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fictionkinfessions · 3 months

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not sure who needs to hear this, but you deserve to forgive yourself. you had a past life, yeah? that means this one is new.

it's lovely that you care about those you have hurt in the past, and it is so important, but no matter how illegal or irredeemable your crimes were, you died. you were reborn and now you are new. have joy! revel in your experiences and appreciate your knowledge! feel guilty as it comes, and let it go like a soft little bird, because you already paid your price. you're new now!! it's never bad to apologize to those you knew in a past life, but don't hold yourself accountable for something you did not do in this life. you deserve better. you deserve forgiveness from others, and you deserve forgiveness from yourself.

(and if you were hurt in a past life you don't need to forgive the one who hurt you, but please forgive yourself for being hurt. you were trying your best.)

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#fictionkinfessions #fictionkin #apology #prevabuse #self hate cw #mod party cat

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crowcussion · 1 year

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why in the fuckity fuck does gym class always give me a panic attack

BRO.

EVERY FUCKING TIME I JUST START CRYING IN CLASS AND I LOOK UGLY AFFF

i need a no crying pill plz

#crow’s brain vomit #pills cw #minor self hate cw #self hate cw

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dumblemonchickenwing · 1 year

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draw your character was taken from Levshany

#my stuff #oc #tw negative #self hate cw

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chronic-invisibility · 2 years

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Vent tw ed sh etc

Binged and cut again im a worthless disgusting stupid failure and i dont deserve any of the good things i have going for me i deserve to be even more miserable than i am now. I hate myself so much and i dont know why i just can’t stand myself it feels like im being a person wrong sometimes fuck i hate this

#vent #ed vent #sh vent #self hate cw

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agent4o4 · 3 months

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i am so, so good at ruining everything all the goddamn time even when im so desperately trying NOT TO

#/#self hate cw

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csa-survivor-confessions · 6 months

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I remember one time in band this one guy I think did a tickling motion (idk man) on my side, for some reason and said something I can't remember, and that sure as hell shocked me, and I think I got really triggered or something, I couldn't think of anything but that for a while and kinda froze up? Idk if any of this makes sense. (ik this isn't super related but anyways) god I hate my body so much I just wanna be androgynous, cis boys my age don't have to worry about being sexualized, I just want to feel better.

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#confession #childhood trauma #trauma responses #triggers #self hate cw

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clamorybus · 1 year

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as much as i know it's useless and tbh really u necessary to strive for unattainable beauty standards, im constantly stuck in in an endless cycle of trying

#literally im spiralling rn bscause i scrolled past an old photo on my dash #and was immediately hit with a wave of 'youll never be thin youll never have decent skin you'll never be happy like Them'#just out of nowhere #and im trying t #not to breakdown over it esp because it was so stupid #like yeah im not gonna like like a teenger at prom everyday of my life im 24 bodies change and shit #even though i don't give a seco d thought to how other people age and change and grow #im sittiing the corner shaking and crying (metaphorically) about having gained 100 lbs and having acne scars #ie things that literally don't matter #yet i cannot handle it at all #mickey.txt #self hate cw #body image cw

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vulturescraps · 2 years

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#art #dinosaurs #sad #depression #self hate cw

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lostmf · 7 months

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I wish I could stop counting every bite ..

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fictionkinfessions · 18 days

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God. There’s a lot wrong with me, isn’t there?

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#fictionkinfessions #fictionkin #self hate cw #mod party cat

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crowcussion · 2 years

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BRAIN STOP BLOCKING OUT YOUR TRAUMA HOW TO I RECOVER FROM SHIT I CANT REMEMBER

#caps cw #cursing cw #trauma cw #self hate cw

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agent4o4 · 5 months

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what is wrong with me

i hate who i am

#/#self hate cw

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yall-hate-kids-tourney · 26 days

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Round 5 (main finals): Chara Dreemurr (Undertale) vs. Amane Momose (MILGRAM)

Propaganda below the cut

Chara Dreemurr (?):

They were constantly blamed for killing all of monster kind in the no mercy route, despite players choosing to go that route. People ignored that they sacrificed themselves to attempt to free the monsters from the underground.

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everyone wants to blame their own actions (genocide route) on chara, who is a literal child. i don’t know how to tell you this but you are the one playing the game. it’s about YOUR CHOICES. chara is there is punish you for that, you killed the only family that ever loved them! how could they not be upset at that! also if you don’t mind, here’s a good video essay on the subject

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Amane Momose (12):

Amane was voted guilty in the first trial so that she would acknowledge her guilt. It backfired, and now she’s considered a threat. Well, everyone is a threat, but nobody’s threat level has been as heavily discussed and debated as hers. Consider the next prisoner in line, Mikoto. He’s objectively more dangerous and cannot be restrained. He beat up the guard in trial 1, and he was able to hold his own when the other guilty prisoners were attacked. But a good incentive to forgive him is so that he will calm down. You know what? That’s a good incentive to forgive Amane too! But she *can* be restrained, so a good portion of the discussion went into how she should be voted guilty so she *will* be restrained and not a threat. Since her vote was a near 50/50, of course a good chunk of the voters expressed dissatisfaction with her forgiven verdict. Some are already planning to vote her guilty for trial 3, calling her a “lost cause”. She hasn’t even done any concrete harm yet. Hold the pitchforks until she actually causes harm, please? And what if she *was* voted guilty in trial 2? We’ve been warned that she will continue to deny our judgement. A second guilty verdict won’t make her better either, and then what? She’d be called a “lost cause” as well. There is no winning with her.

