#self reblog; want me to do it again

[tansypaws]

cannnnooottt believe people think rn is an appropriate time to wax poetic about how uwu uwu it’s okay to take a mental health break and stay silent on an issue when literally the least you can do (and the least that has been asked for) is to spread awareness of what is going on. jesus fucking christ. couching your refusal to do this BASIC fucking thing as ~*~ uwu #mentalhealthmatters uwu ~*~ is fucking depraved call your FUCKING REPS good god

#it takes a certain level of like…self absorption to think it’s appropriate to wax poetic about how turning away from war crimes is okay uwu #like no it isn’t constructive to doomscroll 24/7 but do you really think that telling people it’s okay to ignore things is right??? #when that’s the standard? when ignoring things and looking away is what it takes to enable this? #you’re your own people you can make your own choices #but it genuinely infuriates me to see inconsiderate bullshit shared like that #sorry but again….i’m not sorry at all #wren speaks #don’t reblog this i don’t want to deal with tumblr libs #if this makes u feel bad sit with it but i’m not arguing on this lol

[kakusu-shipping]

Last year I started this huge project of redrawing a bunch of my Self Inserts in my more plump body style, a few of which I posted sporadically as I made them. The plan was to full a whole page with all my old S/Is and then full color all of them and post them all together.

I recently picked that project back up and added a few more S/Is but.. The longer I look at my massive canvas the less motivated I am to color it and then the less motivated I am to do other art

So! Here's the clean sketches for all the ones who go together, the rest I'll be posting as before, just random bunches of unrelated S/Is, uncolored until someone asks about them.

#Emile's Arts #Self Insert #Feel free to ask about any of these btw I've talked about all of them before #But now they're all New and to keep myself sane I won't color them unless someone shows interest in them #Because my coloring game is off recently kfjgkdfjg #Anyway! #I wanna thank everyone who follows this blog for hanging around #I know I go through weird bursts of creating a bunch and then reblogging a bunch with a few days of radio silence every here and there #So I wanna thank you for you patients and more importantly for your encouragement #When I started this redesign project and was posting just 4-5 unrelated S/Is at once I was always so excited to get asks about them #I really only ever want to do something if someone else is interested in it so my motivation waxes and wanes with what y'all interact with #So just. Thankyou for interacting so I can have the motivation to create! #It really has been an uplifting experience self inserting like this with y'all here with me #So thank you once again

[elftwink]

a 14 year old transgender kid who googled "hrt" and read up on medical transition already knows way more about "biological sex" than your average cisgender adult and i am not joking or being hyperbolic. constantly in my higher education i am subject to facts i learned myself as a teenager because i'm trans and constantly i speak to cis people who gun to their head could not tell you the difference between secondary and primary sex characteristics. if you're trans and any cis person tries to school you on gender laugh in their fucking face don't even hear them out unless they produce some qualifications i am being so serious we have to stop letting people who are convinced they can be feminized from plant estrogen think they're smart. #openlylaughatcispeople2022

#good idea generator #the food hormones always fucking kill me. u really think if that shit did ANYTHING trans ppl wouldnt be doing it #should be self evident but if any cis person says anything weird in the rbs #i will be reblogging it again with the caption 'point and laugh everyone' #so like you can say whatever you want by all means please educate me #just know that if you tell me something i already know. which there's a 95% chance you will. i'll laugh

[skitskatdacat63]

I feel uninspired and lack motivation for art again so I thought of an ask game for me :)

Send me(or comment) a number from 1-34 and I will draw my corresponding oc

I mentally struggled over whether I should make this post, because ik ocs are niche and probably not many people care for it, but I realized I could have been using those hours to y'know. Actually draw something. So I might as well just post it

#i would do it with AUs but i would actually have to yknow think of a narrative #<- but tbh if you have any requests for au art i will take them 😭😭 #also w that and this i cant make any promises if ill actually finish them so please put up w me thanks 🙏 #i want to draw but #ive gotten into a bad mindset again #about measuring self worth w outside validation #which is very irritating 😾 stop it brain. #but yeah idk i reblog those posts often abt niche audiences #which im very okay w btw :) #but its still a very difficult thing to engrain that: ah people do care for my art! #and ik its unhealthy to seek validation #and i can and do draw for myself #but its not always fun to me if i cant discuss it yknow :/ #if catie makes a piece of art in a silent room does the art really exist? blah blah blah #i need to go suffocate myself in the snow #im happy my winter break is so long but at the same time i think it just puts me in a bad place mentally #lack of social interaction and lack of enrichment and no motivation ig :/ #and every night i mean to actually go to bed earlier and boom suddenly its 5 am #and i keep staying up in hopes ill actually yknow start something. art. writing. movie even #and then i just languish UGH #catie.rambling.txt

[shinixgami]

I miss bleach

so excited for cour 3 but when it comes we will only have one cour left……

#yea im thinking of this lately I can’t live without bleach again im already SUFFERING ✌🏻 #I ​want to make edits but my stomach still hurts i don’t feel like doing anything or feeling good. ya allah help me #I’ll just keep self reblogging the old edits 🦦

[furrama]

I see that Tumblr has a main character. Haven't had one of those in a while. And, unfortunately for the rest of us, he might be the last one.

