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peaches-writes · 3 years

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not-so-secret santa

skz of christmas day 7: exchange gift with minho

member: minho wc: 1.7k genre: fluff, childhood friends to lovers au, college au, a side of established relationship au warning: explicit language, threatening (?) note: this is me channeling all of my younger self’s christmas frustrations into a short fic lmao

christmas 2006

“Minho, who did you pick?” Your Homeroom teacher at the time, Ms. Yang, asked your classmate next to keep the Secret Santa chain going. The previous exchange was from Chan to Mina but since Mina already received her gift from Bam Bam, your teacher naturally picked Minho who was sitting right next to Chan.

Next to you, said boy then handed you the red and green-wrapped rectangle in his hands. “Merry Christmas, Y/N!” He greeted you as per Mrs. Yang’s instructions when someone will give their Secret Santa present, a mischievous smile on his face. “Enjoy!”

Your excited smile immediately fell into an angry frown as the hard rectangle is then placed on your lap. “All this time...” You pouted at Minho then, carefully picking up the gift in your hands. “You even bought this with me and you didn’t even bother making an effort!”

The entire class looked at you inquisitively but, in the moment, you didn’t really care. You already knew that the empty picture frame Minho thought was a genius idea to gift for the Secret Santa as a prank was inside the wrapping you held, you’d know because your respective moms took you on the same shopping trip where he got it.

Minho was not yet your best friend at the time but you were so childishly angry at that point that you didn’t hesitate on hitting him with the picture frame. “Ugh, Lee Minho, I hate you!”

Minho’s mom ended up buying you lunch after.

christmas 2011

“Ooh, I can’t wait to see who Minho picked for the Secret Santa.” Chan excitedly rubbed his palms together next to you, earning him a glare from you at hearing his tone of voice.

“I can’t wait to laugh if it’s you.” You deadpanned, making him chuckle.

“Ya, what’s with the death glare? I wasn’t teasing you!” He then held his hands up in defense but your glare is unwavering. “Well, not directly, at least.”

You only scoffed in response, turning your attention back to this class Christmas party’s MC, Seungkwan, who’s now, as if on cue, called onto your best friend to give away his Secret Santa gift.

“Y/N!” Minho then called for you, making yours and Chan’s eyes widen from across your large class circle. He held up the red package in his hand, the one he made you wrap yourself the night before as punishment for losing in a sleepover game, then exclaimed, “Catch!”

You weren’t given much time to process his words before the package is flung at you, landing just in front of the accumulating stack of gifts right in front of you from your other friends.

The entire class gasped before falling silent, collectively having a flashback of your 2nd grade fight with Minho over the same thing. Everyone (Chan mostly), just hoped that Minho got you something better than the empty picture frame.

But by the way your ears started to fume and you immediately stood up to tackle Minho said otherwise.

“Lee Minho, have you ever had a white T-shirt shoved in your mouth?!” You threatened as you approached him with the ‘gift’ he prepared for your Secret Santa.

Luckily, Chan was strong enough by then to hold you back.

Minho ended up (reluctantly) buying you dinner to 'compensate.’

christmas 2016

“What number did you get?” Minho asked you, resting his chin on your shoulder to peer at the folded piece of paper in your hands after. “Oh, number 10! Awesome, that’s from me!”

It’s the one year you didn’t get to go Christmas shopping with him because you caught a fever and the class Secret Santa’s been experimentally switched out for the White Elephant game and you still somehow ended up with his present. You groaned and pulled yourself away from Minho, turning around to face him. “What is it this time, Minho?”

“It’s something useful this time, I promise!” He swore with a hand raised on his side, going over his chest to form a cross after.

And Minho really thought he was doing something buying a mug for you with his face printed on it.

“See?” The boy pointed out after the gifts have been distributed. You didn’t pounce on him immediately this time since the mug could easily break. Instead, you waited until his mom picked the two of you up until you punched his arm. “It even changes to another face when you pour hot water on it!”

To prove it to you, he barged into your home on Christmas Day and made you hot chocolate topped with marshmallows. The photo of him with a heart eyes filter on the mug changed into him with a Godzilla filter.

christmas 2020

“Put your seatbelt on, brat.” You instruct your boyfriend as you expertly twist the ignition on your right, bringing the SUV’s engine to life. Next to you, Minho chuckles as he puts his seatbelt on, leaning back on the red-covered seats leisurely. “I don’t want you dying before we get to the Christmas Sale.”

“It’s not like the flea market is on the other side of the country.” He scoffs playfully, laughing even more when you hit him on the shoulder as you place your hand on his headrest while backing the car out of your house’s garage.

“It will be when I throw you across the city if you show me something weird for the exchange gift.” You glare. “This is our first Christmas as a couple and you’re already on thin ice.”

“Oh, boo, I’m so scared.” He rolls his eyes. Opening the car’s glove compartment, he takes out the picture frame he got you from the 2nd grade. It’s supposed to fit the shallow dip on the dashboard but you broke its back support some time ago. “And I don’t give weird gifts for the Secret Santa. Look, you still have a photo of us on the picture frame.”

You glance over his side, sighing in exasperation. “Because my mom said I should at least use it, doesn’t mean I actually like it.”

“You’re wearing the white shirt too.” He points out next. “Basics are in these days, I was ahead of my time back in high school.”

“If you’ll get me a face towel this year—Secret Santa or not—I will actually murder you in front of all our friends this time.”

“That’s hot, babe, I’d like to see you try.”

Minho happily links his free arm with yours as you navigate your way through the tight crowd of last-minute shoppers, his other hand carrying half of your eco bags. Throughout this two-hour trip, he’s shown you countless of weird things on sale as gifts for his friends—from plastic cereal cups that he’ll give to Felix to an actual set of face towels he plans on giving Jisung—but he’s yet to show you what he’s planning to gift you.

Or maybe he already has and just showed it to you under the bluff that he’ll give it to someone else like he did in all those times before.

“Min, we’ve been walking for ten minutes,” You protest as you begrudgingly drag your feet to wherever he’s taking you. Your own arms are about to fall off with your own share of eco bags and the fact that your wallet’s currently a mess with the amount of fast transactions you needed to make is starting to bother you. “Where are we going?”

“We’re almost there, promise!” He assures you with a grin, tugging you closer to his side before you could bump into an old lady walking from the opposite direction. “We’re getting your gift now so be a little patient!”

“Or maybe you’re fucking with me again.” You grumble, making him laugh and shake his head.

“Nope, this one’s only for you.” He assures, pulling you to the right when you reach an intersection. “You’ll see why.”

You only stop walking five minutes later, when Minho drags you to a stall selling pre-order snow globes. The stall owner, a buff middle-aged man, greets Minho and hands him the biggest snow globe on sale in exchange for the money he’s set aside.

“Ah, and this is the person with you on the picture?” The man then asks him once he’s finished paying, turning to you with a polite smile. “You two are adorable! How long now?”

“W-What?!” You stare back incredulously, processing way too slow for the situation.

Clearly, it hasn’t been long since you and Minho started dating, by the way you’re immediately flustered.

“Just a little over six months!” Minho proudly beams, on the other hand, the man laughs wholeheartedly at this.

“Aah, young love.” The stall owner chuckles. Turning to you, he then gestures to the snow glob and adds, “Your boy’s very sweet!”

Only then do you glance down on the snow globe in front of Minho. It has two dolls resembling the two of you surrounded by cats patterned to Minho’s pets and little buildings resembling your most frequented places: the school you went to until high school, the universities you’re currently attending, the library where you spend most of your all-nighters, the hotel you stayed at on your first trip, and this particular flea market you always shop Christmas gifts at.

There’s also the new movie house on the side but, from what you can remember, you haven’t been there yet.

“Is this good enough for you? For a first Christmas at least?” Minho asks with a coy smile, nudging your side and effectively taking you out of your thoughts. He then holds up the snow globe to you, shaking it gently before placing it on your much freer hand. “If you check one side of the globe, there’s the movie house you wanted to visit. I was thinking we could watch a movie right after the Christmas party but, you know, just us.”

