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Dark Paradise | s.v

pairing: dark!ex!mean!dom!rbr!seb x sub!reader

warning: dark, stalking, psychotic behaviour, obsessive behaviour, smut, cnc, dacryphilia, chocking, spitting, bondage, inappropriate usage of tape, orgasm denial

w/c: 1.3k

summary: After successfully getting away from your crazy ex boyfriend, you thought that you never have to see him again…you were definitely wrong — and you’ve noticed that as soon as you woke up with tape tightly bound around your wrists and a familiar man standing next to your bed in the middle of the night. | Read 'Part 1' here !

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You desperately tried to get away from him as you wildly moved your body from side to side and, luckily, after a few seconds of non stop trashing around in his grasp, his arms loosened themselves around your waist.

With a heavy sigh, you took all the strength that you’ve got and hit him with your elbow in his ribs, making him groan before he dropped your figure. And you didn’t waste a single second, immediately running towards the door, throwing it open and taking off, just running away from him, that was your only thought at that time.

- - -

“One room for one night please,” you mumbled nervously to the lady at the reception. She gave you a slightly concerned look but still didn’t hesitate to give you the key.

After running for quite a long time already, you coincidentally came face to face with a tiny hotel and with one last glance behind you, you sighed before you entered the small building.

And now finally laying in bed with your limbs stretched out and deep breaths escaping your mouth, you were only able to silently pray that your ex boyfriend, Sebastian, didn’t follow you.

- - -

You groaned as you weren’t able to reach the tiny button to turn the lamp next to you off but after almost falling out of bed, you reached it and turn the little lamp that was placed on the old nightstand off. With a sigh, you put the soft blanket over your body and closed your eyes, desperately trying to fall asleep now.

But you were only able to turn, turn and turn. There was no way that you were able to fall asleep tonight even though you knew that you were safe here.

The last position that you found yourself in after turning like a mad women, was with your back towards the door and with your face facing the small window in the room.

And after multiple minutes of just staring at the small, white, window, you were able to fall asleep.

But that sleep didn’t last long.

After most probably not even four hours, you woke up again, this time on your stomach. But this time there was also the little lamp on your nightstand turned on again, making the room a bit brighter.

You groaned again and furrowed your brows since you could have sworn to yourself that you turned the lamp off but didn’t think about it to much.

But what you definitely though about was the fact that you couldn’t move your hands. It almost felt like they were… tied together.

And when you raised your head to look at your wrists, you were right, they were restrained with a thick layer of black tape, making it completely unable for you to move them.

You gulped before you felt the tears entering your wide eyes, quickly raising your head and immediately catching the gaze of the person you so desperately tried to escape.

Your ex boyfriend, Sebastian.

While tears were slowly running down your temple, you sniffled as you saw him looking down at you with his arms crossed, smirk over his soft lips.

“S-Sebastian, let me g-go…please-”

But he slowly shook his head as he bit his bottom lip, “No, no, no and no! You’ve ran away from me! Twice already! I won’t make that mistake again to let you run out of my life, liebling,” darling. he stated.

You gasped as you felt his hand stroking your wet cheek, wiping some of the tears away while he put his other hand on your now trashing wrists that were bound together.

He briefly chuckled, “Don’t do that, sweetheart,” Sebastian said, ”Shhh, it’s okay…I am here.”

You had to bite back a laugh, “Yeah, t-that’s the p-problem.”

Sebastian's smirk faded, his eyes quickly darkened again as he heard your words. And in a matter of only a few seconds, he grabbed your by your waist, turned you around so you were laying on your stomach and put his weight on you, both hands now playing with your underwear.

“No!” You cried out, “Get o-off of me, you s-sick bastard!” But it was no use, he was visibly stronger and had way more power over you at the moment. Sebastian only smiled before he pushed your underwear to the side, exposing your pussy.

“Stop it, liebling,” Sebastian mumbled, “It’s not like I haven’t seen all of this before,” he told you in a deep tone before you felt his fingertips gliding through your folds, slowly entering your wet cunt.

He hummed, “For the fact that you want me to get off of you, you are pretty wet, darling.”

You gasped as soon as he thrusted his long fingers in and out of you, whining every time he almost completely removed from your pussy, and then shoved them knuckles deep back in, making you see stars.

Sebastian quickly leaned down and spit on your pussy, letting it run down until it reached your entrance, briefly removing his fingers and stuffing his warm spit into you cunt while you moaned into the sheets.

He tilted his head to the side while he put his other hand on the back of your neck, forcing the left side of your face even further into the white bedsheets. You looked up at him with furrowed brows, “Don’t act like you don’t like it, because I can feel that you do.”

You whined as he went faster, making you squeeze your eyes shut, letting a few tears run down your red cheeks.

“Almost forgot how you feel around my fingers, baby,” Sebastian groaned, “Feels almost better than before my love, still so tight and wet.”

His big hand left the back of your neck and as soon as you felt his big palm gliding away from your delicate skin, you started trash your bound wrists around again, repeatedly screaming and whining into the sheets while his finger movements didn’t stop.

Sebastian angrily bit his lip before he slammed his palm down onto your wrists, harshly pressing them against the swell of your bum and making it unable for you to move them again.

“Stop. Resisting. Me,” the German above you told you in a deep and harsh tone. You squeezed your eyes shut again as you felt your orgasm approaching you, sighing as the tears didn’t stop. “N-No,” you answered before you whined.

Sebastian tilted his head to the side, “No?”

You tried to bite back a moan as you started to clench around his fingers, “No,” you shook your head.

The blonde man above your shaking figure only chuckled, “Oh liebling, you were never good at shutting up, now were you?” He stated before he swiftly removed his fingers from your begging pussy, making you gasp and cry out into the tear stained bedsheets.

“N-No, please! Please, s-sebastian!” You whined in a high pitched tone as you heard him sucking his two fingers off, groaning and moaning at your taste.

He put both of his hands onto your bound wrists now, holding them down, knowing you would probably start to trash them around again. “Please what, my love?”

You sniffled while a few tears ran down your temple and cheeks, “Please l-let me cum, b-baby,” you whined.

He laughed, “baby?” Furrowing his brows in a funny way, “Since when am I your baby again, sweetheart? Be honest, you're only calling me baby now because you're a little slut that just wants to cum, am I right?”

After a few seconds, you slowly shook your head.

Sebastian didn’t say anything for a while, he only removed one his hands from your wrists and put it in your hair, forcing your head upwards into the air.

“Don’t lie to me,” he harshly whispered from behind, making you gasp.

You gulped before you nodded.

“Yeah? Am I right?” You just continued to nod, not saying a single word.

“Perfect.” Your ex muttered before he leaned forward and kissed your shoulder.

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Ivy | Prologue

summary: rooster and you break-up, you run back to san diego and you run into a pretty blonde at the Hard Deck. What could happen?

listen to: ivy - taylor swift | summer time sadness -lana del rey (playlist here)

warnings: smut!!!

word count: 6.2k

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It had been a really bad breakup.

It wasn’t the type of breakup in the movies when the main character and their love interest just face a challenge and then they reconnect, say how much they love each other, and live happily ever after. No, this wasn’t that type of breakup.

This was the type of breakup where you move out the same night, the type of breakup where you tell your friends to pick up your stuff when he’s not there, and the type of breakup where you haven’t spoken in person since it happened.

It was the type of breakup that you’d never thought you’d experience with Bradley Bradshaw, Rooster, your Rooster.

“What games are you playing?” your eyes narrowed in annoyance as you poured some water while Rooster groaned automatically as he laid on the couch.

You’d been out to the bar near the base. Since you two had been stationed temporarily on Whidbey Island it had been a bit hard to adjust. Usually, you were always in San Diego or at least in any base in California but with your Ice gone, you didn’t particularly want to spend too much time in San Diego, the presence of your father lingered in those hallways in ways that still made your skin crawl.

“What are you talking about?” Rooster huffed as he pinched the bridge of his nose.

The fact that he still didn’t want to acknowledge it made your blood burn as you glared at him.

“Do you think I’m stupid? Or blind?” you said nonchalantly before sipping the water, hoping that it would make you feel soberer, more in control when you were about to have this conversation.

“Brat, not in the mood for another fight”

You bit your cheek, and the grip on the glass got a little bit tighter as you fought the urge to simply walk away. You were never too thrilled about having hard conversations with your significant others, which part of you believed, was the reason you’d let his attitude go on for so long.

“Do you think I am?” you asked while you passed a hand through your hair, glaring at Rooster from the kitchen. “You want a meek little girlfriend that doesn’t call you out on your bullshit and I’m not it, Bradley,” you grumbled.

He let out a snarky chuckle. “You don’t let me forget that right?” he asked as he raised from the couch.

“Fuck you, Bradshaw,”

Rooster and you had known each other since you were kids. Growing up with parents in the Navy meant also knowing other kids in the Navy but with Ice and Mav being so close along with the fact that basically, Carol became even more like family after Goose passed away, you practically were attached to the hip since Rooster was five and you were one.

When you were younger, you didn’t get along too well. Rooster often picked on you and as Ice called it, the Navy Brat that you were, you didn’t stand for it. Your younger sister and brother loved Rooster and he got along with them better, maybe because he was a lot older than them, they looked at him as being cooler and more fun than you. Although, there were small moments when you would get along, after school when Rooster would often come to your home for homework and he helped you, when you convinced him to play fighter pilots with you and when you would watch movies together.

The bickering and small fighting only died down when you were a teenager and even older, you were 18 while Rooster was twenty-three when you started to get along. Carole and your mother often joked that you should be dating, that it was meant to be since you knew each other so well.

Rooster mockingly refused, saying that you weren’t that pretty while you would bite back saying that he wished he could take you out. Both of you apparently were hurt by the other statements, you would later find out.

So, it just stayed like that. Graduating high school, all through college, then on the Naval Academy where you and Rooster went together since Mav had pulled his papers, and finally at Top Gun.

Nothing had changed until you were called back a few years later, the uranium mission being the catalyst of it all.

“Why are you being so hysterical?” Rooster yelled back, now in the other corner of the table.

“Oh, I’m sorry I should be laughing and playing nice when I see my boyfriend flirting with another girl when we’re out?”

Rooster looked away, avoiding your gaze as he now poured water too. “I wasn’t flirting, I was being nice,”

He was a bit drunk too, you wondered if you both had tried to drink your feelings down.

“You’re always being nice to every girl, except me,” you answered with a stern look.

You’d noticed it. You wondered if it was because you’d always known each other but you also knew there was a clear cut in his attitude when you’d told him over a month ago about your plans for the future. The fight lasted over a week, and it became insufferable and ended up with both of you in bed but it was truly never closed.

“That’s bullshit,” he snapped at you.

There it is, you’d thought.

Rooster wasn’t good with hard conversations and he’d rather avoid them. Part of him thought because he usually was never raised to be a confrontational type but he also knew it was because he’d been angry most of his life, at everything, and he was always afraid that he would snap like he usually did when he was younger, a stupid teenager.

But that had been a long time ago. He liked to think his anger was in check, that he didn’t have any bad specific outbursts. Sure, there were moments he knew he was near to losing it -like when Hangman had mentioned Goose- but he tried hard to never let his anger get the best of him enough to hurt people he cared about. For you, Rooster had always been kind, soft, and perfect.

Especially when he was fighting with you, he always tried to keep his rage from spilling over, but lately, it’d become harder.

“It’s not and you know it,” you pressed.

Rooster rolled his eyes and he took a deep breath; so much for not liking hard conversations, he thought.

“What do you want me to say?”

“I want you to tell me the truth,” you insisted but Rooster remained quiet, his silence saying so much more. You took a deep breath. “Do you want out of this relationship?”

Rooster frowned deeply. “What the fuck are you talking about?”

“I’m talking about the fact that we haven’t had a real discussion since I told you that I didn’t want to get married yet or have children,”

It had been a month since it’d happened. You were celebrating your anniversary, it had been a one-year and a half since the uranium mission and since Rooster confessed his feelings for you. He’d felt called to do it since he’d almost died, he’d always loved you and you’d always loved him.

It had been a dream kiss and confession, followed by the most perfect night someone could’ve spent together. Sarah, your mother had been so happy while insisting that Carole would’ve loved it if she was still with you and Ice too.

In the last part, you didn’t know if it was true.

“Don’t bring up that,” Rooster bit back, features hard and serious. “We’re talking about how I flirted with a girl, right?”

You rolled your eyes while you glared at him.

“It’s all the same. You want a wife and kids and I’m not going to give you that, and you would rather do things that hurt me rather than break up with me!”

“Do you want to break up? You don’t love me anymore?” Rooster’s jaw clenched as he got closer to you, stomping the glass of water so hard on the counter that you flinched slightly, thinking it would break.

You sighed as you stepped closer to him.

“Of course, I love you,” you scolded him, attempting to take his hand before he swatted it away.

“Not enough apparently,”

You groaned.

