#primary source: my dad HATES HIM

[oh-soo-diabolik]

Hello again! So I wanted to ask beforehand because I wanted to request a certain pathetic... Attention starved depresso of a vampire Ritcher. This is a nonromantic ask btw.

Imagine if, while in the early stages of being obsessed with Cordelia and still had a way out (hard to believe, I know but IMAGINE) he was attacked ked by a small group of vampire hunters from a church. Goes to the church, wrecks havoc and while doing so finds a little boy primary school age nonverbal in the basement. When he checks it out, all the other church members were killed and the child is dirty, wearing what amounts to a potato sack.

He quickly reduces the child was abused and neglected and this stunted the child's growth with 🌟religious trauma🌟

Ultimately he takes the bab in and raises him, practically spoiling the child in what ways he wasn't and his brother was. When the child sees that Cordelia's a bitch, Ritcher eventually drops her because she's toxic and caught her abusing his adopted child the way she does Ayato.

Basically I'm asking for soft head canons or short little blurb of Ritcher being a good dad and learning that "omg love can be precious."

Father Figure!Richter

A/N: I rushed this because I didn’t want to keep you waiting 😭 but i will definitely write more content for him 🩵

Remember guys my inbox is open! 🥹🩵

His eyes watch as she dances with her beloved husband.

Richter hated his brother, the good for nothing man he called his brother, KarlHeinz.

“My dear husband, you’re the one who completes me.” she mutters to KarlHeinz. Richter sucks his teeth in response, consumed by the feeling of jealousy.

He stalks towards the entrance of the manor and exists.

The cold bitter air greets him, he needed space, he couldn’t bear facing the bewitched woman named Cordelia, and her wish-washy ways. She didn’t care for him, per se, she just wanted fun.

There he begins his journey into the forest, he continues to walk before approaching a large church, there it stands with pride and beauty, taunting him with their ill faith in a man who doesn’t exist. But what did humans know anyway?

The sound of a child whimpers catches his attention. He teleports to the source of the cause, appearing in front of a boy no older than the age of seven or eight years old.

He was skinny, and frail, his hair was unkept, and he stinks. As if he was left for dead, the older vampire peers down to the boys level.

“What happened?” Richter questions, he waits for the boy’s response but to no avail. “Speak child.” he says more firmly.

“They told me to be a good boy, t-they said it’s what God wants.” he finally replies, Richter’s ruby colored eyes stares down at the boy.

As if he almost felt guilty?

“Get up, come with me, child.” He orders, he watches as the boy struggles to stand, but nothing surprised him more than what he did next. The sudden feeling of the boy holding his shirt for support, catches him at bay. His cold being felt something he hasn’t felt before, he felt responsible. Responsibility of caring for this child.

“Shall I carry you?” He questions, the sounds of men shouting and yelling causes him to turn to face them.

“Step away from the child, Vampire.” An old man snares, gripping the stake at hand.

Truth be told, Richter was tired, tired of dealing with selfish people, first the damned woman Cordelia and then his brother and now these lowlife vampire hunters.

“Your stakes have no effect on me, I will take my leave and I will be taking the child with me.” he replies, as he picks up the child and vanishes.

“Dammit! That fucking bastard took him.” another man says.

“After him, you fucking idiots.” another man shouts, the men grunt in response as they start on their journey into the world of the unknown.

The boy grips Richter’s shirt, “Worry less, you shall be safe with me.” He mutters the boy could only nod in response.

Richter knew, from this day, he would risk his life to ensure that child was safe. Even if it meant killing His own blood and the townspeople, along with that damned woman.

He finally felt a purpose, protect the unprotected. Even if it meant losing his life.

#richter sakamaki #diabolik lovers fandom #dialovers #request #admin a #ayato sakamaki #kanato sakamaki #laito sakamaki #reiji sakamaki #sakamaki brothers #subaru sakamaki #diabolik lovers #shu sakamaki #shuu sakamaki #cordelia sakamaki

[meaningofaeons]

Hi! What manhwas do you use as a source of inspiration? 👀 Gepard and Sampo being a knight and a mage love interests kinda reminds me about "actually, I was the real one" and I'm a sucker for the "villainess reverses the roles" stories so I'm curious about your recommendations now

HI ANON !!! (=^･ｪ･^=))ﾉ彡☆

so far, my inspirations for majesty specifically have been the following (under a cut since it gets a bit long! my recs will also be under cut :)

"father, I don't want this marriage!" for the whole mc-thinks-dad-hates-her thing (except reader's dad isn't doting/sweet like the fl's dad in that manhwa is ;w; and he probably won't Become doting/sweet, though this is still up in the air. FYI, the reader's dad is actually canon to honkai star rail lore! look him up on the wiki for some more clues on how he'll be -- louis fleming!) "who made me a princess" is going to be the main inspiration for the dynamic between reader and sampo. take that as you will! "roxana/how to save the female lead's older brother" is the very loose inspiration for the four duchies in the stellaron empire. there are many manhwa with this setup of like "three/four/five important/powerful noble families" but roxana is the primary manhwa I took inspo from for this! "actually, I was the real one" is actually part of my inspiration for gepard's dynamic with reader! sampo not as much mainly since I haven't read it in a while, I gotta reread this one lol "the villainess turns the hourglass" is quite a big OVERALL inspiration for majesty. without giving too much away, let's just say that the reader will NOT be a pushover by any means, and will also not be a perfect angel in her second chance at life. also, the ML from this manhwa is a minor inspo for the dynamic between jing yuan and reader! "the remarried empress" is another inspiration for jing yuan. that being prince heinrey! the dynamic between heinrey and navier will reflect somewhat in reader and jing yuan's dynamic "villains are destined to die" has so many good characters, it was a shoe-in for inspiration! dan heng and reader's dynamic will be similar to the one between the FL and winter verdandi, the white-haired love interest. this is because, since dan heng backed down when reader was punished in her first life, she is wary of him in the second. also, the dynamic between reader and blade will be seen as very similar to the crown prince callisto regulus and FL, but maybe with less banter/crown prince being a cheeky bastard lol

that's all I can think of for the time being! I will inform if more inspirations crop up :)

just for clarity, I'll make a list of the PRIMARY inspirations for the dynamics between reader and each of the romanceable characters. some of these may be looser than others! don't take this as like HARD proof/indication for how the dynamics will be, some of these manhwa I haven't read in a while! dan heng x reader -> "villains are destined to die", winter x penelope jing yuan x reader -> "the remarried empress", heinrey x navier kafka x reader -> "the tyrant wants to live a virtuous life", ethan x dorothea stelle x reader -> "beware the villainess!", nine x melissa blade x reader -> "the villainess is a marionette", raphael x cayena sampo x reader -> "who made me a princess", lucas x athanasia gepard x reader -> "actually, I was the real one", joseph x keira ▉▉▉▉▉▉ -> "the villainess turns the hourglass", asterope x aria (this is the only hint you'll get as to who this mysterious love interest is! I tried to think of a better example but this one's ok :)

as for recommendations, I certainly recommend any of the manhwa I just listed. the remarried empress, while not a villainess-reverses-the-roles type, is a VERY good case of revenge served cold and characters you love to hate getting their just desserts. I also like "not-sew-wicked stepmom" for a bit of a less revenge-y but still flipping the script type of manhwa!

thanks for the ask!! （งΦ Д Φ）ง

#majesty #m.asks #majesty: hsr #katze contemplates! #anon

[my-boy-squiggle-roy]

hello my fucked-up lovelies. here’s my pre-watch masterpost of osmosis knowledge so you have the most entertaining comprehension of my Live Cyrus Reaction 🫡

what the fuck is a succession

so like there’s The Roy’s and they’re Business People (the children by force probably) and their dad is the Main Bitch of the company who is inevitably gonna go six feet under (in light of… recent events HSHDJDJ) and so the siblings are fighting for their goddamn lives to be his Successor. I Think. and the whole family dynamic is super fucked and manipulative and their father is abusive as hell and the siblings know deep down that all they have is each other in the face of this asshole who has pinned their lives against one another for the sake of his own. probably. idk i’ve treaded into speculation so back on track. business family. there’s gonna be a successor. that’s all i really know plot-wise

Characters

these are the bitches i know exist by name. if there’s a main character on here i didn’t list, it’s because i do not know them as part of The Crew yet. here’s what i know about them.

Kendall Roy

not beating the bojack horseman allegations (almost killed himself in a pool and has substance abuse issues i think)

his boy squiggle cooked up some sick beats

i think he might be the oldest of the siblings?

he’s just Ken (i think he goes by Ken mostly and not Kendall)

seems exhausted as hell and on his last thread

Shiv Roy

uh hi for the love of god hello twirls hair around finger

probably gaslights gatekeeps girlbosses

like i don’t really keep up with taylor swift but i feel like there’s a lot of edits of her to The Man

married to some guy

i feel like i vaguely remember hearing that her sex life sucked with some guy

very clean cut no bullshit type of person and like she probably has to try twice as hard as her brothers for recognition but idk maybe logan believes in equality and hates them just as much

Roman Roy

sent a dick pic to his dad during a business meeting

am i imagining him being called a pathetic little worm for subconscious personal reasons or did that happen

says the most out of pocket shit in the whole show i think

is regularly called derogatory gay terms (of course by myself but also the actual characters i think)

has hella sexual trauma

was physically abused by logan

girl. the inferiority complex in this mf.

just a complete little shit

Logan Roy

primary source of trauma

just your typical like. old white man capitalistic bitch but there’s no charisma or anything he’s just There

well. he was there.

Tom

apparently he is that Some Guy that shiv married i genuinely only knew him as some weird abusive homosexual counterpart to greg until a few days ago

that’s literally all i’ve got

oh he also works at The Business

Greg

i literally have no clue what this man’s deal is but i’m so intrigued by his expressions he looks like an italian greyhound

he’s really fucking tall so scenes with him and other people in it have to be shot a certain way which is so fucking funny

he comes as an accessory with tom idk

can say with a decent amount of confidence that i don’t think he’s a super bright character intelligence-wise

also works at The Business

Connor (Roy?)

cousin to the siblings

he’s like overlooked a shit ton by logan bc he’s not like. a Real Roy i don’t fucking know

apparently got married recently. good for him. (unless a certain event uh interrupted the completion of that marriage)

i don’t think i know anything else whatsoever

Gerri

i’ve been told she exists

alright! now you’ve obtained my succession headspace and are set to laugh at my naïveté. go forth 🫡

[peggy-sue-reads-a-book]

I wanna do some headcanons about my girl the princess of Crete. I’m not an expert on Ariadne’s primary sources so please please correct me if I get anything wrong.