You gush at the snow globe, squinting your eyes when you have to glance up at Minho again. “And you’re sure this is mine?”

“It has your name engraved on the bottom, dumbass.” He points out for you, making your eyes widen momentarily. “And it has my name on it too. Put two and two together now.”

“We’re sharing?”

“No, babe, I’m trying to ask you out on a date!”

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petalsforbangtan · 5 years

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•anaxiphilia// min yoongi•

genre: angst, slight fluff if you squint and turn your head to the side.

note: there are going to be some text conversations and yoongi is going to be the bold.

this is my first written au so please be nice,, i also didn’t mean for it to be so long,, please enjoy.

note number two: this is unedited

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“yoongi come on!! you promised you would show me today” you pouted and practically whined while trying to pull him off the bed.

“fine, but only for an hour.” he’d mumble and shoo you off.

you made your way to the grand piano that he just happened to have in his house. he promised to show you your favorite piece by Beethoven, Moonlight Sonata. Yoongi has been your unofficial piano teacher for 3 months now… but quite honestly you took it as an excuse to be alone with him.

the way he played with such passion; you loved the way he would close his eyes, get lost in the way the keys would feel under his fingertips. it was mesmerizing to see how he was able to recite the piece without even looking down at the black and white keys. he truly was in love with the instrument and music.

that’s when you first realized you had a crush on Yoongi.

**********

you make yourself around the piano and sit on the bench provided. there you were, pathetically sitting in front of the piano of your university in the empty music room. you touched the keys so delicately and soft, almost as if they would break if you pressed on them too hard.

you could still feel his presence next to you. you missed his peaceful aura, he was always so patient with you. no matter how many times you would mess up, he would never show any signs of annoyance. you were thankful that he was always kind with you. he always used the excuse ‘i love music, i just want to share my love with others’.

you played the first notes of the familiar sonata

thats when you first realized, it was reality.

**********

let’s go for coffee.

i’ll pay.

do i have to goooo?

i’m on my way now. you better be ready when i get there

kidnapping me… typical yoongi.

that evening you didn’t plan on going out. you just wanted to stay in your bed and listen to music and read your book you’ve had your nose in for a week. you and Yoongi would have coffee runs so often that the baristas already knew your regular. yoongi’s disgusting iced americano and your non coffee, because you hated coffee, hot chocolate.

even though you didn’t wanna go out that day you certainly didn’t regret it. after staying in the cafe for maybe an hour, he decided to take you window shopping. it was nice to get to walk around the small town, see the sunset, and just look walk around. he always brought you immense amounts of peace.

you looked down at his hand and it took all the courage in you to reach and grab it. even though you wanted it to be a romantic grasp, you knew it was just a platonic, friendly hand hold. you didn’t even dare intertwine your fingers with his. it was too risky.

that was when you realized you had more than a crush, you really really liked him.

**********

one thing you loved about Seoul was that everything was so new and you could go on an adventure and make new discoveries. this night you were out with your friends Taehyung and Jimin. they were some of the first college friends you met when you first moved to Seoul and you were extremely glad they came up to you and immediately took you in as one of their own.

you were walking around the town and a sense of nostalgia came to you when you happened to come across a small jewelry shop you guys have never seen. you all decided to go in and you got instantly drawn to a bracelet that looked familiar to you. it looked like the one you got for Yoongi for his 21st birthday. your heart felt swollen. you couldn’t stay in there any longer and told the guys it was time to continue walking. you walked out with no explanation.

“y/n we didn’t even get to see the whole store!” taehyung called after you.

“yeah come on! i was eyeing this one watch that i really li-“

you cut jimin off “i’m sure we can find some other store better if we keep walking… please lets just go.”

the two confused just looked at each other and said nothing but followed behind your steps. you were looking down the whole time not minding where you were going until you felt a pair of hands grabbing your hands. you looked up and saw taehyung grabbing your right hand and jimim grabbing your left hand.

you felt the tears welling up in your eyes and bit your bottom lip and blinked away the tears.

“what are you dorks doing??” you asked with a sniff and a chuckle. taehyung just smiled and said “don’t worry. lets just keep on walking”

thats when you realized, bittersweet moments still lingered.

**********

“so you’re moving away to Seoul for college??” yoongi asked in an almost pleading tone.

“yeah… i’m sorry i didn’t tell you earlier, i never actually thought they would accept me so i never bothered telling you i applied for a university outside of Daegu.” you mumbled back to him. you couldn’t even look him in the eyes, you were scared to see what his eyes contained. was he mad? sad? happy? confused?

“i’m happy for you y/n.” you looked up at him and he had a small smile on his face. you couldn’t tell what he was necessarily happy for.

“i know you wanted to get into a good music school and Seoul has the best schooling. i’m really proud of you” it was like he read your mind. he engulfed you in the biggest hug he’s ever given you. you hugged him back without saying anything and just wanted to stay in his arms forever. he eventually pulled away and ruffled your hair.

“just don’t forget me when you leave and become crazy famous and popular aright?” he had a heartwarming smile and you laughed “if anything i should be saying that to the underground rapper, Agust D. you’ve been gaining a bunch of followers in a short amount of time!” he shrugged and simply said “i don’t care about the follower count. i just want others to experience my story and words in a unique way”

he somehow always knew how to hypnotize you with his words

“how much longer until you have to leave?”

“4 months”

“perfect, that way i can show you all the things you’ll miss. starting with me.” he gave you his sweet gummy smile.

thats when you realized, you were in love with Yoongi.

**********

it was your first day of junior year. you made a promise to Yoongi that you would text him your schedule whenever you received a new one. again it was just an excuse to talk to Yoongi. you open up your phone and go to the messages you had with him. the last time you texted him was months ago, and it was a very simple text message. sadly your conversations seemed to drift off from the beginning of your move. you two used to text almost every single day. now it was almost every other month or so. the typical ‘happy birthday’ and ‘merry christmas’.

hey Yoongi. its been a while since we last texted. i hope you’re doing well. i’m just here to send you my next schedule for this semester.

you sent the picture but you didn’t expect him to answer any time soon. the boy was awful at replying and texting in general. it would be a miracle if he even read the message before the next century.

you locked your phone and right before you were about to put it down, you saw that he actually answered back.

hey y/n. its been too long. i also hope all is well w you.

i can tell you got pretty awesome classes this semester are you sure your loser self can handle all of them??

you froze. you reread the messages as if they were cryptic. you smiled and finally replied.

same old yoongs.

i’ll have you know that i can handle myself pretty well thank you very much

they seem pretty difficult to me. i’m sure it requires someone w more the 3 brain cells.

that entire night you two went back and forth with your old bickering. it felt really nice to just get to talk to him again.

everything was going really well until the topic of his current girlfriend came up.

i’m glad everything is still going good and strong with her, ya know.

you hesitated to answer. of course you were glad that he found true happiness. you wanted him to be happy no matter with who.

i’m really glad, Yoongi.

she better be treating you well, if not imma have to go down to Daegu and have a little talk.

you’re a handful. you know that.

sigh. i’m wondering why i’m even here to visit your ass.

wait. what did he mean by that?? visit as in, he’s here in Seoul?

you’re doing what exactly???

lmao, i messed up.

it was supposed to be a surprise. i’m here in Seoul to visit you. i’m currently heading near your campus.

this had to be a joke right? a dream??? a figment of your imagination!?! there was no way Min Yoongi traveled all this way just to see you right??

lol my phone’s about to die.

meet me at the coffee shop near your campus in like 15 mins. i’ll see you there.

also, be a dear and order my usual. thank you sweetheart.

you frantically got up from your bed. 15 minutes!? oh dammit Yoongi. of course he’s one to tell you plans at the last minute. you made yourself presentable and grabbed your wallet and headed out of our room and made your way to the coffee shop.

you couldn’t believe you were finally going to see him after so much time. you couldn’t believe you would finally get to see him in person once again. you couldn’t believe you were going to hug him n, be in his presence, see his deep, hooded, beautiful eyes, see his adorable gummy smile once again. you just couldn’t believe it.

thats when you realized, you had to gather the courage and face your fears.