You now wondered if you should’ve said it, but you knew it was the right thing to do. You’d never wanted the traditional life like your mother, you never felt ready for it. The only thing that you’d ever wanted in life was to be like your father. Maybe it was an older daughter thing and the fact that you were the only one of your siblings to choose the same life as your father, maybe it was the desperation of being recognized by something more, of doing more with the path that everyone wanted you to take.

“See?”

“Okay, fine!” Rooster screamed as he paced back and forth in the kitchen and then walked to the living room, his steps being a bit unstable because of the alcohol previously consumed. “I want a family and you know it, you’ve known it since we were friends that I wanted that, that I wanted to get married, I”

“And you’ve also known that I don’t want that since I can remember, you know that I’ve only talked about flying. I’m not ready for anything like that yet,” you screamed back, following him.

“Yet, see?” Rooster retorted while you grumbled under your breath.“I just don’t get why you don’t want to give that to me?” he insisted.

“Am I denying you something, Bradley?” you scoffed. “You can go back to the girl in the bar, you want someone, anyone, just not me,” you hissed.

“That’s not true,”

“But it is! You want the house, the stay-at-home wife, and the kids but not the person, not me!” you insisted, as tears began to spill from your eyes, he refused to look at you. “And I get it, I get why you want that after everything you lost, Goose and Carole, and I get it darling but I can’t be the one that’s going live with your trauma, you can’t step all over m-”

“Fuck you,” Rooster roared.

It was a split-second, involuntary reaction.

One second he was looking away from you, trying to keep his anger at bay but the grip on his anger went loose when you mentioned Goose and Carole, his trauma, the most painful experience, and his biggest loss.

The next, his fist was rammed into the wall next to your head.

Silence reigned between the two of you, breathing heavy and jilted as your lip trembled while you looked at him wide-eyed and then to the right of your head, staring in shock at his hand wedge into the wall, white powder, debris, and white paint drifting down innocuously to your clothes and floor. Rooster pried his hand out from the wall, staring at the red and raw knuckles of his shaking fist.

“Brat, I-”

You flinched.

It was over after that. You knew that Rooster would never hurt you, you were aware of his anger issues but never to the point of him expressing it so clearly against you. Both of you had cried, he begged you not to go but you also knew you simply couldn’t stay.

That’s why you were back in San Diego, it had been three months since it had happened and it had taken almost a month to be stationed back to your home town but thankfully the Kazansky name still worked for something, you decided right there to take some time off. You hadn’t used the time that was given to you to grieve your father the prior year and you barely remember taking any type of vacation since you graduated but you surely needed it now.

You hadn't told your friends that you were back and you’d managed to stay hidden at the guest house at your parent's place for the remaining two months, only Sarah and Maverick knowing that you’d returned and why, while you actively avoided any place where you might run into them until that night. You were due to start the following week and you decided that you needed a drink.

You found yourself at the Hard Deck, you left your bike in the front and asked for the bartender of the night to pour you some tequila. Thankfully, Penny was out with Maverick that night, you realized, and you didn’t need to talk about it.

At least, until you heard that thick southern accent.

“Brat?”

You refused to turn around immediately, mentally cursing the universe for being so cruel to you.

“Hangman,” you finally breathed out as you turned around with a small smile to find him.

There he was, it should’ve been illegal how pretty he could look sometimes. Tall, knee-buckling handsome, his sea-foam-colored eyes stared at you softly, and the million-dollar smug smile accompanied with the dimples that you’d made fun of while you first met was wide as he took you in.

“You’re a sight for sore eyes, sweetheart,” he teased as he opened his arms, you climbed down off the chair to hug him.

He was happy to see you, you could tell by the way he was holding you, he was always happy to see you. The scent of lemon and wood wrapping around you as you bury your head in his chest.

“A shame that I cannot say the same thing to you,” you replied teasingly as you pulled away, Hangman chuckled softly.

The thing was that you knew that under that smug face and cocky attitude, there was a loyal friend. He could be a hard head sometimes, which was how you’d come to know each other; you were always butting heads at the academy but as time passed you’d come to find that Hangman was not so bad. He became a good friend, he also saved your best friend and uncle from being killed by an enemy jet.

That definitely promoted him from a good friend to one of the closest people in your life, even though you didn’t enjoy admitting it.

“Sweet as always,” he muttered while shaking his head. “What are you doing here?” he asked as he leaned into the bar, sitting next to you.

“Drinking,” you replied dully.

Hangman's lips parted for a second before they closed again, he nodded slightly. “You know what I mean,” he replied while taking a sip of his beer.

“I don’t want to talk about it,” you muttered, not daring to look at him.

“Something happened with Rooster?” he asked.

Were you that transparent?

You stared at him, hoping that the melancholy on your features wasn’t visible to Hangman, but you knew that he could see right through. He stared at you softly, eyes gleaming with certain knowledge.

“Tell me about you, how was Hawaii?” you asked, quickly changing the topic as you gazed back at your drink.

Jake chose not to pry but he could already guess that something had happened between Rooster and you, he knew you well enough to know that you were not okay. He knew it was about Rooster too because he could recall every time you had a bad day at Top Gun, you would run to Bradley almost as if he was your safety blanket.

Now, you just seemed doleful and he was nowhere to be seen.

He got the clue though, he didn’t press you to tell him and choose to lighten the mood. You talked for hours and hours on end while you sipped on Moscow mules and tequila while he only nursed on a couple of beers and watched you softly, amusement toying on his lips as you talked about your mission in Virginia and then he went on to tell you about the missions he carried out with Phoenix, who had apparently grown tired of him and then how he spent the last three months with Fanboy in Hawaii.

It was around 2:00 am when you both realized that the bar was closing and you were one of the last ones in the whole place. It wasn’t until you stood up from the chair that you realized how much alcohol you’d consumed. Jake saw how you stumbled slightly and immediately placed his hand on the exposed skin of your waist. Goosebumps erupted on your skin and your breath hitched as you felt his featherlight touch on you, he didn’t seem to think it was a problem but you quickly tried your best to walk along, brushing his hand off from you knowing that feeling like that about Jake touching you wasn’t a good sign.

Not that it mattered now when he insisted that you should go to his place and ask for a cab from there, there was no way he was going to let you ride your bike in such a state and you knew that it would be irresponsible as well. Hangman’s place wasn’t far away from the Hard Deck, a lovely small house in front of the beach, one you’d been to many times before for dinners and parties with the Dagger team.

It was a familiar setting, but as your gaze followed Jake in the kitchen as he poured some glasses of water for both of you, you realized that something was shifting. When Jake gazed back at you with that smug smirk you rolled your eyes as you took the glass of water and sipped slightly while still watching him talk.

“God, I forgot how annoying you were,” you teased with a smile.

“The girl whose literal call sign is Brat, is talking about annoying?” he replied.

You elbowed him playfully as you both leaned into the table in his kitchen while you laughed softly. He smiled coyly at you, his eyes gleaming as your laughter died down, just enough to realize the way he was gaping at you. It was strange, to see that look in Hangman’s, he was always playful with you, he always had something to say but just now it seemed like he was at a loss for words.

There was a beat of silence and something compelled you to speak.

“We broke up,” you whispered as you played with the water that remained on your glass, not daring to look back at Hangman.

“What?”

“Me and Rooster, we broke up,” you explained, again not daring to look at him.

Hangman stared at you, he could feel the bitter taste of your words as you told him. It must’ve been hard to even bring it up, he knew that you were never a fan of talking about feelings just as much as he was.

“Oh, sweetheart. I’m so sorry,” he cooed softly as he brushed some hair away from your face and you turned back to him.

“I know but I feel like it’s for the best,” you concluded.

Hangman nodded as you looked at your water in silence, recalling the last time you’d spoken to Rooster, which ended up with angry hot tears falling from your eyes. You hated it, you hated all the crying, hated all the discussions with Rooster that never ended right, and you hated that you didn’t even know who you were now. A part of you lost between the friendship, the love, the fights, and everything else.

“Are you really okay?” he asked after a couple of seconds, your mind snapped back to reality as you turned to Hangman.

“What do you mean?”

“I know you, Brat,” he muttered affectionally. “You always act so strong, like nothing’s wrong but I know that you’re hurting, it’s okay if you’re not okay,”

You sighed, he wasn’t wrong.

“I’m better than before and the important thing is that I’ll be okay,” you answered him softly, although you didn’t think the last part was completely true.

“Well, you know that I get along with Rooster but I’m always going to be on your team,” Jake said, leaning back at first as if he was trying to see all of you at once while before he leaned closer to you nudging your body softly against his.

You snicker softly but then you realized how close he was, his hot warm skin from his arms flushed against yours as he cocked his head towards you smiling, as if he was seeing you for the first time. The air suddenly shifted slightly as you smiled at the other, you’d smiled at Jake so many times before in all the years that you’d known the other but this felt unknown, there was an intimacy in the way that you were talking, that you were staring at each other that was enough to make your heart feel like it was going to burst from your chest.

“Thank you, Jake,” you replied.

You stared up at him silently, your heart hammering on your chest as both of you turned to the other, it was so slow that for a second you thought that you were imagining it yourself but then you realized how his eyes flickered to your lips, the same way yours did a second before.

Jake pressed his forehead against yours as your breathing hitched, his jaw clenched slightly as he stared at you with those sea-foam eyes swirling with so many emotions that you weren’t sure how to feel about it at first. The tension crackling between both of you.

But you weren’t afraid anymore of what happened, you were suddenly overcome by the fear of what if?

So, you took a leap of faith.

You closed the gap between your lips, his hand went to cup your face softly as you placed your hand on his neck as you straightened yourself while Jake looped his arms around your waist pushing you against him. Stumbling through the kitchen you continued to kiss him, it was soft at first, it was new and it was tender and it stole your breath away. His palm brushed off some of your hair to get at your jaw as he pulled away suddenly.

You gasped softly at the sudden loss of contact but your eyes looked up at him, willing to continue, begging him to continue. Yet, he didn’t for a second, he looked at you as if you were a precious stone that he had to take care of. He placed his thumb against your lips and passed it softly over them as he looked at you, you knew that he was weighing his options, knowing that this might be something that was wrong because you were friends and you were Rooster’s ex but as he looked at you, Jake couldn’t let it go.

It was Rooster’s loss, it wouldn’t be Jake’s too.

He leaned down and pressed his lips against yours more urgently than before, stumbling against the wall as he nudge your neck and began to press kisses on your neck as his hand began to play with the buttons of the breezy silky black shirt that you’d worn, exposing your chest. He stopped for a second as he looked down, you weren’t wearing a bra that night and you felt your body sizzle by the lustful expression those sea-foam eyes gave you.

Jake began to kiss you again, you collapse into him as Jake’s tongue started to explore your mouth, deepening the kiss as he reached down your hips, cupping your bum and suddenly turning you against the wall. One of your hands was pressed against the wall, as Jake’s lips were kissing, licking, and biting on your neck your breath hitched, your body sizzling with anticipation as his hands reached down and began to pull down your pants before he pressed his hand over the one you had at the wall.

He suddenly pressed his length against your bum, you could feel him pressing insistently against you and you bit down a whimper while he kissed the length of your neck again and your shoulders as your shirt began to fall from them.

It was feverishly, the way that you were touching, passionate to the point that it was frightening. You wondered where it all came from, the burning desire for Jake ‘Hangman’ Seresin, the way that he was tenderly but fervently touching you. If you thought about it, it was always there but you’d never allowed yourself to see it.

You turned around, your trousers on your ankles, and the oversize black silk shirt slipped to the point that your breast were somehow out whilst Jake couldn’t help but pry a bit as you stared at him. His blonde hair was out of place which was strange for him, his lips taken apart as he looked at you, a dusky pink color in the slated light of the kitchen, a pale blush tinting his cheeks.

You couldn’t have wished for more.

You pulled him back harshly to kiss his lips, Jake breathed a sigh of relief, as if he was waiting for you to stop him, and this at any moment but just the fact that you hadn’t had made his breathing normal again. His right hand came to cup your cheek as your tongue caressed his while you focused on the feeling of his thumb running softly across your cheekbone.

Jake quickly looped his other arm around your torso and quickly placed you on the counter of the kitchen, you squeaked out as your bare ass pressed against the cold marble, and Jake couldn’t help but smile at you as he began to kiss his way down your body. A flash of heat ran down your body as Jake began to pull your legs apart, his sea-foam eyes always on you as you gasped with anticipation.

There was nothing, Jake decided at that moment, more breathtaking than your face when flushed with desire.

He yanked your pants off from your ankles as he pushed the lace to the side in one swift movement, diving in, he pressed a kiss to your clit, your hands flew to his hair, clutching handfuls of his blonde curls as you felt Jake’s tongue starting to move as he brushed a finger against your clit. You closed your eyes, a moan falling from your lips as your body couldn’t take the way how his mouth expertly move against your core. Then he slid his fingers inside of you, curling them against your g-spot while he pressed his lips against your clit, an unexpectedly loud moan fell from your lips and you felt like you couldn’t hold yourself anymore. Your back fell to the marble as you began to moan louder, grinding your hips up against Jake’s mouth, you could hear the glasses breaking against the floor, while one of your hands fell to your side as you gripped the table, a bowl of fruit falling too as you whimpered.

