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retrograze · 1 year
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You NEED to tag 'flashing' or something similar to your posts, ESPECIALLY if you are going to blaze them. That's a migraine/seizure trigger, and that's not okay. I can't control if you get on my feed (except by blocking you) via Blaze, so please please please tag for those sorts of things if you are going to use strobing imagery (in this case, your VHS style psuedo-artifacting.)
Sorry dude, I’m new around here. I’ll be more careful next time. I was curious to see what the blaze actually did.
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myillnesssucks · 3 years
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I'm scared,
I've started having seizures recently (I have a neurology apt scheduled but no diagnoses yet) and I just had 4 in one day .
(Three of them were in front of my boyfriend which is embarrassing and makes me feel bad but that's besides the point)
I don't know how to cope with this, I've been doing everything people have said to do and they are still scary and painful .
We suspect they are PNES ( psuedo seizures) and I am very overwhelmed by it.
I am trying to cope emotionally and physically but honestly both are really hard right now.
Any tips for dealing with seizures - wether emotional, physical, dealing with Drs, or anything else I would love to hear from yall
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baeddel · 3 years
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k*w*farms had threads on a lot of my friends (no one who’s likely to see this, whatever you do dont go looking for yours) and one for ‘baeddels’ in general. i wonder if they had one for me and if they did, do they still post about me and if they do, what about? there was one person i knew on here who would post things i said every day on r/TumblrInAction and maintain a false friendship with me in order to get more material, but the posts got no engagement and eventually someone told her that posting the same person every day was abnormal and maladjusted and asked her to stop. one post was a screenshot of when i asked her to tag flashing images because i thought i might have epilepsy (it was being looked into and i had some kind of seizure or at least something serious; according to ‘the specialist’ it wasnt epilepsy and nhs money didnt stretch to any further investigation, c’est la vie!), with a caption like ‘can you believe it lol shes claming to be epileptic but i did it anyway just incase’, the best one must have been when she put up a post where I was trying to square Barthes and Foucault’s disagreement about ‘the author’ where she failed to come up with a sensible headline, it becoming obvious that the post being mockable was less important than the post being mine (this is true of a lot of harassment threads where stalkers become experts at uncharitble reading whenever theres a lull in activity). the only one that got attention was one post i made about hallucinating which got hundreds of comments where everyone decided it wasnt true and as an actual schizophrenic this is very offensive to me etc. where the evidence for falsificare was really only that it appeared in a screenshot on r/TumblrInAction (the post read: ‘now my water bottle is talking to me’, which anyway it was!). anyway, sometimes i think about it because i think you could plausibly construe me as a sort of psuedo-academic lunatic like Gene McCarthy and his ‘jumarts’, who retweets all the theorypilled trans women who pretend to believe his theories, and if thats what i was, how could i ever tell? how could you ever tell?
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my-friend-ed · 4 years
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Ed is like halfway hoping to get a psuedo-seizure because it burns like a thousand calories
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mossydryad · 7 years
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superbratttt · 5 years
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A hip hop song about big pharma and vaccines! Best hip hop song ever written! Thank you AshEL Seasunz Eldridge Too for writing this amazing song!
Here are the lyrics and the link for the song. Have a listen!
https://soundcloud.com/ashel/vaxxi-nation?fbclid=IwAR06V6BnNwHyWhLElhbJjf03je3axGo9nqsWrMkuPwA8BWZCPb8XQhtENng
“Ms. Wakefield, the doctor is ready for you, right this way”
“Hi Doctor Anderson”
“Yes Ms Wakefield. Glad you decided to pay us a visit before your daughters get ill. Scary bugs are out there, and these outbreaks are too real.
Thanks for doing it for the herd, that’s from the top- got my word.”
“Well I’m pregnant, one baby, and the others out of preschool.
They say for her to transfer, she has to get the shots by the schedule.
I’m just here to get more info cuz I’m feelin a little skeptical.”
