#same with meltdown lol

[autism-swagger]

@el-fandom-birb @krikeymate ask and ye shall receive

Itty bitties

#Tara is standing on their tiptoes btw #got halfway through this and realized I was drawing them so young I didn't even need to draw any scars #(​unlike my other young Sam n Tara drawing which has Tara's forehead scar) #and damn near started weeping #also keen eyed observers may note that the hairtie I gave Sam is the exact same color as the one I always draw Tara with #(I'm trying to say that after Sam left Tara started using her hairtie) #(it breaks a couple months after the events of 6) #(and even though Sam is back in his life again Tara has a complete meltdown over it) #(because 13 year old Tara's though process was 'Sam will come back if her favorite hairtie is still here') #(13 year old Tara made the connection that hairtie=Sam and 20 year old Tara still kind of subconsciously believes it) #(so. meltdown.) #idk it's a small detail with lots of thought behind it so I figured I'd point it out #my art #Tara tag #horror tag #hc tag #because of the tags lol

[ihatebnha]

https://mobile.twitter.com/lebassett/status/1558883480100036609

Katsuki.

(link!)

You’re right!!! And funny because it probably IS an overreaction, given that Dadsuki probably knows when his baby is actually upset vs. when they’re just trying to tell him something.

Plus, your kid has probably learned that fussiness does get them somewhere… so there they are, with their two words + tears and all, trying to have a conversation that just isn’t gonna happen.

“This feels like an overreaction, kiddo🤥”

“😭😭😖😩😩😩🥲🥲😭😭🤯” + kicking feet + pulling on the stroller straps

“I’m still not gonna let you out of the stroller.”

“PAPAAAAdhdhfmfjjf… mama….. jerbjdhvifjdk😮‍💨😮‍💨🤕🤕😓😓”

“Yeah. It is too hot today.”

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#bakugo #kids tw #he has whole conversations with them and u wonder if that’s really what they want #it’s probably is tho knowing him #your kid… ur daughter especially just fusses bc she wants to talk but can’t yet #and he knows that #so he talks back #vs her having a real meltdown which he recognizes over just #‘these circumstances suck’ #because he usually feels the same LOL #caitie things #ask #anon

[lesbianlenas]

got a haircut today and not only did the hairdresser ask me if i had a boyfriend (🤮) she started curling my hair for no reason and like 😭 i felt the shame of being feminized after ngl…..like i know curling your hair isn’t that feminine of an act but like…….i felt the exact same as i did when i was 6 after going to a makeup bday party and walking up to my family after & i felt so uncomfortable being feminized……..do i look cute yes but god at what cost……….

#michelle speaks #my hair looks just like enid’s except not the same color obvs lol 😩 #it’s not abt the hair being curly it’s abt the having smth cosmetic related done to me #i felt so embarassed when i was 6 it was literally like flashbackinv to walking into my house after that party 😭 #when i walked up to my family after getting my hair cut lmfao #if curling my hair made me feel embarassed for being feminized if someone tried to put makeup on me i’d probably kms #anyway i’m having a depressive meltdown rn unrelated to the curled hair just in general so g2g self isolate 🤩

[sophism]

I have always been extra-invested in the madeleine McCann story bc the night it broke I was up sick and it was my dad’s turn to sit with me all night and that meant that instead of watching Disney shows I had to watch sky news (before it became what it is now lol) to bore me to sleep but that was literally the only story running all night and I was too scared to fall asleep so I was like 7 years old sitting there like ✍️taking notes and getting all the info in case they needed me to solve it for them

#and she wonders why she got into law #also I feel we have not discussed this yet. the man who is like largely responsible for turning sky news aus into a ring wing propaganda out #went to uni with my dad and they were forced to be friends bc they were the two ethnics with the same name lols. #they used to keep in touch when I was a child but he (obviously) went REAL weird and dad hasn’t spoken to him in like a decade lol #he came to my house once. and then he nearly killed Australian democracy #I think he may have slept in my brothers bed? #someone did anyway #bc then he had to come sleep in my room it was horrendous #ok good night what a day I will have a meltdown tomorrow about my future but I have successfully postponed it for today #oh and now he’s doing it to the British media so you guys have fun with that

