#rest is productive too

[feralchaton]

#reset #break #pause #hiatus #healing is a process #feralchaton #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #quotes #keep going #rest is productive too #reset as needed

[mueritos]

i hope we continue to see more protests within the US military. i see a lot of leftists and folks who are anti-military who have such an open disdain for the people who are in the military, yet neglect to considering the conditions this country makes to produce ideology, poverty, and the illusion of choice to make all kinds of people choose to enlist in the military. You ever see those videos of ROTC kids recording each other asking why they joined the military and everyone's like, "healthcare", "it helped me go to college", "I was bored" or "free ptsd lol". I hate to remind everyone but folks who are in the military are people, too, and they are the same victims and perpetrators of violence as the rest of you, we have all been shallowly conditioned to view each other as enemies just because one person is wearing army greens and the other is not.

some of the biggest anti-war advocates are those who engaged in war. Veterans who genuinely believed they were protecting the US against "terrorism" come back with blood on their hands, and they choose to realize that it was US imperialism that forced them to carry out violence, instead of doubling down and shielding themselves from the fact that they too are capable of atrocities... This is a class of people who are intentionally conditioned to be as poor and as ideologically aligned to US imperialism so that the military has a never-ending pool to send their youth to destroy other country's youth. The only people I have ever heard say "do not join the military" are those who ARE military.

This is in no way to ever excuse or explain away any of the atrocious war crimes and violence this industry and its people have committed against others. What I am saying is that we absolutely cannot cast aside the individuals who have been victimized within US imperialism, even if they are wearing army greens. I was speaking with my Palestinian classmate last week and another classmate--a member of the US air force-- walked up to me and struck up a conversation. My military classmate showed me her new bird, bid both of us goodbye, and left. My Palestinian classmate asked me if I was close with her, and I said we talked quite often, and she said, "I never met a person who's in the military. I still hate the military, but I never knew that they did, too. I didn't realize that they were also victims."

If my Palestinian classmate--one who is actively watching her own community die--can understand that it is not individuals who are the problem but it is in fact systems, US imperialism, white supremacy, capitalism...why can't we all? And she has EVERY reason to hate any individual military member. A lot of online activism just creates more barriers. if your optics look bad, complicated, or contradictory, you are cast aside. Everyone has got the be the perfect activist, you can never make a mistake or share a half-baked thought, you should always believe every word from a marginalized persons mouth (because being marginalized doesn't mean you're not entrenched in white supremacy too!) and you should never question what you see...Do you know what you sound like? The very imperialists who are convincing poor whites to vote against themselves. Perfectionism is white supremacy. Black & white thinking is white supremacy.

I'd rather have a military member who genuinely believed in the US imperialism machine but was disillusioned after being deployed as my comrade than some leftist who cherishes the performance of "being a good person". I don't want "good people" in our movements. I want humans who care. I want humans who make mistakes and who learn from them. I want humans who accept the messiness of a person. I want humans who hold others accountable and allow themselves to take responsibility for their actions. I want people who change for themselves and others.

fight systems, not individual people. we can change each other, but if we're too preoccupied looking like the World's Perfect Activists, we will only consume each other alive. Connect to your fellow humans, forever and always.

#muertotalks #a mind dump after seeing so much come out after the self immolation of the us air force member #i know hes not the first one to self immolate for palestine #and he might not be the last #i hate the military #i really fucking do #but i choose to see the people within them as victims within the overall system just like the rest of us #i will never go through what they did to make them choose to enlist #i never struggled with poverty homelessness healthcare or social acceptance #i wont shame them #shame is not productive #i want them to know there are civilians who support their protests #i want them to know that we their allies too #a note on my palestinian classmate #if youre arab or also a colonized person impacted by the us military feel free to hate every member of the military #i dont intend to police yall in how you choose to feel your anger #im angry with you #the point i mean to make is about understanding and compassion #someone who has every right to hate these people still chose to see them as the people they are #yes i even want the best for the “bad” people in the military too #i dont want these people to continue the ideology but we cant stop that without dismantling these systems #and we cant do that without creating spaces for healing and reform and growth #so many thoughts so many thoughts #none of this is easy #i fight daily against impulsively hating the world #everyday is a fight to choose compassion and understanding #but being a leftist and doing leftism is not fucking easy #if you genuinely think it is it isnt #and you may be missing the point of what leftism is #anyway