**********

there you were.

moments away from being separated from not only your hometown and your family, but also the best friend of a lifetime. the man you had fallen in love with.

“you promise to text me everyday right”

“yes yoongi i prom-“

“you also promise to send me your schedule at the beginning of the semester right?”

you chuckled “yes yoongi”

“you also promise not to forget me when you become successful and famous right?”

you giggled “those are a lot of promises, yoongs”

“you promise right?” he had almost a look of urgency in his eyes.

“yes. i promise”

he smiled and hugged you tight. this was one of the last hugs you would give him. it was such a bittersweet moment that you couldn’t hold back your tears.

when he figured out that you were crying he pulled away and immediately cupped your face. “noooo please don’t cry y/n” he cooed and wiped away your tears. you sniffled a couple times and said “i’m just going to really miss you Yoongi.” his face softened up and pulled your head into his chest and stroked your hair. “i’m going to miss you too, but just remember our promises and know we’ll see each other again. very very soon.”

you felt so heartbroken that you couldn’t even speak and just nodded against his chest.

after you calmed down a bit you pulled away and looked up at him. you saw that he had visible tears in his eyes as well. you’ve never seen Yoongi cry. you couldn’t help but feel your heart aching at the sight.

“here, take this as a way to remember me” he took of his necklace. it was a simple gold chain that had his birth stone on it. he always wore it. he never took it off… until that day. he took it off and put it around your neck.

you didn’t reject it, even though you knew how much he loved that necklace. you were overwhelmed with different emotions at the moment that you couldn’t even think straight.

he smiled and wiped away his tears “it looks better on you anyways” you didn’t say anything and just hugged him tightly

“next train heading to Seoul will arrive in 5 minutes” you heard the intercom say and your gut instantly fell to the ground.

today was the day you were going to confess to yoongi. you hated how long you waited to confess to him. it was such a wrong time, wrong place to confess. it was even the wrong person to fall in love with. yes he was the absolute definition of perfection but you knew he didn’t see you beyond a best friend. even if he did feel the same way about you, it would just be a hell for the both of you to deal with the distance. but you knew you had to tell him or you knew you would regret it.

you let go of him and grabbed your bags and headed to the boarding area to wait for the train. Yoongi followed close behind. your hands became clammy and felt your breathing increase. to say you were nervous was an understatement. you stood there looking down at rails trying to get the courage to say it. you looked up at yoongi and he reached out to hold your hand. you almost combusted when you felt his touch. you almost screamed when he intertwined his fingers with yours.

you held your breath for what seemed like years. those 5 minutes came by as if it were just 5 seconds. you slightly panicked when you saw the train coming into the station. you felt Yoongi’s grip become tighter and you looked up at him. “its time.” he said.

he let go of your hand and all you wanted in that moment was for him to grab your hand again and pull you into his arms and tell you not to go. you swore you would’ve done it if he asked you to. as people began to board on you say in a shaky voice, “yoongi, there something i need to tell you.” he looked you straight in the eyes and damn, the last bit of confidence you had left through the backdoor

“train to Seoul will leave in 1 minute” you heard the intercom say and your heart started beating as if you were running a marathon.

you gulped and opened your mouth to speak but nothing came out.

“y/n come on, you have to board soon. what is it that you have to tell me??”

you cleared your throat and said “i left you a gift. i left it with your mom. it was supposed to be a surprise when you got back but i got too excited” you laughed nervously. he just chuckled and closed his eyes. “you’re a dork. i’m going to miss you, sweetheart”

“i’m going to miss you too yoongs.”

with one last quick tight hug, you made your way into the train. you sat near a window to get one last look at yoongi. as the train was leaving the station, you saw him with a frown and tears in his eyes. he wiped them off and waved a goodbye.

thats when you realized, you made a big mistake that was going to eat you alive.

**********

you were sitting at a table that was far from any other tables. there on the table was the old regulars. iced americano and hot chocolate w extra whipped cream and extra marshmallows. your knee was bouncing up and down as you waited anxiously for him. you knew e wasn’t going to text you when he was there so you were left playing the waiting game. your hands unconsciously travelled up to the necklace Yoongi gave you before you left Daegu. you also never took it off. it was a part of you and you felt bare not having it around your neck.

you decided to calm your nerves by looking around the cafe. you used to come to this one often but eventually stopped because it just didn’t feel right to come here without your ‘regular’.

it was remodeled since you last went. it was cute. it felt a lot more cozy and welcoming. you looked around at the people. there was a couple having their drinks and sharing what seemed to be like a cheesecake. you smiled softly at the sweet moment. you saw a woman, in office attire, reading a book and drinking her hot coffee. she’d stop once and a while to write some stuff down and what you believed was her work notebook. in another table you saw a group of three guys. close friends you thought. it was nice to see that they weren’t on their phones and just enjoying each others company.

as you were about to look at another table, you saw him.

Min Yoongi.

you immediately stood up but froze. your legs couldn’t move and you looked like and idiot.

he was ethereal. his fair skin, delicate pink pouty lips, his black hair fell perfectly in place, his cute button nose. his hooded eyes are still as hypnotizing as always. he made his way over to you with a huge gummy smile on his face.

you suddenly snapped out of your daze and met him halfway. you practically threw yourself a him. he luckily caught you and gave you the tightest hug. you swore you felt like you were in absolute bliss being in his arms once again.

“i missed you so so much sweetheart” he mumbled into the crook of your neck. you held onto him tighter and said “you have no idea how much i missed you Yoongi”

he pulled away and cupped your face and had his gummy smile on his face. you melted at the sight and swatted his hands away “enough. i don’t want to cry”

you two laughed and made your way to the table you were sitting at.

“you still remember the regulars?” he chuckled and sat in front of where you placed the iced americano for him “you think i’d forget important information?” you said and took a sip from your hot chocolate.

for the rest of the day, you guys talked and talked and talked for hours on end. you talked about his musical career and how well its taken off. you talked about your classes and how you would have your debut soon. you talked about old memories you guys had, new ones you’ve both have made…

“i can’t believe you still have that bracelet i gave you for your birthday yoongs.” you say grabbing his wrist. “what you really think i’d get rid of it so easily?? it’s my good luck charm. i always wear it whenever i go to a gig. it holds a special place in my heart.” you blushed at his sweet words and let go of his wrist. “i can’t believe you still have that necklace i gave you” you laughed almost ironically “are you kidding me?! you really think i’d just never wear it or something?? its the closest thing i have to you, to home” his face soften and you could tell that warmed his heart.

it was starting to get late and you knew you had to tell yoongi before he left to the hotel.

“hey yoongs, theres something i have to tell you. its really important and serious.”

“oh lord, please don’t tell me that Taehyung kid got you pregnant or something”

you scoffed “what!? no!! eww gross!!”

he laughed “okay okay, sorry anyways, whats up? is everything okay??”

you took a deep breath and reminded yourself that you’ve been in this situation before and this time you HAD to tell him

“Yoongi, i know you’re in a current relationship and it is kinda messed up to tell you this now,” you took another deep breath “but i have been in love with you, for years Yoongi. years. it has literally killed me every single day that i didn’t tell you before i left Daegu. everything i do, say, or see reminds me of you. i just, i know i shouldn’t have fallen this hard for you Yoongi, and i would have hoped that with time, i would’ve gotten over you, but i can’t. i can’t get over how you make my heart race, how you make me laugh, how you make me smile when i have bad days. i love how passionate you are about the things you love and care. i guess what i’m trying to practically say is that i love absolutely everything about you. but i obviously understand that you don’t feel the same way and i just hope this doesn’t stop us from being best friends. you mean too much to me to lose you over my stupid little feelings. i just really needed to tell you…”

thats when you realized, you finally overcame your fears and you were ready to take whatever Yoongi was going to hit you with.

