#probably happens before the drama

[spotsupstuff]

here's a neat vid, go watch it if you haven't yet

there's Some things that i don't completely agree with personally, like attributing the Third sin to Materialism rather than Connection (i'd argue that the Ancients had no big issue with being materialistic, considering their golden attires and such- and that going with Connection overall better addresses both the core of Materialism and relationships overall) and then attributing the word Dynasty specifically to asian cultures but that's more history/word definition beef more than anything djgklsjlcgjkd

oh how i'd love to have a debate with this guy about Ancients...

#spot says stuff #rw #history fact: a dynasty was present big time around the years 800-1000 (iirc) on a large territory in eu which included slovakia #at the core of it per its definition a dynasty is just ''the same family ruled over the lands throughout multiple generations'' tho so its- #-not special or anything. with that definition in mind you can see how dynasties were also european things with all the kings and stuff #its just more often used for asian countries cuz they held out longer with the family stuff probably. or all the damn royal family drama- #-that happened there........ my Gods i know only a few chinese stories but Shit man there was a lot djgklsjgld #i wonder if identifying family members in the Ancient society happened through colors... like Sparrows n her siblings are colored from- #-dark blue (Dad's og clrs before turning grey) to turquoise (Inkling) and through this color coordination are the dynasties named #that's some fun thoughts #this video is prompting some neat thoughts.. ego is the culmination of the sins in short is one of them for example #did this guy actually come into contact with shkika or smth. the 'civilization before the ones we recognize as ancients' stuff at the end- #-sounds very familiar. -makes it to the end- Ah. The RW Discord. i wonder where that thought originated n who parroted it from who #☝ personally making the conscious effort to not seep myself into the fandom Too much since i like thinking about this stuff so i dont want- #-any fan-based answers/speculations. just wanna vibe with it uninfluenced n see where that takes me. also the rw discord feels dangerous

[yonpote]

Gaming channel suggestion: Dan and Phil react to the Phan Timeline. The revenue from that video alone would pay off their whole mortgage

💀💀 god no

#i genuinely dont want that for my own sanity #also have u skimmed thru the timeline in recent years cuz beyond privacy blah blah theres some parts that are just kinda cringe #or just pure headcanon #there was a string of tweets by someone else saying they hacked phil #and signed off with 'love dan' #so op was like THIS WAS DAN HACKING HIS ACCOUNT #when phil had. another friend named dan. who he knew irl. #that probably just went on phils computer when he wasnt looking. #and also it happened a month before they met irl #like i know they got close quick but i dont think phil was giving this 18 year old who is obsessed w him his password #so yeah i think that would be cringe and just cause drama even if dnp were totally fine w looking thru it themselves #cuz u know how some phannies can be

[katyspersonal]

AAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!

Recently I just can't stop having a bad mood! I just don't know what it is :/ I am trying to focus on the things that make me happy and combat my wish to vent and turn irritating things into positive ones but every single good thing improves my mood for maybe like 3 minutes, and then I think about things that make me angry ANYWAY! I want to be around people but I can't because if I keep talking about things that make me angry - minor or big - I'll just exhaust them. But I've been trying to focus on good things for a while now and now it feels like it is a daily hard battle.

I really need to either finally have a mental breakdown (but I can't control when it happens, you know?) so I can cry, or have a justified reason to get angry that won't feel like petty over-reacting on my half. Hhhhrg

#/vent #look i am TRYING to stay funny or chill or simply based #but you dont understand - *everything* online makes me angry or bitter! #i dont even know what happened.. nothing about internet changed yet it feels like it did??? #like a sound you cannot hear but the waves still shake you biologically.. #as much as i judge people who built their audience on being reactionary at least- #-they have privilege of being negative as much as they want and only get 'yass queen kick ass' for it #meanwhile i should watch myself to not extend venting limit gfhhjhv when i vented too much i should- #-stay cool for a while before i can feel bad again #am i overestimating the importance of my negative emotions though? #like.. am i being vain thinking my vents will 'poison the world around me' when my anger is- #-as threatening as barking of an alerted pomeranean? #yeah maybe....... #maybe i just have microtrauma from people that treated me like a dangerous monster for having- #-emotion of anger to begin with. this summer this issue was dialed up to 11 #right i am probably being too focused on self at this time! #i should watch some youtube trash-reviews or petty dramas to feel angry on behalf of someone ELSE. #gotta.. get out of my own head. now.

