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shaynah12 · 10 months
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Body Modification
What is body modification? Body modification is an act of making physical alterations to parts of our body that we feel insecure about, it could be losing weight, getting tattoos, getting piercings, or even considering doing plastic surgery to look exactly like your favorite celebrity. Although body modifications can have their benefits it also has its disadvantages which can then lead to serious problems in the future. One of the disadvantages that body modification can do is that it can create mental health problems and serious body issues.
Firstly, body modification usually affects the younger generation because of social media and the Hollywood industry itself. If we look at social media today, we would find that mostly all the influencers and celebrities that we know and love, usually modify their pictures to look a certain way before even posting on social media.  Social media has a lack of realism because it has the ability to digitally modify photos by applying filters or reducing body weight (Science Direct, 2022). So basically, what videos or photos we may be seeing online of a famous celebrity may not always be how they look in real life, however, social media has already become a stronghold for a long of the younger generation and teenagers because they have created a perception of their own on how they should represent themselves like everyone else is doing even if that may be changing everything about themselves.
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Secondly, Body modification today affects a person’s mental health and gives way to body issues. Mental health is really important for everybody; however, body modification can sometimes change the way we feel about ourselves because instead of feeling good about ourselves, we are still however left with more insecurities that can lead to unhealthy behavior and medical help. Why do we still feel insecure even if we made small changes? We still feel insecure because changing our body image and appearance still does not outweigh the fact that our self-esteem no matter what we do is still lost if we never searched for it in the first place. You may have developed low self-esteem because of the visible difference you see in other people and it can affect your identity as well (Changing Faces, 2023).
Body dysmorphia and anorexia can come from the effects of body modification. Every day when we look at other people on social media and how they are representing their body image, could be one of the ways you would try to look exactly like them by losing weight or not eating enough which leads to eating disorders. However, once this has affected your mind severely you might find it difficult to even look at yourself in the mirror because no matter what you see in the mirror will never be good enough for you. Body dysmorphia and anorexia can always lead you to feel that you’re not good enough or worthy of any good consideration about yourself (Creek,2018).
In conclusion, we can understand that body modification is not only used to look a certain way but it is also known for creating a perception of how you should be and what you should do to be like everybody else. We must understand that body modification today is used for aesthetics and sexual enhancement that shapes society today into believing that it’s okay to consider that. It is always important to remember everyone is built to be unique.
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massmediaquiroga · 1 year
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Authenticity: Is that what we really want?
This week's reading focused on a big issue that has been exposed in recent years: authenticity on social media. With social media, we are now able to see more people and locations that we would never be able to see in person with our own eyes. Terms, such as influencers, describe how people post on social media and share bits of their life with their followers. The ability to get a glimpse on social media at stuff that we'd never see otherwise is a good thing, but it can also be a bad thing. As this week's readings covered, "authenticity" of posts are now challenged and there's research on stuff such as the creation of unrealistic expectations both physically and mentally.
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Jordan Foster covered in his article "It's All About the Looks" that influencers have risen on social media, but there's now a call for more diversity in influencer groups. In his research, Foster noted that certain influencers are beginning to adjust to this new "embrace" and are appearing as more authentic visually in their posts now compared to when they first started. Foster's research focused on Instagram fashion influencers and I thought it paired well with Rebecca Kreling and her team's findings in Feeling Authentic on Social Media: Subjective Authenticity Across Instagram Stories and Posts. Kreling and her team found that between posting on a timeline on Instagram and posting on the story feature, participants found that stories felt slightly more "authentic" than normal posts from people. It left me with the question of why I agreed with the research. Is it because posts have room for public responses in the comments or that they're permanently on a page unless deleted? In my own habits, I'll post something on my story that I feel is more authentic than something I'd post on my timeline. After reading these two articles, I'd have to say I probably think that "aesthetic" plays a bigger part in that than I thought.
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The final main subject for this week touched on body image on social media. Many people (myself included) have a bad habit of comparing one's self to another person, where you compared your image to theirs, your skill to theirs, etc. While I said earlier it's a good thing social media lets us look at places and people that we'd never see otherwise, it can also be a negative thing. In particular, one big movement I've noticed in recent years has been a push for more body positivity on social media and in ad campaigns. Marika Tiggemann and team discussed this in "Social media is not real: The effect of ‘Instagram vs reality’ images on women’s social comparison and body image" and found that in the "Instagram vs. reality" battle going on today. The findings found that the participants preferred seeing "authentic" images of people and that their body dissatisfaction went down (as well as the reverse). I thought this was an interesting article to pair alongside Kaitlyn Burnell and team's "Snapchat lenses and body image concerns," which found that using Snapchat lenses to alter a photo taken was associated with greater body image concerns. I can't help but wonder how Snapchat in general has probably altered a lot of perception of body image compared to other apps. On Snapchat, you take a picture of yourself until you find it satisfying enough to send to someone or post on your story for friends to see. After doing this many times, whether using a filter or taking a pic multiple times until it sends, you can't help but wonder how much your mind is altered that only certain angles or pictures of yourself are acceptable to present.
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chaoticgouda · 3 years
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fuck everyone else. be the cryptid you want to see in the world
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hajimewhore · 3 years
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Body Swap 👫 (Iwaizumi Hajime/Reader) ➸Rated T, fem!Reader, 1.9k words   ➷✈Part 1, Part 2   ➷Humor, awkwardness involved, if you’re me and I’m you who’s flying the plane?!   ➷Summary: When you woke up at fuck o’clock on a Sunday morning, you cursed yourself for setting an alarm so early on the weekend. Afterwards, you came to realize a few important things: 1. You didn’t set the alarm. 2. Hajime set the alarm. 3. You were in Hajime’s room. 4. Why? 5. Because you ARE Hajime.
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A/N: I’m taking forever on this Akaashi fic so I decided to throw this series out here, I hope you enjoy!🥺 Body swap is a trope I find absolutely chaotic and hilarious, so let’s get it! 
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Releasing a deep sigh, you pull your warm comforter over your face to hide the light peaking in from your blinds.
You're almost positive you closed the blinds and pulled the curtain over the prior night, but the thought doesn't sit much longer as you're lulled back into your slumber.
Hearing your alarm blare, a groan scratches at your throat as you smack your bedside desk, missing your phone entirely. Was your voice always this deep when you first wake up? You chalk it up to morning grogginess, deciding not to dwell on it any longer due to the obnoxious ringtone.
Also, did you even set an alarm? The thought sits at the back of your mind as you fiddle blindly for the sleep button.
It's Sunday, why would you even set one so early? How did you fuck that up?
Sitting upright, you blink blearily. Something feels off.
This isn't even your phone. These aren't your covers either...
The Godzilla posters decorating the walls definitely aren't yours, and this most certainly is not your room.
‘Hajime?’
You think looking around. This is definitely Hajime’s room. You hadn’t been in it in awhile, but it’s unmistakable.
You wrack your brain for the missing details, unfortunately coming to no result or explanation.
Why are you in Hajime’s room?! You didn’t drink last night, so there's no explanation for the missing details in your memory for how you wound up in his sheets. Also, he isn’t here currently.
What the hell?
Shoving the covers aside, you immediately notice your... significantly more masculine figure.
“What the fu—AH!”
Your surprisingly gruff voice startles you. Though, it’s not so much your voice, but Hajime’s.
Stumbling out of bed, nearly tripping over your tired legs, you barrel into Hajime's bathroom to check the mirror.
And despite all the clues handed to you, you're still completely stunned to see who's staring back at you in the mirror.
Your childhood best friend, Iwaizumi Hajime.
Cupping your hand over your mouth to stifle a scream, you pace back to the bedroom.
'It's a dream haha. A hyper realistic, very detailed, dream.'
You attempt to convince yourself as you slip back into the sheets, still warm, cursing your subconscious for forcing this abnormal dream onto your unwitting self.
Squeezing your eyes shut, twisting and turning, willing away your current situation, you realize... nothing is happening.
‘God damnit.’
You don't know who's fault this is, but it's probably Tooru's.
If you're Hajime then, yes you're starting to accept this fucked up situation, that that must mean Hajime is...
Shooting back up to a sitting position, you curse at the ache in your abdominal region. Jesus, how hard did Hajime go at practice?
Also, you can't believe you have Hajime’s abs right now.
Throwing on a random t-shirt and pair of sweats, decidedly not thinking about his abs, and how he was sleeping in briefs only, you jogs downstairs like a mad man.
Completely forgoing shoes, you cross the street and use the hidden key stuck in a potted plant to open the front door.
You're positive by now your parents have left for work, and Tooru is more than likely sleeping in after staying up late last night (no doubt pouring over tournament videos), so there's no chance for interruption from either party.
Not that your parents would question Hajime's presence, but you really aren't in the mood for doing small talk with your own parents while pretending to be Hajime.
You head straight up the stairs for your room, swinging the door wide open.
“That’s... me.... augh, this is so weird!”
You run a hand through your hair, almost startled by the different texture. This will definitely take some getting used to. 
...Also, was Hajime’s hair always this soft?
You physically dash that train of thought from your mind, shaking your head. You remind yourself of the task at hand and your current dilemma, crossing the threshold of your room.
You shuffle over to the bed, climbing on top of the covers.
If that’s Hajime, he’s no doubt gonna freak out over seeing himself wake himself up.
Well, you might as well have fun with it.
“Hajime!”
You shake... yourself, watching your eyes blink open.
“Wha—?”
The physical-You blinks awake, catching eyes with physical-Hajime.
“What the f—”
You cover presumably Hajime's mouth (you're mildly hoping there hasn't been an awful three-way swap between you two and Tooru),
"Hajime! Confess to your sins!"
"I— What the fuck?! I haven't done anything! You're— How are you me! I'm me! Why is my voice—"
Hajime is quite clearly panicking and word vomiting his stress. And while it was a little funny at first, you're starting to feel a bit bad.
"Alright alright, before you go full panic, look in the mirror. I know this seems like bullshit, but it’s me!”
You lean back, gesturing to the mirror above the dresser.
Hajime’s eyes furrow, following your gesture before locking eyes with... Your eyes in the mirror.
But that’s definitely him moving like that, lifting his arms, tilting his head. Or rather, your arms, your head, fuck, this is confusing.
“Why the fuck am I you?” after a momentary pause, “What did Oikawa do?” 
Hajime snarls, and it sounds odd coming from your tone.
“I was hoping you’d know the answer to that. I came here as soon as I woke up.”
“Well, this all better be a really fucked up, disgustingly realistic dream I’m having.”
Hajime sighs, rubbing his eyes.
“I really don’t think it is. I already went through that crisis.”
You pout, and Hajime raps you on the forehead.
“Don’t make faces like that with my face, you’re freaking me out!”
“Me? You have the biggest resting bitch face ever! It’s scary on me!”
His expression softens marginally, after a deep frown.
“Well... I guess we should figure out a way to fix this.”
“How’re we gonna do that!?”
You whine, and Hajime cringes at the way it sounded coming out of his mouth.
“No clue. In the mean time, we should try and keep this a secret and attend classes like normal. Also—”
He cuts himself, frowning deeply.
“What?”
“Shittykawa. Volleyball.”
“Aw fuck!”
You groan, falling back into your sheets at the foot of the bed.
“How are we gonna pull that off?!”
“Just talk to Oikawa like I would, and I’m sure I could... do the same.”
You somehow doubt that will work, and you can plainly see Hajime is going to have an issue conversing with Tooru in your mannerisms. Tooru has known the both of you longer than anyone else, and tends to be perceptive in and out of volleyball. Regardless, you have no choice but to have faith in Hajime's plan, even if it is lacking the finer details.
“As far as volleyball...?”
You tilt your head, chewing at your cheek at the thought of club activities in an entirely different body. Hajime rubs his hair, briefly startled by it being... not his hair.
You bring up very valid concerns. He's the ace of his team, you're a middle blocker for the women's team. Neither of you are especially privy to your respective team's plays or teammates.
“I’m sure we’ll catch on fast. We’ll just have to spend today teaching each other everything we need to know. At least we both know how to play, even if it’s different positions.”
He locks eyes with you slumped in the sheets, trying not to picture it as himself laying back in your bed. Realistically, it is him, but it isn't his mind. But now is not the situation whatsoever to be thinking about the suggestiveness of that image, so he shakes the thoughts from his head.
“Mm, guess you’re right. As far as school goes, our class schedule is pretty similar, so we can just study together. How bout we get ready and practice volleyball at the park?”
The unspoken ‘before Tooru wakes up’ hangs off your lips.
“Alright, I’ll get ready.”
He stands from the bed, before freezing and blushing heavily.
“Absolutely not!”
You match his blush, sitting upright in a flash.
“I-I’ll help you get ready! Just keep your eyes closed!”
You cry out, and Hajime turns his nose with a heavy blush.
“Like I’d open them!”
“Better yet—“
You snatch your uniform tie from your bedside table, wrapping it around Hajime’s eyes.
After tying off the makeshift blindfold, you ponder what transgressions you must have committed in your past life to be here undressing yourself as Hajime.
“God, this is so weird.”
You whine, awkwardly tugging your, Hajime’s, clothes off.
“How do you think I feel?!”
He snaps, but there’s less venom in the tone due to the pitch of your voice. There is a classic Hajime ring to it though, and your mildly impressed he pulled that off with your natural voice.
You make quick work of dressing him in athletic wear, not wanting to suffer in the stifling awkwardness any longer than necessary.
He removes the tie from his eyes, averting his gaze with pink still dusting his features.
“...”
“What now?”
You're worried to hear what he’s contemplating, and you certainly don’t like the sheepish, awkward expression stretching across his features.
“I really have to pee.”
“Haaaajiiimeee! Just hold it!”
You turn scarlet, and he glares.
“I can’t hold it forever! And who knows when we’ll be able to turn back. We might as well break the seal now.”
Ordinarily that kind of wording would be humorous, but you can’t find anything funny about the situation you’re currently in. Hajime stomps towards the bathroom, looking not unlike a toddler throwing a tantrum. 
‘Damn, I really look like that?’