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seojvns · 5 years

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everything you didn’t care to know about seojun yoon.

basic statistics.

full name: seojun yoon.

nickname: jun, junnie, seo.

how'd they get it?: they’re just... variations of his name...

age: twenty one.

date of birth: april 27th.

zodiac: taurus.

gender: male.

sexual orientation: pansexual.

when did they realize this?: around the age he started being interested in people. it’s never been something he’s struggled with, it’s jus how things were/are.

nationality: american.

hometown: daejeon, south korea.

current residence: cortland, wisconsin.

occupation: freelance photographer.

for how long?: umm, probably since high school?? he started out doing it for free, to build his resume, and over time he began building it into something he could actually make money from. not much, but !! getting paid for doing something he loves?? really couldn’t ask for more than that.

do they like his/her job?: obvs!!! does he wish he could have a lot more clients?? ya, but he’s patient and he’s got the time.

salary: mm, depends on the job but probably anywhere from $150-250/job.

family.

any significant ancestors?: ummmm, no.

grandparents (describe relationship): he was really close to his grandmother, on his mom’s side, who passed away a few years ago. he’s close to his grandfather from that side too, but he’s a bit old fashioned in his views and sometimes conversations are... not really something he can take much from. but he likes his company, and overall they have a good relationship. his grandparents on his father’s side both died before he really got a chance to even know them.

aunts/uncles (describe relationship): there’s definitely a distance. when he was younger, he’d see more of them, and his cousins too, but as he grew up... it became less of a tradition his parents and his aunts/uncles bothered to keep up with. he sees them at family gatherings, usually around holidays, but that’s about it.

parents (describe relationship): there’s a lot of distance between him and his parents. his father’s always been distant, even at a young age he wasn’t very invested in seojun. but he’d buy him things, assuming that was a decent enough way to show his ‘love,’ but it only made seojun resentful of the money he tried to use in an attempt to get out of actually caring or showing interest. his mother, on the other hand, cared. but only when he was young. from the time he was adopted, at age five, until about eleven. after that she became more disinterested in him. she also started nitpicking him a lot?? like no snacks, finding a poem and critiquing it, etc. support wasn’t something he was given, which is why he’s become such a desperate lil people pleaser.

are they still together?: yes, yep.

what is the character's family life like: it was really lonely growing up, cause even if everyone was home they’d all be off doing their own things. usually seojun was in his room writing, or out exploring and taking photos. he probably would’ve found his way to his hobbies regardless, but their neglect definitely encouraged him to explore them in a way he might not have done much sooner.

what does their family love most about them?: hmm, probably his manners. he’s a good boy and he’d never embarrass them or anything when they drag him to events or parties, so, yeah!

hate?: they see him as too shy, and lacking of a personality, but really that’s just because they’ve kind of made him feel like he should just keep quiet and do what he’s told :/ and that’s exactly what he does.

does the family have a specific set of values?: his parents are very much the type of people who want everything to look perfect on the outside, and not care much about how they actually are on the inside.

what would their family be described like by another person?: reserved, well put together, successful.

have they ever had any pets?: he did! he had a dog, a samoyed, which he got from his parents for his seventh birthday. his name was ghost,, original, i know!

what happened to them?: he died a few years ago :/ it was a rly rough time for jun, who basically had him throughout his entire childhood.

relationships.

are they a virgin?: umm, nope.

how did they lose it?: i’m embarrassed just thinkin abt it.

have they ever cheated on a partner?: never would he ever!!!

has a partner ever cheated on them?: probably.

how did they react?: better question - did he ever find out? doubtful.

who was their first crush?: hard to say :/ he gets a new crush everyday :/

are they in any kind of romantic relationship?: no!!

how serious/relaxed is it?: hmph.

describe the relationship with their current partner: this is... pointless...

how did they meet?: why ask so many questions based on the POTENTIAL of him bein in a relationship...

who made the first move?: prob not seojun in any situation ... he’s not very bold

how does your character truly feel about their partner?: this.... is so redundant...

when did they realize this?: thank u, next!

who is your characters closest friend?: minnie uwu

how did they meet?: umm they’ve been bffs for as long as seojun can remember okay!!! so how they met is just one of those things he doesn’t... rly remember bc it feels like he’s known her his WHOLE entire life, u know??

why do they get along so well?: because they’re both cute and soft and they just vibe together well ok,, why question these things?? there’s been so many late nights up talking about anything n everything, so many heartbreaks that she’s been there for, so many adventures they’ve had n have yet to have... she’s his other half!!! <333

describe relationship with any other significant friends: adrian’s one of the most important ppl to him ?? like ever?? cause he’s jun’s best friend but also a lot more than that. even though they can’t seem to get things right, he’s always gonna have feels for adrian. kian......... gross where do i even begin!!!! seojun would literally die for kian. he’s more than his roomie ok seojun’s so disgustingly attached that no matter what kian did he’d never leave his side lmao #dedicated. jiwon is who seojun would be if he could choose his life sjfsfks she’s jus so,, uwu perfect n everything he aspires to be. he LUVS her even tho she can lowkey be a lil scary?? not in like a way that he’s legit scared but like... she can be intimidating a lil bit. rt if u agree

favorites.

favorite foods: sushi, korean fried chicken, fries.

least favorite food: black licorice, celery.

favorite colors: pale yellow and light pink.

least favorite color: whatever the fuck u call the color blue that tumblr chose for the new bg color fksdjfs

music: pop, r&b.

literature: mysteries!!

smell: honeysuckles, bonfires, fresh bread.

feeling: affection uwu

season: autumn.

pets: dogs, but... he loves cats too :/

place: hmm, he’s really drawn to the woods?? like when he was younger he’d go into the woods with his camera and a book and just spend all fucking day out there. there’s something really peaceful about it ?? and there’s just so much to experience... the woods jus make him soft, k??

favorite sport(s): huh

possession this character values most: his camera!!!!!!!! his journals filled with poems about everyone he knows.

why is it so important to them?: um, his camera is p obvious?? his poetry filled journals, well, that’s p obvious too. he doesn’t want to forget how he felt in the moments where he was inspired to write whatever he wrote.

physical characteristics.

height: 5′8′‘.

weight: 130 lbs.

body build: slim.

eye color: brown.

glasses or contact lenses?: contact lenses, but sometimes he’ll wear his glasses when he’s feelin’ lazy.

hair color: naturally it’s black, but he prob keeps it either light pink or blond.

scent: tbh idk what to answer for this, describing someone’s natural scent... hard.

voice: he’s got a soft voice :/

mannerisms: says ‘um’ and ‘uh’ too much, whining about nothing, watching anything/everything with subtitles, turns the tab on a soda can sideways.

style: comfy clothing mostly?? like loose fitting tops and form fitting bottoms.

how do they walk?: like a fucking model tbh???

what are their nervous tics: he’s blushing 99% of the time tbh,, nose scrunches, averting his gaze

usual body posture: umm, i’d say he’s got p good posture?? idk,,

preferred clothing.

underwear: boxer briefs babey!

shirts: loose!! t-shirts, flannels, hoodies. anything oversized.

pants: usually black jeans, like, 9 times out of 10.

skirts: nah.

jackets: more oversized shit.

shoes: prob jus black boots?

accessories: earrings, rings, make up. make up isn’t an accessory rly but i dunno where else to put that so yayuh that’s a thing.

formal wear: umm he’s a classic black suit kinda guy, prob w a bowtie, idk.

sleeping wear: t-shirts and boxer briefs,, do ppl ... actually have real pajamas? like in real life?

swimming wear: swim trunks ig?? weird question but ok.

intellectual/mental/personality attributes and attitudes.

did they go to school?: ya, duh.

where?: west bridge!!!

what did they learn?: he’s studying photography :-)

what were their grades like?: uh, they’re alright... could be better... he wants to do better but his focus is usually just... anywhere but where it should be. so he procrastinates, and turns in things late a lot, and still is trying to do better.

native language: korean.

do they know any other languages?: english.

how smart are they?: not... very... both book smart and street smart.

what is their strengths?: creativity, generosity, compassion.

weaknesses?: time management, insecurity, awareness.

character's short-term goals in life: don’t go to jail, pass all classes.

