A thing about schizospec people is disorganized thoughts and speech. For example I can’t normally think straight, it’s hard to describe but it’s like my mind is underwater and you know you can’t see straight underwater and everything is blurred? My mind gets like that. My speech dosent coordinate with what I’m thinking either and I stutter, my words get mixed together, sentences only get partially said, it’s a mess. Now I’m not saying that every schizospec persons thinking and speech are like that because each one of us have a different experience. It’s hard for us so please be patient when we get like this. It is frustrating and we are trying our best.
Everybody loves schizos until they deem our realities as weird and uncomfprtable to talk about. They dont want to be 'enabling' us but theres nothing to enable because this is real. Do you think i enable ypur ridiculous beliefs in a god by celebrating christmas with you ? No because you think god is normal. My shit is real too. Dont be a dick and believe me.
I’m curious, do any other schizospecs know how to drive? I imagine driving would be difficult for people with hallucinations or psychosis. I’ve been driving since before I was diagnosed and nothing has really changed, but it took me awhile to return to driving after my first psychotic episode.
Is it just me or when you get sick Hallucinations and Auditory Hallucinations just get worse? Because for me the more drained and tired I am, the worse my schizophrenia gets. I also get a lot of brain fog that makes me dissociate much more frequently. I hate being sick.
this video is currently the best thing i have to explain how schizophrenia feels to me. i have a handful of different types of episodes, but like, my current schizophrenic relapse, and the most frequent type of episode i experience in day to day life feels exactly like this video. i know it’s just made to be stupid, surreal, funny video, but i cannot stress just how important this video is to me because i finally have something i can resonate with and point to and go “this. this is how i feel right now.”
Derealization is freaky because ur like in a irl video game and the sky looks fake and the grass looks fake, yknow? Like how it feels is hard to describe but you’re out of your body and the world looks like a dream but it’s actually happening and that can be kinda :/
I wanted to make something that shows how I feel when I’m experiencing delusions. The darkness represents the empty vessel I become, and the splashes of color are the random, unexplainable false beliefs that take root within that emptiness.