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cerubean · 3 months
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pcktknife · 7 months
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do u know how fucking mad I'd be if I got turned into a vampire but couldnt shift into an animal I'd start killing
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dennis7231 · 3 months
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mmmmm sunstone
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Yes.
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wraithsoutlaws · 1 year
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hi i wanted to do one of these for the longest time and i finally have so behold a little piece of me.
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rose022 · 4 months
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for ask game i associate you so hard with mafuyu bc of. pfp. banner. rp blog. etc. but like. from what little i know about honami you give off honami vibes. also mari from omori but like minus the flirtiness. though thats mostly designated to hero but. yeah. idk unless you’re known to be flirty jkdflhgjdk
hehe mission accomplished people think of mafu for me mwahahaha.
but yeah i do relate to honami like. a lot. and ok i have a confession. i havent actually played or watched a playthrough of omori yet. inwas waiting to play it myself and record it. but yeah i think thats right. and i mean i can be very flirty but obv i have never thought of that with you and idk theres not many people on tumblr id think of that stuff for/about. liek at all. shrug
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ghostighostly · 6 months
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We should start adding warning tags for sad posts, like i am just a small anxious baby if you talk to me about abandoned kittens or people being mistreated ill cry :<
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crescentfool · 8 months
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i cant believe i forgot that im a fire emblem enjoyer 🙄 i was reading some of my notifs/tags from that one post about the video game series you've played the longest and oh my god.
i would like to apologize to fire emblem for forgetting that i've played it even though it's probably one of the longest standing series in my life next to pokemon and xenoblade... 💀 (<- they have 565 hours in fire emblem, 170 in awakening, 45 for fates, 75 for sov, and 275 for three houses and perhaps a few hours from feh but we don't talk about that)
anyway. did you know i like fire emblem. and that i like reading tags. i hope you all have swag times with whatever game series makes you happy! 💙
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lewisdidthat · 1 year
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now that mick is gone, i just realised that i am now only watching f1 for lewis........
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sol-rizen · 1 year
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homies its 3am and i am sipping the "i wanna be hugging my partner right now i miss them" juice
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xxc4rt3rxx · 2 years
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god i keep seeing random ass gatekeepers popping up on my dash esp since ive become more active in mcrblr(just like for clarity this is like a lot of like homophbic comlaing abt mcr type gatekeepers who shit on their music bec men in makeup is bad i guess) but like i used to get so bothered by gatekeeprs but now its just funny to me. Bec no matter what im reading all i can hear is “your not (insert subculture here) you have a good relationship with your parents”. Like damn sorry i relized punching walls and drug use were not effective ways to deal with my mental health issues
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doomednarrative · 2 years
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If theres one thing I'm good at its making people feel genuine feelings about Mark Hoffman
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n0ct0urn1quet · 2 years
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@510snake babe when i say i wanna infodump to you about the lore of warrior cats i am completely 100% serious btw . like ltiearlly just ask me to infodump and i Will
#also i should proly say thank u for like asking me 2 infodump whenver i get upset somtimes#LIKE both in the form of u asking me 2 infodump abt wc or stuf (like u did that one time when i was all emotional in the vc while u wer#playing tf2 n u wer like 'wel u can infodump if u want im lisetning' n ik i didnt rly infodump but i do appreciate u asking)#or even jus like asking me to tel me abt my thoughts if im all sad yearning or stomhigm like earlier......#it gets me Thinking abt thoughts n when i think about Thoughts it gtes my mind off of the Bad Things#so thank u :]#u ar ebic :]#i wana sit outside with u in our gay litol hammock or outside hanging chair n jus ramble to u n tel u funy stories#or even jus sit inside with the window open n watch cars drive by as we jus rambl to each other <33#like yeah affection n hand holding is great n all but just sittin down n talking/ranting/rambling with ur gf is the Good Shite#or actually hear me out :#us snuglying in bed. me laying up against ur chest (or vice versa). tha window is open and the colorful led lights r on#and we are sitting there watching cars drive by and we ar just talking abt Life#i cant wait til we get to the point wher e we've been totgehr for a while n we're like reminicsing about how cringe we used to be HJSDKJL#like we say that we were cringe when we first met but i bet in a couple years we'll be looking back on 2022 us and just being liek#'god we were so cringe and stupid' SKLDJKLJKLLKG#BUT LIKE IN AN AFFECTIONATE WAY YK !!! i would never call you genuinely cringe or stupid and neither would u <3#i would call you CRINGE and STUPID but in a homoerotic way JHSJBAJSBJHBG#but yeah thats all sorey ik it is a bit short but . gourgh#i am sleeeeeeeeeepie i mite go big sneepy....................#mite com snugle with u in ur comby bed bro#mite even kis u on the cheek!!!!! might even lay on u!!!!!!!! might even hold ur hand!!!! idk!!!!!!!!!!!!! feelin kinda gay rn!!!!!!!!!!#SJKDJKBKJG#but fr i am going to sleepy . i so seepys. but !!!!!! i hop this put a litolsmile on ur face :] bc ur smile is cute and epic <:]#and i hope u seep very cosily!!!!!! an seppily!!!!!!!! in my arms!!!!!! we go sleby cossy rn!!!!! goonite!!! i lob u hubs!!!!!! <:] <33
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aggressivedaikons · 19 days
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joifee · 3 months
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14!