character's long-term goals in life: have a lil photography studio and live happily ever after uwu

how does your character see themselves?: umm, he’s self aware enough to know that he’s kind of sheepish?? he feels like he’s probably awkward in,, so many situations, rip, but he tries his best to not be too weird skfjs

how does your character believe they are perceived by others?: as a soft boy who wants to be everyone’s friend?? hopefully??

how self-confident is your character?: UM LOL NOT AT ALL

what makes their self-confidence waver?: everything,, he just never feels like he’s good enough?? prob because of his mom’s nitpicking, his parents’ lack of interest generally, and the fact that he just has a low self esteem overall.

what would embarrass your character the most?: being put on the spot about anything, having too much attention, falling for someone who doesn’t like him.

how does your character feel about love: he!! loves love!!! he rly thinks that there’s someone out there for everyone... maybe not in a ~soulmates~ sense, but he thinks that companionship is a big part of happiness.

about crime: he doesn’t commit crimes... often... but if he does it’s because he can be talked into almost anything.

people of a different sexuality?: loves everyone, thanks.

different nationality/race?: loves everyone, thanks.

how does your character show affection/love?: listening to them n remembering things they’re told, hand holding, doing literally anything they ask.

how does your character handle grief? not well. especially in the case of manon, which has left him with a terrible sleeping pattern and the heavy feeling of guilt.

what are they like when they cry?: prob like really dramatic,, like cry a lot while curled up in his bed under the covers kinda cry.

what can make them cry?: betrayal, loss, anxiousness, stress.

how does your character handle physical pain?: not well, he probably whines a lot and pouts even more.

emotional pain?: even worse. he’s so forgiving that even if someone hurt him emotionally, he’d forgive them, but he’d probably be lowkey sad (but in a self blame kind of way) about it for awhile.

is your character typically a leader or a follower?: big time follower.

what kind of energy level does your character typically display?: soft, upbeat,

describe their sense of humor: prob either lame or softly sarcastic.

hobbies: takin pics, writing poems, making playlists for people that’ll never hear them, watching shows instead of studying.

talents: ...takin pics, writing poems, making playlists for people that’ll never hear them...

extremely unskilled at: focusing! and sports.

if any, what musical instruments can they play?: piano :-)

emotional characteristics.

how does the character relate to others?: through soft interactions and deep conversations. he’s pretty honest and open, so if someone asks him something, or even just talks to him, chances are he’s being as open with them as he would be with his close friends.

how does the character deal with anger?: not well, but when he’s angry, he’s usually more upset than angry? and he wants to resolve things as quickly as possible, otherwise he’s stressed abt it until it’s fixed.

with sadness?: listens to sad music and cries in the shower. drama queen.

with conflict?: he’s always the first to apologize.

with change?: he’s actually pretty adaptable for the most part?? but if it were like a major change, maybe not as good.

with loss?: ummm, could be better!! probably gets a lil distant when he’s dealing with a loss.

what does your character want out of life?: happiness :/

what would your character like to change in his/her life?: the whole manon thing JFKLSF

what motivates your character?: his future, or at least the ideal future he has in mind for himself.

what frightens your character?: the fact that they could get caught for covering up a murder perhaps??? terrifying.

are they afraid of the dark?: ...yes, but he acts like he isn’t cause he’s embarrassed.

death?: not really?? like he doesn’t WANT to die or anything, but he’s not afraid of death.

what makes your character happy?: listening to good music, giving people things that make him think of them, the photo editing process.

sad?: being alone, the fact that his parents never care to check up on him, films where the main couple doesn’t end up together.

angry?: people being rude to his friends, being lied to, unnecessarily passive aggressive people.

aroused?: neck kisses, being called baby, someone who’s rly direct and just kind of... does what they want skjfsl

annoyed?: people who speak over other people.

guilty?: covering up a potential murder, turning things in late, lying.

is your character judgmental of others?: no. even if he doesn’t agree with their opinions/things they do he still tries to refrain from judgment.

is your character generous or stingy?: generous af.

is your character generally polite or rude?: polite!! angel boy.

optimistic or pessimistic?: optimistic.

introvert or extrovert?: lil bit of both??

daredevil or cautious?: cautious.

logical or emotional?: emotional lmao.

disorderly and messy or methodical and neat?: he thinks he’s methodical and neat but he’s actually disorderly and messy.

would they rather be working or relaxing?: working, even though he thinks he’d rather be chillin he’s kind of terrible at doing nothing.

how do they feel about animals?: um... he loves them?? he’s the kind of person that’d accidentally let a raccoon in his house and let it stay.

what is their best quality?: his sincerity.

what is their biggest flaw?: how trusting he is.

#sjflskf what do i even tag this as #about.#u kno those myspace surveys ppl used to do #like in bulletin boards?#that's kinda what this felt like #v relaxing

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alpha-bnha-boys · 6 years

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OMG I love your blog so much😍!! Do you mind if I request an nsfw X Reader with Mezou Shouji because he is daddy af👌🏻 can it be more omegaverse and super rough? I see him having like really secret dirty kinks like daddy, slight bdsm, spanking, maybe some tentacle shit with his arms ;) thank you so much!!

Sure thing sugar plum! I can never turn down writing about my tall octopus boy! ヽ(o＾▽＾o)ノ He is such a stud, so believe me when I say that I had a really good time writing this (･ω and I hope you have a really good time reading it! Please enjoy my darling Anon, and thank you for waiting patiently for me to complete it! ♡( ◡‿◡ )

~ Sorry if it’s kinda long! ~

NSFW! Alpha Mezou Shouji x (Female)(Omega) S/O! Yay!

* Assuming all characters are 18+ and consenting!

* Contains language and wild animal wild octopus sex!

* Includes the following sexual themes: omegaverse AU, BDSM, spanking, daddy-kink, dom/sub kink, and tentacle arms (minus the actual tentacles... because - ya’ know, they’re arms).

Enjoy below the cut, sinners!

First of all, what a hunk a’ man.

6’1, built like a greek god, and wielding 3 sets of broad-shouldered, muscular arms.

I mean, holy SHIT.

If Shouji is with you, you never have to worry about other alpha’s bothering you.

EVER.

One look at the tall, multi-armed alpha, and people are turning on their heels to clear a path.

He is the king of threatening-looking, and the mask is like the icing on the cake.

One can only wonder what kind of menacing scowls are hidden under it.

Sometimes he will come up behind you and rest his chin atop your head, shrouding your shoulders in his arms.

He particularly enjoys doing it in the winter months, taking pride in the fact that his quirk allows him to keep his darling omega warm, and protected from the elements.

While he is a rather levelheaded kind of guy, he does have a tendency to get jealous.

Normally, people know not to get too close to you in fear of invading on Shouji’s territory, but the occasional new kid will ignorantly try to start up a conversation with you.

The moment this poor boy begins to speak to you, Shouji is already on the way to intervene.

Your eyes are looking at this boy, practically screaming

“NO - PLEASE NO, DON’T DO THIS. HE’S GONNA COME OVER HERE.”

He’ll step in front of you, standing up to his full height as he looks down his nose at his victim.

A mouth will appear from one of his hands as his glare becomes sharper than razors.

“Can I HELP YOU with something?”

I mean for fuck’s sake.

He doesn’t even have to say anything all that intimidating.

His features accompanied by the clear tint of agitation in his voice are enough.

While he can get very possessive over you, he rarely acts physically on those feelings.

He prefers not to start fights, but has absolutely no problem finishing them.

However, whichever alpha just so happens cowering before him doesn’t know that, so they tend to scamper off.

You know, just in case he KILLS THEM.

Shouji is a hard book to read, even to his closest friends.

So when you agreed to be his omega, you were thrilled to see a side of him that no one else saw.

AND BOY OH BOY DID YOU SEE IT.

His easy-going demeanor falls away when he has you to himself.

Granted, he is still pretty down to earth, but GOD ALMIGHTY, he can be a freak in the bed.

Your first time together he was very gentle, and he did everything in his power to keep his body from acting on its own.