[fanfictionroxs]

My great early Monday morning thoughts:

VegasPete is just Kinn anti x Kinn fanboy

#sometimes i remember how happy pete was to work with kinn #and how kinn looked so adoringly at pete before sending him to spy on vegas #and then he forgot my son #pete probably gifted him a no 1 mafia boss mig for his birthday #take it back pete! #i just.. i want vegas to see this #it's the most hilarious thing that could have happened to him #he's going to be so jealous while porsche will be laughing his ass off #vegaspete #early morning shitposts #crack #kinnporsche the series #thai bl #thai drama #asianlgbtqdramas

[pepprs]

hi update things are fucking terrible and my eyes hurt from sobbing. lol

#purrs #delete later #not to liveblog and be tmi or whatever but i feel terribly alone and terribly miserable so this is in fact a cry for help lol. or really #comfort bc im fucking going insane. so for context last spring when i was still an intern another intern orchestrated this back channel #where everyone was supposed to talk shit about our supervisors (my dearest most belovedest mentors) and all of us hid it for months and it #all came to a head at asb 2022 because there was a lot of drama witb the asb student facilitators and our staff team. and it was sooooo ugly #and messy and horrible and probably played a direct role in one of my dearest beloved est mentors (who was the point person for asb) fucking #getting a new job and abandoning us in july lol 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃 and so i became a full time staff member and me and my remaining dearest belovedest #colleague besties fucking carried the world on oh r shoulders and put on amazing programs as just 3 of us in the core staff and we thought w #we were doing a really good job with the asb 2023 leaders and that there were no drama dynamics or whatever and guess fucking what. tonight #we found out that half of them hate us for reasons we still don’t know and all of them are at each others throats and also some of the #participants feel a type of way about us. and i know i am being a fragile sensitive crybaby over it but i have had terrible cramps all day a #and have barely slept since ive been here and feel like ive been bending over backwards to support the leaders only to find out that half of #them think we’re evil and i just… i couldn’t take it. so i cried and now im beating myself up for crying. but it’s like come ON. i know we #did a pretty imperfect job of preparing them for this. and i should just take responsibility for that and not be defensive. but it’s like… i #have NEVER seen this program in person before or been part of the planning of it. i was just a student last year like all of you. and also #HOW many fucking times did we create space for you to talk to us and invite us in. and still this shit happened. and i just feel like a #failure. and i couldn’t react to that information in any way except cry liek it’s all so over my head and out of my depth and im not as #emotionally mature as my colleagues bc im the youngest and this is my first time dealing with this and i feel so incompetent and like i #failed. failed the first time by not speaking up when i was implicated in the stupid fucking Google form back channel situation last year #and now failed the second time by not being able to prevent this stupid drama bullshit from happening again and for not catching it. and jfs #like… im in excruciating physical pain and haven’t slept and haven’t eaten well and my life is falling apart and we were ABANDONED BY THE #PERSON WHO WAS RESPONDIBLE FOR THIS (i know we weren’t abandoned she literally just got a new job i just have psychological issues) and #we’ve been running at a million miles per hour with absolutely no break and now you’re mad at us and not even telling us and it’s impacting #everyone’s experiences but you want to pretend this is fucking high school and keep secrets. i am TIRED of drama. i am TIRED of this stupid #bullshit. and not to say this bc i don’t know if asb 2022 drama factored into her decision to leave but if it did i get why * left now. i #get it. bc this shit makes me want to jump out the hotel window. i do not want to face any of them tomorrow and deal with more bullshit. i #am emotionally unstable and incompetent and not equipped to deal with this in a mature healthy way. i want this to be over NOW. im done. #ok i think that’s it um. sorry about that i just needed other people to know i am suffering and i will suppress the shame i feel about that #just this once. esp bc i denied myself the opportunity for my colleague besties to comfort me while i was crying and i regret it now lol