“Skeptical?! Have you been listening to those Anti-Vaxxers?
Psuedo-science
Voodoo internet doctors?
Baby killing, homeschool conspiracy, quacks
Whack home birthers?
Oh ya- I’m sorry, I just get a little intense.
It’s sad to see good moms turn bad believing false pretense.”
“Oh, no worries. After all, you are my doctor. Can I check the science so I can look it over proper?”
“Ay, All I have to say is this flu is getting gruesome- what you really have to fear is believing everything you hear.”
“Wow, feeling more confused. Maybe I can come back and choose?”
“Well if you hesitate to vaccinate, then everybody lose….
Hmm it seems you have a little anxiety, why don’t you take a few of these and pay a visit back to me?”……….
Vaxxi-nation
Inject death then collect compensation
Cover up and suppress information
Mandatory- end of story
Vaxxi-nation
Facist Nation
Vaxxi-nation
The FDA and CDC are corporations putting
CPS after mothers who wants solutions
Can never question the makers of Vaxxinations
Need a revolution
In this Vaxxi-Nation
“Ms. Wakefield, Glad you made it back. Ready to get dabbed up? Got some fresh ones out the lab.
What you need is to get your HPV-
This year Flu shots are damn near free
Did your baby get her DTP
They can go far with that MMR
Can’t forget that IPV
That Polio
That Hep B
That Chickenpox
That RV, seem depressed to me
So I suggest this SSRI
Zannies or Pro Z
All these shots…Got to get one
All these pills..Got to pop some
If you not ill, I don’t get none
Big Pharma til the day I’m done….”
“Actually, I’ve been doing my research. Nerding
Seems like some of these vaccines are poison Dirty
Polysorbate 80
Thimerosal- half mercury
Aluminum
Monkey Kidney
Even Dog DNA
GMO, MSG
In my blood stream-No way
Mouse Brain
Formaldehyde
A Lethal issue of fetal tissue
if the immune is compromised-you might die quickly
i Can’t go with you or you might survive and get
Seizures
Autism
Tics
and Allergies
SIDS
Cancer
Fevers
Or learning disabilities
No liability, Accountability for death
So I guard my girl from Gardasil and
Take my power back”
Vaxxi-nation
Inject death then collect compensation
Cover up and suppress information
Mandatory- end of story
Vaxxi-nation
Facist -nation
Vaxxi-nation
But the FDA and CDC corporations putting
CPS after mothers who wants solutions
Can never question the makers of Vaxxinations
Need a revolution in this Vaxxi-Nation
You see,
There’s no freedom more fundamental than a human right to be free to decide what risks to take with our life..
Stats don’t lie, but statisticians do
And liars use numbers like scriptures
If thou want employment, thou should take this needle hit with ya
Thou cannot sue for any adverse reactions or injuries
But why have thou paid billions to hush up the families?
This is classic
Medical dogma from big pharma
Praying to the almighty dolla
Educate to break the spell of tyranny
Heavy metal detox of hip hop
Vaxxi-nation
Inject death then collect compensation
Cover up and suppress information
Mandatory- end of story
Vaxxi-nation
Fascist Nation
Vaxxi-nation
The FDA and CDC are corporations putting
CPS after mothers who wants solutions
Can never question the makers of Vaxxinations
Need a revolution in this Vaxxi-nation!