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14 - Sieben Jahre by AnnenMayKantereit
Manchmal wachst du morgens auf Und weißt nich' mehr was wahr is' Und dann denkst du für ein paar Sekunden Dass sie noch da is'
Und du erzählst noch immer So viel von ihr Dabei ist sie sieben Jahre nicht mehr hier
Somtimes you wake up in the morning And don't know whats true anymore And you are thinking for some seconds That she's still here
And you still talk So much about her Even though she has been gone since seven years
Anyways sad german song for Pearl and Sausage hue
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marilynthornhilllover · 3 months
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can you please make a fanfic we’re Larissa dies like in the show then wife reader makes and attends the funeral, but when she gets home she realizes that the front door to her and Larissa’s home was unlocked so she goes in slowly but she sees Larissa at the kitchen table drinking wine and Larissa says something like “miss me darling” and then some smut if you want. ❤️💋
Filthy love
Larissa weems x Fem reader
Warning: Angst, grief, sadness, slight anger, pain, lots of talk about depression, faking of death, smut, fingering, cunniligus, usage of toys such as : vibrator and strap, slight choking, kinda soft sex, praise kink, stalker kink if you squint, slight mommy kink, slight degradation kink.
A/n: I just want to say a HUGE THANK YOU to all of you who got me to 1,005 followers!! I'm so so so grateful and happy. I'm looking forward to continue writing fanfics for you all, thank you for interacting with my work and blog and simply liking my content and i am blessed to have each and everyone of you on board with me, sending love to you all also I hope you enjoy this 1k following special fanfic 👀💖.
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There wasn't enough words in the English dictionary to describe the pain and emptiness that you were feeling as you stood over larissa's closed casket. There were no more tears left to cry. All you felt was emptiness, a never ending suffocating cycle of pure sadness, filled with rage. They say death has no sting and that it sneaks up on you and it's absolutely true. Nothing compares to what you felt currently.
You couldn't feel anything, you couldn't hear anything. It's like being trapped in the middle of the ocean with no air yet your still not exactly drowning, you don't want to drown but you refuse to be rescued out of the toxicity of the air.
You felt utterly numb. It's as if you too weren't alive, like a part of you died with her, and is to stay forever buried with her. Soon you'll have to thrown the first batch of sand on her grave, plant flowers two months later, listen to people express their condolences and state how larissa was a ' sunshine in a word filled with gloom'. Correct - absolutely correct. She was your sunshine in your world of gloom.
Truth be told you didn't deserve larissa - Or maybe larissa didn't deserve you. You'd always argue, she'd always stay at work. Nothing was simple, everything was so complicated behind the thick walls of your home. Fake bright smiles where somtimes even the Toothpaste couldn't clean the disgusting words you'd both spit at eachother behind close doors just to apologize minutes after with kept hatred inside.
It's as if you weren't there, but she was still here. It's not possible. She no longer existed and you wished you could swap places. She died so you can live but really and truly you didn't want to be here either.