You could feel your orgasm building, your pussy clenching Jake’s fingers and tongue as he worked on you. It was too much, your back arching as you mewled in desperation at the way he was putting all the attention on you, all of his efforts on your pleasure. He was too good, Jake’s eyes flickered up at you and he couldn’t help but smirk at the way he had you already. You moaned one final time so loud that Jake thought that his neighbors might’ve heard you, your walls clenched around his tongue as you were shaking and withering, as you squeezed your eyes shut while the waves of pleasure washed over you.

“I want you,” Jake whispered as he climbed up and pushed you up against him.

His chest flushed with yours as he studied your features softly; Jake had been with many girls in his life but he was sure he’d never felt such pleasure in gazing at a woman he was with, sex for him had always been about touching and taste and fire, and yet with you, it was tender but passionate.

You were so utterly beautiful to him.

“Open your eyes,” he murmured against your lip, your thighs still trembling from the orgasm he gave you. “Come on, doll,” he said again softly.

Your eyes fluttered open, cheeks blushed as you place a lazy kiss against his lips. Your pulse seemed to be so slow in comparison to a few minutes before, it felt as if you were drunk, intoxicated by him.

“I want you too,” you breathed out as you pressed his lips against yours, you tasted yourself on his tongue feeling how he was smiling, really smiling as he took your bum off the counter and took you to his room while you wrapped your legs around his waist.

Jake sat on the edge of his bed, while you laid on top of him, kissing him hard. You tugged his shirt upward and then worked on his jeans, Jake yanked his clothes off him without much trouble as you held into his shoulders for leverage while you continued to press kisses in whatever skin you could find.

And then, Jake pulled down his boxers. You looked down at it and your heart began to thump harder as you realized what you were about to do. Jake pulled away for a second, looking up at you and smiling, Jake was so hard already and you could feel him pressing against your stomach, hard, thick. You touched him softly as you breathed heavily while watching him, Jake let out a soft growl as you work on him and you smirk smugly while licking your lips. Jake’s hands flew to your hips before you pause for a moment.

“It’s okay,” you muttered as you understand the unspoken question.

It’s okay that we’re friends and we’re doing this. It’s okay that even if you are a close friend of my ex-boyfriend we’re doing this. It’s okay that we don’t have a condom, we’re doing this. It’s okay if you are you and I’m me, we’re still doing this.

Jake then pulled you down and kissed you, hot and unrelenting, kissing you with intent. You adjusted yourself a bit and soon Jake was pushing your hips so you were sinking down on him, burying himself as deeply as he could possibly go inside of you. Both of you let out strangled moans, the feeling of being filled and the absolute warmth overtaking both of you almost completely. He feels so good, so good that you didn’t know if you were just going to come there and then by the way he was pulsing inside of you.

You moaned gently into his shoulder, nails sinking into his skin as Jake struggled for a second before he got a grip and started to move your hips provocatively slow as he swallowed hard and looked at you, he loved the fucked out look on your face. You were unable to help your sharp intake of breath as Jake thrusted up sharply, when you opened your eyes you saw the smug smirk on his face. You frown before you pressed your lips against him, claiming his mount in a vulgar, tongue-filled kiss. It was sloppy and hot as you sucked his lower lip between your teeth, eliciting a soft groan from Jake before you release it.

Now, you gave him a smug smirk before you started to move your hips up and down as your hands braced your body against his broad shoulders. Jake kept pounding into you. Jake pressed his lips against your throat, rutting his hips upward to meet yours, he sucked different purple marks into your skin as your eyes squeeze shut by how good you were feeling, by how good his cock felt as he drove up against your g-spot with each movement. Jake marked you up, a purple mark on your neck, then one on your chest, then one under your boob as he continued to snap his hips against yours.

“F-fuck,” his voice hoarse, sounding a little choked after a particular roll of your hips. “You’re so good, you’re so lovely, sweetheart,”

You whimpered at the nickname as you felt how your body began to burn as he slammed harshly into you, his heavy breaths against your upper chest. The rhythm steadily increased the tempo, bodies rocking together, both finding their release. You ride him with everything you got, mewling in pleasure as your nails rake his shoulders and then his chest, sweat running between the two of you, dripping from your slick bodies as you rocked against each other. Jake gritted his teeth, hissing in pleasure as you slightly shifted your hips and everything becomes tighter. It’s intoxicating, the way that your breathless pants and gasps feel against his ears, his ragged breathing as you kiss him one more time, it’s slower than the other kisses but with a frenzy filling up your chest. The rhythm grows quickly out of control before your throw your head back as you feel the fire pooling on your lower belly, Jake knows you’re there, you just need a little push, he slid one hand between the two of you and pinches your clit with his finger.

Your eyes rolled to the back of your head and you clenched around him. It was too much and not enough, you gasp for breath as you quickly surrender to the shockwaves of pleasure cursing through your veins as he thrust deep inside of you. Soon, your mind was spiraling, growing hazy from the intoxicating feeling of Jake’s cock hitting the right spot, your legs begin to tremble but Jake didn’t stop, relentlessly pounding into you with a barely animalistic growl as ecstasy burst through you as Jake’s thrust became sloppy and soon, he reached his own release.

You barely heard Jake yelling out your name as he spilled into you, filling you up completely.

Jake just holds you there as you both try to catch your breaths, bodies still overheated and chest heaving. Jake’s head falls back softly as he chuckles lightly. You don’t want to move for a second, still too dizzy and weak to do it, you kiss his shoulder softly, his collarbone, and then placed a chaste kiss over his lips. Jake smiled at you and you smiled at him, your fingers playing gently with the soft hairs of the nape of his neck as Jake’s fingers trace small circles on your back.

By the morning, your muscles are so sore that you could’ve sworn you’d done aquatic training the day before but not, but you didn’t. Still, in the haze of your sleep, your mind didn't seem alarmed as you feel the warmth of a body tangled with yours, your mind didn't register the gravity of the fact that that body belong to anyone other than Jake ‘Hangman’ Seresin.

The only thing you could think about was a loud and lousy ringtone that was making your head hurt, maybe it was the alcohol that was making your head hurt but you didn’t want to take the blame.

“Oh my god,”

You mutter before you press your face back into the comfort of the pillow you’d slept on that night, pulling a bit away from Jake, maybe the loss of heat would wake him up but after a minute you realize that it didn’t. You push his bicep unceremoniously, waking him up suddenly.

“What?” he asked alarmed as he began to move but still too sleepy to realize where the sound was coming from.

You groaned. “Fuck Hangman, are you deaf? Why is that thing so loud?” you grumbled although it was hard to hear you with how your face was pressed up against the pillow.

Jake’s mind finally snapped and looked down at his pants on the floor, where his phone probably was. He leaned down a bit too slow as you whimpered loudly, tacitly asking him to stop the sound.

“Sorry, sorry, sorry,” Jake mumbles before he answered the phone and walked out of the room.

The silence is finally comforting as you take a deep breath and try to get yourself back to sleep. Unfortunately, another ringtone starts to fill the room and you cursed mentally as you recognize that it’s your phone. Jake, before everything had happened, had placed it in his room so you could charge it before you left.

You groaned as you pull yourself out of the comfortable position you were in before you reached for it on the bedside table, you don’t even mind looking at the number, you don’t find yourself caring or thinking too much about who it is.

You just wanted to go back to sleep.

“Hello?” you asked.

“Lt. Kazansky,” you recognized Warlock’s voice immediately and your eyes snapped open as you raise from the bed. You don’t answer, holding your breath as you wait for Warlock to speak, he seemed to take the hint and continued. “I’m to inform you that you’ve been called for a mission. The dagger team has to return.”

Suddenly, Jake opened the door as he gazes back at you, the same concerned expression painted on his features.

Shit.

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sparkles-and-trash · 1 year

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I’ve been thinking about Keigo getting to know the rest of the Todoroki family as Touya’s boyfriend.

How nervous he would be to not be good enough, to not be let into what he knew was a tight knit family, especially the siblings, and for Keigo, who had no real family himself, it all seemed extra intimidating.

Keigo was prepared for almost anything, but it turned out he was not prepared for what actually was awating him.

Now, Keigo already knew Endeavor, or Enji (he finds it so weird to use his first name like that like wtf,) from work, but seeing him in this weird domestic role is jarring, to say the least.

Big, strong Endeavor in a cardigan, reading glasses and slippers? Weird as hell.

Rei is just as sweet as Keigo imagined her, and it makes his heart ache to see how much Touya looks like his mother in person, and even more so to see the open love in Touya’s face when he looks at his mother.

Keigo had expected Fuyumi to be as sweet and timid as she looked, but she honestly took him a bit by surprise. She’s quick and witty, not unlike her older brother, and clearly has no issue with putting Touya on the spot. She’s also very funny, and Keigo is deligthed to have someone to bounce off so easily.

Natsuo might look like a big, confident jock type, but he isn’t. He’s sweet, very sweet, and extremly passionate about the medical field, which is quite telling about his character in Keigo’s eyes. He also had a quiet and clever sense of humor, and kept making sure Keigo was always a part of the conversation, and it truly moved Keigo when he realized.

Now, Shouto was another one Keigo knew a little from work.

He actually thought the two of them got along well, but something seemed a little off with the youngest Todoroki all night. He talked like normal and wasn’t rude at all, but he kept sending Keigo some weird looks, and it was making him more uneasy than he liked to admit.

It didn’t help that Touya kept throwing looks back at Shouto, making it look like yhe two of them were having a telepatic conversation.

After dinner Shouto straight up asked Keigo if he could talk to him in private, and judging by Natsuo’s eyeroll and Fuyumi’s laughther, they knew what was coming.

When they were alone, Keigo suddenly struggled to meet Shouto’s mismatched eyes, which was ridiculous, but true.

«Did you know Touya was my first word?»

Keigo blinked, surprised. He did not know that.

Shouto just nodded.

«He was the first person to me me smile, and laugh, and talk, and even walk,» Shouto contuniued.

Keigo felt a small flicker of affection when picturing it, and felt a smile tug on his lips.

Shouto did not smile back.

«He walked me to my first day of school, and he still packs my lunch when he has the opportunity. He’s my person.»

Keigo was, maybe for the first time in his life, truly at a loss of words.

Luckily, Shouto continued on his own.

«If you make him sad, I will kill you.»

Keigo did not know if he should laugh or cry, so he did neither, and mereley nodded frantically.

«You have my full blessing to do that if I ever hurt your brother, I promise!» he said, a bit more nervously than he would have wanted.

Shouto just nodded solemnly.

Keigo nodded back.

After a few beats of silence, Shouto looked over at Keigo with that normal look of mild confusion and intrigue he ususally wore, not a trace left behind of the death threats he had just been giving out.

Keigo felt his shoulders slump in relief.

«So,» Shouto asked casually as they started to walk back to the rest of the family.

«Are you my brother now?»

And that’s how, for the second time that night, Keigo found himself at a total loss of words thanks to his boyfriends youngest brother.

It would not be the last.

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xienst · 1 year

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MASTERLIST of all ! era EVENT stories

reading all enstars! stories is... a lot. what if I want to read just the event stories?

