#power of three: sight

[waitineedaname]

I really love how much mp100 stands out against other shows of its genre with its finale. there isn't some final boss, there's no grand fight between good and evil. it is, like the show has always been, about emotions and self acceptance. the finale barely involves fight scenes in the traditional sense, like I wouldn't call the encounters with teru and ritsu fight scenes since neither of them intend to hurt him, and even the fight with the suzukis ends not with someone being defeated but rather with an emotional break through. the final conflict is resolved not with violence and defeat. it's resolved with honesty and compassion and self-love. I can't get over how deeply kind this series is

#mp100 #mp100 spoilers #ONE was like hmmm today I will deconstruct the action shonen 'super powerful kid' genre #and then wrote a fucking masterpiece #fun fact for a long time I thought I didn't like shonens #but mp100 proved me wrong #I mostly didn't like the pacing of shonens I'd seen #bc things seemed to stretch on forever with no end in sight #but mob psycho's pacing is exactly what I needed #bc the seasons are short. most arcs are only two or three episodes long. and the series actually Ends in a satisfying and concise manner #but it also stands out in other ways #like in how character driven it is over being plot driven (I am such a sucker for character driven stories) #and that bc of that it emphasizes emotional development over like. becoming more powerful #idk. I could wax poetic about this show forever #it's such a kind and well written series #who wouldve thought a series about spirits and psychic powers would be so grounded in its emotional intelligence

[residences-of-the-darkforest]

Did I spend hours going through books to collect different Jayfeather-Leafpool moments to point out how much worse the vigil scene is? Yes, yes I did.

FUUUUUUUUCK Jayfeather.

Bitch literally said "I loved her until I found out she was a liar and abandoned us. BUT WAIT YOU DIDN'T LET ME FINISH. I was also going to say that I forgave her eventually. Also I never could have loved her after the betrayal she committed. But she was a good Clanmate I guess." at her funeral.

He said she "abandoned" them, without mentioning at all that she made sure they would be raised by loving parents that she loved and trusted and only gave them up so that they could be fully accepted by the Clan, nor that she was an active figure in their lives, even if they didn't know her exact relation to them.

Not to mention he straight up lied?? "Hollyleaf died defending her lie" no the fuck she didn't?? Where are you even pulling that bullshit from????

#jayfeather #leafpool #squirrelflight's hope #tp3 #the power of three #omen of the stars #the last hope #the sight #long shadows #wc #warriors #warrior cats #warrior cats books #warriors chapters #warrior cats chapters #warriorcats #notdf

[heathfall]

what if... whitewing was a member of the three/four, not dovewing.

after all, she fits the "kin of [Firestar's] kin" better than dovewing, being the daughter of Firestar's nephew.

#thinking crown of thorns thoughts #although i have a REALLY LONG WAY to go to get to oots #considering ive rewritten... like three chapters of the sight and also like a tiny bit of a weird rainwhisker novella im tossing in there #but also just this in general #whitewing #dovewing #power of three #omen of the stars #thunderclan #warrior cats #warriors #erin hunter warriors

[blorboclaw]

re-reading The Sight for writing purposes and... wtf?? Thornclaw? Are yo utrying to humiliate your own sister Brightheart or are you not doing it on purpose???

#the sight #power of the three

[hanzajesthanza]

the short stories are actually really provocative and profound, heartrending and disturbing and thought-provoking and funny all at the same time and in such a short amount of space.

but i feel like when n*tflix touched them, they were the first victim of a withering away and soul sapping for me, in which i couldn't bear to be around the kinds of discussions and jokes and everything which were coming up at that time as fundamental misunderstandings of them so it just became very painful and very banal because they were all, in essence, forgotten.

however, that damage is not irreversable.

particularly in the case of a good adaptation, the musical, i have begun to remember all of why i love the short stories so much, just how good and painful to my heart they are, as well as thinking more deeply about some aspects which i had not previously considered or paid a lot of attention to (in lieu of other things which excited me more).

i think the biggest strength of a "good" adaptation and a "good" fandom is that they make you realize things you hadn't, interested in parts that weren't your 'favorite,' and generally expanding your mind and love of the source material. in contrast, a "bad" adaptation or "bad" fandom is that which makes you wish to forget and eventually end up forgetting your love and leaving it behind yourself. "good" is to remember, "bad" is to forget.

