#sad mode

[jag-casas4700]

Don't know where my mind will take me now.

#art #film #35mm #50mm 1.8 #artists on tumblr #cameras #film photography #canon #moodygrams #blue #filmphotography #35mm film #filmedit #sad notes #love sad #sad mode #sad night #sad nostalgia #i'm thinking of ending things #mtymx #mtynl #cerrodelasilla #moon #moonshot #sad thoughts

[acadarnia]

since nobody i've ever met (hopefully) knows about this blog, i can freely say what's on my mind.

i relate to jude from a little life too much... i find it very hard to open up to new people.

in 1½ week i'm starting uni and i'm reaaally scared i won't be able to make friends. i have 6 years ahead of me and if i go through them alone, like it happened in highschool (except senior year when i finally made 2 friends), i might go insane, for real.

i really wish i didn't have to write it here and be a *possible* burden for the people that follow this blog, but i just can't tell anyone about this. i feel alone.

i just wish some extroverts will come and "adopt" me, like in the movie perks of being a wallflower, because otherwise i don't think i'll be able to talk to anyone.

#a little life #rant #alone #loneliness #perks of being a wallflower #pobawf #pobaw #movie #sad #sadness #sad mode #sad movies #sad books #hopeless #friendless #no friends #being alone #personal vent #vent #starting university #confused

[notyourprincxssfairy]

Being hot and having depression is a lot of work 😮‍💨

#I’m too pretty to be sad #but my brain is like #sad mode #my thoughts #it’s late #txt #mine #txt post #depression sucks #everything will be okay

[iyabutterfly]

Im ready to throw my hands in the air, and give my kids away to the first person that raises their hand. What advice do you have for this single mother? Im stressed. I can't find a way out. It doesn't matter what "best decision" I make, because it always ends up bitting me in the rear. And I'm only human, so you already know I make "bad decisions" as well.

I just never saw myself as a Single Mother. I was with my Children's Father since high-school. 14 years we made it. We never got married, and that's only my second mistake. My first mistake was committing and moving in so young. I was too young, so what did I know? We got together junior year, and I moved in with his parents right after graduation. Never even had a real date. Like, whoo raised me??!! (That's a whole other post on childhood traumas😒)

Anyway, I gave him ALL of me. All of my time and commitment. All of my love and nurturing. I wasn't perfect but my world revolved around him, his family and his needs. Who knows what that did to me and my family?? It estranged me. I'm the second oldest of my Mothers 6 kids. The 4th oldest of my Fathers 5 and when my Mother finally married, that added 5 more to my list. "You only call when you need something" "Where's *******?" At this point I'm just ashamed and embarrassed.

We broke up so many times...And took each other back....again and again. TOXIC MADNESS. verbal abuse. mental abuse. physical abuse. I played my toxic role. No lies. I won't even make excuses about how "I can only take so much before I clash back". Because sometimes, I picked with him first.

And it wasn't always all bad. We had some amazing times as well. I know he loved me just as much as I loved him. I just don't know what happened. Where did I fail? NOW I have nothing. I stayed at home and taught my boys and catered to him for so long, I'm lost now. No home. No financial or emotional support. My anxieties are through the roof. Everything that I spent my young life creating, just ripped away. I'm really so angry AND sad.

And now I'm really screwed up, because my anxieties and depression led me to alcohol. I got into trouble. And not just once. My record is now tampered with, making it hard to get a decent paying job. And the decent paying ones that I can get are so far away that it's hard to balance my life on the bus line. School is starting back up Monday. Due to my living situation, I have to take the bus to get them to school. The bus is my life.. What does their Father help me with?? ABSOLUTELY NOTHING. Not a penny. Not an hour. And do you know why? Because I won't give him sex. He feels like if he does anything for me, then he deserves my body. Im halfway tempted to give in, for a number of reasons. I need help. I CANT THINK STRAIGHT. I CANT FOCUS. I have so much to get done and think about, I can't think. The boys are always with me. I had to take them to an interview 😫 Guess how that went. Nothing I start gets completed. I'm looking and looking into resources. Either nothing for me, or I'm not in the district or I simply missed the appointment. I'm up late night because it's my only place and then I can't hear my alarm in the am. ON TOP OF needing to get things done, I have these handsome, innocent sweet little boys that deserve the world. I can't give it to them. I get impatient 😔 I yell. It's killing me that they have gone through so much, and I'm just putting them through more. It's killing me that I can't tend to all their needs. I'm dying inside. I need my village but it doesn't seem that I have one. I let my relationship shut everyone out, and now it's just too late. I really can go on and on and on. I could write books detaling my life and Noone would ever get bored. I guess the advice that I need is

HOW DO YOU FOCUS?

HOW DO YOU, as a Single parent, juggle life with work and kids and cleaning and self care? How do you get these things done, without pulling out your hair or thrusting your head through the wall?

