#scout lincoln

[hotticuslincoln]

A, B, C, D...

#grey's anatomy #19x16 #sign language #Atticus Lincoln #scout lincoln #jolink #atticus and scout #my gifs #greys anatomy

[oboevallis]

back to square one

TW/CW- relapse, feelings of worthlessness, hopelessness

This was the final straw, if things couldn’t get any worse, here she was walking away from the first person who truly got her brain. Lethargically she made it to her office and got prepared to leave, and then made the treacherous walk to her car. Her hand lingered on the door handle. Her brain feeling like it was encased in fog. Eventually she made her way back to her apartment. She couldn’t decide if it was good or bad that she didn’t have Scout tonight. After opening the door she dropped her keys in a small painted pottery bowl her and Kai made together at an art studio, everything in her life was tainted by Kai’s presence. She sighed as she draped her coat over the couch. After taking a look around the apartment she was once so happy in, she headed over towards the cabinet beneath the sink. As she sit down on the cool tile floor she felt as though she was gonna cry. She rummaged through the detergent bottles and toxic cleaners, until she found the bottle she was looking for. A wine bottle, one of her new neighbors gifted to her as a welcome present, unknowingly. Why she kept it she didn’t know, she said it was for any guests who may come, maybe deep down her knew this would happen. She held the bottle for awhile, contemplating. She’d been sober for so long, she couldn’t even remember what it felt like to be drunk. But it was the only thing she craved for, to forget, to drown out her thoughts, to not feel as lonely. Her mind was racing a million miles a minute, she knew this was wrong. After coming so far she owed her self more, but she couldn’t handle her mind. She hoisted herself up and poured the wine into one of Scout’s sippy cup cause children’s dish-ware was pretty much all she had. As she brought the cup up to her lips she hesitated, her conscious telling her to stop at all costs, but there was a voice begging her to just take a sip. That one sip because two, which became the whole bottle. Once realizing what she did she slammed the glass bottle into the sink and fell the the ground. How did this happen? How did she allow this to happen? She swore she was never going to touch alcohol after Meredith’s attack, and before that the death of her firstborn. Her firstborn, she swore she’d stay sober for him, now for her son. She just couldn’t do it anymore, neither of them needed her. She felt worthless, she didn’t matter to anyone in her life anymore. Everyone left her eventually, she should’ve know. Things were too good for too long. Eventually she went to bed, hoping to forget what she had done. The next morning she woke up with a terrible hangover, she forgot about this part. Not being able to stand the feeling a reality spinning back to her, she made her way to the nearest liquor store. After buying some hard liquor, she saw her phone. She totally forgot she was on call, her phone blowing up with pages. She stood there staring at her phone, before simply shutting it off. She couldn’t be bothered, Mr Mehta could take care of it, they didn’t need her.

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“Where’s Dr Shepherd?” Webber asked as he handed his iPad to the nurses station.

“Not sure but she hasn’t been answering her pagers, I mean I may have to suspend her she’s on call.” Teddy sighed as she filled out a chart.

“That’s not like her.” He could now feel his anxiety bubbling. Amelia always answered her pages.

“Well Im sure shes upset about Meredith and Maggie leaving, and now on top of that Kai is doing research in London.” Teddy explained before she walked away leaving Richard in his thoughts. This was not a good mixture, he immediately texted her inviting her to a meeting. No response. He was gonna give her a couple of days to mope before checking in on her.

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“Damn it.” Link said with frustration, he’d been trying to contact Amelia all day, he hadn’t heard from her since last week which was their last exchange. It was her day to take Scout, and he had planned a big night for him and Jo, he was gonna confess his love to her. But those plans would be squashed if his ex wouldn’t pick up her damn phone.

“Everything okay?” Webber asked as he stepped into the attending’s lounge.

“Yeah, it’s just Amelia isn’t answering and it’s her night to take scout.”

“Haven’t heard from her all week?”

“No, but we don’t really talk. Haven’t heard from since our last exchange, but that’s not out of the ordinary I want nothing to do with her.” Webbers suspicion was proving to be true.

“You should give her a bit more grace, she never intended to hurt you like this.”

“Well she did.” Webber was debating whether or not to unleash all the things he never said to him.

“You know, she was drowning and you just stood there watching. While you were around the house drinking she was barely holding on. And after everything she’s been through with Christopher I wouldn’t be surprised if her grief wasn’t over taking her. She had a newborn and 3 other kids in her hands within 10 minutes of getting home from the hospital. If you really loved her as you say you did you would’ve been there to help her. But you never checked in.”