#The CEO of this site has been busy being his worst self in regards to black and Palestinian and trans people #I saw people vaguing for days but nobody actually reblogged or explained anything on my dash #Anyway on top of that there's unofficial rumors that the site might be partnering with Midjourney to sell off all of our art data to them #And if that happens you won't see me here ever again #Like yeah scrapers probably already have everything I've ever done #But I never gave permission #I will never give permission #And for people saying “Oh you gave permission when you signed up for an account” I joined in 2014 #This sort of application was not on anyone's radar #But if that's how they want to interpret the language then I guess I can't stop them #But I won't be around because of that #Or anywhere else that decides to do the same

[sunlightfeeling]

more of a psa on the blog but I’m going to try to post more solo shoots of the other SMAP members. Because I have a lot of pretty shoots and I just want to ☺️

I know some of you are probably here mainly for the Takuya things, but please enjoy the other shoots that get posted. All of the SMAP members are really lovely…

#I know these are also not going to get as much ‘support’ like how smap ones sometimes go but thats okay #it’s not about that #tbh i think the THING that upsets me the most is that on occasion a post breaks containment for a bit #but only because a specific person reblogged it at THAT specific moment #and i see the notes and im like… #‘my home is wide open…do you want more of this because i have loads more??’ #i feel like a nan that wants to make sure everyone is well-fed even though they JUST got a heaping portion of food #…didn’t really mean to ramble about that… #nor am i trying to guilt-trip anyone into reblogging because again its not about THAT #i just wish more people visited people’s pages if they see a post they like #(talking about tags like ‘omg i love kimutaku’ and i just kind of have this face 😗 waiting for them to show up and then 📭 nada) #or the ones that only reblog that ‘howl japanese va’ post that has a bajillion notes but there’s like…an entire ocean of pictures of him? #why are you only reblogging one? #how do you have such self-restraint? #teach me your ways #actually don’t #i like being insane about old men #*loud incorrect buzzer* #OMG IM STILL WRITING TAGS WHAT THE FU #ramblin but not a gamblin man

[onewingedangels]

i'm tired but i would love some day for ppl to actually reblog gifs as much as they love reblog "support gifmakers, always reblog" posts

#personal #honestly looking at this state of reblog vs likes is just so bad now #that those posts about sUpPoRtInG gifmakers feels like a scam #like really ppl will reblog them and never actually mean any of that #now i'm here self reblogging every 40 mins bc no one wants to reblog so u gotta do it urself i guess 🤷‍♀️ lmaooooooooo #anyways dont mind me once again im just annoyed as always #i'd love to say more but i think it will be too harsh #love and peace or whatever <3

[bunn-iiii]

awe heck yeah hehe >:] <- is drawing his fursona and actually having fun drawing for the first time in a while

#i completely forgot that drawing furry art was my favorite thing #because i got so caught up in my own head about having to be good at drawing humans too #like it was some sort of requirement for doing art #and that made me completely stop doing art ofr a while AND ALSO leave the furry community #because my main connection to it was art #and most of my friends now aren't in the furry community #BUT JEFFY @catboybeebop #he reminded me that i can draw furry art again purely cause his amazing self keeps reblogging furry art #and it reinspired me (that's not a word but I'm making it up for this) #so now I'm doing furry art again because it makes me happy and i want to do things that make me happy again

[monty-glasses-roxy]

Anyway, Nottober starts today for me. Nottober is basically the October drawing challenge thing (like Inktober) but in February because I forgot about it in October but still really wanted to do it. I'd not been on my meds long in October and I didn't feel prepared and stuff, so fuck it I'll pick a different month and do it then! It was gonna be January but um. I started the year with no meds at all so I really wasn't in the best position for that.

Anyway, I'm gonna be making some stuff this month! I'm gonna make my own list of like... Extra prompts in case there isn't a good one on any of the lists for the day, so if anyone wants to contribute some random, SB/Ruin words for it, feel free to send them my way!

