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thebadgerclan · 2 years

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The Dark Prince: Chapter 4

Chapter Summary: Council meetings, salons, ballets, and planning...

A/N: Dress reference at the end of the chapter (but the cape-y thing is black) (enjoy the screenshot of my desktop lol)

The next morning, you were greeted by a massive flower arrangement: roses, tulips, daisies, carnations, blossoms of all colors. Tucked among the blooms was a note, Aleksander’s name signed with a flourish. Smiling, you sat up and pulled the note free, breaking the seal as you did. My beloved Y/N, it read. I’m sorry to hear of your brother’s disdain, but his words matter not. I will be your husband and you will be my bride. It pains me to be so distant from you, to act as if you do not own my very soul. I would fall to my knees and profess my undying love for you if I could, my love, but rest assured, that will come later.

I will not call on you until the ballet next week, I wish for this courtship to be as real as it can be. If I appear desperate or as if I am rushing you, people may suspect, and I could never tarnish your reputation in such a way. Know that my thoughts will be of you until I am with you again. Yours, -Aleksander. You smiled as you rose from your bed, tucking the note into the drawer along with the other letters and notes from Aleksander before dressing for the day. You chose a simple rose gown that you could lace yourself, brushed your hair, and secured your pendant of the Lantsov double eagle around your neck.

The council chamber was already full, but a chair to your father’s right was vacant, reserved for you. Pytor’s council bowed their heads as you entered and sat. “Moya tsarevna,” Councilman Sidorov greeted. “So good of you to join us today.” “I’m happy to, Councilman,” you replied, the epitome of grace. The council members discussed matters of state, troop positions, finances, and crops before the conversation turned to you, or rather, your courtship. “General Kirigan is an outstanding military man, but I don’t like how close he’s getting to the throne. Who’s to say he won’t attempt a coup?”

A few council members murmured their agreement, and you cleared your throat. “If I may?” Sidorov nodded. “Of course, Princess.” “I have spoken to Aleksander on this issue, and he recognizes your concerns. However, he reassured me that his only intent is to court me honorably and marry me.” “Begging your pardon, moya tsarevna,” Councilman Kozlov said. “But you’ve only just met the man. How can you be sure of his motives?” You breathed deeply, folding your hands atop the table.

“Because, Councilman, I believe the General’s heart is in the right place. He has been nothing but kind and chivalrous. Aleksander is happy in his position, and I do not see him making a bid for the throne. Now, if you will excuse me, I must attend the Queen’s salon. I hear we’re hosting the Shu in a week’s time, and she requires my assistance.” You rose and left, a satisfied smile on your face. Hopefully, you’d put their worries to bed. Across the palace, your mother was hosting a salon, several noblemen’s wives gathered to help plan the ball for the Shu Han delegation. “Y/N!” your mother said, waving you into the room. “Sit, sit! Thank the Saints you’re here, we are having a difficult time working out the details of this ball.”

You’d spent two months in Ahmrat Jen studying the Shu culture, so you were fairly well versed in the dos and don’t of hosting a ball for them. You glanced at the papers your mother had spread out before her, skimming over the details she had outlined. “No blue,” you said. “Blue is the color of mourning in the Shu Han.” “But blue is our family color,” your mother said, a frown on her face. “Light blue should be fine, and in the context of our family, it won’t be an issue. But keep it to a minimum in the decor. The Taban family color is green, so try to work that in, and some falcon imagery wouldn’t go amiss.”

Lada, your mother’s lady-in-waiting, was jotting your words down, nodding as you spoke. “Wonderful, this is wonderful,” Ulyana, another of Tatiana’s ladies, said. “What else can you tell us?” “Well, for the menu, we should try and incorporate some of their traditional foods. The Shu favor apricots and plums, so maybe we serve an apricot cake for dessert? Or some jellied plums before dinner.” “What would we do without you, Y/N?” your mother said, and you smiled, letting her kiss your cheek.

You gave your mother’s ladies a few more important points about catering to the Shu before excusing yourself. When you arrived in your rooms, there was a box sitting on your bed tied with a black bow. You opened the box to find a Grisha’s kefta, the silk pale Lantsov blue embroidered with gold. A short note accompanied the kefta, reading Soon, you’ll wear my colors. -Aleksander. You tucked that note with the others and began the walk to the Little Palace.

“Excuse me,” you said when you saw Ivan. “Is the General available?” “One moment, moya tsarevna,” he said, walking through the lacquered black doors. While he was gone, you looked around the Golden Dome, the tables arranged in a square, one for each Order. This would be your home soon, as you’d decided that you’d be moving into the Little Palace, and you wanted to get to know the place a bit better.

“Y/N,” said Aleksander as he entered the Hall of the Golden Dome, a smile on his face. The room was empty, so he pressed a kiss to your forehead before stepping back, maintaining an appropriate distance. “I didn’t expect to see you before Friday.” It was Wednesday now, your second chaperoned outing only three days away. “Neither did I, but I also didn’t expect such a lovely gift.”

“You like it?” “I love it, Aleksander, thank you.” “Of course, my darling. But I get the feeling you didn’t come over here just to thank me.” You smiled, folding your hands behind your back. “You’re right. My parents are hosting a ball for the Shu Han in one week’s time, and I wanted to invite you.” “Hmm,” Aleksander said, stroking his chin in mock contemplation. “What’s in it for me?”

“Oh, just an evening with the most beautiful Princess in the country hanging off your arm and adoring your every move?” Aleksander smirked. “I’m not quite convinced.” “Well then, what if I told you that it would be our third chaperoned outing?” Aleksander nodded, still pretending to consider. “I see. Well, in that case, I suppose I’ll attend.” You laughed, and Aleksander broke, leaning down to kiss you. It was a chaste kiss, one that could be construed as young lovers forgetting themselves in a new courtship.

“You’ll have to meet with my parents after that,” you said. “If my father doesn’t give his blessing…” “Don’t worry, sweet girl. I will marry you, no matter what it takes.” You smiled, and Aleksander kissed your forehead again. “Go. I suspect you have much to attend to with the ball.” “Saints, I do,” you replied, and after one final kiss, you were on your way back to the Grand Palace.

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Planning the ball for the Shu took up most of your time, as your mother needed a fair amount of help. It was clear that the baton was being passed to you in terms of planning diplomatic and state affairs. When Vasily ascended, if he had yet to take a wife, it would be your job to plan such events. When Friday arrived, you were elated to attend the ballet with Aleksander, grateful for a break in the planning.

You wore your kefta paired with a golden tiara, your hair loose around your shoulders. Tasia attended as your chaperone, but she sat a row behind the two of you, and a few seats to the left at that. The darkness of the theater allowed Aleksander to keep his arm around your shoulders, holding you against his side and pressing kisses to your temple for the entire performance.

Seeing you in a kefta set off something in his heart, and Aleksander longed to pull you to him and kiss you breathless. But he refrained from doing so, keeping to the level of intimacy that was appropriate. Holding you close in the dark of the theater was a risk, but it was one Aleksander was more than willing to take. Just before the lights went up, he retracted his arm and sat up straight, so to anyone around, it would appear he’d been seated that way for the entire show.

It was a wonderful evening, but the next morning, you were thrown right back into the fray; menu planning, flower arrangements, music selections, and of course, your dress fitting. You’d selected your gown particularly for Aleksander; red silk and tulle, for Aleksander had told you how lovely you looked in red, with a sheer black cape hanging from your shoulders, a nod to his Grisha color. As you smoothed the fabric of the gown, you smiled, imagining yourself in a wedding gown, walking down the aisle to Aleksander. That was still a month or so away, but you knew that this gown would render your suitor speechless.

#aleksander morozova x reader #shadow and bone fanfiction #the darkling x reader #general kirigan x reader #shadow and bone reader insert #the dark prince

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princehairsupremacy · 3 years

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2,16,19,23,33,34,78 I’m sorry if it’s too much you can take some out if you want. Can u make a fight, like reader thought harry is cheater than ly <3

2. "I'd like it better off you."

16. "Do you ever shut up."

19. "I didn't do that!"

23. "I just need some time to think."

33. "Who told you that?"

34. "I would never do that to you."

78. "You really hurt me."

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Harry kissed your cheek and headed in to the bathroom, doing his nightly routine before you guys headed to the bed. “Don’t miss me too much while I’m away in the bathroom, love.”

“Oh, don’t worry, I won’t.” He smiled at you and shut the bathroom door. The fucking audacity he has to call you love and act like he’s a man who’s done no wrong in this world. He’s acting like a saint. You know what he’s done, you know who he’s done. You saw the texts yourself, she contacted you.

She contacted you a week ago, saying things like. “You do have a reason to be mad at me, I swear I didn’t know that he was married, whether you believe me or not, he didn’t have a wedding ring and he told me he was single.” He even took his wedding ring off, those vows meant nothing to him. He didn’t care, he just wants a good fuck.

She told you when it started, it started 3 months ago, he was doing this behind your back for three months. He told you he was going on a business trip, was he just fucking her every time he left you alone. He would face-time you occasionally when he was away and you would tell him things like “I miss you so much” and “I wish you were here with me” and he would nod along and agree as if he actually cared.

She said he would meet her in some hotel room, and they’d...yeah, do what they do. She said they meet up at least 2 or 3 times a month. Were you not doing enough for him? He said he loved you? Why did he have to do this? Did he think she was better? Did he prefer her? Would he deny it when you confronted him?

Was she telling the truth? Was she some crazy woman trying to split you two up? How were you meant to know? You had to ask him.

She sent you screenshots of some messages, he would tell her how much he missed her and how much he missed her...body. What prompted this? What prompted him to be a cheater? Was she the only one he was cheating with? Were there others?

“I’m back, hope you weren’t in shambles, missing me while I was in the bathroom.” He laid down next to you and rested his head on your shoulder. “I like this t-shirt you have on. Though, I’d like it better off you.” He started to kiss your shoulder and you scrunched your nose up in disgust at the thought of him doing this to her, the thought of him enjoying it while you were at home, hugging a pillow that smelt like him just to get to sleep. Asshole.

“Stop it...” You whispered it and you guessed he didn’t really know what you said because he just hummed and moved his kisses to your neck. “Fucking stop it!” He jumped back and you sat up, dragging your hands down your face and immediately opening your eyes because when you closed them all you could picture was him with her, doing the things he does with you, the things he was only meant to do to you.

“I’m sorry, what happened? What’s wrong, baby?” You scoffed at his words and pulled your hand back when he tried to hold it. “What’s wrong with you? Did I do something? I’m sorry if I did-“

“Do you ever shut up? You fucking know what you did to me, Harry. You know who you did.” He sat up and his eyebrows shot up, like he didn’t know what you were talking about. What kind of heartless monster cheats on someone then acts like they’ve never hurt you in any way?

“What are you talking about? I’ve haven’t done anything. I wouldn’t hurt you! What are you even saying? Who I did? No one! I’ve been with you and only you for 4 fucking years and you’re questioning me?! Tell me what you think I’ve done.” Of course he’s denying it, men can never own up to the hurtful things they do every-time.

“You would never hurt me? You really hurt me. You really fucking hurt me, Harry. Did those vows mean nothing to you? You cheated on me, she told me. I know what you do when you’re away! When I’m smiling at the thought of your voice while you’re away, you’re fucking someone else!” His face dropped and he shook his head, his curly messy hair on top of his head bouncing as he did it, he was still denying it.

“Who the fuck is she? Who told you that? I didn’t do that! I haven’t fucked anyone else since like 2 months before I started calling you my girlfriend, you realise that? I love you, you’re the love of my life, I would never mess this up by cheating. I would never do that to you.” He moved closer to you and you stood up, you couldn’t be next to him, you couldn’t be close to him right now.

“Stop lying! You know who she is! Jessica, Jessica showed me the texts, she told me that you would meet up while you were away on your business trip, she told me that you would take your wedding ring off and that you told her you were single, she told me that you’ve been doing this to me for 3 months! How dare you say I’m the love of your life, what was it about her? Was she prettier than me, were you attracted to her and thought you could get away with it?”