His instincts wanted to fuck you senseless, but he, Shouji, wanted to make love to his omega.

To summarize, it was a very sentimental and romantic moment, and you both had a wonderful time.

However, not long after that, he opened himself up to you.

He revealed his kinks to you.

And while you were a little surprised that such naughty thoughts came from such a gentle soul, you were also 100% on board.

The both of you would come home from school and the fun would begin.

One day you he had seen you talking to a new boy in your class, and you knew you were in trouble before you the two of you had even gotten home.

You entered the small, cozy home you both shared, and like clockwork - Shouji pounced on you.

“Baby girl, who was that boy I saw you talking to in the hallway?” He asked in a low voice, pressing you against the wall as he pushed a knee up against your clothed sex, lifting you up and causing you to whimper from the sudden contact.

“Oh, Daddy, he was just a new student in m-my class, I was showing him w-where the teacher’s lounge was.”

“Oh, is that so?” A pair of arms reached up to his mask, pulling the cloth down and away from his face, revealing his handsome jawline, the breathtaking face he hid from everyone else.

He only hid it because of a large white scar that ran across his mouth, from the side of his nose down past his bottom lip.

He had always felt guilty about how fearsome he looked, so he had decided to hide the scar from a young age, and it had ended up becoming a signature look for him.

He may have been self conscious about it, but you thought it was ruggedly attractive.

“Because you sure were smiling at him a lot... twirling your hair, laughing with him…”

“Daddy, don’t be silly, you know I only belong to you, Daddy!”

He eased his face right up against yours, his lips right next to your ear. His voice deep and sultry.

“Prove it.”

You stood on tip toes to get up to his face, kissing him, planting your lips on the usually hidden flesh.

You grabbed the fabric of his shirt, pulling him down and closer to you.

Unable to resist your honey-sweet lips, his tongue plunged into your mouth, causing you to moan.

The tension in between your thighs caused you to inadvertently press them together.

It wasn’t long before you felt the smirk on his lips.

He could smell you.

And your smell was very convincing.

Your arms reached out and clasped onto the closest set of biceps, the thick, hard muscles unwavering beneath your grasp.

Your breathing had become heavy, your womb longing for his seed.

You could smell him too.

His alpha scent soaking into every pore of your body, eroding any restraint you might have had.

He chuckled at your demure form, unraveling before him.

“Alright, I believe you kitten… but you’re still going to have to make it up to me, for making me worry like that. You really do have to be more careful,”

At this point, his eyes were deadly.

“Or someone could get hurt.”

Every fiber of your being wanted to make it up to him. Deeply and desperately. His dominating presence making your entire body quiver with need.

“I-I’m so sorry for being bad, I’ll m-make it up to you Daddy.” You panted, your glassy eyes gazing up into his.

“That’s a good girl.”

Before you knew it you were tied up in crimson red rope. It’s chords wrapped around your arms, restraining them behind your back, and binding your feet together.

You were at his complete and utter mercy.

And you loved it.

He smiled mischievously, grabbing you up as if you were weightless and pulling you close to him.

He captured your mouth with his, biting your bottom lip and tugging, feeding off your needy moans.

Two of his six arms held his body above your own.

He stuck the fingers from another arm inside your dripping sex, feeling his member stiffen from the slick of your arousal.

He drew in the adjacent arm on that side, and allowed it’s hand to manifest itself into a mouth.

It moved up to the top of your womanhood and began sucking gently on your clit.

You writhed and winced in pleasure beneath him, unable to keep your body from pulling against your restraints.

His remaining two hands massaged your breasts, rolling the fleshy orbs around in his hands.

He growled hungrily into your mouth as you fell apart beneath him, and he pulled away from your bruised lips.

He couldn’t wait any longer.

He turned you over on your stomach, allowing your soft, supple backside to stick up before him.

He leaned over you, his pulsating cock pressed up against you as he whispered in your ear.

“I’ve done my time being a gentlemen for you baby girl. But it’s Daddy’s turn now, so be a good girl and take every inch of your alpha.”

A hand made contact with your ass, smacking it hard.

You moaned out in anticipation as he brought his member up against your womanhood, his groans of longing for you causing you to squirm more.

His inner alpha had been unleashed, and he was more than happy to let it run free.

He slammed himself into you, feeding off your libidinous screams.

“Oh! Daddy!”

“Oh yeah, that’s right, take Daddy’s cock. That’s a good girl.”

He pounded into you again, harder this time.

You felt a hand come up to your mouth, and immediately began to suck on the fingers before you.

They were so much bigger than yours, reminding you of that you were being fucked by a very large and dominant alpha.

After you had lubricated his digits, he moved his hand down underneath you, massaging your clit as he continued to plow into you.

He used another two hands to grab onto your hips, slamming you against him with all his might.

You could feel his thick length ramming against the end of you, sending you into a state of submissive euphoria.

The stinging bliss of your approaching orgasm causing you to pant wildly.

“I’m - I’m - I’m coming Daddy!”

“Good girl, come for Daddy.” He breathed, smacking your ass, feeling his feverish lust circulate wildly through his veins.

You came in a wave of delight, the muscles in your legs twitching from pleasure.

Shouji smirked at your blissful moans, and continued rubbing your electrified clit beneath his fingers.

In less than a minute you had come again, yelping out in pleasure, tears welling up from the stimulation.

“Are you ready for Daddy to come?”

“Yes Daddy! Please fill me with your alpha seed! Please Daddy!”

And with a few more thrusts he had unloaded himself inside of you, groaning at the sweet release of his seed into your womb.

You both stayed that way for a moment, catching your breath and moaning as you rode off the pleasure of your high.

The after care has been and always will be wonderful.

Shouji wouldn’t have it any other way.

He quickly unties you, gathering you up in his arms as he carries you to the bathroom so he can clean you up.

After you’re fresh, clean, and in a fresh pair of comfy clothes, he brings you back to the bed, and holds your body close against his chest.

After sex, the Daddy/Baby-girl act is dropped.

While it is fun and exciting, you are the love of his life and his omega above all else.

“Y/N, you were amazing. Thank you...”

You giggled, nuzzling yourself deeper into his chest.

“I should be thanking you, that was wonderful.”

Shouji smiled, stroking your hair with a free hand.

“I love you sweetheart.” You muttered, your words slurring in your drowsiness.

“I love you more.” He whispered, kissing your forehead, but you were already asleep.

Moments later, you had both passed out from your exhaustion, still holding each other close.

~ END ~

I hope you enjoyed Anon! Thank you again for waiting for me to finish this! I hope it was everything you wanted it to be! (´｡• ω •｡`) ♡

xoxo,

Smutsy (≧◡≦) ♡

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systemmalfucktion · 7 years

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oc asks stuff i stole and didnt proof read

1. What’s their full name? Why was that chosen? Does it mean anything?

ollie petrov, i chose the name ollie bc i liked it and pretrov is just one of the most common surnames in russia. the meaning isn’t important to his character at all

2. Do they have any titles? How did they get them?

nah

3. Did they have a good childhood? What are fond memories they have of it? What’s a bad memory?

he had a decent childhood and grew up in a high income family but suffered the Neglect from daddy. his fondest memories are w childhood friends, bad memory would be Neglect from daddy and mommy and living in fear

4. What is their relationship with their parents? What’s a good and bad memory with them? Did they know both parents?

he loved his mama lots until she walked out on him, he didn’t understand why and he resented her A Lot, when he came to understand why she did it he thought she was a coward and resented her A Lot More. he never forgives her for it over the course of the entire story

he cared for his dad maybe when he was younger but after his mom left he was basically sent off elsewhere. he made no efforts to talk to his dad over the phone or ask for visits bc he was completely content with not seeing him. after a bit he literally just hates his dad bc of Plot Related Issues, when they have their own fucked up version of Dad to Son talk later he word vomits every thing he hates about him and the dads like “ya i figured this would happen the moment u came outta mamas pussy. dammit”

5. Do they have any siblings? What’s their names? What is their relationship with them? Has their relationship changed since they were kids to adults?