[icedteaandoldlace]

So it's Quiplash night with the besties, and the brother of the friend who ghosted us all just texted and then called my (non-ghosting) friend. He finally got wise to the fact that something went down in the friend group, and the words "I know what my fucking sister's capable of" were said. So my friend is now out on my porch on a 3-way call with both of our ex-friend's brothers, swapping tea with them while the rest of us wait inside to hear their perspective on this whole situation.

#we knew it was only a matter of time before this phone call came #'cause she wasn't gonna tell her family she'd dropped us #and of course they would know that any drama that went down would be her doing #also bonus fact one of my sisters went to check her Twitter the other day and she's been banned #like possibly for good #idk what she did probably sent death threats to a rich person #but it was only a matter of time before that happened too #fun tymes 🙃

[marmolita]

my trip for the holidays has been a bit of a disaster between sister having covid, kid getting sick (home test negative for covid), mom's car breaking down, needing to babysit my nieces too much (bc sister has covid and sis-in-law just started a new job and has no time off), being allergic to something in my mom's house, and southwest airlines completely melting down and cancelling my flight home, BUT

I'm now rebooked on a direct flight home on NYE (gonna celebrate the new year in the middle of a redeye flight woo), kid is improving, mom's car is at the shop, and the end is in sight!

#good riddance 2022 #probably a lot of good stuff happened this year but this past month has been super shitty!! #ready to leave it in the past and hope 2023 is better #lita talks about herself #this is leaving aside the extreme drama we were having before we left to come here about rodent infestation and our porch collapsing #but luckily my in laws checked on our house and it appears to have come through the polar weather okay

[azurexsnake]

I don’t think I’ll ever write here again. Not like write write. I might cross post ao3 links, but that has my old tumblr’s username. Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh

#I miss that account so much I’m not even gonna lie to you #I’ve thought about going back #I’m attached to that user specifically #it’s been me for literally years on my ao3 first before I even made that tumblr #and I don’t wanna change it just to avoid more pointless drama #I’m honestly really mad I ever left in the first place #and let other people create so much disquiet in my own safe space #but it is what it is #no one probably even remembers what happened except me by now anyway #or cares #hm #color: blue 🎨

[codecracked]

i just don’t want to be here tbh

#ooc. #the drama is too much #everything is too much #you can only mind your own business for so long before things start wearing on you too #there is no sense of compassion or understanding #people are selfish #they don’t care about each other or the ways their actions affect other people #and I mean this for both sides of any drama I've seen happen here #I'm probably gonna remake and go super super private or just move robin to my multi #it's too wild out here my dudes

[lorillee]

anyways this week ive been on the hunt for a very specific brand of awful high school au with ... minimal luck. i will say i am mildly fascinated by how absolutely inescapable luffy/nami was back in the earlier days of the fandom. even more baffled by the fact that both of their personalities are butchered beyond belief in all of these - like... okay real talk if you have to completely destroy one or both of the characters in your ship to make this work... maybe....... you don't ship those characters. you ship your original characters LOL