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Hi gamers I can't sleep because I started having ptsd flashbacks and it made me have a psuedo seizure and try and break my hand so now I'm all fucky
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trisha88130-blog · 5 years
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The beginning...🤔🤔
So, here I am. I've been wanting to do a blog for a long time. BUT, I wasn't sure if what I had to say was anything anyone would even want to hear? But truth is we all have something to share, maybe it's meant to only be shared to make a difference for one person but if we don't share it how can we ever make a difference for that one person. I guess I can start by introducing myself! I'm Trisha! My friends call me Trisha... Some of my other friends call me other things but that's for a later day... 😀 I'm a mother to four children. 2 boys and 2 girls. My oldest daughter, Brooke, is 18 and she is going to make me a grandma about two months before she turns 19. So in about a month I will be "Gma" to a little peanut! Next are my two boys... Logan just turned 15 and Lakota is 13... Lakota is on the Autism spectrum, but he is one of the funniest people I know... Then there is my Miss Sas! Oh Lord, help with me, help me, help me with this child .. She will he 12 in a couple of weeks and acts like she is 16... Or let's just say she tries to.. I suffer from Rheumatoid Arthritis, Fibromyalgia, Hashimotos... I started having psuedo seizures the day before my 29th birthday. Basically my nervous system is saying "Oh Heck No" to my brain when it comes to stress... And sometimes, anxiety and stress and depression gets bad... In some cases, like mine, these can be brought on by some kind of trauma in my life. That's a story for another day though... This is introducing me to you... So, I am an advocate for a Sexual Assault Service and I love what I do. It's rewarding... I teach the teens on Sunday mornings in Sunday school and I find that sometimes. They teach me more than I am teaching them. My dream is to have this non-profit organization called the Bear Project to serve my small community.. And then branch out... It will be a rec center for families with disabled children.. Sports, crafts, tutors all ran by volunteers. A place where we could set up theater night so that you don't have to deal with the jerk in the back yelling at you when your kid gets over stimulated.. I want to be an educational advocate so that parents don't have to face IEPs and feel like they have nobody on their side.. I want to just make a difference in the world, even if it is a small ripple. That is my ultimate dream.. Well other than raising good human beings! So, in this blog I want to be raw... And tell everything as I feel or how it felt.. Tonight I will just finish up here. Hope that if you read this that you don't take away pain, hate or sadness but hope and be encouraged to not give up!
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My friend finally came clean about talking to my abusive pedo ex boyfriend, reasoning that it was because they still owed him commission work and wanted to get more evidence for the FBI. I want to believe them so bad, but why would they go as far as to block my social media accounts and pretend I dont exist for months. until my other friend (who was also abused by the same guy that abused me), reached out to them. I feel so weird and I am kinda struggling with everything.
I also keep seeing things where people are faking anxiety/PTSD for clout and it makes me feel like shit. I hate that those things get suggested to me. It is a constant struggle to unlearn all of my reactionary behaviors that I have developed from my previous relationship. I constantly have to keep myself in check so I dont hurt the people I love. I have to keep it under control cause I cant let it get the best of me when my boyfriend needs me, cause he has a super rare psychological disorder called Functional Neurological Disorder which causes him to have "psuedo-seizures" when he gets too overstimulated or stressed.
I am not at the point of wanting to seld-harm, and I am not having suicidal thoughts thankfully, but things get so overwhelming sometimes that I just want to isolate and sleep forever.
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hashtagliveza · 3 years
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Maseru || Independence upon the horizon amidst growing calls to Welsh on the protected. 🇱🇸🇧🇼🇰🇪
Footage courtesy of @LesothoArchives (IG)
A Regal welcoming party to the Royals over the sea.
The scenes visibly worlds apart from their relations over the river, Basutoland as she was once known like BechanaLand & the Swazi Nation were mostly exempt from the tumultuous land seizures since the first collared diplomatic missions.
King George V| and Queen Elizabeth received a warm reception from the alliance of protectorates as they were fondly and often controversially referred to. The scramble for Africa was well underway with the ascendancy of a radical right wing backed government on the horizon for the Republic of South Africa.
British / Dutch Afrikaner relations remained strained with the allegiance to the crown as the only Common ground, that and the disenfranchised swaart gevaar.
Those of blackened hearts, beasts of burden and well documented beneficiaries of unfounded disputes over land and God's hidden majestic landscapes of richs and resources.
The stage was set for as the 400 year psuedo socio-political interpretation of the Good News began to ferment and take root. That God, man's creator and only son Jesus Christ, savior of the lost, had sent upon the White Man to rule over the lands of the damned and darkened in flesh and spirit. By the barrel and sheer might. The notoriously meteoric rise of Shaka Zulu and the famed bull horn formation was turned upon its head as were the plains and sands of what remained.