no sibs

6. What were they like at school? Did they enjoy it? Did they finish? What level of higher education did they reach? What subjects did they enjoy? Which did they hate?

he was really good in school and used it as an outlet to pour all his attention into bc he liked the satisfaction it gave him when he got good grades, he planned on going to college until Plot Related Issues derailed his life. he liked the English Language and didn’t care for like science n shit

7. Did they have lots of friends as a child? Did they keep any of their childhood friends into adulthood?

when he was growing up he was just a friendly nice only kid so he liked to treat friends like his family so he was well liked, when he moved away he lost all contact with anyone there. friends he makes in russia when he first moves there are mostly also left behind, hes Big on leaving places thats 4 sure

8. Did they have pets as a child? Do they have pets as an adult? Do they like animals?

no pets as a child, he likes animals and is a cat person but didnt see a reason to get a pet

9. Do animals like them? Do they get on well with animals?

animals are probably chill with him, i imagine any instance with animals is probably just a chill one

10. Do they like children? Do children like them? Do they have or want any children? What would they be like as a parent? Or as a godparent/babysitter/ect?

same w animals, hes just chill. kids probably would like him bc hes relaxed and not strict. he likes the idea of being traditional and starting a family but he truly doesn't see it happening for him given Plot

11. Do they have any special diet requirements? Are they a vegetarian? Vegan? Have any allergies?

nope he eats whats put in front of him almost always

12. What is their favourite food?

probs like a soup or something warm and filling

13. What is their least favourite food?

Get Those Damn Avocados Away

14. Do they have any specific memories of food/a restaurant/meal?

when he went out to restaurants with his ma and pops as a child, or when way later his roommate Matt cooks for him when he was goin thru sum shit

15. Are they good at cooking? Do they enjoy it? What do others think of their cooking?

he doesnt cook anything complicated at all, when shopping for himself its a lot of instant food bc hes cheap and doesnt care to put a lot of effort into his food. others either dont care or thinks its unhealthy

16. Do they collect anything? What do they do with it? Where do they keep it?

ive thought of this a lot and its mostly momentos, not that it matters bc every item he gets from someone is eventually left behind when he leaves russia as Symbolism. the collection serves almost no purpose bc of how often he Jumps Ship when it comes to relationships w other human beings but thats kinda the point

17. Do they like to take photos? What do they like to take photos of? Selfies? What do they do with their photos?

hes fine with pictures like selfies w ppl or scenery until hes in america, where he is convinced any pictures he takes or pictures hes in will end up being the reason hes found out. but in russia he liked taking silly pictures of just stuff around him. its like on instagram u dont know what someone looks like until u looked at what they were tagged in kinda, crappy over filtered pics of stuff around him like trees or windows. 1 of those instagrams....

18. What’s their favourite genre of: books, music, tv shows, films, video games and anything else

he likes those shitty kind of john green novel types with the manic pixie dream with the wallflower type, indie music, documentaries or crime related, video games that are story driven rather than multiplayer. just ur average Introverted Bro

19. What’s their least favourite genres?

sci fi or anything BORING like that

20. Do they like musicals? Music in general? What do they do when they’re favourite song comes?

doesnt care for musicals but likes music, he gets really focused when his favorite song comes on bc he wants to appreciate it if its on and hes not focused on it he will play it over again to Appreciate it.

21. Do they have a temper? Are they patient? What are they like when they do lose their temper?

he has a temper but hides it well but if u manage to get him to actually lose him temper he will glare at u until its his turn to speak and argue u 1 response before he Fucks Right Off meaning if it doesnt end right there Boy’s Got A Grudge. it doesnt happen often bc hes not huge on confrontation, the reason why goes from social anxiety when he was 14 to PSTD when he was 16

22. What are their favourite insults to use? What do they insult people for? Or do they prefer to bitch behind someone’s back?

i dont know about favorite insults but he manages to stay polite in the face of people, and bitches about them to sergei when he can

23. Do they have a good memory? Short term or long term? Are they good with names? Or faces?

good memory and with faces for sure

24. What is their sleeping pattern like? Do they snore? What do they like to sleep on? A soft or hard mattress?

he doesnt stay up very late all that often until he has a reason to (heists n whatnot) he sleeps on an old mattress twin sized, p soft

25. What do they find funny? Do they have a good sense of humour? Are they funny themselves?

hed probably have normie humor b4 he met the shitpost that is (i had 2 rename her bc i forgot her fuckin russian name kms but this is a name on doulingo a lot so i wont forget hopefully) vera, her humor is like my mains shitposts so hed find that stuff funny after a bit. he doesnt make many jokes

26. How do they act when they’re happy? Do they sing? Dance? Hum? Or do they hide their emotions?

hes good at hiding emotions but when hes happy abt something (thankful for ex) he’ll make it known to them, good times w friends he’ll basically mirror what they’re doing, happy when he’s by himself would be a jittery smiling Fool

27. What makes them sad? Do they cry regularly? Do they cry openly or hide it? What are they like they are sad?

lots make him sad, his daddy issues, roommate issues, mental health n shit. he cries a few times and tries to be secretive about it, over time he’s not that ashamed to cry in front of sergei given that he’s seen him cry a couple times. when he’s sad he’s even more quiet and sulky. if u made him sad and said u were sorry he’d say he accepted the apology but like the mood wouldn’t lighten up at all.

28. What is their biggest fear? What in general scares them? How do they act when they’re scared?

1. big fear is probably getting hurt/attacked and being helpless (after the Great Stab), after that era he’s basically all up in self defense knowledge to prevent that turn out again. he’s scared of the ppl he deals to and eventually is scared of anyone he doesnt know well (in america, thats everyone outside of matty, joe, and austin) bc of the threat of getting caught by work peers who are looking 4 him.

29. What do they do when they find out someone else’s fear? Do they tease them? Or get very over protective?

if he were to find out someones fear he wouldnt put it against them, if a situation came out where he could protect them from it he would try to do so casually. Nice Guy

30. Do they exercise? Regularly? Or only when forced? What do they act like pre-work out and post-work out?

he doesn’t exercise but if there were a case of him doing so pre would be a motivated Bro ready to get pumped and post would be tired dead man

31. Do they drink? What are they like drunk? What are they like hungover? How do they act when other people are drunk or hungover? Kind or teasing?

he drank a bit in russia, hes the Underage Ollie. Underage Ollie is really clingy to sergei, the only guy he knows in the group of Bros around him, he tries to have a good time and laugh w everyone. hungover he’s sick and pitiful, boo hoo woe is me i feel like shit kinda way. when ollies around drunk sergei imagine this season of morty dealing with rick, like fed the fuck up but caring uknow?

Not Underage Ollie is a lil more fun, he went 2 sum clubs w austin only a few times ;) ;), hungover he was a less whiny version of Underage Ollie. he’s less caring when others are drunk around him bc its austin and austin drinks irresponsibly and is also is ex so SHRUG

32. What do they dress like? What sorta shops do they buy clothes from? Do they wear the fashion that they like? What do they wear to sleep? Do they wear makeup? What’s their hair like?

he dresses comfort over fashion and owns like 3 shirts basically. clothes shopping is not really a priority for him at all, but he does appreciate some aesthetics just not on himself. he sleeps in his panties (undies) with a shirt, doesnt wear makeup. his hair is a mousy brown i guess? its not tamed at all hes got that anime boy protag gohan/luffy/ash hair

33. What underwear do they wear? Boxers or briefs? Lacey? Comfy granny panties?

boxer briefs

34. What is their body type? How tall are they? Do they like their body?

hes a slight young twink man, and in his youth hes like 5′5 and it caps at like 5′10 maybe when he’s an adult. he’s ok w his body but everyones got insecurities

35. What’s their guilty pleasure? What is their totally unguilty pleasure?

guilty pleasure are the john green type shitty novels and the ungulity pleasure is idk! slime vids or something

36. What are they good at? What hobbies do they like? Can they sing?

he’s good at writing i guess (4 school, in english n russian), he likes 2 read, and he can sing but its like generic male voice singing. its just ok

37. Do they like to read? Are they a fast or slow reader? Do they like poetry? Fictional or non fiction?

he likes 2 read and he’s fast i guess, n like i said the genre he likes is that shitty poetic adorkable fictional stuff

38. What do they admire in others? What talents do they wish they had?

he likes when ppl are assertive, not really when assertive @ him, but when they can be assertive in general. he would love to be able to hold any power in any conversation he’s in between ages 0-18

39. Do they like letters? Or prefer emails/messaging?

emails and messages

40. Do they like energy drinks? Coffee? Sugary food? Or can they naturally stay awake and alert?

he can stay awake without any energy boosters for a while

41. What’s their sexuality? What do they find attractive? Physically and mentally? What do they like/need in a relationship?

he’s gay, he likes Boys. he likes nice friendly boys who basically carry out social interactions and are good at not letting things get awkward (this goes for austin and matt and even vera). he needs a lot of space, like an unhealthy amount of space, Like Mayhaps There’s Something Wrong amount of space.