[summaries will be added to the complete stories masterpost]

meanwhile, links to translations of !event stories here u go:

from spring:

THE FLAG'S HONOUR (fine) - spring2

EASTER NIGHT (switch, valkyrie) - spring3

BOOK FAIR (knights, switch) - spring12

RESURRECTION SUNDAY (undead, akatsuki, 2wink) - spring14

PURPLE WISTERIAS OF MAY (mam, rst, r, k) - spring 15

HAPPY SPRING (ra*bits) - spring 23

BAND ENSEMBLE (trickstar, undead, ritsu) - spring 24

SCHOOL FESTIVAL 4 (rst, kk, kh, tm, wh) - spring 31

from summer:

SHINSENGUMI (akatsuki, trickstar) - summer 8

AMUSEMENT LIVE (2wink, ra*bits) - summer 10

MAGNOLIA (fine) [unavailable] - summer 17

SUNSHOWER FESTA (switch, 2wink) - summer 18

RAINBOW (g&a) - summer 19

POOL (Tomoya, switch, trickstar) - summer 22

SUMMER LIVE (eve, trickstar) - summer 35

STARS * GLITTERS OF THE PRISM- (crossover) - summer 39

SUMMER NIGHT FESTIVAL - (akatsuki, ra*bits) - summer 42

BEACH MATCH (rst, 2wink) - summer 47

PLEIADES NIGHT (switch, trickstar, ra*bits) - summer 52

AQUARIUM - (rst, undead) summer 54

CHEVAL LIVE - (knights, valkyrie) summer 55

from autumn:

TSUKIMI LIVE (akatsuki, ra*bits) - autumn 2

REVENGE MATCH (eden, trickstar, fine) - autumn 7

MUSIC FESTA (rst, fine, izumi) - autumn 11

FLEUR DE LIS (knights, reikao, mam) - autumn 13

ROCKIN STAR (undead, trickstar)- autumn 17

MAGICAL HALLOWEEN - autumn 21

SWEET HALLOWEEN (rst, ra*bits, mam) - autumn 22

HORROR NIGHT HALLOWEEN (knights, trickstar) - autumn 23

SCHOOL TRIP (fine, knights, trickstar)- autumn 24

BLOOD BANQUET (undead, switch, valkyrie) - autumn 25

HOSPITAL VISIT (rst, mam, kh, ns) - autumn 26

TOYLAND (fine, kh, sk, ha) -autumn 32

SOIREE IN THE CANARY HALL- (knights, mam, nn, ko) autumn 33

from winter:

CATS AND THE CAMELIA TRAIN (akatsuki, knights) - winter 5

CHRISTMAS LIVE (rst, 2wink) - winter 9

STAR FESTIVAL (knights, valkyrie) - winter 12

JINGLE BELLS - (fine, trickstar, ta, mt) winter 13

ROMANTIC COMEDY (undead, ra*bits) - winter 14

HOLIDAY PARTY (undead, rst) - winter 15

SS (trickstar, eden) - winter 18

DREAM TRAVEL (fine, mt, hs, kh, ss)- winter 30

FORTUNE DREAM BANQUET (knights, switch) - winter 31

SAGA (trickstar, eden) [ongoing] - winter 32

DINER LIVE - winter 33

SETSUBUN FESTIVAL (2wink, rei, mi, kh, rs, ns, sh) - winter 34

SWEET AND BITTER (knights, ra*bits) - winter 42

DECORATE (undead, akatsuki) - winter 43

HOT AND ELEGANT CHOCOLATE FES (rst, valkyrie) - winter 44

WONDER GAME (switch, eden) - winter 49

next year spring

CLASS LIVE (class 2a + tsumugi + yuta)

HUMAN COMEDY (valkyrie + nn, kk, ra*bits)

REQUIEM (knights)

EP: LINK (fine, trickstar)

OPERETTA (undead)

note: labels of "<season><number>" are according to my masterpost of summaries,, I apologise for the messiness of the labels -> will create a spreadsheet for this one day

also i dont own any of these translations i did not make them (most links are to the wiki via the wayback machine, but some are to current translations on tumblr that are still ongoing)

#also i have not proofread this i will change things up as i summarise when i spot mistakes lol #entire enstars! summary #enstars #ensemble stars #enstars textpost #this is mostly for my reference for when i summarise #event stories

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madelynraemunson · 5 months

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🦇 𝐌𝐀𝐃𝐃𝐘 🦇

she/her. 24 year old story-teller who loves altering the fabric of the space-time continuum (allegedly). JQ. eddie munson. stranger things. manifest. 🩶 full time student // 18+ ONLY MINORS DNI

CURRENTLY ✍🏼 : reading & recharging

ko-fi ☕️ ♡ HELLFIRE GENTLEMEN'S CLUB ♡ my muses (masterlist) ♡ requests currently closed 💌 ♡ mood boards

most popular works: pass the salt (e.m.), scenic route (e.m.), adult swim (e.m.), call me what you want (e.m.), the baby gate (s.h.)

works in progress: pass the salt pt. 2 [pt 1 here], player zero mini series level two [level one here], call out my name ch 002 (s.h.) [ch 001 here], and a surprise...

tags: #madelynrambles ,#maddy’s mailbox ✨, maddy’s moots ✨, maddy’s fic recs ♥️ , #maddy has an idea 🛎️🤍 , #maddy’s requests🍸 , #CALL ME WHAT YOU WANT , #CALL OUT MY NAME🎰 , #maddy’s mind 🧠 , #tag games 🏷️

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senruthmartinsbob · 24 days

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I made a Substack! I’m starting to write regularly and I would appreciate any support.

An essay on Lana Del Rey, Feminism and Stan Culture.

A satire article in the style of a pop culture magazine checklist on how to get a job, from an address to luck.

A small reminder about how work culture only benefits the rich. Not you.

If you read and enjoyed any of these, I linked my Ko-fi if you want to tip me. I’ll keep all my posts free and public but I’m going through a rough financial period so I would appreciate the support! <3

#mutuals if you don’t mind rbing to maybe find someone who’s interested <3 #substack #writing #lana del rey #job hunting

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tinselxoxo26 · 2 years

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Ascendant signs series part 2 🌧️

Part 1

𝕊𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕡𝕚𝕠 𝔸𝕤𝕔𝕖𝕟𝕕𝕒𝕟𝕥

This might sound weird but their nose reminds me of an eagles' beak or like a scorpion's tail where its bent forward.

Their nose bridge is usually high & sharp on a way.

Their skin tone tends to be more on the darker/tan side, but ofc there are some with a lighter skin tone with very dark coloured hair.

The hair is usually quite thick as well, same as a Leo ascendant & ofc I can’t leave out their dark intense orbs , usually they have dark brown eyes even with blue eyes it tends to fall on the darker side.

[^^^Lana del rey]

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ℂ𝕒𝕡𝕣𝕚𝕔𝕠𝕣𝕟 𝔸𝕤𝕔𝕖𝕟𝕕𝕒𝕟𝕥

I can't get over the fact that their bone structure is astonishing.

They tend to have lips more on the thinner side & the nose bridge is usually high.

They look older than their age when young but age like fine wine as they get older.

For men, they usually have a wide forehead, strong jawline, squarish faceshape.

[^^^Megan Fox]

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𝕍𝕚𝕣𝕘𝕠 𝔸𝕤𝕔𝕖𝕟𝕕𝕒𝕟𝕥

Their eyes usually have hooded eyelids or almond shaped eyes

Small facial features with an oval face shape

They also tend to look younger than their actual age (same as a gemini ascendant)

They either struggle with skin problems like eczema/acne or blessed with clear skin. No in between.

Something that I've noticed is that they want to present themselves as clean or perfect so they might tend to gravitate changing their facial features through plastic surgery to make their face look perfect & symmetrical.

[^^^Bella Hadid]

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𝕊𝕒𝕘𝕚𝕥𝕥𝕒𝕣𝕚𝕦𝕤 𝔸𝕤𝕔𝕖𝕟𝕕𝕒𝕟𝕥

Their height is the most noticeable, usually they're average to tall height.

I noticed that they tend to like the colour green a lot.

Their nose tends to be longer than a Leo ascendant or their facial features tends to be expanded (Jupiter) whether it's their wide eyes, nose, lips etc.

[^^^Paris Hilton]

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I hope you enjoyed reading it even though this was quite a short post, goodbye for now 🌸✨

~ 𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑥𝑜𝑥𝑜26

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aspec-manga-snom · 6 months

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My Aspec Manga List

This list will be continuously updated from time to time.

Everything on this list will be my personal recommendations for manga that either give off the aspec vibes, have a canon character or have an indirectly labeled character. I will admit a lot of these may be headcanons more than anything, but they aren't without their backing.

I'm using the term aspec as an umbrella term for arospec and acespec.

Trigger Warning Key:

*Contains Sexual References (Jokes, Mentions, etc.)

+Depictions of Sexual Imagery/Complete Nudity (Usually won't go that far, but just to be safe.

-Homophobia,Transphobia, Aphobia, etc.

!Themes of Suicide

/Gratuitous Violence, Gore

Aspec Stories with Canon Characters:

In which the words are said.

Mine-Kun is Asexual by Isaki Uta (ace)

My Astible by Amupaka * (aroace and demiaroace)

Our Dreams at Dusk by Kamatani Yuhki *-! (aroace)

Is Love the Answer? by Isaki Uta - (aroace)

Sex Education 120% by Takaki Kikiki, Illustrated by Hotomura *+ (aroace)

I Want to Be a Wall by Shirono Honami (aroace)

Scum's Wish Décor by Yokoyari Mengo *+- (aroace) (sequel anthology, haven't read the original)

Ame ga Shinai Koto by Okaya Izumi * (aroace) (they don't say the words but "never falls in love" is just right there)

Bloom into You by Nio Nakatani * (aroace) (demiromantic lesbians)

Kiryuu-sensei wa Renai ga Wakaranai by Haruka Ono * (aroace)

Kanojo ni Naritai Kimi to Boku by Umi Takase *-! (alloace)

Ano Yoru no Pool by Pukupuku (aroallo)

Romantic Killer by Wataru Momose * (aroallo)

Hatsukoi, Catharsis by Nuko Hatokawa * (gayace)

Lilies and Voices Born Upon the Wind by Mei Renjouji *- (aroace) (pan, demiace)

She Loves to Cook, She Loves to Eat by Sakaomi Yuzaki (ace lesbian)

Sensitive Boy by 46 *+! (aroace supporting)

Basically Unconfirmed but Implied Aspec Headcanons (Some Personal, Some Universal):

The Disastrous Life of Saiki K. by Asou Shuuichi (aroace)

Frieren: Beyond Journey's End by Yamada Kanehito, Illustrated by Abe Tsukasa * (aroace)

Oshi no Ko by Akasaka Aka *! (aroallo)

It's Not Meguro-san's First Time by 9℃ *+ (alloace and aroallo)

Doughnuts Under a Crescent Moon by Usui Shio *- (demiaro ace lesbians)

Last Gender: When We Are Nameless by Taki Rei *+-! (arospec aspec)

Umi ga Hashiru End Roll by Tarachine John (aroace)

Fly Me to The Moon by Hata Kenjiro * (aroace)

I Think Our Son Is Gay by Okura *- (aroace)

Renai Daikou by Akasaka Aka, Illustrated by Nishizawa 5mm * (arospec)

Spy x Family by Endou Tatsuya */ (aroacespec) (I'll die on this hill)

One Piece by Eiichiro Oda *+-!/ (aroace)

The Apothecary Diaries by Hyuuga Natsu & Nanao Ikki, Illustrated by Nekokurage *!/ (aroacespec)

Something Like the Dust That Is My World by Amano Shuninta*+- (aroallo)

Seibetsu "Mona Lisa" no Kimi e by Tsumuji Yoshimura *+-! (aroacespec) (kinda bad ideology of gender binary)

Dr.Stone by Riichiro Ingaki, Illustrated by Boichi * (aroace)

Monthly Girls' Nozaki-kun by Izumi Tsubaki * (aroace)

My Love Story!! by Kazune Kawahara, Illustrated by Aruko * (aroace)

Tanaka-kun wa Itsumo Kedaruge by Nozomi Uda * (aroallo)

Skip & Loafer by Misaki Takamatsu * (demiaro? demiace?) (strong platonic relationships)

Dungeon Meshi by Kui Ryoko*!/ (aroace)

Girl Meets Rock! by Kuwahali, illustrated by Tetsuo Ideuchi (aro)

Watashi no Yuri wa Oshigoto desu! by Miman *+ (aro & demiaro coded)

#ongoing list #aspec manga #lots of good reads #trigger warnings provided #support the authors if you can #or go to fun websites with adblockers #asexual #aromantic #aspec #there will be more

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hackedbyawriter · 5 months

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Chapters: 1/7

Fandom: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Sequel Trilogy

Rating: Mature

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Relationships: Poe Dameron/Finn, Jessika Pava/Rey, Kaydel Ko Connix/Rose Tico, qpr finnrey, Finn & Rey (Star Wars), Poe Dameron & Rey, Karé Kun/Temmin "Snap" Wexley, Past Poe Dameron/Zorii Bliss - Relationship

Characters: Finn (Star Wars), Poe Dameron, Rey (Star Wars), Rose Tico, Jessika Pava, Temmin "Snap" Wexley, Luke Skywalker

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Buzzfeed Unsolved Fusion, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Fluff, Scared Poe Dameron, Believer Poe Dameron, Non-Believer Finn (Star Wars), Rey Skywalker is Neutral, Priest Luke Skywalker, Sequel Trio Needs a Hug, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Implied Sexual Content, however this will come much later in the fic and it will definitely be glossed over and skippable, fuck zorii bliss all my homies hate zorii bliss, if you dont know why read free fall, the writing is very silly please dont expect my usual poetic style, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, Gay Poe Dameron, Bisexual Finn (Star Wars), Asexual Rey (Star Wars), Religious Imagery & Symbolism

Summary:

"Kill off all my demons and my angels might die too."

Poe Dameron, a Resistance employee, has always been fascinated by the supernatural, so under the company, he starts a show, called Unsolved, retelling supernatural events from history and visiting haunted locations with his long-time friends and co-workers Jessika Pava and Snap Wexley.

Near the end of the first season however Jess has to leave due to scheduling issues and Snap, newly married to Kare, is expecting a baby, leaving Poe with the rest of the season to film and no one to help him.