Ariadne is so cute. Distinctly greek looking. Curly dark hair, dark features. I picture her as having a very soft body and face— chubby hips, round arms, sloped shoulders.

Two of dionysus’s names for her are “my treasure” and “you fetching creature.���

Remember she’s from Crete— not Athens. We know from the frescos that modesty standards were different and the colors were brighter. So yes, Ari’s style would have been bright, ruffled dresses and heavy eye makeup. Crete is fascinating. Look up Crete.

She traveled so much she’s fluent in all the Romance languages.

I picture her as a bit of a materialist — hello, her symbols are thread of pure gold and a crown of stars. Also Minoan textiles and technology were just kind of ahead. Its safe to say my queen likes nice things. She wears a lot of jewelry and her palace has the fanciest pool. Cold natured. Penchant for cashmere sets.

Lovely cook. Very sophisticated style. She has never eaten ambrosia because she’s such a foodie she doesn’t want to spoil her taste for something she’s passionate about. She has a Pinterest account.

Pasiphae was kinda distant with her. I think it was too hard to connect with any more of her kids knowing what became of her son.

She’s not an intellectual exactly but she’s crafty and creative. Daedalus was kind to her out of pity but it drove him crazy how she was always asking questions and touching his stuff. He made her the golden thread just for something, anything, to occupy that lonely little kitten. Icarus had a crush on her. It went unrequited. She didn’t want to spoil things with her one-sided found father by dating sunboi.

I think she’s a bit shy. Gentler persona. She and Hera are a fun team. They initially bonded over their shitty dads and then went shopping.

Hera hosted a memorial service for the Minotaur. Ariadne confided in her how difficult it was to choose theseus over her own brother. She wanted to stop the murder of the Athenian children. Theseus convinced her that it would be a mercy killings. He’s been down there unloved, underfed, and bumping into walls since he was an innocent little fuzzy. Helping kill him never felt heroic. Hera understands. She was ripped from her mother and grew up in Kronos’s small intestine.

Only Dionysus came. The three of them held hands and shared what they liked best about the Minotaur. This shall remain private. Dio made sum bullshit up. Hera really tried.

Screw Theseus. We hate him.

#greek mythology #incorrect greek mythology #hera headcannon #hera #dionysus x ariadne week #ariasus week #dionysus x ariadne #ariadne

[oh-my-damn]

It saddens me really, I’m still sad he’s not who he sold to me. I feel fooled. I really thought he was a good one.

I have mentioned this so many times already...

But it honestly breaks my heart. My writing wouldn't even exist without him. My blog wouldn't, either.

I hate the position he put us in because of this.

It was a terrible choice to make. I know some took a different path than I did, but I know I couldn't take a different one than the one I did. Not without feeling like a fraud.

I stood there, asking myself; "Will you keep supporting everything he does? Or will you speak your mind?"

For so long, all I've had to lean on was my moral compass. It's who I am.

It goes back to my parents, and, tmi for a lot of people, goes back to finding out my dad was cheating on my mom when I was 11 years old. I found out and I had to tell my mom.

Ever since then, everything changed. I could never do a single thing that went against how I truly felt.

I have tried.

I have tried so fucking hard. I've tried staying in friendships, relationships, despite knowing it wasn't benefitting me.

Because telling the truth is so heart breaking, you know? Realizing it is even worse.

Sometimes it's nicer to pretend.

My feelings towards this goes back to my past. Debating whether to live in this cushioned reality that was created for me; living in this world where Chris is the man I didn't think existed. Golden, primary colors, full of emotions - as Jenny put it.

He was my muse. He was the source of so much of my creativity. I'd always been told I wasn't very creative. I was always told I was good at writing though. To me, those are the same thing - being creative and writing; to others they aren't.

But suddenly people loved what I put out there. They loved what I poured my whole being into. And it all derived from one person.

It felt like magic.

Having it shatter was devastating. I was so angry. So upset.

Now I feel numb. Months have passed. Realizations have happened. It was good and fun while it lasted. It was nice, imagining this perfect person out there. It was devastating when I first realized he wasn't real, realizing perfect people aren't real. Once again.

But it's okay now. The feeling has passed.

I just feel numb. Passive. Demotivated. It's so hard to write now.

Sometimes I wonder if he was the reason I was ever able to? I know that's not the case, but sometimes it feels that way.

And I feel half again. Numb. Broken. Realizing perfect isn't out there, once again.

Realizing we have to do this over and over until we die; longing for something or someone who can bring this kind of need, energy, longing, creativity to our lives.

Only to be disappointed when the story inevitably ends.

#mandy answers #this was a lot #and emotional #im sorry #ive been up too long #chris evans #creativity #writing #muse #personal #i did listen to ceilings by lizzie mcalpine while writing #might be why its so emotional and personal

[queen-erika-the-songful]

What changes would you make to the Tangled series?

I have a couple of ideas:

Don't canonize Eugene and Rapunzel's age gap. People want to whine and cry about age gaps that are MADE UP (Snow White and her Prince, look it up) but hardly ever talk about that Eugene met Rapunzel when she was just 17. Yes it was only for the day, but he would get crucified for that IRL. Idk I know it's a fairytale but why does no one talk about it? She could've been 18 from the day they met or he could've been lowered to something like 21. IDK

Don't make Eugene captain. Give him something else to do that doesn't involve just shoving him into a role he didn't express desire for nor have hints to becoming

Speaking of captains, if the Cassandra betrayal was still going to be in the show, then DON'T SIDELINE THE MAN WHO RAISED HER. Captain was literally her Dad and he loved her but the show decided she needed to fixate on this horrible woman who abandoned her when she was a toddler. I don't even remember if she says anything to the Captain outside of their conversation of "You didn't tell me who my ~REAL~ parent was!!" (I could be misremembering though). Why did they even bother giving him that great emotional episode and have him proclaim he was gonna get his daughter back if they were just going to shove him aside?

Not have Cassandra's betrayal be fueled so deeply by Gothel "choosing Rapunzel over her". Now, her own mother abandoning her for Rapunzel could have worked, IF it had been the final straw in this line of feeling pushed aside for Rapunzel. But instead they turn it into her primary motivation for getting revenge. I hate that so much. And she gaslit Rapunzel over and over and over again without really listening. I wish they at least put in something like the Moonstone was further fueling that specific hurt or something like that IDK

Give Lance stuff to actually do. He was a great character and deserved to shine more.

Instead of trying to rewrite canon that they only used part of the sun flower, have Rapunzel address the fact that her parents (well, her Dad) used up an entire magical source of healing on one person. I find it kind of odd that the movie is open about Gothel being selfish for using the flower all to herself, but says it's okay for Frederic to put the entire thing into a single potion for his wife. It could've been an interesting discussion.

Have Rapunzel address some of the other screwed up stuff her father has done. The whole beginning of the show with the stuff that goes down with Lady Caine actually opened up some interesting ideas. But they just chalk it up to "Lady Caine revenge lady bad" instead of talking about that Frederic actually did to his people.

#asks #majorabbey

[protokirby]

Vent post. Just need to let it all out. Don't read this.

Currently on the verge of a complete mental breakdown because for the past 2 days in a row I have tried to make a peanut butter and banana sandwich for breakfast for lack of better options and the fruit flies have turned it into a freaking warzone both times.

I desperately need a spider infestation because unlike everything else, spiders don't give me trauma and they will eat the critters that have been driving me insane for years. I love bugs and stuff. Really do. But since an invasion that started like- 2 or 3 years ago, nothing has been the same. The ants keep targeting my computer and I can't afford another computer. This computer is the best one I've ever had and these aren't made anymore as far as I can tell. There are ants living in the microwave. They can survive the waves of mmmmmmmmmmm and they have enough time to get all over everything as it's cooking. There are roaches living in the fridge and the pantry dropping dookies on everything. I don't trust any of the food kept in the pantry because just walking by the door, I can hear the sound of hundreds of roaches. I'm not joking. I keep a stash of food of my own in a box but it is not much. I can't go outside for long because I'm immediately targeted by up to 10 horse flies at once. Like- I'm not even an easy target for horse flies! I jump around a lot and I'm fricking speedy and have never once been successfully bit by a horse fly but they persist despite plenty of slower family members around. Do I smell tasty or something??? But I go outside anyway because I hate being still for too long and I also like going outside to give extra water to the chickens because second-hand happiness is my primary source of happiness at all.

Mom promised me my butt would shrink if I lost weight but I'm underweight now and the darn thing hasn't shrank at all. Just as uncomfortable to sit down as it was when I was at a healthy weight. I'm not drinking much water in the heat of summer and in a climate that's hot all year round especially summer, that is a bad thing. Why am I not drinking water? Well, dad is making the very idea of leaving my room miserable. He is a jerk and will bully everyone and then turn around and threaten self kill at the slightest nothing and will play the victim every time. He accuses everyone of wanting him gone and we're all fricking exhausted and tired of reassuring him we do not in fact want him gone. He will stay up 5 hours after his bed time every single fricking day and then use the excuse that he's tired to justify all his cruelty. If anyone else is tired? "You can't be tired you don't work a night job" And he fully believes that anyone younger than him is a kid and below him. "How dare you tell me to go to bed. You're just a kid." said to his then 23 year old daughter. One day, while I was outside , he fricking jumpscared me on purpose several times even making sounds he 100% fricking knows cause physical pain to me just to get my attention. Staring directly at me and waving his arms around like a moron after he saw me turn around and he then denied doing it to mom. I was crying and had enough of all of that and ran away when I saw him approaching so the dog started barking at him and he for some unknown reason questioned angrily why doesn't he get any respect around here as if he thinks he can be the way he is and get respect at the same time. On a few occasions, I made a very small dog yipe sound in response to ants and stuff all over everything suddenly and I didn't even know he was there but then I get sudden fricking jumpscared by a very loud exclamation of wanting to self kill by dad walking out the door.

