#rsd no more

[magentasnail]

new creature just dropped: RSD CREATURE I wasn't planning on making more creature art but I am also insane and feral so I had no choice

also transparent version if you'd like:

#i wanted them to look like a feral version of adhd creature #because RSD is connected to adhd??? #but it makes it look more like devil horns than cat ears which is fitting #also 4 legs like the autism creature because it connects so much to my social difficulties #and I liked the idea of the sharp teeth because they want to appear friendly but it doesn't work out #art #digital art #artists on tumblr #my art #artist #drawing #digital artist #illustration #doodle #creature #critters #rsd creature #adhd creature #autism creature #emotes #stickers

[the-cat-and-the-birdie]

Ngl every time I try to reblog a post only to find i can't cause im blocked i deadass feel like Miles here i swear

#ME TOO MILES ME TOO #NGL this started happening a lot more after I started talking about Hobie and black women #just saying #spiderman #atsv #spider man #marvel #across the spiderverse #miles morales #jessica drew #spider woman #spiderwoman #rsd is a bitch #but its funny every time it happens cause it's like are you mad at my takes or doi just talk too goddamn much

[fmk-polls]

Ask box is open and I am taking poll suggestions

#yes I made this one to be educational #we need to talk about these symptoms more #and just how disabling adhd can really be #fuck marry kill #fmk #fmk game #fmk poll #poll #polls #tumblr polls #adhd #adhd symptoms #apd #adhd apd #auditory processing disorder #rsd #adhd rsd #rejection sensitive dysphoria #intrusive sleep #adhd intrusive sleep #adhd sleep

[painted-bees]

Being ADHD(+ rsd) and having friends & customers who do not mask their autism by preforming ‘neurotypical’ emotional responses--is a very healing thing once I properly realized “oh, the flat tone doesn’t mean they hate me and my work. When they say ‘Thanks. I love it.’ or ‘yeah, fun.’ they mean it at total face value!” The number of times my rsd has started to flare up before my conscious is like ‘autism-!’ it’s like...a calming weighted blanket on my nerves. I can trust that there’s no disappointment to read in between the lines of their tone.

#being autistic myself I am SO EXTREMELY BAD at reading between the lines anyways #and so I just try not to but the rsd still absorbs The Fear regardless lmao #but there are a handful of folks I interact with on the regular who are flat-toned and very even-level in how they respond to things #and while it's easy to see a lack of outward excitement as 'they hate this'--the fact that they #elect to keep doing the same things with me or keep buying my commissions over and over #is more proof that they enjoy me and my efforts than a bunch of exclamation marks at the end of a sentence.

[the-force-awakens]

I think something that no one talks about is how Poe leans more towards being an anti-hero than just plain hero. He's willing to do the "wrong" things for the right reasons, ex: willing the kill bad people to save the innocent, basically willing to do the dirty work that no one wants to talk or think about. and I think it should be talked about more. Your post was just *chefs kiss*, the way you understood Poe is so refreshing compared to what I see him reduced to in canon

Poe definitely is willing to make the tough calls, including being willing to kill bad people to save innocent people (or destroy a planet to save countless others), but I wouldn't necessarily sort him into the antihero trope myself, more the "good is not nice" trope.

Because for as much as Poe is willing to shoot the bad guys, or blow up a planet if it means saving the galaxy, he's usually the first person to lower his blaster or offer someone a second chance. The biggest source of conflict between himself and Zorii in Free Fall is the fact that Poe can't fit into this life of shades of grey, and that's a trait that does follow him to the Resistance. He can lie (badly) for them, he can steal ships, be labeled a criminal if it's done for the right reasons/for the Resistance but at the same time, he also......really can't wrap his head around and seems uncomfortable at times with Suralinda's way of manipulating or recontextualizing the truth for propaganda purposes (which i wish had...been better explored in the comics it's Fine, but like I wanna know more about Poe "can't lie" Dameron and Suralinda "i'm here to tell a good story" Javos. I WANT TO KNOW MORE LUCASFILM), even if Suralinda is doing those things for the Resistance, so they can gain more support.