[thlassicalamity]

learning after effects by. doing whatever this is, apparently

#luo binghe #svsss #scum villian self saving system #scum villains self saving system #incorrect svsss quotes #mxtx #incorrect mxtx #i just did tutorials until i figured out how to edit the curves for keyframes and then was like #'i'll figure the rest out by making a binghe edit'. first of all. you and what content. #and then this took me like. Way too many fucking hours anyway. ...i genuinely don't want to talk about it. learning programs is hard #this was not how i was supposed to be spending my free time this week. oops. learning valuable new tools can be productive. #even if it occurs through creating. this #anwyay i've been thinking about that post + illustration together ever since i saw the image for the first time

[izvmimi]

yk how couples start to resemble each other after a while or pick up each other’s habits? what do you think you pick up from your f/o and vice versa?

#i think izuku ends up transferring his tendency to think out loud #he picks up my tendency to talk with my hands and say ‘like’ unnecessarily #i think we start to smile the same over time too #we also smell the same because he steals my hair products #mimidoriya #tanjiro picks up specific phrases i say #i start to stand similarly and place my hands in similar ways at rest #tanjimimi

[kirby-the-gorb]

#kirby #knife kirby #knives #kirby makes stuff #cursed image #daily kirby #my art #digital #hal laboratory #nintendo #y'all I was well enough to cut out the rest of the extra stickers that have been sitting on my desk since january. #I'll probably be listing the leftover stickers and prints from kirb2k on kofi tomorrow <3 #I'd only meant to do it 3 entire months ago :v #like I cannot fully convey just how incredibly ill I've been. #(I have a lot of extra stickers cuz I ordered 2 sheets of 14 individuals and they sent me 5 sheets for some reason I think) #also his eyes are weird cuz I just got a new bootleg kirby in the mail and he was even more jank than the product photos promised :D #(everything else I ordered has been as pictured so far so best possible outcomes all around lol) #honestly kinda mad that improving my condition was This Friggin Easy tbh #although thank god it has finally improved. #like the med we raised is available otc and I absolutely could've raised the dose myself if I wasn't too sick to think. #(we are still adding another med once the pharmacy fills the new prescription but even this is. night and day.)

[iknowwhereyousnoozeatnight]

couple of mello + near doodles

#death note #mello #mihael keehl #near #nate river #meronia #bright colors #eyestrain #been having fun w colors recently :3 #these are the product of me really really really not wanting to do some discussion boards #like i don’t even hate discussion boards but something about them has been filling me with dread i’d rather just do exams tbh #i'm like dragging myself through the rest of this semester but it's different from last semester last semester i was losing my mind #this semester i've been able to sleep more than 4 hours a night and go outside bc it's not freezing but also i'm just so fucking done #with school i've been here too long i'm tired but i'm always tired and will always be tired it's tragic honestly i think i'd be more cool #with school if i weren't living how i am rn w my family but eh i don't have the money to move out so it's whatever and it doesn't really #help that i know i'll have to get at least a master's to really do anything in my field and the though of doing more of this makes #me so tired i think i might take a gap year after i get my bachelors this fall idk #anyways enjoy my doodles or don't if you don't want to i'm not the boss of you

[jynersq]

“I discontinued all writing and writing-related work on Andor prior to midnight, May 1. After being briefed on the Saturday showrunner meeting, I informed Chris Keyser at the WGA on Sunday morning that I would also be ceasing all non-writing producing functions.”

— Tony Gilroy

(original tweet)

#andor #tony gilroy #hopefully the rest of production was shut down too!

[podcast-bookclub]

thanks @hellofromthehallowoods :)

#finch here & i'm very excited about this. already shared pics in the discord but they belong here too tbh #the jaw moves on the wolf !!! what!!!!! #thanks mx. wellman; hope you've had a restful + productive break! #hello from the hallowoods #hfth fandom #hfth #Moderator Finch

[uncanny-tranny]

It's actually kind of heartbreaking how many people feel their life has ended right after high school or college, and honestly, the heavy romanticization of that period of time is so overwhelmingly predominant that it can be hard to avoid. It's insidious to constantly be told that ages 10-24 are the only worthwhile parts of life, that everything after is essentially meaningless and dull.