The word is toxic and exhausting and larissa kept things joyful for you, always ready to sacrifice her happiness to see you smile. The memories of the good kept attacking your brain, handing in return instant headaches.
The first time you both laid eyes on eachother.
The time she asked you out on your first ever date.
The time she asked you to be her girlfriend.
The time she proposed.
The time she asked you to move in.
Right until the day you both said ' I do' the only soft, truthful words to ever be said to eachother. Maybe if larissa was here she offered up her happiness. You felt everything at once. It was all overwhelming. You wanted to be no where and here at the same time. The sadness you felt inside was unbearable yet no tears dared to escape..... they all stayed dried.
With a sigh you sniffed and made your way towards your seat, sitting besides Wednesday you flicked a warm smile towards her, you weren't sure if it was quite excalty warm though, after all your warmth was laying with her hands on her chest in a small, itchy casket. Larissa hated small spaces, if she was alive she wouldn't even be lying there now..... and that's how you knew she's really dead.
Because in the back of your head, there was a part of you that believed this was all a joke and that maybe thos was all a cruel prank to be played.
" are you ok?" You turned to look at the small girl besides you, forcing a smile you nodded. She definitely didn't believed you, to be honest who would?. Calling your heart broken would be an understatement, you don't know how celion dion sang that song because your heart definitely will not be going on without larissa. If you could have took her hand in death you would have.
"Til death do us part"
Wednesday truly cared for larissa, under her tough goth act there laid a heart of gold for the sapphire, Elsa blond hair and beautifully paled skin beauty.
You were once again broken from your trance as the pastor began to do his speech.
This you realized was your Roman empire, your own wife's death. You should really he celebrating her life but she hardly enjoyed her life. She was too tied up with work and you being on her back 24/7 percent of the time. She wasn't allowed space to breathe, well now she has more than enough.
After the pastor was done doing his speech you stepped on stage to say your urology - your last words. Taking a steady breath, and a long exhale you positioned the paper infront of you on the podium as you tried your best not to allow the tears their accompanied time frame.
" firstly, i want to thank you all for truly being here today so that we can honor our beloved and bright spark, Larissa Weems..... larissa was many things.... she was a principal, to some a English teacher. She was a daughter, a lover, a role model etc but t-to." You sighed as you looked down steading out your breath as your voice broke.
" to me larissa was much more than that in my life. I was a field of dead flowers before I met larissa, a-and she was like the sun that came out, bringing both warmth and healing into my life. She was and will forever be my hero that wore heels and my sunlight that brighten and made my life and day better. S-she never failed to make me smile or laugh, even giggle. I know to many of you she was so much more than just a sun.... she was the entire world even universe. And as we lay her to rest today I hope we all find the time to heal and be storng, because that's who larissa was, storng....."
Everyone sniffed, some clapped, most breaking down in tears. You never ment for anyone to shed even more tears or for any hearts to be broken any more than they already were you just needed everyone to find peace just as much as you wanted to find it as well.
After the funeral was over you hugged everyone goodbye and wished them a safe drive home as you also headed home, already planning to sleep because you couldn't accept the pain that you will feel after arriving home and realizing the house is empty.
As you pulled into the driveway you noticed the door looked pushed open. You weren't in the correct headspace but you knew for sure weren't crazy, you remember closing and locking the door perfectly well after leaving. After switching off the car and getting out you carefully walked up to the house - the mansion.
You fired all employees for three months with pay since you needed the time and house for yourself to simply be human and do human things which in this situation will be to grieve. Upon arrival you inspected the door before pushing it open and stepping inside slowly. If there was an intruder you'd rather catch them in the act, then call the police.
" hello?? Who's there? I suggest you just surrender now or I won't hesitate to call the cops on yo-" as you rounded the corner of the kitchen you saw larissa sitting on top of the countertop with her heels long forgotten on the carpet of the dinning room chair. Her lipstick was smudge as her legs swinged back and forth. She looked...... well not dead obviously. You knew for sure you weren't dreaming and she definitely looked very alive.