This is emotionally draining and I'm always unable to do anything because I lack the energy. He has never physically harmed me, so this might sound like I'm weak or something or have been conditioned to think it's weak? My older sister said something and then this moron of a father targeted me in a shout "Why would you make her say that????" as I was innocently attempting to get a snack and he fricking chased me after I yiped like a dog from fear and I was cornered in a room having a full on panic attack as he was yelling at me to shut up and I could not physically make myself shut up and I was finally able to turn my panic attack screams into hyperventilating instead but he was still shouting at me to shut up and I could barely even think in the moment. Like- the only "thinking" I was able to do was prevent myself from headbutting the wall in an attempt to force-shut-up but instead I completely uncontrollably punched myself in the face 20 times without the normal hold-back reflex a non panicking person would get and lo and behold I still couldn't shut up and he was still screaming at me for who knows how long because it became a blur after that and I hid the ginormous blue orb extending from my face from the punches I gave myself uncontrollably and just went to bed for the day because I knew if mom saw it, the situation would escalate further and they already fight every time mom casually asks him a question. I get a mild panic attack whenever the memory of that is brought up and eventually mom found out what happened when I started bawling like a baby whenever dad got anywhere near me and then dad said some garbage along the lines of my screaming giving him ptsd like--- if he had ptsd from hearing my panic attacks, logically he would be leaving me the fork alone but he is clearly mocking me or something or trying to do that fricking exposure "therapy" stuff. He got his childhood horse killed by exposure therapy. It was afraid of bags so he shoved a bag in its face. It panicked and broke its leg and he had to shoot the horse because they can't survive on a broken leg. He always tells this story every once in a while so that's how I know of these events but I didn't exist at the time it took place. Certainly he knows that exposure "therapy" is a complete fricking load of garbage from that experience so why the fart is he doing all this mess??? He's everything-phobic so the idiocy checks out. I'm scared to even say a word about being aro/ace because he'll think it means I like other girls or something and he'll behave like an even worse excuse of a human. I hope and pray that I won't be like him when I'm old. Sorry for making this post. Sorry to anyone who decided to read it. I've been less able to control my frustration lately and I'm scared and stressed that I'll turn into a monster and venting is one of the few ways I can calm my nerves. I keep it hidden under the "keep reading" because I don't want to force it on people but I still need to let it out. Again, I'm sorry to anyone who decided to read this

[realhankmccoy]

Americans don't understand social skills as a concept. The typical American is almost always a crybully these days, following Trump, who is a crybully.

Dad - GET OVER IT IT IS NO PROBLEM FOR OTHERS TO BE ABUSIVE, WHAT ARE YOU SOME WEAKLING LIKE THE GAY I TRIED TO STOP YOU FROM GOING DOWN THAT LIFESTYLE? (also dad: you not talking to me took 6 years off my life, boohoohoohooohooohohoohooohoohoo)

Bro - HAHAHAHAH EVERYONE IS A FUCKING LOSER EXCEPT FOR ME HAHAHAHAHHA LIFE IS ABOUT MONEY EVEN CHARITY IS ABOUT MONEY EVERYTHING IS ABOUT MONEY EVERYBODY IS A LOSER GIMME GIMME GIMME (also bro: gee it sure is a pity how you 'turned out' to be 'so bad, gee, better trash you behind your back and cry about how the daddy who's hand i hold wrecked my life which is why, counterintuitively, I lazily never moved on from him and he's my primary source of income it sure is hard imagine how much harder it is to be me)

Boi -- GEE YOU SURE ARE STUPID FOR NOT REALISING YOUR BROTHER DID WHAT HE HAD TO TO SURVIVE DONT YOU KNOW THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE A CARTOON OR VIDEO GAME WHERE TRUMPISM IS TOTALLY ACTUALLY FINE AND HAS ITS GOOD REASONS WHY SHOULDNT ANYBODY BE TRUMP IF THATS WHAT IT TAKES TO WIN WIN WIN WIN WIN WHITE WHTE WHITE WIN THIS IS CHRISTOPHER COLUMBUS'S WORLD A JUNGLE THIS IS NOT YOUR BLACK AND GAY WORLD OF BEING NICE TO OTHER PEOPLE MATTERING I LIKE IT CONQUISTADOR JOHN WAYNE TRUMP (also Boi: gee i cried so hard when you did a small little thing of self-defence to survive when i was attacking you cuz you the big meanie who just wasnt there to give me the tender understanding i wanted)

Cameron - I HATE YOU I HATE YOU GET DOWN SUBMIT I HAVE A MINI TRUMP AND WILL TALK TO YOU LIKE TRUMP DOES CUZ THEN I WILL WIN ALL WORKING CLASS PEOPLE IDENTIFY WITH DIGITAL POKEMON THAT DRAIN ALL THEIR BLOOD GEE YOU CRUMPLE LIKE IMMEDIATELY YOU SURE AREN'T TOUGH (also Cameron: I have PTSD and rape because once my boyfriend touched my butt and I said not to, you must sympathise with how hard it has been)

Josie -- HAHAHAH SNORT SNICKER HAHAHA HAHAHAHHA NO I WONT EVEN TELL YOU MY FAV ISLAND IN THE CARIBBEAN YOU ARENT WORTH IT HAHAHAHA SNORT BOO SCARED YA HAHAHA SNORT SNORT YOU RATTY NOTHINGNESS I AM SO MUCH BETTER THAN YOU I AM SHEER WHITE PERFECTION (also Josie: oh growing up white and nuclear and republican on a big farm in Minnesota is the most rough and tumble existence you couldn't possibly imagine i really came from hardship, oh it was so hard, like harder, you have to make allowance for how hard it has been for me)

[lauriepinkney64]

angry Created: Wednesday, January 25, 2023 11:30 AM Updated: Wednesday, January 25, 2023 12:32 PM

my process

triggered and angry at my team.  i keep doing the letting go detaching of the romance sitch and still i get this info shoved in my face on tiktok,  one reading is one way then minutes later its the opposite...oh..... i just heard and processed what i just said and shit, wind went out of the anger, dissipated replaced with sheepishness. spirit is showing me i need to trust my own connection to source and to trust that info while remaining open for others further insights but not depending on, and never if it is opposing my own information i get directly.   i am being spiritually lazy and avoidantly overly-independant by seeking outside affirmations from other psychics on tic tok, i couldn't trust mom to have my back, so source is my mom now,  however when i am able to do this for myself and really need to do this myself for my growth.  also i have more trust work to do between me and me and me and my spirit team.and source.  this trust wound is from childhood. its my mother wound, i was a daughter but from age 9 or 10 maybe 11 i became moms confidant and friend. i was excellent and tried to supplement my moms emotional and intimacy needs not met in her marriage. i even did chiropractor work on her during my teens, friend taught me, i was fully supportive and committed as a true friend would be even tho it was far too much for me to handle..  she shared far too much about her money worries and relationship issues with dad.  he was arrogant and ragy. and i tried to stay out of his way or ahead of him somehow, trying to anticipate his moods then preemptively act to avoid conflict, sometimes when i was being my authentic self, (later it hid so deeply that i forgot my true self, rather it was buried under so much pain and wounding) i would trigger my dad and when i had a differing opinion or was being wrongly accused of motives that didn't belong to me i would attempt too stand up for myself and defend my perspective, which was immediately dismissed as he was the boss, i would look to my mom/friend for support, to side with me, and many occasions i was in the right but never, not once did she offer me her support. in a sitch i needed her most.  i now understand that she was afraid herself of consequences and dependent on dad in ways she felt inept at the time,  however her actions led me to accept these uneven, relationship dynamics in friends, jobs and lovers, always settling for less than equal because i didn't believe i was worthy of equal give and take an equal exchange emotionally.  so i would give more and more until i hated everything mostly myself for not figuring out how to become worthy. i hated myself for not being able to make anything work. i dove inside burying myself in myself, 'sleeping' until source woke me up for my purpose.

mom i forgive you for injuring me. you didn't mean to and were doing the best you could and i was and still am honored to have been your counsel as a child, it gave me something special. this dynamic is why im having some issues with trusting source.  my primary relationship had injured my trust in myself and my care-ers. This taught me not to ask for help, taught me i couldn't depend on anyone to have my back including source.  i am feeling it and forgiving the wound and releasing it with loving intent to reunite and integrate with my healthy self.

#spiritualawakening #spiritualawareness #shadow work #positive energy #spiritual development #oracle #tarot #spiritual #manifestation #divine message

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Kids, They Say

for @teenwolflegacy’s Bitten Betas Week day 3 prompt of fave brotp dynamics, i decided i needed some Stiam fluff in my life. Stiles just has huge big brother vibes and i’m a sucker for it

| Liam & Stiles (& Scott) | Gen | 1.2k | Oblivious Stiles | Scott & Stiles are Liam’s Parents | History Nerd Liam | Fluff |

(also on AO3)

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“Hey, Stiles.”

Stiles didn’t look away from his laptop screen—there were wikipedia articles to be read, and they were not gonna read themselves. He was supposed to be writing a civics essay, which he would like to argue that he was still doing research for, but he had to admit to himself that he had ventured pretty far from that metaphorical path by now. Oh well. Scott had known this was gonna happen when he agreed to come over to work on their essays together. It always did.

Stiles clicked onto the page for the Andorran Revolution and said, “Yeah, buddy?”

“You know how they say that kids crave the approval of the more emotionally distant parent?”

Frowning, Stiles put his revolution-related curiosity on hold and swiveled his chair around. Scott was draped across the bed, head hanging over the edge so he could watch Stiles upside down. His textbook was abandoned and his expression was perfectly innocent.

“I have heard that said before,” Stiles allowed. “Haven’t done research on it or seen any primary sources or anything, so I can’t vouch for the validity of it. Why, are you thinking of calling up your dad or something? Feeling a need for paternal validation? Because, dude, you have been down that road before, and it hasn’t exactly—”

“What? No!” Scott rolled over onto his stomach to glare at him. “This has nothing to do with me.”

“Then who are we talking about here? Pretty sure I’ve only got the one parent to crave approval from!”

Scott rolled his eyes like Stiles was being particularly difficult. “I hate to break it to you, Stiles, but you’re not the kid in this situation.” When that did nothing to alleviate Stiles’ bafflement, Scott raised an eyebrow and said, “Liam tried to invite you to hang out twice yesterday, and you blew him off both times. Did you even notice?”

“Liam?” Stiles pulled a face. “What are you even— Dude, Liam is not my kid! He’s not even your kid!”