On a whim, Poe decides to ask fellow employee and family friend Rey Skywalker and her best friend Finn Storm to accompany him.

Whether it’s the best or worst decision Poe has ever made, he’s not quite sure, but it was bound to change his life forever.

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meowmeowraven · 3 months

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Hello!! I'm Raven or Rei whichever works! I will start writting fanfics, please don't be mean, i'm new to writting fics.

Okay, now let's get some rules laid.

1. I will only write x reader fics.

2. NO SMUT. I only write fluff, platonic and angst.

3. No minor x adult, if i will write for a minor it's platonic ONLY.

4. No gore (mild only), suggestions of r4p3, and things like that.

Least but not last! The fandoms i'll write for:

1. Honkai Impact 3rd (if you're a male, requesting for non platonic and it's something romantic, i will not reply);

2. Honkai star rail

3. Ajin: demi-human (Nagai Kei, Nakano Ko, Kaito, Shimomura Izumi, Tosaki Yu)

That's kinda all for now, but this will change from time to time. Okay, thanks for reading!!

#hsr x reader #hsr x you #hi3 x reader #new writter #gepard x reader #dr ratio x reader #elysia x reader #blade x reader #pls request

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bnhaobservation · 3 months

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Keeping up with the Todorokis or, just me observing the Todorokis in the various volumes: Volume 4

So this is nothing else but a collection of information, volume by volume, about what the Todorokis do in the story or which info are revealed about them and so on.

PREMISE

WHO ARE THE TODOROKIS STARRING IN THE VOLUME?

Todoroki Enji: Chap 28 to 31, 34

Todoroki Rei: Chap 31 (Flashback), 34 (mentioned)

Todoroki Shōto: Chap 27 to 32, 34 to 35

WHICH ARE THE CHAPTERS IN THE VOLUME AND ARE THE TODOROKIS SHOWN IN THEM?

027. Earth-Shatteringly Fateful Negotiations (天下分け目の交渉時間 Tenkawakeme no Kōshō Jikan) Shōto

028. Strats, Strats, Strats (策策策 Saku saku saku) Enji - Shōto

029. Unaware (知られてない Shiraretenai) Enji - Shōto

030. Cavalry-Match Finale (騎馬戦決着 Kibasen Ketchaku) Enji - Shōto

031. The Boy Born with Everything (全てを持って生まれた男の子 Subete wo Motte Umareta Otoko no Ko) Enji - Rei (Flashback) - Shōto

032. Smile, Prince of Nonsense Land! (笑え！ナンセンス界のプリンス Warae! NONSENSE-kai no PRINCE) Shōto

033. Shinsō’s Situation (心操くんの事情 Shinsō-kun no Jijō)

034. Victory or Defeat (勝ち負け Kachimake) Enji - Rei (mentioned) - Shōto

035. Battle On, Challengers! (奮え！チャレンジャー Furue! CHALLENGER) Shōto

ALL THIS IN WHICH ANIME EPISODES IS TRANSPOSED?

017. Strategy, Strategy, Strategy (策策策 Saku saku saku) Enji - Shōto

018. Cavalry Battle Finale (騎馬戦決着 Kibasen Ketchaku) Enji - Shōto

019. The Boy Born with Everything (全てを持って生まれた男の子 Subete wo Motte Umareta Otoko no Ko) Enji - Rei (Flashback) - Shōto

020. Victory or Defeat (勝ち負け Kachimake) Enji - Rei (mentioned) - Shōto

021. Battle on, Challengers! (奮え！チャレンジャー Furue! CHALLENGER) Shōto

WHAT HAPPENS IN THE VOLUME?

CONTINUING FROM PREVIOUS VOLUME

U.A. SPORT FESTIVAL ARC (Chap 12-21): After ending up second in the Obstacle Course Race, Shōto form a team for the Cavalry Battle choosing as his partners Īda Tenya, Yaoyorozu Momo and Kaminari Denki so as to obtain the most stable formation. Īda will take the lead so they can use his mobility and physicality for defense, Yaoyorozu will take the right and provide an insulator so as to shield them and supplement their movement while Kaminari will guard the left and keep away enemies with his electricity. Shōto will be the rider but, when asked if he’ll hold enemies off with his fire and ice he’ll reply:

‘Sentō ni oite netsu (read: hidari) ha zettai tsukawa nē’ 「戦闘に於いて熱（ひだり）は絶対使わねえ」 “In battle I absolutely won’t use the heat (read: [my] left).” [Chap 28]

This sentence is one of those case in which we see the author writing a kanji ‘netsu’ (熱 “heat”) but giving it a different reading and meaning ‘hidari’ (ひだり) “left”, the kanji telling us the real meaning of Shōto’s words (in fact he uses his left side to fight, just not the heat his left side can create).

As Shōto speaks, he watches his father who’s standing among the public so as to imply that’s in clear defiance to him and to remark they’ve a poor relation.

On a sidenote we can see that Endeavor’s Hero costume, which in chap 1 and 3 was the same and almost the same as the one of his prototype was changed in the chest area (even though the neck is still different) becoming closer to its final stage.

Now, although Shōto was second at the Obstacle Course Race and therefore gained for himself 205 point, the sum of the point of his team make them third with a total of 615 points (team Bakugō is second with 665 points).

Shōto is, of course, planning to target Team Midoriya, who’s in the first place. Once his team find face to face with Midoriya they use Kaminari to shock the other teams aiming at them and then Shōto freezes them and steals their headbands. Tokoyami, from Team Midoriya, tries attacking Team Todorokio but, on Shōto’s prompting, Yaoyorozu stops him. Then, for five minutes, Team Midoriya manages to evade Team Todoroki by keeping distance and positioning in such a way if Shōto were to use his left side to freeze them, he would also freeze Īda.

Endeavor also realizes Team Midoriya’s tactic though he expresses it in different ways in the manga and in the anime.

In the manga he says:

‘Tsukarete njanai ka... Aho’ 「突かれてんじゃないか…阿呆」 “I think you’ve been stabbed… fool.” [Chap 29]

Which likely means in this contest that Midoriya figured out his weak spot and is basically exploiting it as the reading ‘tsukarete’ can also mean he’s being “wearing out” (by the way ‘tsukarete’ has dots above it so as to underline it).

Endeavor here looks amused as he speaks, the corners of his lips up. Either he apprecciates Midoriya’s tactic or he hopes this will pressure Shōto enough to get a reaction out of him.

In the anime instead he goes for

‘Minukareten jane~e ka… Aho me’ 「見抜かれてんじゃねぇか…阿保め」 “I think he can see right through you… aren’t you being a fool?” [Ep 18]

...but he’s no more smiling which will combine with how later he’ll scold Shōto to give a general impression he’s disappointed of him.

Īda, to help his team, volunteers to move super fast even though this will then stall him, so as to give Shōto a chance to grab Midoriya’s headband. Īda’s plan succeed and Shōto grabs Midoriya’s headband so Team Midoriya now chases them in an attempt to recover it.

Midoriya attacks Shōto with such fierce determination it makes him shudder and pushes him to instinctively try to defend himself with his left side. Midoriya, with his Quirk, still manage to break his defence and steal one headband, thinking it was the one Shōto took from him. Shōto though, not only had hidden the value of the headbands but had switched them so that the one Midoriya stole is a rather low in points one. Shōto instead is still shocked he had subconsciously used his left side.

Midoriya attacks again but while he doesn’t manage to retrieve any headband, taking advantage of the fact Shōto is still shaken, Tokoyami use Dark Shadow to steal the one on Shōto’s head at the last moment.

Team Todorokio still manages to take first place, even though Shōto is clearly disappointed and, along with other three teams, his team will proceed to the final event.

Shōto is upside down because he was determinate not to use his left side but when push came to shove he ended up using it unwillingly, which angers him because he has done just like his old man expected.

‘Ikenē… kore ja… oyaji no omou tōri janē ka…’ 「いけねえ…これじゃ…親父の思う通りじゃねえか…」 “This is wrong...this...isn’t it exactly what my old man is desiring...” [Chap 30]

During the one hour lunch break Shōto approaches Midoriya.

At the same time All Might approaches Endeavor, who was leaving the stands.

Let’s look at their dialogue first because it’s short and there are some points to ponder. Beware, it spans on two chapters so first we have:

‘Hisashiburi da na! Ocha shiyo ENDEAVOR!’ 「久し振りだな！お茶しよエンデヴァー! 」 “It’s been a while! Let’s have tea, Endeavor!

‘ALL MIGHT Might…’ 「オールマイト… 」 “All Might…” [Chap 30]

I want to point out how in this chapter, although it’s clear Endeavor isn’t happy to see All Might, the test has him just saying ‘All Might’. Why is this noteworthy?

Because, after this, although Endeavor will say “All Might” again, the text won’t use anymore just the katakana but ‘All Might’ will be just the reading given to these kanji 貴様, which are usually read ‘kisama’ and are a very rude way to say “you”, so rude in many cases, to drive home the point it’s a rude “you” it gets translated as “you, bastard”. And, in fact, in the following chapters Endeavor will call All Might just ‘kisama’ to his face. I speculate in this case we only have the katakana saying “All Might...” not because he’s being temporally mentally polite but because this is placed at the end of chap 30 and Horikoshi didn’t want to spoiler us how terrible is Enji’s relationship with All Might yet... even if the visual already implies he’s not particularly happy to see All Might.

So we move to the next chapter which continue this dialogue:

‘Chō hisashiburi! 10-Nen mae no taidan furi ka na! ? Mikaketakara aisatsu shi tokou to omotte ne.’ 「超久し振り！10年前の対談振りかな！？見かけたから挨拶しとこうと思ってね」 “It’s been a long time! It’s from the talk/conversation show from 10 years ago, right! ? I saw you and thought I’d say hello.” (1)

‘Sō ka. Nara mō sundarou. Sare. Cha nado jōdan ja nai… Benjo da. Usero!’ 「そうか。ならもう済んだろう。去れ。茶など冗談じゃない…便所だうせろ！」 “I see. Then you’re done. Go away. Don’t joke about us having tea... I’ll go to the restroom. Get lost!” [Chap 31]

At this Endeavor trieds to leave but All Might gets in his way and so the discussion continues.

‘Tsurenai koto iu na yo ̄!!’ 「つれないこと言うなよーー！！」 “Don’t say such cold things!”

‘Gutsu…’ 「ぐっ…」 “Gah…”

‘Kimi no musuko-san Shōto shōnen, chikara no hanbun mo tsukawazu subarashī seisekida. Kyōiku ga ī no kana?’ 「君の息子さん焦凍少年、力の半分も使わず素晴らしい成績だ。教育が良いのかな？」 “Your son, young Shōto, is getting a wonderful result without even using half of his power. I wonder if he’s getting a good training?’’ (2)

‘Nani ga ītai’ 「何が言いたい」 “What do you want to say?”

‘Iya MAJI de kikitakute sa. Jidai wo sodateru HOW TO tte no wo’ 「いやマジで聞きたくてさ。次代を育てるハウツーってのを」 “No, I seriously want to hear about it. How to raise the next generation.”

‘…? Kisama ni ore ga oshieru to omou ka? Aikawarazu sono akkerakan to shita taido ga shakunisawaru….’ 「……？貴様に俺が教えると思うか？相変わらずそのあっけらかんとした態度が癪に障る…」 “...? Do you think I’m going to teach you? As usual that careless attitude grates on my nerves...”

‘Gomen…’ 「ごめん…」 “Sorry…”

‘Kore dake oboe toke. ARE ha… izure kisama wo mo koeru HERO ni suru. Sō surubeku… tsukutta ko da’ 「これだけ覚えとけ。アレは…いずれ貴様をも越えるヒーローにする。そうするべく………つくった仔だ」 “Just remember this. That one we're talking about… I’ll make him a hero that will surpass you someday. In order to do that… I had/trained/created that child.” (3)

‘…Nani wo…’ 「………何を…」 “…What…”

‘Ima ha kudaran hankōki daga kanarazu koeru zo… koe saseru…!’ 「今は下らん反抗期だが必ず越えるぞ……越えさせる…！」 “Now he’s in a foolish rebellious age, but he’ll definitely surpass you...I’ll make him surpass you...!” (4) [Chap 31]

Okay, so this dialogue deserves some notes:

(1) Here in English manga there’s a slight mistranslation here as it says that the last time they spoke was 10 years ago. Actually 10 years ago they had a ‘taidan furi’ (対談振り) where ‘taidan’ (対談) means “a discussion between two people which is usually set up as a special occasion and whose topic is set in advance”... while ‘furi’ (振り) is “show”. So basically, 10 years ago they didn’t have a casual chat or one due to work or something but merely ended up together in some sort of talk show / combined interview and were made to talk. The anime makes it even more obvious because in it the sentence is:

‘10-Nen mae, media de taidan shite irai ka na! ?’ 「10年前、メディアで対談して以来かな！？」 “I think it’s been since we had a conversation with the media 10 years ago!?”