She moaned softly as she finished her wine and placed the glass down ontop the counter with a small cling. She sighed as a smirk was quickly painted across her face. You didn't know how to react. Maybe you should scream and run for your life, be happy and joyful or to maybe stay sad just incase this was your own mind manipulating you into a maladaptive dream land trance.
" hello darling....." She spoke in a low husky voice as her eyes flicked up towards yours, they were dark and swirling with desires for many things - things that you knew of and knew not of.
" did you miss me?" She asked as her eyebrows quirked up in a teasing manner. Your body stayed frozen as she jumped off of the counter and strides towards you very slowly. Her hips swayed as the smirk remained on her face. You could hear your rapid heartbeat in your chest with every closer step she took towards you, not breaking eye contact nor curving her lips into a non - smirk.
She finally stopped right infront of you as she tilted her head to the side, inspecting your face, possibly trying her best to read your every emotion as well as she can. As you looked into her eyes you saw, warmth, passion, love, peace, joy, everything that made larissa unique was swirling around in her sapphire iris, you felt your connection spark that you had with her ignite as her hands made their way around your waist pulling you flush against her body.
" I'm alive, my love. Long story but right now I think I'd rather cherish you" she whispered against your earlobe, gently pressing a kiss towards your neck before leaning back to look at your face, but again it remained blank because you did not have any reactions or emotions lingering on your face or in your eyes. It's like you were a statue, frozen before time.
Larissa chuckled softly, her hands making their upwards your chest Slightly grouping your breast making a moan escape your from the back of your throat. She grinned as she pushed you up against the counter. Despite all odds and questions that needed to be asked about everything that happened you needed her badly, she was like a drug that you needed desperately to live. You grabbed her cheeks and forced her lips against yours.
It took her by surprise but she quickly kissed back with the same equal amount of passion. You opened your mouth and gaved her access as she gladly took it by slipping in her tongue and using it to her advantage. Her hands traveled down your body wildly as she squeezed your ass and grabbed your hips harshly as she picked you up and took you to the bedroom.
She kicked the door open with her feet as she switched on the lamp light before throwing you onto the bed aggressively. She crawled up towards you and reconnected both your lips again in a heated, sloppy desperate kiss that spoke so much words that the lips could never utter.
You helped her take off her clothing as she helped you in return.
" fuck I need to taste you darling" she mumbled before spreading your thighs apart and smirking. She bit her bottom lip as she admired your baby pink lace panties before proceeding to pulling it to the side. She groaned as she saw your arousal spreaded all around your cunt as your puffy clit stared back at her. Larissa wasted no time as she enveloped her mouth onto your small bud immediately setting a fast sucking pace.
Your mouth fell open in a silent cry as your hands immediately flew to her hair pulling her even closer.
" your so fucking delicious darling" she purred as the vibrations from her speech made your shiver. Larissa used her hands to hold your thighs open to prevent you from squirming and bucking your hips as her tongue flicked back and forth against your clit in a rapid pace.
" f-fuck, larissa, I'm gonna cum." You whispered as she chuckled darkly, her hot breath on your cunt was driving you crazy. She knew fully well what she was doing to you. Your stomach twisted as you felt larissas fingers trace slow steady circles around your entrance that caused your back to arch.
" so needy for mommy huh baby, you need me to be alive to fuck you senseless" your brain began to get fuzzy, the effect larissa had on you was dangerous - deadly dangerous. Your grip in her hair tighten as your nails digged deeper into her scalp. Your eyes rolled back as she continued to violate your clit endless in the most oragam way possible.
You felt the knot in your stomach tied as it was ready to explode. Your other free hand gripped the sheets as you swore you were gonna leave holes in it.
" such a dirty slut for mommy darling" she cooed as she slowly thrusted her two slender fingers into you at once before pulling them out, and that was all it took before you cummed in her mouth. She removed her lips from your abused bud as she gently kissed it before leaving open mouth kisses on your hot sweaty skin all the way up to your lips.
She watched as you tried to catch your breath as you gently shivered.
" I'm not done yet princess" she whispered before leaning over towards the side table and pulling open the drawer, her hand rumbled around in there for a while before a pink clip on button vibrator cake evident in your eyes. Larissa smirked before snaking her way back down to your pussy. She took both sides of your underwear and pulled it down as you lifted your hips to assist her.