“No, I never thought that because it’s not fucking true! I’ve never cheated on you, I’ve never planned on cheating on you and I will never cheat on you. I don’t know who Jessica is, I don’t know Jessica, whatever messages you saw are fake, I’m not cheating. I go away and I think about you. Alone. You think I would throw away 4 years of us for 3 months of Jessica? I didn’t do this, I swear.” He shuffled towards you again and grabbed your hands before you could move away from him again.

You finally looked at his face and saw the building up tears in his eyes, the slight frustration in his face. He looked sincere but how were you supposed to trust him? How are you meant to know that he’s telling the truth? What if he just leaves you for Jessica? “I love you.” The look on his face when he said those words were so sad, did he not believe himself when he said it or was he just sad that he was being accused of cheating when he hasn’t?

“I just need some time to think...maybe I should go stay somewhere else for a bit. Figure out how to deal with this, I don’t know if you’re telling the truth or if she is...I need to figure out the truth...on my own.” A tear finally slid down his cheek and he squeezed your hands tighter, he lifted them up to his lips and placed a soft kiss on your right hand. “Don’t do that to me, please. I can’t trust you right now...”

“I can’t believe this is happening, I wish it was different, wish she never tried to fuck over our relationship like this, I don’t even know who this woman is. But I get that you can’t trust me right now, anyone would feel the same. Just don’t leave me, actually think this through, don’t leave me alone.”

“I can’t promise you anything, it wouldn’t be fair.” He let go of your hand and wiped away his tear but another one appeared almost straight away, it slid down his cheek slowly and you watched as he let it move down his neck.

“I know. Can I have a kiss goodbye? Please?” You sighed and leaned forward, lightly pressing your lips against his but he pressed his lips more against yours like he was preparing himself for the last kiss he would ever have with you. “Bye, love.”

“Goodbye, Harry.”

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springatito-moved · 3 years

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Casino’s Character Playlist Masterpost

Figured I should throw them all in one place for easy access lol. Feel free to ask me why I chose any of the songs (tho my answer will probs just be screenshots of the lyrics)

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Playlists below the cut

Simple Thing - c!Clingy Duo Somewhere Only We Know // The Weight Of Us // Chasing Cars // King and Lionheart // Birds // Meteor Shower // Brothers Under The Sun // On Melancholy Hill // Be Still // Small Hands // North // The Graveyard Near The House // Boats and Birds // The Sword & The Pen // Heroes // Run To You // I’ll Follow You into the Dark // One (instrumental)

Barricades - Nevadas!Quackity Money To Be Made // Nine // It’s Okay I Wouldn’t Remember Me Either // Taking Over The World // Wait // C’est la vie // Halfway To Hell // ANTI-HERO // Look What You Made Me Do // Hollow // Choke // Numb // Oh Klahoma // Blood and Bones // Laplace’s Angel (Hurt People? Hurt People!) // You Should Know // I’m not a good person // Unravel // Hell To Your Doorstep // Sympathy For The Devil

Can’t Be Beat - c!Dream Cabinet Man // Mr. Malum // Bad Blood // I’m Gonna Win // Dead Is The New Alive // Volatile Times // Don’t Mess With Me // Seven Nation Army // Legends Are Made // Empire // GRRRLS // Harness Your Hopes // Catabolic Seed // you should see me in a crown // Beekeeper // Thistle & Weeds // Everything Moves // Outrunning Karma // Kingdom Fall // Everybody Wants To Rule The World // My Way // Killer In The Mirror

Doubt - c!Tommy Pluto // Eulogy // Blame // Good Rhymes for Bad Times // Let’s Dance To Joy Division // LIFE’S A BIT // brutal // Moonsickness // A Sadness Runs Through Him // Dear Wormwood // Oh My God // The Good Part // Stipulation // Little Fang // Rubik’s Cube // Silhouette // Rounds // The Call // That’s Okay // Wanderers Lullaby // King // Parrot // Welcome Home // I Lived

Pictures of the Stars - c!Sapnap Rät // Be Nice To Me // Brutus // Saint Bernard // Little Lion Man // Feel Better // Karma // Waving Through A Window // Nobody // Let Me Down Slowly // Curl up & Die // Two // Before the Line // Youth // The Moon Will Sing // Motion Sickness // Million Years Ago // Pluto Projector // Agoraphobia // This Will End // Lay Me Down // Interlude: I’m Not Angry Anymore

Disintegrating Trees - c!George Sweet Hibiscus Tea // Human // YKWIM? // I Of The Storm // tired // Dream Machine // rises the moon // Four // Daniel In The Den // Dead Hearts // Alligator Teeth // Normalization Blues // Fire // Never Meant To Know // Warm Regards // A Deer Mistaking Candles For Headlights

Final Girl - c!Quackity #girlcore Hollywood / Marry Me / 1 step forward, 3 steps back / Without Me / No Time To Die / A Burning Hill / Paper Bag / Happier Than Ever / So What / Die Young / Runaway / Opheliac / Love Story / Cherry Bomb / Never Shut Up Again / Paper Rings / Glory and Gore / Heads Will Roll / Castle / Don’t Make Me / Look What You Made Me Do / Are You Satisfied? / Winner Takes It All / Skyfall / Monster / One Foot in Front of the Other / Girl With One Eye / Poker Face / Circus / Venus Fly Trap

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bring-vlad-back · 4 years

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hi! Right now, I am reading 'Vlad: The Last Confession' by C. C. Humphreys which is written in a very interesting and respectful way — Vlad is not portrayed as a saint nor as a devil, but simply as a man who faced unbelievable torture in his youth, and that shaped his personality and drive to get rid of the Turks in his country. Is this the kind of work coming from Western countries that you think honours Vlad, or is there still something that should be changed about these depictions of him?

Hi there comrade! Thanks for the ask. I have to admit that I didn’t know about this book until your ask but yesterday I sat down and read everything. I probably spent the day commenting on this book. So I’ll put here a summary of my thoughts, I’ll be posting parts from the whole book, so beware of spoilers.

If there is one thing positive about this book, it’s probably that it didn’t fall for the "there's only two names in Romania, Radu and Alexandru" and that’s already something I guess? But for the rest...

I see where you’re coming from with:

Vlad is not portrayed as a saint nor as a devil, but simply as a man who faced unbelievable torture in his youth, and that shaped his personality and drive to get rid of the Turks in his country.

No words are indeed put on his actions, but, a few pages into the book, and we get things like this:

A child?

Vlad was barely spoken about and yet it’s the first thing we see of him. And... He happens to have a relationship with his Greek/converted to Islam/Turkish teacher while underage? I’ll spare everyone the screenshot of them wrestling which leads up to a... erhmm... sexual feeling but still.

At first, I was afraid that the author was going to romanticize his punishments and possible r*pe by his captors in the Ottoman Empire but no, he straight up made a romance happen.

Vlad aside now, where the hell did he found that?

It’s referenced a lot throughout the book, yet it’s absolutely not true. A simple google translate would get you the result needed. And to get back in the subject a bit, here, Vlad meets Ilona, while in the Ottoman empire and will later marry her. I have nothing against small tweaks to make it easier on the author’s side to tell stories but, this is way too far stretched. And where is Matthias Cornivus while she’s helpless in here?

Anyway, after a few chapters, where Hamza and Vlad do the deed, Vlad now acts like a young virgin from a yaoi fanfic.

😔 this is too much. But at least we got some tea time to time I guess.

!!! Something else positive, the “””relationship””” between Mehmet and Radu isn’t romanticized, forgets the lover part, most of the time Radu is pictured as manipulated or stuck with him. Their relationship started when Radu was a minor and he was brainwashed into staying, ped*philia and grooming should never be pictured in a good light.

And now we get to the... Very... Very bad parts.

Ilona lied about being pregnant to get Vlad’s attention and he??? Kills her??? Where the hell is Matthias?? And then he turns mad and goes to marry the first woman he sees? I’ll put the whole part here because it’s just... That bad.

And this is probably the second and last time this book had any sense I’m afraid.

This post is long enough so I’ll not post the end of the book where Vlad dies but doesn’t actually die because he sacrificed his son instead(?????).

This book is pure fiction, of course, just like And I D*arken, the only difference is that AID presents itself as a fiction, this doesn’t. In fact, you'll never write a nonfictional book about history if it's not a pure documentary. Yet, the author C.C. Humphreys came in with "the epic novel about the real Dracula" as a title and. Well. Not really?

He presents random facts as truth, forgets incredible important figures (Ștefan is barely mentioned and once again, where is Matthias?) The Night Attack which is probably one of the greatest things to write about has been reduced to one, singular page and Vlad end up doing casual murder towards the end.

At this point, I think that the answer to:

Is this the kind of work coming from Western countries that you think honours Vlad

Is obviously: surely not.

is there still something that should be changed about these depictions of him?

At this point, this is not only the depiction of him that need changes, it’s the depiction of his life and his entire environment. How can the author write endlessly about a fictional relationship between Hamza and Vlad but nothing about Ștefan? How can he put Ilona in the Ottoman Empire without thinking about the consequences?

Research, respect for the time, the country and the historical figure is what misses here.

#vlandom #asks #Vlad: the last confession #vlad tepes #vlad the Impaler #Vlad Țepeș

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Beth and Saint Catherine of Alexandria

I wrote this nearly three years ago and it has been languishing in my google docs waiting to be made tumblr-ready ever since. I have not updated the content appreciably, so it may very well contain outdated theories or speculations long since proven false or at the very least ill-timed, but it feels like unfinished business. I'd rather realease it into the wild than delete all this work. To my knowledge, no one else has yet touched on at least the visual connections herein, but I have been out of touch with TWD and the fandom for a few years now, for various reasons. Thank you for your indulgence.

Apologies if I'm rehashing old information; I looked and couldn't find anything like this, but maybe I ain't looking right.

Special thanks to @bethgreenewarriorprincess and @bethgreeneishopeunseen for listening to me ramble about this and all your help!

The image below of Beth waking up in the hospital never appeared in the show, but has been used often promotionally (here, here, and here for a start), even years later (on August 7, 2016) with the tweet of the Beth's Journey video originally posted to YouTube on November 30, 2014 after 5x08 Coda aired.

She looks altogether more beatific than Rick did in roughly the same situation. See how the light, almost heavenly in nature, illuminates her clean face, smooth brow, and shiny hair and reflects in her eyes, giving them a diffused look, as though she’s looking at something no one else can see, like an apparition. Contrast this with Rick bathed in wan light, sweaty and unkempt, his brow furrowed in confusion and dawning alarm, as he takes in the evidence of neglect in the room around him that is plain for us to see in the ensuing shots.

I knew I'd seen this image somewhere before, and I know it's a very typical depiction of beatific passion, many examples of which can be found in religious art and throughout art history (e.g., here, here, here, and here). But it specifically looks, to me, most like Raphael's Saint Catherine of Alexandria. (for an additional analysis of Beth's saintly framing supported by connections to another saint, St. Mary Frances, see here)

This is a cropped screenshot of the full image found on Wikipedia. Note that another depiction by Caravaggio, whose The Denial of Saint Peter figures very prominently in 5x04 Slabtown (for an analysis of the use of this painting in 5x04, see here), is linked from that page and vice versa, but not any other artist's versions, of which there are many (see here, here, and here for a few). (It is also interesting to note that Caravaggio's The Denial of Saint Peter is housed at the Metropolitan Museum of Art in New York City, and though it has toured, it has never been exhibited at the High Museum of Art in Atlanta, Georgia. The High does have another painting titled The Denial of St. Peter in its collection, which was painted some twenty years later by Nicolas Tournier who was influenced by Caravaggio's work.)

Saint Catherine of Alexandria is a bit of a mythic figure; the following summary of her life is quoted from the Wikipedia page for her, with citations included linked within.