With that Webber left the room and made his was to the parking lot. He had to go check in on her. He was giving her a couple of days to mope, but it’d almost been a week since he invited her to that meeting and was met with no response. He was being optimistic, she’d been through worse and stayed sober, she was probably just in her bed closing out the world. He knocked on the apartment door, but there was no answer, now he was thinking the worst. He kept vigorously knocking until the door opened a crack.

“Can I help you?” Amelia simply stated barely showing herself.

“You haven’t been to work and I haven’t seen you at a meeting.”

“I know.” There was uncomfortable silence for awhile until she spoke up again. “I was suspended for a little bit for not answering my pages.”

“And why weren’t you?”

“I’m sad Richard, please just leave me alone. I’m gonna be okay.”

“I can see straight through you shepherd. And don’t think I can’t smell the alcohol on your breath.”

“I don’t know what you want me to say.”

“How about ‘Come on in, I’ll make us a pot of coffee’.”

“It’s a mess in here.”

“I’ve seen worse.” Slowly she opened the door and let him in. He hadn’t been in the apartment yet, it was cute. Seemed like a place Amelia would live. His eyes were then drawn to the bottles on the counter and the smashed one in the sink. He watched as she walked over to the coffee machine. He then realizes he’s never seen her drunk before. She’s tripping over herself and is slurring her speech. “So what’s the plan here? Are you gonna get up and clean yourself off? Or are you gonna stay like this forever?”

“The latter.”

“I heard it’s your night with Scout.”

“Yeah he doesn’t need me, I mean he has a new mother who’s ten times better than me.”

“Jo is not going to replace you.”

“Richard I don’t really care. Scouts better off without me, he doesn’t need a spiraling mother in his life.”

“It’s just a slip up.”

“I’m too old for this. I don’t have the strength to get sober again.”

“You are way younger than me when I got sober the last time. I know you Amelia, you are stronger than this disease.”

“No I’m not, I’m nothing.”

“The Amelia Shepherd I know, fights for the her loved ones and her patients, her kindness is indescribable, she’s stronger than this.”

“I can’t I just can’t.” She’s starts to feel tears welling up in her eyes. She doesn’t want to cry in front of him. “It’s too much.”

“We’ll take it one step at a time. First let’s clean this place up and get ourselves to a meeting.”

“Thank you.” Amelia whispered quietly as the older man started to dump out the remaining liquor.

#amelia shepherd #greysabc #greys anatomy #meredith grey #scout derek shepherd lincoln #scout lincoln #richard webber #maggie #atticus lincoln #teddy altman #kaimelia #kai bartley

[kaimelia]

warmth within your touch

a/n: see this all could’ve been avoided if something had so simply gone differently….so here….

"Okay, he's overtired or overstimulated," she glanced down at her son in her arms, brushing his hair away from his face. "I'm gonna take him upstairs." Her eyes drifted to her partner, their eyes wide as they looked around the room full of her family. "Kai, do you wanna," she motioned to the stairs behind them, and Kai quickly nodded, waving a quick goodbye to everyone in the room. "You looked just as overstimulated as he did," she smiled politely, leading them up the stairs and into her bedroom.

"Between the pandemic and my general dislike for social situations," they pursed their lips and dropped down onto her bed, "it's been a while since I've been around so many new people." Amelia closed the door and sat beside them, rubbing her hand up and down her son's back. "I didn't think I'd get overwhelmed this easily."

"They're a lot when you don't know them. I remember when I first came to Seattle." Amelia kicked off her shoes and moved to sit against the bed's headboard, gently pressing her lips to Scout's head. "We can all stay up here for a little while. It's quiet, and hopefully, this guy will get to sleep."

"Can I," Kai motioned to the space in bed beside her.

"Yeah, of course, could you actually grab some pajamas for him? Right in the top drawer." She pointed, and Kai pulled out the onesie on top.

"Dinosaurs," they chuckled, "good choice, Scout." They handed it to her before rounding the bed and sitting beside her.

"We're gonna get you in pajamas," she whispered to Scout, poking at his cheeks before tugging his shirt over his head, "and then we're gonna read you a bedtime story, and you're going to sleep all night." She tickled his stomach before changing him into his onesie, his puffy cheeks red as high-pitched laughter filled the room.

"He's a much happier baby than any of my niblings," Kai smiled. "Even when he's fussy, he's giggling."

"I think that's a benefit of switching back and forth between staying with Link and I," she lifted Scout back into her arms, "he's always super excited to see whoever he isn't staying with." She grabbed his blanket from the end of the bed and wrapped it around him. "Okay, Scout, what are we reading tonight?" She leaned to the side and reached into her nightstand, grabbing a thick book from the bottom shelf.