It's hard not to look around you and think that your life still is open and full of potential when you're told over and over again that the rose-tinted childhood is the last time you were alive. It's hard to realize that your life isn't over when you walk off the stage of your graduation.

We must realize that we will always be full of potentials. Your life won't be over until you take your final breath, and then? That's simply another chapter in your story, one of many. Let yourself realize that you're alive in the here and now. There will be good and bad, but never a complete loss of potential or hope.

#positivity #it's just... weird when you see somebody your age who says how over their life feels you know? #and i feel for them. i feel their pain and the emptiness of not knowing what's next or what you should do #and that's sometimes the scary part of life. but your story isn't over yet #one day it will be. one day you'll put the pen down and dry the ink on the yellowed pages and close your book of life. but that's not today #you are allowed to be an aimless spirit. you are allowed to breathe in without the crushing weight of productivity #the idea that your only potential happens when you're too young to realize it is wrong #your potential has nothing to do with feeling your youth and how little you know #it is hard to really internalize this and remind yourself to make space for hope and positivity... #...and you might not be ready to internalize this. that's okay. i'll wait with you (in a strictly spiritual sense) #we can wait together and not think about any of it. just to rest and collect our minds and feel the world hold its breath with us #all this to say that your life isn't over yet. you don't have to beat yourself up over not having lived at fucking 18 #allow yourself the compassion to realize that you needed time to grow and mature and explore the world in your own way

[cheebuss]

*blasts catification beam but is too lazy so only their heads*

#my art #Fanart #fandom character #catified #Better Call Saul #Breaking Bad #saul goodman #jimmy mcgill #kim wexler #Howard Hamlin #Nacho Varga #mike erhmantraut #lalo salamanca #chuck mcgill #gustavo fring #hector salamanca #// i have the other salamancas too but i wanted that neat 9 line row skldjgklds #// warrior cats by-product is doing this shit for the rest of my life #// sniffles ur all so fucking old.. cept nacho slkdjgksdl #// green eyed girls all forgotten <:(

[anartisticalniche]

Alright, ya know what? Might as well at this point eheh.

Here's Mag Agent N. With an acid gun to replace his canonical tail lmao.

Also have a reference showing their sizes compared to each other

#murder drones #uzi doorman #murder drones n #glitch productions #madness combat #back when I had Twitter I used to be a huge Madness Combat and Newgrounds fan #so I drew a lot of fanarts #and the pilot for Murder Drones had just came out too #and I thought Uzi was going to use that gun she built for the rest of the series lol #turns out it wasn't the case #my art

[juney-blues]

i need to get injected with whatever fucking chemicals my broken brain isn't producing on it's own because i am so sick and tired of being crushed under the weight of a couple managable tasks, each going undone, until they all add up and i have literally thousands weighing on me each day

there was stuff i wanted to do last week that i didn't do, so now i want to do it this week, in addition to whatever comes up this week that i wanna do

the stuff i wanted to do last week? why of course that includes the stuff i wasn't able to do the week BEFORE last week

oh and naturally the stuff i wasn't able to do the week before last week, includes the stuff i couldn't do the week before that

and the stuff from the week before that? well i'm sure you get the picture.

"surely the solution is to just do the things as they come up", a particularly naive member of the audience might suggest

and YEAH.

you'd THINK it'd just be that simple, huh?

you'd fuckin THINK.