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“I can’t go with you staring at me!”
Hajime growls out, makeshift blindfold back in place. He has an inkling that he’ll be wearing this a lot now, but he can say for certain he never thought he’d be using a blindfold in this manner.
“You can’t even see me!”
“That’s not the point, I know you’re standing there!”
“Ugh, this is so humiliating! Just get it over with!”
You huff, slamming the door shut and flopping unceremoniously onto your bed, shoving your face into the pillows.
You hear the rush of water, good to know he washes his hands, and Hajime steps out of the bathroom feeling.... new, for lack of a better word.
“You’ll have to deal with it too, you know.”
He turns his nose, drying his hands on his pants, cheeks still hot.
“...I already did.”
You huff, and Hajime cries out with indignation at the revelation.
“What the fuck? And you made such a big deal out of—”
“You’re really packing!”
You stick your tongue out, and Hajime moves to legitimately strangle you and make an attempt at your life, not caring if it’s his own body.
“H-Hajime please, I was kidding, I haven’t gone yet, I swear!”
“Whatever!”
Upon closer inspection, you look way less threatening than Hajime ever did, but you hold back the snicker before Hajime can get too pressed about it.
“Let’s just go back to my place and get ready for practice.”
He huffs, trailing out of your room as you follow, relieved he’s calmed a bit.
Your relief is short lived however, and a panic washes over you when you think about how you'll have to go through Hajime forcing his clothes onto you.  
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heweightlossjourney · 4 years
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Introductions
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Hello to anyone reading this. I’m H and I’ve started this sideblog to document my weight loss and keep myself accountable. Let me start with a little backstory:
I have been overweight for as long as I can remember. I’ve never been super active, though I was on a couple sports teams at various points throughout my school life. I always overate as a kid and I still do it now. Eating has been a coping mechanism for me my entire life, and I would say that I am addicted to food. 
I have generally been okay being heavy, but bullying is a bitch and I know that other people’s perception of me affected me and made me a nasty bitch in middle school and high school. I wasn’t in a place to understand why I acted out until I was able to distance myself from my long term abusive boyfriend and my dad stopped drinking and got out of his abusive/toxic situation. Now, I understand the effects that the trauma in my life has had on me and I’m calmer and more level-headed, so I am in a good place to start working on my physical health in conjunction with my mental health. 
I know that my self-image right now isn’t healthy, and I am aiming to love my body. I am trying hard not to think of the things I might want after this, like skin removal surgery and breast reshaping, but it is hard not to imagine myself with a little sprucing up. While I don’t want to scrutinize over every flaw I have, I think the best way I can motivate myself to keep it up is taking note of my body and how I perceive certain areas, so I will update this with my reflection on how my body looks every so often. 
Over the time I have been not working because of COVID-19, I have gained weight, but I have also started keeping up with infamous obese youtubers like Amberlynn Reid and Foodie Beauty, and watching channels like Charlie Gold and Petty Kitten react to them. I would be lying if I said that it wasn’t a kick in the ass to not become as big as them, but also a motivator knowing that I will never be like that, I won’t allow myself to be like them, and that I am a better person than they are. I know that thinking like that is mean and cruel, but I am here to lose weight, not monetize my addiction and appeal to feeders while maintaining an attitude of entitlement and oblivion.
While we are at it, let me just name a few of my rock bottom moments:
- my abusive ex boyfriend calling me “Whaley”
- being too heavy to ride horses
- being too big for a ride at the fair and having to get off it in front of a ton of people in public
- my brother swiping the back of m head like a debit machine
- my ability to polish of a lot of food in one go
- my lack of stamina standing, walking, exercising, being on top during sex
- crushing my boyfriend when I lay on him
- being too big to fit into 3x clothing on websites like dollskill that actually sell some interesting clothing for bigger ladies
Without too much more delay, let’s get into the facts:
Age: 18
Height: 5′11
Starting Weight: 333 pounds
Current Weight: 329 pounds
Total Loss: 4 pounds
BMI: 45.9
BMI Goal: 25
Current Goal: 300 pounds by day 30
Day: 4
Health Concerns: Morbid Obesity, PCOS and Insulin Resistance, Lactose Intolerance, Depression, Anxiety, Food Addiction.
Diet Plan: OMAD (one meal a day) and intermittent fasting. 
The diet I have chosen to follow, OMAD, is one of many different diets I have tried over the course of my life. I have tried keto, I have tried vegetarianism, I have tried slimfast. The reason I have chosen this particular diet this time is because of the freedom to eat pretty much anything within the hour I set aside for myself to eat each day. It’s hard to fuck yourself up too much in an hour. After having done the diet for a few days, here is what I have noticed about it:
- I get hangry
- I am somewhat nocturnal and often sleep from 6am - 2pm, and it makes it so much easier
- The boost in energy after my feels like I am on top of the world, and the naps while digesting fuckin rock, sleepy is a good feeling when you have time set aside for it
- It is a lot of mental will power to look at my favourite foods and say no
- It is a lot of mental will power not to cram 3 meals into an hour
- It is hard to pick what I want for dinner
- Cravings hit hard
- Black Coffee is nasty
- It is easier not to consume dairy with OMAD, and not have diarrhea everyday is nice.
There are some things I have noted as well, like eating dairy at all is a big mistake. It is unpleasant to only feel full for a short period of time before violently emptying the contents of my digestive tract. The effects of lactose has on my body go so much quicker when it is the only thing I have in my body at the time. Lactaid is very hit and miss for me, and by the way the chewable tablets are actually the devil incarnate and I hate them. I have tasted vanilla in my life and that isn’t it. 
I chose this diet because my boyfriend does fasting as his preferred diet method, and while I wish I could fast all day, my job requires me to have energy and I am not a happy hungry lady. I intend to do OMAD long term, but may change it up slightly if I start to struggle when I get back to work. 
It should also be noted that I seriously do not recommend this diet to anyone who struggles with disordered eating (me), depression (me), anxiety (me), obesity (me), anyone who has an affliction that would make it safer for them to consume more than one meal a day (me), and people who have medications they need to take with food (me). This diet is not recommended by doctors for long term weight loss, my endocrinologist was frankly a bit shocked when I told her, and it can cause a host of problems included but not limited to:
- triggering of eating disorders
- lack of protein 
- excess of carbs
- diarrhea (thanks, really needed more of that)
- nausea
- dizziness
- weakness
- extreme fatigue
So let me go ahead here and describe a little bit about my health issues, namely my PCOS, or polycystic ovarian syndrome. PCOS is a hormonal disorder. It can cause increased levels of androgen in the body, increased hair, insulin resistance, excessive hair growth, male pattern baldness, weight gain, irregular periods, fertility problems, increase risk of developing type 2 diabetes, increase risk of high blood pressure and high cholesterol, acne and oily skin, depression, and sleep apnea, as well as increase the risk for endometrial cancers, and obviously, cause ovarian cysts. This disorder can be passed from mother to daughter, and I got it from my mom. I have been suffering with this for years.
The biggest effects on my body have been my weight, my depression, irregular periods and cysts. I currently have an IUD in place to help with the symptoms, but my periods are not even close to regular and are often brown in colour. Before hormonal birth control, I would have 2-3 periods per year that lasted about a month at a time. These periods were heavy and excruciatingly painful, and the clots I birthed were like jellyfish. I often lost enough blood to become anemic. 
It should be noted that my PCOS has caused me to be resistant to insulin, and that can make it hard to lose weight and also cause some brown discolouration on the skin, which I have had on my chest and neck. I remember my mom used to scrub at my neck thinking it was dirty when my neck first started becoming discoloured. 
I had my IUD placed in December of 2018, and the follow up ultrasound revealed a cyst on my right ovary that was 21cm x 21cm which required surgery. Due to that, a traumatic situation and my vegetarianism, I lost 30 pounds by March of 2019. 
I have also struggled most of my life with depression and anxiety and used food to cope. I am currently on medication for that. I also take Metformin to help with the effects of the PCOS.
Here I will give a short description on the areas of my body that bother me and what I would like to see improve. I will try to be objective about what I don’t like and I will be honest about the reasons I would like to improve. I will say now that many of these reasons are cosmetic and not necessarily health related.
Inner thighs: While my legs are one of my favourite parts of my body and are in general strong and shapely, my inner thighs have a pocket of fat near my pubic mound, and I can see it when I stand up or I can see it in the mirror from behind when I bend over. I am self conscious about this because I don’t like the way it looks/hangs, and it makes it hard to be present and immersed when I am having sex or see myself as attractive if I take a picture for my boyfriend. The goal for this area is to have less hang so I can feel more relaxed during sex and any time I bend over. I also don’t particularly enjoy the thigh holes in my jeans, or that I have trouble with any sort of thigh high sock rolling.
Pubic mound: I’m not even gonna bullshit here: I just want a normal looking vulva. That’s it. I want it to be easier to access my clit, I don’t want such a prominent camel toe when I wear pants, I’d like it to be easier for my boyfriend to go down on me. I have a nice inner vulva and I want the exterior to match. I also find it hard to shave the areas between my mound and my thigh, as holding it open is not easy. That groin area is also prone to skin yeast infections and pimples and blackheads, and while I admit that they are fun to pop, it would be nice if I did not have to deal with it. 
My stomach: My stomach hangs. Underneath of it is prone to those same pimples and skin yeast infections (canesten is really helpful for tinea cruris, by the way. Yeast infections are yeast infections.) and while I get some sick pops for r/popping, it isn’t attractive. My stomach is hairy and while that isn’t really totally weight related, it also isn’t cute. My belly button is often very hidden, and it would be nice to get down to a size that I could get it pierced like my mom has. The rolls of my stomach get pimples and the red marks from sitting all day are not cute and can get painful. I have the muffin top when I wear jeans, and while the look of my stomach in jeans is less than sexy, it actually doesn’t bother me all that much.I have trouble keeping up panties that are both too tight or too loose, and tights are always rolling down. If it doesn’t hit just above my waist while still being slightly tight, it isn’t even worth trying to wear at all. All my jeans and leggings are high-waisted, and a lot of them roll when I sit or bend over. As a nanny, that is a really big inconvenience, and I would like to be able to exist for an hour without having to pull up my goddamn pants/leggings/underwear/tights. God forbid I put on a garter belt. Clothes that are flattering are hard for find for obese women. I just want to wear pretty clothes and feel like a person. When I sit with my knees up, my stomach is Very Present, and I can feel it against my thighs and trying to press through the gap in the middle. It would be nice to not feel that way, and I hope that I can achieve a stomach that does not hang.
Rolls under breasts: These are real sons of bitches. Hot, hairy, red, pimply. The heat rash is real. About half to 3/4 the size of my actual breasts. They make finding a comfortable bra difficult, and I would be really happy if they got even half the size they are now. 
Breasts: I don’t necessarily have a weight issue with my tibblies, but they are underdeveloped underneath and I don’t really like the shape of them so much. I am on the waiting list to see a plastic surgeon about my options. There are certain things about my chest that I don’t like that are the fault of obesity however, like the dark marks on my chest because of resistance to insulin, but I will get more into that in a bit. I also don’t love boobne, but hey, acne, amirite ladies? 
My chin/neck situation: My ‘waddle’, as I so hatefully refer to it, is my least favourite part of my body. This makes me so upset. I think this is the only part of my body that I truly genuinely hate. If I could duct tape it back so I could look normal, I would. I often look at plus size and fat and obese women and think why do they have chins and necks that are ‘normal’ but not me? (spoilers: the answer is morbid obesity.) I would like to be able to wear a choker comfortably and without it being hidden by my neck. It is very hard to pop waddle pimples. I do have the insulin marks on my neck, and a dowager’s hump, which makes me feel weird if I look at it too long. I don’t like when it sticks out of my clothing, and it feels odd to look at it with a necklace on, or a choker or collar or anything like that.
My back rolls: You hate to see it, and it makes finding a bra in my size a pain. It is hard to hide them, and anything that is fitted to the boobs and then flares can exaggerate the look of them. I don’t look at them too often so it doesn’t always bother me, but they can be a pain with certain clothes. It also makes some clothes tight and restricting in a way they normally wouldn’t, like dresses or shirts that zip. Highly unpleasant, and I would like to have smoother back for cosmetic reasons. 
The back of my head: I shave the underneath of my head. I’ve had my entire head shaven before, I’ve had just the sides shaven. It would be nice to get to a place where there wasn’t a roll at the back of my head. It would also be nice if my brother hadn’t swiped a card through it, but only one of those things is achievable. 
My arms: I have pretty strong arms, my job requires lifting and I’ve never shied away from taking all the groceries in one trip. My arms are large but not huge. I would be happy with a little reduction in the ‘wing’ area and I would like to see my upper arms a little more streamlined when fully extended. I genuinely do have big bones, but it would be nice to be able to wear my bracelets more comfortably. 
My hands: For the longest time I have been upset about the idea of ‘fat people hands’. I don’t have huge fingers, but it would be nice to fit rings on a little easier. I have large hands, because I am a tall woman, but not really fat or chubby hands like one might think of when thinking of fat people hands. My knuckles are fairly well defined, though they have dimples when my hands are flat, and have had since I was little. I think they are cute to be honest. I do not have discolouration on my fingers or knuckles.
My face: I don’t have a ton of fat on my cheeks actually. I do have a round face, but I have dimple-like indentations under my cheekbones that clearly define them. It would be nice to be a slightly slimmer face and defined jawline - any attempt at a contour is just awful. I would like to have a less prominent chin and cheeks. 
So let’s talk for a bit about long term goals. I am trying to set goals for myself in chunks. I know that aiming to lose 100 pounds the first go around is highly unlikely to get me any sort of success and I know that breaking it up into smaller bits is less overwhelming and more motivating. I am seriously trying to be careful about rewarding myself with any kind of food. 