"Journal of Neurosurgery?" Kai chuckled as she dropped the book onto the bed.

"The goal is to bore him to sleep but also install an early love for neurosurgery. Link and I have an unspoken competition to get Scout to like our specialty more. So," she opened the cover, "medical journals." Kai yawned beside her. "Am I giving you a bedtime story, too?"

"I'm too much of an introvert for this," they sighed, scooching closer to her and laying their head on her shoulder. "I haven't felt this drained in a long time." Amelia rested her head against theirs, one hand flipping through pages of the journal and the other rubbing soothing patterns on Scout's back.

"If you wanna take a power nap, I'll wake you up once this guy is settled down," she whispered, turning her head to kiss Kai's scalp. Her eyes diverted back to the journal in front of her, keeping her cheek resting against their head. "In neurosurgical oncology, the vast majority...."

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"And after ten years of studying," her voice trailed off as the door opened to reveal Link standing there, his eyebrows raised at the sight in front of him. "It's everyone's bedtime in here," she whispered, glancing between Kai and her son in her arms. "He's almost out."

"They're out," Link chuckled softly, gesturing towards Kai asleep against Amelia's shoulder. She smiled. "Do you want me to take him?"

"I've got him. I'm stuck here anyway." Link nodded slowly, waving as Scout turned around to look at him.

"Mm," Kai muttered, lifting their head and blinking quickly as they took in their surroundings. "Oh," they laughed, pursing their lips and nodding towards Link. "Hey," they exhaled softly.

"Good morning," Amelia grinned. They brushed a hand through their hair and rolled their shoulders.

"I'll leave you be," Link quickly rustled Scout's hair. "I'll be downstairs if you need me."

"Say bye-bye." Amelia held Scout's hand up and waved it back and forth until the bedroom door shut.

"That was embarrassing," Kai dropped their head into their hands.

"It was cute."

"When Link walked in? Yeah," they groaned. Amelia shifted the arm she was holding Scout in to wrap her free arm around Kai. "I didn't think I was actually going to fall asleep."

"Well, you were up all of last night." She raised her eyebrows as Kai rolled their eyes.

"And whose fault is that?"

"I wonder," she pushed against their shoulder playfully before reaching down to flip the page of the medical journal. "I think a bit more, and he'll be asleep."

Kai listened as she read, occasionally interjecting with thoughts or information on a study she was reading. Their hand covered hers after they noticed Scout's eyes had closed. "He's asleep," they whispered, and Amelia looked down at him with a grin on her face.

"Alright," she kissed his hair and carefully stood, lowering him into the bassinet beside the bed, waiting a minute to ensure he had settled before turning back to Kai. "Lay down," she ordered softly, closing the journal and sticking it back in her nightstand.

"If we lay down on this bed, I don't think we're going to get up."

"That's fine," Amelia whispered, crawling on the bed and waiting for Kai to settle. "There's a lot happening at this dinner party. It may be better for you to get to know people in a slightly less chaotic setting," she hummed, curling against their body, resting her head atop their chest.

"Your people seem like good people," Kai sighed, their arm wrapping around her as she settled.

"I hear a but coming." She tilted her head to meet their eyes.

"It's a lot. Not just your friends, but," they stopped speaking and pursed their lips. "You're an amazing parent, and aunt, and everything. You're so involved in these children's lives, and I just don't think that's what I want. I don't want to have to sacrifice what I want for my career or myself because of that." They were both silent for a moment as Amelia looked over their glossy eyes, and she took a deep breath.

"I watched Zola and Bailey when they were really little. Meredith and Derek just left me with them, and I was so determined to be perfect at taking care of them. The day ended in many tears, and the house was a disaster," she breathed out a laugh. "It takes a village. Even if you think you can handle it all, it does, and I'm not asking you to run the whole village." Her fingers traced down the buttons on their shirt as she paused. "If our relationship continues, you'll probably end up somewhere in that village. But, we don't have to decide where. You can move around and figure out where you're comfortable because Scout has a house full of people who would step up in a heartbeat if needed. I'm not worried about that." She shrugged. "Scout's obviously a part of my life, and it's unrealistic to think we can have a relationship without any overlap. But I don't expect you to become a parent or do anything more than you're comfortable with in his life. I'm not looking to have more kids or build some white picket fence outside your apartment. As long as you communicate with me and can understand that," Amelia smiled.

"I can do that." Their hand moved into her hair as she laid her head back on their chest with a content sigh escaping her mouth. "It scares me; the idea of being so involved in a kid's life, but knowing that you're not expecting that of me, at least now, is relieving. Especially knowing you're not planning on having more kids."

