I think the key component to my personal reading of post-Delphi Pharma is that he's trying to be a horrible person on purpose. Not "on purpose" in the way that people have free will to exercise their own choices, but in that Pharma's "mad doctor" persona is a performance he puts on to deliberately embrace how much everyone else hates him. Basically, if people already think you're a "bad Autobot" and a horrible doctor who just kills his patients for fun, why try to prove otherwise to people who have already made up their minds about you? Just fully embrace the fact that people see you as an asshole. Don't try to change their minds. Don't plead for their forgiveness or understanding. Just stop caring. If you're going to be remembered as a monster, you might as well be a memorable monster, and eke as much pleasure and hedonism as you can out of it before karma catches up to you and you inevitably crash and burn.
I mean, I guess you could just go the route of "Oh, Pharma was always a fucked up creepy guy and Delphi was just him taking the mask off," but I really don't like that interpretation because, for one, it feels really wrong to take a character like Pharma becoming evil under duress and going, "Oh well clearly he did the things he did because he was evil all along," as if somehow Pharma breaking under blackmail/torture/threat of horrible death was a sign of him having poor moral character. As opposed to, you know, suffering under the very real threat of horrible death for himself and everyone he cares about while being manipulated by a guy who specializes in psychological torture.
The second reason is that it just doesn't make sense to write Pharma as having been evil all along. I mean...
Occam's Razor says that the best argument is the one with the simplest explanation. Doesn't it make way more sense to take Pharma's appearances in flashbacks, his friendship with Ratchet, his stunning medical accomplishments, and the few we see of him speaking kindly/sympathetically (or in the least charitable interpretation, at least professionally) towards his patients and conclude "This guy was just a normal person, if exceptionally talented." Taking all of these flashback appearances at face value and assuming Pharma was being genuine/honest is a way simpler and more logical explanation than trying to argue that Pharma for the past 4 million years was just faking being a good doctor/person. I mean, it's possible within the realm of headcanon, but the fact is Pharma's appearances in the story are so brief that there simply wasn't room in the story for there to be some sort of secret conspiracy/hidden manipulation behind why Pharma acted the way he did in the past.
I just can't help but look at things like Pharma's friendship with Ratchet (himself a good person and usually a fine judge of character) and the fact that even post-Delphi, pretty much every single mention of Pharma comes with some mention of "He was a good doctor for most of his life" or "He was making major headways in research [before he started killing patients]" which implies that even the Autobots themselves see Pharma's villainy as a recent turn in his life compared to how for "most of his life" he "used to be" a good doctor.
And although Pharma doesn't know this, we as the readers (and even other characters like Rung) know about Aequitas technology and the fact that it actually works, so... if Pharma really was an unrepentant murderer, why couldn't he get through the forcefield too? The Aequitas forcefield doesn't require that a person be completely morally pure and free of wrongdoing or else how could Tyrest get through, just that they feel a sense of inner peace and lack feelings of guilt. Pharma has murdered and tortured people by this point, and put on quite a campy and theatrical show of how much he sees it as a fun game, so why then can he not get through?
It circles back to my headcanon at the start of this post that the "mad doctor" persona is just that-- a persona. Delphi/post-Delphi Pharma's laughing madman personality is just so far removed from every flashback we saw of him and everything we can infer based on how other people see/saw him before that, to me, the mad doctor act is (at least in large part, if not fully) a persona that Pharma puts on to put his villainy in the forefront.
To avoid an overly simplistic/ableist take, I don't think Tarn tortured Pharma into turning crazy. To me, it's more like the constant pressure of death by horrific torture, the feeling of martyrdom as Pharma kept secret that he was the only one standing between Delphi and annihilation, the physical isolation of Messatine as well as the emotional separation from Ratchet, being forced to violate his medical oaths (pretty much the only thing Pharma's entire life has been about), etc. All of that combined traumatized Pharma to the point that the only way he could avoid cracking was to just stop caring about all of it. Because at least then, even if he's still murdering patients to save Delphi from a group of sadistic freaks, Pharma doesn't have to feel guilty and sick about doing it. As opposed to the alternatives, which were probably either going off the deep end and killing himself to escape, or confessing to what he did and getting jailed for it.