#like idk maybe lu/na can work in some capacity im not here to judge. but WOW do these authors not understand either of these characters #like. at all #if you've never done a dive into the ffn you would probably honestly be shocked #at the sheer amount of dark! smart! different df! godlike! luffy fics #in which his harem consists of every single relevant female character #like okay you say luffy is your favorite character but in all of your fics his personality is completely reversed #maybe..... maybe you dont like luffy all that much. maybe you like your oc with luffys name and face plastered onto it #either way ive been reading a lot of. what can only be described as . shlock #but its not the brand of shlock i want #one time. one time for this one fandom. i accidentally stumbled upon the most horrifying melodramatic soap opera high school au #i have. ever ever seen. i was a bit traumatized. but unfortunately after skimming through levels of drama never known to man #and subsequently skimming through a lot of really. really boring high school aus #i have come to realize that i will likely never find anything even remotely on that level ever again #and i am. honestly mostly disappointed. not entirely because like i said it was a bit traumatizing to read. but also...... man #even more man because a few months after i found it the author deleted it and said she was going to rewrite it. but tbh i doubt it #when stuff like that happens the author gets to chapter 3 and then gives up #but either way. yeah ive been searching for that high ever since and have come away terribly disappointed #maybe this unicorn fic is hiding somehwere in the ffn and maybe im just too picky. but i will die before i read cora/law or ace/sabo/luffy

[akkivee]

I wish Hypmic had a more thorough timeline detailed somewhere because that last post about Kuko's commitment to BAT made me think, I know Kuko's known Hitoya a bit longer, but in canon BAT's only been a group for what? a year or so? and while Kuko was with Ichiro for most likely longer time, they still went their separate ways pretty young. as chaotic as Kuko is, I'm imagining that for getting to know people in relatively short time frames, he values having stable figures in his life.

i also think part of the issue here is that hypmic’s still taking their time developing nagosaka as teams and as individuals with the depth they’ve clearly already set up. like, yeah, hitoya is kuukou’s longest relationship between the guys he’s partnered up with— 5 years since he met him, maybe 3 years worth of actual development— so it makes some sense why kuukou’s at that point with hitoya, especially given what hitoya’s also done for kuukou. but idk if i can confidently say it’s been a year since he’s met jyushi lol and that’s intense

so i agree that kuukou has a desire for stability of some sort; he immediately calls jyushi and hitoya his family the moment bat is formed and says that they’ll never betray each other. but it’s also like……. why so hard so soon lol??

#vee got an ask #another problem is is that hypmic’s character’s don’t seem to be aging anymore lol but that’s neither here nor there lol #i always think about how sympathetic kuukou was to the mc when he explained how he lost his master #‘when a person you look up to and who watched over you like a parent disappears…… normally you'd be so worried you can hardly do anything’ #how much of that is from experience and how much of that is empathy lol #and not to make this about ichiro lol but #while it wasn’t his life ichiro staked on kuukou he was putting his livelihood with his brothers on the line for kuukou #y’know his whole purpose #and ichiro and kuukou could NOT have known each other for that long either lol #kuukou happens to think ichiro is the best man to ever and he was very touched when ichiro stepped in to help him and unami #so kuukou willing to stake his life his purpose on his team may be him paying it forward so to say #but that’s just the ‘kuukou was ichiro’s first 2gumi and therefore intrinsically tied to his leader like the other 2gumis are’ angle lol #we need to get the nagosaka manga back lol the og teams had these extra stories that helped further bring them together before their 1st drb #and ​while nagosaka admittedly did get more drama track wise there does feel like a liiiittle bit of a developmental disconnect #those extra stories the og divisions got would probably help lol

[katyspersonal]

Tumblr sorta needs a 'Mute' feature in my opinion. Like what if I don't want to block this user, what if I don't want to become enemies and in some days I'd like to interact. But also most of the time seeing how they avidly encourage everyone else whereas I get the passive-aggressive 'oh yeah very uhh... interesting... (please leave me alone I don't like your art lol)' makes me want to unfollow every single fan of these characters and never draw them again.

I remember two years ago the exact same thing happened when someone liked the same character and the same ship and I swear I was the only person in the fandom they bluntly left out and could not spare a single good word for. I can't even blame this on my art being "ugly" because this type of user always aggressively praises all art styles and all levels of skill, it feels more like 'a personal thing except we never fought a single time'. And now my toxic trait of needing approval from [cool person name] is back to haunt me years later! Add the unability to "abandon" this character/ship/whatever despite wanting to after facing so much unspoken passive spite, because I am a contrarian and the best way to trap me into doing something is to try to exclude me from it. I didn't face attempts to very aggressively bully me out of the yard/class/community/etc, sometimes with physical violence included, only to let something mid like passive aggression online finally do it.