The mistake in the English translation gets even more misleading because 10 years ago is also the time in which Rei was hospitalized and Tōya died, so, since Rei’s hospitalization will come up short after in the story, one might think the two were connected and that Enji and All Might talked due to it... instead no, it was just due to them being in a talk show... which makes me wonder if Horikoshi changed his character as we saw Endeavor on TV in chap 1 as well, but later on, in chap 187, Natsuo will say he doesn’t appear on Talk shows.

Something else of note is that this also clashes with the continuity of “Vigilantes” as, in chap 122, All Might and Endeavor will cooperate to stop a Villain attack. Since “Vigilantes” takes place AFTER All Might and All for One’s big fight that injured both, it can’t be more than 6 years at the very best but, much likely, it’s less as this takes place at the end of “Vigilantes”. It’s true they didn’t really talk but still, they met. Though, of course, one can discharge the “Vigilantes” continuity as not canon compliant.

(2) While Endeavor is rude with All Might, All Might to talk with him uses a more polite ‘kimi’ (君) which is the “you” you use in a friendly way towards someone of equal or lower status... however, since it’s also often associated nowadays with the way older male supervisors address their subordinates, it could result in sounding condescending or snobbish. I’m pretty sure All Might is just trying to be friendly but polite, in fact when he refers to Enji’s son he calls him ‘kimi no musuko-san’ (君の息子さん) adding the ‘-san’ to ‘musuko’, even if, when he calls Shōto, he does in the same way he calls all the boys, using ‘Shōto shōnen’ (焦凍少年) where ‘shōnen‘ means “boy” but in the English manga is usually translated as “young”.

(3) So... Endeavor refers to Shōto as ‘アレ‘ (ARE) which in the past I saw creating a bit of a discussion as, according to some, it’s used just for things. However ‘アレ‘ can be used to refer to people that both you and the person(s) you are talking to know (have already met) so it’s not impossible to use it for people. In addition to this in the Japanese text there are dots over each character so as to underline them so picture him as underlining ‘are’ so I guess he’s just remarking how the person they’re talking about (aka Shōto) will surpass All Might. But there’s something else in that sentence that’s worth talking. Enji calls Shōto ‘ko’ which means “child” but the kanji he uses is not the usual one for “child” (子) but this one (仔) which means “young animal/cub” or “young plant/seedling”. I couldn’t find any source saying this could be an endearing way to refer to a human child and Enji’s expression doesn’t seem to imply he’s trying to be endearing... but my knowledge of Japanese isn’t good enough so I might be wrong. Last but not least, Endeavor uses ‘tsukutta’ (つくった), which the English version translates as “(That’s the only reason) I created (that child)”. It’s not a wrong translation since Endeavor did a Quirk marriage to create Shōto’s Quirk, but ‘tsukutta’ can be translated as “(That’s the only reason) I trained (that child)” which would also fit as Endeavor and All Might are talking about how to raise the new generations and Endeavor trained Shōto and with a more general “(That’s the only reason) I had (that child)”. Do your pick.

(4) Endeavor doesn’t call Shōto a brat but says he’s in a “foolish rebellious age” (下らん反抗期 ‘kudaran hankōki’). Basically he sees Shōto as acting in such way just because he’s a teen and not because he has legitimate grievances.

Anyway, in the end Endeavor leaves.

And now back to Shōto and Midoriya we go. Narratively, their dialogue starts before the one between Enji and All Might, is interrupted by their dialogue and then continues.

Midoriya notices Shōto is different from Bakugō, giving off a colder sort of intimidation air.

Shōto explains Midoriya overwhelmed him to the point he ended up on breaking his own pledge.

‘Keosareta jibun (read: temē) seiyaku o yabutchimau hodo ni yo.’ 「気圧された自分（てめえ）誓約��破っちまう程によ」 “I felt pressured by your nature (read: you) so much that I broke my vow to a degree.” [Chap 31]

So, if Endeavor uses ‘Kisama’ with All Might, Shōto here uses ‘temē’ (てめえ) with Midoriya, which is also a very rude way to say “you” used usually when the speaker is very angry and that’s often translated as “you, son of a bitch” (it’s worth to remember he used ‘omae’ (おまえ) which yes, means always “you” but it’s not rude, more like casual, when he challenged Midoriya, so here he’s trying to be more rude). Later though he’ll go back to ‘omae’ so we can guess here Shōto has just temporally lost it and is very upset.

The interesting part is that ‘temē’ is how we’re supposed to read ‘jibun’ (自分) which is a way to refer to oneself, used to refer to a person basic personality or nature, especially considered in terms of what that person is really like as a person. Basically here he’s already hinting than Midoriya is more than met the eye.

Anyway Midoriya understands when he says he broke his pledge he’s talking about how he didn’t use his left side, which would have been to his advantage to use.

Shōto goes on claiming no one else but him felt the pressure when Midoriya attacked him, the same pressure All Might gave off.

‘Īda mo Kaminari mo Yaoyorozu mo Tokoyami mo Uraraka mo… kanji tenakatta. Saigo no bamen ano ba de ore dake ga keosareta’ 「飯田も上鳴も八百万も常闇も麗日も…感じてなかった。最後の場面あの場で俺だけが気圧された」 “Īda, Kaminari, Yaoyorozu, Tokoyami, Uraraka... they didn’t feel it. In the final scene, I was the only one who felt pressured in that situation.” ‘Honki no ALL MIGHT wo midika de keiken shita ore dake.’ 「本気のオールマイトを身近で経験した俺だけ」 “I’m the only one who has experienced the real All Might up close.” [Chap 31]

Midoriya asks him what he’s meaning so Shōto goes on.

‘Omae ni dōyō no nanika wo kanji tatte kotoda.NaA……’ 「おまえに同様の何かを感じたってことだ。なア……」 “It means I felt something similar in you. Hey...” ‘ALL MIGHT no kakushigo ka nanka ka?’ 「オールマイトの隠し子か何かか？」 “Are you All Might’s hidden child or something?” [Chap 31]

Figuring out this was what Shōto meant in the past, when he said All Might had his eyes on him, Midoriya denies it heatedly and messily.

‘……”Sonna n jyanakute”-tte iikata ha… Sukunakutomo nanikashira ienai tsunagari ga aru tte kotoda na’ 『……「そんなんじゃなくて」って言い方は少なくとも何かしら言えない繋がりがあるってことだな』 “... ‘It’s not like that,’ you said, this way of talking means… there is at least some kind of connection that you can’t say, that’s what it means.” ‘Ore no oyaji ha ENDEAVOR, shitterudaro. Mannen No. 2 no HERO da’ 「俺の親父はエンデヴァー知ってるだろ。万年No.2のヒーローだ」 “My father is Endeavor, as you know. He is the eternal No. 2 Hero.” ‘Omae ga No. 1 HERO no nanika wo motterunara ore ha…… naosara katanakya ikenē’ 「おまえがNo.1ヒーローの何かを持ってるなら俺は……尚更勝たなきゃいけねえ」 “If you have something/some connection with the No. 1 hero, I… have to win even more.” [Chap 31]

Here it’s actually the point in which the discussion switched back to All Might and Endeavor, but as we already covered that one, we move back to Shōto and Midoriya’s discussion.

‘Oyaji ha kiwamete jōshō shikō no tsuyoi yatsuda.’ 「親父は極めて上昇志向の強い奴だ」 “My father is a guy with an extremely strong desire to rise.” (1) ‘HERO to shite hachiku no ikioi de na wo hasetaga… soredakeni ikeru densetsu ALL MIGHT ga mezawari de shikatanakatta rashī’ 「ヒーローとして破竹の勢いで名を馳せたが…それだけに生ける伝説オールマイトが目障りで仕方なかったらしい」 “With irresistible impetus he made a name for himself as a hero, but... because of this he can’t help but find the the living legend, All Might, an eyesore.” (2) (3) ‘Jibun de ha ALL MIGHT wo koe rarenē oyaji ha tsugi no saku ni deta.’ 「自分ではオールマイトを超えられねえ親父は次の策に出た」 “Unable to surpass All Might on his own/by himself, my father came up with the next plan.” [Chap 31]

(1) ‘Jōshō shikō’ (上昇志向) can be translated with “desire for improvement (in social standing)”/”Desire to rise”/”ambition” which is the translation followed by the anime subbers, while the manga prefers to go for saying he only thinks of becoming stronger. Since they’re talking of how Enji is Number Two while All might is Number 1, desire to rise (in rank) seems to me a more fitting translation, though of course Enji thinks if he’ll rise in strength he’ll rise in rank so the manga translation kind of get the concept across as well.

(2) ‘Hachikunoikioi’ (破竹の勢い) literally means “with the force of a broken bamboo” and it’s a way to say to imply “great vigor/impetus/energy” that’s tied to how splitting bamboo goes all down the stick. I think the idea is that Shōto is also trying to deliver Enji gave it all to get to that place, that he was kind on an irresistible Tsunami, something against which others couldn’t oppose, as other translations can be “irresistible force” and “unopposed”.

(3) ‘Mezawari’ (目障り) literally means something that’s “an hindrance to the eye” therefore an “eyesore/unpleasant sight” but also something that’s “obstructing a view” so yes, it also implies All Might is in Enji’s path.

Midoriya interrupts Shōto to asks him why he’s telling him all that.

‘Kosei kon. Shitteru yo na.’ 「個性婚知ってるよな」 “Quirk marriage. Do you know about it?” ‘“Chōjō” ga okite kara dai ni ~ daisan sedai-kan de mondai ni natta yatsu…’ 「 “超常”が起きてから第二～第三世代間で問題になったやつ…」 “After the ‘paranormal’ happened, between the second and third generation they became a problem...” ‘Jishin no “kosei” wo yori kyōka shite tsuga seru tame dake ni haigūsha wo erabi…… kekkon wo shiiru. Rinri-kan no ketsuraku shita zenjidaiteki hassō’ 「自身の”個性”をより強化して継がせる為だけに配偶者を選び…… 結婚を強いる。倫理観の欠落した前時代的発想」 “In order to pass in inheritance a further strengthened version your ‘Quirk’ choose a spouse… and get her married to you by force. Old-fashioned way of thinking which lacks in ethics.” ‘Jisseki to kane dake ha aru otoko da… Oyaji ha haha no shinzoku wo marumekomi haha no “kosei” wo teniireta.’ 「実績と金だけはある男だ…親父は母の親族を丸め込み母の”個性”を手に入れた」 “He’s a man with archievents and money...My father persuaded my mother’s relatives and obtained my mother’s ‘Quirk’.” (1) ‘Ore wo ALL MIGHT ijō no HERO ni sodate ageru koto de jishin no yokkyū wo mitasōtte kotta’ 「俺をオールマイト以上のヒーローに育て上げることで自身の欲求を満たそうってこった」 “Through raising me to be a hero greater than All Might he wanted to fulfill his own desires.” [Chap 31]

(1) ‘Marumekomi’ (丸め込み) literally “rounding included” means “to talk someone into doing what you want”, “to persuade him” but also “to manipulate”, “to swindle”. I’ll say Shōto is giving a definitive negative connotation to how Enji managed to win Rei from his parents... even though the story later on will show Enji didn’t really have to put much effort into it. They were eager to sell Rei off to him. I find also interesting how Shōto refers to them as ‘haha no shinzoku’ (母の親族 “mother’s relatives”) were Tōya will talk of ‘obā-chan-tachi’ (おばあちゃん達 “Grandmother and the others”). We know Rei’s mother was still alive when Shōto was a kid but as he talks with them so distantly I wonder if this means differently from Tōya he wasn’t close to his maternal grandparents.

A break here to go back to how, so far, Shōto’s past matches with the one of his prototype. Shōto was planned to have birth due to Quirk marriage so that Enji could pass him a stronger version of his Quirk... but that’s all that was left from the original idea that also saw Shōto growing to hate Rei and seek for his father’s love by becoming more powerful than him.

Horikoshi basically reversed his original idea. So let’s continue and see how canon Shōto now is.

‘Uttōshī…! Sonna kuzu no dōgu ni ha naranē’ 「うっとうしい…！そんな屑の道具にはならねえ」 “That’s annoying...! I won’t become a tool for such a piece of trash.” (1) ‘Kioku no naka no haha ha itsumo naiteru… “Omae no hidarigawa ga minikui” to haha ha ore ni nieyu wo abiseta.’ 「記憶の中の母はいつも泣いてる…「おまえの左側が醜い」と母は俺に煮え湯を浴びせた」 “In my memories, my mother is always crying... ‘Your left side is ugly,’ my mother said, hurling boiling hot water to me.” (2) ‘Zatto hanashita ga ore ga omae ni tsukkakan no ha mikaesu tameda. KUSO oyaji no “kosei” nanza nakutatte… iya… tsukawazu “ichiban ni naru” koto de yatsu wo kanzen hitei suru’ 「ざっと話したが俺がおまえにつっかかんのは見返す為だ。クソ親父の”個性”なんざなくたって…いや…使わず”一番になる”ことで奴を完全否定する」 “To put it simply, the reason why I’m colliding with you is to triumph over him. Without using my shitty father’s ‘Quirk’... no... By “getting first place” without using it, I’ll completely repudiate him.” [Chap 31]

(1) ‘Kuzu’ (屑) means “waste/scrap/garbage”. Just by Shōto calling Enji this way and saying he won’t become his tool (道具 ‘Dōgu’) we clearly get he’s not really courting his affection as he was meant to do in the prototype version.