"You know what's relieving to me?"

"Hm?"

"Knowing I don't have to worry about you accidentally knocking me up," she grinned, and Kai rolled their eyes again.

"One thing I do know I want to be involved in, though," they spoke, and Amelia lifted her head again, her face contorted in confusion. "I want to be there when you bore Scout to sleep with our journal about curing Parkinson's." She pushed herself up just enough to reach their lips and kiss them softly, her mouth breaking into a grin after their lips separated.

"I'm already planning on it."

#amelia shepherd #greys abc #greys fanfic #grey's anatomy #kaimelia #greys anatomy #scout lincoln #kai bartley #my fics #kaimelia fanfic #kaimelia fanfiction #greys fanfiction #scout shepherd lincoln

[crazy-dog-lady-81]

Love Thy Neighbour

Chapter 3

With lunch eaten, it was back to The Sister House for Amelia and Scout. The movers were prompt and arrived on time. While the youngster enjoyed an unusual whole afternoon of Play Station, Amelia was kept busy directing the placement of her furniture throughout the rooms.

She loved this house. Always had done. Derek, her late brother, had re-modelled the house for Meredith and for the family that the couple had hoped to have together. With his own hands, he had crafted it into an ideal family home and no matter where she stood within it, Amelia could feel Derek’s presence. He was in the walls, floors, fixtures, and fittings that surrounded her, something that brought her a sense of peace and calmness.

Also, the house had always been Amelia’s safe and happy place. On her arrival in Seattle from Los Angeles, Amelia had been a mess. Grieving the loss of her fiancé James and their son, Christopher, she’d been a shambling mess, struggling with her addictions to OxyContin and booze. Eager to help, Mer and Derek had offered her not just a room, but a home and it had been in this home where she had learned to be sober, achieving a new normal for herself.

Plus, it was where she had raised Scout for the first three years of his life. He had taken his first wobbly steps in the living room of this house. He’d spoken his first words there too. Marks indicating his height, and those of his cousins, could still be found on the wall of the kitchen.

With so much of their history here, having the house fall into the hands of strangers, who would never fully appreciate it, was not something that she could live with. So, when Meredith had told her about wanting to sell it, she’d agreed a price with her adopted sister and bought the sentimental pile of bricks herself. Then, before she knew it, Amelia and Scout were going home.

Standing looking at her small sofa, she wondered if she would ever be able to fill up its large spaces. Her pieces of furniture were few in number, coming as she was from a small apartment. In places, they were too small for the much larger spaces they would now be occupying, meaning that they would need to be replaced in due course. Remembering how the house was before her life was turned on it’s head, Amelia feared that she’d ever be able to replicate its homely, lived in atmosphere.

Never in the houses history had so few people lived in there. It had always been a collection point for Grey-Sloan’s waifs and strays. At some point, almost all of the hospitals interns and residents had lived there. The trend had begun with Mer, Alex, George, Izzie and Christina and had ended with the most recent crop of residents. Even then, Shepherd blood had been present here. Her nephew, Lucas had only moved out, having taken up an oncology fellowship in New York, alongside his new bride, Simone.

Amelia didn’t feel inclined to open the house up like that again. Living alone had been an awakening for her. Living with other people, she’d never had to learn how to fully care for herself. For example, up until three years ago, she famously hadn’t been able to cook. Meredith and Maggie had always prepared her meals or she ate in the hospitals canteen or she’d grabbed herself a takeaway. Even when she’d first moved into the apartment, Maggie had batched cooked enough to see her through the week.

Living alone had also forced Amelia to take responsibility for her own mental health and addiction management. She’d had to learn to be able to identify early warning signs that she was entering a spiral. Spiralling was a one way street back to rehab and with her key support figures no longer on her immediate doorstep, she couldn’t afford to let herself slip.

So she’d gotten herself a good therapist, attended regular AA and NA meetings, enrolled in a cookery course, and had thus started the process of taking control of her life. With a lot of hard work, she’d learned to become self-sufficient. For the first time in her life, she hadn’t needed to rely on anyone and it was a pretty good feeling. It was also safe. If you could do it all by yourself, then you didn’t need anyone or anything. It was a neat way to ensure that she couldn’t be hurt anymore.

With the furniture sorted, Amelia realised that it had been hot and thirsty work. She plucked chilled bottles of ginger ale from the cooler box she’d packed, knowing the fridge would be empty in the sister house. The movers gratefully accepted the cold drinks, along with a generous tip as they prepared to leave. Having waved them off, she flopped down on her compact sofa, next to Scout. She watched him play his game for a few minutes before gently but firmly insisting it was time for him to shut it down.

