A lot of people in my life called me “wise” and “mature for my age” growing up.
And I’m sitting here (now 19 years old) wondering if I actually was wise and mature for my age.
Was I? Was I mature and wise?
Or was it just common sense?
Or was it only common sense to me, and not to everyone else?
I was just a kid, so I was I actually smart or was I just taking things I saw on TV and in life and applying it to everything else because it made sense?
Does seeing things and then applying them to others make me smart or is it just common sense?
Was I just parroting things I’ve heard?
Am I socially smarter than the people in my life?
Or did they need a different perspective?
Did they already know the answer and wanted confirmation? To be assured that what they thought was right?
Is everyone else socially smarter than me and just using me as a sounding board to make sure that the decision their making based of their own advice was good?
Did they ask me because they thought I was not smart and decided that if a not-as-intelligent person could figure it out and get to the same conclusion, that it was common sense?
Am I actually smart or am I being used?
And this is why I’m awake at 1am.
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