#juney.txt #vent post #i guess #man i just want to do my hobbies #read some comics i KNOW i'd enjoy for sure #reread things i DEFINITELY know i'd enjoy rereading #but most days i'm just incapable of anything higher energy than girl-rotting #endlessly scrolling The Sites while i've got some videos on as background noise #until whoops it's an hour until i have to go to sleep and it's far too late to be any kind of productive #there's no fucking way i;m getting the same 24 hours in a day the rest of you assholes are getting #i'm getting robbed

[thekidsarentalright]

sunshine riptide one of the best songs ever made on planet earth and the entire universe, even

#you came back like a wave when i was feeling alright is a lyric that hits me so fucking deep for no reason #burna boys verse the production on it!!!! one of the best produced fob songs can i make that argument. i think i will #like idk the reverb on the backing vocals that are echoing the main vocals #the synth(?) in the beginning before the instruments kick in the subtly of the instruments #the Restraint and Space in this song too god it's like. it's fucking incredible #and dont even get me started on the rest of the lyrics the visual it puts in ur head #i could ramble abt this song forever it is Perfect genuinely i love it so much #i deserve to ramble abt music more often actually lyric analysis over music analysis time /j #p: 100 #txt

[echoesofadream]

so many books on my tbr and also so many books i have started but not finished and im thinking about reading dostojevskij instead

#yes it IS to get closer to theo #i felt this way when i read tgf last time too. and read like first 100 pages of the idiot actually but then stopped bc illiteracy etc #but im thinking i should take advantage of this desire to get to know my theo more personally and read some russian literature #just like he in turn read it to get closer to boris #swag #i should! im rlly close to finishing little women #eel book may wait #other books may wait as welll #and the goldfinch will be like my bible now i read it on a whole othr dimension #will keep it on my nightstand and read excerpts for the rest of my life wont stop me from reading other books #that is if i get it for my birthday (doubtful but i will wish for it). i only have the same library copy now as i had in 2019 #(as in i borrowed again didnt steal it from the library promise) i never buy books but if i am to own one it should be this one #i read at a snails pace but want to read so many things this is difficult but lets not stress it should a fun thing not stressful #if i read a little everyday or try to #then 'completing books' and checking them off my list and feeling idk productive/accomplished or something doesnt matter #it will be like a lifelong open book instead #if that makes sense #that ill never be done with #and thats fun

[glitter-and-be-gay]

My ADHD is working so hard today to pull me into 7 different directions that not even my autism is enough to counteract it

#I want to consume these three books and immerse myself in this video essay of Much ado about nothing #and also rewatch a production of Hamlet #but I need to listen to the soundtrack of Good Omens and also understand the significance of Magritte's artwork #and how can I do that and read this comic book and this movie that Michael Sheen recommended #while also getting high on gender from all these photos of him in a wool three piece suit #that I can't emulate because it is TOO DAMNED HOT in Spain #also they're drilling the street outside my window and there's so much noise I had to lock everything up #and wear noise cancelling headphones #maybe I should just cancel the rest of the afternoon at go to sleep at 16:15 #adhd

[hussyknee]

Jsyk DC is fairly pro israel and pro military and probably not a company you want to support.

I'm assuming you mean DC Comics. Lucky for me, I have never supported DC in my life, financially, promotionally, mentally, emotionally or spiritually. In fact, Ive spent most of my time telling everyone who will listen to never to read anything about the characters this piece of shit company is holding hostage that's been published by said company and read fanfic about them instead. Piracy is financial compensation for twenty years of severe emotional damage, and I have spent most of it eviscerating almost everything they've ever put out. Although that might be just being a comic book fan and a queer woman of colour at that.

The thought of you telling me that DC is part of military entertainment complex, something I've been shouting into the white void of fandom for nearly as long as I've been in it is cracking me up. How anyone could read their comics and not understand that they're a fundamentally conservative, racist, pro-establishment entity that hates women and minorities is beyond me. If you think people's hyperfixations and special interests are based on support and endorsement instead of emotional dysregulation you are profoundly mistaken. And just as mistaken to think being fandom translates to financial support. If it did, those of us in the Global South would either go broke or not be fans of anything produced in the English language.

#literally wheezing #telling me‚ ME‚ that DC is a propagandist pro-establishment Zionist piece of shit lmaooooo #teach your grandmother to suck eggs #this is the kind of sanctimonious idiot who goes around telling people that reading harry potter fanfic supports transphobia i know it #please take this admonishments to the half of the world that can afford to buy dairy products please and thank you #the rest of us are too busy being either starved by you or bombed by you or both #asks #anon #knee of huss #dc comics #military entertainment complex #western imperialism