“Let’s get some fresh air. How about a picnic in the garden?” she suggested.

He didn’t look convinced. “Picnics are for babies. I’m a big boy now, Mom.”

She chuckled at this. “You’ll always be my baby, squish”, she thought.

“You are getting big. If you keep growing so fast, I may have to stack some of my big, fat, heavy textbooks on your head. That ought to do the trick.”

Scout looked at his Mom sternly but when he saw her laughing, he gave in and laughed too. He loved her to bits, even if she made really bad Mom jokes sometimes.

“So what about that picnic? You must be hungry?”

He couldn’t disagree and so they set up a blanket on the ground in a shady spot in the yard. It was near where the old swing had been, the one where Kai had left her the first time, after telling her that they didn’t want what she had – a child.

“No, no, no, Shepherd. Stay in the present. Going back there will only hurt you”, she thought.

Putting her focus back on her current reality, Amelia set about pouring a cool drink for Scout and then offering him a paper plate of salad, cold meat, and bread. After she’d prepared her own plate, they’d gotten comfy and told each other jokes as they ate. Peals of laughter filled the air, causing a blackbird that had been perching on the fence to become startled and take to flight. It was a wholesome, heart-warming scene, one that Amelia wished she didn’t have bring to an end. But, with work still to be done, she had no option but to do so.

Together, which really meant her working with Scout watching, Amelia got their beds made and unpacked some essentials such as clothes, underwear, and toiletries, along with towels and Scout’s green frog plushie. Link had bought it when he’d first learned that she was pregnant and it had always been Scout’s favourite toy. He couldn’t sleep without his battered old froggy tucked safely under his arm. Next, she ordered a home delivery of groceries and when it arrived, she put it away. After, she made an executive decision that that was enough for today. Everything else could wait until tomorrow.

She made a simple pasta meal for dinner, before getting Scout showered and ready for bed. They watched a movie on her laptop before Scout went up to bed. With his teeth brushed, she tucked him in and kissed him goodnight.

After cleaning up the kitchen, she made sure the house was safely locked up before heading upstairs herself. She took a long, cool shower, and put on her pyjamas. After looking in on Scout, who was out cold and snoring softly, she got into her bed and was soon enjoying her first nights sleep in her new-old home.

#greys anatomy #amelia shepherd #amelia shepard #kai bartley #kaimelia #scout lincoln #the sister house

[youmustfixyourheartt]

i love you messy vocals, i love you whining into the mic, i love you moaning into the mic, i love you soft voice cracks, i love you loud voice cracks, i love you messy vocals, i love you desperate and frustuated singers, i love you sincerity, i love you sighs, i love you wails, i love you deep lyrics, i love you messy and heartbroken lyrics, i love you crying into the mic, i love you working out emotions and crisis through song, i love you yearning, i love you lost innocence, i love you i love you i love you

#this is the !!fixed!! and !!better!! version #crywank #the front bottoms #wilbur soot #los campesinos! #lincoln #the crane wives #surf curse #vundabar #late night drive home #modern baseball #stickers's cassette #<-music tag #stickers's magnum opus #the mountain goats #will wood #these are both tags i have added because the people who said them were SO RIGHT #dazey and the scouts #frank iero #I HAD TO ADD THEM WHAT WAS I THINKING #mcr #my chemical romance #mychem

[grundoonmgnx]

Norman Rockwell (American, 1894 – 1978) A Scout is Loyal (1940) oil on canvas 39 × 27 inches

#norman rockwell #sia #geroge washington #abraham lincoln #boy scouts

[cha1cedony]

Thinking once again about how Grant’s nickname/petname for Lincoln is “scout” after Scout from To Kill a Mockingbird… and it’s one of Link’s favorite books… and Atticus reminds him of Grant… I’ll go crumble to dust now goodnight

#it’s actually liek. one of the most important Lincoln and Grant things TO ME #from a Teen Tribune issue. but Grant does call him scout once in their conversation in like S2E8 or whatever ep it is #I LOVE THEM. they make me ill #okay goodnight :3 sleep well (or not if it’s… not currently sleeping time for you) #sleep well whenever you do sleep! #chalcy stuff

[rad-roche]

if you dig the things i write, you'd probably like the body scout, a book i read (and reread) last year and still find myself thinking about. hits a lot of the beats i really like in a sci fi, and a noir. a tightly plotted mystery with a really good, earned payoff. unfortunately, it's one of those things i can't really talk about or expand upon without ruining it for you. i'll see it to you based on this: what other book features a main character who detaches his penis and lobs it at the coffee table like a water bottle, spins and all. none, that's what