#headspace #cry for help #momlife #sad mode #angry birds #mentalwellness #parenthood #stress #big mood #current mood #trauma #just life #this is a cry for help #financial crisis #resources #sincerely me #it takes a village

[cambios-constantes]

#Meme #sad memes #sad mode

[nieznanaaaxx]

🦋🦋

Próbuję z tobą mamo jakkolwiek porozmawiać ale dla ciebie jest ważniejszy telefon i ten chory tik tok :)

#rodzice #mam dość #mam siebie dość #nienawidzę siebie #jestem słaba #jestem samotna #jestem do niczego #nie mam nikogo #nienawidze siebie #jestem głupia #nienawidzę się #brak uwagi #niezauważalna #masz mnie gdzieś #sad mode

[half-metal-scientist]

just need to vent a little please ignore this. I’m really struggling starting school again and avoiding my former best friend who I did everything with on campus. We have no classes together but after he ghosted me for a month and then sent a text essentially ending it only because we’d have to be in the same place again, I’ve not said a word to him since June. We still have mutual friends. I’m hanging out with his roommate soon. But I’m just trying not to seem like I’m 1. Thinking about him even though I definitely am and 2. Ignore the fact that I really miss him. We had a lot of fun. I thought it was working. Apparently not. I know the grass is greener and all that but I’m sick of my heart still mourning after 2 months. I’m sick of having to mute real life friends on socials because they hang out and I don’t want to see that. I’m sick of everyone walking on eggshells when we’re in the same room because we were practically conjoined at the hip and now we don’t talk or even look at each other. I recognize that I’m probably just tired rn and need to sleep but I’m sick of having all that hanging over my head. Rant over

edit: just deleted Instagram. Hopefully that helps a bit.

#rant #random thoughts #sad mode

[una-mas-del-montoon]

Estoy cansada, cansada de tratar de hacer todo bien para que me salga todo mal, ¿cual es el verdadero sentido a este juego? Realmente creo nunca haber querido participar y mucho menos haber aprendido a jugarlo, porque es claro de que me está consumiendo el desdén que estoy recibiendo de este juego injusto, y tratar de seguir sin siquiera tener una oportunidad de vencer me esta matando...

×UnaMa$delM0nton

#letras tristes #notas sad #frases #letras #amore triste #triste #cansancio #sad mode

[dragon-spaghetti]

I'm feelin soft 🥲

(Please click for better quality!!)

#drag's art #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel angel dust #hazbin hotel husk #huskerdust #been a minute since I did a cute doodle of these two so ✨✨ #I've done several neatly lined/coloured things in the past couple days #and it's putting me back in the 'everything Must Be Perfect' mode #so I'm forcing my hand into messier doodles again lmao 😭 #w the compromise of letting myself colour. cause that's my fave part and I get sad if I can't render things for a while 💀

[buttercupshands]

can you even call it a warm up if I'm going to bed without drawing anything big

and a sketch I made while sitting in the park today

#sketch #my art #bnha #shigaraki tomura #tenko shimura #all for one #midoriya izuku #bnha manga spoilers #only after I finished basically polishing this sketch did I notice how it's basically dark and light mode #also the first one is basically a redraw of illustration from vol 11 #I know that translation of Tenko's words is different in official but eh #fanart #I've kind of recovered from recent chapters #and I was analysing those chapters all morning #I'm still thinking but otherwise the chapters are so good #also did you notice that AFO actually talked about how his other him didn't use that 'last thing' yet and that was in ch 410 #and in ch 419 he did so it's real and it's still sad #but still AFO was never hiding it enough #from Tomura maybe but we as readers actually saw his plans play out #in any case I'm still just sitting with those two Izuku and Tenko interaction chapters #I waited long enough #and if you don't count AFO's return Izuku DID save Tenko and it's so interesting #since he now has to save his OTHER origin that was in ch 237 taught to kill whatever he wants #Tenko and Tomura both had 'origins' chapters and for now we only worked with 235 and 236 #and even if Izuku helped with the start of 237 there's still AFO #in any case it was a hard week #also the second thing actually had them holding hands #and then I was like 'but at that point Izuku's hands are gone oh no' #and it was just Tenko holding air where the hand was destroyed #in any case that scene.

[sonserina27]

#sad mode

[jag-casas4700]

Come hold me, I've gone too far and I'm missing

#art #film #35mm #50mm 1.8 #moodygrams #artists on tumblr #blue #cameras #film photography #canon #sadnnes #sad notes #sad mode #sad night #sad ending #sad thoughts #i'm sad #missing #lostsoul

[martinsorbit]

[Finders Keepers au] From the crappy sketches folder; Unstoppable force meets an immovable object (y/n and moon are both at all times)

lore dumping in tags cuz i will get insufferable

#when y/n found the dca in the Pizzaplex they ran a full diagnosis of what needed to be changed or fixed on the attendant's body #the battery was one of them since it had some fire & water damage #so y/n found a new one that was compatible; problem is that the new battery is not as potent as the OG one #so now the DCA has to charge/go rest mode way more frequently than they used to #and that annoys moon sooooo badly he hates that he has to do it so frequently #<- and also he gets sad that he has to spend time sitting in the couch charging instead of spending time with y/n #as for y/n there aint much of a reason; they are just overworked lol #dca #dca moon #moon #finders Keepers au #dca au #dca fandom

[molabuddy]

they call me the springfest screenshotter :]

#splatoon #splatoon springfest #yesterday i was doing a lot of walking around & enjoying the vibe #forgot to hide my curser for the non-photo mode screenshots which im SAD about. #maybe ill get new pics of the girls today.. #oh yeah bunnyears for u inkling is my current character :] she (stole) is borrowing benny's gear . i call her diet soda

[raylansspace]

Hey tumblr👋👋 heres a test animatic :D kinda messy but its Lukas and Aiden so why not

#minecraft story mode #mcsm #mcsm fanart #mcsm lukas #mcsm aiden #please dont judge me #its been awhile since ive made an animatic #sad face

[cambios-constantes]

Me doy cuenta que te extraño, porque quisiera mostrarte todo lo lindo que veo sabiendo que ya no estamos en la vida del otro.

#photographers on tumblr #photooftheday #sad mode #pensamientos #analog photography #landscape