The southern tip of Africa was never quite the same.
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shygirrrl · 4 years
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Since I started having psuedo seizures I think I’ve been worse with dissociating and even more scared about being vulnerable bc I’ve found that when I feel vulnerable and anxious... is when I get pseudo seizures (which is just straight up not a good time) Idk what to do???? Like it’s just added more fear for me to open up with people and feel feelings and all that shit ya gotta do to ‘feel better’
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Welcome to my new blog
Good Morning to my new and upcoming followers. I have been trying to figure out how to cope with all of my physical health issues, mental health issues and just life in general. I have always enjoyed writing, blogging and working. 
However, here I am no longer working due to my health and I am sitting here trying to figure out whats my next step... So I thought I would try to do it this way.. We shall see...
Through out the next few weeks I will be posting how I have been trying to get through medical crap. So a little about me:
Good Stuff:
I am currently married. I have been married for just over a year. He’s amazing. We have no children besides, our puppy named Morty. We live in Arizona but originally I am from Tennessee/Virginia. He has lived in Arizona all of his life. My husband works his butt off taking care of me and all the “needs” that come with taking care of me. I love Arizona, I don’t think I could ever move back to TN or VA. 
Bad Stuff:
I have had 11 brain surgeries in the last year and half. I have intercranial hypertension or Psuedo Tumor Cerebri. I also have migraines, seizures and PTSD. We will touch on all of the diagnoses as time goes on.
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nessietessimalnua · 6 years
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NARRATIVE STRATEGY - NOTES
15th January 2018
-Last Week- 
Psuedo-science 
Phrenology
Freudian ‘ego psychology’
Key themes
FREE ASSOCIATION
For this writing task, we had the opening and had to write whatever came to us as we read it, kind of like a weird version of word association: mine ended up like some random stream of rambling.
“I sit for a while, silent on my eggs”
Bird, a chicken, poultry? Avian or reptile? Turtles: nests in the sand, drags heavy shells to the sea over mud and grains; waves murky with foam and seaweed, tangled on the shore - popping underfoot - bursts of air - sickening, feels super weird when you step over them: sandals not dampening the sensation; sandals, the worst shoe: always falling off, no protection against stubbed or scraped toes: no socks, never socks - only good for kicking off on the beach when the sand is too hot, hot like the pavement in the sun, good time for ice-cream - though the ice-cream van plays creepy nursery rhymes, just that nasty bit off-key.
THE ID - Pleasure principle: seeks pleasure, avoids pain
THE EGO - Reality principle: can defer gratification, mature/responsible 
SUPER EGO - Internalisation of cultural rules, how we ought to behave, usually works in opposition to the ID
PSYCHOANALYTIC LITERARY CRITICISM
 Widespread since the 1920s; Freud believed artists have a special skill for sublimation. “Literature and the other arts, as well as daydreams, nightdreams and neurotic symptoms, consist primarily of the imagined, or fantasised, fulfilment of desires” - Abrams, 1988
ART: A STRUCTURED FORM OF FREE ASSOCIATION?