Legend

According to the traditional narrative, Catherine was the daughter of Constus, the governor of Alexandrian Egypt during the reign of the emperor Maximian (286–305).[6] From a young age she had devoted herself to study. A vision of the Madonna and Child persuaded her to become a Christian. When the persecutions began under Maxentius, she went to the emperor and rebuked him for his cruelty. The emperor summoned fifty of the best pagan philosophers and orators to dispute with her, hoping that they would refute her pro-Christian arguments, but Catherine won the debate. Several of her adversaries, conquered by her eloquence, declared themselves Christians and were at once put to death.[7]

Torture and martyrdom Catherine was then scourged and imprisoned, during which time over 200 people came to see her, including Maxentius' wife, Valeria Maximilla; all converted to Christianity and were subsequently martyred.[8] Upon the failure of Maxentius to make Catherine yield by way of torture, he tried to win the beautiful and wise princess over by proposing marriage. The saint refused, declaring that her spouse was Jesus Christ, to whom she had consecrated her virginity. The furious emperor condemned Catherine to death on a spiked breaking wheel, but, at her touch, it shattered.[7] Maxentius finally had her beheaded.

Burial A tradition dating to about 800 states that angels carried her corpse to Mount Sinai. Her body was discovered around the year 800 at Mount Sinai, with hair still growing and a constant stream of healing oil issuing from her body.[9] In the 6th century, the Eastern Emperor Justinian had established what is now Saint Catherine's Monastery in Egypt (which is in fact dedicated to the Transfiguration of Christ).

She is generally believed to have been eighteen at the time of her death. Her feast day is November 25, and in celebration of this day in France, unmarried women pray for her intercession to find them husbands. These unmarried women are referred to as “Catherinettes” and their friends make elaborate hats, or bonnets, for them, using the colors yellow for faith and green for wisdom. The Catherinettes are crowned with these bonnets and make pilgrimages to St. Catherine’s statue in their local churches. Also of note and pertaining to France, she is believed to have appeared to Joan of Arc.

Saint Catherine has patronage over many things; because of her chastity, she is the patroness of unmarried women; because of her scholarship and skill in debate, she is the patroness of apologists, archivists, educators, female students, jurists, lawyers, librarians, libraries, philosophers, preachers, scholars, schoolchildren, scribes, secretaries, stenographers, and theologians; because of her association with the breaking wheel and wheels in general, she is the patroness of craftsmen who work with a wheel (potters, spinners), mechanics, millers, and wheelwrights; because of her beheading, she is patroness of knife sharpeners; because of her martyrdom, she is the patroness of dying people and nurses; because of a tradition in France on her feast day relating to her patronage of unmarried women, she is patroness of milliners, hat-makers, tanners, and haberdashers.

She is associated with a number of items, or attributes, and when depicted in art these items are often shown with her. A crown, either atop her head or at her feet, denoting her royal birth; a book, held open or closed in her hands, and perhaps her arguing with the pagan philosophers denoting her eloquence and wisdom; a bridal veil and ring denoting her mystical marriage to Jesus Christ; a dove as one legend states she was fed by a dove while imprisoned; a scourge, the breaking wheel, either whole or itself broken at her touch, and the sword that finally ended her life by decapitation; (hailstones are also listed in places, I got nothing). The type of firework known as the Catherine wheel is named for her.

Additional references for information about Saint Catherine of Alexandria can be found here, here, here, and here.

And now for the parallels, the reason I’m boring you all (all two of you) with these details about a long dead, and likely entirely legendary figure.

Like Saint Catherine, Beth is the daughter of a leader. Hershel Greene, initially of the Greene family farm and later of the prison. Before the fall of civilization, Beth was a student and after she doesn’t start out understanding what’s really going on in the apocalypse. When faced with it, she thinks she wants to die, but when she tries to kill herself she has an epiphany and chooses to live; this is rather like Saint Catherine’s path to conversion, in how she devotes her life to learning, then experiences a vision and becomes Christian.

Beth was “imprisoned” in Grady Memorial Hospital, was beaten, but never broken. Carol and the others "visited her" in her prison and she converted people, like Noah and Dr. Edwards, to another way of thinking. She broke their system by challenging it and getting Dawn killed after having killed the biggest offenders, Gorman and O'Donnell. She was shot, but didn’t die. Saint Catherine was imprisoned and tortured, many came to visit her and were converted. They tried to execute her and she not only survived, she broke the tool of her execution, symbolically breaking their system. Both were eighteen at the time of their imprisonment and attempted execution.

Beth was carried out of the hospital by Daryl, who wears angel wings, and left in a trunk after running from 800 walkers. She wasn't dead so her body would not corrupt. Additionally, she is immune to the infection and incorruptible by it (another way she “breaks the wheel” by breaking the infection). Her immunity will be the source of the cure and thus heal others. Saint Catherine's body was carried to Mount Sinai by angels and was found incorrupt and issuing healing oil in the year 800.

The mystical marriage of Saint Catherine is interesting; one variation on her conversion involves her search for a husband that matched her in intellect, nobility, and beauty and a hermit in the desert who, after a vision of Jesus Christ and the Virgin Mary, went to Saint Catherine and told her of the spouse she desired. This hermit eventually baptised her, preparing her for her mystical marriage to Jesus. C@rol, who was a hermit for a while, brought Beth’s knife (an attribute of Saint Catherine, a small sword) to Daryl, giving him his lady’s favor, essentially marrying them (more here).

Saint Catherine’s reason for her refusal of the offer of marriage from the man who was trying to have her executed makes me think of the metas about 4x12 Still and the blood splatter on the white sweater foreshadowing Beth losing her virginity with Daryl (here and here, though there are more). I can just imagine Negan asking her to join his harem and Beth refusing by saying she's already promised to someone.

Bonus connections!

Beth’s father, Hershel, was beheaded with a sword like Saint Catherine; I know this isn’t a direct parallel as this happened to her father and not her, but I think the connection is solid enough with him being her father and her having watched it happen.

The spoked breaking wheel rather resembles a clock, which is heavily connected with Beth.

Saint Catherine appeared to Joan of Arc and counseled her; in 5x04 Slabtown Beth brought some small comfort to Joan during her confinement after her amputation.

Coda aired on November 30, the Sunday following Saint Catherine’s feast day of November 25.

Saint Catherine is a patroness of mechanics, and Daryl, Beth’s apocalypse husband, is the mechanic of the group (bonus bonus, he rides motorcycles which have spoked wheels like the breaking wheel).

The blond walker in the yellow wheelchair (mentioned here, here, and here, towards the bottom in all three) with the wounded left foot in 4x06 Live Bait is connected with Beth through her signature yellow color and wounded left foot in 5x13 Alone, and the spoked wheels of the wheelchair resemble the breaking wheel, symbolically representing the hospital and foreshadowing her breaking of it.

In Raphael’s Saint Catherine of Alexandria, there is a braid in Catherine's hair that starts at her left temple; Beth often wore a braid on the left side in her ponytail.

The traditional colors of the bonnets made for the Catherinettes celebrating Saint Catherine’s day in France were yellow for faith and green for wisdom; Beth has been strongly associated with yellow and faith and her last name is Greene. Also both she and her father have been associated with wisdom.

Not to mention the St. Catherine of ALEXANDRIA thing.

The final parallel I would like to highlight is the breaking of the wheel as the breaking of the cycle the show is currently stuck in, like a pair of millstones, the runner stone circling on the bedstone seemingly endlessly. The official synopsis for season 7 says “This half season is about these characters starting over. The overall theme of the season is beginning again.” The first episode of season 6 was called First Time Again. In season 5 after Terminus they begin again together. The Governor destroys the prison and they are forced to begin again, scattered. How many times will we take it once again from the top, everyone? (Washington D.C. = D.C. = da Capo, anyone? “Da Capo” is Italian for “from the head” and shares the same Latin root with “decapitate.”)

I mean, that's what the comic has done, over and over and over again; the war with the governor, All Out War, The Whisperer War—same shit different day. Abraham references this in his speech in 5x02 Strangers, “Wake up in the morning, fight the undead pricks, forage for food, go to sleep at night with two eyes open, rinse and repeat?” as encouragement to get them to join his mission to D.C.

Beth’s return is a way to break that cycle for the show—in the endless string of deaths and losses, finally they get someone back.

Morgan says, “People can come back, Rick.” in 6x15 East. Morgan says it to Rick just like Rick said it to the governor when he came to take the prison. Rick says, "Everyone who's alive right now. Everyone who's made it this far. We've all done the worst kinds of things just to stay alive. But we can still come back. We're not too far gone. We get to come back. I know... we all can change." in 4x08 Too Far Gone.

In 6x15 East, Morgan also says, "It—it's all a circle. Everything gets a return." Everything comes full circle with Beth’s survival, she’s not just “another dead girl” as she says in 4x12 Still.

The circle, the cycle, the wheel—Beth will break the wheel just like St. Catherine of Alexandria. Once more from the beginning, but skip to a different ending (da Capo al Coda).

#team delusional #team defiance #meta #beth greene #st. catherine of alexandria #religious symbolism #parallels #long post #i hope the read more works #i made this #this draft is nearly three years old #better late than never #I don't even watch this show anymore but this draft was taunting me

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breadmercury · 2 years

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First off tw suicide mention because it's... Romeo and Juliet

Ok fair warning I haven't finished reading it yet so idk maybe I'll find some kind of detail that changes everything but current thoughts, at the point that the nurse went to find Romeo and they first hatched the plan to get him and Juliet married in the middle of the night: Romeo and Juliet isn't about the love story.

I mean! It is! But ig what I mean is that the primary emotion I get from this play isn't love, but desperation. And framing it as a story about desperation and not strictly about love (and much less love at first sight) makes the double suicide at the end make much more sense, at least to me. Let's see if I can break these thoughts down coherently dhdkdjdkdj

So you're fourteen. Your mom and nanny tell you you need to get married, and there's a man who has his eye on you who you should try to love. That there are people younger than you who have kids. That your goal at the masquerade ball tonight is basically to find a husband.

I don't care what the norm was for what age at what time--fourteen is fourteen. No one is ready for kids or marriage at fourteen.

So Juliet is fourteen and she's being pressured to find a husband (with her family particularly hoping it'll be Paris, who's interested in Juliet) and she clearly doesn't want to. She tells them if she falls for him at the ball so be it, but she won't force it.

So she goes to the ball, right, and that's when she meets Romeo. Hold on I have Feelings about their meeting ok you can read it how you like but I simply don't see it as love at first sight have you SEEN THIS oh my god

I'm not going back for more screenshots because at this point I'm just gonna be pulling from whatever I took to send to a few friends but anyway !!!!!!! Bro

Romeo places Juliet in a position of power. He is the pilgrim, the common person who made a journey to meet the saint--and Juliet is the saint. He gives her the opportunity to turn him away completely, and asks permission to hold her hand, to kiss her, to kiss her again,,,, behold Romeo king of consent.

Anyway he rolls up, pulls this, of course Juliet is gonna be 👀 oh?

If she has to pick a husband from someone who attended the party--a party that was by invitation, mind you, Romeo showed up uninvited, her parents gathered people they wanted her to marry--anyway if she has to pick someone there to marry, why would she pick literally anyone else after this kind of respect? When the competition is Paris "hey @Juliet's parents will you be sure to put in a good word for me to your daughter as I do nothing to woo her at the ball"...............

So as Romeo and Juliet are leaving separately and realize the other's identity, they're like uh fuck ok. This is fine. Solution: get married in the middle of the night. What will our parents do then, make us get divorced? Is divorce even much of a thing there???? Probably not. I'm going to assume not. I haven't really read past this bit, the murder hasn't happened and I'm fuzzy on the details from here on.

But iirc obviously their families tighten restrictions on them because of the whole murder thing. No associating with an entire family of people and their supporters, doubled down on the whole marry the right person thing, all that jazz. Romeo and Juliet are both being locked into a life they really don't want,,, so they're gonna run away together! Ok.

Running away from controlling parents is hard as fuck. Like, speaking from lived experience, it took having the support of multiple friends, months of deliberating (as the situation at home rapidly deteriorated), tears, and like straight up pure desperation to actually leave, and it was still emotionally devastating. Romeo and Juliet are like, fourteen. These are kids! Babies! And they're not just running away from their parents, they're running away from what has escalated into a practically city-wide feud! That people have been murdered over! They've got every reason to be goddamn terrified of the escalating violence, even if they played a part in it listen I forget who stabbed who ok did Romeo murder someone?? Fuck if I know

Anyway the reason they give for running away is because they love each other just that much, that they want to elope, because they can't be together in Verona. But all I can see is that desperation I mentioned before. When who you're allowed to see, where you're allowed to go, who you're allowed to be is something chosen for you--that makes you desperate. And they're fourteen. I know I keep bringing up their ages but like, this story is boiled so much down to kids being stupid and overdramatic--but it's so much more heartbreaking to me and more of a genuine tragedy when I'm looking at it as these kids are fourteen and desperate to escape. They're fourteen and they just want to live.