You spread your legs even wider for her. She looked up at you with an evil expression before attaching the vibrator to your sensitive clit. As soon as she turned on the button you collapsed onto the bed in pleasure. You moaned as her hand wrapped around your neck. She leaned down closely to your face, her lips ghosting yours. You leaned in to place a kiss onto her lips but she pulled away chuckling.
" such a needy little girl, letting me do what I want with her needy cunt" you gasped as she slipped her two slender fingers into your cunt, your eyes rolled back as you let out a sigh of satisfaction. You could hear as her fingers went in and out of your wet cunt with squelching noises and your sweet moans and whimpers for her. You were her bitch to fuck.
Her hold on your neck tighten even more as her pace picked up to something more brutal. You cried out as she curled her fingers in you, hitting your sweet spot over and over again that had you going dumb for her and crying. She loved the way your greedy cunt clench led down around her fingers. Your hips rocked back and forth desperate to meet her thrust.
" Come on darling, cum again for me" she cooed as she picked up her pace, pushing her fingers deeper into you lr cunt past knuckle length.
" OH GOD! MOMMY! P-PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE, NEED IT SO BAD" you screamed as larissa pinched your nipple before slapping it, feeling as your body quirked and trashed beneath her, as your cunt spasms around her fingers. You wanted to try to hold off your oragsm a little while longer, not wanting to seem ' truly desperate ' as a whore who just needed her pussy fucked every second of the day by her wife but you simply couldn't.
" I know you want to" she whispered in a sultry voice, and that was the end of you. Your back arched as you let out the most pornographic moan ever to be heard as you coated larissas fingers with your cream. She continued to fuck you through your oragsm until you couldn't take the overstiumlation anymore. She removed her fingers and cleaned them off with her tongue, keeping her eyes on you.
The way her tongue swirled around her everyone finger, licking up your juices that ran down her hand made your cunt throb. You gulp as you cleared your throat.
" I wanna ride you" you spoke lowly and larissa scoffed.
" go on, get the strap then you can fuck yourself on mommy big cock, maybe if we're lucky I can put a baby in you, get you all full and round with my baby" she groaned.
the thought along had you sprinting towards the closest to get the biggest strap with the most deepest curve possible.
And with this you knew tonight was going to be a very very long night....... hopefully one with pleasure and maybe when that's finished you can get the answers you deserve, because you didn't deserve all that pain and heartache.
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thehusbandoden · 8 months
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More aizawa fics please! An maybe an Angst to comfort or just angst.
A/n: Of course! This took me way too long 😆😅! I posted three more Aizawa drabbles a few days ago, you can find them here <3. I'll make sure to post Aizawa more, but I hope this was good enough for now 😅.
Oh and remember, if it doesn't suit your taste you can always send in another ask <33
A Broken Promise and a Broken Heart -Aizawa Shota x Reader
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Genre: angst to comfort // wc: 2,883
Summary: even though Shota's work schedule is hectic, he does his best for you, and that's all that matters. But, he promised- he promised. And now all you can feel is this crushing hurt.
Warnings!: accidental broken promise, yelling (+ caps), immense guilt, and a whole lotta hurt. Please let me know if I miss any <3! Anon, if any of these things are triggering please, please reach out to me and I'll write something else for you! <33
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You and Shota have been married for almost a year.
You met in the middle of a pro hero gathering. You knew one another's public image, but not personally. After you bumped into one another- it was mostly your slip up, but Shota has always down played that- you felt an instant connection. After chatting for a few minutes you exchanged numbers, and went on your way.
It took another four days for you to reach out to one another. He texted you, double checking to make sure that it was you he was texting, and then proceeding to ask how you were. You ended up texting for eight hours
You both spent months simply texting and calling one another, talking for hours and hours until one of you fell asleep- which was mostly Shota because the man was exhausted.
About seven months later you met in person again, going on a date to a little cafe that was newly opened. Long after your breakfast was eaten you continued to chat, and you almost reached four hours, but you both sadly had to get to work.
Two dates later, Shota officially asked you out, which you accepted with a wide grin.
