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fictionkinfessions · 1 year
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so. sometimes i like engaging in bnha fandom content when im out of my bakugou shift but recently i listened to a podfic that was multichaptered (while still out of bkg) and was a rewrite of the og canon and started at the beginning of canon. it got angsty so i swiched to a different fic to take a breather and it just so happened to be very similar to my canon and made me shift into it. but then i continued to listen to the multichaptered one. which was a bad idea because it was before all my "character development" and fuuuuck man. i was such a shitty kid and i kept on cringing because i wish i could go back and fix everything I did wrong. it didn't help that in the fic i almost got expelled if it wasn't for the nerd. and man that brought back a lot of feelings that i thought i got over. little katsuki was a massive dick who was insecure and took it out on others. i wish i didn't.
- bkg (👾🌀🌱)
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yuichi-ro · 2 years
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𝘪𝘻𝘶𝘬𝘶 𝘹 𝘧𝘦𝘮!𝘙𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘳
cw: fem!Reader, very self indulgent, kid(s), domestic au, fluff, unedited word count: 1.4k a/n: it’s just a coincidence that I’m posting this and it’s his birthday ok shut up I hate Deku
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The office smelled so weird. 
New freshly unpacked gear and whatever ambiance scent Izuku had picked out for the agency office this month was not to your taste. The two things twisted your stomach and forced you to hand your husband’s gift to his son as you plugged your nose walking back towards Izuku’s office. One hand clasped around your son’s wrist and the other pinching the bridge of your nose as discretely as you could. 
It did not ruin any of the surprise when Izuku’s green eyes lightened on his two favorite people.
“Daddy!” beating his father to it, your son unlatched himself from your hand and bolted into his dad’s office.
“What? My two favorite people?!” Izuku scooped up his kid moments before taking a knee to the crotch, “It must be my birthday because this is a treat!”
“We got you something.” His son hadn’t dropped the less than pristinely wrapped gift you let him hold as you walked in. Bouncing excitedly on Izuku’s lap you stood there smiling as your kid kept shoving the box in front of his dad before even greeting you.
“For me?” Izuku took the box and lightly shook it to hear nothing to his surprise. No idea what it could even be the man looked up at you as he set the gift down and resituated his kid on his lap, “I’ll opening it since you hand delivered it to me handsome.”
“We got done at the grocery store sooner than expected.” You came to the side of his desk everyone else was on. Brushing the unkempt mess of curls away from your son’s face before bowing down and smooching the very top of his exposed forehead, “I might have bribed him to be nice in the store if we saw dad.”
“Mom bribed me.” He parroted you without have any idea what that really meant.
Izuku slung his arm around his kids waist and pulled him closer on his lap before reaching out and getting the gift, “Well if this is a bride, I gotta open in then don’t I?”
“Open it! Open it! Open it!” His son chanted as he kept kicking out his feet and hitting his father’s desk. Not sure if you kid got the idea of what a birthday was yet. He was so excited that it would probably make up for what was in the box.
Opening it without care. As it was certainly wrapped by a kid with minimal intervention. Izuku couldn’t stop the laugh that escaped him the second he saw the two pairs of socks but hte one facing him looked eerily like his own line of merch, “Socks? This is what I needed buddy! Thank you I-”
“No look at them!!!” His son dove into his own present to take out both pairs. Shoving the pair that had been tucked under the other into his father’s face, “This ones of your favorite hero- And then I got matching!”
“Bud those don’t match,” Izuku laughed as he held up the All Might socks his son had blessed him with. Compared to the green socks that looked just like the ones he’d seen of his own hero outfit.
Eyebrows knitting together in the judgiest look. Your son pointed once more at the socks in his father’s hand, “They match. Because Tall Might is your favorite hero- And your my favorite here.” 
“All Might.” Izuku corrected with a smile. Hugging his kid tight against him and kissing his temple, “I love them. Are we gonna wear them tonight then?” 
An enthusiastic nod. And just as your kid opened his mouth to dominate the conversation more you directed him elsewhere. Telling him that he should go show the socks to other departments of the agency. Since they were such good presents after all. Of course he took the bait, and his father’s socks, and was unleashed on the rest of the agency that were very use to their boss’s son at this point.
You watched him make a right turn for the accounting side of the building and shook your head laughing before leaning back into Izuku’s desk and smiling at him, “Sorry for the socks. He saw them at the end of an aisle and well you know how he gets.”
“I love them.” Izuku tucked the wrapping paper in the box ready to be recycled later. Then he leaned over and got a kiss from you finally that was only interrupted by his smile growing on his lips, “And I love it even more when you’re the best mom in the world.”