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Where do I even start? So first of all she’s an cult child who was physically and mentally abused and tortured by her parents and then (presumably) murdered her mother after her mother killed a cat that she took care of.

Now everyone in Milgram is a murderer but when Amane came and her MV showed her murder and circumstance in an admittedly highly fictionalized depiction of it the audience decided to…repeat the cycle of abuse!

She was voted guilty for the main reason of “teaching her” and helping her “realize that she was abused.” I would like to note that this tough love approach is something her parents utilized against her. “We are only doing this to help you.”

So the audience replicates Amane’s abusers and repeats the cycle of abuse and that’s pretty shitty but it isn’t exactly “Fuck Em Kids” level.

And then Trial 2 happened. Cause Amane is bitter and angry and horrifically traumatized so she acts aggressive and hostile. Especially towards another prisoner.

Now, again, everyone here is a fucking murderer (of atleast could be constructed as one) These people being able to Harm is a core concept of this series.

Yet for some reason it feels like people treat Amane as a “delusional creepy kid who wants to kill people” which completly takes away the nuance of her character. She does have the capacity to harm! Everyone here does! She’s not Uniquly Dangerous! She just has a Reason to be Dangerous. A Reason we GAVE HER by REPEATING THE CYCLE OF ABUSE.

In short: In a series full of Murderers I’m honestly a bit pissed that the 12 year old abuse victim is the one who’s treated like the guy from American Pyscho.

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TL;DR: "We metavoted this abused, indoctrinated child guilty in trial 1, but it didn't work. Now she is a threat to three grown adults: one who is fully free and two whom she has been shown to get along with. Please metavote her guilty again so she will be restrained and unable to attack them, even though that means subjecting her to further psychological torture." Amane Momose is the youngest of ten murderers, prisoners of Milgram who are to be judged innocent (forgiven) or guilty (unforgiven). In the first interrogation (voice drama), she said that what she did was in line with her religion's doctrines. If we judged her the "wrong way", she said she will just deny the verdict. Combining the voice drama and music video, you could piece together that she was raised in a cult and abused, even though she is cheerful and downplays her pain. She never shows *who* she killed, only *why* she did. After the first day of her vote, she was 81% innocent, but this wouldn't last the whole three months. Many people voted her guilty so she would "see her sins", part of the practice commonly known as "metavoting". Her innocent percentage rapidly decreased, and she hit guilty in the last 15 days, finishing at 51% guilty. At the end of the first trial, Jackalope (who is something like a host) went over all the prisoners' verdicts and commented on the general reasoning. When he got to Amane, he *laughed* at the audience for voting that way to make her realize her sins. Trial 2 rolled around, and it was revealed that Amane's victim was her abuser. On day one, she was at 74% innocent. Seems like a cut-and-dry case now, right? Well... in the intermission, two of the prisoners (Fuuta and Mahiru) were badly beaten up and became reliant on the care of Shidou, a doctor. Amane became hostile to Shidou because what he was doing was against her beliefs. She visited all three of them on their birthdays to convince them to change their ways. She seems to be especially close to Fuuta, who is now murmuring about salvation. Guilty prisoners are psychologically tortured, forced to listen to voices that reject their beliefs. Fuuta and Mahiru both say that the mental strain is worse than their physical injuries. But Amane, who also looks worse for wear, was thrown under the bus because she isn't injured and is considered a physical threat to them (never mind that she gets along with them). She's considered a threat to Shidou, a grown man who is twice her size and fully free, while she is partially restricted by the long sleeves in her trial 2 uniform. She might indoctrinate Fuuta even though, in a prison of ten people and one guard, she's the only voice of her cult. Fortunately, she got a break. Her vote was falling at a similar rate to the first trial. But this time, it stabilized at 51% innocent, 12 days before the end of her vote. But there's no way this is over.

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dreamy-selfships · 2 months

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LISTEN I DIDN'T MEAN FOR THIS TO HAPPEN OKAY

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hungerpunch · 2 months

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i have decided to follow valtteri's example and, at the age of 33, start behaving like an unbothered hot bitch, unashamed of the physical shell i have been assigned by this life

#i type nervously with sweaty palms #dw guys i absolutely did talk to my therapist abt this #if i practice behaving like i dont fully hate my body maybe one day i will wake up and it will just be the truth #okay. got this. (crying)#self-hate cw just in case #driveby post

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