#prepare for this to change by tomorrow

[obsob]

happy pride!!!! a new print in my shop u can find here ! as well as some new stuff hehe 

[ID: felt tip drawing of five cats holding hands in a circle. The cats are on beige background and are coloured, red, orange, yellow, green and blue and are surrounding a pink heart. Three of the cats are facing you and smiling, the others have their back to you. The cats are surrounded by a halo of colours that stretch away to the edge of the drawing. The halo is the colours of various pride flags in the order of: non-binary, transgender, lesbian, aromantic, bisexual and gay, with the colours for pansexual and mlm only slightly visible on the top corners. White stars are dotted about the halo. End ID]

#mine #shop stuff #hehe!! will make a post for the other ones tomorrow #i wasnt too sure abt this print at first but i like it now #i need to buy more envelopes sbsfkk prints came early i am not prepared #i tried to fit in as many flags as i could. i lov that some flags have 3 colours n some r like :) lets have 7 #also i tried writing id if it needs changing let me kno!!

[chayannesegg]

i want to defend blue team's strat bc i feel like people are (validly) annoyed by how hard to counter it was (i really think tubbo would have claimed them even if etoiles and roier hadn't glitched bc he was so well positioned [tho we'll never know weep 😭]) but if you're annoyed, congrats! that's how blue team's felt the past 2 days lol while ~technically~ they could counter by defending spawn like etoiles and roier tried to they a) don't have that many players online at that time naturally (etoiles and tubbo having to be on a 4-5am is not healthy even if possible) and b) it's VERY easy—even without doing tubbo's log strat—to have one person run in spawn and claim them all in <2 secs in the last 10 minutes and have the countdown make it impossible to counterclaim. like REALLY easy. and if they've already claimed the contracts, there is literally nothing they can do but watch the other team win which is VERY frustrating. so it's purposefully irritating/dirty strategy that protests the late login being so op. i'm pretty sure tubbo complained on day 2 that the game rewards waiting until the last 15 minutes to claim rewards unless they balanced it better. blue then lost to the same balancing issue two days in a row. and only tomorrow, on day 5 is it getting fixed. that's the slowest any balancing issue has been implemented so far!! (the % changes daily to fit the gameplay, they gave more detail on the points breakdown the day after blue asked, they added the spawn safe zone today WHILE bad was spawnkilling) blue team simply took the late login strat to its logical extreme, and i think that it really highlights why the game is changing to avoid this outcome!! but blue suffered for like 3 days from this unfairness so i, personally, think it's well-deserved for them to use it to their advantage on the last day it's possible!!

#qsmp #qsmp purgatory #qsmp soulfire #unfortunately i don't think green or red realized how annoying this was because blue's been the only team to really have to deal with it #like red doesn't realize how op the strat is bc they've never had to counter it #and it's just the logical thing for them to do given how they log on #you KNOW they haven't hardcore calculated the game mechanics like blue has lmao #and we watched etoiles on stream realize he couldn't claim his own rewards again (and make it harder for blue to claim) #and due to the glitch they didn't get to see how fast and easy it would be to claim contracts #also and this is an aside i literally don't think anyone on blue saw that the contract rewards is changing tomorrow lmao #tho guys are still mentally preparing to slog thru to the end i'm sure of it

[buysomecheese]

It’s funny to me that my t-shot day, today, is Leap Day. Like that’s kinda funny I think. I also like that Leap Year is the year I graduate high school + start college. Wouldn’t it be fun to see if I could get my top surgery on Feb. 29, 2028 I think that would be So cool actually

#in other words I started testosterone today #obviously first day I’m not seeing any changes yet y’know #but I’m So excited #I also took my car through the car wash and made significantly less a fool of myself than I did last time #I don’t think I want to make a huge deal about being on testosterone because idk I just want to be A Guy about it #like be stealth about it ig #I’m so excited I feel. calm in my body. and prepared for changes. #and I don’t want to like emphasize that I Wasn’t on T and I’m On T Now ig #idk I’m like conceptualizing this strangely I’m so excited #we’ll reconsider tomorrow lmao

[chipjrwibignaturals]

diversity loss! local autistic forced to deal with plans being suddenly changed

#I am going. to kill someone #like I get the cause of this was something out of anyone’s hands. it’s not my sisters fault things changed. #but we went from ‘I’ll come down Monday + Tuesday to help you move then drive to the lake for the rest of the week’ #to ‘actually we’re moving tomorrow can you make it a day trip and then leave Saturday for the lake w everyone else’ #and like. sure. arguably this is a ‘better’ set up but. I fucking HATE change like this #especially bc it’s so late like. okay then guess I’ll fuck myself. #I need to go unpack all my shit (bc I was being GOOD and doing shit EARLY for once!) and repack for the new plans #and like. fucking emotionally prepare for this new change bc I wasn’t THINKING this was gonna happen. im not READY yknow? #idk. fucking. slams autistic diagnostic ‘inflexible adherence to routines’ #my ROUTINE has been CHANGED (on top of ALREADY being disturbed by this whole trip) and it’s causing DISTRESS #< like. dw I’m fine i just need to be a bitch about it for a bit

[wellenklavier]

oh christ i just realized im actually going on a 9 day roadtrip and ending up on the opposite side of the country. starting tomorrow (21st). hello ...