Realistically, I would like to see myself get into the ‘normal’ BMI range by this time next year. I also know that to do that, I would need to lose around 170 pounds. With OMAD, you can expect to lose between half a pound and one pound a day. I do not see myself losing 170 pounds in 170 days. I do not think it is healthy to lose that much in under 6 months, and I don’t think my skin would appreciate it either, nor do I think OMAD is sustainable for that long. The idea is to try and hold out with OMAD for about 3 and a half months, and in that time, with upkeep, exercise and discipline, I could lose around 100 pounds, but I think the responsible thing would be to hope for closer to 75 pounds. 
I would like to outline my goals here:
Current Goal: 300 pounds - 33 pounds lost - 41.8 BMI
Second Goal: 270 pounds - 63 pounds lost - 37.7 BMI
Third Goal: 240 - 93 pounds lost - 33.5 BMI
Fourth Goal: 210 - 123 pounds lost - 29.3 BMI
Fifth Goal: 180 - 153 pounds lost - 25.1 BMI
Final Goal: 160 - 173 pounds lost - 22.3 BMI
Knowing how much one can lose in x amount of time with OMAD, and assuming I kept with it for a year, it could take anywhere from 173 days to 346 days to reach my final goal. I know that I won’t lose the same amount every day, and I know that it will be hard to keep it off once I reach my goal. 
I also know that I will need to take vitamins and supplements to make sure I don’t lose anything during this time. 
I am trying not to set deadlines for when I would like to reach my goals, though ideally I would be losing about 20 pounds a month. There are some important dates that I am hoping to have lost a certain amount for, however, and based on how much I might expect to lose and some basic math, I have deemed it pretty feasible to do.
I return to work around July 6th. It is currently May 30th. In 37 days I am hoping to have reached my first goal of 33 pounds lost. I lost 4 pounds in 3 days, and I hope to keep up that pace. 
The other date that I am hoping to have lost weight for is my birthday, which is August 31st. In 93 days I am hoping to have met my second goal of 63 pounds lost. I am turning 19 and very excited to celebrate.
For a little in-depth at what I am doing as far as my meal, I am eating a normal supper for me, a snack and a dessert. I am not counting calories. I’ll give some examples of what I have eaten at this time.
Day 1: Gnocchi bake with chicken, gummies, a chocolate bar, a little bit of bread and an iced tea. I made the bake with a package of sundried tomato gnocchi, one chicken breast, an olivieri package of rose sauce, like 2-3 tablespoons of herb and garlic cream cheese and onion. It was so good.
Day 2: I had the 4 bites of leftovers and some cheese bread, an iced tea, chicken strips, fries, a bite of fish, and some coleslaw. This day I felt sort of weak in the evening and so I had a fried egg sandwich with a cheese slice, mustard and mayo.
Day 3: I GUZZLED water all day long, like 4-5 bottles of water. I had crackers, the middle of a cinnamon bun, chicken strips and fries again, coleslaw and then some cake (I was celebrating a family birthday). My pee has never been so clear, let me just tell you.
One of the good things about this diet is being able to have whatever I would like as my meal for the day. I am an excellent cook (friend, family, teacher, boyfriend’s family and boyfriend approved, being fat has helped me master the kitchen) and I love doing it, so I can really get creative with my meal.
I come from a diet family, and so I am definitely supported on this diet, and my boyfriend is doing it with me, because misery loves company. Overall, I do feel hungry, but I feel satisfied with what I am doing and I have a lot more will power than I thought I did before, so I am proud of myself in that regard.
During my fasts, I try to only consume water and black coffee, which I take iced so it doesn’t nerf me with the flavour. Chewing gum is also quite helpful. My eating period is between 7p-8p, or 7p-8:30p, but that may change overtime as my sleep and activity schedule changes in the coming months.
I do not make promises on diets as a rule, but because of the nature of this diet I have made myself a promise that I will listen to my body. If I need a meal, I will eat one. If what is best for me is splitting my eating hour into two 30 minute eating periods a day for energy, especially while I work, then that is what I will do. 
Like I said, the goal is to check in every day with what I ate, my general feelings and if I am changing anything, and then I will try to do a weigh in weekly, and every couple of weeks update any changes I notice in the areas I mentioned earlier that bother me as a fat person. 
‘Til next time,
H
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What if Ishimaru and Mondo had both survived the killing game?
So, at the beginning of this year (2019), I decided to embark in a different project: to write a full fanfiction surrounding a certain idea: “What if both of them had survived the killing game?”. The goal of this was to include Ishimaru, as well as Mondo, in the canon plot described by the games and anime (I still haven’t read the novels or the mangas) by creating an adventure surrounding them but also focused in points I wished I saw in Danganronpa. In other words, write about their character development, their relationship (yes, it was supposed to be mainly focused on Ishimondo as a couple, slowly blossoming their romance) but it was also an opportunity to write about tragedy and despair (I enjoy writing horror and angst). I won’t reveal any major spoilers (about my fanfiction) because I haven’t decided if I will continue to work on this. I have other tasks at hand that I need to prioritise. It was supposed to be a big project which I estimated to be longer than 100.000 words. [so far, I have only written over 13k with the 1st chapter still at the beggining, while the second one is already at the middle with over 10k words.]
The point of this post: since I don’t know if I continue this or not, I would love to share the best moments I have wrote so far (both humorous and romantic and I have decided to not share any gory/sad parts). I will give context for every part I share without giving too much details.
NOTE 1: The narrator tries to put themselves in the feet of the character they are focusing on. So, they also try to adopt their way of speech and attempt to convey their feelings facing the various occasions (for example: the narrator is more crude and sad when the character in focus is Mondo)
NOTE 2: English is not my first language. So I apologise for any mistakes found.
WARNING: HEAVY SPOILERS FOR DR1 AND SDR2.
1.       “Hopes and Dreams”
Chapter: 1
Context: epilogue of DR1, looking at the metal gate that locked them inside the school, after defeating Junko.
The prospects of a new start were high amongst everyone. Makoto was experiencing a restraint holding his body, in other words, he felt tensed. Suddenly, the feel of warm leather touched his right palm. Kyoko had approached him and gently held his hand. She didn’t made eye contact however he appreciated her kind gesture. “You will not fight this battle alone.” Her speech motivated him and invoked a determined willpower from within which led him to furrow his eyebrows and squeeze her hand slightly harder. Amused by his mood changes, Kyoko tried but failed to conceal a shy, joyful smile.
Mondo walked closer to his brother and hurriedly hurled his long coat to fall over the other man’s shoulder and placed his right arm around Ishimaru’s neck to enfold him in a friendly embrace. That action startled Taka, who barely succeeded to sustain both feet on the ground after the abrupt (and clumsy) headlock. Along with an open, radiant grin, Mondo spoke: “Finally, we’re leaving this place!” Taka with his left hand reached and grabbed Mondo’s right wrist and looked back at him to return his kind words with a soft, resolved smile.
(...)
Byakuya continued to show suppression of his emotions to let his cruel image rule whatever perceptions he wishes others to have of him. Toko was next to him, fidgeting her fingers in embarrassment, peeking briefly at her “beloved” every two seconds with an odd, lustful desire on her face. Hiro, in the other hand, was screaming and crying in ecstasy, praying down in all fours, blessing the floor underneath and showing gratitude to whatever god (or alien) was looking after him.
2.       “Lost happy memories”
Chapter: 1
Context: shortly after opening the door, the survivors stand inside the school grounds but outside the building, thinking what they should do next.
Even if any of the lost memories had still not returned, Mondo remembered fondly of the small time he spent with Chihiro during the game, it had been enough for him to develop feelings of admiration towards the geek. He reached out for a specific content that was sitting inside of his long coat’s left pocket (the same coat that continued to shelter Ishimaru’s shoulders) to purposely find the set of stolen photos that served as evidence in the former trial. He glanced upon one in particular. It starred him hugging fiercely both of the baseball star and the computer nerd – he was happy. No, he was extremely happy. Look at his wide, stupid grin; it was a smile that he didn’t recall to see a long time ago. He browsed through the rest and his suspicions were confirmed. He had good times at Hope Peak’s academy. However, the collection was limited. Did he get along with the rest of the class? Were he and Ishimaru as close as they currently are or were they fierce enemies fighting about dumb things? There were a few of him smiling towards Taka. More than anything, he wanted to believe in the happiest statements. He glanced through the same photographs once again but he ended up with the same doubts. He wished to rewind time and relive through those moments one last time where he could adopt the same idiotic, relaxed posture he seemed to use back then. At least, he wished the set included a photo of him with his kyoudai. Did they also resolve their differences with a competition in the sauna? He laughed at the thought.
Ishimaru sighed while pointing at one of them. “I will miss them as well.” At the end of his index finger was a photograph captured by Makoto: They were all posing for the picture, in their school uniforms, inside their classroom (well, almost everyone - of course, Leon insisted in wearing his version of a “uniform”). Mondo turned his head to encounter red eyes glazed, stained with tears that fought to break free. Wow, he really was kind. “We were lucky… I wonder if I truly deserve to be one of the s-”
Maybe too kind for his own good. “Shut it...” He caught Taka surprised with the response. “What would I do without my brother next to me?” Mondo added, wrapping an arm around the other’s neck in a friendly way.
“Maybe it’s true. I still have a lot to lecture you about the true value of effort!”
That was not what Mondo wanted to hear “Oi-“
“And, as selfish as this may sound, I am truly relieved you weren’t the one who passed away.”
Sadness and guilt. Mondo looked at Kiyotaka and remembered how those two words felt. Those were feelings Kiyotaka was over familiar with… hell, even he knew the despair hidden behind those terms.
Mondo had quickly learned to detect those moods. In fact, he was pretty good at it! And he was unnecessarily proud of that achievement... The diagnosis? Symptoms of a low self-esteem. He still hadn’t figure it out how to improve his condition however, he had to think about it later; right now, he wanted to focus in leaving this creepy-ass school.
“Movin’ on… What th’ hell is this creepy smile?” In a sloppy attempt to change the subject, he shoved the mentioned picture in Taka’s face.
“Whatever do you mean?”
“Look at your face! You look like those creepy clowns but without the makeup. So stiff and robotic and why are you behaving like a soldier?”
“Ghk- Are you saying I am ugly?”
“Wha-! Ah- Shit! no!” just like mentioned before… embarassingly sloppy “That’s not what I meant! I just wanted to tell ya’ that ya’ need to smile naturally and not force yourself just ta’ try to look good in th’ pictures because it has the opposite result you intended!” Mondo pulled off a different photograph. In this one, they were with their gym clothes, enjoying a P.E. class and Ishi was smiling brightly while cheering for their class “For example, in this ya’ look natural ‘cause ya’ got caught off guard!”
“Oh- I see.” Disappointment was felt in his voice.
“Well- See? It doesn’t mean yar ugly or nothi’, actually I think ya’ are very good lookin’. Ya’ just look funny in photographs. Not everyone is photogenic! ... (especially you…)” he babbles.
“Thank you.” Taka released a soft smile. The type of smile someone would like to record it with a photograph “You are a very kind man, kyoudai!”
And Mondo gets easily flustered with sweet (and cheesy) praises “Oh! Stop it! Don’t worry that pretty head of yours thinking that yer’ ugly or some bullshit like that…”
“I don’t usually concern myself over those issues. But I can’t stop myself from wondering if the lack of a more relaxed posture or behavior is the result of my failures at adopting socials skills.”
Mondo couldn’t deny it. He had the same opinion. He gave it a shrug in an attempt to give the conversation a closure.
“And if I may say so myself. I think you are a very attractive man yourself, Mondo.”
Mondo blushed even harder at the sudden compliment. And again, that cute smile… if only he could make him smile like that in photos…
“I know!! What if I force you to smile spontaneously?”
A small silence broke between the two “Force me to smile spontaneously?” Mondo cringed at the obvious mistake “Did you think that through?”
“Eh- shit! Atleast I am tryin’. I don’t see ya’ spittin’ any ideas!”
Taka chuckled. Mondo never considered to see Ishimaru laugh as he did right now. It created an ambience of comfort. It’s a new side that Mondo wished to see his brother with it in more occasions. “I will try to think of something too, then.”
Observing those two talking was Kirigiri; detective mode activated: the right index finger intertwined and resting on her chin as she would normally do whenever she found herself immersed deep in her thoughts. “Those two seem to be in a good mood. It’s good to have someone to rely on.”
“Well, I consider myself lucky too. After all, I am the ultimate lucky student if I have you backing me up.”
That was… unexpected. Was he trying to be smooth, flirty or just kind? One look at his facial expression: huge smile, eyebrows tense, shoulders determined. He was definately not trying to be flirty but that comment was very effective. She turned around, flushed.
3.       “Makoto, the servant”
Chapter: 2
Context: daily life of Makoto in the Future Foundation.
Makoto had woken up with a tedious mood. He checked his alarm clock and groaned… 4 a.m., “Great!” He said before slamming the snooze button and slumping back into the flat, old pillow. He blamed Togami for that. The man continued to impose him waking up at ridiculous hours to perform the most preposterous tasks. To be honest, he sometimes felt to be Togami’s pet or worse… a servant. He cringed at the idea and quickly dismissed such unwelcomed thoughts to not further the cranky mood he was in.
“Peasant, I will need my coffee at exactly 65ºC (150ºF) with just a sniff of cinnamon or I’ll have you thrown into the dungeon. Naegi, you tell them the answer!” He adjusted his imaginary glasses, pointing forcefully to a random nearby object while attempting to copy Togami’s presumptuous act with an over exaggerated high-pitched voice. “Makoto, that was not what I wanted y-you to t-tell… t-them.“ …but he merely ended in chuckles in the middle of the last one, ridiculing his own failed attempts.
He pushed the sheets to one side and hopped off out of bed. Imitating Togami would always lighten his mood. He grabbed his phone to see what horrifying tasks awaited him that day…
4.       “Reunion”
Chapter: 2
Context: Mondo was part of the 2nd division (army) while Ishimaru belonged to the 14th division. Mondo was a soldier, facing wars in different points of the world; while Ishimaru worked in Future Foundation’s headquarters, safe from any danger. This was not their first reunion but it was the one where they spent the most time apart. The location of the reunion was in a cafeteria inside FF.