A month into your relationship and you were already saying 'I love you', and you both started talking about marriage four months after that. When your relationship hit six months he proprosed, and you got married three months later.
Though a little rushed, your relationship was filled with pure love, and the two of you couldn't be happier.. until Shota started working even more.
You knew that there wasn't really a reason to be mad at your husband, but the transition of seeing him every morning and every evening to almost not at all was heart crushing. You felt alone, and unloved- even though you knew that he was doing this for you.
After two weeks of this you stayed up late to talk to him about it, which he wasn't happy about.
At all.
After arguing for thirty minutes you angrily told him that he better be here in the morning to talk about the problem, or you were going to loose your mind.
Luckily, he was there, and things went a lot more smoothly when he was fully rested- well as rested as possible.
He agreed on trying harder to be there more, and you agreed on trying to more patient with him. And for a while, it got better. Instead of coming home after midnight he'd get off around 7-10, and you got to spend more time with him. Though it was little, it was progress, and you were simply happy that he was doing his best.
Though after a while it got bad again, but Shota did apologize and promised he was doing his best, so you supported him, tucking away those feelings of hurt in order to be there for your other half.
It stayed like this for a while. Sometimes he would be home at 6, roses in hand as he leant down to kiss you, telling you how breathtakingly goregous you were. Those nights were completely focussed on one another, leaving you breathless and entirely in love.
Some nights you would stay up for him. Somtimes he got home a little later then usual, but sometimes he would come home well after you fell asleep to tuck you in with a sad smile and kiss to your forehead.
Though not ideal, you both were simply doing your very best for one another.
You would ask him to come home as soon as possible, and to make it to special days like your mom's birthday party, your upcoming anniversary, and special pro hero interviews. And most of the time he did his best and got there a little late, if not on time.
And he would ask you to continue being amazingly gorgeous, loving, and selfless and to please, keep being patient with him. And so you did, and it worked.
Well.. it worked for a while, but such a fragile foundation was bound to break eventually, bringing down everyone with it.
~~Present day~~
Tears cascaded down your face as you aggressively wipe at your tears and dripping mascara. The feeling of betrayal bringing hiccups from your glossed lips. You could feel nothing but immense hurt. The kind of hurt that caused your heart to throb in pain, a new wave of heart break hitting you with every breath you inhaled.
He promised.. he had promised that he would be there. That he would make time for you, his wife of one year.
Today was your anniversary, you had reminded him again and again and he said that he would make it to your reservation, that you didn't need to worry.
Just this morning he was whispering words of love and promising you that he would be there.
And so you trusted him. Because you loved him, and knew that he would always keep your happiness as his main focus in life.
And so you spent the entire day cleaning the house, making sure everything was spotless. You then bought scented candles and rose petals for your shared bedroom, wanting the night to be as romantic as possible.
After everything was perfect you got ready yourself, washing your hair and shaving during your shower, putting on Shota's favorite red dress on, and doing your hair and makeup.
As soon as it was time to leave for the reservations you texted Shota, just wanting to give him one more reminder.
You were too busy getting to the restaurant on time that you didn't even notice how he hadn't texted you back.
When you got there you were seated at a table for two and ordered the both of your drinks, knowing Shota's by heart. As the mintues crawled by you texted Shota three more times, not wanting to call in such a high class restraunt, plus he was still at work.
A hour and a half passed by and there was still no sign of him, and you were worried. The waiters were visibly getting impatient for you to order or just get out of the restaurant, and all of the other customers- mostly couples were giving you either knowing, pittied, or disgusted looks.
After another hour the staff escorted you out, apologizing, but telling you that you couldn't simply sit there, and that they had a couple who needed that table soon.
When you got into the car you were silent, and suprisingly calm. It was like realitly hadn't hit you yet. You were silent as you continued to drive, but your eyes started to sting.
He promised you.
He was supposed to be there.
It's not like there was a villain attack, you're phone wouldn't given you a warning to stay clear of that specific area and to stay at a safe place.
He's not cheating. You know that much for an absolute fact.
So why.. why did he lie to you?
The tears started coming, coming down faster the more that your situation hit you.