#ive been preparing for it for days but its kindof hitting now once the clock changed to 12 am. its not an imaginary future its Tomorrow #also i have no idea how online im gonna be since im driving for hours and hours every day + actually im going w someone to pennsylvania 1st #and we're hiking/camping a lot #SO........................ #if i disappear off the face of the earth u know why But i mean. we will see. phone addiction strong #omg the queue function . should i.

[sydmarch]

spent months like I need prescription for my mental health give me prescription please please & now that I have it I'm like hm. do I want to have to take meds, actually

#part of it i think is just that typical anxiety that comes before any life change like s new job or whatever but also like #despite never having TRIED stimulants im familar w them i know people w adhd who are on them i had an idea of what to expect & thats what i #i figured id be getting but shes having me try this non stimulant option first bcus 1 apparently its good for people who also have anxiety #and 2 easier to get w the like Adderall shortages & shit rn #& im like ok i have NEVER heard of this drug before and didn't even know there WERE non stimulant options options. #like im doing all my research TODAY for the first time then pick it up tomorrow? #like me heslth anxiety girl just has to be like ok sure i guess. i had mentally prepared myself for stimulants & thats it!!! #i mean worst case i just try it & see if it works or if i have side effects but like. ugh. & i dont like that i dont like my np LOL like id #probably feel less uncertain about trying something i was previously unfamiliar with if she was someone i liked & trusted more #if i knew there were unfamilar drugs they might recommend to me i probably wouldve started over & found someone new to work with. AGHHH & i #didnt discuss any of this w her bcus it took me a couple hours after our session to think abt it & do my own reading & process my emotions #to really come to thia conclusion. & also i wouldnt have wanted to talk to hwt abt this anyway bcus i dont like her & have not felt at all #like cool w opening up to her beyond the minimum i had to do for the assessment #& my therapist is sick this week so im not gonna get to talk to her tomorrow!@ #texticles #anyway i know ive got fellow adhd bitches following me. anyone try guanfacine did you like it or nah

[starbuck]

OH MY GOD I THINK I’M HAVING A TRAUMA RESPONSE

#(this not being a panicked post but rather a moment of realization - please do not worry!) #i’ve been feeling completely crazy for the past week being down on myself like ‘why am i so upset when nothing is wrong????’ #while simultaneously joking every day like ‘isn’t it SO crazy that it was around a year ago that all of my coworkers left me????’ #never once considering that these two things could be connected! #but it seems so obvious now #no WONDER i’m freaked… my body is preparing for nuclear war #i was hanging on all right but then suddenly there were a lot of big changes at once and my system just went ‘oh SHIT!!!!’ #‘it’s THAT again!!!!!!!!’ #and it actually ISN’T!!!! everything is actually cool and fine and under control now!!!!!! #but my trust level is at absolute zero and i cannot perform functional personhood and i feel like a roiling puddle on the ground #that actually makes… so much sense… #i’m gonna talk to my manager tomorrow and explain the situation to her #not that there’s really anything i can do about it but i want to explain myself at least #to hopefully receive a little extra patience and understanding as i work through this #i… did NOT realize that last year’s Situation was so traumatizing but like. Yeah - of course it was #i was in Survival Mode #and i am again now #and i’m just gonna need a little patience and love to help me calm down again and feel safe #that’s it #i can work with that

[zevrans]

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#preparing to meet with my friend tomorrow as if i am going to meet the love of my life or something haha 😔 #it's been so long since i was in the city and want to look my best and despite having a low energy i'm doing hair mask and will do face mas #and will try to wake up earlier and do a proper makeup it's been also so long since i've done full face makeup i kind of miss it #my rosacea acting out so i'll have to try cover it up better though; #she bought tickets for us to an art gallery and this may be my last chance to see her before i relocate; so i jumped the opportunity despit #not really being interested in the exhibition but maybe it'll change my mind #i'm actually more looking forward to talk to her and to eat 🙈 < the food priority smh bcjgkgkgs #tbd

[daughterofhecata]

Lowkey feeling unprepared for Kink January. Yes, I'm safe up to and including the tenth and only need three more to be safe until the twentieth, but somehow it did not register that I'll (have to/get to) start posting tonight???