I am really stupid and naive person despite my age, but in like 5% of the cases I will still understand the hint and understand what is going on. Yet I have to pretend to be clueless even in rare situations when I know someone hates me, because since they never admitted it, quitting will be perceived as me being "paranoid". But dear goooood, it hurts sometimes. I hope that one day I will be numbed to being treated as a tumor on an otherwise healthy body of society that someone is dying to amputate- and always a person whose approval I want, of all people. Knowing that this day will come is one of the things that keep me going as both a person and a creator. Things like viruses and diseases still try their best to persist, so even if I am actually one, I should persist. It doesn't matter whether I actually rot everything around me or this is just my self-depreciating delusion upon focusing on people that mistreated me and not people that loved me. What matters is persisting, I just still feel angry that it hurts. I can't respond spite with spite or passive aggression with passive aggression, I can't do the 'smug asshole' when I become aware that someone tries to starve me until I "die". I can just fall over and cry about it like a kicked dog, despite being so old, especially when it is a person I didn't have anything against.

And really.. It is as simple as turning the internet off, so I don't see The Person and can focus on doing stuff that I like, as if they never existed and can't crash my self-esteem. It is just annoying to keep doing this, a feature to not see them unless I am in the mood would be better. Like.. blocking is not an option. Not only it implies being enemies which is not my intention, but also it will be like an "evidence" that I was "crazy". They didn't do anything, right? Well, they know what they did, but it was never verbal, so it is my fault I "imagined things", right?

#/vent #/negative #/HEAVILY negative #fandomry rambles #like I started crying typing this do not read it unless you already know #it is just stupid how I don't even need any sort of drama to *just* annoy people to THIS severe point #like I said even before everything there was a very similar situation #I just evoke some primal hatred in specific type of people #it is probably what happened with maasanox but they apologized and moreover felt bad vibes from the stalker bully idiot #it is more like that meme from Lilo and Stitch #'ah yeah all artists and other creative fans deserve knowing they are liked and talented and supported...' #*katya walks in* 'EXCEPT THAT ONE!!!!!!!' #the punchline is that the two years ago guy and todays guy are fans of the same character #I swear the fictional bastard has abnormal ability to reveal the ugliest truths and bring out the worst in people #like the last time someone kinned the twink every single person here showed their true face and that was painful #not a single person got spared of showing what they were made of and me lacking spine was the LEAST of the sins brought up for judgement #you see this is why truth hurts. because people are terrible. truth is always ugly because WE are always ugly #I kinda love him for that but seriously can he stop making the worst things surface for FIVE minutes lol #in my excuse I am TRYING to kill my 'inner child' because these problems are too stupid but it seems impossible #I am a kicked dog with rabies in the past today and always

[oveliagirlhaditright]

What if the new Death Note finally makes Lawlight a thing, though?

#i say as if they weren't before. as if the subtext wasn't rapidly becoming text more and more with each adaptation #also it probably won't happen. but i'm just saying #but a part of me worries that if they did do this they'd screw it up somehow #maybe the drama and musical should remain as close as it gets... or not. i don't know #overall i really don't want a new death note. even if it is by the writers of stranger things. i don't trust that it'll be good #or anything new that makes it worth having #or if it is new that it'll retain the death note feeling

[skrunksthatwunk]

playing dmc1 with my earbuds in (but on low volume bc they're being weird) while my roommate and her shitty bf argue. i feel like i'm recreating the very specific experience of some child of divorce out there