42. What are their goals? What would they sacrifice anything for? What is their secret ambition?

goals: get outta the bis!

sacrifice: friend’s safety/livelihood!

secret ambition/guilty subconscious: get in bis and succeed 2 make papa proud! its a job handed to him that makes BANK and is basically a fallback if his goal doesnt work except he wont admit it to himself

43. Are they religious? What do they think of religion? What do they think of religious people? What do they think of non religious people?

no religion basically, he would probably not be an asshole about it but be kinda an asshole abt religion in private

44. What is their favourite season? Type of weather? Are they good in the cold or the heat? What weather do they complain in the most?

he loves the winter bc he likes being bundled up, overcast sky, he’s good in the cold and he complains abt wet weather (rain and snow)

45. How do other people see them? Is it similar to how they see themselves?

like he’s a troubled navie kid, and he’ll come around when it comes time for him to work. ollie doesnt know about the work he has to do when he’s older for a while, all he knows is that everyone is Preparing him for something. he knows he’s troubled but he doesnt think of himself as stubborn like other ppl do.

46. Do they make a good first impression? Does their first impression reflect them accurately? How do they introduce themselves?

no, most of the time he’s kinda awkward. it reflects him p good :(. he basically just goes “hey im ollie” and depending on who it is he’ll explain what he’s doing like “i have your coke” or “im austins friend. thanks for taking me in”

47. How do they act in a formal occasion? What do they think of black tie wear? Do they enjoy fancy parties and love to chit chat or loathe the whole event?

he’ll act mannerly and polite like he usually does, he likes getting dressed up fancy and being in a fancy space. not one for chit chat but he’s not Hating it

48. Do they enjoy any parties? If so what kind? Do they organise the party or just turn up? How do they act? What if they didn’t want to go but were dragged along by a friend?

he doesnt care for parties i guess, he turns up at them to supply the good stuff and he tries to act like it’s a job, except usually the person he deals with is like ??? y so serious bitch? he’s dragged along by sergei p often, he doesnt complain in front of others but throws fits with him before or after

49. What is their most valued object? Are they sentimental? Is there something they have to take everywhere with them?

Daddys Jacket. its just a winter coat that he wears a lot

50. If they could only take one bag of stuff somewhere with them: what would they pack? What do they consider their essentials?

accurate to what happsn in canon. his clothes, phone, chargers, wallet, and i think that would be it. hes pretty minimalist and doesnt want to be held down by stuff cus when he went to america he did so Swiftly.

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8/23/17

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I have not been proud of they way I have been acting lately. I have gone back to many of my bad habits and I am tremendously disappointed in myself. This has caused for my anxiety and tears, fears and sadness to come back. I am my own worst enemy and my happiness and miserliness lies in my own hands. I have learned over the past few months that I can make myself completely, blissfully and tremendously happy or I can make myself be very depressed and miserable. No one else is the cause for my happiness and unhappiness but me.

I have made myself so unhappy the past few weeks. I am so disappointed in myself for my bad actions and for slipping back into my bad habits of lying and deceiving. I was happier and more at peace when I wasn’t committing these acts.

I have caused so much harm to this poor guy and I don’t want to do that any longer. I want to ask for his forgiveness and then never repeat these mistakes or hurt/harm him again. I have no excuse for my actions and it scares me how evil I can be at times. It really does

But I have also seen that I can come past these habits and overcome them and leave them in the past. I just need to be strong, more in my faith, wiser and I can do this. I just need to be on top of my prayers, stay away from sins, keep my heart close to allah swt. thats all i need to do and i wont slip back onto the wrong path again.

I have just disappointed myself but I know I can bounce back from this and become a better person. With the help of Allah I can do anything and I know if I ask for sincere forgiveness and change then he will forgive him. I just hope i can let go of these habits once and for all. I woke up today with the words “ i hate myself” and i did this because im about to be 25, i have no job and I’m not married. I feel behind in life but I don’t want to hate myself. I want to be patient and find myself back to being happy and proud of myself. I hope that every time I want to sin and go back to my old habits I remember how unhappy and sad I was when i did it and I hope I am able to let this guy go once and for all.

“With his infinite power anything could be done. ask allah for his pardon”

Ya Allah pardon me, forgive me. I have wronged myself in so many ways. please forgive me of these sins and bring me back to you. give me strength through the pain, temptations and anxiety. I ask you to give me peace, heal my soul from the sins and wrongdoing I have done and purify me from the inside and out.

Oh allah give me the strength and motivation to get good grades, study for my tests, get into graduate school, get a sub teaching job and give me peace give me strength and help me reach my fitness goals. keep me happy and keep me motivated.

Practical Islam: How to Repent Properly

Say, “O my servants who have transgressed against themselves (by sinning), do not despair of the mercy of Allah. Indeed, Allah forgives all sins, Indeed it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful.”

Surah 39, Ayah 53

1. “I’m bad, I cant ever worry about sin anymore, ive done too wrong” Allah says dont lose hope in the love, mercy and care of allah. he never wants to punish us. why would he want to? Allah will forgive all sins

2. I will wipe your slate so clean nothing will be left. he is the only one who will forgive everything. he is ready for you to start new.

3. he says im ready to forgive you, but you have to come back to me, turn your hearts to me. submit yourself, obey. before punishment comes to you forgive to allah swt.

4. angel of death will take your soul.

5. Allah said he will forgive anything. he can wipe your slate clean.

6. “I rependted, i’m okay, let me move on.” no you should always worry about your sins until you are in jannah. Do as much good as you can to out do the bad you did.

7. We are human, we make mistakes, we falter, turn back to allah though. he wil forgive you but dont plan to comitt the sin again.

8. 1. admit your sin. 2. regret your sin. 3 forgiveness. 4. promise not to do it again.

Amy Young: You’re Not a Terrible Bad Bad Person

1. I have learned over time, countless years of trial and error that I feel better and life feels better when I give myself the benefit of the doubt. I feel so good inside

2. ex. I am frustrated by someone elses behavior, you’re best friend told you she would call you but she didn’t make the plan for friday. then you find out she made plans w someone else. in that moment maybe jealously, rejection, hurt feelings. then you can give her the benefit of the doubt. she didnt mean to screw me over maybe she just forgot.

3. You are never intentionally trying to hurt yourself and cause harm to your self. even when you royally screw up. would you purposely hurt yourself? cause yourself more pain? No not intentionally. even people who make destructive decisions are not trying to ef up their lives. were lost, confused, struggling scared and thats okay.

4. example, its night time, i lay at bed and waste hours when I know I have to be up early. so they next day when im tired I have two options. 1. be pissed at myself. or 2. give myself benefit of the doubt, i wanted to relax and unwind in bed.

5. take it easy, be gentle go easy on yourself. when you can do that, it takes so much of the pain away that doesn’t need to be there. don’t judge yourself, condemn yourself. be gentle and kind to yourself.

6. You know you try very hard to better yourself. you made a mistake its okay. do yourself a favor and make this a practice. im doing the best I can. I will try harder next time.

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