#pop rox talks #I'm hoping this gets me back into writing again #cause I've never limited myself to drawing on these things #where's the fun in that? #some days i might just make progress on a bracelet or experiment with painting nails or something #i can draw i can write and i can do whatever else i want so long as it's fun #how much will I actually complete? who knows! #every time I've attempted this I've gotten sick so like #better be careful lmao #there's no rules here #it can be doodles or sketches or i can end up spending two days on something who knows? #not me! #definitely not pushing for what i was doing last time! #i dunno why but i wanted to do big finished pieces every day??? or write a full thing every day??? #not intentionally! i didn't plan for that! #i just woke up every day with the self imposed stress of completing something every day #not anymore! i do what i like now! #even if it just ends up a post talking about an AU or something #maybe even a day answering asks or an art game or something #fuck even just reblogging stuff would be good #i keep meaning to and then just not and it's sad :( #I'm of the belief of treating people how you want to be treated and i want my art to be reblogged #so i want to reblog everyone else's as i used to #i miss doing that #like a LOT #so if i don't feel like making something I'll just go do that! flood the queue again!! #fun stuff!! #I'm winning on all accounts!!! #lets gooooo!!!

[muu-kun]

#; ♡ ; okay to reblog #muu has admittedly been describing is self perceived melancholy and isolation regarding it #as being comparable to the circle drawn around Sadness in Inside Out due to others finding his emotions to be Too Much in capacity #and that as such he has thus been persistently trying to make himself very very small in spaces #so that maybe perhaps someone would soon be able to reside in the circle with him just until he gets to where he feels he is supposed to be #muu has also stated on numerous actions that while he is adamant about self healing he is not necessarily of preference #to not have the assistance of peers and their feedback and he tends he show it most predominantly in asking them to hear Everything #about himself in the form of the big box because one he wants assurances at the end of it all but also because he Has to be explaining #his processes of thought and general state of where he is now to people so that they may go Oh so that why you do the neurotic shit you do #but it really be hard out here when you don't know how to self advocate for a persistently emotionally present romantic partner #you don't really have any friends and you are either God awful at making new ones or you don't want to try for reasons of either #feeling scorned past close friends of yours have left time and time again OR #because you don't know what version of yourself is the Real one or the Good one or the Authentic one so you avoid socializing #until you can properly answer that dilemma but in turn you've left yourself with 1 person to seek out and talk to #but with that comes the existential dread of either a this person is also going to leave me or #b I am in fact so totally codependent on them that it isn't fair to be my sole research for assistance that I ought to fend for myself #but what do you even do to fend for yourself when you don't even know how to Advocate for yourself?? #you devise a plan to shrink down and provide no indication to those around you that you are struggling with anything #that perhaps shriveling yourself down like that will allow for people to find you tolerable enough to be around #and that their presences will patch up every interpersonal wound in your system until eventually what you are faking has come true #; ♡ ; inner thoughts

[koheletgirl]

WHAT DO YOU MEAN JEWS ARE GONNA BE CANON

#the implications of this are Fascinating to me #obviously they might not address this at all but i would be thrilled to learn how other religions affect vampires #if i say baruch hashem to nandor. will he hiss #why does christianity have any effect on nandor in the first place? is it specific to vampires or is it the One True Religion of that world #again obviously it's not that deep no one thinks about this #but i do. bc im self centered #also i didnt want to add this in a reblog it felt like an unnecessary addition to someone else's post. anyway #🤎

[dualitysdownfall]

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#just thinking about the engagement on my art blog again #why is there so little why dont people talk to me about the things i make #the only times the numbers arent trash are when it's something for an event #and when i say 'not trash' i mean 'above 50' #which is already a low bar #its like #art is my life. it's what i'm good at. it's one of the only things i'm good at. #so forgive me if i have a hard time believing i'm so unremarkable as the reblogs would suggest #i know i dont post that often but there's no fucking way that's the only problem #even a lot of people im close to dont reblog my art #like damn yall what am i missing what am i doing so wrong that im not realizing #or am i just failing an inscrutable vibe check on every single post ive ever made #i dont want to spam self rbs i dont want to guilt trip i dont want to make it about the numbers #its not about the numbers. its not. its just that the response i get is so small #most of my recent posts dont even receive comment-type tags #im doing everything i can. i genuinely just want to know what im missing #is it my timing? my tagging? my art style? do i just have rancid vibes #literally genuinely tell me if theres something wrong with how ive been posting my art since i literally made an art blog #because i've had that blog for like 6 years and this is where we're at #like. the hs fandom is big and i draw popular characters. #i'd like to think i draw them *well* but i suppose that's subjective #still though. what so fuck #ok literally if i dwell on this any more ill just get depressed and i do have to go to bed anyway #but like. if you have feedback for my art blog. i frankly have no idea what to do

[dadbots]

August… time to get spooky.