#txt #the witcher books #the witcher musical #what i mean here is that sometimes there are things you KNOW but you don't think deeply about and you don't consider the ramifications of #for instance i knew that the waters of brokilon erased your memories to make you a dryad but did i care all that much? not really #because i was so focused on geralt and ciri's relationship that the waters were just something i didn't want to happen to ciri #but hearing braenn's song from the musical made my jaw drop with emotion and horror realizing how impactful that experience would be #similarly ciri's song about the nature in brokilon made me realize that her wonder at all of these beauties is something so rare and #impossible in every single other part of the world because brokilon is The Last Place. #literally no other child - no other HUMAN - will ever see these sights she saw. and she's singing to geralt that she wishes he could see it #but really she is singing to all humans of the continent and therefore the entire audience #because also ciri is such a character as that she is innocent and believes in goodness and justice at this point #such as when she says that calanthe says elves and dryads are good and when she asks yennefer about drawing too much Power #so she's singing: i wish the world could be beautiful and i wish humans were not so cruel (the message of the song not her intention) #i won't even mention what waters of brokilon (song) brings to the table in terms of character understanding rn bc i'm procrastinating #ALSO THE STORY OF THE CAT AND THE FOX....... JAZZY TUNE.... GERALT DAD MOMENTS.... CIRI DANCING.... OK #twn critical #um and considering i just named three sword of destiny songs. the n*tflix series did NOT EVEN HAVE SWORD OF DESTINY.

[wrinklybabies2005]

the sight is a strange book for me

// spoilers for the sight + minor spoilers for the rest of PO3 and mentions of ableism

been re-reading the sight lately (mainly cus i miss hollyleaf) and i find the arc that they set jaykit up for us very strange and ableist.

throughout the first few chapters (when the 3 are still kittens) we see a lot of cats (leafpool, squirrelflight and other clanmates) say that jaykit can ‘never be a normal apprentice’. others go as far to question if he should move to the elders den simply because he is blind.

jaykit, hollykit and lionkit all believe that jaykit can and will become a warrior. these first few chapters feel as if they are setting up a character arc for jaykit, where he will train to become a warrior and face hardships along the way as well as ableism from the cats around him (similar to brightheart’s arc in TPB).

as everyone knows, jaykit is essentially forced to give up his training as a warrior and become a medicine cat, something that he clearly doesnt want and is upset about.

this is ableist, as it gives the reader hope that we will see jaykit grow up and become the first blind warrior in all of the clans and that we will see him change how the clans view disabled cats in general. instead, the books puts him in the medicine den as being a warrior is ‘too hard for him’.

the erin’s trash what could have been an interesting character arc in favour of putting another disabled cat in the medicine den :/

#📼cal yells #warrior cats #wc #power of three #power of 3 #po3 #jaykit #jaypaw #jayfeather #medicine cat #the sight

[kuramirocket]

I am on book 1 chapter 6 of, The Power of Three, The Sight, of Warrior Cats.

And I just, Jaykit, Hollykit and Lionkit are so adorable!! The shipcest community wasn't joking when they said we'd get more chances for shipping! I'm just here like, oh no. My shipcest heart is weak.

Lionkit missing Jaykit being in the nursery sleeping cuddled up to each other and it's only been one night! Just Jaykit, Hollykit and Lionkit always doing everything together. It seems like they are really close too which makes sense cause they've grown up together.

The book and this new saga is just beginning. Give me all da family love and shipping subtext!! 🤭❤

Also anyone know their ship name for these 3? JayHollyLion? JayLionHolly?

All these name combinations for ships are wild. I think they could be better organized or maybe just like xxxshipping (e.g. dimensionshipping - I'm thinking of Yu-Gi-Oh Arc-V. A ship I ship, ofc) xD

#warrior cats #warrior cats proship #the sight #power of three #jaykit #hollykit #lionkit

[tennelleflowers]

Rewriting “The Power of Three”-The Sight (text version)

Okay, I said I would attempt to organize a written version of my rewrite here for you guys, so here it goes! I know it’s been a while and I should’ve done this much sooner, but it’s just a lot to organize and go through. A lot of my ideas were written over several different docs before they went into the final script, so this will be an attempt to show you guys what I took down for notes, what I wanted to change/fix/explore, and then what I wrote in the end.

I’m gonna break this up by book because this is already gonna be long. Of course if you just wanna hear all of it, go watch my video: https://youtu.be/D0G_40Q4A_o

I know I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: Feel free to use any of my ideas to write your own fanfic or whatever. I have 0 plans to ever actually write this, so have at it. My video was my way to talk about my frustrations with the arc and where I would’ve liked to see it go instead.

I also want to emphasize that my main goal with these “Rewriting” videos is to try to stay AS CLOSE to canon as I can, while still finding ways to make the books more enjoyable (to me, at least). Which was a huge challenge for this series because, to be frank, not a lot happens, and a lot of the things that do happen don’t add up to much. And that’s a big problem. So I had to invent more exciting scenarios/explanations of events to build to a climax that I felt would still be in the spirit of the original books and lead into Omen of the Stars without much changing. Of course, my version of PoT does end up making some big splashes to the canon by the end of it, but I think overall it is still in line with the general themes the arc presented us.