In that light, Pharma becoming a mad doctor makes sense. It avoids the bad writing tropes of "oh this character who was good his entire life was actually just evil and really good at hiding it" as well as "oh he got tortured and went crazy that's why he's so random and silly and killing people, he's crazy" and instead frames Pharma's evil as something he was forced into, to the point where in order to avoid a full psychological breakdown and keep defending Delphi, he just had to stop caring about the sanctity of life or about what other people might think of him.
Then, of course, the actual Delphi episode happens, and Pharma's own lifelong best friend Ratchet basically spits in his face and sees him as nothing more than a crazy murderer who went rogue from being a good Autobot. Then Pharma gets his hands cut off and left to die on Messatine. At that point, Pharma has not only been mentally/emotionally broken into losing his feelings of compassion, he's received the message loud and clear: He is alone. Everyone hates him. Not even his own best friend likes him any more. No one even cared enough about him to check if he actually died or not. He will only ever be remembered as a doctor who went insane and killed his patients.
So in the light of 1. Having all of your redeeming qualities be squeezed out of you one by one for the sake of survival and 2. Having your reputation and all of your positive relationships be destroyed and 3. People only know/care about you as "that doctor who became evil and killed his patients" rather than the millions of years of good service that came before.
What else is there to do but internalize the fact that you'll forever be seen as a monster and a freak, and embrace it? People already see you as a murderer for that blackmail deal you did, so why not become an actual murderer and just start killing people on a whim? People already see you as an irredeemable monster who puts a stain on the Autobot name, so why beg for their forgiveness when you could just shun them back? You've already become a murderer, a traitor, and a horrible doctor, so what's a few more evil acts added to the pile? It's not like anyone will ever forgive you or love you ever again.
Why care? Why try to hold on to your principles of compassion, kindness, medical ethics, when an entire lifetime of being a good person did nothing to save you from blackmail and then abandonment? Why put yourself through the emotional agony of feeling lonely, guilty, miserable, when you could just... stop caring, and not hurt any more?
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imagine waking up...
imagine waking up next to a giant.
your eyes flutter open and your breath immedietly catches with awe. the person beside you takes up nearly your whole vision, and you're only taking in their torso. the slopes of their immense shoulders so far above you, the overwhelming length of their legs out of sight as they're tucked underneath you. they're almost too much to take in all at once.
the shape of their sleeping form seems to be a crescent, like they've cocooned themselves around you. the soft breaths they take in and out wash over you, the rise and fall of their chest so pronounced in front of you. you're hyperaware how the mattress just slightly receeds under them as they exhale. even sleeping, they're so much. despite this, you've never felt so safe. you feel shielded from the world beyond their form, protected.
their hand is gently draped over you, a comfortable pressure that provides such comfort. they asked, while you both were falling into a pleasant sleep, if they might hold you. the fact they take such care when you emody so little of them warms your heart. you place your own over their thumb in front of you. your palm covers so little, and yet you find no discomfort in this. the person in front and over and around you stirs, just slightly- letting out a content little breath. the sound, although just a small exhale for them, fills your mind.
•┈••✦ ❤ ✦••┈•
imagine waking up next to a tiny
your eyes flutter open and your breath immedietly catches with awe. the person beside you is tucked so neatly beneath your hand, which you placed over them ever so gently as you both began to drift to sleep. you broke the comfortable silence to ask in a mere whisper, as not to startle them, if this would be alright. now, in the early morning light they doze under you.
you can only see their little torso poking out from your hand. their little shoulders can't take up more than an inch or two. you can barely make out their chest rising and falling in a gentle rhythm against the mattress, the sound of their breaths imperceptable. they are so small, and yet they they're sleeping so soundly against you. you can't help but feel protective for them, you want to shield them against the world that's so much larger to them than it is for you.
you can't scarcely believe how much this person has placed their trust in you, when you must be so much to them. not wanting to disturb their slumber, you gently brush their shoulder with your thumb. even your thumb covers so much of them, yet you find no discomfort in this. they stir ever slightly, their shoulders raising ever slightly against your diget. you can barely make out a content little breath they let out. despite being nearly imperceptable, the sound rings out like a bell to you.