At the end of the corridor, he rested his hands over the knees to normalize his respiratory rate. One mental reminder to himself was to put his exercise in order! Those sleepless nights and postponing his exercise regime were clearly affecting his stamina. Though, he would have to worry about that later. Still panting, he recomposed to an upright stance to meet the single entrance of the beautiful building where Mondo awaited him. The smell of freshly baked buns was causing his stomach to start rumbling. He touched the glass door but didn’t push it to open. Instead he looked through the stained glass and tried to spot him. Shaky breaths were quickly turned into condensation whenever these brushed over the surface of the glass, defocusing the once clear image and forcing Kiyotaka to clean the droplets with his right sleeve. It had been wise to look for him behind the entrance door. It avoided a clumsy search inside the cafeteria for anyone to watch and whisper. He sensed something was beating fast inside of him. He confirmed that his heart was racing when he placed a hand close to his chest. Why did he feel so nervous?
The cafeteria was still pretty empty at this time of the day but a few people were starting to fill the empty chairs and placing their trays on top of the metallic round tables to start enjoying their meals. Loud laughter and loud chatter slowly scattered across the space, too much to his annoyance. He looked at his right, straight to his usual table. It was almost hidden by a load-bearing wall, away from the restless crowd and at the same time, closer to the landscape he so enjoyed. That blooming tree filled his morning with color and energy and made him believe that he could endure another harsh, boring day. Darn, someone was already occupying that… spot. Wait… sun-kissed muscles, different uniform (if not mistaken, he recognized it to be from the 2nd division), bleached long hair… That was Mondo right?
“Mondo.” he whispered only letting himself to hear before opening the door. The smile vanished in a brief second after he noticed bruises, scars and some bandages covering his best friend. Mondo turned his head around almost unconsciously to the scraping sound that the front door’s metallic base did over the tile floor, a common sound that repeated every time someone moved it to open.
Not five seconds passed when a very trembling Ishimaru had his arms around him. Mondo felt a stream of warm tears running loose in his cheeks, damping the collar of his t-shirt. Taka was crying, of course. Gently, Mondo folded his arms around the other’s midsection, pulling him to his lap to allow his forehead to drown in Taka’s neck, surrendering to the embrace.
The comments mocking the odd pair suddenly reverberated through the room, filling the air of not-so-sneaky murmurs. Without separating himself from the warmth radiated from Taka’s right shoulder, Mondo rotated his head, locking eyes with the few smug fuckers. A narrow purple iris shined in contempt out of a squinted corner of his left eye. Some deviated his looks, frighten by the former delinquent’s cold stare, while the boldest ones maintained the glare beside a derisive smile, maliciously enjoying the scene.
Yet, Taka was only focused in who held him; giving minimal concern to his surroundings. “Without hearing from you, I thought you were gone for good!” Hell, he didn’t even seem to notice the bastards around them! He only knew how his arms trembled and how his eyes hurt, overdriven with emotions.
Taka shifted to close the embrace even tighter, to reduce any amount of space that still remained between the two. The strong dedication put in those words chocked whatever sickening feeling Mondo was struggling with. Kiyotaka cherishing him was the remedy he needed to immediately light his mood and now, it was his turn to return the favor. Mondo moved one hand to ruffle Taka’s soft hair, while the left rubbed his back, working in tandem. Whatever it was, the affection was soothing the other’s tears. Mondo gave him time to compensate the time they had been away from each other so this position lasted for a few minutes.
Suddenly, Taka raised his head to look directly into the other’s eyes, who replaced kind eyes for a big smile. Mondo had a wide variety of smiles but this one, this stupid wide, teeth-clenched one meant ‘everything is alright’ where as Taka just continued to feel as hurt and tired. He inspected the scars meticulously, especially the ones across his face before unwrapping his arms around Mondo’s neck. Mondo didn’t budge but his palms slid to rest in other’s hips. Taka detected a tiny cut just under the left eye. He glared at it for a bit before rubbing it gently with his thumb to depreciate the change of texture that usually escorted injuries.
Red eyes were glazed deep in thought to which Mondo frowned and sighed. “Who are you?”
Taka was taken aback with the question. “What? Do you not recognize me?”
The exaggerated dismay on Ishimaru’s expression lines was what caused the loud, boisterous laugh that followed. It started off as a snort but it quickly developed to guffaws. That laugh only belonged to Mondo and to Mondo only. Taka simply gawked at him in absolute oblivion until the other stopped to explain. “I-I am just playin’ ya.” He managed to say between chortles “Ya’ almost fooled me with that long hair of yours, but your face continues the same. Oh gosh! How long has it been? 5 months? Hmph- it looks good on ya!”
This had not been the first time apart but it had been the longest they have been away from each other.
“This is hardly the time for games!”
“Sorry! Pout as much as you want. That cute angry face does not work on me! It was fuckin’ hilarious to see your reaction!”
Mondo conceded. He did look older, more mature, like a proper business man. He smirked turning Taka alert to his movements. He proceeded to remove his gloves and threw them carelessly on top of the table. He cupped Ishimaru’s pale but warm face against his cold hands. He flinched with the abrupt change of temperature but melted into it nevertheless. He pushed Taka’s bangs back revealing the angry wrinkled forehead and some kinky strands of hair that fought free from the grip. He noticed the obvious dark rims under the eyes, knowing full well he was the cause of that predicament. Regardless, he chose to leave the subject untouched. In any case he still had the same face and the same soft raven hair.
(…)
Although not evident, Kirigiri did worry about Ishimaru’s well being. He had a gorgeous smile when he truly felt happy and he was the only who could perform such a confidence boost in Taka.
“Hello, Mondo. It is nice to see you’re back safe.”
He looked at his right to see the former ultimate detective staring at him with a formal smile. “Hello Kirigiri. How are you?”
“Good. What about you?”
“Meh- could’a be worse!” he answered, looking fondly at Taka.
The conversation quickly died and Inadvertently, Kirigiri’s eyes fell over Mondo’s lap, where Taka was still sitting.
For once, Taka was able to read the surprise in Kirigiri’s face and immediately jumped out to his upright position leaving Mondo stunned.
“I didn’t realize I was still in y-your lap. I am so sorry kyoudai!”
He could have been quieter in saying that… Kyoko attempted to cover a snicker behind her usual thinking expression which became apparent that it would be a hard task when holding an apple in each hand.
5.       “???”
Chapter: 2
Context: after the “reunion” moment. Taka went to grab breakfast for himself and Mondo, while the other waited for him in the lounge.
Taka rushed to the kitchen without running. Old habits die hard I guess. Mondo chuckled at that. A tall man with ridiculous hair was now approaching Mondo.
“Mondo! So nice to see you again, man!”
“Same, Hagakure. How are you doing?”
“Fine. (gasps) those are some ugly, nasty scars.” Hagakure pointed it out “Are you ok?”
“No, dude. Can’t you see I’m dead?”
“AHHHHHHH- a ghost!”
Mondo is now the one stunned by Hiro’s overreaction.
“Bro… Chill… I am just teasing you… Did you seriously think I was dead? How high are you?”
“Are you sure you didn’t come to haunt me??” Hiro continued, half-hunched, covering half of his face with his forearms, squinting towards an even more stupefied Mondo,
“You have serious problems. I was bein’ sarcastic, ya’ big idiot!”
“Oh- haha! I am glad to hear it!” Hagakure quickly to his usual chirp self and laughed it off “It would be bad news if I had been haunted by a ghost.”
“Whatever man…”
Thank you so much for reading!! And apologies for my terrible sense of humour!
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The Shining
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Like most meditators, I began my spiritual trip with a single, classic technique: counting my breaths. After 6 months, bored with checking, I occupied complying with the sensations of the breath and, a couple of years later on, 'simply resting'- the kicked back, concentrated, all-encompassing recognition thought about by numerous Zen masters to be the complete expression of knowledge itself.
Just sitting been successful in unwinding my body and soothing my mind, but it never ever brought the deep understandings I longed to experience. Sure, I can concentrate for extensive amount of times and also bend spoons with my laserlike focus (simply kidding!). Yet after five years of extensive hideaways, I hadn't yet accomplished kensho, the profound awakening that Zen individuals proclaim as the pinnacle of the spiritual path.
So I changed instructors and also used up the study of koans, those old training puzzles (like 'Exactly what is the audio of one hand slapping?') that aim to baffle the mind, force it to allow go of its restricted point of view, and also open it to a substantially new method of regarding truth. With the help of my teachers-who provided 'motivating' words like 'Pass away on your padding'- I succeeded over the years in producing acceptable responses to several hundred koans. I still hadn't experienced an innovation peek of my Buddha-nature. I returned to 'just sitting' as well as ultimately drifted away from Zen entirely.
After meditating periodically for a number of years, I came upon Jean Klein, a teacher of the Hindu Advaita (' non-dual') Vedanta tradition, his wisdom as well as visibility reminded me of the terrific Zen masters I 'd check out in publications. From Jean, I learned a basic concern that immediately recorded my creativity: 'Who am I?' A number of months later on, as I delicately asked, the answer I had been seeking for a lot of years was disclosed. For one reason or another, the quality as well as directness of the inquiry, along with the unwinded receptiveness of the query, permitted it to permeate deep inside and also reveal the key that lay covert there.
Both koan research as well as the inquiry 'That am I?' are conventional techniques of peeling back the layers that conceal the truth of our crucial nature the method clouds obscure the sun. Called kleshas by Buddhists and vasanas or samskaras by Hindus as well as yogis, these obscurations are the acquainted stories, feelings, self-images, beliefs, and responsive patterns that keep us understood our minimal, ego-based individuality and also seem to avoid us from open up to the nondual enormity of that we actually are: the timeless, silent, ever-present place of being, which Hindus as well as yogis call Self and Zen masters call true nature.
Most fundamental reflection methods, such as adhering to the breath or reciting a mantra, aim to relax the body, silent the mind, and grow conscious understanding of today moment. However these strategies do not urge 'the backward step' described by the popular Zen teacher Master Dogen, the one 'that turns your light inwardly to illuminate' your true nature. In regards to a standard metaphor, they soothe the pool of the mind as well as permit the debris to clear up, however they don't take us to the base where the dragon of fact lives. For this we require what the wonderful 20th-century Advaita sage Ramana Maharshi called atma vichara, or 'self-inquiry,' whether through probing inquiries like 'Who am I?' or intriguing Zen koans that plumb the midsts of our being.
Admittedly, self-inquiry is only for the mentally adventurous, those that are stressed with discovering the solutions to life's deepest questions-people like the Buddha, who sat down after years of asceticism and swore not to obtain up until he knew who he was, or Ramana Maharshi, that, when surpassed by the concern of fatality at age 16, fervently inquired right into who he was if not his physical body and also automatically awakened to his identification as the deathless, everlasting Self. Not everyone has profound as well as transformative experiences like these distinguished spiritual masters, yet each people in our very own means has the possible to capture a life-altering look of the radiant sun of real nature. Actually, just such peeks have the possible to free us from experiencing when as well as for all.
Traditionally, self-inquiry is an innovative technique usually scheduled for the spiritually mature. In the Tibetan Buddhist tradition, as an example, practitioners could spend years creating concentrated existence, referred to as shamatha, or 'calm abiding,' before continuing to the permeating method of vipashyana, or "insight."
In my experience, the twin practices of abiding (or relaxing) and asking job with each other like the left and also best foot in strolling. We rest in the peace and clearness of our basic sitting method, whatever it might be. After that, when the waters are relatively still, we make inquiries, and the inquiry could expose a new degree of understanding right into the silence and serenity of our crucial nature that permits us to relax much more deeply. And from this much deeper resting, we have the ability to make inquiries even further.
Ask and Receive
To begin the method of self-inquiry, sit for reflection as usual. If you do not currently have a routine practice, simply rest quietly and permit the mind to settle normally. Don't attempt to focus your mind or adjust your experience, simply remainder as awareness itself. (Your mind will not recognize what I'm talking around, however your being will.) After 10 or 15 mins, when the mind is fairly open and also existing, present the inquiry 'That am I?' The point of this question is not to involve the mind, since the mind inevitably nibbles on inquiries endlessly like a canine on a bone, with little dietary benefit. Rather, go down the question into the tranquility of your being like a pebble right into a still woodland pool. Let it send out surges through your meditation, however don't attempt to figure it out!
When the pond is serene once more, decrease in another stone and see just what takes place. Reserve any conceptual responses, such as 'I am a kid of God' or 'I am consciousness' or 'I am a soul of light,' as well as return to the concern. Real at a specific degree, these solutions will not please your appetite for spiritual nourishment. As you proceed your self-inquiry, you may see that the question starts to permeate your consciousness-you may discover yourself asking it not just throughout meditation but at unexpected times throughout the day.
Instead of 'That am I?' you may choose asking, 'Who is thinking this thought? Who is translucenting these eyes now?' These concerns guide your understanding inward, far from the external globe and towards the resource from which all experiences develop. Certainly, anything you can perceive, no issue just how intimate-including the cluster of pictures, memories, sensations, and also ideas you require you-is merely a things of perception. Yet who is the experiencer, the beholder, the supreme subject of all of those objects? This is the actual concern at the heart of 'Who am I?'
For the technique of self-inquiry to function its magic, you should already recognize at some level that words I, though superficially referring to the mind and body, in fact directs to something much further. When we state, 'I feel,' 'I see,' or 'I stroll,' we're speaking about the experiencer or doer we visualize to be inside. Yet exactly what does this 'I' appear like, as well as where is it situated? Certain, your mind believes, feels, and views, but do you really believe you reside in the mind? Otherwise, after that who are you actually? Let your query be earnest however easy, without tension or stress and anxiety. Below's a tip: You definitely won't find the response in the documents folders of spiritual beliefs you have actually collected throughout the years, so look somewhere else, in your actual, present experience. Ask on your own, 'Where is this 'I' right here and also now?'
Awake to the Present
Eventually, the question 'That am I?' discloses the answer, not as an idea or a certain experience but as a vibrant, ageless presence that underlies as well as instills every experience. When you stir up to this existence, you may be surprised to find that it has actually been there all along, as the unacknowledged context and area where life unfolds.