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#just turning over the idea of executive functioning issues in my head part by part. impulse control. im extremely tightly controlled. im the #best at control. the only times im impulsive is when someone asks me something and my brain doesn't work well in the moment so i tend to b #like fuck it: says something that might fuck me over later bc im like whatever itll prob b fine lol. but mostly not an issue. emotional #control. i dont lash out at ppl except myself i guess. ill sometimes have freak out meltdowns bc i get so frustrated with myself plus mood #weirdness. so not great. flexible thinking. im pretty rigid. if plans randomly change theres like a 1 in 3 chance ill freak out and start #crying and it takes me a long time to adjust to the idea that i have to chsnge something. and things tend to have to b a certain way #not for any reason in particular. thats just how it has to b. i have to eat the same foods. operate at the same times. do thr same things. #thats just how it is. and i find it difficult in social situations to adapt to the flow of convention bc its like but we're talking abt thi #now but something just interrupted and we aren't going abck to that thing. i dont make it other ppls problem but its uncomfortable for me. #working memory. my memory is pretty fucked. self monitoring. im good at that. too good. im pathologically self reflective. planning & #prioritizing. i can plan but i cant prioritize for shit. i will spiral for hours doing nothing bc i can't decide what comes 1st. #task initation. im good at torturing myself into getting things done but i anxiously avoid a lot of things but once i start its like: im in #this mode now. no i cant fucking stop i need this to b done. i need to sit here and finish it otherwise i wont come back to it. i cant do #moderation its all or nothing. all school and nothing outside of that. cant send mail. cant clean sink. i see it and kno i need to do it an #then i just walk away from the disaster area. organization. is ok. it looks a disaster but i only exist in like 3 places so i dont lose #things often but i dont remember where i put things once i put them down i have to deduce where i would have put it. does that paint the #picture of executive functioning issues or rigid and restrictive compulsive behavior paired with self destructive impulses leading to #absolute mental exhaustion which is y things arent getting done? could b either or both. idk my ability to do things 95% of the way and wal #away leaving a mess that ill never come back to strikes me more as the former but what do i #still its worth considering bc i do have an amazing to control myself in a way that's completely out of my control. maybr my start/stop #switch is just fucked idk. slow down and reorient says my counselor u never stop to rest. shes right but also im a grad student stopping #would mean death u gotta keep swimming and doing more than u should. thats how it is #but im so tired and i only get more and more tired. so somethings gotta give eventually #unrelated #i forgot focus. my focus is good sometimes and sometimes my brain is moving too fast and i cant focus at all. its static #but focus is not a thing i cna control

[umbraastaff]

my one hope for the far-future graphic novels is that they keep in the “and then i go over to [name]” bit from S&S

#this is a joke i have so many hopes and dreams #I HOPE THE NEXT REDROBE SCENE IS MORE ON TRACK W CANON #I KNOW YOURE TRYING TO MAKE HIM SCARY AND COOL BUT THE ORIGINAL CK SCENE WAS SO HUMANIZING AND IMPORTAN #T #and establishes a connection btwn barry and magnus that can b drawn on for suffering game #grabbing and shaking you #anyway cant wait for the meltdown i will cry thansk #oh oh also btw the reason for this post is bc in the same vicinity as that joke is whn merle apologizes for calling barry a douche #and they did specifically plant the douche line in the htbg novel #soooo they definitely can do that LOL

[brittlebutch]

actually is there a word for when you’re autistic and your brain like never lets you get over anything bad ever? think there should be

#N posts stuff #i know it’s recognized as a trait in one way or another #i mean like in a. hm #like one day i drove to work and the road i need to take to get there was closed #and so i had a big meltdown panic about it and got lost and parked somewhere else and ultimately it was okay #but now Every Single Time i drive up to that last road my brain has a little anxiety attack about #‘uh oh it was closed once what if it’s closed again we still don’t know what to do if it’s closed again UH OH’ #it hasn’t been closed since. but i think i’m gonna get that same dread every time forever #unless i find another route to work entirely which. isn’t likely to happen LOL #but that kind of thing. you know? #i know it’s recognized bc one of my fav autistic fiction series includes the fact that it’s autistic main character #gets really scared Every Time they have to take a specific street to school bc One time there was a scary dog there #and now the specter of the scary dog haunts that road forever. the specter of that closed road is gonna haunt me for as long as i work here

[housemarcellus]

kinda fucked up that there are tons of support groups for mom's of autistic kids and no support groups (that I can find) for autistic moms

#baby doll i am uniquely able to know exactly why youre having a meltdown and that i need to get you tf out of the situation causing it #but like #how do i cope if im also like #right there on the verge of a meltdown from the same stimuli #and im shutting down and cant easily get you (us) out of there #and your screaming--as much as i FULLY understand it--isnt helping lol #ignore me #pls

[slurpeeswack]

Yall get that #autism moment where you feel your meltdown (consisting of screaming and thrashing and pulling your hair out and biting your skin off like a rapid dog) but you’re masking so it makes it just look like you’re in a ‘bad mood’ and not fighting the urge to chop your arms off with a cleaver??

#slurpee speaks #just got off work and I want my same food of mcdonalds but my parents were like ‘lol u cant always eat out’ and kept making jokes ab the… #… stuff we have at home and it was pissing me off like dude I just got off I’m tired and hungry I’m already feeling empty I want some joy #in my mf life. nywayz they made me feel worse and I want to fuckign die but not really but I want to be able to have a meltdown and scream #and cry and shit #cant ever express my emotions 😍😍😍 #hate having the ‘tism sometimes :-[ #I want t cry #anywayz that’s my life hope you enjoyed cuz I know I didn’t

[recents]

unethical life pro tip for my fellow adult autistics who also have ocd or other anxiety disorders that make your texture reactions Worse: the Perfect amount of alcohol actually acts as a Mental Shield that will protect you from the Texture Induced Bad Times. But Watch Out

#i say this as someone who is white boy wine drunk and just seasoned a bunch of raw chicken bare handed #NO PROBLEM. #however this is a joke and i dont actually recommend this #like if you 100% Need your nervous system chemically slowed in order to handle some tasks #i assume occasional low doses of benzos supervised carefully by a physician #would achieve this same effect #with less impairment and health concerns #however i have a lot of trauma about benzos bc my mom used to use them to medicate my autism meltdowns without my consent #SO THERES THAT!!!! #one day ill overcome it. like im not antirecovery i promise ok #btw did anyone elses caregivers ever do this #lol ‘Calm Down Medicine’ gang unite am i right? #AM I RIGHT? #.