It was your first year anniversary for being married.. it was a pretty big deal, so why? Why did he leave you alone like that?!
You did everything for him- going out of your way to make sure that everything was perfect!
And he had to screw it all up!
Sobs caused you to shake as you finally released your sorrow as you wailed. You've been trying so hard, pushing your feelings down every time something hurt you, and it was finally being released.
It doesn't help that your hormones have been out of whack recently either.
As you pulled into the driveway you bit your knuckle to silence your sobs until you closed and locked your front door.
Stumbling to the couch, you yank off your heels and throw them against the wall before scooping up two of the three worried cats at your feet.
Not even bothering to look at who was who, you bury your face into their soft fur, sniffling as their purs helped calm you down. By the texture of the cat on the left it was probably Mew, your fluffy white female cat, and the deep rumble of the cat on the right was probably Haru, your only male cat and the biggest baby of the house- minus Shota when he was being clingy of course.
That thought brought you to sobs once more, causing Mew and Haru to put their purs into overdrive and the third cat -Aiko to jump onto your lap, rubbing against your stomach as she purred.
After a lot of purring and kisses the cats calmed you down enough to be able to see clearly, though you were still hiccuping and sniffiling.
"I love you all." You whisper, petting two of the three cats on your lap, making sure to rotate so each cat got an equal amount of pets.
As you drifted off to sleep you were startled awake by the opening of the front door and a soft "I'm home".
Hurrying to sit up, tears pricked at your eyes at the sight of Shota walking into the house like normal. Did he not realize how much he hurt you?!
"Oh, y/n? What are you doing?" Shota asked, walking towards you to give you his usual kiss of greeting.
As you jerked back from him Shota paused, eyes squinting as he took in you, dressed for a special occasion, the mascara and tear stains littering your cheeks, and the cats, all three of them rubbing against you and purring. Aiko was even glaring up at him, grey-blue eyes seemingly piercing his soul.
"What happened?! Shota quickly asked, looking around to try and figure out what's gotten you so.. upset. His heart ached as he desperately tried to find a way to comfort you, heart shattering as one thought replayed in his head.
Who hurt you?
"Don't act like you're so innocent." You sniffled, picking up Haru to cuddle against your chest, your breathing starting to slow down as you listened to his calming purs.
"W-what did I do?" Shota asked, a whimper stuck in his throat at the idea of hurting you.
"I don't know, check the date, idiot."
A stinging hurt stung at his chest as Shota stumbled for his phone, quickly glancing at the date.
Oh no.
Oh.. oh no.
"I- I was supposed to meet up at the restaurant tonight.." Shota breathed, causing you to scoff.
"Baby I am so-"
"I don't c-care." You seethe, inwardly cursing as a small sob interrupted your sentence.
"Oh baby, baby please, I am so so sorry- I- I totally got wrapped up with work today and totally spaced it- baby please you gotta believe me-"
"Oh I believe you. I- I'm just h-hurt. I spent a-all day making everything perfect for the two of us- and this is how I'm repaid- i-it really, r-really hu-hurts." You reply through sobs, breaking Shota's heart even more.
"Y/n-"
"JUST STOP! I'M SO DONE WITH ALL OF THIS! WE DON'T NEED ALL OF THIS EXTRA MONEY AND YET YOU WORK AND WORK AND WORK! I-I'VE TRIED TO BE UNDERSTANDING BUT I'M JUST DONE! PLEASE JUST STOP WITH ALL OF THESE EXCUSES! YOU MESSED UP SHOTA! AND YOU NEED TO OWN UP TO IT!"
"Y/n- baby, I-I'm sorry.. I- I promised I didn't mean to.. I'm sorry, I know I screwed up, I-I'm sorry."
Scoffing, you stand up, much to the cats' displeasure.
"I love you, Shota, but I am very hurt and need some time to myself. I'm going to sleep in the guest bedroom, with the cats. I hope the time alone will help you realize how badly you messed up."
"I understand, sleep well my love." Shota murmured, stepping out of the way for you to stand up, Mew and Aiko in your arms.
"C'mon Haru.." You whisper, causing the cat to let out a pur and follow you up the stairs.