#dadbots.txt #this has been in my draft for... almost a month. Yikes. #I’ve been dissociating hella hard these past months or something. swear I don’t remember time moving this fast. maybe it’s just me tbh. #idk what to say about July other than… boring? not much happened and I don’t really remember it if I’m honest. just. mm. shrugs. #best way to describe it LOL #been sleeping a LOT lately and I think it’s fatigue again. was it like anything before? no. not at that rate (yet) but just. #where you wanna sleep and sleep and sleep type of fatigue. you never feel rested and just gotta sleep it off kinda. #just one of those moments yknow. #it sucks. all I’m doing is letting the days pass me by and ‘missing out’ on living life when I could be enjoying it. but I lost interest - #- in doing so for months - years now due to personal health matters. And whaddya know - it came back again. after months of healing. #I'm pretty pissed as it does feel like a slap in the face. but you win some - you lose some. Gonna try and fight through it. #I wrote something at the beginning of august but that got deleted. Had a breakdown and thought huh. what a great way to start the month - #and now it's almost september. Just like that. What a month it's been. Stuck on what else to say but that really. #don't want to keep talking about depressing stuff as that's what i used to do and realized hey. maybe you should stop doing that so often #and not use it so casually in humor and/or stuff. Even though I reblog vents here n' all. but yknow. #maybe it is hypocritical. but that's not the point. Just want to reflect and see if i've changed since coming back to the web after a year. #not like it's going bad. just wished this year was a bit more optimistic. Last year was rough & i'm afraid this year will be another repeat #though I did come out to a family member this month and that was like a punch to the gut. Considering my status with them and all. #won't get into that. for now let's just say i'm not too close with them. An impulsive choice on my end but hey. it went well. #and that's what matters tbh. My younger self would've thought i was actually insane. like to even DO that? really? #shocking. I'm still not over that moment. Probably one of my biggest achievements this year. #I'll update this if anything else comes to mind. none of this make sense and that's ok. clearing my mind right now. #let's see what september has in store for me. Hopefully it'll get better as things slow down w/ winter on its way. #hope y'all enjoyed your summer. 🖤🤘🏽

[gxtzeizm]

oh and on top of everything else you're begging for money on tumblr. wow. pathetic bitch

i'm so sorry if it bothers you a lot i promise i won't do it again :(((((

but guess that you just love to see me dissapointing my parents by dropping out of uni if i'm not able to pay for my uni fee this semester...well okay then

#once again i wanna say that this is my only last chance and hope to make sure that #i'm able to escape from my financial stress and anxiety this few months from now #yes i want to find some part time job inside my campus or online freelance jobs #but i truly afraid that it might distract me away from focusing in my lectures or even not able to complete my assignment on time #+ my dad not really encourage me to do any kinds of part time jobs #also rn i feel that some of online platforms who offers freelance jobs or passive income jobs are quite untrustworthy #i say it because ngl i almost got scammed by one of those things a month ago #yeah right i truly feel so scared to tell everyone here about this since it was literally me being such a fool to trust this kind of things #and this financial stress nowadays really triggers my anxiety level to the highest point that i literally #self reblog that post all over again #yup i realized what i've done rn i know 😔😔

[elytrafemme]

diversity win! your favorite system host has been made a SINGLET❗️❓ because she was TOO insufferable for the masses 😱 of angry EPs and dollar store protectors 👀

#nightmare.system #DO NOT REBLOG #alternative version of this post that was less funny: #diversity win! your favorite girl with abandonment issues just got ABANDONED by her own ALTERS! #also I KNOW YOU CAN'T BE 'MADE SINGLET' I KNOW THAT I KNOW THAT #i'm just saying this is not the first time a symptom or experience has thoroughly ruined my life and then inexplicably disappeared #i know i keep bringing this up but i don't think you guys realize how frustrating it is #to be told by someone that they finally understand you because they know your traumas #they go to therapy with you they want to give you tattoos they help you get dressed they LOVE you #they're like your fucking brother or something #and then you see them and you pinpoint it as the exact moment that both of you are never going to see each other again #and fucking Dahlia like. we never really Got Along as well as i said we did like i don't think she ever liked me? #but she was supposed to be my big sister #and i'm really sick of blaming myself for being the reason that they all left #because i worked hard to keep this body alive and comparatively the rest did fuck all #and you know. if they didn't want to come out for me that's fine. i don't care. #but you would think they'd at least want to speak to their fucking FRIENDS #anyway. that's all. i'm done thinking about these fucking people. #i'll happily be the ostracized 1% of people that was wrong about a self diagnosed dissosociative disorder if it means i can stop #hearing klavier's voice in my fucking head when i know he's never coming back. #neg #don't reblog. again.