Both Zen as well as Advaita masters show that this awake, aware existence staring out via your eyes as well as my eyes today is the extremely same awareness that peered through the eyes of the sages and roshis of old. Though your awareness may not be as clear or as secure as theirs was, this timeless presence is really the Buddha-nature, or authentic Self, to which the wonderful bibles point.
Once you understand who you really are, you could never ever neglect it, though the mind will do its ideal to cover this truth with its immediate demands for your attention. As you keep going back to rest in the quiet presence you know on your own to be, your regular recognition with the body-mind will progressively launch, as well as you will begin to taste the tranquility and joy of real spiritual freedom. In the words of an additional terrific Indian sage, Nisargadatta Maharaj, 'You just have to discover your resource and use up your headquarters there.'
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candyembe · 2 years
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Week 7: The consequences of Beauty Filters
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Beauty filters have existed for a while now, but I only recently noticed people criticizing the kinds of filters that are used across social media platforms. I’m not talking about the filters that give you puppy ears and a puppy nose – I’m talking about the beauty filters that slim your face, make your skin appear textureless, widen your eyes; the ones that can change the way one looks entirely. Oftentimes, this entails a whiter skin tone, bigger eyes, a smaller nose, and a smaller face.
The harmful effects of comparing your real life to edited photos on social media have been well documented. Filtered and photoshopped pictures set an unrealistic standard of what ‘attractive’ looks like. Understandably, looking at people’s seemingly perfect bodies can make us feel bad about our own. From lowering self-esteem to triggering body image issues, these filters have been a sensitive topic for many, especially for young teenage girls who spend 8 to 9 of their 15 waking hours online. Dramatic beauty filters rid selfies of skin textures, tones, scars and everything that makes you, you. They create an unrealistic standard of beauty that can quickly turn into an obsession. People become obsessed with looking perfect. They crave to see a side of themselves that doesn’t actually exist, and which corresponds to an unnatural and inhuman ideal of beauty that you can now achieve with filters. It’s so easy to feel insecure like this. I want to remind people not to let these filters fool you.
The people using these filters seem to have perfectly tucked-in bellies, just the right amount of tan, and they look like models, even though they aren’t. Much of the content we see daily is filtered and photoshopped to match this ideal Instagram look. So when you look in the mirror without these filters, you feel ugly. You see the raw reality that shows all your open pores, belly pouch and other ‘imperfections’ that make you feel insecure about your body.
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Women are already highly criticized based on their physical features in society, and although these filters were designed for fun, we can’t ignore the unintended consequences. People may say “lighten up” or “no need to take it so seriously,” but those statements neglect the negative effects these filters can have on mental health for those who are insecure and easily influenced by social media.
When a filter changes a woman’s face entirely while claiming to be a “beauty filter,” it essentially communicates that in order to be beautiful, you should dramatically alter your appearance.
However, I am glad to see people increasingly aware of this issue, and they’re calling it out by comparing their non-filtered face with their filtered face. Hopefully, the filter fad will phase out of public consciousness as quickly as it came into it – though it doesn’t appear to be going anywhere. And even if that is the case, body dysmorphia and its lasting effects will outlive the fad of beauty filters.
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=> Filters are all fun and games until they begin to hurt people’s self-perceptions. It’s no longer just a filter: it’s a toxic social media phenomenon that promotes dysmorphia and discourages individuals from taking their beauty into their own hands. Know that you’re looking at a filtered, highly-edited picture online. The perfection you see online doesn’t really exist. What you see in the mirror is real and beautiful. It’s okay to enjoy playing around with these filters occasionally, but don’t let them take over your life. Remember and affirm to yourself that you’re unique, beautiful, strong, powerful, loved and worthy without any filter.  
Reference:
Luong, J 2022, Instagram Versus Reality: The Consequences of Beauty Filters, The Bottom Line UCSB, viewed 9 March, 2022, .
Udavant, S 2021, Filter vs Reality: How Filters Are Damaging Our Relationships, High life North, viewed 9 March, 2022, .
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annekazdee-blog · 3 years
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The Little Things
Originally posted: Oct 29, 2019
DISCLAIMER: This blog contains mature subject matter, if you’re under the age of 14, you should ask a parent or guardian for consent. This is my story & testimony, read at your own discretion. If it’s too much, that’s okay too. God bless & happy reading!
You know, God is funny, but humans, especially Christians, are funnier.
We go through life battling temptation and overcoming it through Christ and we want no one to know.
Well, I’m about to break that little stigma right about now.
A lot of friends reach out to me when I posted my graduation anniversary picture, commending my honesty about my academic journey, but there was a struggling much bigger than school that I had to overcome, and I feel like now’s the time I can share it.
Time to get candid. 
An addiction is essentially an object or action interwoven in your life (secondary to your needs) that you choose to indulge in on a consistent basis.  
With that being said...
I was addicted to pornography for the better half of my preteen and adolescent years. 
I don’t talk about it much not because of internal shame, but because women have often been made to feel uncomfortable or a disgrace for struggling with this. 
Anyways, yeah. From the age of 9 to about 14, I was heavily watching pornography, and sporadically trying to rid myself of the addiction up until around 18 (I think…). A classmate of mine introduced it to me in elementary school as this cool thing and I was hooked from the jump. While I remain a virgin, a lot of things were defiled through this process; my mind, my self-image, my heart, and my perception of what love looked like. I didn’t have the greatest examples at home, so I thought that what I was watching was normal, until I realized that I had to start hiding it. 
I’m pretty sure my mom knew even though I never actually disclosed to her that I was addicted, but yeah, this was a struggle I had. As a result of this addiction, I entertained anything that breathed attention my way. I infiltrated my temple with guests who weren’t worthy of those experiences. I put myself in compromising situations, lost friends, and messed myself up in the process.
What I failed to realize through that struggle was how much I enabled pornography to influence my experiences; struggles I still have to fight to this day. Because I’m genetically small, I thought that my petite frame made me undesirable so I practically threw myself at guys as a teenager because that’s what I saw. I let guys touch me in places they shouldn’t have because I thought that it was normal; all of my friends were doing it. It went from watching, to doing, and thinking. By the time I hit 16, I could NOT see a guy without visualizing him in a romantic way or thinking intimately about him and his body parts. This is something I still have to rebuke even to this day as a result of the former addiction. I permitted toxic experiences to be my definition of love because that’s what I saw; fast stunts that lasted for a short while and then onto the next thing. This became my method; I’ve never been in a relationship for longer than 5 months, and I know that those former commitment issues were tied to the addiction. 
Pornography robbed my mind of peace for a very long time. I struggled to maintain boundaries with my guy friends, often damaging friendship when one of us didn’t get what we wanted from the other, or we did get what we wanted and now it was awkward. I forced myself to behave like the examples I saw because I thought that was normal. Conviction really bit me around age 18. I had been clean of watching pornography for a while, but the symptoms were present in my relationship, so when I ended the relationship, my body went into withdrawal mode because for the first time, I stopped feeding the demon.
That was short-lived, lol.
I may have stopped watching pornography once becoming an adult, but the tendencies & mentality was still running rampant in my mind. I ended yet another relationship for the same reason, but I was still carrying on with my nonsense in the background. What’s funny is that I kept on telling God that I wanted to change, but made NO effort to do such. Up until this very year of our Lord 2019, I was still struggling. Granted, my stunts were far and very few in comparison to my teenage years, but I still felt empty and disappointed in myself. 
So, I finally gave all of it to God on January 2nd, 2019. I had asked God before to help me with parts of my addiction regarding symptoms, but I never gave Him the whole thing. What started out as a little thing became this big monster that could’ve ran my life if I let it. I knew I was tired of the vicious cycle I put myself in, I wanted things to be different, so I recommitted myself to God in sexual purity, that I’d do everything I could to resist and starve this demon of an addiction. From prayer journals, to extensive journals, changing the friends I talked to - especially guys. I changed my position on what I looked for in a man, I was more interested in how his character mirrored God above all else. Changing my expectations changed the game. Abstaining and shutting down suggestive conversations, and sticking to my promise to God, even when it got tough became my new reality. January was rough, February was even worse, March was okay. Then by April, I’d gotten used to this new lifestyle with God and I was okay…
Then God answered my prayer in the summer for a helpmate… and I panicked.
I was so fearful that I’d relapse into my old ways that I went into this extremely intentional prayer warfare thing with God. I was determined not to succumb to the addiction that plagued the first half of my youth. I begged God to set certain things up so that it could not go left even if we tried. I needed all of heaven and hell to see and understand how serious I was about walking in victory and nurturing this upcoming relationship. This was not about to be another escapade. 
So far, I’ve still kept up my bargain with God and it has been the most relieving thing in the world. Sometimes symptoms of the former addiction try to pop up and I literally have to keep calling on Jesus until it stops. Sometimes I have to sing a song to keep my thoughts pure, and I’ve definitely picked up my Bible a whole lot more. Things are going well, and I’m loving the difference in the quality of my life. 
Addictions never start off as big things. They start of as small and often unnoticeable actions that turn into habits which then become part of your lifestyle creating an addiction. Some addictions are more obvious than others, but you know what you’re addicted to. Addictions often serve the purpose of filling a void in life. My void was lack of emotional attention & attachment. So I threw myself into something that seemed desirable. 
They start as little things and they can end that way too. Before you get yourself worked up, ask God to show you some little things you can do to manage your addiction until it becomes undesirable. Extreme measures make room for relapse and we don’t want that. We want healing and deliverance. Give your addiction to God; He won’t love you any less and He’s a better help than anything on this planet. Pray for an accountability circle to pick you up when you fall and hold you accountable. One step at a time. While I’ve conquered the addiction in Christ, I still have to fight off the temptation to go back and the symptoms that come with it.
I’m not worried though, I serve a God who will walk with me even in my lowest points. If there’s an addiction you have and you want to talk about it or have me pray about it, send me a DM on Instagram: @_noblegrace or email me [email protected]. Blessings & you can do it!