#how do i tell her she needs to break up with him immediately. posthaste.fuck it funny post over rant incoming tw emotional abuse i think #nyarla dni #(<- roomie and nyarla have met and i don't wanna air roomie's drama to ppl who know her w/o her consent. anon internet ppl only) #listen i'm normally for gentle advising and that's probably what i'll do since i don't want to stress her out but oh my fucking god what is #his problem. he's constantly putting her in these weird no-win situations where the only right answer is to never be upset or disagree or b #wrong on accident or be misunderstood by him and to tell him everything she's feeling so she's not 'playing mind games' but if she says wha #she's feeling he'll interrogate her and badger her with the same questions over and over again insisting she's unreasonable until she gives #in and says she's sorry with an attitude he likes. i fucking don't like him. and a lot of this is observations from today. the day after sh #GOT INTO A CAR ACCIDENT AND BROKE HER NECK. WHAT THE FUCK. #it's like he expects to be treated like a king on one of the worst days of her life and when she's upset he's like OH. OH I GET IT. #and lectures her on having attitude and taking things out on others when she's literally not even doing that. not to an extent that matters #anyway. like. there's more productive ways of dealing with that. where you don't treat them like a bad kid for getting overwhelmed #he has made her cry multiple times today. i have been around multiple arguments and fights and he's just genuinely. awful i hate him #hell the first argument i overheard *i* was in tears by the end (luckily they left soon after bc i had to run to the basement laundry #dungeon to bawl my eyes out because 1. i can't handle confrontation 2. i've never seen roomie cry and 3. she just seemed so hurt and tired) #anyway he just left again after a fight because. god this is so dumb. she told him to move while they were sleeping in the same twin bed #(remember she's in a neck brace) and he fucking. left the room for an HOUR bc he thought the only thing that could POSSIBLY mean (as he #insisted) was for him to get out of here and then when she was like oh hey i'm sorry i didn't mean it like that he decided to spend the nex #half hour of his short time on this earth chewing her out for not giving him a lengthy explanation while half-asleep as to like. why he #needed to move (she wanted to grab smth) and apparently he sat in the chair by her bed for like 10 mins before leaving so he probably saw #her fall back asleep. and then he got pissy when after he left she didn't pick up her phone when he was calling her? even though he knew sh #was asleep?? she didn't even know he was gone. fucking. i need to get him away from my roomie YESTERDAY #look. miscommunication happens. i'm not saying he's an asshole for wanting things said clearly. i am pro-saying what you mean. #but if every time your gf tells you what she means you make it into a 30 minute lecture (no matter how small the slight and w/o examining i #you're actually right or not) she's not gonna wanna fucking tell you if she doesn't think it's worth the argument. especially if you never #let her rest until she concedes. apology isn't enough. clarification isn't enough. she has to say how wrong she was and beg and GOD. UGHHH #and he's always on about how she hurts his feelings. a gust of wind could hurt his feelings. he's constantly berating her manipulating her #and then he's like >:( see that hurt my feelings you can't hurt ppl's feelings. you're disrespectful. HE"S THE WORST I FUCKING HATE HIM #look sometimes adversity reveals the truth of a person and this just amplified his shittiness so much. mr OH i slept in a HOSPITAL and it #was so bad... you can't be in a bad mood bc i've been doing the bare minimum and you need to prioritize MY feelings rn. also i won't leave

[eggmeralda]

december 2023 is the month of delivery drama I guess

#first the whole issue with my cd getting lost in the post and having to contact like 4 different people to try and find out what had even #happened. and in the end i just got a refund #and now today i ordered my mum's christmas present but when i paid for it it said the date it would be delivered was the 27th #so like. i immediately cancelled it and bought one that would come before christmas #and now apparently the cancellation was declined bc they've already packaged it and sent it off #within a minute?? #what is wrong with you #luckily it was only like £2 but i guess now my mum is gonna get 2 grapefruit spoons #tbf though she's the one who fights people over the phone about any issues and she knows that's her christmas present bc she requested it #so i can probably just get her to argue with someone about it #anyway #i swear to god there better not be anymore ordering online drama #ramble

[danveration]

Sleep well, amour Pt. 2

Parings: Alastor x reader

Summary: After falling asleep to his voice, you wake up and get confronted by Alastor. Later, you walk in on him sleeping.