#first fill goes up as soon as ao3 allows me to set the date to january 1st #unless i fall asleep before that because i think it takes until two or three to open the new year's dates #and i got work tomorrow at nine #kaj rambles #to delete later #kink january #NOT FEELING PREPARED FOR A NEW YEAR ALTHOUGH I KNOW TECHNICALLY NOTHING BUT THE DATE IS CHANGING #sorry for yelling 🙈😄

[emodennis]

why did i decide to take a job at an extremely active and sport-focused camp this summer.

#well on the bright side i got my legal name changed to phoenix on the staff portal #but training starts tomorrow #and im gonna be the bitch that's slower and less fit than everyone else #like i genuinely do not see a scenario where that doesn't happen #i'm either gonna have to push my body beyond what its capable of doing comfortably #or ask for breaks #i hate the society we live in #where i internalized that asking for breaks is weak and embarassing #but to answer my own question. it's because the pay is so much better than the other camp jobs i was applying to lmaooo #i mean i'm sure i'll get more fit as the summer goes on #but being behind everyone else in the beginning is gonna be so stressful #i tried so hard to exercise more this month. but i don't think i did it more than 3 times a week #which i don't think was enough #but hopefully it will be something #i also hate the sun and bugs. #WHY AM I DOING THIS KASJHDAKSHD #i don't even know if i like working with kids :''') #i hate new situations where i have no idea what to expect #i did as much research as i could but the autism can't handle the things i can't know or prepare for #idk what i need rn. everyone's who's told me that its gonna be fun or a good time or whatever has not helped #and anyone who's validated me and said that it sounds stressful hasn't helped either #so i will take your likes on this post as a little kiss on the cheek <3 #that's all i need #phoenix talks

[jorvikzelda]

Cries a little bit on the bus like a normal person, because I, like a normal person, cannot handle things going Very Wrong In Ways Unaccounted For and, against my better judgment, I today did not account for things going Very Wrong In Ways Unaccounted For

#I’m always like. No I can handle sudden change! #…YEAH WHEN YOU PREPARE YOURSELF FOR EVERY POSSIBLE OPTION MAYBE #Forgot to do that today. It’s fine. It’s fine I’m fine and normal. #It’s okay though… the moon is very full and beautiful. #She’s making me want to write. #(I will not do that today. And probably not tomorrow either because tomorrow I am MEETING FRIENDS ABOUT D&D ????) #(which is literally insane by the way. How did we end up here and why am I the DM) #(we’re all clueless it’s fine but two of us (one of whom is me) have watched almost every D20 season) #(so it’s gonna turn out JUUUUST fine) #(we’re going to play Lost Mines of Phandelver because I’m hoping it’s easy) #(and it’s free) #(but reading through the adventure also makes me panic because it’s so much so we’ll see) #not horse game

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#i was supposed to spend the last 2 days prepping and relaxing for the start of this big project tomorrow #but ive spent thr last 2 days frantically coding as fast as i could and focusing v hard to get a lot of bullshit done #and ive fixed things since yesterday. the changes i had to make were too too bad bc the thing that went wrong was so fucking weird #but it should be okay by tomorrow. knock on wood. but this does mean ive done fuck all to prep for tomorrow #so we r winging it bby. ugh. just gotta fucking pray that everything goes ok. pls let nothing b broken and let everything seal properly 🙏 #i was also supposed to meet with my boss today. probably for her to make sure i dont fuck up this project but apparently their safety hood #was having an emergency... whatever that means. so im sure shes having a week as well. and im free to fuck everything up for everyone #ugh. im so. theres a certain point in burning out where youre not really in pain anymore. you dont really feel anything all your joy and #hope dissolves away and u just exist to be useful. and i feel like its easier to maintain that than trying to b happy #i do not advise that bc its a fucking miserable. wasteful way to live but i dont really have time to try for anything better #god. i really hope my measurements friday dont take a full 8hrs. i dont know if i can handle that. literally i would have stay intensely #focused with my brain being Interrupted every 5min so i can manually record data points. its gonna b agony #so that fun. but maybe it wont. maybe itll be great and fun and ill have a wonderful time. seems unlikely but ya never kno #lets not think abt the fact that having to rush all this is preventing me from being able to do all thr other bullshit i need to get done #to prepare for the future. future? what future? hard to imagine from the bottom of this pit im digging myself #sigh. in a few months i can leave this place and never come back. soon but not soon enough #lol i was literally crying listening to cold play earlier bc idk thats the type of music my parents would put on at parties in summertime #so it evokes a v specific mood. which is i guess me hiding away from ppl at parties haha #back when i didnt have to worry abt things so much and i could just listen to the frogs chirping and watch the fireflies #oh god. now my boss is asking if i reached out for help tomorrow. no. lady i would rather drink bleach than have to direct an undergrad #tomorrow. its 10pm im fucking tired. just let me be sad. did i reach our for help? no my brain is on fire #tomorrow is gonna b a long day ugh #unrelated

[todayisafridaynight]

fuck are you looking at. bitch.