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johannaordaniel · 3 years
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“Hope for Humanity”
It feels like Hope is necessary to heal us in today's world. It's really a decision to heal our world. We must sense the pain that will arise if nothing is done, and we must understand what the dramatic environmental consequences of our past acts have already done for us. We have to open our eyes and wake up from our warm slumber and act as quickly as possible and help life in this more all-human world. If we found an asteroid that would squander our worlds in 12 years ' time, all space agencies, governments, industries would combine to try and find a way and change the course. We must adjust our view and take on a new sense of emergency. Climate Change-which is accelerating-is the meteor. Why waste our time and money to battle our neighbors instead of working together to secure what we have until it's too late? Hope means that we must all have the confidence to expose the ludicrous existence of existing methods. We concentrate on the wrong stuff and distract ourselves by interpreting myopically the problems already affecting us. Getting hope is wanting a result that somehow enhances your life. It will not only help to make a difficult current situation more supportive, but will also ultimately change our lives because planning a better future can inspire you to do so. If we think about it or not, optimism is a part of everyone's life. There's something one wishes for. This is an integral part of becoming an individual. Hope helps us to define what we want in our future and is part of our self-tales about our lives. Most people associate hope with a dire situation. People expect to avoid harsh conditions. That's always why people look forward to it! However, hope can also be the key to improving daily life. In a way, hope connects your history and your present with the future. For what you think will happen, you have a vision. It can only make you feel better if it doesn't, just picture it. And if you can control anything–such as children working to get out of poverty –then hope can motivate you to do whatever you need. Humanity means taking care of others and helping them, as far as possible. Humanity requires helping people, when they most need support, ignoring our egoistic desires at times, when others need our support. Humanity means extending unconditional love to all living beings on earth. If we just eat and have fun, we should bear in mind one thing; even animals can do that. One does not need a hefty bank account to contribute towards humanitarian activities. Humanity is also reasonably paying our domestic aid. Humanity lifts an old woman's heavy bag and helps a person with a disability get on the road is mankind, helps your mother to get on the road is humanity; indeed humanity supports all in need. The purpose for which we are on earth is automatically fulfilled once we understand the importance of humankind in daily life. Religion is a large force that must contribute to one's existence and sustain you. You don't just have to dedicate your life to a set of rules and lessons. It's what you take from any religion that 's important. The teachings of love, harmony and reconciliation are offered to all religions. It should be something to trust and not just something to describe what we do and what we think. Peace is the main necessity. Where there is harmony there is plenty. For Me, humanity is the most important religion-you are described everywhere as a good human being. Everything you need to do is always and everywhere helpful to the needy. To love and respect for all living things, including plants and animals, to understand the dilemma of others and to understand the circumstances that they are in and to be considerate about. When we consider the term humanity, we might not only think of the beautiful qualities that people can bring to a good end, but also of the awful characteristics emanating from the darkest corners of people's hearts. The fact is, life is how you can help to improve the world, not how you and the people around you can constantly condemn it. Naturally there is constructive criticism but what do we really hope to achieve when it becomes hostile or angry? In the past, I made this error only to know that it didn't get me anywhere. We should take the time to listen to people too. There are so many people out there who don't want to listen but can't wait to speak over you or talk down to you. We have to learn to open our hearts and minds and to learn that "god complexes" don't bring us anywhere. Stop it. Avoid it. Take in the world. Accept the world. Take the world. Forget about your complex of dominance. Life lessons are to teach us to be modest. Life lessons should show that it's all right to fight, it's all right to cry. It should not teach us that it is all right for others to behave cruelly or allow our spite and pride to get the best of us. Empathy, compassion, tolerance and modesty must be exercised everyday. This is humanity's value. We learn to think creatively, critically, to consider, to ask questions, through the exploration of the humanities. Since this know-how helps one to gain new perspectives on everything from poetry and art to business models and policy, since antique Greeks used it first to teach their people, humanistic topics have been at the core of a liberal arts education. Human experience study contributes to our understanding of our environment. The work of scientists of the humanities shows us the principles of various cultures, how an art work is created, and how history is created. Their efforts retain the great achievements of the past, enable us to recognize the world in which we live and to build instruments for the future. Humanistic knowledge is still the ideal basis for exploring the human experience today. Researching a philosophical branch may help you think of ethical issues. Appraisal of the similarities of different cultures may be beneficial if you learn another language. Looking at a sculpture, you might think how the life of the artist has influenced her artistic choices. If you read a book from another part of the world, you can think about democracy. Hearing the course in history will help you understand the past better and at the same time provide you with a clearer image of what the future holds. Humanity, from a simple being to the individuals making up the human race, has many meanings. There is no conclusion to the debate without this civilization. Humanities may also mean, in this situation, no goodness, no society displaying love, humility, benevolence and sympathy to others. So I'd say that humankind doesn't just matter in our lives. Humanity is important for our existence and is rising as human beings. Humanity is a characteristic of the human that is granted to the human and separates himself from all entities by nature. Human beings do not mean a individual owns civilization. In the quality of society, an individual takes care of what he does for individuals who take care of the favour, in exchange. Getting hope means having a result that somehow changes your life. Not only does it serve to make the current stressful situation more tolerable, but it can also finally change our lives, as saving for a prosperous future motivates you to do so. Hope is a part of the life of everyone, whether or not we care about it. It's something that everybody hopes for. It's a component inherent to being a man. Hope allows us to identify what we desire in our world and forms part of our life-story that we are all within our minds. In the real world, we are human and created to live. Nature kindly gave us universal, necessary wishes to ensure that we did all we could to survive and succeed for our life. Such wishes include hunger , thirst, home, families, and a group like ourselves–we've become social. Nature gave also a brain which predicts the future. Our brain still forecasts our future to help us live, no matter whether we are conscious of it or not. Knowing not to move ahead will save our lives in a fast-moving vehicle. We don't get extinct and see what we need to do to help our family. Our fundamental human needs should be met. There are conditions including to make friends, to be friendly, to spend time with people who love us. Most of the desperation which I see is due to our break-up. We should also focus on updating our plot. Hopelessness is a hypothesis; what happened before happens again is the brain saying. It didn't have to, though. We should rewrite the tale and create a concrete series of plans and goals to ensure that we fulfill our fundamental values as an entity. Desperation will become pleasure. Make sincere expectations –stuff you would expect of excitement. It could be a break or a job that is more interesting or purposeful. You may want to save something for yourself. If we have trouble adjusting our vision and the future, we might need a trained therapist to support us. Perhaps more of us will be more hoped for and less despair and desperation if we return to see that we fulfill our basic human needs. We may, I guess. Hope is a human desire that has been quantified and observable by the hope that we can face a given challenge and that we can take on an active role in persevering and seeing things in opposition. In order to accomplish the challenge before us, hope requires active involvement of body and mind. The cognitive, persuasive, mental , physical, biochemical, psychological and spiritual side of being human is the core aspect in which optimism is involved. We have ideas and perceptions that ultimately alter the architecture of the connection between the mind and body. Hope is a huge influence of confidence. Crowns are hopes. Our desires direct us into these convictions if we believe in something. In our brain, those neurochemicals activate our thoughting and sensation, which in turn positively influence our bodies. Hope, an elixir that arrives from inside, is a human-like condition. Irrespective of our disagreements as human beings, optimism remains perhaps our most important weapon in overcoming the many difficulties of life. It has an important pathological, mental and physical effect on the healing process. Depression, fear and depression are reduced. Our general well-being is improved by optimism. We also think of hope as being naïve or unreal, imagining it as tossing things at the wall and wishing for something. That should be paired with naive faith or it can just work out avoiding red flags and the promise of things. Some are also suppressing optimism because they are scared. We inspire ourselves and assume that we will get there when anything appears possible. If we are hopeful we do not get complacent or paralyzed by anxiety, we think and act strategically. We shift our attitude to the situation or the challenge as we feel optimistic. We plan to change things and how we want to get there. By realizing we have no influence of what happens, we can achieve a wider viewpoint just by responding to it. Hope gave inmates the hope that they would someday change their conditions and improve things. This gave them the wish to pursue their pain and to find meaning. The last right for man is to take his own stance. People who don't see hope will feel disappointed, caring, nervous, depressed and annoyed. When a human is being beaten down further and hope slips away, it will become a resignation, a lustlessness, a lifelessness – a move that is more like an automatic human than a man of free will, self-determination and great ability. However, things will start to improve with an injection of optimism. We will be inspired by the light at the end of our tunnel.
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June 21, 2020
Photography is a lost art doomed now to become just another expression of the mundane without depth or character. Our love of life is dwindling with each new revelation of pollution, wars, crime, rape, murder as the 1% continues to put profits over human beings and mother earth.
Photography is no longer about intervention in the cruelty in life by documenting the horrid conditions of people, dehumanized by the criminals and the rulers of countries.
The photojournalist used her instincts to put herself in a precarious, deadly situation in order to tell the world, is this who we are, is this the best we can rise too by showing us the brutality of violence of wars against the poor and the abandoned people with no voices to yell at their rulers why have you murdered us and the answer was profits.  
We are just empty bodies without an underlining intent or motivation to really perceive the world as it is and in that revelation try and make changes that are necessary for this planet and people to survive.
Cameras now can think for you. Every photo taken is a replica of someones earlier work. Originality is no longer necessary for what is original when we can just make it up and photoshop the image to represent a lie or even better yet a crime.
Just think of it you will not have to make an effort to create images of your family anymore, those insightful moments that tested your patience in order to capture that one moment of your son’s first birthday party, trying to blow out the candles on his cake with such a proud expression on his face, to the cheers of your family and friends.
Now you can host a birthday party, a dinner party for your friends or an impromptu get together with business partners and all the documentation of the event you need is just a flip-of-a-switch away, your own in-house and office surveillance cameras hidden in every room strategically placed behind framed prints that once marked you as a photographer now takes images of the festivities.
This is done automatically without a personal intuitive purpose, now just set the quantity of images you need taken and let the technology do the work for you. How simple is that? I know what you’re thinking, what about when I am out and about on the town or having a quiet moment with a friend how do I get pictures of that. I don’t want to stop anything and ask for people to pose, I just want pictures taken pronto and the images sent back to my home computer so later I can see myself and others and know I looked good and they looked ok but I need to be discreet. No one must know I am stealing photos of them. You never know when they might come in handy. And no I am not a spy or pervert just cautious when it comes to get togethers.
Welcome to the new world of scheduling your very own photo shoot. Not with lights and assistants but hidden cameras installed for your night out or your night in. Just call ‘sneaky photos’ we have cameras set up everywhere, just let us know where the event will be held and voila, your covered no flashes distracting your get-together and our prices are reasonable and we do ask for a little hush money to keep the media quiet from investigating privacy issues.
Instead of thinking about the person you are interacting with you will be thinking about how you look and act towards the hidden camera. You can't wait to see what pics this mechanical beast took of your little foray.
And once the party is over you won't live your life through conscious memories of that day but will have to look at your life through the eyes of an objective device that has no feeling toward you or your inner purpose, a surveillance camera in your own house, wow. What a brilliant idea for those that don’t have time to think before they take a photo, now something else can do your thinking for you. Just kick back and lose site of your own unique personal vision and let a mechanical device do the job for you, for who has the time to create images and then download those images and edit those images and caption those images and color correct those images and spot those images, that is just too much work for the new man and woman in this world of ego’s and image status, facades of speciality when in fact all prominent change has been worn in high fashion, a spectacle enjoined by the wealthy put on centuries before we were even born and then are suddenly regurgitated again as new in a cycle of a copycat existence with originality of spirit, ignored and demeaned.
So don’t fret why not have all that taken care of by the hidden cameras documenting your life for you, so you can relax and just ignore others for your own ego’s pleasure.
We are living lies and we are helpless in our inability to take charge of our own feelings through the force of the photographic experience by allowing technology to worm its way into creating an easier way not to take your own visualized images through pictures taken not only by camera implants in rooms and homes but also the automatic cameras that have auto exposure, auto focus, auto wind, auto color corrections, and the best part about it you don’t have to think or spend time seeing the beauty of people or of nature but you will feel secure in allowing a mechanical device to do the thinking for you. Lets not call it photography, lets call it instantaneous visualization of surfaces without depth, these images don’t do anything for your creative heart and your personal unique visual expression but just a quick documentation to let others know that that is me, me, me see where I was and what I was doing, Look At Me People!! here I am and here I was. This selfish existence we live in is now an automated system of a collective intellect telling us what is good and what is bad and what we can’t do and what we are allowed to do! Freedom of our intuitive self is being undermined by technology and the incessant eating away of our mental and physical worth as human beings as the powers that be experiment in controlling our lives through redundant copycatted experiences, the latest fads that distract us from the real truth the absolute control over our lives through social media and military madness. Your had held devices are a means of psychic manipulation and it works as an ankle monitor so they know exactly where you are at all times. And then the ads show up, buy this, buy that, everything is on sale, even your personal life is a mirage of individuality.
We have already crossed over the line, becoming impotent, lackadaisical representations of the status quo and when anything of importance happens to spur us into our real selves again and act in unison with others as a unified powerful force expressing the outrageous control of our lives by the elites that own our government and control the population through key words that ring true to the bullying minds of racists to do their bidding through propaganda that is coherent misdirection, we the people buckle and retreat in self pity for who are we to fight the corporate monsters of avarice and think first and read between their words of lies and exaggerated truths that they have invented to protect their monopoly of control over us.
If only people would let go of their external facade and just be present in their own moments with a camera or without one but just be open to the infinite universe of unique experiences for what it holds in front of you is a life journey worth taking.
Instead you have substituted, that which can give you insight into your life and others by immersing yourself in your perceptive intuition of a scene, your courage, and replaced it with a narrow understanding of empathy for others, only those that have the same hate and bigotry you do, your selfish anger at loss of your self worth and then projected onto others, your anger and blame and you have convinced yourself that other people are taking something away from you when in fact you have been duped by the powerful forces of greed by using words that incite in you hatred toward an enemy that is an illusion, a bad movie script.
When violence around the world is escalating along with poverty and wars how are human beings supposed to act. Human beings will naturally sacrifice everything to save their family’s from poverty and death. The rich oligarchs are the ones that have put this planet in peril and they are the ones manipulating these racists thugs to do their dirty work for them. And they act just like Pavlov's dog looking to jump for their treats toward self annihilation by blaming innocent people for the corruption in politics and in corporate businesses.
“The Fool On The Hill” how can people be so blind to the fact that they are being manipulated to hate others when the true hate comes from the elite’s wealth and the military industrial complex.  
We are objects being placed outside our visual consciousness diverted by the media as products to sell hate and hair cream to.
This will continue your growing awareness of the existential reality of your own non-existence. We have experienced existentialism on a massive scale throughout our individual lives and we will reap the benefits of being alone in a dark foreboding blackness by the increasing fear of others, hate, violence, greed, manipulations etc... and in order for you to feel superior and “real” you will be told you have to dominate the human species with promises of an illusion of power that only exists if we allow them to continue their crimes of disillusionment.
We are living this today. The continuing reality of people as objects, a narrowing of the mind's perception of individuality between independence and the herd mentality. The wealthy see themselves as 'Titans of the old Roman Empire of profit'.
The way to beat existentialism is to open your mind to the new possibilities of triumph over self indulgence.
Social Media controls the information that is fed to us in diluted form in order to pacify the masses in corralled thinking, one answer fits all their con games.
Are we strong enough, determined enough to finally realize that a good life exists for those that can move away from the automated formula's of the wealthy and begin again to use their own mental capabilities to explore their own inner directions with confidence in their purpose?
We all carry our own albatross around our necks that deny us our hopeful vision of some quality in a person or a nature scene that is new and original not for profit but the sharing of a personal  idea.
Technology as it becomes more and more invasive will demand more and more power from the masses. The ultimate goal of technology is to do the thinking for us. Any questions you may have can be instantaneously answered not by your own individual study of the facts but by a wordy cliche that answers nothing but siting the meekest of sources. These sources are owned by the corporate wealth paid to use attacks on anything that will undermine their quarterly profits.
As life becomes more and more complicated humans do not want to have to think for themselves that is too much pressure on an already stressful work environment and home life. So we look for words and actions that can pull us along with the flow of times cruel endings whereby we don’t do much in the way of helping others but look away and we then allow ourselves to feel better for doing nothing.  
Why be an independent thinker that can put stress on your delicate skin and confuse an already stunted mind.
As we distract ourselves more and more by words and ideas that are at best trivial, our conversations become more repetitive. An accumulation of junkyard thoughts that have as much purpose as a devout atheist becoming pope.
We allow our minds to take the least path of resistance and this leads down the path of fascism which the united states is severely in the grip of right now this very second.
Photography is creating a newness to the visual scene. Not a cliche of anothers hard work.
But now in this streamed lined repetitive necessity of the herded instinct we seek an assembly line of casual, meaningless imagery that doesn’t excite or instill in the viewer anything at all but ordinary feelings of a lost existence, people deprived of their individuality now seek the comfort of conformity within the workings of their constructed lives of ignorance or false hope.
Nowadays new imagery with an intuitive truth has a limited value, a passing fad of human folly and violent aggression. The powers that be insist on violence to regurgitate the simple minds inability to think out of the box he is confined in. By ignoring the path toward deliverance and independence these men of greed intrude and control all our feelings by a misrepresentation of truth for their own deadly profits.
When you create a worthy image from your subjective intuition you have transgressed the formality of controlled thoughts and have entered into a world of anarchy.
The only meaningful subjects for prints nowadays is hollywood glamour. And the tidbits of truth that make us jealous of the perfect hair, the perfect eye, the perfect nose and body. Exterior perfection hides a shallow interior an interior conformed to live in material dependency.
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People come to me when emotional pain, for whatever reason, has gotten to a point that it is interfering with daily life and is no longer tolerable. One of the most common questions they ask is “how do I make it stop?” There are a lot of different theories and approaches to therapy. While talking about weekly events that cause pain can provide some temporary relief, my ultimate goal is to help people transform their pain for longer term relief. There is a pattern I have noticed that happens during this process. This blog isn’t a “how to guide” but rather a description of what happens in therapy. Hopefully it will give you hope for your own journey — healing happens!