Grinning you took another kiss from the birthday man and proceeded to brush his untamed curls off his forehead just as you’d done to your son, “Best mom huh? Only because I have the worlds best hero- Oh I mean dad.”
Izuku took scared hands to either side of your face. Delicately pulling you down to meet him for a much more passionate kiss. Enjoying the midday smooch from your husband until a very on purpose slip of a second box fell from your pocket. Landing in fact at his feet. When Izuku broke the kiss to look down confused, you faked your surprise.
“Oh did I bring that with me?” You lied right through your teeth, “That’s your birthday present from me.”
He picked it up ready to hand it back to you, “We can wait until after dinner tonight. I did get some pretty good looking socks.”
A sheepish grin crossed your lips and you pushed the box back to your husband, “Nah. I think you should open it here. It’s....it’s pretty important.”
Skeptical and intrigued Izuku tore into the much nicer wrapping job. One that you had spent time wrapping nicely for sure. And he didn’t even rattle it around first to guess what might have been. It wouldn’t have mattered if he did though because what Izuku unboxed made him clasp his hand over his mouth immediately to stifle the gasp.
Painfully dramatic as it had been last time. He took a few seconds before lowering his hand. Bottom lip already trembling as he picked up the familiar brand of pregnancy test you both had gone through a million for it felt just to get pregnant with the chronic sock gifter who’d fled the office. And just like all those years ago the perfect little pink plus sign was shinning up with the best announcement he could think of.
“Y-You’re pregnant?!” Izuku couldn’t even put the test down or stop himself from crying. It’d been a while since you saw him cry like this. Fat globs of tears running down his freckled cheeks. He lurched out of his chair to embrace you. Crushing you in his hug as he twisted back and forth literally unable to contain his excitement, “Oh my god you’re pregnant! How- When- Ok no I know that- I thought we agreed to stop trying?!”
You shrugged and took the test out of his hand but didn’t push him away from the death hug, “Apparently that last one, did the trick.”
Utterly choking on his tears Izuku buried his face in your neck. Sobs mixed with laughter as he jittered with excitement, “You’re not that far along then- Oh my god have you told your mom? Have you told my mom? Oh my god when can I tell my mom? Wait- Does she still have the pack and play?! Who has the bassinet?! Oh no did we get rid of the bassinet?! Are we keeping this a secret or finding out if it’s a little boy or girl or-”
“Izuku.”
“I don’t care which one! Do we need books on having two kids now?! You don’t have to breastfeed- I’ll take as many weeks off as you need- Your mom and my mom can-”
“Izuku.”
“I think I still have the number of the midwife who delivered-”
“Izuku!” Your voice finally ripped through that thick skull of his while the flow of mutters didn’t seem to have an end to them. You weren’t mad though. Only smiling softly when your husband’s big green eyes landed back on you and his touch so instinctively went to your belly without a second thought. So you did what you always did and grabbed his face in your hands. Squishing his cheeks between your palms and kissing him softly before he settled down enough to focus again, “....happy birthday.”
Eyes watering all over again. He laughed with the dorkiest grin on his face as he grabbed you close for another kiss, “Best birthday ever.”
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quackspot · 3 years
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blacktinnedpeaches · 2 years
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nipped home earlier to put the ocado away while ana + ben got their boosters but ocado came so early that it was a wasted journey lol o well ... moving around is good
today’s miseryblogging (oh minor cw for mentions of historic, not current, self-harm)
im annoyed w/ myself bc i was really planning on using this few days to get back on top of work, but it was such a RELIEF to just not be battling constant terror that i just sort of sank into bed and didnt move unless absolutely necessary lol.
going home properly tomorrow and i wish i could say that i felt ready or rejuvenated or whatever but i just feel pure dread at the idea tbh and im embarrassed + ashamed of this bc like... imagine being ben rn like you literally throw up once (for non-contagious reasons) and your gf goes into a panic tailspin for like 3d and literally leaves the house and goes and stays elsewhere w/o saying one word to you LMFAO like... 🧍‍♂️ i think there might have been some improvement bc the last time he threw up in like, may 2016 (CRYING THAT I REMEMBER HTE DATES) i actually self-harmed so badly we had to go to the minor injuries unit LOOOOL (AND ANA’S DAD HAD TO DRIVE ME BC I COUDLNT BE IN A CAR W/ BEN. THE SHAME OF IT ALL??) like im laughing but genuinely like the amount of stress i must put him through for this is unfathomable to me bc ive never been in that position!!! anyway nothing of that nature happened this time at all and i do suspect if this month hadn’t left me flat on my back i might have been able to cope w/ it anyway bc i wasnt really recovered from the bludgeoning force of the OCD the past month (like he had a cold a month ago and we all know what happened then, and i dont think ive been able to get myself back on track enough in the interim to cope w/ this - my biggest trigger)
i asked him just now if it makes him want to leave me and he said no, not at all, and he loves me + isn’t going anywhere (and i mean we have been together for like, 9y at this point so none of this is a shock) but like - i can understand how this kind of shit would put a serious amount of weight on teh strongest couples and i do kinda live in fear of what is going to happen as we age? like what if he gets cancer? or like some kind of long-term illness? like genuinely what the fuck then?