I don't remember exactly what sparks Juliet's plot to fake die to fool her family and escape. Something about a wedding? I wanna say they decided to force her to just marry Paris and get it over with, but I could be wrong. Either way, she was at a crossroads, this was her last chance at freedom, she was willing to do anything because she was desperate. You're about to be locked into a life and husband you don't want, of course you'd be desperate.

And it could've worked, but of course the message to Romeo doesn't arrive as planned, so he finds her "dead." And when all your hopes of freedom and happiness are riding on one person, and you see them dead? That's going to fuck you up. And now Romeo is desperate. Whether or not his love for Juliet was "true love" (an argument could be made for her being an intense rebound, considering how he jumped so quickly from Rosaline to Juliet, but I haven't thought enough about that to go on a tangent yet) doesn't matter as much as the hopes for the future that he and Juliet projected onto each other. And in a split second decision, fueled by desperation, death would seem extremely attractive. It would absolutely seem like a better option than returning to what you so desperately wanted to run away from.

The same goes for Juliet waking up and ending her life--a split second decision fueled by grief and desperation. She just lost not only someone she thought she was in love with (someone who put her autonomy as priority, which must have been incredibly refreshing), but her way out. Desperate.

I've been going for like nearly three hours now and I keep losing my train of thought when someone walks up so idk man I might keep talking later. Maybe after I read more. I'm caught up in Emotions

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elene-dadiani-blog · 6 years

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Alias: Gardiner

Lenny has a new assignment that is taking her out of the UK border, on Russian soil.

“Pack your bags, Dadiani. You’re going to Russia.” – Was the last sentence Leny expected to hear when she was asked in her boss’s office. Her mouth dried out and for a few seconds, words failed to form on her tongue, out of sheer shock. Political correspondents usually remained in London, near the parliament building and almost never got to grab their passports. BBC had the whole division of international journalists for covering out-of-country news.

“M-me? That’s...”

“Unexpected, I know. But I need you on this. Our Russian experts and Moscow-based correspondents are busy covering stories from Kremlin. Out of the rest, you know Russia the best and speak the language.”

The information didn’t give Lenny much clarity, so he continued.

“A wife of an MP is suspected to be a Russian spy, a former FSB. The police have no official proof, nor enough motives to conduct an investigation on Russian soil. A friend of mine from MI6 told me where to look. You’ll be going to Ekaterinburg.”

Lenny’s brows shot up and eyes widened.

“Here’s a file,” he said and tossed a binder in her direction, “Not a word to this to anyone. I didn’t send you anything on e-mail. There’s only one hardcopy.”

Lenny quickly glanced through the files, a bit afraid to find out who the mentioned MP was. What if he was someone she was friends with? Or worse, someone who she voted for? Thankfully, the man was just a regular Labour MP. from a small county, without much sway in the House. Still, the idea of a British politician being married to a Russian spy was bone-chilling.

“Understood, sir.”

“You will be flying to Kiev tomorrow morning. In Kiev, someone will meet you to drive you to the Russian border and to Ekaterinburg. Everything I know is in that file.”

She nodded and headed towards the door.

“Oh, and Lenny,” it was the first time he called her Lenny instead of Elene, she noted, “be careful.”

Another nod and she was gone.

2. The first time Lenny visited Russia, the year was 1989 and the blood-soaked empire was crumbling. The year of Eastern European revolutions, Perestroika, end of Cold War and the beginning of the end of the Soviet Union.

They spent almost a year in Moscow, but Lenny being so little, only two memories had lingered on: how her parents took Lenny and Niko to Gorky Park and a speech Mikhail Gorbachev gave in Strasbourg to the Council of Europe. 29 years later, she was back in Russia, and she never thought she’d ever step foot here.

As they approached the border, the scrawny, tall, red-nosed Russian border guard gestured at the driver to roll down the window. Lenny handed him her Georgian passport, while keeping the British one safe in her purse.

“Gamarjoba,” he greeted her in broken Georgian and continued in Russian, “I love Georgia, I have so many Georgian friends. What brings you to Russia?”

At a single glance, his adoration with Georgia would have seemed cute, but Lenny was all too well familiar of the perverse attraction of Russia towards Georgia, resembling of a predator who toyed with its prey.

“Visiting family,” she lied, but convincingly. Lenny did have an uncle in Saints Petersburg. He was a middle-size business-owner, a Russian sympathizer, with whom Lenny wasn’t on speaking terms.

“Dobro pozhalovat' v Rossiyu,” he welcomed them to the other side of the border and handed back their passports.

The feeling of dread washed over Lenny as her driver planted his heel into the gas pedal and jerked the car forward.

They were officially in Russia now.

Lenny and Stas, her Russian-born, Ukraine-raised driver arrived in Ekaterinburg at the break of dawn. The city was still lulled in the dark, but the ugly, grey Soviet-Era buildings were already visible.

They passed the Church of Blood, an Orthodox church with the golden dome, built in the exact spot where the Romanov family was executed by the Bolsheviks in 1917.

The driver dropped her off at the Onegin Hotel. Checking in and going up to her room was almost a blur, before she crushed into the bed and slept for five hours.

She woke up half past noon, still groggy and desperately hungry. When the elevator took her down to the hotel restaurant, Lenny faced the harsh reality that she was surrounded by Russian-speaking people, Russian signs and Russian... everything.

Lenny devoured the main course and moved on to black coffee and Ponchiki, while planning the route to the Institute of Foreign Languages where Oksana Ryabova used to study. Her boss suspected Oksana was the real person behind Anna Gardiner, the wife of the Labour MP.

In the files that her boss gave to Lenny, there were no high-quality photographs of Oksana, only a screenshot of an old newspaper, from an article about archery competition in Ekaterinburg that Oksana Ryabova had won. The resemblance between 19-year-old Oksana and 48-year-old Anna was uncanny. Lenny’s plan was to trace the steps of Oksana and see if they led to Anna Gardiner.

Lenny took the last sip of her coffee and headed to the exit. It was going to be a very long day.

#TO BE CONTINUED #selfpara

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emmelfish · 6 years

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Did somebody say 7 Year Hiatus?

Poker... is Joker... with a P. COINCIDENCE?

(shuffles nervously into internet light) Uh... hello.

Screenshot from the downtown outing idiotic Daniel invited his sister on which I foolishly let her accept. Thank goodness I’d installed the anti-jealousy mod otherwise this would have been a freaking bloodbath.

Wow, has it really been 7 years? It is I, Emmelfish, of oh-so-brief Sim storytelling back in the days of Livejournal. Way back then I started off a little Strangetown-based soap called We’re on a Road to Nowhere - I thoroughly enjoyed making it, but man, overall, it was NAHT GUD. Some of it I was really proud of, some of it I went massively off the rails with (I wanted to bring other ‘hoods into it when I went the Uberhood route but I had no idea how to plan that out, plus, some of the plotlines were massively problematic. My tendency to force Erin and Vidcund together being a prime example. Seriously, they have zero in common, and you can’t buy chemistry).

From back in the day. What was I thinking, that shit looks creepy and revenge-porny no matter which way you spin it. Plus ya gotta at least TRY to diversify the abundance of blond in Strangetown. Also let’s have a moment of silence for the in-game camera.

Anyway, I think my last entry in that saga was like... 2011? And many things changed then... the game crashed like every 5 minutes, a four year relationship ended, a new one began with my best friend of all time, we got married in 2013 (oh, he bought me The Sims 3 in 2012 btdubs and I dunno, it just kinda left me cold)... Fast forward to 2014 when the Ultimate Collection was released and I was all ‘holy SHIT I looooved The Sims 2 let’s get back on that horse I wanna make that University saga I always thought about’; we installed it onto my husband’s desktop computer, and then I copied over some of the CC I’d backed up onto an external hard drive, and I’m not even kidding, his PC imploded. We had it looked at, and the tech guys said they’d never seen anything like it ever before. It was destroyed. How does a game and CC that had worked fine on my laptop that should have been collecting its pension by my last posts of WOARTN (before shitting itself with crashes all the goddamn time) melt the inside of a far more powerful machine? The Sims works in mysterious ways. So that dream was over.

Hamfisted posebox usage was hamfisted on Lazlo’s wedding night in 2011. Pray for Erin’s liquid knee, weak as her liquid eyeliner.

Lots more happened in life, e.g. in 2016 WE BIRTHED OUR FIRST FURCHILD heisthebestdogintheworld, 2017 we moved our tiny family of three from the north west of the UK (grey and drizzly) to Strangetown, cough, I mean, Arizona in the US (hot as balls, I’m never putting a Strangetown or Viper Canyon character in a sweater ever-a-fucking-gain unless it’s early morning and Sim January or February), with my job. Somewhere between my job getting hella stressful and randomly seeing an ad for all the Sims 2 games ever released on Mac (dat Super Collection doe) via the app store, I just remembered how much this silly, wonderful, crazy, complex game used to make me feel better if I was anxious or depressed. So what the heckers, I bought the thing. (Sadly it wasn’t free like Ultimate Collection, and it’s a shame they never released further SPs and EPs for Mac because the game looks freaking fab on it. Case in point.)

No photo editing or anything! Pretty colors! Haha, yep I actually had my fave OTP get together and let those crazy kids breed and everything when I was playing with Super Collection, one of the million times I had to restart it because it kept getting borked. This pic is peak Chloe, I die. ‘Why do you have to go into labor when I’m celebrating my promotion, you’re so selfish.’ Casual Seasons-themed ad on the TV.

I fell in love all over again. And then I discovered that the LJ community I loved back when had mostly moved to Tumblr and were still producing beautiful things with this beautiful game and it was like the best kind of comfort food, it was like coming home.

Actually let’s take a moment to appreciate some more of the Mac magic.

Chloe’s grey hair turn-on really working itself hard right there

Another potential elderly suitor right behind her. Lola has clearly had enough of her sister’s shit as per

#JustNannyThings

But trying to do everything I always did on my ancient Acer laptop was really hard on Mac (legitimately, @bunsim is a scholar and a saint for figuring out the monstrous file issues with Mac and putting that guide together). I checked my Origin account out of curiosity and no longer had Ultimate Collection in there for some reason, and even though I couldn’t play it, I said to EA’s chat, ‘What gives? I used to have that,’ and they promptly put it back into my account.

So I wanted to play it. Like, really bad. IT WAS RIGHT THERE.

Thus, I purchased a PC for the first time since the early noughties. (This may be the most reckless thing I’ve ever done and that makes me a Grade A nerd, and I’m okay with that.)

And now I want to read all your wonderful things and post hopefully wonderful things and I do hope you’ll have me.

So...

Hai Simblr!

#ts2 #ts2 gameplay #simblr #simblog #chloe curious #lola curious #erin beaker #kristen loste #jennifer burb #daniel pleasant #kaylynn langerak #mary-sue pleasant #strangetown #pleasantview

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lothrilzul · 6 years

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Things about my Dovahkiins

A recent convo with @mrninjapineapple reminded me of this unfinished thing.

I started this questionnaire around March 28th, 2015 and it’s been sitting in my sta.sh unfinished for so long that I forgot who tagged me to do this.

Looking back, it’s quite a silly list of questions, and I originally wanted to scrap the whole thing, but I liked some of my answers, so here it is. You can compare the personalities of my different Dragonborns by their answers.

[I’m planning to make a more serious questionnaire for the characters involved in our collection of stories (The Age of Restoration). I’ll also plan to post some screenshots of them in a later post.]

Onto the questionnaire with 40 silly questions!