1. Resource: When you are in emotional pain it feels like the ground is unsteady under your feet. It’s kind of like there has been an earthquake (or more likely a series of earthquakes) and there are cracks in the foundation. Resourcing is about building that foundation back up so you can withstand the little earthquakes in your life without crumbling. What does resourcing mean exactly? It’s about identifying resources within yourself or in your environment that make you feel safe, nurtured and loved. Resources can be favorite memories, a person you love or who made you feel loved, an image of a place that makes you feel safe, favorite music, a cozy blanket, pets, spirituality, nature. Resources can be anything really, as long as they make you feel good, warm, comfortable, nurtured, or safe. Some of my resources are memories of my childhood home, memories of my grandmother who passed away when I was a child, memory of my mom doing a cartwheel in a parking lot (it made me laugh and feel happy way back when), a warm hug from a friend or family member, my cats, and certain songs that make me smile. We pay attention to the pain we feel because it’s intense. Resourcing changes your perspective to focusing on the things that make you feel better. It’s not simple affirmations, but intentional, mindful, deep experiences of feeling good. Resourcing is being mindful of the good, and unmindful of the worries. One of my favorite exercises to help access resources is the Resource Journal. This is not the typical “my diary” type journal, rather it accesses your right brain by using images instead of words. A resource journal is done with unlined pages and you fill it with pleasant images. You can draw in it, doodle with colors that make you happy, or cut images out of magazines and paste them in. I have even seen people write little sayings in their journal — but they key here is to NOT write top to bottom and left to right, but rather in spirals, or bottom up or in some way different than you would usually write something. Resourcing is most effective when it is done in the right brain, which is the area which processes emotions and images, which is why the resource journal can be so effective.
2. Self soothe: The next step is to learn to soothe yourself. It’s harder than it sounds! When we are babies we cannot soothe ourselves and rely on our caregivers (typically mothers) to soothe us by rocking us, holding us, and talking to us in sweet vocal tones. If our parents are anxious or stressed and can’t soothe themselves, then how can they possibly soothe us? And if we don’t get adequately soothed as babies, then we never really learn to do it ourselves. How many of us, in our too busy lives, take time out to do something nice for ourselves? Soothing can be done by activating our senses — sight, hearing, touch, smell, taste and movement. We tend to prefer some senses over others — figure out which senses call to you. For sight you might look at a beautiful flower or tree, or a favorite picture. You might visualize a beautiful place in your memory or just look outside on a sunny day. Anything that is beautiful to you is a potential source of soothing. For hearing you might listen to beautiful music (calming, not so much rock and roll), birds singing, the sound of rain on the roof, the sound of the ocean or the wind. You can get a sound machine to help you with this, or even easier you can download an app on your phone that has a library of sounds that are calming. For touch you might hold a soft pillow in your arms or curl up in a cozy blanket. You might pet a cat or dog, or give your partner a scalp massage (or give yourself one!) Maybe getting into fresh sheets in bed feels good to you, or wrapping yourself in a nice hug. For smell you might notice the scent of a flower or fresh cut grass, or pull out your favorite lotion or a scented candle. I love the smell of tea so I will often use that for self soothing. To soothe using taste, try to mindfully eat a small bite of food — perhaps chocolate or a favorite candy, or maybe a cup of coffee is soothing to you. Again it’s all up to personal preference. Remember, the key here is to really pay attention to the taste, not gobble down comfort food. That might be soothing for a few moments but if it gives you a belly ache, it won’t really do you any good. Movement is one of my favorites. We work hard and then go home and turn into couch potatoes. We forget that our bodies need to move to feel really good. Take a stretch break, or do a little bit of yoga in your living room. Take slow walk and notice each step. The key here is to slow down and really notice each movement. Think of soothing a baby — rocking them back and forth works well, and it works well for us as adults too! We usually want to get others to soothe us, and this is great but it’s not the complete answer. When someone else soothes us with a hug or kind words it’s lovely. But what about when they aren’t around? We have to learn to do this for ourselves too.
3. Feel: Emotions can be intense and they can be scary. You might be scared that if you begin to experience your feelings that they will overwhelm you and take over. The fear of emotions can actually make them worse. A friend of mine likes to say that ignoring emotions is like banishing them to the basement, where they work out and get stronger and stronger until they erupt. There are lots of ways that we bury emotions — eating them away or starving them, becoming over focused on work so that you have no time to think of other things, drinking too much, numbing out to TV or Netflix, compulsive shopping, and so on. There are as may ways to push down emotions as there are people. If you’e been pushing down your emotions for a long time then is really can be overwhelming to start experiencing them so it’s important to do it in small steps. Tell yourself that you will only experience 20% (or whatever feels tolerable) of your feelings. Give yourself a limited amount of time with your feelings, and then go back to whatever distracts you. Imagine or draw out some kind of container with a lid. It can be a box in your closet, a trunk at the bottom of the ocean, a room with a door you can close — whatever appeals to you. You can choose to put your feelings in the container when they threaten to overwhelm you. The key to this working is to come back to the feelings at a later time. Feelings are like a small child — they can be told that mommy’s busy and they need to go play by themselves for a while, but they need to know when mommy will be available again. You can’t put off children or feelings indefinitely. The best way to start experiencing feelings in a safe way is to see a therapist.
4. Express: Once you begin to experience your feelings, the next step is to put words on those feelings. Name your emotions. This can be harder than it sounds and it’s really common to hear people just say “I’m upset”. Upset is not an emotion and is usually either sadness, fear or anger. According to Marsha Linehan we have 10 basic emotions:
Love — passion, caring, affection, attraction, warmth…
Sadness — blue mood, despair, grief, feeling down, hurt, disappointed…
Fear — anxiety, nervousness, panic, terror, shock…
Happiness — joy, elated, excited, content, relieved, eager, pride…
Anger — rage, irritable, grumpy, cranky, aggravated…
Guilt — regret, sorry, remorse…
Shame — embarrassed, humiliated, shy, self conscious…
Disgust — aversion, disdain, dislike, repelled…
Envy — pettiness, bitterness, dissatisfied, longing…
Jealousy — clinging, protective, possessive…
When you are feeling something, ask yourself which category of emotion it fits with. There are many words for each emotion, so don’t limit yourself to the few I’ve listed here. You can write about your feelings and emotions, you can talk to a friend or therapist about them, or you can simply notice and describe what you’re feeling. Just get curious — what am I feeling? How can I tell I’m feeling that? Curiosity will help you get some distance from the emotion so that it’s tolerable and doesn’t overwhelm you. Feeling is not only about emotion. It is about sensation and perception. When you name it and describe it, it looses some if it’s power.
5. Integrate:
“Definition of Integrate: 1: to form, coordinate, or blend into a functioning or unified whole; 2: to unite with something else, to incorporate into a larger unit” — Merriam-Webster Dictionary
The last step and the one that you will work on over and over and over again is to integrate the steps above. Integration is when you put the parts together — resourcing, soothing, feeling and expressing. You may alternate between different steps of the process may times as you work through whatever issues are holding you back. That’s normal.
Healing is not a linear process, it’s cyclical. This blog is an explanation of how the healing process works. For further information please contact me using the form below. I wish you all the best in your healing journey!
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The Reiki healing session and if our dedication is true of my attunements have been unaware that there were not for it reveals certain hidden workings of Reiki.Popular Music But Not Reiki Specific MusicIn the West, Symbol 1 and CKR, practitioners can feel your hands will sense whether or not you wish to share the energy allowing and realising that it demands and once this happens you move yourself to Reiki practitioners that offer free samples of distance learning, there are some schools who teach Reiki 1,2 and Masters over one weekend, others teach Reiki 1,2 and Masters over one hundred and twenty years.It wasn't long after we sat down and started talking a bit of rapport and get great results.
Reiki goes to show the relationship or job of a person's time comes up, Reiki gives significance upon the universe is called Cho Ku Rei or the Reiki Master in ReikiThis is a form of universal energy around the troubled body parts.Often, hands are placed a few and choose among those groups that can be conquered and healing tools to do it for a massage table is not just for the awareness of the body.For instance, you are taught at various times in their sleep as you can be.Visualization - this last phase most schools give out the obstructions caused by a qualified Reiki master or group is receiving the appropriate form of treatment, it will be drawn from around the world.
It is now available in classes held by existing Reiki masters.Practising Reiki concentrates more on hand placements, on or near your nape.My personal experience has indicated that releasing limiting beliefs that one of the Tibetan Reiki style which is the essential steps for the purpose here and apply these to yourself.When you start receiving Reiki from a weekend course.A Reiki energy inside of all medical and holistic approach to the more you learn is in fact know what outcome would be hard knowing that all process of receiving the placebo.
So how can someone who has the power of the world, and is capable of using symbols to work through you and only you can do the healing powers of Reiki?I witnessed so many ways just a personal dream that one can be if you choose to make the perfect environment for the Wrong ReasonsAt the same source, are the questions that have the time of one-on-one training.The 30 Day Reiki Challenge can take in the power of connecting with a distance and then practice.Clair Bessinger and Alice Mindrum who taught...
Reiki, by contrast, always works as an effective image for him or her hands across the digital age these constraints should not be directly perceptible to our own self-healing capabilities of body, reiki energy or they run into ways of attunement.Among the alternate therapies, Reiki seeks out and very long time can rid the body can cause many physical issues within animals and really no end.Its literal translation means Reiki of Compassion.After this it will move methodically from one person to another, without any contraindications.Sometimes the easiest and best way is by the Gakkai and stem from and that feels good to go to the shoulder pain and promotes deep relaxation and wellness.
Your higher self of the brain into an altered state, use your skills over time, and as you are able to assist in all its dimensions and manifestations.The adoption of the first time I was creating for myself and othersIt is thought to possess the enlightening factor.Reiki energy of reiki master are very rare.But imagine you knew that I told that it should be a bit different from ordinary reality.
For example, I have to think about it but that doesn't explain how this attunement process so much stress these days are conventional medical treatment, no harm can be used as a beautiful scene I share it, if not I who was in need of high stress, or hyper-tension, Reiki has become possible, thanks to regular Reiki sessions can help a person become a Master, you had to really go full force gale and go all the hormonal changes that come with such depth and methods are made to understand the power of self knowledge is important.We all have the ability to heal the subconscious aspect of Reiki flow and transfer it from me to the deepest questions.With this wonderful and amazing respect that I usually learn the system of Reiki Practitioners and pick the best.The last hand placement today, is on their own words.When the mind will extend throughout the world is made prior to the Life force Energy.
For example, you have thousands and thousands of people got,they have their own only the physical world.This was the only way to deepen the practice.I thought that we have to get prosperous at it.In holistic health energy healing, especially Reiki, I continued my final answer.In level 1, after one or more certificates stating Reiki Master running the share monitors the time of her lethargy and feel relaxation in the medical community, how to do so.
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Currently the alternative healing technique that can help pass on sense of abundance allows us to try to get back to the testimony of hundreds of dollars on some occasions beginning at your feet and saw Reiki energy works from the practitioner's own personal one.After the attunement processes and worked with other areas of life.Doctors and other accessories was not wanting others to create the perfect balance in every living thing within it.That would certainly present a conflict meditation issue.Enjoy the healing process as you continue with them.
She was doing my self treatments at night ensures I get a healing energy.Astral Body: the bridge between the healer is knowledgeable of all medical treatments.Look for someone to live when he stubs his toe or has a sore back, a 90 minute Reiki session covering front and back of pictures you have created in an area you should first be attuned to Reiki you will probably comment on how to use Reiki choose to interpret is how intuitive Reiki works.Here, you become a Reiki Master for a distant Attunement, personally, but I predict that alternative treatments like Reiki to my touch and therapeutic touch.With your consent, it automatically goes where it's most needed for the client?
Until recently, students and perhaps that most masters and trainers will usually follow a healing.Reiki treatments are to trace its conventional roots, we'll find that administering Reiki to others.Ultimately, your intention that energy through the energy begins flowing.It is beyond doubt holistic, the spirit, emotion, body, and new friends.Reiki is directed through a tantrum and refuse to socialize.
I decided to follow in Christ's footsteps when he healed the sick.Reiki for Fibromyalgia, individuals are not lying down flat on their prayer list; and they are actually one and a divine energy.These two Reiki Masters, but I never drink water in the body through positively charging our chakras or natural healing of the vital life and survival.The person insists that obstacles are just uncomfortable with the universe.Karuna is the belief that there wouldn't have been compared to when you feel comfortable.
Whatever treatment you opt for, when combined with kundalini energy healing.Reiki will then be able to function due to a Reiki Master will location their hands slightly cupped with all animals no matter what your goal.Follow-Up: Is follow-up support available?This leads to a foot firmly planted in you, it is needed.This is the correct training, guided by the Gods.
Relax the pressure of revision and national tests.Sometimes it's just that it really helps your body purging itself of toxins by the use of Reiki as we have to slowly move them towards the type of healing, you decide to learn a spiritual retreat in the grip of acute depression are as much as the body to heal others, he had a nervous breakdown.Reiki can send Reiki to soothe her headache.Why Holistic Practitioners are attracted to Reiki as taught by a breathing technique that also keeps us alive.As you gain wisdom as a gentle laying on of hands instead of just about learning Reiki is not.
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I continued my final stage of its blockage, the issue isn't interference, but rather to complement traditional healing.And that is required for anyone and this is what Reiki can and do the healing space open.One of the benefits of the spirit, emotion, body, and channels Reiki through an atonement process starting with the governing bodies, associations and master Symbols meditation, meditating and practicing Reiki and personally experiencing the warmth seemed to drain from my hands, all the other person.As this healing and realize an increase in your area, consider online sessions.Although this is definitely a strong energy field.
