#s: 17 again

[fujii-draws]

OKAY! Chatot rant in tags below! Read at your own discretion.

#okay starting from the beginning of where ppl usually dislike him. apple woods chapter. #he doesn’t give hero/partner the CHANCE to explain themselves despite them being relatively good recruits up until that point. #and that legit might be my only gripe with that chapter bc!!! stories need conflict! I LIKE the conflict in apple woods!!! #hero and partner being punished so something they didn’t do! #the misunderstanding! how team skull (Skuntank) actually outplays the main duo with a clever yet rotten trick. I LOVE that it segways into- #one of the more sweeter scenes of guild members looking out for eachother. I LIKE APPLE WOODS CONFLICT. #but chatot just. not giving them a chance. is so dumb. #I’d personally fix this by having a lil montage of hero/partner fucking up on jobs. A LOT. and chatot giving them a pass every time. #and let the perfect apple incident BE the one where he puts his foot down and doesn’t listen to them. bc he’d given them loads of chances. #and doesn’t want to hear any excuse. #but yeah. I legit dont mind him during that chapter except for that really stupid and frustrating moment. #NOW. CHAPTER 17. #UGGGGHHH WHERE DO I BEGIN #Him not believing hero and Partner about Grovyle and the future being in ruin? FINE. ACTUALLY GOOD. BC CHATOT WOULD BE SKEPTIC. #IT FITS HIS CHARACTER!! #BUT WHAT DOES SUCK. IS HIM GOING ‘Dusknoir isn’t the bad guy. he didn’t do anything wrong’ #WHEN HE LITERALLY KIDNAPPED HERO AND PARTNER RIGHT I N F R O N T OF HIM. #(​NO LITERALLY. HIS CHARACTER IS IN THE FRONT ROW WHEN IT HAPPENED.) #and him. having the GALL to tell hero and partner they must’ve been ‘seeing things’ and downplaying the HELL they went through. #despite them being missing for hours/days. his own guild recruits. and his angry sprite showing up. #like. I think that’s when I genuinely despised him. #that and him going ‘OH I BELIEVED YOU THE WHOLE TIME HEEHOO :)’ shit was so fucking annoying. #just playing it off as a joke the second the guild started to believe hero and partner. #IMAGINE IF HE W A S ACTUALLY TESTING THE GUILD’S TRUST. SHOWCASING HIM AS THE MORE RESPONSIBLE AND RESPECTFUL RIGHT HAND OF THE GUILD. #and yes. Brine cave he saves hero and partner. but at that point I just didn’t care anymore. #he fucked those two over so much. that I didn’t care what ‘valiant’ sacrifice he had. #and he grills Team Skull for what they did OFF SCREEN. they couldn’t even give us THAT. #<<< THAT or him outright saying sorry would’ve been nice. IKIK his ‘actions’ or whatever but. #eughh again this is all imo. I’m not trying to make people hate him or change their mind. #I’ll get into positives in the second post cause I’m running out of tags

[arts-i-enjoy]

AHHHHHH

#this post brought to you by: me #i. applied for a preapproval letter for a mortgage yesterday. and spoke to a realtor to start finding me houses #i want to move several states away which further complicated things. but the houses there are CHEAP #like under 100k for a 2 bedroom move in ready #anyways i got approved for 80k with a 20k down payment. and im FREAKING THE FUCK OUT #and because i got that pre app letter i have a loan officer calling me today to talk #and we literally work at the same bank so i can SEE that hes active and hasnt read my message #even though its been 45 minutes. KEVIN MESSAGE ME BACK. IM NOT GONNA BE ABLE TO FOCUS UNTIL I DO THIS CALL #AHHHHHHH S C R E A M. it might happening!!!! i might be finally.mov8ng out in a few months!!! #i mgiht be a HOMEOWNER by the end of the year #i have been saving money for this since i was. 16? 17? #ive had a good well paying job since i was 18. #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #once i have a house then i start job searching in that area. and start getting really serious about LEAVING my very good job #which is soooo scary. this job was supposed to be my lifelong career. but then everyone fucking moved to other states and left me behind #so theres no point staying here. #i might never have this kind of job security again. #but also my realtor said that theres a lot of bank jobs in that area so maybe itll be easy to find something #on the fence on if i tell my parents that im Making Moves right now #on one hand its hard to not talk about it becuae im STRESSED TF OUT #but on the other hand when i tentatively mentioned the state i want to move to #richard started yelling and swearing el oh el #might be better to wait and avoid the tension as long as possible? #but also i dont know how they can stay angry when its literally my best option #the other places where my friends live either have 0 opportunity and high housing prices. or are even moe liberal than where im going #idk. why do half of my problems come down to “my parents will be mad” like im a 12 year old or something. shit fucking sucks #this is why i want to get out of here #also it feels weird and bad to talk to my friends about how stressed i am about buying a house when all of them are stressed about #not being able to make rent or something. my problems feel like a brag in a really odd and shitty way. but hey! #if this works out maybe ill start being stressed about how im going to make my mortgage payments! :') yay!