─── ・ 。゚☆: *.☽ .* :☆゚. ───
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i know the pretty flushed / wolf universe has the members being really rough and dom-like but i would love to see them care and be sweet with bunny too! like the aftercare after some really rough sex being just so sweet
don��t know if you want to write them in this way but i would love to see two different sides of the alphas, especially seonghwa
For some reason, I feel sweet and tender today. So this is aftercare and light delicate touches with Seonghwa 💫
I pride myself on being able to make Seonghwa so damn sweet that your teeth start rotting 😊
Songhwa's sensual, plump lips kissed your neck lazily, lingering now and then on the deep winery bite on your neck. He purred softly, enjoying what an obedient and good girl you were for him today, letting him do whatever he wanted with you, and it made him feel inexplicably tender towards you.
There was something in Seonghwa that wanted to spoil you and make you feel like a real queen.
The golden glow of the candles diluted the darkness of the room, shimmering in the water and on the black marble walls. It was strangely peaceful—just the two of you, without the constantly whining and irritable puppies, and without Hongjoong, who was a veritable devourer of your attention. It was nice and relaxing to get away from all that.
You were half asleep, soft and supple to Songhwa's touch. You leaned back against his broad chest and played with his beautiful, long fingers. The hot water was pleasantly relaxing to your body, especially after the hard day you'd had today, and the subtle scent of vanilla that emanated from the fluffy bubbles of foam mixed with orchid petals made you melt into the Alpha's arms. You felt warm and caressed, and it made you want to rub your chubby cheek weakly against the smooth, golden skin of the Seonghwa's chest.
"Are you feeling good, honey?" Seonghwa whispered in your ear; the sound of his voice was like silk on your skin. In the slowest and most seductive way, his beautiful fingers ran over the tops of your full breasts. It was the kind of touch that took your breath away and made your heart skip a beat on the inside of your chest. Alpha's touch to you was gentle.
"Yes, mommy, I feel so good with you. More kisses... " You asked weakly, and you dissolved even more with every single touch of the Alpha.
Songhwa laughed softly and turned your face so that your lips were touching each other.
"Princess in the mood for more kisses, eh?" God, his lips were softer than the petals of a flower.
"Yes, I want your kisses, Alpha, please."
The touch of his lips against yours was the most heavenly feeling you've had in a long time. No teeth, no vinegar, no choking—it was slow, hypnotic, and so sweet you wanted to cry from it. His fingers caressed your nipples beneath the thin bubles until they were hard and sensitive, and it felt so good—so different from the rough and forces they'd usually been playing with your body.
Not wanting to lose this divine feeling, you whimper weakly and reach for his lips when the Alpha finally breaks the kiss. And Seonghwa obliged and kissed you again, almost chastely, with this lazy touch of hot lips on one another.
"Aren't you the most precious of all, my little fluff? Mommy is going to take care of you tonight with all the love that my little girl deserves.".
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Hey, could you please do prompts for characters who are not together yet but act very domestic 🥰
List of “we’re not a couple, but we do like to act like we’re married” prompts
“There’s a fucking roach! Kill it!” Character A wails, standing on the couch, cowering with fear. “Calm down, it’s not going to hurt you,” Character B says, voice shaking with laughter at the look on Character A’s face, which earns them an ineffective glare. “Just do something about it and get it out of my sight!”
“…McDonald’s is open at this time of night.” “I am not going to a McDonald’s drive-thru at this time of night again for the third night in a row, [name].”
Feeding each other, even when they’re with their friends or family during meal times.
“Here comes the airplane,” Character A sings, as they move the spoon closer to Character B’s mouth. “I’m not a kid anymore,” Character B grumbles, sniffling miserably; grabs a tissue to prepare for another sneeze incoming.
“Here, have some of these, and I will take those.” “There’s no need—” “It’s fine. I’m not a picky eater, unlike you.”
“Honey, can you fetch me the remote?” Character A murmurs. “Of course, sugar buns,” Character B says, reaching over to the coffee table to grab the remote. “Honey? Sugar buns? What the fuck, am I missing something here?” Character C questions, confused, squished between the two of them.
“Come here, let me share my jacket with you.” “I’m fine.” “You’re shivering, love. Stop being stubborn?” “…Fine.”
“So what are we cooking today?” “Your favourite dish.” “…You butchered that shit so hard last time so I don’t know if I trust you on this.”
Nose nuzzles! For no reason! In front of other people!! And their friends going like, “Hello? The fuck is this?”