#text post #the body scout #i really rate lincoln michel as a writer #(context: kobo does that to put on Penis 2 for his girlfriend)

[jhsharman]

memory lane is a one way street

Mixed anachronism change-over. The girl feels so poor over not having cable tv, which is all fine and dandy except now your tv set program model is referred to as "linear tv" and there is nothing even interesting on not having cable. You are streaming now. As too the vcr to DVD change Archie enacted in the oughts seems a tad quaint as we move into the 10s -- more up to date but not all the way. And such would not even be interesting, if left un-updated the story as a whole could be figured as set in its time. But this story is about Betty's dad feeling old because of... ?

The date of the original does not track. Color tv was experimental in the fifties. 1965 was the year over half of new tv programming was in color, and 1966 was when all of it was in color. It would have been better and more plausible for 1990 had Hal Cooper identified color tv as being a luxury item. But maybe I am nit-picking and not accounting for a layman's inaccurate recollection and half-knowledge. On the other, by the time of the reprint in this century, this whole doting by Mr. Cooper is insane, whether it is "an" or "a" historical event the moon landing of 1969.

Soap operas go back to radio, and as a programming model was transferred to tv at its very start. Arguably the girls would not really know from soap operas in the years of the reprint (the second one in particular) as there was a mass cancellation of long time programming ... about 2010? Apparently we are down to four now. (Though there is probably some sub-culture of youtubers who do it themselves.) On the Beatles -- I guess Hal Cooper is old enough in reprints to remember John Lennon being shot. Maybe.

These added back spasm lines make no sense to me. And what happened to his socks?

#Archie Comics #Betty Cooper #Hal Cooper #Woodland Scouts #Vcr #DVD #Moon landing #What a drag it is getting old #Abraham Lincoln #Color tv #Soap operas #Anachronisms #Doug Crane #1990 #Socks

[tkachukmatthew]

closed starter: scout sheehan ( @stormbrews )

"can we just recap, for a second?" they've just taken their seats and lincoln will be mentioning what good seats they are when he gets a second. he turns to scout, knees bumping gently. "you don't want mason to know you're here but you want to support him. so you brought me with you?" it's a head scratcher. "you realise my brother is on the team, right? i won't be quiet, bud." and not to mention the guy he was seeing was also on the team. oh, lincoln was going to draw so much attention to them. but he is wearing isaac's jersey, so that's something. "like, this is my surname across my back, you know."

#speaks: lincoln hitchcock. #featuring: lincoln & scout. #verse: feels like home. #stormbrews

[kaibartleyslabcoat]

Kaimelia Mother’s Day Headcanons

These are a bit heavier than usual so be sure to check the tags. Xoxo

They obviously have Scout for Mother’s Day every year.

Scout and Kai get up early to make breakfast in bed for Amelia. She usually wakes up as soon as Kai tries to slip away, but pretends to stay asleep because Scout is so excited.

He made a card at school and clearly didn’t follow any of the teacher’s guidance because instead of flowers, her card features what looks like stick figures holding knives while looking at a pig.

Scout sees her confusion and quickly explains that he drew “Mommy and Kaikai fixing a brain!”

Kai makes a mental note to have it framed.

He also picked out a new fuzzy blanket to cuddle under during family movie nights.

Kai got her a necklace with Scout’s birthstone on it.

They keep the day pretty low-key. Their only plans are to spend time in the backyard as a family until they go to Meredith’s for dinner.

Around midday, Kai notices that Amelia seems really quiet and lost in her thoughts. They quickly get Scout settled in watching a show while he eats lunch so they can check in with her.

Amelia insists she’s just tired. Kai can tell something else is going on but doesn’t push.

When they arrive at Meredith’s later that afternoon, she notices immediately that something’s wrong with Amelia.

There’s a moment of shared eye contact between Meredith and Kai where she pleads with them to get Amelia to open up.

They finally get a moment of peace out on the porch while the kids are playing and Meredith is prepping dinner.

All it takes is a hug from Kai and Amelia starts to break down about how hard Mother’s Day is for her.

She had never told them about Christopher before. Not because she didn’t trust them with the information, but because it was too painful for her.

Kai listens attentively as she recalls the details of her first pregnancy and her son’s brief life. The rub gentle circles on her back as she sobs into their shoulder until she has no tears left to cry.

Meredith glances out the window to check on them and sees Amelia crying. She immediately understands what’s happening and starts making them to-go plates.

After a while of sitting in silence together, Amelia asks Kai if they can go home. Kai slips inside to let Meredith know that they need to leave and grab Scout.