#snap chats #i refuse to change my twitter headeri cant find any picture thats better than the goat himself gettin smacked by a monkey #also yeah my pfp IS the same on twitter i love this cap of hiji too much to tear my eyes away from it for more than three seconds #katsu's already my pfp on my priv #bestie said she thought my pfp was me but with beard make up on and i 💀 and then i doubled down ig LMAOOOO #IT USED TO BE A DIFF PIC OF KATSU BUT NOW IT'S JUST THE ONE WHERE HE'S DOING HIS NASTY LITTLE GOBLIN SMIRK #'snap whys your twitter in japanese' because my dad said that we were only going to speak in nihongo to each other #so we could go to japan next year and he was probably not SUPER cereal about it but i need to prepare #if my dad comes over this weekend and he dead ass says おはようご��います im going to shit myself #what the fuck are these tags #anyways i finished one of two of the comms i have to do but im so tired so ima just hang out #i get to be a part of an experiment tomorrow. for $25 hehe i love money incentives

[femgirlfriend]

this is psychological warfare

#in fucking september???... #🌸 #already preparing myself for the migraine ill have tomorrow night i can't deal with these insane air pressure changes

[da-riya]

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#it's really nice being lazy and doing nothing I thoroughly enjoy that #however it means I'm not to be trusted with unstructured free time. I'm NOT to be trusted with that #I've had YEARS of no schedule ever since joining collage and covid and I've achived a whole grand of nothing #and admittedy that makes me very protective of my free time. I feel like it's an ill gotten treasure I never wanna let go #since it isn't ''a few hours off work'' it's legit WHOLE YEARS of free time. It makes me feel really guilty I managed nothing in that time #I kinda don't want things to change but I want things to change I wanna move out I don't wanna leave the house #<- has a job interview tomorrow morning and didn't prepare at all

[exopelagic]

auuudggghghhrhrhrbrr

#okay I’m feeling Bad and I need to unpick why before I’ll be able to sleep #friend is asking abt lunch on Friday when I already have standing commitment w other friends then so I can’t do that. #but I also go home on Sunday and I can’t do shit until Friday bc work and I have plans on Saturday so I just. can’t see them #which. I guess makes things easier actually that’s not something I can control and I’m not changing existing plans that’s unfair #I’m also listening to a playlist of old music (Apple Music generated favourites — so literally random picked from everything I’ve ever done #and the last few songs have made me feel Bad bc of being associated with certain times but song playing rn is definitively a good song #w a good memory attached and it’s MY song not one of my old friends #okay where are we #I’m stressed abt presentation on Thursday but also a non issue. I’m prepared. I have all day tomorrow to practice and read up more #and then it’s 20 minutes on Thursday morning I’ll be done before 10am #I am. a little frustrated on a broader scale about the role I’m currently occupying #in that w a bunch of my friends I’m having to be the one with their shit together and dealing with their Stuff. #mostly in the way that I have to be putting in extra effort to tiptoe around them and steer stuff to keep them happy #i can do it i can do it easily I’ve just tasted not having to now so it’s. noticeably different having to do it more #i do Not have the words to talk abt this in the way I want to it’s so annoying #it’s like. I know how my friend responds to stuff. I know the things that make her anxious and what her instinctual responses will be #and I’m constantly having higher level thoughts planning out how things will go it’s effortless and constant it’s just There #with everyone all the time but sometimes I use it more and sometimes I have to because I’m in a position where if I don’t we’ll get nowhere #and I don’t like that I’m having to worry abt keeping other people happy while I’m talking to my friends it removes me a layer from stuff #hrm. there are broader questions here abt the utility of this bc like. sure it helps in some situations #but this probably isn’t great long term for either of us. wild. goddamn talking to my friend abt philosophy opened new parts of my brain #anyway I cba to have those thoughts rn! it’s midnight! I’m going to bed in half an hour <3 #it’s honestly unfair that I have to do anything other than be gay and play pokemon #luke.txt #uaUrghrhfhjs I’m also being insane abt a guy. which is predictable and I feel stupid abt for multiple reasons but. here we are. #I’m being insane. and maybe I should be less mean to myself but I feel like I’m being insane. #I think! I need to go to bed! #I am not being insane I am having feelings and that is allowed. feelings are typically regarded as a pretty normal thing to have. #philosophy friend is gonna be so mad at me if anything comes of this but it’s fine and if it does I think I’ll be pretty happy anyway #point is I’m doing nothing wrong and have done nothing wrong and I’m allowed to feel whatever the hell I like. okay.