“You call me Liam’s dad all the time,” Scott pointed out.

“That doesn’t make me his mom!”

“That’s so not the point,” Scott groaned, flopping over sideways again. “The point is that he wants you to like him.”

Stiles scoffed. “I like Liam fine,” he said. “And why would he care if I like him or not? You’re his alpha, it’s your opinion he cares about.”

Fixing him with a flat look, Scott said, “Hey, Stiles, you know how they say that kids crave the approval of—”

Stiles grabbed a pen off his desk and lobbed it at Scott’s face. He caught it with his stupid werewolf reflexes, then finally hoisted himself into an actual upright sitting position. He did not give the pen back, though, probably for fear of it being thrown again.

“Liam thinks you’re cool,” he said plainly. “You’re older. You’ve got a car. You’re smart and capable and always seem to know what to do, even when things get scary. And he knows that you and me are sort of a package deal,” he added with a shrug and a grin. “Sure, he cares about my opinion of him. But, Stiles, he cares about yours too.”

Slumping back in his chair, Stiles heaved a sigh. “Well, now I feel like an asshole, thanks for that.”

Scott laughed. Stiles kicked him in the shin. Scott kicked him back and tossed the pen onto the desk, where it rolled up against his textbook, still open to the chapter on the legislative process. Stiles flipped it closed, study flow—such as it was—well and truly broken.

“At least someone thinks I’m cool,” he muttered, which earned him another snort from Scott. “So, what do you want me to do? Parent-type things? Have you given him the talk yet?”

“God, no! I want you to bond with him, not traumatize him.” Scott snatched Stiles’ phone off the desk and thumbed through it to bring up Liam’s contact. “Why don’t you call him and ask him something for the essay.”

Stiles raised a skeptical eyebrow. “Ask a sophomore for help with my senior-level honors history essay?”

“Liam’s a total history buff,” Scott told him. “I swear, he knows everything about everything. Which you might know if you’d ever had a real conversation with him outside of supernatural crunch time.”

It was Scott’s judgment face—and the sinking feeling that he might be right about this whole thing—that made Stiles press the call button. He spun around in his chair as the call rang through, but he only made it through two rotations before Liam picked up.

“Stiles? Is something wrong? Is Scott okay?”

Stiles stopped spinning. “Wha— No, he’s fine! Why wouldn’t he be fine?”

“You never call me unless something is wrong.”

Goddamn it, Scott was right. The kid sounded downright sad about that. Avoiding the look Scott gave him, which somehow managed to be smug and chastising at the same time, Stiles dragged a hand down his face and said, “Nothing’s wrong, I promise. I just, uh, was having some trouble with an essay for my government class and remembered that you’re a whiz-kid for history. Right?”

He could practically hear the way that Liam perked up.

“Really? Well, I don’t know about whiz-kid—” He chuckled, bashful as anything. “—but I know some stuff, yeah. What do you need to know?”

Stiles pulled up the syllabus and read off, “‘Compare and contrast the US legislative process with that of one other culture in antiquity.’ I was thinking, maybe, Greek or Roman, or—”

Liam cut him off with a noise of excitement. There was rustling and a thump, like maybe he’d scrambled to get off the couch too fast and fallen over.

“Yeah!” he cried. “Yeah, yeah, yeah, I know all about that stuff! I’ve got a bunch of books about how Greek and Roman societies were structured and how their government was set up. It’s super interesting, I can tell you all about it. Or you can borrow my books! You know, so you can cite them in your essay.”

Stiles sent a wide-eyed look to Scott, who was shamelessly eavesdropping with a hopelessly fond grin on his face. Funnily enough, Stiles had seen that grin directed at him more than a few times. He wondered if this was how he sounded to everyone else when he got on a roll. Not that it was bad, necessarily. It was sweet how eager Liam was to help and share what he knew. A little much, sure, but sweet.

“Thanks, Liam,” he said. “That would be a big help.”

"I can bring them over to your house,” Liam offered. “O-or you can come over to mine. Mason was gonna come over later to play Call of Duty, but we can do that tomorrow. Or you could play with us! Do you like video games? I have an extra controller!”

Scott was laughing now, lips pressed tight together to keep quiet.

Stiles bit back a grudging smile of his own. “I do like video games,” he confirmed, officially retiring his original plans for the evening—which, admittedly, had consisted mostly of more wikipedia and some leftover pizza—in favor of gaming with a pair of over-eager sophomores and letting them info-dump at him about ancient societies.

As Liam listed off a dozen other games they could play, if he liked any of those better, he found that he wasn’t too put out about it.

#twlbittenbetasweek #Stiles Stilinski #Liam Dunbar #Scott McCall #Teen Wolf #fics by me #Stiam #(platonically)

[silvermoongirl10swfics]

Another snippet for @codywanweek but this time for Day 2: AU. Which I am writing as a modern university AU. It is set in Manchester, UK as I did my degree there and loved it there. So, I wanted to combine two things I love.

Thinking of dissertations, Cody waved goodbye to Rex and headed towards the cafeteria in the Business School building to get some tea for his boyfriend. Once he acquired the tea, he went next door to the library where Obi-Wan was working on his dissertation, thankful that their university library allowed food and drink as long as it was silent. Fox was insanely jealous as his university library forbade any food or drink to enter the building, meaning Fox was deprived of his precious coffee. Which was why Wolffe pushed Fox to work in the library as often as he could. Cody didn’t mind plying Obi-Wan with tea, because while he could say Obi-Wan was additive to his tea, he didn’t drink any caffeinated tea two hours before going to bed, unlike Fox who was known to drink a mug of coffee before going to bed if Wolffe hadn’t managed to stop him. It was a wonder Wolffe hadn’t gone grey with the amount of time he spent worrying over his twin brother.

Cody scanned his student card to let him past the barriers and started to walking up the two flights of stairs to the floor Obi-Wan liked to work on. The library was massive, with its different wings and five floors, but Cody was glad it was so big because it could be divided into silent study areas and group study areas, where you could talk so long as you were quiet. Obi-Wan, like Cody, hated working in complete silence and in their first year they found a nook between some shelves that had a table where they could bring their own laptops to work on their essays together. But were conveniently close to university computers so they could log on to print their work if needed. It was also a space their brothers had been unable to find them in, although Cody was fairly certain Rex knew where he liked to work, but was kind enough to leave him alone. Anakin, Echo and Fives would not be as considerate.

He walked through the doors into the study area and walked halfway into the big room with its rows of computers and shelves of books, until he found Obi-Wan hunched over his notes and two books he was using for his dissertation. Cody silently reminded himself that he was due to meet with his dissertation supervisor tomorrow to check the progress on his second chapter. He placed the cup of tea on the table beside Obi-Wan’s laptop and pressed a kiss onto the mess of copper hair. Obi-Wan slowly sat up and blinked owlishly at him and rubbed a hand over his face. “Rugby practice is over already?” he asked in confusion as he looked at his watch.

Cody snorted in amusement, “thankfully yes.” Obi-Wan had come to the library when Cody left their flat for practice, that had been two and half hours ago.

Obi-Wan reached for his tea and sighed in pleasure when he sipped on the hot liquid. “Fives still in a mood then?”

“Yes,” he sighed in exasperation as he sat down beside Obi-Wan and putting his kit bag on the floor with a roll of his shoulder.

Raising a knowing eyebrow over the rim of his cup, Obi-Wan asked. “Are you going to call Wolffe and Fox?” Cody nodded in agreement, smiling to himself, happy at how easily Obi-Wan fit into his family. Obi-Wan, Cody, Wolffe and Fox had all gone through school together, having a lot of classes together. Obi-Wan and Anakin’s dad, Qui-Gon, was a friend of Cody’s parents and often came over for dinner. According to his dad, Cody’s mum and Qui-Gon had been having wine nights when they lamented over their empty nests and how it was unfair how quickly their children were growing up. While Cody’s aunt just laughed at them because Wolffe and Fox had left home for university almost three years before.

They lapsed into silence, and Cody just let himself day dream as he listened to the clack of Obi-Wan’s keyboard. He also ran though a mental list of things he needed to do for his dissertation and thought he could do with another trip down to London to go to the National Archives again for some more primary sources. His phone buzzed and Cody snorted at the text message from Echo.

[Echo] Fives is in SUCH a bad mood! Please help me!

[Cody] Sorry Echo. Rex and I had him for two hours, we need a break.

[Echo] WORST BIG BROTHERS EVER!!!!

[Echo] I hope you marry Obi-Wan so I can adopt him as my favourite older brother.

[Echo] You know what. I’m not waiting until you marry him. He’s my favourite brother now.

Cody chuckled to himself, he couldn’t argue with Echo, Obi-Wan was his favourite person too.

[Cody] What WILL Fives say?

[Echo] Right now I don’t care. He’s driving me INSANE!!!!

[Cody] I was going to call Wolffe and Fox to see if they could help.

[Echo] PLEASE!!! I am BEGGING YOU!!!!

[Echo] You know what?

[Echo] Just skip straight to Fox.

[Echo] And record it. I want to relieve that future moment for forever. Fox’s position as my favourite cousin will be secured.

Cody snorted in amusement again, Obi-Wan turned to him in question. So, Cody just showed him the messages and Obi-Wan shook his head in amusement, but he blushed slightly. No doubt due to Echo’s comments on Cody marrying Obi-Wan.

“Echo wishing harm on Fives. I never thought I’d see the day,” commented Obi-Wan, his blue eyes sparkling with laughter. No doubt remembering the times Fox lost his patience with bullies and idiots they went to school with and just went for them. Their aunt had to give Fox the disapproving lecture, but she also slipped Fox money for standing up to bullies for other kids. So, Fox’s handling of bullies and idiots had never been stopped, only encouraged.

“Oh, Echo can be pushed to it,” chuckled Cody, recalling the few times Fives had made Echo lose his temper. Echo was a nice and quiet person, which also made him one of those people you did not want to make angry, because when his patience snapped. It snapped. He could be worse than Fox, and that said something.

For reference in this fic. Cody, Rex, Fives and Echo are brothers. Obi-Wan and Anakin are brothers. Wolffe and Fox are twin brothers and also Cody’s cousins.

Obi-Wan and Cody are both 20 years old (almost 21) and in their third and final years at university (which is the norm here in the UK). They are studying in Manchester. Wolffe and Fox (twins) are also 20 years old and in their third years of study, but they are at the same university in London.