(2) ‘Minikui’ (醜い) means “ugly/unattractive/unsightly/unseemly”. We don’t have yet Shōto’s opinion on Rei, beyond that she kept on crying, nor any mention about Enji abusing her. There’s to wonder if the new plan was for both parents to hate him and then it was changed, though since he doesn’t seem to have problems using Rei’s Quirk, it might also be Horikoshi had decided already for her being loved by Shōto.

Going on with the story, Bakugō overheard their conversation. Midoriya realizes how different they are. Meanwhile Shōto starts to leave.

‘Ienēnara betsuni ī omae ga. ALL MIGHT no nandearō to. Ore ha migi dake de omae no ue ni iku. Jikan tora seta na’ 「言えねえなら別にいい。おまえがオールマイトの何であろうと俺は右だけでおまえの上に行く。時間とらせたな」 “If you can’t tell me it’s fine. No matter what you are to All Might I’ll win over you with my right hand only. Sorry for taking your time.” [Chap 31]

Midoriya thinks such a backstory would make Shōto the main character if they were in a comic book... and wonders what he can tell to him. Ultimately he stops Shōto and tells him that he had always been supported by others and that’s what also happened during the Cavalry Battle. That he wants to become All Might and therefore he won’t lose because that’s how he’ll repay the people who had helped him and therefore he’s going to beat Shōto.

Next up is the “one-on-one earnest/serious battles” (一対一のガチバトラ ‘Ichitaiichi no GACHI BATTLE’ where ‘GACHI’ is an abbreviation for the sumo term ‘GACHINKO’ (ガチンコ) which means a “serious fight”).

Before the fight Shōto spends some time alone, to prepare himself.

Midoriya is in the first match, against Shinsō Hitoshi. The one of the two who were to win would then fight with the winner of the second match. Midoriya comes out as the winner.

Shōto is in the second match, his first adversary is Sero Hanta.

As he’s moving toward the arena, so as to start his fight, he finds Endeavor, leaning against a wall, arms crossed, on his path. By now, Endeavor’s costume is the one which will stay as the definitive one until he’ll change it once he’ll become Number 1.

The two exchange a brief and unfriendly dialogue, with Endeavor scolding Shōto and Shōto remarking he’ll win his own way.

‘…Jamada’ 「………邪魔だ」 “…You’re in my way.”

‘Shūtai bakari da na Shōto’ 「醜態ばかりだな焦凍」 “That was a disgraceful behavior, Shōto.” (1) ‘Hidari no “chikara” wo tsukaeba, shōgaibutsukyōsō mo gibasen mo attō dekita HAZU daro’ 「左の”力”を使えば障害物競走も騎馬戦も圧倒出来たハズだろ」 “If you had used the ‘power’ of your left side, you would have surely been able to dominate both the obstacle course and the cavalry battle.” ‘Ii kagen kodomo jimita hankō wo yamero. Omae ni ha ALL MIGHT wo koeru to iu gimu ga arunda zo’ 「良い加減子どもじみた反抗をやめろ。おまえにはオールマイトを超えるという義務があるんだぞ」(2) “Quit your irresponsible childish rebellion. You have a duty that’s called ‘surpass All Might’.” ‘Wakatteru no ka? Nī-san-ra to ha chigau. Omae ha saikō kessaku nanda zo!’ 「わかってるのか？兄さんらとは違うお前は最高傑作なんだぞ！」 “Do you understand? You’re different from your older brother and your other siblings. You are (my) greatest masterpiece!” (3)

‘Sore shika ienē no ka, temeE ha… Okāsan no chikara dake de kachi agaru. Tatakai de temeE no chikara ha tsukawanē’ 「それしか言えねえのかてめェは…お母さんの力だけで勝ち上がる戦いでてめェの力は使わねぇ」 “That’s all you can say? You are... I will win with my mother’s power alone. In battle I won’t use your power.” (4)

‘Gakusei no uchi (read: ‘ima’) ha tsūyō shita to shite mo sugu genkai ga kuru zo’ 「学生のうち(いま)は通用したとしてもすぐ限界が来るぞ」　 “Among students (read: ‘now’) it might work, but you will soon reach your limit.” (5) [Chap 34]

(1) ‘Shūtai’ (醜態) means “shameful sight/disgraceful behavior” and it’s used for something that you feel bad just looking at it and it probably feels bad too.

(2) We can see to talk with Shōto Enji uses ‘omae’ (おまえ), the casual way of “you” which is much better than the ‘kisama’ he uses with All Might.

(3) Enji uses ‘Nī-san-ra’ (兄さんら) to talk about Shōto’s siblings. Literally it means “your older brother and the others” ‘-ra’ is a very casual way to make a plural, and the fact he uses “your older brother and the others” implies Shōto is the younger among more children, the oldest being a male. Enji also calls Shōto ‘saikō kessaku’ (最高傑作) which is usually translated just “masterpiece” but actually means “greatest masterpiece!”

(4) If Enji uses ‘omae’ Shōto instead uses again ‘temē’ (てめえ) the very rude way to say “you” used usually when the speaker is very angry and that’s often translated as “you, son of a bitch”. Twice.

(5) We’ve a new case in which the kanji say something, in this case ‘Gakusei no uchi’ (学生のうち “among students”) but the reading says something else, in this case ‘ima’ (いま “now”) likely because Enji wants to imply that’s not ‘right now, against Sero,’ but it’s as long as he stays in high school.

What’s noteworthy about this dialogue?

In the next volume we’ll learn Enji forced Shōto to go through an hellish (read: abusive) training and beat Rei who tried to protect her child, leading her to madness. Here however, even though Shōto disappointed him and he’s extremely disrespectful and they’re alone he doesn’t threaten nor beat him. There’s to wonder if Horikoshi hadn’t yet planned that part of Enji and Shōto’s past, or if in original he planned for Enji to stop his physically abusive behavior sooner. Well, we’ll never know.

Back to the story Sero throws a surprise attack at Shōto and ties him with his tape but Shōto is still furious so answers to his attack with an overwhelming amount of ice that immobilizes Sero and destroys the tape he had used to tie Shōto. Shōto apologizes, admitting he went overboard because he was angry.

‘Sumanē… yari sugida. IRAtsuite da’ 「すまねえ…やりすぎだ。イラついてだ」 “Sorry… I went overboard. I was irritated.” [Chap 34]

Midoriya notices that, despite having just won, as Shōto desforst Seto, something about him seems really sad.

The battles continues, we can see Shōto seems to be watching the match that’s about to start between Uraraka Ochako and Bakugō Katsuki which is the final battle before the quarter finals will start.

MORE ABOUT THIS ARC IN THE NEXT VOLUME

WHAT DID WE LEARN ABOUT THE TODOROKIS’ PAST?

Shōto was born 15 years ago on January 11.

Enji and Rei had a Quirk marriage, Enji persuading Rei’s parents to let her marry him.

10 years ago Endeavor took part to a "conversation session" (対談振 ‘taidan fu’) with All Might and the media.

Shōto remembers Rei always crying and, one day, she lost it and threw boiling water at him, scarring him permanently.

When Shōto was young Rei was often crying. In the end she told him she couldn’t stand to his left side and threw scalding water at him, scarring his face.

KNOWN TODOROKIS TIMELINE UP UNTIL NOW

March: U.A. entrance test for recommended students.

April’s second week: Todoroki Shōto enters U.A. High school.

April: Quirk test. Todoroki Shōto places second.

April: Battle Trial: Todoroki Shōto, who is in Team B and paired up with Shōji Mezō play the role of the Heroes against Team I formed by Ojiro Mashirao and Hagakure Tōru and defeat them easily.

April: Rescue training. During it Villains lead by Shigaraki Tomura attack class A. Kurogiri causes Todoroki Shōto to end up in the landline zone where the boy defeats all the Villains who try to come at it and, once done, reaches All Might and helps him by freezing the Nomu against which All Might was fighting.

May (either the 3 or the 5 as sport festivals are usually held on a national holiday): U.A. Sport festival. Shōto takes part to it. Enji watches it.

HOW ARE THE TODOROKIS DRESSED?

Todoroki Enji is shown in his Hero costume.

Todoroki Rei is shown in jeans and T-shirt.

Todoroki Shōto is shown in his gym suit.

IS THERE MORE CONTENT ABOUT THE TODOROKIS?

Todoroki Shōto is among the students depicted on the cover.

Of course he’s also among the characters depicted among the ones starring in the volume.

The volume title “The Boy Born with Everything” (全てを持って生まれた男の子 Subete wo Motte Umareta Otoko no Ko) is a reference to him and he can be seen in a tiny image in the content page.

“The Boy Born with Everything” (全てを持って生まれた男の子 Subete wo Motte Umareta Otoko no Ko) is also the title of chapter 31 (as well as of episode 19).

He also appears in the color cover for chap 29...

...on the cover for chap 31 which shows his U.A. file...

...and on the cover of chap 34.

Enji appears in the assistant introduction page.

#boku no hero academia #Todoroki Shouto #Todoroki Enji #Todoroki Rei #Keeping up with the Todorokis

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nonelysianthoughts · 3 months

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Welcome

Come one come all, I welcome you to this chaotic space I call my own. You may refer to me as Elysia for now, and for now all I ask is that you beware of where you tread within this library of thoughts and literature (*cough cough fanfics*)

About Elysia! Adult, She/Her, Ravenclaw, Mythology lover, Child of Poseidon, Sagittarius Sun, Pisces Moon, Pisces Ascendant, Reader, INTJ-T, 3w4, Engene, Lana Del Rey Stan, Selenophile, Astrophile, Daydreamer, TWST player, Manhwa reader, casual kpop listener, amateur editor, moodboard maker, Pinterest addict

Books! The Inheritance Games, The Lunar Chronicles, RiordanVerse, Harry Potter, The Song of Achilles, The Young Elites (though it is seldom talked about), Heartless, A Good Girls Guide to Murder, The Hunger Games, The Selection, The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo, The Invisible Life of Addie Larue, The Folk of the Air series,

Anime+Donghua!! My Hero Academia, Fairy Tail, Assassination Classroom, Fruits Basket, Danganronpa, The Seven Deadly Sins, Snow White with the Red Hair, My Next Life as a Villainess, Demon Slayer, Toilet Bound Hanako-Kun, The Promised Neverland, Hunter X Hunter, Maid Sama, Spy X Family, Oshi No Ko, Blue Lock, Jujutsu Kaisen, Link Click,

Manhwa+Manga! (Warning: I’m probably not caught up on any of these) Who Made me a Princess, The Way to Protect the Female Leads Older Brother, Death is the only Ending for the Villainess, The Villainess Reverses the Hourglass, I’ll be the Matriarch in this Life, Father, I don’t want to get Married!, The Villainess is a Marionette, Actually, I was the Real One, My Husband Hides his Beauty, The Strongest Characters in the World are Obsessed with me, Insos Law, Lillian of Turin, Becoming the Villains Family, How to get my Husband on my Side, Ashtarte, The Broken Ring: This Marriage will Fail Anyway, Dreaming Freedom, The Real Daughter is Back, The Reason why Raeliana Ended up at the Dukes Mansion, The Tyrant wants to Live Honestly, Second Life of a Trash Princess, Pure Villain, Even if you Slit my Mouth, Kasane, Sister, I am the Queen in this Life, How to Survive as a Maid in a Horror Game, The First Night with the Duke, To You Who Swallowed a Star, The Empress’ Lipstick, Never Ending Darling, Zero Game, Villain to Kill, Muse on Fame, Cierra, Seasons of Blossom, 66,666 Years: Advent of the Dark Mage, Go Away Romeo, Omniscient Reader, Wavering Worlds, See you in my 19th Life, Phone Addict, Men of the Harem, The Perfect Hybrid, Blood of the Butterfly, Your Throne, The Remarried Empress

Music! Lana Del Rey, Enhypen, New Jeans, Taylor Swift, Olivia Rodrigo, Blackpink, Bts, Muiscals, Ren Zotto, Maneskin

Currently!