There's also this quote of Rian Johnson's, that I really love, and that I feel like sums up Poe the best for me:

“Oscar is like a reincarnation of my favorite old movie stars; he has that old school magnetism paired with insane acting chops. Poe is a straight-up, good-guy hero, and although he gets put through the wringer in this film, because of Oscar you never lose faith that he’s going to come out the other end all the better for it.” [from this post]

I'm having trouble wording/it's kind of hard for me to explain, but like. I view Poe as someone who is, like Rian describes him, as a good-guy hero, who usually cannot quite stop the instinct to do the heroic thing, and how that can make him quite reckless (I do believe Oscar actually described Poe during the TFA Press Tour as "recklessly heroic" sir I'm sorry i ever doubted you about Poe being reckless, I thoroughly learned my lesson #13 Poe issues and a knife to Poe's hand later) - but I think also that doesn't mean that Poe needs to look like the hero, and I think TLJ proves that? He does what he believes is the best for the Resistance, and seizes control of the Raddus. It's a last resort, of course, and I don't think he necessarily cares about what people might think of him for it* - he's a commander, he makes the hard calls all the time, and regardless of his own desire to be a hero, I don't think Poe necessarily wants to be praised as one. He's just gonna do the right, most heroic thing at any given moment, and doesn't care what people say. I mean...we kind of get the impression he's used to being seen a certain way, y'know? Poe doesn't seem surprised in the least when Holdo berates him, he just has this look of "oh this banthashit again I thought I'd heard the last of it", y'know?

*y'know except for leia. because he definitely makes a face when she says that thing about holdo in the transport. anyway moving on because this got completely. the train jumped the track here. adhd moment.

As much as he is willing to do some hard things for the Resistance, I feel like Poe would. not last a day in the Rebellion - the Rebellion is just gray. You have to be, fighting something like the Empire, they're quick and dirty and. manipulative and liars and assassins, and Poe...wouldn't have the heart for that, I think. So I do believe there would be a line, in what Poe would even be willing to do for the Resistance.

That said, I do wish canon/fanon would be more willing to explore....any of his. nuance. that everyone seems very allergic to acknowledging, and I'd especially be interested in seeing more of Poe's - I'm a dw nerd sorry I'm just gonna call it this every time - "oncoming storm" side because it's so much fun. There's some other facets of his character I'd love to see explored in more detail, but that one especially. It would honestly be a dream, I think, if Alex Segura got to write for him again, but perhaps this time in the Resistance era, because I think that man would have a blast!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! with writing a good spy adventure.

#ask box #userorb #my meta #(again. oops?) #poe dameron #i haven't seen anyone categorize him more as an anti-hero before tho! but tbh i also. #don't see many people categorizing him as good is not nice either #because that would imply. yknow. acknowledging that poe has depth #and nuance. #and that he exists as a character outside of being attractive or a part of [is sniped] #anyway. #unfortunately getting any exploration on him would. involve.....actual content for him and we're in the middle of a fcking drought right no #i would also Love if someone explored how sensitive he can be t hough #and i don't just mean in a fjaofjaosfj oscar 'he has a sensitive side' isaac way lmfaoooo but wouldn't that be something #poe definitely has rsd i think because he takes rejection/slights SO hard #i kind of want to make a compilation of it JUST from the movies/resistance alone #unfortunately there's So much there (plus in through the turbulance) that i.........do not have the spoons to do so

[twelverriver]

there's something just so humiliating about having adhd to me, because someone asks you do a simple thing and you're faced with a) the challenge to remember it b) the challenge to actually do it c) the humiliation and self-loathing if you can't do a) and/or b).

#jana.txt #adhd #i know its not bad or shameful or whatever to have adhd i know that and most days i dont care that my life is more difficult than ppl's #without adhd i've just gotten used to everything being hard all!! the !! fucking !! time !! #but god sometimes it really hits #also its so embarrassing to have rsd right with it bc someone asks you to do something and you dont bc you forget about it and then they #scold you about it which is fair but you start crying which is SO embarassing like 😭😭 #anyway :) #to delete

[zevrans]

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#i'm having that one in half a year feeling of deleting from everything and dissapearing into the void #but what makes me more sad is no one would notice nor care #i really wish i was more social but my rsd and my anxiety made me too secluded even on here #don't know why am i even bothering writing this lmao #i just needed to vent i guess #tbd

[dwtdog]

bedgate happens but george is so offended when tabloids imply it’s not him in the photo or when they imply his ass is flat. sapnap likes to add to the flames.