Meredith wraps Kai in a hug and tells them to call if they need any extra support tonight before handing them their food.

When they get home, Kai helps Amelia and Scout get comfortable on the couch together before heating up their dinner.

Later that night, Kai and Amelia are laying on either side of Scout as they tuck him in. Amelia grips tightly to their hand as she shakily tells her son about his big brother for the first time.

Kai holds her all night and offers her sips of water every time she wakes up from a nightmare.

A few days later, Amelia notices that her necklace has a second charm on it, a little unicorn with Christopher’s birthstone.

#kaimelia #kai bartley #amelia shepherd #greys anatomy #scout shepherd lincoln #Christopher shepherd #tw infant death #this may need to be a full fic at some point #this was originally all soft and fluffy but then I started using Amelia to process my own grief again #i'm sorry #headcanons

[hotticuslincoln]

Link in 19x13

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[minishonda]

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[kaimelia]

kai day - pt 1

a/n: there will be a second part to this…tomorrow? I think. anyway. for @herrera-n-hayes and @stardstgf do your essays I love u both<3

"Mama?" Scout asked from the backseat, kicking his legs into the seat in front of him in his car seat.

"Yeah?" Amelia glanced back quickly in her rearview mirror, smiling at her son's eyes before turning her attention to the road.

"Why is there no Kai day?" She frowned and looked back at him for a moment.

"What do you mean? Their birthday is in July."

"Not birthday," he shook his head. "There's Mommy day and Daddy day, but no Kai day."

"Well, not everyone has a parent like Kai, but most people have Mommies and Daddies."

"That's not fair. I have a Kai, and there's no Kai day."

"If you want to have a Kai day," she parked the car in the driveway, unbuckling her seatbelt and shifting in the driver seat to look back at him. "I'm sure that Kai would love that." He grinned, showing off the latest gap in his teeth he wouldn't stop telling everyone about.

She got out of the car, walked around, and opened the door, quickly unbuckling the straps on Scout's car seat and helping him out, taking her bag and slinging it over her shoulder as he took her hand.

He jumped as they walked up the sidewalk to their house, following the chalk hopscotch outline he and Kai had made over the weekend. Amelia unlocked the front door, and Scout ran through, immediately running towards Kai in the kitchen.

"Hey," Kai chuckled, bending down as he hugged their legs. "How was your day?"

"Good," he pulled back and smiled at them, pointing at his teeth.

"You lost another one?" Scout nodded quickly and high-fived Kai when they held their hand up. "You're gonna have no teeth soon, little dude."

"I'll get big teeth!" They stood and ruffled his hair, glancing over at Amelia.

"And how was your day?"

"Fine, I got stuck in back-to-back surgeries and didn't get to sit down until I left to pick him up," she rounded the counter, sliding her arms around their waist as they embraced her. They kissed her forehead. "But, all the patients made it out okay."

"Rockstar," Kai muttered, grinning as they tucked her hair behind her ear.

"How was yours?"

"Typical, running around the lab. I think I made some progress with the cell viability in warmer temperatures, but I'll need to test again tomorrow." Amelia dropped her arms around their waist.

"Who's the rockstar now, huh?" She playfully pushed against their chest and stepped back, looking over at their son, who had settled himself in front of his train set in the living room. "You wanna know what he asked me today?"

"Hm?" Kai turned back to the stove, mixing the pasta they'd been making before she got home.

"He asked me why there's no Kai day."

"Kai day?"

"Mhm," she nodded, wrapping her arms around their waist from behind them and leaning her head against their back. "He told me that there's a Mommy day, a Daddy day, but it's not fair that there's no Kai day." They chuckled softly as she spoke. "So, now, he wants to celebrate Kai day."

"Am I supposed to pretend that I don't know about this?"

"No, you're fine. I'm just giving you a heads up because it's this Sunday." She stepped back and walked over to the cabinet, opening it and pulling out bowls for the pasta. "And, it's perfect because we'll celebrate Kai day in the morning with Scout, and then Link will be here to pick him up in the afternoon, so you and I can celebrate Kai day together." She pushed herself up onto the counter beside them, handing them the bowls. They raised their eyebrows.

"And what type of festivities do you have planned for that?"

"Things that I can't say when our son is ten feet away," she whispered and tilted her head to the side. "I'll leave it up to your imagination for now."

"Stupid child development and word retention," they muttered, shaking their head.

"That's a bad word!" Scout called out, and Kai immediately blushed, widening their eyes at Amelia.