Rex is aged 19 (almost 20) and in his second year at university. He is studying at the same university as Cody and Obi-Wan.

Fives and Echo (twins) are 18 and in their first years of study at university, they also chose to study at the same university as Cody. Anakin is also 18, a first year student at Manchester. So unfortunately for Cody and Obi-Wan, they could not escape their younger brothers. 

#codywanweek2021 #commander cody #obi wan kenobi #codywan #wip

[yamayuandadu]

Circe by Madeline Miller: a review

As you might have noticed, a few of my most recent posts were more or less a liveblog of Madeline Miller’s novel Circe. However, as they hardly exhausted the subject, a proper review is also in order. You can find it under the “read more” button. All sorts of content warnings apply because this book takes a number of turns one in theory can expect from Greek mythology but which I’d hardly expect to come up in relation to Circe. I should note that this is my first contact with this author’s work. I am not familiar with Miller’s more famous, earlier novel Song of Achilles - I am not much of an Iliad aficionado, truth to be told. I read the poem itself when my literature class required it, but it left no strong impact on me, unlike, say, the Epic of Gilgamesh or, to stay within the theme of Greek mythology, Homeric Hymn to Demeter, works which I read at a similar point in my life on my own accord.

What motivated me to pick up this novel was the slim possibility that for once I’ll see my two favorite Greek gods in fiction, these being Hecate and Helios (in case you’re curious: #3 is Cybele but I suspect that unless some brave soul will attempt to adapt Nonnus’ Dionysiaca, she’ll forever be stuck with no popcultural presence outside Shin Megami Tensei). After all, it seemed reasonable to expect that Circe’s father will be involved considering their relationship, while rarely discussed in classical sources, seems remarkably close. Hesiod’s Catalogue of Women and Apollonius’ Argonautica describe Circe arriving on her island in her father’s solar chariot, while Ptolemy Hephaestion (as quoted by Photius) notes that Helios protected her home during the Gigantomachy. Helios, for all intents and purposes, seems like a decent dad (and, in Medea’s case, grandpa) in the source material even though his most notable children (and granddaughter) are pretty much all cackling sorcerers, not celebrated heroes. How does Miller’s Helios fare, compared to his mythical self? Not great, to put it lightly, as you’ll see later. As for Hecate… she’s not even in the book. Let me preface the core of the review by saying I don’t think reinterpreting myths, changing relations between figures, etc. is necessarily bad - ancient authors did it all the time, and modern adaptations will inevitably do so too, both to maintain internal coherence and perhaps to adjust the stories to a modern audience, much like ancient authors already did. I simply don’t think this book is successful at that. The purpose of the novel is ostensibly to elevate Circe above the status of a one-dimensional minor antagonist - but to accomplish this, the author mostly demonizes her family and a variety of other figures, so the net result is that there are more one dimensional female villains, not less. I expected the opposite, frankly. The initial section of the novel focuses on Circe’s relationship with her family, chiefly with her father. That’s largely uncharted territory in the source material - to my knowledge no ancient author seemed particularly interested in covering this period in her life. Blank pages of this sort are definitely worth filling. To begin with, Helios is characterized as abusive, neglectful and power-hungry. And also, for some reason, as Zeus’ main titan ally in the Titanomachy - a role which Hesiod attributes to Hecate… To be fair I do not think it’s Hesiod who serves as the primary inspiration here, as it’s hard to see any traces of his account - in which Zeus wins in no small part because he promises the lesser titans higher positions that they had under Cronus - in Miller’s version of events. Only Helios and Oceanus keep their share, and are presented as Zeus’ only titan allies (there’s a small plot hole as Selene appears in the novel and evidently still is the moon…) - contrary to just about any portrayal of the conflict, in which many titans actually side with Zeus and his siblings. Also, worth noting that in Hesiod’s version it’s not Oceanus himself who cements the pact with Zeus, it’s his daughter Styx - yes, -that- Styx. Missed opportunity to put more focus on female mythical figures - first of many in this work, despite many reviews praising it as “feminist.” Of course, it’s not all about Helios. We are quickly introduced to a variety of female characters as well (though, as I noted above, none of these traditionally connected to the Titanomachy despite it being a prominent aspect of the book’s background). They are all somewhat repetitive - to the point of being basically interchangeable. Circe’s mother is vain and cruel; so is Scylla. And Pasiphae. There’s no real indication of any hostility between Circe and any of her siblings in classical sources, as far as I am aware, but here it’s a central theme. The subplots pertaining to it bear an uncanny resemblance to these young adult novels in which the heroine, who is Not Like Other Girls, confronts the Chads and Stacies of the world, and I can’t shake off the feelings that it’s exactly what it is, though with superficial mythical flourish on top. I should note that Pasiphae gets a focus arc of sorts - which to my surprise somehow manages to be more sexist than the primary sources. A pretty famous tidbit repeated by many ancient authors is that Pasiphae cursed her husband Minos, regarded as unfaithful, to kill anyone else he’d have sex with with his… well, bodily fluids. Here she does it entirely  because she’s a debased sadist and not because unfaithfulness is something one can be justifiably mad about. You’d think it would be easy to put a sympathetic spin on this. But the book manages to top that in the very same chapter - can’t have Pasiphae without the Minotaur (sadly - I think virtually everything else about Pasiphae and Minos is more fun than that myth but alas) so in a brand new twist on this myth we learn that actually the infamous affair wasn’t a curse placed on Pasiphae by Poseidon or Aphrodite because of some transgression committed by Minos. She’s just wretched like that by nature. I’m frankly speechless, especially taking into account the book often goes out of its way to present deities in the worst light possible otherwise, and which as I noted reviews praise for its feminist approach - I’m not exactly sure if treating Pasiphae worse than Greek and Roman authors did counts as that.  I should note this is not the only instance of… weirdly enthusiastic references to carnal relations between gods and cattle in this book, as there’s also a weird offhand mention of Helios being the father of his own cows. This, as far as I can tell, is not present in any classical sources and truth to be told I am not a huge fan of this invention. I won’t try to think about the reason behind this addition to maintain my sanity. Pasiphae aside - the author expands on the vague backstory Circe has in classical texts which I’ve mentioned earlier. You’d expect that her island would be a gift from her father - after all many ancient sources state that he provided his children and grandchildren with extravagant gifts. However, since Helios bears little resemblance to his mythical self, Aeaea is instead a place of exile here, since Helios hates Circe and Zeus is afraid of witchcraft and demands such a solution (the same Zeus who, according to Hesiod, holds Hecate in high esteem and who appeared with her on coins reasonably commonly… but hey, licentia poetica, this idea isn’t necessarily bad in itself). Witchcraft is presented as an art exclusive to Helios’ children here - Hecate is nowhere to be found, it’s basically as if her every role in Greek mythology was surgically removed. A bit of a downer, especially since at least one text - I think Ovid’s Metarphoses? - Circe directly invokes Hecate during her confrontation with king Picus (Surprisingly absent here despite being a much more fitting antagonist for Circe than many of the characters presented as her adversaries in this novel…) Of course, we also learn about the origin of Circe’s signature spell according to ancient sources, changing people into animals. It actually takes the novel a longer while to get there, and the invented backstory boils down to Circe getting raped. Despite ancient Greek authors being rather keen on rape as plot device, to my knowledge this was never a part of any myth about Circe. Rather odd decision to put it lightly but I suppose at least there was no cattle involved this time, perhaps two times was enough for the author. Still, I can’t help but feel like much like many other ideas present in this book it seems a bit like the author’s intent is less elevating the Circe above the role of a one note witch antagonist, but rather punishing her for being that. The fact she keeps self loathing about her origin and about not being human doesn’t exactly help to shake off this feeling. This impression that the author isn’t really fond of Circe being a wacky witch only grows stronger when Odysseus enters the scene. There was already a bit of a problem before with Circe’s life revolving around love interests before - somewhat random ones at that (Dedalus during the Pasiphae arc and Hermes on and off - not sure what the inspiration for either of these was) - but it was less noticeable since it was ultimately in the background and the focus was the conflict between Circe and Helios, Pasiphae, etc. In the case of Odysseus it’s much more notable because these subplots cease to appear for a while. As a result of meeting him, Circe decides she wants to experience the joys of motherhood, which long story short eventually leads to the birth of Telegonus, who does exactly what he was famous for. The final arcs have a variety of truly baffling plot twists which didn’t really appeal to me, but which I suppose at least show a degree of creativity - better than just turning Helios’ attitude towards his children upside down for sure. Circe ends up consulting an oc character who I can only describe as “stingray Cthulhu.” His presence doesn’t really add much, and frankly it feels like yet another wasted opportunity to use Hecate, but I digress. Oh, also in another twist Athena is recast as the villain of the Odyssey. Eventually Circe gets to meet Odysseus’ family, for once interacts with another female character on positive terms (with Penelope, to be specific) and… gets together with Telemachus, which to be fair is something present in many ancient works but which feels weird here since there was a pretty long passage about Odysseus describing him as a child to Circe. I think I could live without it. Honestly having her get together with Penelope would feel considerably less weird, but there are no lesbians in the world of this novel. It would appear that the praise for Song of Achilles is connected to the portrayal of gay relationships in it. Can’t say that this applies to Circe - on this front we have an offhand mention of Hyacinth's death. which seems to serve no real purpose other than establishing otherwise irrelevant wind god is evil, and what feels like an advert for Song of Achilles courtesy of Odysseus, which takes less than one page. Eventually Circe opts to become mortal to live with Telemachus and denounces her father and… that’s it. This concludes the story of Circe. I don’t exactly think the original is the deepest or greatest character in classical literature, but I must admit I’d rather read about her wacky witch adventures than about Miller’s Circe. A few small notes I couldn’t fit elsewhere: something very minor that bothered me a lot but that to be honest I don’t think most readers will notice is the extremely chaotic approach to occasional references to the world outside Greece - Sumer is randomly mentioned… chronologically after Babylon and Assyria, and in relation to Persians (or rather - to Perses living among them). At the time we can speak of “Persians” Sumerian was a dead language at best understood by a few literati in the former great cities of Mesopotamia so this is about the same as if a novel about Mesopotamia mentioned Macedonians and then completely randomly Minoans at a chronologically later point. Miller additionally either confused or conflated Perses, son of Perseus, who was viewed positively and associated with Persia (so positively that Xerxes purportedly tried to use it for propaganda purposes!) with Perses the obscure brother of Circe et. al, who is a villain in an equally obscure myth casting Medea as the heroine, in which he rules over “Tauric Chersonese,” the Greek name of a part of Crimea. I am honestly uncertain why was he even there as he amounts to nothing in the book, and there are more prominent minor children of Helios who get no mention (like Aix or Phaeton) so it’s hard to argue it was for the sake of completion. Medea evidently doesn’t triumph over him offscreen which is his sole mythical purpose. Is there something I liked? Well, I’m pretty happy Selene only spoke twice, considering it’s in all due likeness all that spared her from the fate of receiving similarly “amazing” new characterization as her brother. As is, she was… okay. Overall I am definitely not a fan of the book. As for its purported ideological value? It certainly has a female main character. Said character sure does have many experiences which are associated with women. However, I can’t help but think that the novel isn’t exactly feminist - it certainly focuses on Circe, but does it really try to “rehabilitate” her? And is it really “rehabilitation” and feminist reinterpretation when almost every single female character in the book is the same, and arguably depicted with even less compassion than in the source material?  It instead felt like the author’s goal is take away any joy and grandeur present in myths, and to deprive Circe of most of what actually makes her Circe. We don’t need to make myths joyless to make them fit for a new era. It’s okay for female characters to be wacky one off villains and there’s no need to punish them for it. A book which celebrates Circe for who she actually is in the Odyssey and in other Greek sources - an unapologetic and honestly pretty funny character -  would feel much more feminist to me that a book where she is a wacky witch not because she feels like it but because she got raped, if you ask me. 