“i dont think it could be george, i mean, that ass was too fat to be him. dude has a pancake back there.” - sapnap when asked by paparazzi while out and about it.

george just loses it and goes in a social media rage about fake friends while dream laughs in the background

he’s like TO BE CLEAR. my ass is NOT flat. unrelated to recent news. obviously. and dream is like no he’s lying guys his ass is SO flat like you would not believe and george tries to strangle him

#cq.asks #chemicalbride #dream makes up for saying george’s ass is flat as best he can though #he only says it bc it’s so obviously not true #but he starts getting rsd when more people agree

[gemharvest]

Ok wait do not yell at me this is my last last post for tonight I just had the idea that I could do this and let it sit while I'm away.

I know I have done this before but humor me a second time now ig.

If any mutuals already have a mutual Discord server send me an invite pretty please? Ily /p ok now if I post after this you are allowed to yell at me.

I cannot stop non-mutuals from responding I'm running on the honor system that only mutuals will vote.

#ramblings #going to schedule reblogs so its more likely to be seen by the mutual circle er whatevur. since i will not be here to manually rb #made the no response worded very softly cuz i want honest responses but i dont want the ``no``s to make my rsd bite my ass #u_u;;

[autisticlee]

I feel as if, maybe, autistic people get hurt and confused and generally affected by ghosting more than anyone else, yet we are the ones who receive that treatment the most often

#autism things #autistic #autism #actually autistic #maybe its just me....i know Everyone Experiences It. but it feels like it happens to us more #it happens to me and other autistics ive met more than anyone else....or maybe we just notice it more? #because it can affect us stronger? it gives me severe cptsd and rsd. other autistics have told me the same #allistics (or NTs?) ive met who are ghosted are mad for like a day then never mention it again #i get slapped with whole flashbacks to every moment it's ever happened to me and relive those times again and again #ghosting wether intentional or not really fucking destroys me against my will #i cant just GeT oVeR iT. and no matter how much i beg someone to never do it to me and make them promise...they still do it #every fucking time. 98% of my friendships end in me being ghosted and not knowing why and not getting answers and #then it adds to my cptsd mess that haunts me for life. its so cool! people are so nice !!!!! :DDDD thanks for doing this to me! 🤠 #lee rambles

[sysig]

I think I finally figured out why I like him so much

#ADHD #Meme #Shitpost #Helix #SCII #Max Vyer #Dexter Favin #Me projecting all over Max: Man he's just like me fr #He feels so ADHD to me like hang on hear me out #He's extremely impulsive - absolutely dopamine-motivated - struggles paying attention to things he's not interested in - #But also gets fixated on things like his dream journaling and anything related to it - space/aliens/spaceships/etc. #It being like The Only Thing that he ''can focus on'' - as well as wanting to engage with it when he's stressed! #Has lots of half-abandoned hobbies and impulsively ''jokes'' about getting really invested in something and then losing interest #Like wanting a lot of animals - hehe - or what jobs he wants to do while committing to none of them #He also takes things really personally which like - RSD. Do I need to explain lol #Has difficulty making and keeping friends - is forgetful and ''forgetful'' hehe I'm quite familiar #I also kind of read him getting high or drunk regularly as like?? really maladaptive attempts at self-medicating?? #Dopamine-deficient brains are way more likely to develop or lean on addictions to be at least Closer to level stimulation #He's constantly understimulated and all his caretakers see it as a moral failing when like! He's just expected to Get Guud lol #He needs accommodations! His brain is clawing at the walls trying to get his Executives to Function! #This man has undiagnosed ADHD please get him to a psychologist #Lbh tho his parents would be the type to say ''Don't use your diagnosis as an excuse'' as if he could just control it lol #Don't even get me started on when he and ZEX Freaky-Friday lol #Something something ZEX problematic queer something something Max problematic ADHD lol - look if it's Correct it's Correct! #Anyway this is just my reading and I'm Absolutely Definitely projecting to some degree - please read Helix and love Max of your own volition