Audiobook(s):

Online read(s): The Kingdom of Back, Circe, Shatter Me

Physical read(s): The Rule of Thoughts, The Songs from the Deep

Manhwa/Webtoon I’m catching up with: Return of the Female Knight, The Tyrant wants to Live Honestly, Zero Game

Shows: Death Note, Avatar: the Last Airbender (animated series), Outer Banks, Gilmore Girls, Percy Jackson and the Olympians

#welcome #introduction #tumblr intro #introductory post #nice to meet you

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perpetuelledaydreaming · 11 months

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Would've Could've Should've | prologue

listen to: Would've Could've Should've- Taylor Swift| Happiness Is a Butterfly - Lana del Rey (playlist here)

warnings: power imbalance (teacher, student), 20+ years age gap, toxic relationships. Drinking. Implied smut. Grief. As the story progresses warnings will be added.

series masterlist + read the next chapter early on my ko-fi!!

He was already inside the bar, quite a while there before you entered it. You didn’t notice him at first, not really. You were too spent to notice him first. The dimly lit room, sparsely populated with only a few patrons scattered around didn’t allow you to get a good look at him.

He, instead, noticed you right away. There was something about you, a melancholy that he himself felt. It wasn’t per se that you’d made it obvious. No. The older he got, the more he simply knew things. Sometimes. Not all the time. Not really, right now as he nursed the whiskey in his hand, he only felt lost. He stole a glance at you, he noticed the way your face was contorting as you stared at your phone for a moment, the way you struggled not to cry for a single second. Eyes changing, a small kind smile, to Jimmy who asked you for your order.

“A Martini?”

He liked your voice. He enjoyed the way it was soft, the way you weren’t ordering anyone, he enjoyed the doubt, he relished in it. He enjoyed it when he was young and didn’t know much. It made you seem as if you hadn’t ordered it before. The corners of his lips tugged slightly before he sipped again on his whiskey, looking away momentarily.

The bartender, an old man that night, brought you your drink silently. You took it and stared at it for a moment. Your mother wouldn’t like you drinking. She wouldn’t agree. It wasn’t you. You knew she was right, it wasn’t your thing to drink on a Tuesday night. It wasn’t you to cut out all of your friends. It wasn’t like you to move to the other side of the country without telling anyone. But the more you thought, without her, who did you really have?

Looking up suddenly, you feel his gaze and turn, your eyes meet his. His eyes were a deep shade of blue. He was approximately in his late forties, early fifties if you weren’t forgiving. His hair was soft and black, with a hint of white in the corners. There was an air about him that suggested he was cold and intelligent. You weren’t sure how to react, you stared at him.

And then he smiled at you.

“First drink of the day?” his voice low and raspy as his eyes fell on the Martini.

If you were honest, it was your first drink in over a year. You hadn’t had time to drink while you were taking care of your mom. As you sat there, you realized that you hadn’t done a lot of things in your life.

“Yeah,” you breathed out with difficulty.

He stares when your hair falls in soft waves around your face. He’d seen his fair share of beautiful people but he felt drawn to you in a way he couldn’t quite decipher. A moth to a flame. You shine, sparkling like champagne in the light but then you again, you seemed like you wanted to hide.

“You?” you asked, watching him intently.

Beau shook his head. “Not my first,” he confessed. For some reason, he felt self-conscious about the way you were looking at him. He was probably too old for this. In truth, you were thinking he looked lonely too. And for a moment, since your mother, you felt seen.

“What’s your name?” you asked him, a little bit more forward than before.

“Beau,” he said.

“Very French,” you answered, smiling approvingly.

It didn’t suit him. He seemed to be the type of the men who had a stronger name at first glance but the more you stared at him, you believed you were missing something.

“You?”

He smiled approvingly as well when you told him. He repeated it, slowly, he enjoyed the way it rolled off his tongue. You relished the way he said it. His eyes crinkle as he smiled at you. A surprising softness in the way he looked at you, made your heart beat faster for a moment.

“What do you do?”

“Right now, I’m a student,” you answered, honestly.

Beau cursed himself as his gaze traveled through your whole body. You didn’t give it away. A black pair of heel boots, those jeans, an oversize cream sweater. He understood it was cold, it was December, but you were dressed more conservatively than any of his students. It was also the way you carried yourself, there was a halo about you. You were grown up or you’d been forced to grow up.

“You don’t look like a student to me,”

You raised your eyebrows as you sipped your Martini. “What do I look like to you?” you asked, giving him a sly side glance.

Beau’s heart faltered for a moment. At least, that’s what he believed. The way your face lit up, it was a work of art. You were so beautiful, it was almost unfair. It was unfair that you probably hadn’t been born by the time he’d chosen a wife, it was unfair that he hadn’t met you before, it was unfair that he met you today when he’d fought with his wife for what it seemed like the million time this week.

“I’m not sure,” he answered clearing his throat once he caught that he’d been silent for too long. “You just seemed more mature than for being a student,”

Suddenly, you felt stunned. The statement slices a painless cut in you. He wouldn’t know. He shouldn’t have known that’s what every adult told you since you were a kid. That you’ve always been responsible and mature, that you’ve always been able to relate more to adults, that you never needed someone to take care of you, that you were the one taking care of your mom. For the first time in forever, you don’t relish what he believes is a compliment.

“It must be a lot,” he said when he figured your mind had gone somewhere else.

“What?”

“To be as mature as you are,” he answered. “I understand,”

You are stunned, once again. You gaze at him as he takes the last sip of his whiskey and with a sigh, he gazed back at you. You were watching him wide-eyed, searching his features for something. He can see it, the way he just stroked a chord. You were watching him as if he’d known you your whole life.

“You want another drink?”

You pressed your lips together as you stared at the Martini for a moment, you tilted your head sideways as you weighed your options. The more responsible part of you thought that you should leave it at that. The other part, well, that other part was the one you’ve been holding back.

“Thank you,” you said with a nod.

Beau ordered both of your drinks with a certain ease. He wasn’t like the men you met before. He wasn’t like the boys your age. He didn’t seem cruel. He didn’t seem as insecure as they were. He didn’t seem too entranced by the idea of sex. He seemed like he actually cared.

“What actually brought you here, if I may ask?” he said quietly as he took another sip of the whiskey.

“I’m a student,” you answered, drinking your second Martini. “They called me because I’m the best,”

Beau smirked slightly. Nodding, he drank. He savored the way you’d said that you were the best, he enjoy confidence. For him, when he was your age, it seemed like it was the only thing he had. Sure, he was good looking and he was good with planes, but honestly what made him was his confidence. He gazed at you, those eyes looking at him through those long lashes, you felt like a dream.

“You?”

Beau sighed defeatedly. “Been living here since my twenties,” he said.

“Never left?”

“Left a lot of times,”

You nodded softly as your eyes took him in. You hadn’t noticed previously, but there, under his leather jacket, you easily could identify the beige uniform. He was Navy. By his age, he was probably an Admiral. You watch him drinking the whiskey, not aware of the way you suddenly tensed up. You could always ask him about it. You could always let him know that you were going to become a student in the next week at Top Gun, you could leave it at this. Selfishly though, you didn’t want to.

It’d been a while since you’d met someone who actually caused an impression on you.

“So, Beau,” you said softly. “Tell me about you with one rule,”

His lips tugged upward softly as he watched you, the way you were tilting your head, the way your cheeks were tinted with pink, your rosy lips, that sly smile.

“Anything you want, doll,” he teased.

He saw you pressing your lips together, trying to drown the smile you felt. He could see how your eyes shimmered at the nickname. Maybe he’d embarrassed you and he truly had, doll sounded like something from the 80s but then again, it’d made your heart flip on your chest.

“Nothing about work,” you said softly, taking a sip and peacefully waiting.

Beau’s brows furrowed for a moment. He waited, but you didn’t elaborate. A faint alarm could be heard in the back of his mind, but he ignored it.

“Done,”

The night passed along. You talked about Queen and Aerosmith. Beau told you how he was never really interested in the Royal Family, you talked about how your mother had told you about Princess Diana since you could remember. You talked about politics but both of you decided to drop the topic soon enough because it was getting to a heated conversation. You talked about ‘One-Hundred Years of Solitude’, how Beau’s father had forced him to read it while you’d stolen it from your mother. You discussed the Yellow butterflies and the way Remedios rose to the sky. He talked about his father and his mother, and how strict they were. You laughed at the stories of his youth, and when he asked you about yours, you told him that you’d been a quiet girl with not many stories to tell. He’d told you that you were still young, that you could still make stories. You wondered if he meant he could be part of them. Then, you talked about what you’re going to do for Christmas and New Year's, you end up telling him that you are going to be alone since you don’t know anyone here and your mom’s gone.

You don’t expect it to roll so easily off your tongue if you were honest. The warmth of the alcohol fills your belly in such a pleasant way, bubbles climb to your brain and so suddenly your chest doesn’t ache so badly as you tell him that she was sick and had been gone for a month. Beau, who also began to feel like he was levitating around his fifth drink, gazes back at you with a puzzled look.

When his parents passed away, although he didn’t express much. He always felt comforted by the presence of Lauren and his kids. All of them knew he was sad but he never said anything, all of them knew he needed them. He bit his inner cheek as he recalled those days, the days when he clung to Lauren and his family. It didn’t pass through his mind that he’d been looking for time to get away from them in those days.

“So, honestly, why are you here?” he then asked softly. “If you’re alone, you could’ve stayed with your friends,”

You shrugged.

“That’s not an answer,” he said more sternly. You snorted softly while sipping the last of your fifth Martini. In fifteen minutes midnight would come and now you didn’t have it in yourself to be a bit more careful with your words.

“I don’t want to tell you,” you confessed.

Beau gave you one of his amused looks.

“No?”

“No,” you answered shaking your head as you stared at him. His face was lit up with amusement as he stared at you, biting his lower lip. You took a deep breath as you weighed your options, you decided on the latter. “Because you’ll never want to fuck me,”

For a moment Beau thought he didn’t hear you correctly. And then he looked at you, you were dripping beauty, youthfulness. Your eyes for a moment, he could see, were full of lust and that confidence that he now felt so deprived of. There was something inside of him that woke up with you.

“I didn’t mean,” you began to retract as soon as he didn’t answer.

Beau shook his head, worried he might’ve offended you and suddenly he held you had.

Your breathing stopped as you watched his large hand covering yours, holding you. He was cold, goosebumps erupted on your skin as you watched him touch you, then your eyes fell on his. You could see he was trying to hold back, fighting with himself about what he should do. He exhales a sigh.

“I’m just too old for a girl like you,” he answered softly but he gets closer to you, closer than he’d ever been throughout the whole night.

Beau, who had been planning to return to his house where his wife was with his three children, was suddenly secretly waiting that you would fight him back on it. He watched you take in the answer as you bit your cheek and nodded softly, for a moment looking away but then scooting closer to him.

“Maybe you’re right,” you answered.

“What?”

You shrugged but still, he waited for an answer, mostly demanding it by the way he was looking at you.

“I believe I’m not too young for me to fuck you,” you answered with a Cheshire smile. “Maybe, you’re just too old to fuck me,”

Beau scoffed a small chuckle and for the first time his smile spread all over his face, his eyes crinkled as he watched you in awe, your face lit up in a soft laughter. “I can’t believe you just said that,” he mumbled.

“You’ve given me more alcohol than I’ve had in nine months, this is your fault,” you said shaking your head. You looked around the bar, it was almost empty now. “I’m going to go home,” you finally stated.

“Let me take you,” Beau said in a hurry as he felt you slipping away.

You looked back at him for a moment and then down at your hands, his touch lingering. For a moment, you wanted to let him take you but then you saw the gold band on his finger. Swallowing hard you stared at it for a moment. Everything had been so good until that moment, your heart aches at the thought. It wasn’t fair.

“You’ve been drinking,” you stated as you pulled your hand away, for a moment, the better part of you taking control of yourself.

“You can’t seem to hold down your liquor,” he answered as he placed some bills on the bar. Nodding towards the older guy while you put on your coat, faster than he expected you to.

Beau didn’t really know what to do with himself but when he realized, he was closer to you than ever before. So close that he could smell the vanilla and almonds scent from your hair. You tilted your head up, gazing at him for a moment.

And then just then he realized he never wanted to stop seeing you.

“If you take me home we will have sex,” you whispered.

“I don’t see anything wrong in that,” he breathed out.

You raised your eyebrows at the statement. He didn’t seem to be insincere, he was telling you the truth. But you couldn’t believe it, not even if you wanted to. So, you asked again.

“You sure you don’t?” you asked, watching him through your long lashes. Beau didn’t answer, he simply shook his head as his hand suddenly fell on your hip. You swallowed hard as you stared at him, pretending that his hand touching you didn’t light a fire inside of you.

“I don’t want you to fall in love with me,” you finally breathed out.

A last attempt to dissuade him and yourself, to pull back. But as you heard yourself you knew that it wasn’t true, what you really meant was ‘I don’t want to fall in love with you’.

“I think it’s too late for that,”

author's note: I'm so excited about this fic! Let me know your thoughts! I had a depressive episode this week lols. so it's been hard to write but I'm really proud that I've forced myself to write this!

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