Word count: 1523

Warnings: Mention of Alastor eating and k*lling a deer

part one

A/N: PART TWO IS HERE!!! I had SO many options wracking my brain on where to take this, but I picked this one! I hope you all enjoy it :’) let me know if you have any feedback, I’d love to hear it. Also, I’m currently working on all the requests I got :) as well as part 2 to that-no-good-first-man-on-earth

You wake up, blinking and looking around. Momentarily forgetting where you are.

Shit. You fell asleep in Alastor’s recording room. Thankfully, he isn’t here right now.

Before you could get up, you notice a purple blanket on you. It seems to be the one that was on his coat hanger. Did Alastor put this on you..? The thought has you smiling and your cheeks reddening.

Alastor’s voice sure does have an effect on you. You look outside to see what time it is, but remember that it’s Hell and the sky is always the same shade of red. You’re going to have to get used to that.

Getting up, you put the blanket back on the hanger and look around some more. It feels some-what intimate right now to be in his space when he’s not around. You wonder how long you’ve been asleep for.

You walk over to his table and notice a red “play” button on his radio equipment and are tempted to press it. It surely won’t cause any harm to hear what he was talking about when you were asleep. You press it and listen.

“Haha! For any sinner, I know it’s a tempting question. But I-“ The recording fast forwards. “Nevertheless, I find it quite amusing that this technology box thinks he is on any sort of level to me! Call me crazy but the sinners have been taaallkinggg, and they think he sounds quite obsessed.” He laughs, knowing Vox is probably listening.

You smile at his voice and find it funny how he is a bit of a drama queen when it comes to his radio broadcasts. You know deep down he doesn’t actually care about the whole situation with Vox, but it’s still funny how he entertains it.

Looking to your right, you see a mug that has “Oh Deer” written on it. There seems to be a bit of black coffee still left in the mug. The “deer” reference made you giggle. You’ve always wondered about his past and how exactly he is part deer anyhow. Oh well, It’ll reveal itself with time.

You’re looking at all the other buttons on his equipment, wondering what they do, when all of a sudden you hear light footsteps on the other side of the door. It’s most likely Alastor. Nobody would willingly go to his room without permission.

The door opens slowly and in steps Alastor. You notice how he opened the door quietly, to not make make much noise. As he still assumed you were asleep. You smiled at that.

He looks ahead and sees you, immediately smiling. “Ah! My dear. You’re awake!” He claps his hands together, his cane leaning on his side.

“Hey Al. Um.. about what happened I-“ You start.

“Ah, ah! No need to explain yourself, sweetheart! Don’t go giving yourself a headache.” He cuts in and laughs.

He looks down at you and says, “you just find comfort in my voice, don’t you?” He asks, with a smug smile.

Your eyes go wide and you stutter. Of course it wasn’t the most secretive thing. Still, you didn’t think he actually knew.

“U-um. Well..” You say.

He tilts his head to side as if saying, “Go on…”

There’s really no getting out of this. Plus, you don’t think Alastor would actually care. He’d probably just find it funny.

“Yeah, I do.” You admit. “I find comfort in your voice, of course I do! I just.. I don’t know.”

You aren’t sure what to say, it’s a tad embarrassing.

Alastor begins to laugh.

“I certainly could tell! I find it quite amusing if I do say so myself.” He says.

He definitely doesn’t mind it, he has a soft spot for you. But he’s also a bit confused on why you even do. He knows his radio voice is unique, but nobody ever commented on it bringing them comfort. They usually scream and run away when they hear him. You’ve been there long enough to see him kill and do so many things that people describe as “horrible, satanic, terrifying” but you still find comfort in him nevertheless? He thinks it’s absolutely adorable!