[prisonpodcast]

Funny how I make this tweet defending the dsmp’s honour and people in my qrts are somehow managing to make it about their petty hatred of Dream despite him not being mentioned ONCE in my post. I just don’t get it at all, my post was defending the dsmp’s success bc some weirdos were having the audacity to call it a failure/flop like why are you telling me about how you think Dream contributed nothing and it was all the hardwork of other ccs and he was a bad owner like I don’t gaf make your own post what does that have to do with anything I said 😭

#I did not think that tweet would get more than 5 likes #it is currently at 6.3k #I am suffering to consequences I DIDNT THINK IT WOULD BLOW UP OK #like stop putting mean comments about Dream in my replies it’s so annoying I literally suffer from dream rsd pls be considerate #but he actually lives in their brains RENT FREEEE #also not to be that guy but I wish my art got that many likes on twt like I don’t even make discourse posts on there #this was the only time #I had to defend my baby (the dsmp and also techno bc dissing the dsmp feels disrespectful to his contributions) #negativity #.___.

[vodid]

i'm trying to inch my way towards a balanced pov in my blitzbee fic so its not always bee-centric/bee's pov when he meets w blitzy but gah damn is it hard. its so much more fascinating to explore blitzwing from an outside perspective (aka bee's pov) bc i'm not even sure he understands what hes thinking in that noggin of his. its hard to write that lol

also a lot of the meets tend to be actively initiated by bumblebee's actions so it makes it hard to get the context in if its in blitzwing's pov. and i don't like doing double povs like chapter 3 and 4, where the scene kind of repeats in both povs for said context. i only let that one slide bc it was a couple lines of dialogue that would repeat

i feel bad about it sometimes because i know we could use more blitzwing centric fics, but i'm trying to let the fic do what feels right for the pov and it just so happens to skew towards bee more. blitzwing's pov is more about him processing things, while bee is more about doing things. i can only hope as the fic progresses, itll figure itself out

#vulnerability fic #not to mention i simply resonate more with bee since i'm quite literally projecting my adhd and rsd onto him #anyway chapter 7 is in progress \o/ might be slower going than prev since the plans are a bit of a mess rn but we're getting there #if anyone cares to hear my rambles lol

[criminalskies]

just got rejected from ANOTHER placement site :3 going to put glass in my shoes for tonight’s workout just to feel something

#rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot rot #hell hath no fury like I DO LOGAN #now I watch my happy little cartoon show and forget I even fucking exist #not cm #learned what RSD is this year and honest to god I don’t doubt for one second that that’s me #fucking fantastic #no yeah I can really handle some more L’s right now #thanks universe #fart boom sound effect

[orangejuice-fics]

How come I just heard about Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria(RSD) two months ago? It describes why I feel the way I do when people have the slightest hints of disappointment in me, or just thoughts around disappointing others and being rejected in general.

It’s such an intense emotional pain that is an indescribable feeling because of how intense it is, and I was called “dramatic” as a kid/young adolescent because I would burst into tears every time I could hear or see the disappointment or rejection directed towards me.

I learned to “toughen up”, which means I hid it from the outside and still felt that intense emotional pain internally. The reason I’m making this post is because a friend of mine was getting nasty comments on a video they made talking about RSD. I won’t get into detail about the comment that was made, but I’m going to say this:

Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria is different from normal rejection sensitivity.

Not everyone experiences an intense emotional pain when rejected or when someone is disappointed. Just thinking about disappointment or rejection from someone can send me into a spiral of negative emotions directed towards myself for “not being good enough” or that “I’m totally going to fail because *blank* said I would”.

The Cleveland Clinic wrote a very good summary of Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria, and I encourage you to read it because it is very organized and detailed.

Thank you for coming to my ted talk.

#rejection sensitive dysphoria #rsd #actually rsd #actually autistic #let me know if you want me to make more posts about mental health #because mental health is important

[aropride]

oh whats my first memory? yeah that's a really good icebreaker question haha. mine is something normal

#text #like my two first 'real' memories that r more than just a blurry Image are both. not things i would tell strangers lol #like oh are we going with Babys first rsd or Trigger warning child abuse 💀