1. What is your name? Z: Zinnia(h Fire-Hearth) Y: Yrgrod Ragvirsson C: Casts-First-Asks-Second N: Nicholaus (the Goldsmith) S: Shurag gra-Burz

2. Do you know why you were named that? Z: No. [After a horse called Cinnia, because I thought it sounded unique.] Y: I was named after an old hero and I inherited my fathers family name too. [It was formed from parts of my name, "rág" & "Vir"] C: Yes, I named myself. [And it sounded cool!] N: No, I was too little to ask it by the time and later I was already used to it. [Because he was created on 6th of December, the day of Saint Nicholas (Mikulás in our country)] S: I don't really care about it, it's just a name... [it was formed from a part of my name, "s Virág" sounding "shwirag", with different spelling] 3. Are you single or taken? Z: Taken. Y: Taken. C: Single? I'm unique! N: Was taken. S: Single. 4. Have any abilities or powers? Z: I'm the Dragonborn and a werewolf and I have an ability called Ancestor's wrath Y: I'm the Dragonborn and a werewolf. C: I'm a Volkihar vampire N: Not that I know of, other than still being alive. S: I can go berserk answering such questions. 5. Stop being a Mary-Sue! Z: I do have a bunch of titles, but this one, I never heard of... Y: Isn't that a female name? C: Why should I? N: Silly... S: You mean Shu, right? 6. What's your eye color? Z: Pitch black. Y: Somewhere between blue and green. C: White with a red pupil. Originally my pupil was light blue. N: Green as an emerald. S: It's red. The other one's blind. 7. How about hair color? Z: It's almost black. Y: Some kind of blonde. C: Hair? Phew, filthy thing! I have beautiful horns! N: It was brownish, now it's grey. S: Brown. 8. Have you any family members? Z: A husband and adopted daughters. My parents are dead. Y: I have a wife and adopted kids. My sister and her son died during his birth. C: No, and I'm happy about it. N: I had. S: I adopted a daughter, but I haven't found true love yet. 9. Oh? How about pets? Z: I love horses and I have four: Arvak, Blaze, Frost and Shadowmere. My daughter's pet fox, Vix sometimes lets me cuddle her. Y: I'm a dog man. C: I don't know the Dead Thrall perk yet. Pity. N: I like animals, but I don't want to attach anyone again. S: I have a good horse. I don't need useless critters around me. 10. That's cool, I guess. Now tell me about something you don't like. Z: The Blades. Y: Unnecessary friction. C: Werewolves, Vigilants of Stendarr and the Silver Hand. N: Boots. S: Dragons. 11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do? Z: Reading. I have a library of around three hundred books. Y: I like to sing (though some say that I shouldn't) and listen to the bards. C: I tend to drink guard's blood in Riften. Broad daylight. N: I like to craft jewellery. S: Exploring the vast wilderness of Skyrim. 12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before? Z: Pretty much. Bandits, creatures, some people. But I only regret some of them. Y: Yes, and he deserved it. He was the reason why my sister died. C: Most possible ways, yes. N: I did, but I wish I shouldn't have. I'm not afraid to protect myself, though. S: I gladly smash in anyone's faces, who deserves it. 13. Ever... killed anyone before? Z: I did. Most time I followed orders, but sometimes for my own good. Y: To name the most important: the usurper Ulfric Stormcloak. C: With pleasure. Also, I need hearts and flesh for crafting. N: Same as Q12. S: It was me or them. No question. 14. What kind of animal are you? Z: I'm a werewolf. And the Dragonborn. Y: I'm a werewolf. C: I'm beastfolk, not animal. I should shed your blood for this question. N: I always considered myself a small and peaceful creature, therefore a squirrel, I guess? S: Orcs are no animals. Oh, you mean metaphorically? I'm a sabrecat. 15. Name your worst habits? Z: Hoarding stuff. Especially ingredients and books. Y: I tend to be hot headed and sometimes I regret things. C: In others eyes, killing for my own amusement is one. N: I tend to be melancholic. S: Smashing in faces. 16. Do you look up to anyone at all? Z: Talos. Y: Sometimes, but they mostly prove they were unworthy to it. Sad. C: No. N: Quite a number of people, yes. S: My mother, Shuzhra was the greatest personality ever. I miss her. 17. Are you gay, straight, or bisexual? Z: Straight. Y: Straight. C: I'm not picky. N: I always thought I was straight, but now I'm not that sure... S: Straight-in-your-face, what kind of unashamed question is this? 18. Do you go to school? Z: No, but I learn new tricks on a weekly basis! Y: No, I'm old enough. C: I never needed school to achieve my goals... N: No, but you are never too old to learn! S: I don't need that, unless it's about potions or fighting! 19. Ever wanna marry and have kids one day? Z: Already married, first child is on his way! Y: I already am, and that second... would be good. C: I don't think so. No kids. Never. N: I had a beautiful wife and daughter, but they both died long ago. Now I'm searching for my grandson! S: Maybe... maybe not. 20. Do you have fangirls/fanboys? Z: I don't know. Maybe. [She’s just modest, she has some.] Y: I... have? C: Of course. N: If I have, that's cool. S: I don't need such admiration. 21. What are you most afraid of? Z: That something happens with my family or with those who I care about. Y: Having to fight those who I called my friends once. C: The Sun. Hiss. N: Bonding. S: That I hurt someone who’s not deserving. 22. What do you usually wear? Z: Light armor crafted by myself and a hood. Y: Heavy armor without helmet, or a helmet which doesn't cover my face. I need my foes to know who bested them. C: Light armor with dark tones, hood, sabatoons, veil or scarf and a mask to hide my teeth. N: Plain clothing. I was dressed in burlap clothing with bare feet before the Sparrows made it cool. No, I'm not a religious fanatic. Does it mean I'm a hipster? S: Blades armor with a Greybeard cloak, to shorten the cooldown of my Shouts when I kill dragons. 23. What's one food that tempts you? Z: Most kind of sweets. Y: Milk. C: Hehe. Blood, my dear. N: Elves ear. My favourite spice. S: Dried venison. 24. Am I annoying you? Z: No, these questions are interesting. I love to explore myself by thinking about stuff I usually don't. Y: Not really. C: I don't know yet. N: No. S: A bit. But I manage it. 25. Well, it's still not over! Z: Good! Y: Alright. C: Go on! N: Alright. S: Oh. 26. What class are you? Low class, middle class, high class. Z: Started as middle class, now high class. Y: High class from born. C: Low class to high class in two years. N: Middle class. S: Orcs are orcs, not classy people. 27. How many friends do you have? Z: I don’t like to count, but many. Some are close, the most not much. Kharjo, J’zargo, Brelyna, Aela, Farkas, Lucan, Belethor, Urag, Lydia, Sasha (mod) and my Housecarls. Oh and Paarthurnax. [Non canonically she likes Aronansa and Jenna Sajpa] Y: Who can be sure about that anymore? The Companions, especially after purging our beast blood together. C: Anum-La, The Swamp Knight [from the interesting NPC mod] N: Some people here or there, but I don’t make want to make new friends, I’m too old. S: A few. Why? 28. What are your thoughts on pie? Z: Delicious! Y: I hope it’s a meat pie. C: Bleh. N: I don’t mind one coming my way sometimes. S: Uh, they’re food? 29. If you could meet anyone, living or dead, who would it be? Z: Talos! Or my father. Y: My beautiful sister Hroda. C: My enemies, so I can flay them! N: My grandson, Mercer. You heard about him? S: Right now? 30. Favourite drink? Z: Red wine and clean water. Y: Milk! C: Fresh blood. N: Mead. S: Magicka potions. They are good for thirst. 31. What's your favourite place? Z: Hm. Skyrim, as a whole, but I like Heljarchen because that where we live now. Y: Dragonsreach is nice. C: Lakeview, my place. N: Solstheim volcanic side. S: The Reach. 32. Are you interested in anyone? Z: My husband, Balimund! Y: My wife, Zinnia [copy of Zinnia as a mod] C: Not now. N: Don’t tell him but I fancy Tolfdir. S: Not right now. 33. How tall are you?

The game gives the height of the character compared to the average. Different races and sexes have different base values. (e.g. Nord males are 1,03, while Khajiit women are 0,95) I headcanonned the average to be 175 cm (5’74). If you think the average Skyrim player character has a different height value, it modifies my calculation (also, sorry, my brain works in centimeters ))

Z: 175 cm (1) Y: 187 cm (1,071=1,04*1,03) C: 175 cm (1) N: 175 cm (1) S: I'm tall enough, thanks! [It’s a bit sensitive topic for her. She’s 164 cm (0,94=0,9x1,045)] 34. Would you rather swim in a lake or in an ocean? Z: A lake. Salty water is not my type. Y: Both are fine. C: I’d rather not, but if I need; the Ocean. N: How about neither? S: Swimming in heavy armor is not good idea. A brook, maybe? 35. What's your type? Z: Bulky nords with beard! Y: My wife. C: Zero negative, but I can eat any blood type. N: Um, people like Tolfdir? S: Someone who’s brave! 36. Any fetishes? Z: Why would I tell you? Y: No. C: I might have some but it’s none of your business. N: None. S: No.

37. Seme or uke?

[I googled what these mean and not going to answer, because my dragonborns don’t know about such things.] 38. Camping or indoors? Z: Indoors. Y: Both. C: Outside. Hunting. N: Indoors. S: Camping? Adventuring! 39. Are you still wanting this quiz to end? Z: I could do other things, yes. Y: It’s indifferent to me. C: Yes. N: If there’s more question, ask. S: Kind of. 40. Well, it's over! Now tag five people to do this.

*Inaudible mumbling, noises of chairs scratching the floor, bootsteps as they leave to their realities.*

[I’m not tagging, I was tagged more two years ago!]

#skyrim #skyrim is life #skyrim headcanons #headcanons #elder scrolls OC #zinnia fire-hearth #yrgrod ragvirsson #shurag gra-burz #nicholaus the goldsmith #qp #silly questions #questionnaire #casts-first-asks-second #my dragonborns #dragonborn #dovahkiin

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cheonjaem-blog · 7 years

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wanna one as types of boyfriends

yoon jisung:

the walking meme. everything he does is fucking hilarious. you literally have 2000 photos of him on your phone which could be edited into potential memes. there’s never a sad/boring day in your life. he’s actually always super excited about everything and you always sometimes question his mental age but you still think it’s really cute. always makes stupid puns and jokes to make you laugh (that sometimes even results to self degradation). all that makes him happy is seeing you smile, so he makes that his daily goal. likes to send you weird pictures of him using different filters on snapchat that you obviously screenshot. he’s super funny and your whole family loves him, especially the kids. “auntie when are you getting married to uncle jisung?” “soon” “um jisung wtf stop lying to the kids” “i never said i was lying”

ha sungwoon:

the tea sipper. he has the dirt on everyone, and i mean everyone. knows what’s going on in your life, your neighbor’s life, and your second cousin’s uncle’s grandfather’s life. your dates consist of gossiping with the neighborhood aunties every week at the book club he organized. wants to know how your day is and knows you so well that he can tell when your feeling down. sings to make you feel better, and if that doesn’t make you smile, he’ll probably pull out the big guns and start dancing to girl’s day something. doesn’t mind embarrassing himself if it makes you happy :’). doesn’t like it when you call him cute bc he’s “manly not cute”. tries to fight other people when they talk shit about you. talks a lot!!! like when you’re trying to catch some z’s, all he does is talk about how your neighbor’s husband is cheating on her with her sister??? “omg don’t tell anyone but jisoo’s husband is cheating on her with her own sister” “wtf how do you know?? did you stalk her husband again??” “no way, i was throwing away the trash and i saw them?? coincidentally??”

hwang minhyun:

the perfectionist. a little ocd and always needs everything to be super clean and organized. he told you that he had perfect attendance in school and always had straight a’s. his skin is perfect, his visuals are perfect, and his voice is perfect. sometimes you feel like he’s too good for you, but then you remember how much of an awkward loser he is in real life. texts you the most romantic things, but can’t say it in person to you. you like to tease him a lot for being an awkward antisocial person. very easily embarrassed person. not a big pda person. blushes a lot. doesn’t know how to convey his feelings into words or actions, but it’s okay bc you know he’s trying hard. he looks like a cold tsundere but sike he’s a soft mochi on the inside. smiles a lot more now bc “you make me happy i guess”.