Let’s get started with some of my original notes when going into this rewrite for ‘The Sight’: 

Rewriting PoT

Goals/Things to keep in mind:

-Keeping the 3 as POV’s for each book. It’s their story, so Jay, Holly, and Lion should get equal development and screen time. Always ask: How does this make x character grow? How does this change their group dynamic? How does x’s growth affect the world around them? If I can’t answer these questions about each of them, I need to think about it more.

-Find a way to tie each story together by the end. Most books will be structured with the three feeling isolated or separated from each other, but the end should find a way to bring them back together: for better or worse. Each book should also feel like a milestone in them becoming more powerful. They need to level up at a consistent rate.

-Moving the plot forward quicker, with Long Shadows/Sunrise happening mid series

-Hollyleaf being “evil” for the second half of the arc, with Sol as the main antagonist

-Make Sol an interesting antagonist, somehow

-What the fuck am I going to do with the Tribe stuff for this arc??? Hhh…I’ve got plans for it in OotS, but I think scrap all but the bare minimum of it in this arc and use it as foreshadowing for OotS.

-Giving all 3 cats more authority so their powers actually come across as scary to outsiders

-Can’t keep this one as canonical as the Rewriting New Prophecy video, bc the problems with PoT are more of a direct result of the slow paced storytelling, verus NP where the main problem was *how* the story was told

-Will still try my best to keep things canonical, but events from Omen of the Stars can be used and shuffled in as well. Since these series are so closely linked, rearranging these events could help build narrative tension.

-Kill Firestar in Long Shadows. It would be much more meaningful here, especially if we build a relationship between him and the Three. Huge power dynamic shift and allows the Three to actually stand a chance at becoming “dangerous prophecy cats”

-No prologues, only epilogues. Making this a series that makes you ask questions at the end. You get a satisfying conclusion in each book, but the epilogue fuels the mystery and tension of anticipation for the next book.

The Sight

What happens canonically:

Jay, Holly, and Lion are apprenticed

Jay wants to be a Warrior but bc of his blindness is forced to be a Medicine Cat

Holly wants to be a Medicine Cat because of the power it gives her, but switches to Warrior when she realizes she’s bad at it

Lion is big dumb lad who wins fights, loves his dad, and hates Breeze

Graystripe comes back with Millie

Cat Olympics

*indicate who is the focal character of the book. Each book focuses on each character, but each book highlights 1 moreso than the others

How could we improve (?) this:

Jay*- Instead of wanting to be a warrior, Jaykit just wants to find a way to be an active member of the clan, because the clan has basically decided to keep him a kit longer than Holly and Lion, with the implication that he’ll be moved to the Elders den eventually and never be given the opportunity to train. Some clan cats (Thornclaw, Spiderleg) resent Jay and say things like “he’s using valuable resources” blah blah blah, but on the other side, Firestar and others say Jay is part of the clan just like any other cat but don’t allow him to do anything. Brightheart stands up for Jaykit and begins training him privately. After a while, Jay realizes he wants to be a medicine cat and Brightheart helps him learn the territory and how to care for herbs so he can prove his worth to Firestar and Leafpool for the job. Jay’s powers are starting to emerge. He can feel the emotions of the clan and how they resent and pity him and this makes him bitter. StarClan, at least, encourages Jaykit to continue pushing to become a Medicine Cat.

Holly- Mostly stays the same. Note that when she is a Medicine Cat apprentice, she feels ostracized from the other TC apprentices, this builds up as time goes on and she gets more frustrated with MC duties.

Lion- Focus more on the apprentice dynamics. The other apprentices are jealous of Lion for picking things up so quickly, and bc he isn’t humble about it. He also trains in the Dark Forest and loves being better than everyone else at fighting, although he feels guilty for talking to Tigerstar and Hawkfrost. He tries to find comfort in Holly and Jay, but both are bitter towards him as well. Holly wants to be better friends with the other apprentices and Jay is bitter about not becoming an apprentice at all. Lion could even be feeling pity towards his brother that Jay calls him out on.

Mid-book Graystripe comes back. (Maybe Graystripe and Millie come back during a normal day, Lion attacks them and expects to be praised for defending the border, but everyone is horrified he hurt Graystripe. This is part one of Lion’s wake up call.) This whole book is about figuring out where you fit in. After seeing the clan struggle with where Graystripe fits back into TC life, Holly and Jay finally get to do their switcheroo and Lion realizes he’s been a bit of a show-off/jerk to the other apprentices and stops that behavior but instead starts to become withdrawn.

End the book in a similar fashion, with the all day Gathering and the climax with Breeze almost dying before Jay and Lion save his ungrateful punk ass.