i know that the answer is that i actually have to WORK ON IT, but it’s so god damn hard and awful lol
what would you guys do in my position bc i feel kind of at a lost end here - like as ive said before the OCD is the one diagnosis i have that really, really encompasses my experiences, but every single time ive reached out to the NHS they dont help, cant help, or wont help. and even if they wanted to help, it would be 12 sessions of CBT, after a year+ on a waiting list.
ben wants me to take the antidepressants again; i will, bc even tho i dont particularly believe in their efficacy, i have never felt bad on them either, so i think i may as well give them a go again. ben seems pretty convinced that i was a lot better on them but i think it’s just that whatever episode i was in was naturally time-limited bc it was based on real events (i.e. him getting ill - finite) and that coincided w/ going on the meds lol. but i dont begrudge him asking me this so whatever
my other plan is to get a private ocd specialist involved but its really hard to pick one bc none of them seem to do ERP (which i believe is the more up-to-date treatment for OCD) and there are no reviews for any of them, and i really fucking wish therapist reviews were a thing
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colorisbyshe · 7 years
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OOOOoOOh MY GOD
So I went into my ace tag to see if I could find any of my old ace inclusion posts and I found this gem from (if my view on dash function is working properly) January 2012 and I’m ready to shit.
One semester of gender studies and I thought I was slick enough to pull this shit, my god. I’m not going to delete the post because... again, I want to demonstrate that with education and like... openness to empathy... people can change the for the better.
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ofjcsie · 6 years
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werd. it meme, kayla, with yet another muse. this is my bad bitch josie, lets get to know her shall we
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「 ISKRA LAWRENCE, CISFEMALE, TWENTY-FOUR, JESY NELSON. 」┈did you read that latest viral gossip issue on JOSIE PRYOR? she is the VOCALIST in ETHEREAL, one of my favorite POP groups. they’ve been releasing music for ONE YEAR now, but viral gossip has only been talking about them for the last YEAR. get this, i think i heard SHE MARRIED A STRANGER IN LAS VEGAS. they’re known as the THE CATACLYSMIC of the music industry, since they have a rep for being BENEVOLENT but TENACIOUS, but who knows. maybe that will change once they become #1.
firstly im gonna apologize if this is all over the place. im gonna try to organize it but i cant make any promises.
BASICS
full name is josephine iridessa pryor, but goes by josie for the most part
named after her maternal grandfather, joseph.
originally from tallahassee, florida. ur basic suburban middle class white family. one older sister. her mom owned her own bakery and her dad was a paralegal.
ex high school cheerleader
one tough cookie
AESTHETIC
leather jackets, skin tight jeans, fishnets, roses with the thorns still on the stem, red nail polish, fangs, messy hair, scars covered by tattoos, the moon at midnight, high heeled boots, dancing like nobody’s watching, and structured handbags.
HEADCANONS (?)
literally ppl are always like “josie can’t sing. she’s inconsistent.” or “she’s the ugly one” or rlly mean Ugly comments about her body and just general ugly body shaming. like she Knows she’s not the same size as her bandmates but like ???? she loves herself??? it took her a long time to get to this self love level and she loves her girls so she’s always telling people to fuck off
literally gets in trouble with management for telling body shamers in her comments or ppl that are generally rude to her and/or ethereal to fuck off. probably has blocked some accounts (even stan ones sdscdcs) like jesy has
cute but will 1000000000000% fight u if u make her mad, say bad things about ppl she cares about, or start body shaming
body posi, self love, and self care activist and supporter of the #metoo movement as it relates to her past
since her mom had a bakery, she worked there in hs and knows her way with cupcakes
hates wine & has never done hard drugs
i rlly cant stress enough how she will fight anyone and everyone for being an asshole
Straight (shes like my only straight character it’s Wild)
never had a serious relationship because she’s always been guarded but she has been in love, or at least thought it was love
curvy > plus sized bc she is by no means “plus” and knows this. by measurement/fashion standards she is between straight size and plus, so just go with curve/curvy
DETAILS (?)