ong seongwoo:

the prankster. he loves messing around with you and pissing you off. one time he put blue dye into your body wash and you came out of the shower looking like a smurf. you guys end up having prank wars and once you even super glued his feet into his shoes. when he’s not thinking of ingenious plans to prank you, he’s actually a really sweet boyfriend. sometimes he takes you out on spontaneous dates to that fancy restaurant across town to make up an excuse to see you wear a beautiful dress. but he loves taking you on midnight rides. like he’ll drive you in silence as you enjoy the night sky and talk to you about random things and let you rant about your inner thoughts. “stop staring at me ong!! focus on the road” “you’re just too beautiful. you distracted me”

kim jaehwan:

the musician. he confessed to you in broad daylight while playing the guitar and singing a song written for you. you guys were sitting on a bench in the city and he randomly whips out his guitar and starts singing. a crowd gathers around you eventually, and they cheer when you accept his confession. he likes to write songs in the middle of the night, so you’ll probably wake up at 3 AM and hear him playing random chords on the piano and writing lyrics in the dark. he writes songs thinking about you and likes to sing to you when you have trouble sleeping. also super extra!! likes to boast about things that he can’t do like karate and playing soccer. he told you that he used to play soccer in middle school, but when you actually took him out to play he said “yeah i played soccer. i played fifa” “ugh i hate you so much right now”

kang daniel:

the gamer. he’s a huge fucking loser, and he loves playing league and overwatch and basically every game ever. tried to teach you how to play league once but you never understood anything, so he ended up carrying the team and winning. spends 95% of his time indoors, but he also likes to cuddle with you when he’s gaming. makes you sit on his lap while he wraps his arms around you and rests his chin on your head when he plays. likes taking you to comicon or any other nerdy convention. but it’s endearing to see him so excited about cosplayers. “cosplay with me next year” “lol how about a no”

park jihoon:

the prince. on top of his handsome looks and dancing skills, he was also born with a silver spoon in his mouth. buys you everything you’ve ever wanted and then some. but you’re not interested in materialism ok yes you are but you’re more interested in him. so he doesn’t really understand love?? like he’s always been loved by his parents but he tries his hardest to convey his feelings for you without extravagant gifts. like this is the first time someone told him that they didn’t want a new car and he doesn’t understand why you don’t want a mercedes benz but it’s your loss?? he takes you to nice dates at super expensive high end restaurants while you assure him that getting a take-away pizza is always fine too. wears gucci and givenchy and saint laurent and tries to buy you clothes from there too but one dress is worth more than your life??? he likes to sleep on your shoulder while you stroke his hair. really cute relationship full of $$$. if you need a sugar daddy you know who to call. “you want a new car?” “wtf no i want a new boyfriend” “>:((((”

park woojin:

the shy turned wild one. yeah he was really shy when you first met but now he wildin. you tried taking him to a family party once but he was getting too into his dancing and ended up grinding the floor. what happened to the shy bean that couldn’t look you in the eye?? sometimes he’s still really shy around people he just met, and he kind of attaches himself to you. but dancing really makes him let everything go, and he tries to teach you choreographies to your favorite songs. taught you how to dance to red velvet and exo and rap to okey dokey. dates consists of dance lessons and chilling at home watching smtm together. bet milk tea on who’s going to make it to the finals. “yo it’s gonna be nucksal” “oh hell no i’m betting on hangzoo” “wow it’s only bc you like zico & dean more smh i thought you loved me”

bae jinyoung:

the nerd that turned hot. you known him since elementary school but boy did he glow up in high school. the last thing you remember was him being that smart nerd that never talked, but now he has a whole army of girls chasing after him. outside appearance may have changed but he’s still a nerd. dates consists of chilling at home and watching the latest episode of the anime y’all like while cuddling. takes you to animecon where you cringe at the weebs but where he enjoys every moment of it. likes taking you to manga and anime stores. dreams of going to japan with you. also likes to buy you cute couple charms for your phone. “i bought you the touka charm bc you’re the touka to my kaneki” “you’re such a fucking weeb lmao but sasaki is better”

lee daehwi:

the foreign swagger. yeah he lived in america for 4 years, that’s why he’s here man. just kidding, he’s a super adorable boyfriend that sometimes mixes up his languages when he’s flustered. super caring and always frets over you. nags you a lot when you get sick. “i told you not to go outside without a jacket!” but really good music tastes. makes different spotify playlists for you to listen to when you’re sad or tryna to get turnt. likes shopping dates!! he is your personal fashion designer and buys cute dresses when he thinks you look cute in them. “i thought this color suited you really well, so i bought it!” “um but it says it’s $300″ “oops?”

lai guanlin:

the athlete. he likes every sport but he’s super obsessed with basketball dude. like he’ll take you out to the nearest basketball court to shoot with him even if you can’t make a shot for your life. dw he’ll teach you the proper shooting form and how to dribble. you’ll end up having lots of cute basketball dates and afterward he’ll probably take you out for ice cream. likes to rest his head in your lap as he practices his shooting form laying down. lots of after-practice cuddles. “ew guanlin you’re so sweaty. get off of me” “no i like staying with you like this”

#wanna one #wanna one scenarios #wanna one as #yoon jisung #ha sungwoon #hwang minhyun #ong seongwoo #kang daniel #kim jaehwan #park jihoon #park woojin #bae jinyoung #lee daehwi #lai guanlin #kpop #kpop scenarios #boyfriend au

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ariphyll · 7 years

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DDADDS Spoilers but I’ve been seeing a lot of people say they don’t remember any lines about Joseph explicitly saying he was with Mary when he slept with Robert. Hell, I’ve seen people say they don’t think they slept together at all. Unfortunately though, yes Joseph did in fact cheat on Mary with Robert.

EDIT: I thought it was and it was confirmed to me a few times that you do need Robert up to date 2 on the same save file as Joseph in order to get the confrontation and the admittance (and also, if you want the special walk Mary home you have to have Damien up to date 2 as well)

Screenshots admitting to having sex with Robert and being with Mary at the time, the full scene’s transcript below them:

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Transcript - SC means it’s a screenshot above.

MC: Is everything okay between you [and Robert?] He seemed... angry. Joseph: It’s... hm. How do I put this...? [SC]Joseph: Did Robert ever proposition you for... erm, escapades? MC: Actually, he did. Joseph: And did you take him up on that? MC: No. [SC]Joseph: Ah, well. [SC]Joseph: That is where we differ. MC: WHAAAAAT?! [SC]Joseph: I know, I know. Father of four. Family man. Married for Christsakes. I should never have even... but I was in a bad place, and with Mary constantly out I... [SC] [Joseph settles himself before continuing. This definitively gets under his skin.]

You can’t really get more blatant than that. There’s no hiding the fact that Joseph cheated on Mary, he plainly admits it. You can’t say he’s just saying that cause he doesn’t seem the type when he plainly mentions Mary “being out.” Now, another issue I’ve seen is “Why does Robert act weird around Joseph??”

More screenshots, another short transcript below:

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[SC]Joseph: I made a hast decision. One which Robert does not exactly... ah... he has a weird thing about casual... um... MC: But he asked you. [SC]Joseph: You’d have to ask Robert about the weird Robert politics of... that. He’s been weird about it ever since.

If you’ve slept with Robert at the start and went through his auto-locked bad end, you already know he does indeed “have a weird thing about casual... [sex].” It stems from it being a self-destructive habit, and also just not wanting to end up growing intimate with his casual partners. This is what he’s referring to mostly, something we can gleam if we’ve already done his route.

Joseph mentions afterwards though (no screenshots, sorry) that “it ended the day it began” in reference to the affair. Implying he dropped Robert quickly. Okay - so Robert and him slept together, Robert started brushing him off as he does with casual partners and Joseph went back to Mary. Except two issues, and here’s where it delves off into more theorizing:

Mary and the photo of Robert in a sweater. The MC heavily implies it’s Joseph’s sweater as... who the hell else has a sweater that matters to this route? I have a feeling Joseph is lying about it “ending the day it began” and instead treated Robert like he treats MC in his good end - he was a side affair. (For those who don’t know, people fished out his good end from the files, and it’s essentially him going back to Mary but saying you can be a side affair.) He theoretically gave the same spiel to Robert about breaking up with Mary, and then ended up going back to her. It’s unknown but doubtful that Robert knew Joseph had gotten back with Mary. This is also supported by the confrontation - you’re close with Robert after the second date, so it makes sense if he got screwed over by Joseph he doesn’t want to see him mess with MC either.

Then there’s his friendship with Mary. Even if he didn’t know that Joseph had gotten back with Mary, it’s still difficult to imagine him and her became pals after that. Except no where does it state that Mary knows Joseph and Robert even slept together. If there is, point me to it as I may have missed it. More than likely though, Robert sees Mary come into the bar once he’s broken up with Joseph, becomes pals with her and listens to her troubles. That gives a proper reason to his dislike of Joseph, while secretly there’s the add on of him previously being lied to by Joseph.

EDIT: Someone mentioned Mary’s “I’m surprised, your not his type” line, which while could refer to Robert and imply she knew about it, it’s also possible she’s simply referring to herself (or even both) as both her and Robert are far different from canon MC personality.

This part is all heavily speculation, and maybe in the future we’ll get more concrete backstory, but for now this is all that makes sense. This is, by no means, a hate Joseph forever and ever post, but one just confirming he has cheated, and that he isn’t some kind of saint character. He’s a jerk, you can love the jerk but acknowledge he’s a jerk.

#dream daddy #ddadds #joseph christiansen #robert small #mary christiansen #hhhh this got long #i just needed to explain both the canon aspects and how i imagine it actually played out #edited in some points and reworded some stuff #also wanted to change the ending to mention how you dont need to hate joseph just understand hes a jerk #i love that jerk but am also v disappointed in that jerk

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theprodigaldaughtersworld · 5 years

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Black Widow/Castaway What would you call her?

Tam Beddingford looked out over the beautiful back forty that made up the boundary of her ranch. Never in a million years would she have envisioned thdis for herself. Lord knows her beginning was full of betrayal to go with the doom and gloom. A tear slid down her face at the sound of her twin sons Peter and Zora splashing in the Olympic sized pool that was a gift from Jude. He thought spoiling them would absolve him of his guilt. She took a sip of her sweet tea as a tear slid down her cheek, then turned to Stephanie Heartache, a reporter from Broken Hearts and Troubled Wives. Stephanie had come all of the way from New York City to interview the Double Deadly Black Widow. It was kind of funny when she thought about it.

Stephanie took a deep breath as Tam asked her, “What would you like to know?” Well Tam, I would like to know how it feels to be so beautiful, talented and feared by every man on the planet? Tam responded with a bitter laugh. So you go straight for the juggler? Did you come for the juicy gossip or the truth? I have never told my story before. I am only doing so now because my boys need to know the truth about their mother. They are at that age where the internet will educate them about who I am if I don’t speak soon. Social media has destroyed my character and made me a pariah in the church as well as polite society. If my parents and father-in-law weren’t on the HOA board Heavenly Hills would have banned me from purchasing all that you see."

My family is originally from Senegal. I had no clue that they were still entering into traditional marriage contracts. I was raised believing we had moved to America to escape the rituals and traditions that held the women in my family in bondage. My father never indicated that he had promised me to Jude Blankenship’s first born son at my birth. The only time I even thought of the Blankenship boys and their nasty attitudes was when my sisters and I were forced to spend a week at their famly home on our annual trips to Senegal. I always assumed it was because our fathers were business partners.

My father summoned me home to Dallas the night before my 22nd birthday and two days before the launch of my first clothing line at New York Fashion Week. When I arrived the party was already in full swing at my family’s estate I naively assumed it was in honor of my birthday and my launch. No way would I have guessed it was my wedding. But it was, my father pulled me into my old bedroom and announced that Aaron had waited long enough for me to make something of myself. My fashion line was already sold out so it was time to take my place as his wife. My jaw dropped to the ground. I could not believe what I was hearing. Tam chuckled, I could not even tell you the exact color of the Vera Wang gown the stylist draped around me. I had no choice. A broken contract would cost my father his fortune. As the oldest daughter I felt obligated to protect what he had worked so hard for. I detested Aaron. He was a horrible unpleasant child. He was a saint then compared to what he had become. Yes he was fine, but he was selfish. He lorded his status and privilege over everyone.