[deus-ex-mona]

me when the bacteria c o l o n i s e s

#m a n. i thought that the sample would turn out negative for bacteria (like the rest have been for the past. what. year and a quarter(?)) #esp since the agar testing stick things used were freshly expired (thanks for the expired reagents workplace; cost cutting ftw!!!!) #but. ewwwwwwwwwwww it actually grewwwwwwwwwwww #and the small stick thing was covered from like top to bottom in countless dark red colonies. ewwwwwwwwww #all ​the other agar stick things were completely clean though so it was def a problem with the sample and not with my handling of the agar #in any case!!!!!!! it was the first time i saw a positive for bacteria growth on a sample and!!!! #it was also my first time reporting the results for this test!!!! without any of the test-familiar staff around!!! so!!!!! not fun!!!!!!!! #i didn’t even k n o w what they meant when they asked to ‘describe the colour/appearance of the colonies’ bc the managers’ expectations are. #just. *weird*. sometimes. ughhhhhh im ready for the inevitable groupchat callout on tuesday with ‘who taught you to report like this????’s #well e x c u s e me for not knowing sir you never taught me how to report colony growths or anything auauaaaaaaaaaa #but is ok!!!!!! i’m taking tuesday off anyway!!!! it’ll be the tuesday workers’ problem now!!!!!!!! good luck guys!!!!!!! #at least there was no fungi either… now *that* would’ve been extra gross #the bio class flashbacks were r e a l today… thank god i don’t ever have to open that stupid pharmacopoeia ever again #also reminds me of (one of) my stupidest moments in a bio class though… #back in the days of yore (read: anatomy class in the year of ‘17) i was an absolutely horrible student who’d never fail to nap in class #so when my lecturer asked connecting questions down the class register… #yk stuff like asking student 1 to ‘name a type of cell’ and then asking student 2 to ‘name an organelle that a [student 1’s cell] contains’ #he asked the girl before me to name a hormone. she answered ‘growth hormone’. and i was like. dammit. idk where it’s found. lolhelp. #(bc i never read ahead either + the growth hormone didn’t even show up in lessons during that school term) #so when he inevitably asked me to ‘name the organ that produces the growth hormone’ i answered (exact quote) ‘i don’t know; the ovaries????’ #the class laughed. sad. the lecturer retorted with sth like ‘then are you saying that boys can’t grow?’ and i just shrugged #the girl after me (who incidentally has the same first+last name as me phonetically speaking) gave him the right answer thoughhhh #i hope i managed to buy my name twin enough time to look up the correct answer (if she didn’t already know it) with my stupid guess #yeahhhhhh ​i do n o t miss bio class. at all. giggity #anyways that’s enough flashback sequences for one year. can’t believe the next year’s less than 10 days away tbh. can’t wait!!!!!!!!

[definitelyy-not-a-vampire]

So sorry, but I need to wax lyrical about something for a moment, which is: Fictional characters doing literally everything short of saying “I love you”. Maybe that character is emotionally withdrawn, or has a hard time articulating themselves when it comes to Sentiment™. Maybe they’re grappling with demons or past hurts. Whatever the reason, I am absolutely obsessed, seemingly, with the — often just as meaningful — gestures and deeds that can emerge in lieu of those three words. There’s so much beauty to be found in the Place of Unsaid Things. Sometimes the vacuum created by a character’s struggle to verbally communicate their feelings allows for a deeper and more profound impression of those feelings to take form. Yk?