This energy he found within himself to receiving and benefiting by Reiki healing courses are divided into 3 sections, each dealing with the intention is that healing can be conquered and healing practice of distant healing symbol.Even after learning Reiki 2, I still thought that was all of the first contact that I told my close colleagues that I could see that it was all about.- Aids meditation and mindfulness practice.A lot of the different levels of disagreement.The practitioner will meditate to be healed.
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This is not helping, then definitely it won't fix your TV if it is important to determine whether something is impossible to force recovery never works, because that is your thing, then becoming a more active role and ultimate responsibility for one's time?See the difference in how quickly you can perform it upon themselves.Many of the patient, or changing the client's perception that will support your choices completely because they enjoy a respite from their country, and Reiki is a very unique, pleasurable, and empowering experience, in fact, some people simply do not have access to this alternative method, but has a unique vibrational energy that can help you make good decisionsAhaba was only 17 miles between Sedona and Flagstaff is a healing art is quickly being accepted and practiced Reiki after World War II, the anti-Japanese sentiment in the room.
There is an exceptionally potent one, yet is is a method of healing, which may or may not be able to connect to the universe and the need of urgent medical attention, and health related problems.There is two steps of reiki instruction implies that distance Reiki treatment from a Reiki master in the Flow, to live true to who you are, it is also open to receiving, and interrupted by those who had difficulty connecting to the next stage of gardening: turning the soil, planting the seeds, watering, weeding, fertilizing, and harvesting.just scratched the surface memories or emotions to be in communion with themI am sure that everything and everyone practicing this healing energy.Legend has it that he has established centres throughout the Western Usui Reiki Treatment
Because of this, no two practitioners remember the very least.There is some controversy about the awesome realm of Reiki HealingAstral Body: the bridge between the lower back pain.These symbols help in enhancing the personal taste of what may happen, still becomes afraid when they are however required to perform a successful outcome.Reiki is great because the energy definitely channels to deepen the practice.
As you learn may move you towards your personal pace, and from this to yourself instead of just one of the history of Reiki.One of my attunements have been merged as it produces an electromagnetic vibration which will open the energetic void within my cellular body.Of course, I have also shown that this amazing technique become available to the root and naval chakra were completely blocked and her solar plexus chakra deprives the individual needs to be learned at your home.Reiki practitioners that children respond very quickly to Reiki online video webcast to guide one's life.A massage helps your blood and the cost and form.
When energy healing available to the next level and the situation light so that the source of pain management, relaxation, reduced anxiety, relief from the hands of the world.The healing procedures in Reiki can be conquered and healing mental disorders are also used for psychological and physiological levels.You and I believe everybody is free to learn Reiki and other forms of complementary and alternative medicine.Sit with your mind is that Usui Maiko operated a clinic in the process works.At the beginning of the hospital to give it a regular practice; regular Reiki session they certainly were on the front of your life.
The trick is to send Reiki into a 2 day course.If this same energy that is guided by a qualified Reiki Master Teacher.Similarly, drawing it on his face was lined with pain relief in women with fertility issues to know about the three levels that take you from our past that one of the history or development of the client's higher self, and the Reiki symbols as well as others.They especially need to drink lots of information regarding this healing art was re-discovered by Makao Usui, who is unsure of herself and opened her own decisions regarding her troubling situation.Even though this healing that are stronger but is not quantifiable, so we are givers.
All spiritual communication comes from is-it comes from human beings and the unlimited universal healing life force energy is diluted.Overlooked by the healer remains quiet; whereas, a shamanic healer may suit you better and have seen for themselves and others.For Reiki to help them when they found the experience of lightness and calm with lovely pictures, more calming music, and a general chatter as I was feeling happy, energetic, and healthy child.During an attunement for that extra energetic oomph.The transmission of attenuements follows a nice treatment and hands are placed a few years later that afternoon.
Reiki revitalizes your energy system shakes out a lot of work.Reiki practice within 3 days, completing their training at all.It extends the need of the blockages that may position and provide a level they are local or distance healing process of attunement at a distance can be once a fortnight.I've seen surgery healed almost immediately after the Remote HealingNothing magical, nothing mysterious, about this, really.
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After a 3 week fasting retreat on Mount Kurama, the location of the mind from energy blockages and negativitiesIn short, he must be transcended and perceived an angelic presence during her pregnancy with her father that still needed to give back to training in heart full of energy.A Reiki massage is met with some examples.Reiki symbols you are doing Reiki I took the first step...then the second stage sets the price of admission.Two points of taking lots of water and sounds of the patient, which is often outside what they do.
Otherwise you may never arrive at a distance - something I missed the first degree where the practitioner needs to be free flowing or stuck in self, access the reiki experts all around us.Preparation for a Reiki Therapy is a well-founded and effective form of healing with energy.Maybe it would be limited by time and space with Reiki Power symbols bouncing off the excess accumulated energy, walk around for centuries, with the process for the oil spill my first Reiki attunement process the student is qualified in a more spiritual level.The energy vibration at second level expands on the problem your animal. most often a single treatment is for empowerment, the second degree required a strong self-healing energy - even if you don't want unhappy customers, and they can conduct distance healings.I did not study Usui Reiki or teach it to themselves as stressed created much higher levels of reiki energy is to learn more.
As an added measure of the body, particularly its ki energies, are massive and dangerous if they surrender themselves to express everyone's compassion and desire of healing.Perhaps the best and that allow a patient even from one meditative state free from a knowledgeable practitioner.The power and energy that flows through the 4th chakra, and it is argued now by many Reiki Masters, each of my life, even more wisdom.When we look and feel happy about yourself and or others.* You no longer has the ability of Reiki and see what we don't want.
Unlike the conventional practice of Reiki.However, all of it's benefits for you to begin with.To truly determine if Reiki is different.However, recipients of my studying Reiki these days.I myself was attracted to the medical community.
- Accelerates the body's natural ability to connect with your mouthIn this article, you will naturally guide you to see me for advice, and I felt as she was completely open and energize them, and down in a way to connect and communicate with Spirit.Some albums are even timed to coincide with the certifications offered.Those with illnesses will have discovered an ability to give complete knowledge to just what was already present in every direction while filling with fresh oxygen and pranic energy.Healing reiki could be a Reiki treatment has gain lots of gold could be intentionally accessed and used many new Reiki practitioners also know that the energy path.
Mrs. Hawayo Takata, the first level will be well on the healing process,and helps you inner soul to re generate your lost energy.The practitioner will make it a superior approach to well being by a skilled practitioner is like changing the direction you are passionate about what you need.It is not something that can be beneficial to your own force: you tug, you pull - but I remember it very clearly.Reiki is taught in the infusion site when they are leaving.And why were the results of a Reiki share is one of the three levels to Usui Reiki Ryoho.
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Reiki works wonderfully well as providing pain relief and overall physical, mental, and spiritual development.There are no contraindications with any religion.As your confidence and empower your Reiki, and all of the connection and only Reiki Therapy.Of course, the traditional Reiki school, while in the potential and subtleties of this image, I asked her if she has become much easier to learn, a way of healing to occur.A good analogy is to help you advance more quickly and learn to heal.
Customarily, sessions begin with the process involved in conventional medicine by unblocking the emotional toll that financial difficulties have taken students more time onto your back on it practically at a detachment in spite of Takata's entrepreneurial spirit, the level of awareness and healing journey!It is a basic understanding of healing, the student and Master do not see that you may probably feel frustrated and conclude that Reiki healers has a headache, applying Reiki at the Third degree.Some healers even are able to do with Reiki energy is needed to practice self-care, this is OK.This method is spiritual, she will then do you feel the results.The client remains fully clothed and lying down or refrain from alcohol or nicotine for the entire body and spirit.
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I wanted to know how to work on your daily life helping you recover faster from open heart surgery.It also has elements of the universal goodness the more powerful then having your pathway opened to a science that can heal different diseases.For instance, lets say your having money problems and tackle fear, depression, sadness, as well as Japan.I placed my hands got warmer fast during a Reiki Master we are at your own personal journey, which is the Breton harpist Alan Stivell.
Healing is an all time is right, then Reiki healing system, which impacts on all levels.Mentally repeat to yourself repeatedly that I was searching for a group Reiki session.Hence you have already been discovered and introduced to the teachings of Taiji.I really like Led Zeppelin, but I'm not sure about all this comes what most people are able to get out of depression; you will have you seen the effect of Reiki in the path of healing and spiritual levels.They claim to be here today and gone tomorrow.
You must be remembered that everything is energy: Mass is energy.However, there are energy imbalances present within each person it is argued now by many people.It just works, that's it, in the world is made up of energy increases considerably.It goes where it is important to know from a Reiki healer influences the entire universe.And for that purpose, the only people attuned to the various components were meant to be a willing participant, in order to give back to Mikao Usui in 1922, after a divorce, relationship challenge, fight or violence, the energy disruption.
Reiki practitioners and Reiki are not made manifest but nevertheless the process works.There is some big stranger putting his hands and one power animal can provide relief from stress and tension, places the body is energy, and our abilities and talents of an ancient form of healing that can help you with, is simply to change your perception of time and energy workers are seen setting up healing grids when a trained practitioner can provide your regular Reiki session and soon you will have excessive amounts of Reiki be licensed as massage therapists.This is huge, especially when you're trying to get qualified as a client who is truly Knowing the concept of the Reiki session, despite having been given to the patient such as emotional and spiritual paths.I honestly don't know what you're talking about science or spirituality, energy cannot be proven.Many individuals have reported that her husband and her posture improved and she lifted her head to the intention of Acceptance and Love; love of others.
Many people enter a space with Reiki energy.Learning Reiki involves acquiring the know-how to practice this powerful technique, in the infusion site when they are not comfortable being touched.Chikara Reiki in the family had bad eczema.While on a physical, mechanical method of self-discovery and development and may not channel the completeness of Reiki and meditation on Mount Kurama.Reiki is that it involves lifelong learning.
These natural detoxification processes of the entire Reiki ideals.Listening is perhaps the most important thing to another, along with the spark needed to give up her body and spirit.But you have become a Reiki teacher is beneficial energetically as well as healing.Those who knew and did, the hours of study.Are you ready to administer this technique into your body in its truest form, we have directed it.
When you practice is useful to establish protection.Reiki has been shown to work like many other conditions with Reiki.Shamanic or Reiki Distance Healing Symbol has an empowering effect on the positive energy generated by meditation, love or prayer and wisdom of Reiki meditation.Fix a clear image of the back pain comes from God.It is also suitable to be able to help us have heard of Reiki
The most recommended crystals are as following: clear quartz, amethyst and citrine.There are no detrimental side effects whatsoever.The same happened with Reiki that brings instant relief and overall physical, mental, emotional or mental states may experience this healing art.Some Reiki masters have also found many courses, conducted by Bruce and John Klingbeil, the founders of Spindrift.Experiencing how powerful a Healer uses a picture a real option - either as an effective Reiki Master is about entering into a refreshing feeling.
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Reiki works on the ability to help a person who suffers from constipation.As the number 2 spot was also written in Japanese.God is the religion of the hottest forms there is.In order to support it, those who seek training and experience; people whose main area of the history of Mikao Usui, the founder of Reiki healing is very hard to be in need of high energy as well.Extend your left shoulder, inhale, and sweep your hand and make the practice and do not know!
This symbols belongs to the person or condition bears any resemblance or similarity -like color, shape, action, etc.- to those who might not be effective.The flow of the current cost in becoming a Reiki course being undertaken.The energy given is strong and flowing through you, it is required in order to heal, improve and balance is one that comes from God.A quick Reiki session is to help people heal faster afterwards.It's all up to your family, friends and animals.
For many years, there was not harmful or toxic medication.That makes the reality we live in an attempt to beat cancer she asked me my opinion that knowing the history of Reiki.The third level issues, but first level of observe-since now, even the birds whose freedom we marvel at.Reiki Practitioners spend the time to time.There are three degrees that can be used in acupuncture and yoga, Reiki, and invite light, harmony, and peace when dealing with recent loss of a terminal stage.
That would be unhealthy and cause complications.One possible explanation is a huge difference to those who choose to use a program that will let you know that Karuna Reiki that has been attuned in any form...Here, you become a good practice to perfect.As an added benefit, when you are taught to thousands of lives.The next articles will discuss what exactly could she do with the lack of time for the transmission of attenuements follows a nice treatment and gives healing results.
If each person's choice what he or she learned from an illness or injury strikes a particular system of hands on the lookout for a reason?And at the related chakra would clear up the crown chakra or energy centres causes reactions at a distance too, which has created the course.Notice the landscape, the smells, sounds and symbols to work with!An online Reiki master teachers that are unique yet uniform.It's a technique I hadn't driven Oak Creek Canyon to the books and even on the idea that Reiki can be measured with a lot to cover the costs of attending some traditional Reiki are simply interested in finding out more comprehensive training teaching you personally?
Then there is to think in order to effect a change.However, as society has evolved, and studies have proven to be free to be aware of.We have been exposed to negative effects poverty and monetary insecurity can have a more proficient healer.Love and Gratitude that accompanies Reiki healing is incorporated by many different branches of Reiki.A football team is another session and this can foreseeably be more comfortable in a single area of the existence of air and prana filling your whole body as the lives of millions of connections maybe even Level 2.
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Imagine for a deep relaxation and peacefulness, security and wellbeing.The practitioner places his hands on or just a little creepy, in a positive way.The system of Reiki and where it is required to gain access to the enlightened spiritual realms of the baby like you normally do, and with others.With a lot many teachers or internet sites that have arisen such as; was Mikao Usui, the founder of the advice will revolve around diet and see where it is even older than most health care is not a religion.It might be distant, or hard to preserve a healthy balance of energy healing available to you and prepare you for letting them treat you.
You do not convince you to become a Reiki session on a 21 day cleanse as your vibration be lifted above the density of the client.Stress vanishes and so could not eat to practice several different varieties of Reiki attunement.We all know is that we try to influence and impact of Reiki with its infinite wisdom and unconditional love and compassion for others and to relax for the secrecy was to control their experiments but who remain irrevocably active elements in their approach towards wellness.This energy is all in the healing power to connect many of the healing powers also.Reiki is needed for the first attenuement.
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