Stephanie swallowed hard. She had been in this business too long to not know you never walked into an interview thinking you knew your subject. How many times had she prejudged someone only to discover they were the exact opposite of the blogs and social media posts. The most innocent people became monsters in person while those most maligned were usually victims of bad gossip and petty rivalries. Shame caused her face to turn crimson as she tried to to comfort Tam. It was not your responsibility to keep your family fortune intact. You had broken away from the fold and created your own launch pad.

I am Senegalese before I am an American. My family honor trumps the comfort and happiness of being a daughter. Being the first born anything carries much weight and responsibility. My father had no sons to carry on our name and Jude had no daughters to give in exchange for a secure financial future.

Tam frowned as she remembered how rough Aaron had been taking her virginity. The shame and humiliation she felt as he spilled his seed onto her belly while he laughed at her disdainfully. I’ll never put a child in a woman who is so weak. You didn’t even attempt to defy our fathers and their antiquated agreement. It is 2000 what woman allows herself to be sold into slavery to a man who will never love or be faithful to her? With these words he climbed off her returning shortly to throw a cold wet wash cloth at her. Clean yourself I am going to sleep. All she could do was crawl out of bed and run a warm bath. Maybe the heat of the water would ease the burn between her legs. That bath was her only comfort that night. She climbed back into bed with a husband that detested her only to find he had turned his back and was eerily cold.

She was eating breakfast the next morning when Rhoda ran into the dining room screaming that Aaron wasn’t breathing. Tam called 911. Aaron had died while Team was in the tub. The coroner's report said it was a heart attack.

Stephanie's next question was full of empathy. "How did it feel to have so many drastic life changing events in such a short period of time? Tam smiled, Girl, those were only the beginning of my life changing events. I should have bed relieved but I did not get the opportunity to process anything. Our parents swooped in and took Omar, Aaron's brother and myself to city hall where we were forced into a levirate marriage. Aaron had to have an heir to carry on his legacy.

Omar was a little kinder but could be just as mean spirited. Night after night for a week he pulled out right before planting his seed swearing he would not father a child that would not be considered his own. On the eighth night his heart gave out as he was pulling out of me. I know they heard my screams from Dallas to Fort Worth.

We had a double funeral because all of the family members had arrived the day before. Afterwards Jude and Theodore, my father, agreed that I would return to my parents home until the youngest and last Blankenship, Sean turned 18. We would marry fulfilling my family's contractual obligations and live happily every after. Jude decided I was cursed and never intended for us to marry. Sean was only a 14 year old boy. The whole idea was ludicrous. The local society page The Teetotaler game me tee name Double Deadly Black Widow.

I felt betrayed abandoned and rejected. I knew I wasn't cursed. Those men were no good. I was all alone in my parents home designing under a pseudonym. No one wanted to purchase a cursed woman's clothing. Even the women at my church shunned me.

Five years later my younger sister, Fabiola sent me a screenshot of a Facebook post. Sean had married a young lady closer to his age on the family yacht in a lavish ceremony. I was devastated, again. How could anyone be so cruel? My entire life had been planned for me from birth. I submitted to the culture and customs only to be thrown away without a second thought. Every year on the anniversary of the deaths it all starts up again. I became a recluse. I couldn't leave my father's home without paparazzi trailing me. I was 27 years old with no social life and no hope of ever marrying. I would never enjoy the beauty and ministry that is marriage.

An excerpt from Only in the Bible an original work of fiction written by yours truly.

Remain Blessed.

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choisgirls · 7 years

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someone is getting married. that someone is dragged to a strip club for their bachelor party by the rest of the RFA+V+Saeran. just how much of a hot mess would this nightmare be?

A/N: Can y’all imagine though, can y’all imAGINE I WANNA SEE THEM IN A STRIP CLUB LMAO~Admin 404

Not even gonna lie i’m the person who says “nooo it’s embarrassing” but take me there and i’d be stuffing dollar bills down thongs like no tomorrow ~ Admin 626

*YOOSUNG:

-is he even alLOWED IN HERE

-OH MY GOD THERE’S SO MANY HALF NAKED PEOPLE IN HERE I DON’T WANNA BE HERE

-MC’S GONNA KILL ME

-He’s a blushing mess the whole time, he can’t even look anywhere

-Seriously, he covers his eyes every time someone walks by because??? They’re half naKED

-HE EVEN TEXTS YOU AND APOLOGIZES??? LIKE???

-Text: “MC, they dragged me here I swear I’m not looking at anYONE I’M NOT LOOKING, I’M NOT TOUCHING, NOTHING” Response: “yoosung wtf”

-Saeyoung tried to get him a private dance and he literally screeched and ran away

-HE IS DEVOUTED TO HIS MC!!!!!! WILL NOT LET SOMEONE ELSE DANCE ALL OVER HIM LIKE THAT!!!

-Overall he did not like it. He was so nervous, and could not enjoy himself. Blew up MC’s phone telling them how much he loves them, stood outside or hid in the bathroom a lot of the time as well

*JUMIN:

-He literally has no interest

-He had no sexual interest in people before anyways

-Well at least not any interest large enough to act upon

-He loves you for who you are, not your body

-That being said, he kind of just sat there all night with an uninterested stare

-He felt a little awkward every time he saw a fellow business man (especially ones he knew or has done business with)

- “a lot of these men are married why are they throwing money at these half naked people”

-Zen kept telling him that he was killing the vibe at his own bachelor party and he just shrugged

-He was so bored the entire time, he absolutely hated it

-Silently judged everyone in the room just to pass the time, also tried to secretly text you until the others noticed and took his phone

*SAEYOUNG:

-He didn’t care about the strippers

-He danced along to almost every song that came on

-BOY HE WAS ABOUT TO PARTY

-FREE DRINKS, HE’S DOWN

-Wasn’t about having the strippers dance up on him though

- pls i am a child of god do not do this

- i am devout to my MC, they are the love of my life get away from me with your sIN

-When his song came on you can bet your sweet ass he jumped up on the stage

-Seriously he was workin’ it. Strippin’ it. Putting his thing down, flipping and reversing it.

-Saeran had to drag him off of the stage before he could do anything else, but Zen had already recorded it and sent it to MC, who in turn, laughed their asses off and refused to let it go for years

*SAERAN:

-He does not like other people

-Let alone strange, mostly naked people

-DoN’T FUCKING TOUCH HIM

-Absolutely hates it there and wants nothing more than to go home

-He misses his precious MC ;A;

-It took A LOT to get him where he is in the relationship he has with you

-He wouldn’t do anything to mess it up

-Not to mention, he has literally NO interest in anyone else but you??

-Saeyoung tried to get him to get a personal dance but that idea was shot down fairly quickly when he was almost punched in the face

-He actually spent most of the time just sitting there. Most people wouldn’t come near him because Death Glare™. Did not enjoy himself, not at all

*ZEN

- lmAO R U KIDDING

- THIS BOY DOESN’T REALLY CARE ABOUT THE STRIPPERS

- like yeah they got nice bodies??? But u know who has a nicer body???

- THIS GUY

- HE STRIPS INSTEAD??? I DONT THINK THIS IS HOW BACHELOR PARTIES WORK ZEN

- ofc he doesn’t dance up on anyone, he’s a saint, he loves MC

- RECORDS HIMSELF AND SENDS IT TO MC BC HIS STRIPPING IS A MASTERPIECE

- He and saeyoung bECOME A STRIPPING DUO, A DREAM COME TRUE FOR THE BOTH OF THEM

*JAEHEE

- B L U S H I N G

- SHE DOESN’T KNOW WHAT TO DO

- SHE DOESN’T LIKE THIS AND SHE’S SO EMBARRASSED

- she just DOWNS drinks to get through the night, she wants to be supportive

- she drunk texts u a lot

- “hey,,, hey MC,,, are u a whistle cause i want to blow u,,,”

- “There will be only seven planets remaining after i destroy ur anus,,,”

- “if u were a potato,,, I’d mash the hell out of you,,,”

- MC screenshots everything and sends it to the group chat

- Jaehee looks at some of the strippers for candidates for a possible threesome ;;))))

- this sweet, innocent boy doesn’t know what to do

- he wants to support his friends but???

- he’s not really someone who gets drunk and he’s definitely not for watching strippers

- so what does he do???

- he imagines ur the one stripping instead

- like he’s seriously just staring at a wall pretending ur there

- at some point though, saeyoung manages to drag V up on stage??

- aND HE’S SO AWKWARD

- HE JUST STANDS THERE WHILE SAEYOUNG DANCES UP ON HIM TRYING TO ENCOURAGE HIS INNER STRIPPER TO COME OUT

- HE ALMOST CRIES HE DOESN’T KNOW WHAT TO DO

- he just follows along with saeyoung???

- everyone seems to be loving it so he must be doing something right???

- he ends up loving it

- considers stripping as a career

- then he decided that you’re the only person he strips for me ;;))

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sincerelysashaa · 4 years

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6/14/20

LAWD. I somehow managed to already not stay on track with blogging every night. So consider this my entire weekend’s story bunched up in one. Another weekend in the books of single parenting. Another weekend of countless questions from my kids about why daddy isn’t spending weekends with them and why he goes out of town every weekend. I guess tonight’s post will elaborate more that..

Back in February (I think), Chris had another woman in my house. Let me preface this conversation with this- Chris assumed that I was cheating on him. Not sure if it was a guilty conscious or him seeing me finally losing weight and being happy, but he felt the need to pull my call records. Instead of reasonably asking for names and reasons why I was speaking to someone at 1am for literally less than 5 minutes, he came to his own conclusion that if a man answered when he called that number, that I was 100% sleeping with this person. The truth of the short calls were to get shirt sizes ASAP for an order I had to finish that night for a fight coming up at our boxing gym. It just so happened that this guy worked overnight and slept during the days so he called when he was free at work to finish his order, talk about the event and that was all. Anyway, Chris called him and asked if he was involved with me. The guy (being the meatheaded asshole that he is) must of thought it would be funny to tell Chris “I know she’s married and if anyone was pressing up on anyone, it was her coming onto me”. To this day I still don't know if Chris made this up because when I confronted the guy and asked why he would say that to my husband, he said he would never say something like that. Weird..right? So fast-forward to a few weeks after that. I go out of town with my 2 daughters and my son stays home. Kind of a boy’s weekend/girl’s weekend. When I came home, my bedroom was SPOTLESS. I mean SO clean while the rest of my house was messy. Automatically knew someone was in my house but Chris denied it, called me psycho and crazy and said I’m saying that because I’m ‘guilty’ of messing with someone at my gym. Long story short, I found out a girl was here, she text me all of the screenshots showing where Chris said he was divorced, and ready to have something serious and be ‘completely honest’ with someone. DAMN SHAME. We had a lot of talks after that. Silly me, once again forgave him. Now let’s have a moment of honesty.. Chris has broken me emotionally, many times. I cannot lie and say I was the perfect wife after this. I started texting another man. I am not proud of it. He gave me attention, checked up on me daily, sent inspirational quotes, bible verses and all kinds of things to help me get through the hard days of my life. I have no excuses for entertaining these conversations, but I did it. Maybe I craved that attention or that feeling that someone gave a shit about me, so I continued the texting and a few phone calls here and there. Did I love the guy? 100% as a human being, I did. Was he someone I’d pursue a relationship with or get involved physically with? Absolutely not. But Chris set up a recorder in my house and listened to an entire evening of my conversations with everyone from my sister, to brother, to best friend, to this guy. He heard me say I love him. Accused me of having a ‘sexy voice’ on. Guys.. I cannot express how angry I was when he told me he put a recorder in my house! When he played it back for me, I was LIVID. I told him I know exactly what I said on those calls. That I do not care what he has to say about any of it. I handled that situation poorly. Not just because I was mad, but because I was embarrassed. Well Chris took that incident and ran with it. This exact incident is what he uses against me and as his excuse for every poor choice he has made since February. Including seeing his “girlfriend” that he now he has.