“Look, I’m telling you that’s where the car is parked.” “You’re wrong. The car’s parked over there. I was the one who parked it!” “Yeah, but you have a memory of a gold fish and every time you’re this sure about something, you’re wrong!”
“What do you need from me right now?” “Aren’t you going to ask if I’m okay?” “Well, clearly you aren’t. So tell me, what do you need?” “…A hug.” “I can definitely do that.”
“You’re always taking care of me — let me take care of you this time.”
“I love you.” “I love me, too.” “Can you just tell me you love me for fucking once—”
Arguing over the dumbest shit and their friends teasing them for acting like an older-than-a-decade married couple.
“You’d be a great spouse.” “…You know what, propose to me right now and I’ll be yours for life.” “For real?” “Couldn’t be any more serious.”
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worm tales with skz
➤ summary : “would you love me if i was a worm?”
➤ pairing : skz x gn!reader
➤ genre : literally just crack pls and fluff bc channie manages to make everything perfect
➤ warnings : slight mentions of food, lots of mentions of worms, seungmin’s reader likes worms
➤ a/n : why not? also go check out @portalhan ‘s version of this ! their imagines were really fun to read sjdksj <3 lowercase intended !
➤ masterlist !
bang chan !
“would you love me if i was a worm?”
“yeah.”
needless to say, you were both shocked and heartwarmed at the way your boyfriend answered your question without the slightest hesitation. at first, you thought he hadn’t heard you properly, since he was on his laptop, working; so you decided to repeat yourself.
“babe, you’d love me if i was a worm?”
chuckling, chan calmly replied, “i heard you the first time, love. yes, i would.”
looking up at your jaw wide open, he gave you a bright smile and said, “i’d love you no matter what you were, thought you’d know that by now.”
shaking off your surprise, with glee filled eyes, you scooted closer to him on the couch.
“what if i was a pair of wet socks? you’d still love me?” you asked him cheekily.
grimacing, channie lightly replied, “i’d hang you out to dry and then proceed to love you.”
‘he’s the one,’ you thought with a smile on your face as you contentedly lay your head against his arm.
lee know !
“minho?” you called out for your boyfriend, earning a hum in response. you walked into the living room and saw him watching a new movie that had come out the last week.
“would you love me if i was a worm?”
blinking a few times, minho stared at you blankly. two seconds later, he bluntly replied, “no.”
“what?” you asked, placing a hand on your chest, “i thought you said you love me unconditionally??”
“yeah, well the conditions included you being a human, darling. or a cat, at most.”
“if you’d love me if i was a cat, what’s wrong with worms?”
“everything??” he asked. as if it was obvious, “now hush and let me watch my movie.”
he lifted one of his arms as you flopped beside him, huffing at his answer to your question. but, as you felt his arm gently wrap around your shoulder, you thought that maybe you were happy he loved you as a human.
changbin !
“baby~”
you softly smiled as you heard changbin calling. “yes~?”
he walked into the kitchen, and on seeing you making dinner, walked up to you and wrapped his arms around your waist.
“would you still love me if i was a worm?”
you burst out laughing at his question, and then genuinely considered it for a second.
“hey! it’s a serious question,” he said, lightly sulking with his head on your shoulder.
“i know, i know! and my answer is.... yes-”
“really?!” your boyfriend interrupted, spinning you around with such excitement in his eyes.
nodding, you answered, booping him on the nose, “uh huh! i mean, you’re already a dwaekki, it’d be wrong if i didn’t love you as a worm.”
rolling his eyes, changbin let go of you and, leaning on the counter, he replied, “no matter the reason, you’d still love me~ and no take backs!”
you held out your pinky, lightly giggling, “no take backs, i promise.”
interlocking pinkies and standing in the kitchen as you were, you knew you wouldn’t give this up for the world.
hyunjin !
as soon as he heard the jingle of your keys, hyunjin sprang up to ask the question of the day.
you stepped inside and were about to announce that you were home, expecting hyunjin to be in your room, but were surprised to see he was already waiting at the door for you.
“would you love me if i was a worm?” your boyfriend asked excitedly.
mentally laughing at his antics, you pretended to think for a moment, and then abruptly said, “lie down on the floor.”
“huh?”
“lie down on the floor, on your stomach!”