“The forbidden, mainly sexual (’libidinal’) desires... are permitted by the censor to achieve fantasised satisfaction in distorted or disguised forms which serve to conceal their real nature and object from the conscious ego” - Abrams, 1988  - Early psycho-sexual experiences may lead to ‘fixations’ - repeatedly played out through works of art
Stevenson
- Pronounced Jekyll “Jee-khul” - Complex relationship with his father: dependent  - Stevenson; moral writer - Went to France to escape lung disease, met Fanny (American) - separated from her husband with two children (lost her third) - 1870s
Literature has manifest content and latent content
“The aim of psychoanalytical criticism is to ‘translate’ these manifest elements back into their ‘latent unconscious determinants.” - Abrams, 1988 
- Psychoanalyse the characters, the author and the reader
1) CONDENSATION: Omission of parts of the unconscious material and the fusion of several unconscious elements into one thing
2) DISPLACEMENT: Replacing one thing with another 
3) SYMBOLISM: Objects, usually sexual, are replaced by non-sexual objects/related objects
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Un Chien Andalou (1929) - Salvador Dali and Luis Bunnel       - “Seethes with revolting energy”       - Surrealist classic; surrealists were obsessed with the Freudian Unconscious -  Surrealist art follows the logic of a dream: irrational and unpredictable 
GOTHIC HORROR & THE UNCANNY
Horace Walpole: Castle of Otranto (inspired by a dream), 1764, Considered the first Gothic horror
- Make explicit things held back in normal fiction  - Wild landscapes vs imprisonment 
The Uncanny - looks human but isn’t completely 
The re-emergence of the past within the present (often represented by ghosts: the thing you thought was dead) 
Fascinated by obscene patriarchal figures
Explores the limits of what it means to be human: internal desires or forces outside your control 
Full of ‘perverse, weird and dangerous kinds of sexuality’ 
The Gothic genre had scope to explore 19th century women 
The genre often depicts the ‘triumph’ of young women over seemingly impossible forces
Many Gothic Horrors feature evil doubles
Freud’s 1919 Essay - VLE
UNCANNY
strange, eerie, unearthly
- Makes us feel uncomfortable, but we can’t explain why  - “Apprehension rather than experience, dread rather than terror” - Reagan, 2014
Chuckesme, Twighlight
UNCANNY VALLEY
 “The imagination often stirs up dread on purpose for its own sake” - Warner
UNHEIMLICH
; 1835, German - Uncanny 
Un Heimlich: Un homely; un secretive/hidden 
“Unheimlich is the name for everything that ought to have remained... hidden and secret and has become visible” - Quoted in Freud, 1919
JENTSCH (1906) - ON THE PSYCHOLOGY OF THE UNCANNY
A prolonged state of uncertainty 
Is the object animate or inanimate?
Ghosts are uncanny because they are ‘close to life’ (were recently alive)
Fits and seizures can seem uncanny because they hint at inner workings and mechanisms of the human body
FREUD (1919) - THE UNCANNY
Both familiar and unfamiliar
Something repressed that returns
Ghosts are the ultimate expression of this (Revenant)
Makes visible something that should be hidden 
Descartes (1637) - Non-human animals are mechanical automata 
- Most people subscribed to religious ideas of free will and the immortality of the soul; Descartes was talking about animals, so that was ‘alright’ - Swiss naturalist Charles Bonnet (1755): “The soul is a mere spectator of the movements of its body”
- Thomas Huxley (1874)
AUTOMATON: A device or machine that is self-operating once set in motion 
Are We Biological Machines? - Professor Michio Kaku, 2016
Derren Brown Brainwashes an Entire Shopping Mall - Derren Brown, 2016
Princely Toys (1976 BBC documentary)      - To exist to perform a predetermined task, without ambition nor care
JEKYLL AND HYDE 
Considered the first Urban Gothic 
Mid 19th century people moved into the city and forced into the slums
Children from age 3 worked as chimney sweeps and long hours in factories 
London was the heart of the nightmare 
Edinburgh - true setting/inspiration 
Inspired by William ‘Deacon’ Brodie (1741-1788) - cabinet maker by day, burglar by night 
Burke and Hare murders 
THE LAST NIGHT 
 - Atmospheric arrival   - No-one could do anything without the permission of a gentleman (Utterson)
Have a character raise a reader’s doubts (Poole)
 - Drug addiction  - ‘masked man’  - “Once I heard it weeping” - importance of sound  - Inside, they find only their own reflections
((Note to self: GO BACK OVER PRESENTATION ON VLE FOR MISSED/SKIPPED CONTENT))
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I am so sleep deprived/stressed/etc that my ts is trying to revive my psuedo seizure tic and I can't go through that right now
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tsunderrorism · 7 years
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Reposting my response to a friend's question re: "white passing" and race science.
