need them to be better people in this regard.

#one of my coworkers had the nerve to compare covid to swine flu and that is what set me flying off the handle #and by 'chewed out' really i just meant speaking up for the first time in this issue in months

[danielnelsen]

always fun to remind myself of the side effects of my thyroid meds

#the first time i treated my thyroid my endo was like ‘i havent had a patient who had this happen for a while so im due for one’ THANKS MAN #personal #im just waiting for it to hurry up and work. my health has PLUMMETED in the last week or so #im so sick and i can’t DO ANYTHING. including SLEEP. even if i was getting enough good sleep i was be exhausted but i’m not so. #the energy’s doing Great #and i’m so hungry all the time but also nauseous so all food is unappealing #genuinely have no idea how i made it through years 7-10 undiagnosed. no wonder i ended up with such a severe phobia of going to bed???????? #i don’t have to worry about routine right now so it’s not as stressful (just horrible because i’m so tired) but i COULDNT SLEEP back then #im just relieved that this time it was found through a routine check rather than me getting a test because of symptoms #usually i test when my anxiety gets really bad in a specific way #but my anxiety isn’t bad this time. no panic attacks and also no migraines. those are all usually the worst to deal with #so comparatively this isn’t even a particularly bad episode?/relapse?/flare? #still more sick than i’ve been in……..years? #im not sure if covid was better or worse. but it was only really bad for a week #this’ll be worse overall because it’ll last a lot longer #hopefully only a month or two but that’s still a few months of my life that just vanish. cool!!!!!!!!!!! #and there wasn’t even a notable event to trigger it this time. first time was whooping cough and subsequent times have been things like— #starting uni and then the last 2 years of uni where i took 10 units in one year then overworked myself doing my thesis #im SLIGHTLY worried that maybe i’ve developed rheumatoid arthritis and that set it off because it’s also autoimmune #i should see my gp soon to get a general antibody test. my joint have been so bad it’s been hard to walk for quite a few months #idk man it all sucks. but for now at least i have my white blood cells (even if they’re literally the problem lmao)

[ringsidedishes]

i still can't believe despe won

(this will be the only thing i'll talk about for etc etc)

#dishesrambles #the way he won too #like he looked so strooonnggg #it reminded me a little of his match vs akira last bosj which altho i havent made a moty list 2023 yet that one would be on there #catnip for me #i could watch it another few times and not get bored of it #ive been fantasy booking him ofc. wanna see him vs titan and robbie. hope he keeps the belt until after bosj and also wins bosj #and he'd win in the finals against hiromu ofc how else #is that asking too much? perhaps!!! #i was just super convinced this would be a dope match but hiromu would continue and maybe get that record defenses he wanted #altho i also wasnt too excited about his title reign (tho i really like how he used it and went just about everywhere with it) #(also tbf i kinda wanted to see hiromu and naito both with belts and then do the match they were gonna do in 2020 but couldnt bc covid) #i still can't believe it. also didnt think it'd set my brain on fire like this. that match was so sexy #so excited to see where this goes with him #'the wrestler makes the belt' and theyre right bc DESPE HAS THE BELT #ahem anyway ny dash today with DESPE WITH HIS BELT