“but wh-”
“just do it, will you?” you pleaded, eventually convincing him because who could say no to that face?
hyunjin reluctantly did as you said, and then lifted his head slightly to look you in eye with the most bewildered look he could muster.
“alright! now wiggle.”
“what???”
“c’mon, wiggle around!”
deciding to humour you, hyunjin started to wiggle, twisting and turning his torso and slightly pushing ahead with his legs.
you were practically in stitches by the time he stopped, clutching your stomach with tears coming out of your eyes. once you calmed down, you slowly kneeled down and kissed hyunjin on the forehead, and whispered,
“i would adore you if you were a worm.”
han !
“my love, my darling, treasure of my life?”
jokingly rolling your eyes at your boyfriend’s nicknames, you look at him inquisitively.
“would you love me if i was a worm?”
“would i what??”
jisung repeated his question slowly, looking at you expectedly and hoping a good answer.
“what the- of course not?”
“excuse me?”
“babe, worms are weird and wriggly and slimy, of course i wouldn’t love you.”
“you mean to say that if you found the poor, helpless worm called han jisung struggling on the street, you wouldn’t pick him up and take him home?” jisung said, borderline offended, and you couldn’t tell whether he was serious or not.
“ji, honey,” you started, taking his hands in your own, “i really love you, but if i saw you as a worm on the ground? it’d be hard for me to not step on you, much less take you in.”
han stood up, pulling his hands away from yours, as he raised his head and, with a swift turn, stomped away to your shared bedroom. maybe he really was upset, but you’d make it up to him with cuddles, apologies, and the reassurance that you love him plenty as a human.
felix !
“lixie, i’ve got a question,” you announced loudly, gaining the attention of the man currently sitting on the floor of your living room, eating a burrito.
“what’s up?”
“would you love me if i was a worm?”
flabbergasted. dumbfounded. rendered speechless. any other synonyms his brain could come up with while in this state.
what did you mean? was it a trick question? if he says yes, will you be disgusted at the thought that he would love a worm? but then, if he says no, what if you think he doesn’t love you? maybe he should answer and then offer his burrito as a peace offering so you don’t get too mad.
“yes....?” felix replied hesitantly.
“is that a question or an answer?” you asked, folding your arms across your chest.
“i don’t know, this is stressful!”
“just answer yes or no!”
“okay then... yes, i think. i’d keep you in the garden so you could have good food and i could have good plants. but i swear, if you ruin any of my plants i-”
giggling, you sat down beside him and tell him you love him and to go back to his burrito, giving him a sweet hug. poor guy deserves it.
seungmin !
you knew to expect absolutely no mercy when it came to seungmin. yes, he loved you, but doesn’t mean he won’t be brutally honest as he always is.
“min, would you love me if i was a worm?”
you swore you’d never seen him that disgusted since he’d seen jeongin eat ramen with ketchup.
“why a worm? that’s horrible.”
“well, that’s kind of the point! if you really love me, you’d love me no matter what i was,” you explain.
“baby, you know i love you, but a worm?? did you know some of them don’t have a head, only two tails? and they’re so wriggly and slippery, remember the time we tried fishing? do you want to become slimy fish bait?”
“you’d use me for fish bait???”
“it would give your life more purpose than just eating and shitting out compost.”
“i’ll have you know worms are one of the most important creatures in the ecosystem. and i came here expecting a one word answer!” you argued. you were quite fond of the creatures, but you’d kind of expected this reaction when it came to your boyfriend.
seungmin let out a deep sigh, and stated bluntly, “no.”
“no??”
“one word answer, babe.”
he was a menace, but he was your menace.
i.n !
“jeongin!!!” you call out loudly, startling the poor man sitting at the kitchen counter, waiting for his sandwich to heat up.
“yeah?”
“would you love me if i was a worm?”
“what the- no? obviously??”
“excuse me??? why not?”
“uhm, let’s not get into why not, but you realize you’re never going to be a worm?” jeongin tried to reason with you.
“you don’t know that!” you cry out indignantly.
“yes? i do???”
“okay well, since you’re against the whole human-worm transformation thing, hypothetically speaking, would you still love me?”
“babe the answer’s still a no,” your boyfriend deadpanned.
“well, guess what? since you just shattered my worm heart into three million pieces, good luck getting me to love worm-you!!”
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