[swankpalanquin]

this chapter on high and low... i am kissing the pages

#'on a certain level they are one and the same. choice rather than circumstance is all that separates them.' #to be quite honest.. i 've always thought that if all of tumblr would somehow watch this movie #the amount and levels of discourse and terrible takes would probably meltdown the website lol #so i'm glad most people probably will never watch it

[boyfrillish]

I only started playing masters right at the end of october (fashionably late, yes) when I instantly zoomed when I heard about Unova chapter dropping, so I missed out on like every story event ever and am so confused on what’s supposed to be the timelines (but that goes for main series games since around ORAS & Gen VII too tbh especially bc I went hiatus-mode mid Gen VII but anyway) but I cry a lot about masters!Nate because he’s a treasure and I hope he gets an alt soon

Also masters!Cheren adopting every angsty emo rival is my favorite thing

#crystext #really tho i am not getting over how perfectly masters!Nate resonates with how I've seen him since 2013 #same for rosa but also like ... if you fusion masters!Nate and masters!Rosa that's how you have my since forever nate hc mishmash #does that make sense? it makes sense to me lol #anyway father or foe lives rent free in my head i had a meltdown when i played that I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW NATE WAS THERE i cried #me crying over N and the messed up family stuff? nah i'm crying over Nate crying and N saying he has a kind heart that resonates with others #(i had pieced together that Nate is supposed to be the npc role in masters so i expected nothing and then i got everything in that story) #(that's why I was shocked when he showed up and wHEN HE WAS LIKE HE WAS and just go meltdown) #pls forbidden unova villain chapter.2 continue where father or foe left off with his whole “i'll never forgive you” & give him a key role #anyway me when cheren in the pml arc interludes: OH I KNOW IT'S BECAUSE HE REMINDS YOU OF YOURSELF! #and i was right! #the irony is had i picked it up right in june when i came back to pkmn it would've been the rivals event featuring hugh ... #so either way it would have been a win!

[yourbestdream]

ALSOOOOOO i never posted abt this because i literally just forgot bc Certified ADHD Moment but anyways i will say that i personally never believed the collector luz theory and i want it 2 be known that i was right. Like i liked the theory but the different nose shapes of luz and dana's sketch tipped me off

#toh #toh spoilers #sorry for spam posting do u still think im hot. #but anyway ngl i personally thought amity was gonna get Collector'd bc of the same nose shape #so i wasnt completely right #but i was right that luz was safe:) #tho lowkey when king was setting them free in this ep i thought KING was gonna get possessed #and i almost had a meltdown lol

[a-concert-just-for-me]

Peak autism acceptance is having a meltdown at work bc they put you in sensory hell conditions and you not caring if they see you cry

#jess rambles #work chronicles #allistics feel bad challenge #for context I work at a preschool and today we had a pumpkin patch day with FIFTEEN different centers #it was hell #like my brother in Christ you put the autistics in a room of 40+ screaming children #I think this one is on you #it wasn’t just me lol out autistic kids were also having a very bad time #*our #it’s also so funny how they’re surprised pikachu face that the autistic kids are having meltdowns or acting out too #gee it’s almost like this is an overstimulating environment and they can’t handle it #same!

[teslas-lame-archive]

my lease is renewed :)

once again ive been spared the consequences of my procrastinating and thus have learned absolutely nothing

#watch me have a full-blown meltdown in 18 months for the exact same reason lol

[steampunk-raven]

why is mouth talking so hard rn

#i mean ik it's the autism but ffs does my brain just... never want me to understand politics #any time i try i have a meltdown or shutdown or verbal loss (such as rn) #i mean autism makes it VERY hard to understand any conflict ever for me and that translates over to politics + current events #and it's not for lack of trying - i fucking studied this shit before psychosis worsened my autism #now i can't fully engage with + understand current events :/ and people refusing to use simple language does *not* fucking help #like that's why i keep a majority of my activism irl cuz really the most i can do is make art/posters for things my friends organized #and give comfort to those who need it. which i also try to do online lol but it's a lot harder #like i will never be able to physically attend a protest but i *can* encourage others to do so #i just wish people didn't diminish the few things some disabled people can actually fucking do #like idk how to explain to people that i'm FUCKING DISABLED. in MANY different ways. i'm not gonna be as good an activist as you #(able bodied or less disabled) even if we have the exact same goals and beliefs #but we might not because i *can't fucking understand* SO MANY THINGS