~Shota's pov~
As soon as he heard the door close Shota banged a fist against the nearest surface. How could he mess up so badly?! It was your first year anniversary! What the freak!? He promised!
As his heart broke in his chest anger consumed him. How could he just-?
Taking a deep breath Shota started to calm down, deciding to clean the house as a way to clear his head and do something nice for you. As he looked around Shota continued to get angrier at himself as he saw how spotless the entire house was. The only room that had anything messed with it was the living room.. where your thrown shoes were.
Sighing, Shota picked up your shoes and put them away.
Whatever, he should just get to sleep. Scoffing at himself, Shota made his way into your shared bedroom.
As he walked upstairs his heart started beating against his ribcage, there were rose petals leading up towards your shared bedroom.. similar to when he did the same thing for you the night after your wedding.
Opening the door, his heart stopped as he saw the rose petals lovingly placed across the room, and then the candles placed along the room as well. It was so breathtakingly romantic- and he messed it all up.
Grabbing at his hair in frustration Shota let out a small whimper, not knowing what to do. Looking at the time, his heart started beating faster against his chest. It was only nine, it was still your anniversary.
Rushing down the staircase Shota hurried to grab his keys and slip on his shoes. Hurrying out the door, he hurried to lock the door and rush to the car, starting the engine and backing out of the driveway hazardously.
~~Your pov~~
Sniffling, you pet Aiko lovingly, her soft purs helping you relax. Right before you fell asleep you heard the front door open and close, and the car start.
You were alone once more.
The thought of Shota not wanting to deal with the problem hurt- a lot. You at least expected him to stick around and fix things with you before he went back to his terrible work schedule.
Right as you were about to start crying again you were pulled out of his thoughts by the front door opening and closing again. Interest peaked, you stayed silent to listen to the sound of footsteps.
Though you were hurt, the familiar sound of Shota's pacing footsteps brought a certain level of comfort, lulling you to sleep.
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You awoke from your restless sleep by a slow, hesitant tap on the door.
Sitting up, you rubbed at your eyes, trying to fight against the temptation to lay back down to sleep.
Looking around you, the strange surroundings confused you. Why were you in the guest bedroom instead of your own? After a few seconds of pondering, your memories came back in a flash and you recognized the tapping as Shota.
"What do you need, Shota?" You ask, desperately fighting against a yawn.
"I-I have something for you.." the man muttered, causing you to frown in thought.
"I thought I asked for space." You huff, causing Shota to sigh, and -you assume lean his forehead against the door, causing a small 'thump' to be heard.
"I- I know, but please?"
"If I don't like it, I'm going to be upset for longer, and you'll be alone for longer." You warn, getting out of bed to walk over towards the unlocked door.
"Okay, that's fair."
Slowly opening the door, Shota stands up straight, a hesitant and almost sad look in his eyes.
"Please, let me make it up to you." Shota whispered, reaching out his hand towards you, making sure to leave the decision up to you.
Watching him through slitted eyes, you place your hand in his, immediately entangling your fingers with his out of habit.
Smiling slightly, Shota squeezed your hand before gently leading you towards the stairs.
Confused, you started to look around, not really noticing anything out of the ordinary.
As you started to walk down the carpeted stairs your breath hitched in your throat. Littered across the floor were rose petals, creating a path down the stairs.
"Shota-"
"Shhh, we're not done yet." Shota murmured, kissing the shell of your ear lovingly.
Going down the rest of the stairs, your eyes start to glow as you look around. There were rose petals all around, leading towards the dining room, living room, and front door.
"It's your choice my dear." Shota whispered, kissing your shoulder blade. "Dinner, movie night, reading and cuddles on the patio or.. something else."
A shiver went down your spine as you looked around you. "Oh Shota-" You whisper, turning around to look the man you loved so dearly in the eyes. "This is.."
"Not enough. If you want to go to sleep then we can do so, but I'd be happy to celebrate our anniversary with you, and I will continue to apologize until my wrongs have been repented for."
"Oh Shota.." You sniff, throwing yourself onto him. "I love you. So, so much."
"I love you more, Kitty."
Smiling, you pull away to wrap Shota in a kiss full of passion, tears, and smiles.
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