“Amusing?” You ask.

He nods and says, “Amusing, darling! I mean.. you know who I am, do you not?” He laughs and continues. “Though you still find comfort.. now that’s an interesting fact, don’t you think?”

You shy away, looking anywhere but him. You’re comfortable around him, of course, but you’re a tiny but embarrassed of this whole situation. You know he is definitely loving his though.

He places a finger on your jaw and guides your head back to look at him.

“Uh, uh, dear. There’s no need to feel shy! I never said it was a bad thing. I’m truly honoured!” He says, smiling down at you.

You and him have been getting to know each other for a while now and you’ve just been going deeply and deeply more interested in him. You almost laugh at yourself because you sometimes act as if you did when you alive, how you obsessed over fictional characters and “fan fiction.”

You look at him and say, “Well, that’s good then.” You chuckle.

“Mm, it is isn’t it?” He says.

He thinks you’re absolutely pathetic, but in a good way. He wouldn’t let anything hurt you, this new sensation is something he never wants to get rid of.

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Later that day, Charlie wanted you to pass a message on to Alastor about the hotel reservations. You knew he was in his room because he mentioned that if you needed him, he’d be in there having some dinner (aka, deer). Which he has in his half room half forest. You really wonder how on earth he even did that. The wonders of being a radio demon!

You’re at his door, lightly knocking. You wait a few seconds but you don’t hear anything from the other side.

“Al?” You question while knocking again.

“Hm.” You think.

You aren’t sure if you should go in or not. Sure, the thing Charlie told you about could wait but you also wanted to make sure he was okay. What if he.. choked or something? You’re sure the radio demon could handle that but you just want to make sure.

“Al, I’m coming in.. okay?” You say while knocking once more.

You slowly twist the knob and push the door open. Peaking in, you see him on the other side of the room, in a chair.

“Alastor, are you alr-“ You stop yourself when you notice his eyes are closed.

Closing the door behind you, you walk up to him.

He’s currently sitting in the chair, his arm on the table and his head resting on his hand. He looks so peaceful. His mouth isn’t smiling and his face just looks so.. relaxed. You’ve never saw him like this before. He mumbles occasionally and his ears twitch every so often as he sleeps. You aren’t sure how he finds this position comfortable, but you smile at it nonetheless.

You don’t want to disturb him so you leave, now relaxed that you know he’s okay.

Right before you grab the knob of the door, you hear, “Y/n?”

You whip your head back and you see him standing up, looking at you with his smile.

“Did you need something, dear?” He asks, as if he wasn’t just dead asleep a second ago.

Of course, it makes sense he is a light sleeper.

“O-oh, no. Charlie just wanted me to tell you that the renovations went well and that the guys who inspect the place will be here tomorrow!” You say. “Sorry if I disturbed you.”

“Ahh, alright! And nonsense! You couldn’t disturb me.” He says.

You look at him and smile.

“You know, you could join me if you want! I was just resting and then going to have some dinner.” He offers.

You perk up but then remember that Husk assigned you a task of picking up crates of whiskey for the bar.

“Shit, sorry. I can’t. I have to go get more alcohol for the bar.” You say with a frown.

“More? If I remember correctly, we just got new shipments in.. last week?” He says with a laugh. “Though I’m not surprised we ran out again. Husker is a busy man. Well, my dear. Some other time, then!”

You notice him looking back into the forest, eyeing a deer.

“Yeah, some other time.” You smile. “Have a good dinner, Alastor!”

He smiles back at you says, “Oh I will.” He chuckles, his radio eyes making an appearance as he looks back the deer.

“You have yourself a lovely day, sweetheart!” He says with a wave.

“You too!” Waving back, you then open the door and leave. Once you leave you hear shrieking on the other side of the door, definitely the deer that Al was eyeing.

You’re excited to have more encounters with him, and even take him up on the dinner offer! You remember him mentioning he wanted to introduce you to his friend, Rosie. You’re looking forward to it.

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