"Sorry," they rolled their eyes at the neurosurgeon, who was attempting not to laugh as she nudged them with her foot. "Well," they spoke louder, turning around to look at Scout, "I am very excited for Kai day."

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[crazy-dog-lady-81]

Love Thy Neighbour

Chapter 2

She took the well worn key from her purse and slid it into the polished brass lock and tried to turn it. However, it didn’t budge. She paused, slightly confused, until muscle memory took over. Her fingers drew the key back a fraction and with a gentle wiggle, the key rotated. The glass panelled front door opened on to the hallway. The oak staircase rose to her left while the entry way to the living room was to her right. Straight ahead was the kitchen.

The moving company had been there earlier and Neatly stacked boxes of their belongings lined the hallway under the stairs. Her furniture was due to arrive after lunch. Scout wandered down the hall, exploring at his leisure. He had been to the house with his cousin Lucas, and so was familiar with it. However, he had been too little when they had left it to really be able to remember having lived there.

“Can I pick my room now, Mom?” he asked as he returned to her side, his tour of the ground floor having been completed. She smiled at him mischievously, dropping her purse and dashing up the stairs ahead of the boy.

“I get the best room!”, she called back over her shoulder.

“Hey! No fair, Mom!”. He quickly followed her up the stairs.

He found her standing in the doorway to a room. It was to the left at the head of the stairs, beside the bathroom. He nudged his way past her to inspect the space. He thought it was a great room, with good light and room for his toys, books, and study desk. Not wanting to miss out on an even better room, he wandered back past Amelia, who was still standing in the doorway.

With a sigh, she joined the youngster, as he explored the other three bedrooms. The master bedroom, which had been Meredith’s, was much bigger. It was to the rear of the house, it’s two windows looking out over the yard. The room had its own bathroom, which made it attractive. Still, it didn’t feel like the right choice to him.

The last two rooms were smaller and so Scout wasn’t interested in them. He returned to the first room, and declared that it was the one he wanted. Amelia smiled at him and hunkered down, so as to better look at his handsome face and said, “This actually used to be my room, squish.”

“Oh, well you can have it back. If you want it. I can use one of the littler ones.” He looked a little disappointed at losing his chosen space.

She reached out to stroke his cheek and chuckled. “Nah, that’s not what l meant Scout. I was just amazed that you picked it, seeing as it was mine. Great minds, hey squish?”

His face lit up and he gave her a hug. “Thanks. You’re the bestest Mom ever!”. He broke out of their cuddle to bound into his room.

“I’m going to take that one”, she said indicating towards the master.

“Cool. That’s a great room too. Definitely the second bestest one!”

She chuckled and stood up, knees popping as she did so. “I’m getting old”, she thought sadly.

At 42 years of age, Amelia was still slim, fit, and healthy. Her skin was beginning to wrinkle and her hair had more and more greys each time she checked, which was pretty often the truth be told. She wasn’t vain exactly but she knew that her glory days were slipping by her, as time and the inevitability of ageing caught up to her.

Still her mind remained sharp and focused. Her hand was as steady as it had always been. Plus, she was whip smart. Her involvement in the Parkinson’s project had sky rocketed her to superstar status among her fellow neurosurgeons, earning her multiple awards and accolades in the years that followed it. She knew those awards meant something but given the traumas she had been going through at the time, she had never really been able to take any joy from them. Especially the ones that she had shared with Kai.

For the second time in as many hours, Amelia forced herself to push her gloomy thoughts to the back of her mind. She pulled her phone from her back pocket and checked the time. Almost lunchtime. No wonder she was beginning to feel hungry.

“Hey squish, time for lunch. What do you fancy?”.

“Pizza!”

“Oh, good call. Bambino’s it is. You need to pee before we head out?”

“Nope. I’m okay”.

“Alright then. To the Batmobile.”

She trotted down the chairs, Scout already pulling the door open. She grabbed her purse and locked up behind her. She paused to take in the view from the porch. She scanned the street. She saw familiar faces and felt comforted by that fact.

Checking the neighbouring driveway, she expected to see Mr. Freeman’s 1969 firebird. The car had been the old man’s pride and joy and he was always to be seen tinkering under its bonnet. The house looked as it always had, except the firebird was no where to be seen. In its place was a smart new looking electric vehicle.

“That’s odd. Mr. Freeman was a petrol head. No way he would have ever driven an electric vehicle”, she mused.

Scout hollered for her to hurry because he was now absolutely starving for pizza. Making a mental note to check in with her neighbour, she trotted down to her own car and climbed behind the wheel. All thoughts of her neighbour left her minds eye as she turned on some music and headed out to get some lunch.

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[unoceanodimezzo]

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