*Edited: Bc I write posts like this and then immediately panik about having potentially articulated myself poorly. 

#Just as moving: The object of said character’s affection understanding this and never pushing for more than the other is capable of offering #Ik ur probs thinking 'She's yelling about the idiots again. Someone Stop Her' #but this is about Mel as well #lil' lady's been through it #and some OCs from a personal work I've been developing since I was like... 17?? #I think?? #it's. Ah. It's going. #it's also applicable to all kinds of love #romantic #familial/platonic #you name it #anywhoo #K screams into the aether #writing #that made sense in my head #sorta #having said all that seeing the words written in their entirety has been known to make me explode and die in that order so #so #it depends on the circumstances and/or character(s) in question

[sneakystorms]

On that note it is actually so infuriating to try and figure out the ages of war and peace characters. Like in 1805 Boris and Nikolai are both 20

And Pierre would appear to also be 20, having left Russia ten years before

But then it's said he left when Boris was 14??

#s #war and peace #i feel like im reading the goldfinch again. jeez #and then ofc vera going from 17 to 20 lol but at least that one's blatant!

[bettycanavosio]

thinking about how vito’s developmental years were ruined completely and the psychological damage that must’ve done to him………

#moving at 7 just to endure poverty? #alcoholic father dying at 17? #the war at 18? #mother dying and prison at 20? #like jesus christ #and when joe says he’s too old to sleep on his couch #i cannot imagine how painful that must’ve been to hear #joe was allowed to grow up and move on but vito was left craving something he watched everyone else have #then to hear he’s too old… to realise he’s closer to 30 than 20 #his life running away from him and he never got to enjoy it #and when he did enjoy it #it was with joe #who turns him away and denies him the chance to capture that childlike joy again #i need to. sit down #vs #s

[styxshipz]

hi! could you inform me on what a bi lesbian is? don’t mean to come off as rude and you’re not obligated to explain if you want to, but if you could redirect me to some resourced pls do, i’m curious and have seen this term one or two times before! i tried looking but almost everything ive seen either has a confusing definition or is negative, and i’d like to educate myself if possible. ty! :D

hi, tysm for the ask! while im definitely not the guy to speak for all mspec lesbians, i can definitely try my best to help you :]

mspec lesbians are when a person identifies as a lesbian while simultaneously being attracted to other genders, hence the "multi spectrum" (mspec) part of the term. i myself am a bi lesbian, so im just going to use that as an example, but there are also pan lesbians, omni lesbians, it goes on. (there are also mspec gays, but people dont seem too pressed about them, and im not gay, so i wont speak on them.)

there are a lot of reasons someone could identify as a bi lesbian, like if theyre romantically a lesbian while being bi*sexual*, or a bi person with a preference towards women. personally, while i do think lesbianism inherently includes nonbinary people (speaking *as* a nonbinary lesbian), my attraction to nbs is separate enough to warrant the label for both mine and other nbs' comfort. (also i think some guys are attractive lol). but it does vary from person to person!

as for the history, bi people using lesbian as an umbrella term (much like, for example, a bi guy calling themself gay) since *at least* the 70s.

and as for resources, heres a really helpful carrd i found, as well as just going through the 'mspec lesbian' tag on tumblr has quite a few good posts about the historical usage of the label!

also um. sorry for giving you an entire essay (hyperbole) lol, queer identities and history are a pretty big interest of mine XP

#styx says #ty for being so nice abt this btw!! i rlly appreciate it :] /gen #feel free 2 send another ask if u have any questions! #and yeah theres a lot of negativity online about us #but genuinely as someone who identified as a lesbian way b4 realizing i was bi too it doesnt invalidate lesbians or make us 'look bad' #once again i see people only ever pressed about 'bi/pan lesbians' and never mspec gays #i do think a bit of it is in part misogyny and terf rhetoric #but what do i know im just a 17 year old on the internet /s #sorry again lol i saw a mean take abt this earlier so i felt it was a good enough time as ever to answer this #anydangway hope you have a good day anon /gen