Circe evidently having the time of her life, by Edmund Dulac (public domain)

#circe #madeline miller #greek mythology #madeline miller circe

[lilywily143]

Homework Overload

It was a boring day.

Only thing that made the day different from any other day was the mid-term tests coming up in school.

Most kids hated the extra homework assigned for the weekend.

But, Trent didn't mind it. It's not like he was some big nerd and liked to learn what the teachers were teaching.

It was just that his mom was a part of the Yakuza, his dad was always out working, and Trent didn't have much to do at his house.

Sure, he could practice his cheerleading dance for the next game, or play his own videogames. But it gets dull after a couple of hours. It was something for him to pass the time.

Even though he wasn't a nerd, he could work pretty fast on homework and get it done quick. In fact, it was 7:45 pm and he was already done and was just mindlessly listening to the news now.

Nothing else to do now.

But, it wasn't going to be just the homework tonight.

Brrrr Brrrr Brrrr

"Huh?"

Trent lifted himself off the couch and picked up his phone and looked at the screen.

Brrrr Brrrr Brrrr

Lloyd? Not complaining on talking with him. Just, why is he calling?

Trent pressed the button and was now in a video call with Lloyd.

"Hey there, pretty boy"

"H-hi Trent"

Trent leaned back into the couch.

"Soooo, what's with the sudden call?"

"I-I'm sorry to b-bother you-"

"It's not a bother. I promise ;)" Lloyd might have tried to cover his pink blush, but Trent could see them smile.

"Th-Thanks. It's just, I have been struggling with the homework in biology. I-I wanted to ask for your help, if you aren't busy."

"I'm not actually busy. I can help."

"Oh, thank y-you Trent"

"I'm always happy to help you out~"

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1 hour later......

"... And then the cycle loops back, not to primary sources, but to the decomposers."

"Ahhhh! I fucking forget that part!!" Trent heard a thump on the other end of the call. By the time Trent looked over to the phone, Lloyd had their head on top of the desk.

"Are you alright?"

"How could I forget something so simple???? Ughhhh."

"You do know it's alright if you forget a couple things."

"It won't be alright if I forget it in the test... I'd be so screwed..."

"Lloyd, it's not like you are going to answer every question correctly.."

"B-But, what i-if I forget most of the answers?! What if I fail?! I don't want to be held back!!"

Trent could see the tears starting to form in his eyes.

"I wouldn't want my mom to deal with that......."

Trent didn't exactly know how to help them calm down. But he had an idea.

"Hey, Lloyd?" Lloyd turned his head towards the camera to see Trent.

Trent rubbed his eyes and let out a fake yawn. Lloyd caught the contagious yawn and yawned as well.

"You feeling kinda tired, aren't you?"

He looked a little mad, "N-nooo. 'm not tired..." Lloyd got quiet. He layed his head onto his table, trying to keep his heavy eyelids open.

"I think it's time for you to take a break-"

Lloyd shot his head back up. "No! I can't take a break! I have to finish this!!"

"But it's friday, Lloyd-"

"I don't have a empty schedule this weekend Trent! I need to stay up for an all-nighter!"

Trent saw Lloyd reach for his phone on his side of the call, before the screen shot to a black screen.

He had hung up.

Trent started to panic. He rushed to call Lloyd back.

Brrrr

The call went straight to voicemail.

"Oh Lloyd..." He tried again.

Brrrr

Voicemail again.

"Come on..."

Brrrr Brrrr Brrrr

Click

"Can you let me work, Trent?"

Trent sighed.

"I wouldn't be happy if you commited to a all-nighter and kept working."

"But, it's important for me to finish my work for school.... I don't even have time to do it for the weekend..... I need to be up for this...."

"Lloyd, it wouldn't be healthy to be awake this late..... You really need to go to bed, baby boy..."

That wasn't really a good thing to say at the moment.

"I'm not a fucking baby, Trent!!!" Lloyd stared daggers into the camera and to Trent. Tears started to flow down from his eyes.

"I am a mature student!! Like come on!! I am The Green Ninja!!!"

Trent let Lloyd take a second to take a breath.

"Well, The Amazing Green Ninja needs their rest and shouldn't overwork themself..."

Lloyd hit his head against the desk and tangled his fingers into his hair.

"It's ok, you need your rest. I could get ready for bed along with you if you want to talk to each other while we're in bed."

Lloyd lifted his head up to look at Trent, and did a small nod.

"Alright then, let's take small steps. Let's start by getting our PJ's on. Can you do that?"

Lloyd stood up, nodded their head, then they grabbed the phone and brought it to their room. Trent followed suit at his own house.

They both set their phones down, turning the camera off while they changed for the night.

Trent put on a button up PJ shirt with matching pants in the same pattern, chinese violet with pearl white moons.

He walked to his bed and sat down, turning on his camera on again. Lloyd didn't have their camera on yet.

"Are you struggling with getting your pj's on?"

"Nooo.....?"

"Just put on something you can easily put on that is comfy"

"Wait. Wai'. Got it!!" Trent could here them clap on their side of the call, he decided to join their clapping.

"Amazing job, Cutie Pie!!" Some giggles were heard on the other side again, with Lloyd's camera turning on after.

They were wearing a watermelon pink dragon onsie. A pretty color, if Trent would say so himself.

"Ok. Step two. Let's go to the bathroom and brush our teeth now."

"M'kay..."

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Three Minutes Later....

"M'kay, don't forget to get your fangs brushed well."

"Mhmm." They both finished up their brushing, washed the last bits of toothpaste, then went back to their beds.

Trent layed down on his bed first, then..

"Stop for a second, Lloyd."

"Wha' is it?"

"Would you like to sleep with one of your plushies?"

Gasp

"Mhmmm!" Lloyd threw his phone onto the bed in excitement.

Trent couldn't see that well on the screen, but he could see Lloyd reaching for the shelf above their bed where one of their plush toys were.

Lloyd grabbed the phone again, then put it on his shelf near the bed so it would face him. Then, he layed on his stomach with the plushie in his arms, facing the carmera of the phone.

"Can I see Fudge, Honey?" They nodded, then brought up the yellow-green plush dragon in front of their face.

"Her's Fu-Fudge" Lloyd had the biggest smile ever. Then he gripped Fudge into a strong hug and nuzzed against it.

Lloyd sat straight up and looked at Fudge, "wi' you pwotec me?"

"Of course zey will, Cutie." Trent responded. Then he posed like a super hero. "And I will too!"

"Tank chu!" Lloyd suddenly looked kinda nervous.

"Is something wrong, darling?"

Lloyd layed back onto his stomach, covering his blushing face with the dragon plush.

"Ca' chu read stowie to me?" Trent could die from the cuteness.

"Of course I will" Trent set his phone on the bed, stood up, and walked over to his bookshelf.

"Do you know which one you want me to read?" He shouted back to the phone.

"I.... don'.... 'now"

"How about.... [book title]?"

"Mmmmhmmmmm"

"Alright" Trent grabbed the book and walked back to the bed. He opened the book on the first page.

"Are you ready, Lloyd?"

...

"Lloyd?" Trent turned to the phone on his shelf and saw Lloyd laying down, nuzzling against Fudge. They had fallen asleep.

Trent sighed.

"They can have their story tomorrow." He set the book on his dresser and grabbed the phone next to it. He could see Lloyd shift in their sleep.

"Mmmm 'ight, Chen-Chen"

"Goodnight, Baby Boy"

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Words: 1,349

I loved making this!

If I didn't do a good representation of someone in their regressed mind space, I am very sorry about that. I'm never made a agere fic before....

#lego ninjago #age regression #sfw agere #Ninjago Agere #Ninjago Age regression #lloyd montgomery garmadon #Trent chen #chen the cheerleader #Greenspirit #Greencheerleader #Lego ninjago movie #LilyWily Writing #Lilywily143 #LilyWily Post

[marinetteplztakeabreak]

ML Lies Episode Predictions:

There’s Two?? (don’t trust my math) more days before lies completely destroys me, so I’m going to make some predictions, and by predictions I mean wishlist. My walls are already up, so if none of these happen I won’t be disappointed, but also a girl can dream: (this is somehow 1700 entire words long because I have a lot of feelings, so it’s under a cut, you’re welcome)

—Adrien and Kagami’s are secretly dating: please I want it so bad, I’ve talked about this so much and emotionally I need it!! At the very least I want them to sneak out together so so bad I’d cry. But also, if they’re hiding it from their other friends for whatever reason, thats SUCH good angst potential.