TRIGGER WARNING FOR BODY/FAT SHAMING & SEXUAL ASSAULT:  josie’s curves developed faster than other girls her age, so even in like 6th grade ppl were calling her rlly ugly names because her hips had grown and saying things about her, even going as far as slut shaming and oversexualizing her developing body like gross. around this time someone she thought was a friend would repeatedly touch her without her permission (also she was like 13 and knew absolutely no better than ‘uh he’s my pal so i guess it’s alright if he touches between my legs when i dont want him to). it rlly tore her down and she felt like she was nothing. that low self esteem rlly followed her into high school. the bullying kinda morphed more into unwanted glares from boys, girls calling her a sl*t, and ppl just being generally mean because of her body shape. her sophomore year she tried out for the jv cheerleading squad bc she really just wanted to be involved and have school spirit, plus she had a friend who was doing it. things were rad, she made the team, all was good, she rlly liked it and even wanted to go out for varsity the next year. junior year came around and she was on jv again, but their coach ended up quitting so the trainer stepped in. he was nice to all the girls bc he’d known them and was working with them but rlly this was just grooming tbh, like he kinda made it seem like he was hte only one in their corner if they were having problems. she got a weird feeling from him but folks were just kinda like “eh you’re over-reacting, it was just a hug” but when they went away to cheer camp it was like damn what a change. he got a little bit violent and ut was just generally a Not Fun experience, like yelling at the girls and embarrassing them to the point where other coaches and such were like “uh he needs to chill tf out”. to make everything worse one of the nights he knocked on the door of the room josie was staying in, saying he wanted to talk to her, she let him in and long story short he got handsy. when she told school authorities what happened, it was her word against his, but after testimony from teammates about his behavior at camp and everything, the school gave him an ultimatum: resign or be fired and go to court.. lmao guess which he took. so basically he got away with molesting her and being an abusive bag of dicks. END OF TRIGGER
for a long time she blamed herself bc she thought she was too naive or maybe if she hadn’t opened the door, or it was all her fault and she let it happen. sometimes she still has self doubt moments where she thinks about “but what if....” or she says “at least it wasn’t as bad as...” she’s very passionate about the metoo movement tho, and abusers being held accountable for their actions (no matter their gender or sexuality)
she doesnt really talk about what happened in detail, but she has been vocal about the metoo movement and she stands with her #MeToo sisters because she’s been there
since cheer was like “aha nop never again” senior year she got involved in the drama club. she’d sang in church choir before, but nothing Super Serious. but the fall production of grease really caught her eye, so, she auditioned and voila, Sandy. 
after graduation, she started community college in musical theater, still working at the bakery but she fuckin wanted to leave florida (dont... we all??) so she used the money she saved from the bakery, bought a one way bus ticket, and ended up in austin texas... not exactly where she wanted to be, but it was out of florida.
she started singing at bars and trying to get involved with local small theater productions/companies, but that really just was not cutting it. so she asked her dad for some moolah and she moved to los angeles. for a long time she lived in a very very shitty apartment complex (if u rememerbr YEARS ago there was a show on the cw called the complex... it was about struggling young actors/musicians living in one place.. lowkey it was good but it got cancelled before season 2 wow shocker amirite) her agent was kinda bad, like joey’s from friends, but the one thing he got right was booking her an audition for a new girl group that a label was putting together. and boom, ethereal.
AS for the vegas thing lmAO.... i’ve been feeling like it was kind of recent. like, ethereal had already formed or was right at the beginning of the four girls coming together. (i still gotta work out those kinks) but essentially she went to vegas and on a Wild night, married a stranger. all she remembers from the memory clips are they met at the casino, there’s a chapel, back in her hotel room, a charge on her credit card for the honeymoon room service package, and the next morning she woke up alone in bed with a huge fuckin headache and a cheap ring on her finger. she was 22 and dumb. but aint we all?? she’s still technically married, but does NOT wear a ring or talk at all about having a husband because she doesnt know the dude. like literally can’t find him lmao, can’t find him to get that shit annulled or file for divorce. therefore, technically married.
SOME WANTED CONNECTIONS
i dont have a Ton but some that i’d love to have established are a mentor (probably someone who is older or more accustomed to fame), a roommate or ex-roommate (could be multiple), a celebrity crush (again, probably more fmaous), someone she tells everything to (they’d probably know about the vegas thing and her history regarding sexual assualt)
other than that, hmu or like this if u wanna plot??? im down for anything????
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fictionkinfessions · 4 years
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I've been wondering whether I might have another more comics-similar tl as bruce wayne instead of only being from the telltale games, but thinking about it at all makes me start crying and/or guilt spiraling and so I've been. avoiding the idea. I already blame myself for a lot of things as it is. I don't think I can handle things being worse. The idea of it just feels like this weight in my chest that makes it hard to breathe... Feeling depressed about kin things always makes me feel ridiculous.
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