This brings us to current day and the reason I've been single parenting and fielding questions from my children about daddy not being here to spend time with our family. Chris has a girlfriend in Miami. For all I know, he’s had her for a long time but claims I’m the one “in love with someone else” and that is why he is with her. Makes total sense right? (insert eye roll). He claims I broke his heart. Yeah, okay. Apparently my heart is made of steel because nothing he’s done over these last 10 years would've broken mine, huh? I’ve looked this girl up. Good ol’ Amanda Jarrett. That name will forever be in my brain as scum, trash, shit, any other synonym for DISGUSTING HUMAN BEING. I’ve looked her up of course. Her ex-husband, in prison. 3 kids, multiple fathers. Evictions every year since 2017. Committed a 3rd degree felony. Cannot get a real job (obviously) so she “cooks” meal prep foods in her house and sells it. It’s quite pathetic actually. Chris spends every single weekend with her. 5 hour drive down on a Friday morning, doesn’t come back until Sunday night. In that time he makes sure to treat her like a queen. Something he NEVER did with me and let me tell you how fucking ANGRY and hurt that makes me. Sacrificing my entire life, carrying his 3 children, taking care of my home and children while working full-time, being the main bread winner for YEARS. NONE OF THAT WAS ENOUGH. I have to watch him spoil this sorry excuse of a woman and I could not even get a 99cent card for Mother’s Day this year. What hurts me the most though is seeing how much this hurts my kids. They are such emotional little humans who really FEEL their feelings. Brianna seems to just want to keep to herself and not be bothered. She’s always sad and quiet. Jordan has been acting out, talking back, not being his old, sweet self. He also cries a lot and asks why daddy can’t spend time with him any more. Ava has been attached to my hip 24/7. She refuses to leave my side. She’s actually sitting on my lap in my bed as I’m typing this. I just hate that Chris can’t grow up and see how badly his choices will affect them. I cannot say anything to him though because he automatically gets defensive and it ALWAYS turns into an argument. Queue the tears- because they’re flowing as I type this. My heart is tired.

Our weekends are now super busy. Purposely. I cannot keep my mind calm while sitting around and this has been a huge struggle for me. So while I’m planning our weekends so the kids can have fun, I’m planning them for my own sanity as well. Last weekend we took a trip to the Saint Augustine Aquarium and fed sharks and sting rays. This weekend, we went to lunch with my best friend Becca and had a coloring/painting night at our house. We also watched 2 movies and read books. Today, Sunday, the kids and I had a nice dinner at Texas Roadhouse. It’s the small things.

This post wasn’t supposed to be so reflective on the past but I guess the back story was needed to see where I’m at today. It was a rough weekend. They usually always are. I do not get a break and it’s become so overwhelming. I found myself just wishing the day would hurry and be over so I could come lay in bed and close out the world. I never have luck with falling asleep though so I've been reading some fiction to keep my mind occupied. I’m actually in middle of a hilarious book called Big Gray. I’m rushing through this post just so I can get back to reading it (lol). So I guess this is all for now..

Reminding myself - one day at a time.

Sincerely, Sasha

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awesomenerdscorner · 6 years

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Time for another set of updates so let’s get down to it.

Updated Toolbar

A rather minor one but I’ve updated the main toolbar for ease of access

Design Notes added as a drop-down menu for Lore

Meet the Characters Renamed to Roster

Worlds of Aeternum Cast renamed to Multiversal Characters

Blessed Inversion Inhibitors Logo Update

With Chapter 8 of Blessed Inversion Inhibitors released the team has been reborn. So to fit their rebirth and the whole Season 2 vibe, they’re getting a revamped logo to let them stand on their own two feet instead of having hints of Blessed Inversion Golden Age tossed in

Original Emblem

New Emblem

A special shout-out goes to Sixth Saint Masamune for helping me with redesigning the logo into it’s new more unique form. Now it changes the font from the default and also removes the icy lettering which was a rather unnecessary reference to Black Ice and Blessed Inversion Golden Age. A relic of the original series concept.

Quality of Life Thumbnail Update

To make the thumbnails flow better, I’ve decided to remodel all of them to somewhat emulate the Screenshots design with the addition of the chapter number being visible in the corner. They will be added over the next day or so so keep an eye out! (Sidenote, the date of posts being published has been removed from the front page. With me being consistent with updates it’s not entirely necessary)

Old Aetherius Saga Thumbnail

New Aetherius Saga Thumbnail

Ideally, this will make everything look better on the front page and keep the thumbnail posts at least somewhat uniform.

Pride Month 2018

It’s that time of year again when you let that rainbow colored flag fly majestically like Spawn’s cape…just…anywhere. That thing just doesn’t have a non-majestic mode. Anyway, this time I’m prepared to properly rep the rainbows like I should. Last time I decided to reveal some of the present non-straight characters I had and also added the LGBT/LGBTQ tag. Not super big or even all that impressive. So what will I do this time?

New Rainbow Themed Banner for the month

Pride Month variant thumbnails for a number of series you can take a gander at some of them below

The LGBT/LGBTQ Round-up 2.0. This time with more in-depth details about each character instead of just essentially outing them.

Metatron (Black Valkyrie/Bisexual ⚥⚥)

The Half-Valkyrie/Half-Reaper star of Black Valkyrie treads the middle ground. Part due to the fact that while both Reapers and Valkyries are physically capable of feeling love, physical attraction, and the act of love-making. Only Grigori was granted that ability through Loki’s magic. Being the result of that, Metatron has no grasp or concern with it being a man or woman. Though he is unlikely to stay longterm with either.

Cerise the Just (Aetherius Saga/Lesbian ⚢)

The Elven Sage of Nature and best friend of Jon the Compassionate prefers to keep her same-sex attractions to herself. While elven culture has no objection to it, her well-known position as one of the Seven Sages does make it somewhat problematic. A number of kingdoms have starkly negative views on homosexuality and being open about it could spark needly conflict against her kingdom. Her objectivity winning over emotion and forcing her to live a life of solitude.

Jon the Compassionate (Aetherius Saga/Gay ⚣)

The Sage of Water and main character of Aetherius Saga is in a somewhat more…problematic position than Cerise. While Jon was born a Mage he was raised as a Highlander. Mages frown upon homosexuality in any form while Highlanders are somewhat more tolerant. Unfortunately for Jon, they see it as shameful to be the receiving partner and look down on them intensely. Seeing them as no longer being men. Added in with his less than ideal youth on the Isle of Caldra and Jon largely keeps it to himself. Choosing to only share with those he trusts or to wander before it can be discovered.

Ly’ Jug the Merciful (Aetherius Saga/Bisexual ⚥⚥)

The Werewolf Envoy for Ly’ Enchina and Sage of Ice is another special case being the only Sage open about his orientation. His position as both Sage, Werewolf, and the envoy responsible for creating a somewhat stable peace between two Kingdoms providing him with multiple layers of protection. He’s survived numerous failed assassination attempts and has earned their begrudging respect. Though they may speak behind his back, none dare to question his preferences at the risk of starting a war.

Silver of the Aether Lance (Aetherius Saga/Gay ⚣)

Member of the Eternals Guild and husband to Slash the Bloodvain, Silver is a skilled Elven lancer. Elves are all about freedom so his relationships were never once brought into question.

Slash the Bloodvain (Aetherius Saga/Gay ⚣)

Leader of the Eternals Guild and husband to Silver of the Aether Lance. As a Dhampir, Slash (or rather Amyerain of Crystopa) was born in the Kingdom of Celestia. Vampires being largely sexual creatures don’t care what gender you end up with or even if you’re just using them for food. Were it not for Jon protecting him on the Isle of Caldra, his life might’ve turned out far differently. But since it didn’t, he’s now happily married and leader of a well respected Guild.

Storm the Red (Aetherius Saga/Bisexual ⚥⚥)

Leader of the Redmail Guild, Storm is a silly character. He’s full of himself to the point of being delusional. He does actually have skills, one of which is being quite the romantic. Though his haughty personality has led to his romantic ventures being resounding failures…

Tal of Jova (Aetherius Saga/Gay ⚣)

The Trelzan Ninja Assassin of the Eternals is fittingly another gay character. Like the Elves, Trelza don’t care about one’s orientation so it was never a particular issue for him. As a Ninja, it was often used as a tool for retrieving information from special targets.

Black Ice/Henry “Hal” Sharp (Blessed Inversion Golden Age/Bisexual ⚥⚥)

Black Ice returns to Pride Month as the star of Blessed Inversion Golden Age. He is one of my more openly active daters throughout my series and has had a number of romances in the past. Though so far only three have appeared. Despite his openness with a lot of things, Hal remains closeted though he wishes he had the option to be more open about his current relationship with Jey.

Construct/Rory Tymchyshyn (Blessed Inversion Inhibitors/Gay ⚣)

Construct is one I always planned to be gay but never actually got a chance to do anything with it. Perhaps in future appearances should they happen it’ll play a factor…

Reflex/Naegi Jun (Blessed Inversion Inhibitors/Lesbian ⚢)

Reflex is one I intentionally didn’t make her orientation public knowledge. Besides being the late 90s when it was still fairly unsafe to be out and proud, it wasn’t in her personality to share such things. Before having to take up the mantle as leader of the Inhibitors, she was always a fairly serious person. But now that she’s opening up and being looser in her leadership, she may bring up her feelings…

Soul/Ji II “Jey” Connors (Blessed Inversion Soul/Gay ⚣)

Jey was one of the characters who was created with his orientation being in mind. Though in this case, it happened to evolve into him dating the main character. While Hal has more desire to be open about their relationship, Jey is the one who primarily tries to keep it a secret. Being the primary strain between the two though it’s something neither can really change.

Surge/Daniel Preston (Blessed Inversion Golden Age/Gay ⚣)

Hal’s ex-boyfriend and now a member of Biohazard’s mafia. He’s a self-centered sadist without a good bone in his body. One must wonder what Hal saw in him in the first place…

Kim Park (Center of Crisis/Gay ⚣)

Unlike the rest of the people on this list, Kim is open about his orientation without fear of it backfiring in some way. Though unlike the others, the focus on his Olympic career has greatly cut into romantic ventures. Though he’d prefer strictly physical arrangements regardless. Not that it matters with Kaiju attacking…

There are other LGBT characters on the way and some who are still undecided. Either way, all will be handled like the living things they are and not just a checkbox.

Novel Update!

Been awhile since I talked about novels. But I’m here to officially announce the pending title for Blessed Inversion Volume 1: Rise of the Pheromaster! Simply put, it’s the novelization of Blessed Inversion Season 1. It’ll include the following

Blessed Inversion Prologue

Blessed Inversion Golden Age Chapter 1-5

Blessed Inversion Inhibitors Chapter 1-7

Blessed Inversion SWAT Chapter 1-8

Blessed Inversion Rise of the Pheromaster Event

All of the above will be put in chronological order. But why would you buy this when you have the free version here? Well besides it being a means to support me and keep me writing the content you hopefully enjoy there will be some fun perks to make it different but not force you to only buy it.

Extended scenes

Being a book and not constrained by me trying to make it conveniently sized for an audience on the go, some scenes will get extra/slightly altered dialogue.

Additional scenes

Since chapters don’t have to end like episodes and due to being put in chronological order, there will be some more segway scenes to connect them.

Extra details

Naturally, beyond the additional and extended scenes, there will be extra details and descriptions given to previous scenes to paint an even more vibrant picture.

Together, these additions should be enough to make it stand on its own but not take away from the free version. Kind of like the Gundam Compilation Films. I’m working hard on it now and when it’s done I hope you’ll be able to check out and enjoy the final product! I will say this now, I won’t be stopping making content for my other series. This new idea I have will take time and hopefully will be out by the end of the year. But you might see an increase in other articles or things like Profiles & Design Notes pop up.

That’s it for this update. Hopefully, you enjoyed the fun facts and are excited for the new novel idea! Happy Pride Month and thanks for dropping by!

Time for an extra special Update post for both my next project and Pride Month! Time for another set of updates so let's get down to it. Updated Toolbar A rather minor one but I've updated the main toolbar for ease of access …

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