—If we get to see some kinda montage of them sneaking out??? Id ride that high for months. Even just one actual example of them working together to sneak out would obliterate me. Like, how it shows Kagami sneaking out to go to the game in Ikari Gozen?? I’d cry

—The breakup happens as a direct result of it being a secret relationship: this would be SUCH a good parallel to lukanette. Lukanette broke up because Luka wanted Marinette to be more open with him and he hated being in the dark, so just, the parallels if Adrien wants to be more open about adrimi and Kagami is like “you dont understand, if your dad finds out about us he will end this immediately” but Adrien wants to believe that its going to be okay and no one will react badly? I’m probably explaining this badly and I’ll try to explain it better later I just,,, want parallels and opposites and truth v lies and hhhhh

—Fencing??? Friendly/ affectionate competition??? Them being idiot jocks in love??? Please??? I want to see them compete!!

—I’d love to see Kagami character growth + Adrimi relationship development!!! I want her to love herself more and be more comfortable around him!!!

—Specifically, if there was a parallel to Riposte,, and Adrien beat Kagami in a fencing match and Kagami was like “Oh nice!! :D good game!” I’d be so happy I’d cry!! And it’s kinda implied by Chat Blanc that they’re already there in there relationship?? But not confirmed?? So if I saw it or saw confirmation of it I’d cry!!

—in one of the released photos it looked like they were holding hands??? And at this point my expectations are so low I don’t even trust it yet but blease,,, let them hold hands,, i’d cry of joy

—If Adrien is also constantly leaving and disappearing due to akuma responsibilities, I want it to read SUPER differently from the Lukanette because I love parallels/foils!! Marinette disappears on her dates with Luka and its just “oh marinette is really distracted and busy and frazzled” but I dont think Adrimi but be loke that at all!!! Because as far as Kagami knows, she has the same backstory/current story as Adrien. She’s risking a lot by sneaking out to go on dates with him?? So Adrien seeing an akuma and being like “oh sorry father is calling” isnt even suspicious or anything??? Its 100% believable!!! If her mother called she’d immediately be like “oh fricking heck i Need To Leave this instant immediately.” So its less “Adrien doesnt care about her” and more of just twisting the knife and reminding her that life doesnt want them to be together and Adrien is never going to be free!!! Big ouch to her heart!!!

—also I want!!!! Them!!! To talk about their feelings!!! Because parallels to truth!!! Adrien is like “sorry I have to go” and Kagami is like “oh I hate that so much” and Adrien is like “big same.” (Also idk how realistic this is but I’d love it if ‘Kagami talking about her feelings’ wasn’t the cause of strife in their relationship!! Like, she talks about how she feels and when she’s upset and Adrien is like “yeah me too” and they’re just,, good bros)

—I need them to stay friends after the breakup, i need it i need it i need it!!! And the whole issue is!! I feel like the main reason they’d date is to try and hang out more?!?? So if the breakup was actually them talking to each other and being like “hey so this isnt working with sneaking out, we’re going to need to go back to the way it was before,” rather than them saying they were bad for each other???? Hoo boy i’d lose my mind

—Also!!! My favorite prediction, I’d die of joy if this happened (and also of angst). I want there to be so much drama with “secret relatinship” stuff that they try to fix it by going public with their relationship!! Very low chance of this actually happening but its okay if it doesnt, thats what the fanfiction I’m inevitably going to write immediately after watching the episode is for!!! But anyway,, multiple ways this could happen.

Maybe they’ve been secretly dating since Miracle Queen and they decide to go public at the beginning of this episode and that’s the primary source of plot/conflcit!!! I’d be thrilled!!!

BUT!!! if the episode ends with then Not Breaking Up, but instead deciding to go from dating secretly to dating publicly???? Holy Freaking Heck,,, I’d go feral with emotion!!!! I also need to expand on this so much more but basic rundown of how I imagine it could happen (again: Is it likely?? Probably not! but this is my last chance to dream):

Kagami is like “listen we have the same backstory and I KNOW in my soul that this relationship wouldn’t work if it was public”

Adrien is like “okay yeah I feel you, thats fair”

Kagami goes on dates with Adrien and its fun and nice and lovely and the honeymoon phase is so good and exciting

Adrien starts disappearing a lot, partly because of akuma attacks, but partly because of nathalie and gabe calling him constantly

Adrien starts to be like “well actually i think that my dad does care about me probably? And if he knew why I wanted to go he’d let me! Or at least Nathalie would because clearly she cares about me!”

Kagami is like “hhhnngg have you met them?? You think they’d want you to be happy and free??” Except she can’t just SAY that because if she did then she’d be crushing Adrien’s entire heart and possibly also making him get really defensive and he has to come to the conclusion that his parents are good on his own

Kagami also starts to get frustrated with how much more often Adrien has to leave than she does?? And its because of akuma attacks but she doesnt know that and he cant tell her

Adrien starts to get frustrated because he can take the “having to leave for akuma attacks” part but when he finally finishes an akuma battle and Natalie immediately calls him it is just aaaaaAAAAAAAA and he just wants to believe so badly that he could at least take control of that part??? He could at least get Nathalie to help him out??? Probably maybe right???

Because we all know he HATES having to keep secrets from Ladybug, but he’ll do it for her, and he’ll keep his life as Chat a secret, but Kagami??? He should at least be able to talk about that, right?? He’s not doing anything bad/dangerous/etc

Also there could very well be some angst with Adrien being so so worried about Nathalie because she’s bedridden and his dad is being sketchy and he’s SEEN this before and he doesn’t want to be avoiding Natalie or lying to her because what if he loses her too??? He’d feel so guilty! And he needs the support of a parent figure so much,,, so he HAS to tell her the truth

But he respects Kagami’s wishes and he’s not going to betray her trust

But unlike Lukanette, they DO talk about their feelings and they disagree and stuff, and even if he’s trying not to be confrontational, Kagami is like “i can tell youre uncomfortable about something, please just tell me what it is” so he tells her that he disagrees

Kagami gets akumatized?? idk if it’s even been confirmed that she’s the akuma “Lies” but I’d assume she is because parallels to Lukanette

Maybe it happens as a direct result of some moment where Kagami and Adrien are arguing and in the heat of the moment he says something hurtful??

Maybe they’re arguing and then Adrien has to leave before it can resolve and Kagami is mad about it even though shes trying not to be and she gets akumatized???

Maybe she does say something like “bc your dad sucks and nathalie sucks!” and he yells or something (i want to see Adrien yell and be flawed let me live, and this is one of the most likely scenerios for it to happen bc it would HURT for him)

Maybe Kagami shoots back with anger, maybe Adrien’s been calm but Kagami gets mean for a moment, but regardless, Kagami says something about her true feelings of anger at nathalie/gabe/ etc and before Adrien can respond he’s like “oh shoot sorry I need to get home NOW”

Then for one brief second Kagami’s TERRIFIED that he’s going to tell nathalie about this in his anger and then nathalie’s going to be like “oh kagami is clearly bad for you because she made u this upset” and Adrien will LISTEN because hes stupid and he still listens to his horrible adult figures and Kagami is so mad about the entire situation so then in her moment of weakness she gets akumatized

Look at that its a direct opposite of Lukanette because Luka was afraid of Marinette keeping secrets about why she’s always vanishing because he doesnt know and Kagami is afraid of Adrien telling secrets about why HEs always vanishing bc she thinks she does know,,

But anyway, after she gets de-akumatized, she’s so ashamed of it and she can see how far she took it and how many people it hurt,, and Adrien is really sad and apologetic and trying to support her,, and she’s like “no clearly I was actually wrong, keeping this a secret is hurting you and its hurting me and now its hurting random civilians”

So she tells Adrien that they should tell people about it and stop dating in secret

And then multiple possible ending:

Does he say “actually no, youre right, they wouldnt let this happen, so if we cant date in public and dating in secret is hurting us then we shouldnt date at all” and thats how the breakup goes??? That would literally obliterate me

Does the episode end on a false positive where Adrien hasnt told them yet and he is like “yeah this is gonna be great” and there isnt an actual breakup yet?? Because that would also kill me (even though i doubt theyre going to let adrimi take up that much time in the show but, let me dream)

Also if Adrien is like “we shouldnt tell my parents but we should tell someone” and then they tell Marinette and now shes got ANOTHER secret to keep and aaaaaaaAAAAA?? Id die on the spot

I’m still holding out hope that the episode will give me enough crumbs to at least be able to write this better, but regardless of what happens in the episode,,, the chances of me eventually writing fanfiction exploring this are SO HIGH, I’ve been thinking about this for ages

In conclusion:

—no matter what happens in lies, its going to destroy me

—please let them be in a secret relationship it makes so much sense for their characters and for the drama and aaaaAAAAA

—also please give me the parallels to lukanette where their issues are exactly the opposite and it still falls apart

Thank you for your time, I’ll be excitedly vibrating at the speed of sound for the next two days until we get answers!! Depending on how the episode goes, I’ll either be writing so much adrimi fluff to recover,, so much adrimi angst to vent,, or I’ll be staring at the ceiling screaming for a few days as I post nothing but keysmashes and try to sort through my emotions :)

#lies #ml lies #miraculous ladybug #adrien agreste #kagami tsurugi #ml spoilers #ml leaks #those are both super minor but i just want yo guve fair warning #ml theories #adrimi #adrigami #predictions #ml #long post #angst

[mianmiansimp]

mdzs au: my roommate is a detective 'verse

>>ok first of all go watch the show

>>second of all due to the presence of the british, the wens' presence will be different bc the sun motif is yikes

>>the major triads of shanghai - lotus pier jiang, unclean realm nie, jinlintai jin

>>there's also a widespread scholars society, lead by the lan, whose base is the cloud recesses institute

>>cloud recesses and the triads avoid each other's business but they have worked together for certain occasions

>>there used to be a nevernight triad, who were the biggest and had a base called nightless city, but it ceased several years ago when the other triads banded together for this big fight

>>cloud recesses assisted via legal means + propaganda spreading certain information

>>wwx was taken in as a ward by the jiang, and trained at lotus pier, but wasn't actually part of the triad

>>not that it mattered half the time bc he's so closely tied and involved that he might as well be

>>he works as a freelance detective, mostly for the public, and has a bit of a reputation bc he's both incredibly talented and effective + is a great guy + has affordable pricing

>>despite the weird thing with lotus pier, he's very close to the jiang children, who consider him a brother

>>jc won't admit but he is very protective of his attractive, caring, selfless brother who always gets into trouble but is so nice and sacrificial

>>look someone needs to keep an eye on him and watch his back bc wwx sure as fuck won't