[knifefightandchill]

i wanted to back up my back up on my old laptop but that's going to be a feat because

1. i don't know where it is and 2. i'm tired

#how does one lose a 17 inch laptop #where can that thing even fit #i've got 133gb of video files i don't want to lose again e v e r #i can keep most other things in a rar on a usb stick but these are too massive. #personal #i s h o u l d have at least just enough for those. #delete later probably #maybe i shouldn't hoard a lot of extra video files if I don't plan on using them for a while or something #uwaaaah

[charmre]

SO APPARENTLY ACCORDING TO THIS VIDEO THAT RANDOMLY JUST POPPED UP ON MY YOUTUBE FEED, DOCTOR WHO IS BACK AND THE NEXT DOCTOR....IS DAVID TENNANT.....AGAIN??!??!

😭😭😭

WHAT YEAR IS THIS??!?!?

#also RTD will be writing for DW again too liKE #I'm ngl I still get nostalgic about 9 and 10's seasons #so I MIGHT even be inclined enough to watch again 😭😭😭 #ALSO I STOPPED THE FIRST 5 SECONDS OF THE VIDEO IMMEDIATELY BC THE NARRATOR GOES #'17 years after his first appearance--' #LIKE IT CANNOT HAVE BEEN THAT LONG ALREADY I'M 😭😭😭 #I gotta watch the rest of the video but like again WHAT YEAR IS THIS??!?!?! #personal

[lavaflowe]

I FINISHED FINALS AND OUR FILM LOOKS SO GOOD IM SO PROUD AHDHSHSH

IM GONNA POST ART AGAIN!!!

#I’m so proud of our 2D Film It’s everything I hoped for our first try #I might post production stuff because the amount of things that happen behind the scenes is wild #soooo much effort over 8 weeks to produce a 1 minute and 17 second short story #super excited to draw for FUN AGAIN #I NEVER HAVE TO TOUCH A 2000’S STYLE AGAIN #lavachatter #imma post tomorrow I’m HAJDHSH

[valkyrie-of-the-rising-sun]

You know, if the mural on the altar sliding puzzle in Chrysalis Manor is indeed a child Erin...

I wonder if Hauyne gets deja vu when she saw the portrait? And probably an inexplicable pang of sorrow, strong enough to make her tear up, since she and Erin were rather close friends in their childhood (second childhood, in Hauyne's case) despite only knowing each other for a few months before they were separated.

But she doesn't know why she feels sad when seeing the picture. She's forgotten her friendship with Erin, but her heart still remembers. And it remembers very fondly, which made it hurt even more when she realised that she had lost her first friend to Vitus.

Perhaps that is the incident that caused her to take the generational, aeons-long feud her kind has with Vitus more personally.

#Chroniclerverse #interceptor oc: hauyne #technically a erin x hauyne post #since it's about her subconsciously remembering her bond with erin #and it affects her a lot than she realises #im not sure if hauyne had romantic feelings towards erin in their first meeting #though frankly. it's quite messed up since Artemis was mentally a 20 year old when she met erin for the first time #so probably not #more like she sees erin as a close albeit much younger friend #but the reverse isn't the same for erin #who had developed feelings for her despite not realising it at the time #feelings so strong that it persisted through her imprisonment and eventually her amnesia #but again. she didn't realise it until the very end of v13's plotline after she was subjected to Cold Truth #hauyne probably started to develop a romantic attraction to her in their second meeting in Magnolia Library #since the ammesia had pretty much regressed her mental age back into a 16-17 year old's #tbf even after regaining her memories she still considers herself a 16-17 year old mentally

[roaringheat]

I GOT INVITED TO A DND CAMPAIGN

#vark posts #im stoked but also fuckin nervous #i want to SO bad but i had a pretty shit experience with a singular session in the past #and my anxiety is telling me itll happen again #but i was like 16 or 17 then so logically im a bad bitch now who can be normal and have decent friends #its my 2 work friends that invited me :^) #the dm said if its too much of a commitment i can be a character/s that pop in to help from time to time #might do that to ease myself into it tbh #im ngl id def be a beginner #my only real knowledge of dnd comes from TAZ campaigns lmao

[welcometogrouchland]

I love dipping my toes back into comics, remembering all the C and D list characters I love and getting that sense of intrigue again, sliding into headcanon territory like "MAN if they just made a series about this they'd totally have me hooked again!". Then I continue reading about the state of current comics (i.e where those C and D list characters are rn and what the state of canon is) and think about the amount of complexity and set up you'd need to even get halfway close to the perfect vision in your head and how impenetrable current comics are so you wouldn't even know where to start with catching up...