Sure! The first thing to realize is that 'white passing', as it's used right now (it originally meant a colonized person who deliberately hid their heritage to disguise themselves as a white), is a phrase that's meaningless at best and a propagandist tactic aiding assimilation and genocide at worst. YOU aren't 'white passing' and neither am I.
The people who use this term have a wrong idea about how race is constructed. They see it as mostly a matter of perception. That's why their privilege checklists are mostly full of cultural relations (representation in entertainment, perception of whiteness) rather than material relations (a 400 year history of colonial/imperial genocide). Communists are materialists. We always look for the class relations that culture arises from and to use language that illuminates these relationships instead of obfuscates them.
In that spirit, "White passing" is a term that obfuscates. It paints NATIONAL oppression, which is a relationship between GROUPS as being a relationship between individuals (IE by claiming a person's whiteness is a matter of whether they're percieved as white). But membership in an oppressed nation isn't about perception. It's about the experience of colonialism: having your resources stolen, your governments overthrown, your country bombed, your culture suppressed, your people slaughtered in massive scale war crimes. What can privilege discourse say about that? You're Lebanese. Would your skin color have stopped the IOF from rolling into the south to seize territory? "Passing" discourse would have us imagine that because of your skin color you could stand in front of a Merkava tank and stop it! I'm Boricua. Could my skin give us our political independence back? Could it have made it legal to fly our flag during the years of La Ley De La Mordeza?
In its drive to conquer the world, colonial capitalism had to invent categories for who was human and not and give them a psueodoscientific gloss. It was an attempt to paint something created by social relations as having an unchanging essence (what Lenin and Mao called 'metaphysics'). They used various arbitrary means to try to classify people, from precisely measuring the shapes of their skulls to the crude "paper bag test", where skin tone was compared to a paper bag. Imperialism has always portrayed whiteness as being tied to phenotype, but that's always been a lie. That is the "race science" I refer to.
"Passing" discourse is also bad because it erases and assimilates. It puts lighter skinned colonized people in the same category as their oppressors, which is incredibly dangerous. It encourages people to identify with white settlers rather than their own nation[s]. This is especially true in regards to indigenous people of the americas. One of the most useful propaganda tactics against indigenous people is to portray us as people(s) who no longer exist, either by pretending that assimilation has absorbed/destroyed our culture completely (this is similar to the anti-Black "Sambo" myth that slaves were completely de-Africanized and dependant on whites) or that we're all dead and thus of no consequence (so our land and resources can be further seized). This isn't just an issue of hurt feelings. Whites have used the "you don't look like Indians" tactic to justify land seizures and pipeline building for decades. "Radical" liberals often use it to try to shut down disagreement too.
It also recalls a particularly painful era for many indigenous people: the Residential Schools, which operated under the motto "kill the Indian to save the man". I'm sure you've heard of some of the history there. Calling someone "white passing", if they're NA Indigenous says to them: yes, the Residential Schools did a good job, your indigenousness has been destroyed and you're a white man now. This is insulting in the extreme. And it's a *continuing* aspect of Indigenous genocide today.
Finally one has to wonder: who benefits from colonized people being at each other's throats over which of us has the most unprivilegedestest skin tone? It's not us! We're the only friends we've got, so we need as many of us involved in the struggle as we can. We can't do that if we're constantly calling each other ersatz whites.
I've experienced this tactic IRL, when I called out the friends of a (white) known serial rapist. Rather than engage with the criticism, I was told I "navigate the world as a white man" and had no right to criticize anyone who was neither white nor male for being friends with this monster. Psuedo-radical "passing" discourse was used in defense of a white rapist!
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everydaybpd · 5 years
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Anyone out there have any experience with pseudo seizures?
I guess this is something that has come up quite a few times and now need to go back to therapy to figure out what is going on.
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