>>jc ends up accidentally involved with a lot of wwx's cases bc of this

>>from the cloud recesses comes the esteemed lwj, who becomes an inspector

>>the coroners include the renowned doctor-scientist siblings, wn and wq

>>it's partly bc wwx recommended them

>>once lwj gets the job, he starts asking wwx for assistance in cases bc of his diligence and intelligence

>>their partnership becomes an even greater source of gossip - everyone knows the righteous lwj despised the eccentric wwx who is closely associated with the triads

>>jyl + my + nhs, who are partnered journalists, are wwx's primary informants, and by extension lwj once he gets involved

>>jc is very unhappy with lwj seeking out wwx bc he knows wwx is kinda in love and would do anything for lwj even tho the guy seems to hate him and is worried lwj is taking advantage of wwx

>>cue lots of jc vs lwj conflict over wwx

>>lwj has certain Opinions of the triads, and was kinda :\\ about wwx when they studied together bc he thought wwx was an actual member, but then he learns actually no wwx just happens to be a ward of the leaders so technically he's a standard civilian, and so then he's concerned that wwx's ties to the triads puts him at risk and is >:( bc he thinks that the triads aren't careful enough about wwx's safety

>>he's not wholly wrong but not wholly right

>>good time to mention all these rich kids went to school together

>>there's a persistent level of conflict bc of the whole simultaneous pining and not actually unrequited love + the sociopolitics of their backgrounds + the british being shitheads + their actual jobs

>>definitely some fights bc of the dissonance, both wwx vs lwj and jc vs lwj

>>additionally: relationships!!

>>nhs, jc, wwx, wn are renowned Bros (jzx becomes honorable mention when he gets his shit together)

>>lwj and mianmian, who left jinlintai to marry a cute baker and be a lawyer, are besties

>>mianmian, jyl, wq, qs are equivalent to the Bros

>>my, lxc (who is a scholar), nmj (who is only an heir bc his dad's alive) are "bros"

>>also additionally: lwj is secretly kinda baffled by how wwx is completely unfazed by gore (and the crimes get pretty gory sometimes) but as soon as there's even the hint of a dog's presence he makes a run for it

>>also also additionally: ever so charming wwx naturally has many 'suitors' but bc he's oblivious and self deprecating he doesn't realize and so jc is persistently Protecting his brother's Honor from these Despicable Bloodthirsty Beasts yes, this includes lwj, when he realizes wangxian requite the other's feelings

>>also also also: i can't believe i forgot to mention that lwj and wwx end up roommates bc i'm a tropey bitch

[ main . ao3 ]

#mdzs #cql #the untamed #mo dao zu shi #chen qing ling #grandmaster of demonic cultivation #my roommate is a detective #my roommate is a detective au #mdzs au #cql au #the untamed au #mo dao zu shi au #chen qing ling au #grandmaster of demonic cultivation au #wangxian au #1920s shanghai #triads au #i talk in circles can you tell #oh my god they were roommates #not!fics

[bigskydreaming]

Shout out to that time in the preboot universe, when Lilith showed up to Donna’s wedding to the red-headed man she’d once prophesied Donna would marry and who would die horribly and thus is the reason Donna broke up with Roy originally, thinking the prophecy was about him, (its a long story, just go with it).....

.....and so then here’s Lilith just popping up at the Wedding of Doom she forewarned against, after being out of touch for ages, but she’s flying solo with no plus one and thus no sign of her caveman boyfriend Gnaark (its a long story, just go with it) and when all the other Titans were like hey wtf where’s Gnaark she was just like oh something terrible happened there but I don’t want to get into it now, its a wedding, cheers, because Lilith just does that, when she’s done talking she’s done talking lmao.....

....and then this winged angel named Azrael started popping up all the time and the other Titans are like wtf Lilith, is this dude stalking you, and she just casually waves them off and is like oh yeah, he’s been doing that for ages, he wants me to be his ‘mate’ or whatever, its this whole thing. Don’t worry about it though, its no big deal.’ Because again, Lilith’s just like that.

And then when Azrael keeps showing up Lilith starts glowing every time he’s near and turning into a combustion engine about to blow, and her teammates are like Lil, once again we are just here begging you to call this a big deal, this dude seems to be turning you into a human glowstick, but Lilith is just like omg stop being so dramatic, that has nothing to do with him even, I’ve been having those little ‘heat attacks’ for like years, and the Titans are like WTF LIL, WHY DID YOU NOT MENTION THIS BEFORE, and she’s just like ‘I forgot to okay, god, get off my ass already’ and she stormed off and dramatically quit the team with a huff and a “AND IM NEVER COMING BACK except for when I totally will cuz I already foresee this apocalypse we’re gonna have to prevent in like two years, so nobody take my room okay, thanks bye, and NO DICK, I DON’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT THE UPCOMING APOCALYPSE JEEZ I HAVE OTHER THINGS TO WORRY ABOUT RIGHT NOW, I’LL GET TO IT WHEN I GET TO IT'’.....because I mean....Lilith. *shrugs*

And then she came back and joined the team during the Terror of Trigon storyline and she was all dramatic and prophesizing left and right except lol it wasn’t really Lil as she was possessed by a bajillion Azarath spirits who were like, hey we’re gonna hijack you to cleanse Raven of evil, sorry not sorry, but don’t worry, we’ll tidy up after ourselves before we leave’....

And then she got depossessed and Azrael starting popping up again and she starting doing her human glowstick thing again except this time with actual fire actually burning shit all around her, and Lilith’s like “okay, fine, I’m willing to concede now that this MIGHT be an issue,” and everyone’s like GEE YOU THINK???

And her ‘heat attacks’ were now big and noticeable enough that they eventually got the attention of Lilith’s birth mother, cuz Lilith had been adopted and found that out and started searching for her birth parents and answers about her powers and where she came from when she was like, thirteen (its a long story, just go with it), and so Lilith’s flame on moments finally caught her birth mother’s attention and she showed up and was like surprise, oh hey and also I’m the Greek Titan of the sun, who escaped from Tartarus awhile back and came up with this whole plan to get back at Zeus and the rest of those turds by making a secret weapon baby - that’s you hon, so proud of you - and yeah your dad was just this rich dude who had a company I wanted to take over, I just kinda incinerated him once I had you and didn’t need him anymore, sorry but its not a big loss he was kinda dull, you wouldn’t have liked him anyway, but also, then this random nurse kidnapped you and derailed my master plan of using a toddler Titan to topple the Olympians, but now I’ve found you and we can get right back to that, and that’s what you missed on Glee!’

Cue the rest of the Titans being like......ummm, we have some questions and also some concerns, but Lilith’s just like huh, so what you’re saying is I’m a divine celestial being? Huh, yeah that tracks. Okay, I believe you! But also I don’t like your plan and I think you kinda suck so I’m gonna like....not do that and instead help the gods defeat you again sorry not sorry but I mean yeah, I’m just not feeling it here, I don’t think this mother/daughter thing is gonna work out on account of the you sucking part.

So then that happened and then Zeus was like, hey we’re down a demigod, how would you like to be a goddess? And Lilith’s like yeah, that sounds good, I’m not busy right now. And the rest of the Titans are like umm, Lilith? The team? We do occasionally save the world and protect people and stuff? And she’s just like oh relax, you’ll be fine without me and I’ll be back in time to help out with that alien invasion in a couple years....and Dick’s like wait what, but Lilith’s already gone and getting her demigoddess on. Because, y’know. Its Lilith. She has her priorities figured out.

And then post-Crisis she eventually rejoins the team as the masked and mysterious figure Omen, who wouldn’t reveal her secret identity, because like, she’s Lilith, and she decided hey I’m just not gonna let the team know that its me and just like, idk see what happens. No particular reason.

Except then she’s abducted by this villain named Haze and she has to use her powers to summon the original Titans to free her, at which point her identity is revealed and she’s like yeah, surprise, it was me the whole time, and the Fab Five are all like WHAT THE HELL LILITH, and she’s like WHAT, I WAS BORED, LET ME HAVE HOBBIES.....and also at this time she and the Titans found out oh btw, turns out that whole backstory about you being the daughter of that Titan was a lie, we’re not really sure how that works but just FYI, you’re actually just the illegitimate daughter of this super rich tycoon, and also FYI, Haze is actually your half brother who hates you because of something to do with the dad you didn’t even know existed, soooooo....that’s a thing....

And then she goes back to the Titans for awhile, still as Omen but with everyone now knowing its her under the cloak and mask, the jig is up, Lilith’s like ugh, lame, now what am I supposed to do for fun. But then it also turned out that for some reason that was never actually made clear, now she also had telekinetic and illusion casting powers and she was like ooooh now these I can have fun with. Coincidentally, like, half the team decided now would be a good time to take a sabbatical and focus on their own cities.

And THEN she was kidnapped by Vandal Savage, who wanted to make her use her powers to divine the perfect lineup of bad guys to take down the Titans once and for all, and Lilith’s like ‘well shit, you got me, guess I gotta do what you want,’ except of course she purposely chooses villains she foresees the Titans beating, which they do of course, and then they beat Savage, and Lilith is just like, dude, I know I’m the only precog here, but how did you not see this coming, like seriously, what on earth made you think there was gonna be any other way this was gonna go? OMG you’re so stupid, what happened to all the smart villains, ugh even being kidnapped is boring now, lame.

And then she died, and like, never actually came back except as a spirit in one story and a Black Lantern in that Blackest Night event, and that sucked. But oh well.

Anyway, the point is I miss THAT Lilith, the unpredictable, whimsical, always dragging chaos in her wake and not giving a shit because look its not her fault Destiny is like totally obsessed with her....

She was just a guaranteed source of WTF and she did it all with unnecessary flair and drama and she was one hundred percent a primary reason Dick Grayson was destined to have gray hairs by the time he was thirty, but oh well, that was just the price of being friends and teammates with her, because Lilith was just...*sighs* she was just so Lilith.

That’s really the only way to sum her up. A dozen writers took her in a dozen different directions cuz they couldn’t decide what to do with her so she ended up doing everything and being extremely extra about it which really tied it all together and just made it a universal truth that when it comes to Lilith, don’t just expect the unexpected, like....just accept that with her anything is possible and plausible and the most random shit will end up connected to her and you just gotta roll with it, because that’s just how it goes with her.