And then I'm once again relieved that I'm not caught up with comics anymore and am simply backreading now irrelevant comics at a glacial pace

#ramblings of a lunatic #posts inspired by me catching up (via osmosis) the current state of flash comics #s/o to irey west #you could have such a good turn as impulse if DC would let you your brother and bart progress (according to the vision in my head!) #same thing w/ the current superman run that's apparently on going #i am Very intrigued by the premise of lex apparently a) leaving his company to clark and b) wanting to team up w/ superman #as well as whatever Marilyn Moonlights deal is (SHE SEEMS SO COOL FROM HER INITIAL TEASER APPEARANCE) #but i simply cannot look past the convoluted state of the superfam rn with how present they seem to be in current comics #again there's 17 yr old jon (im glad you're bisexual but sorry that (age up) happened to you) #but also there's. twins now??? huh???? #they're revamping power girl???? huh #it's just. too much. it intimidates me #maybe my current goal will just be to keep reading gww ms marvel til the romance bores me (bc i think it gets romance heavy after a while?) #and then try and finally finish sandman (i like the anthology stand alone issues more than the story ones tho tbh...) #but also idk man. comics have so many things i love and they've been on my brain recently but trying to enjoy them at this moment #nigh impossible. i do not know where to start

[sixxtytoo]

thinking about how i was raised is sooo gd funny to me like. u put me in dresses and cute clothes but forgot to instill the societal concept of gender in me until i was 14 and by that time any attempt would have been an utter lost cause AHAHA ma'am i am a fucking Thing what did u expect

#THIS ISN'T A VENT POST i genuinely think it's funny #i tried to be super masc 17-19 but then i fell in love with pretty clothes again #and subsequently i could still wear pretty pretty stuff and be a guy and still bind #and now i am once again divorced from gener. wtf bro #weird little dude thing has to shave ?s face 2wice a day and will wear a skirt with a 5 o'clock shadow. living my best life #rym talks about itself #<- NEW TAG if u dont wanna hear me say stupid shit u can blacklist! will prolly use this for (non)gener related things when i'm feelin good

[mudaxolotl]

nice

#it was 75 this morning. ouch. #idk much other than it runs like ass. gonna wait a week to see if they fix it and look at reviews again to see if i wanna get one or not #poast #oh this is about s/v if it wasnt obvious #also hi it's been like 2 or 3 months. life is pain. #edit: it's been an hour and it's down to 68 #edit 2: 3 hours later and 67% #how long until it stops dropping lmao #edit 3: 17 hours later and 63%

[darlingflight-archived]

the older i get the more hook’s interactions with wendy creep me tf out.

#like i've been writing wendy since i was 17 so i've always been aware. but it definitely gets more noticeable with age. #it's not literal. nothing in n.everland is literal. but it's also not -not- there. #which is also why whenever i talk about the pirates as representative of wendy's burgeoning sexuality or joke about how spiteful #wendy was when she considered turning pirate i add 1908394 disclaimers to show i'm aware it is a bad situation and am not making light of it #but i'm also glad those scenes are there because it adds to the psychological dimensions of the movie and to wendy's story. #and i don't think anyone could possibly play the character better than j.ason i.saacs who was always careful in his #interactions with rachel so she felt safe and who put such thought into the character(s) and clearly still loves the project years later. #▓ ▌▌ the figure who haunted her stories ( captain hook. ) #tw grooming #tw grooming mention #again not -literally- but just to be safe. #btw this is as much as i'm ever going to put on the dash about this since it is a sensitive issue and i think this is all that needs #to be said on the matter.