Epilogue: Firestar gets the Power of Three prophecy

Okay! So those were most of my notes specifically about how I wanted to handle this book and now here’s my actual script for the video:

So, in my rewrite, instead of wanting to be a warrior, Jaykit just wants to find a way to be an active member of the clan, because the clan has basically decided to keep him a kit longer than Holly and Lion, with the implication that he’ll be moved to the Elders den eventually and never even be given the opportunity to train. Hollypaw and Lionpaw get apprenticed while Jaykit stays in the nursery. Some clan cats (like Thornclaw and Spiderleg) resent Jaykit and say things like “he’s using up valuable resources” “He doesn’t contribute anything to ThunderClan”, which is horrible, but on the other side of things, Firestar and his family say that Jaykit is part of the clan just like any other cat but don’t allow him to do anything. 

In the midst of all this, Brightheart stands up for Jaykit and begins training him privately. After a while, Jay realizes he wants to be a medicine cat and Brightheart helps him learn the territory and uses her past Medicine Cat training to show Jaykit how to care for herbs so he can prove his worth to Firestar and Leafpool for the position. From the start of all this, Jaykits powers are starting to emerge. He can feel the emotions of the clan and how they resent and pity him and this makes him bitter and gives him all his angst that we know and love him for. StarClan visits Jaykit one night in his dreams and encourages Jaykit to continue pursuing becoming a Medicine Cat.

Now during all of this, of course, Hollypaw is training with Leafpool. For the time being, this mostly stays the same as the book. With a slight addition that when she is a Medicine Cat apprentice, she feels ostracized from the other ThunderClan apprentices. She doesn’t get their in-jokes and feels like she’s being left behind. This builds up as time goes on and she gets more frustrated with Medicine Cat duties. It’s not bringing her the glory, recognition, or satisfaction she thought it would.

For Lionpaw,  I want to focus more on the apprentice dynamics and give Lionpaw a bit more character development. Reminder: the apprentices around this time are Berrypaw, Hazelpaw, Mousepaw, Cinderpaw, Honeypaw, and Poppypaw. The other apprentices are jealous of Lionpaw for picking things up so quickly. And because Lionpaw isn’t very humble about his prowess either, they pretty quickly start to exclude Lionpaw and call him a show-off. Ashfur also turns out to be a hard mentor to please. (2 guesses as to why. And the second guess doesn’t count.) With no real friends and no Hollypaw or Jaykit to hang around either, he begins training in the Dark Forest. Tigerstar and Hawkfrost feed into Lionpaw’s ego, and in a way, are the closest things to friends that Lionpaw has made so far. As much as Lionpaw loves being better than everyone else at fighting, he does still feel guilty for talking to Tigerstar and Hawkfrost. 

At his lowest point in this book, he tries to talk to Holly and Jay about his problems, but both are bitter towards him as well. Hollypaw wants to be better friends with the other apprentices so she doesn’t understand why Lionpaw can’t just get over himself and be nice, and while Jaykit understands the struggle not getting along with their clanmates, he’s still bitter about not becoming an apprentice at all, and thinks Lionpaw has it easy compared to him. Jaykit’s powers also allow him to read Lionpaw’s emotions, and Jaykit is taken aback. Unlike most of the other ThunderClan cats, who Jaykit mostly feels pity from, Jaykit realizes that Lionpaw doesn’t really have any feelings towards him whatsoever. Only apathy. 

So the kids are all kinda being shitty to each other and going through A TIME.

My changes here are all done in the hopes of really putting our protagonists through some tough character development, but also hopefully foreshadow their roles for the rest of the series. Each character is going through their own problems with self-worth and handling it in different ways. Jay, Lion, and Holly start off as ambitious, but loving siblings to each other but then things quickly become complicated and messy, putting a strain on their relationship as each becomes more burdened with their own problems. They forget to care about each other.

As we get to the back half of the book, Graystripe and Millie arrive. Only this time, instead of showing up during a Gathering, Graystripe and Millie show up during a border patrol Lionpaw is on. Lionpaw is the first to notice the different scent and charges in after the intruders, attacking them without hesitation, just like Tigerstar and Hawkfrost showed him how to do. Lionpaw’s clanmates are horrified he attacked Graystripe, and this begins Lionpaw’s wake-up call that he’s been too brash and big headed. He begins to realize that the other apprentices were right about him and his ego is shattered.

As ThunderClan debates on how Graystripe and Millie are going to fit back into Clan life, this parallels Hollypaw and Jaykit problems as well. Through watching Graystripe reintegrate, Hollypaw realizes that she’d be happier training as a Warrior. And when Millie becomes part of the clan, this gives Jaykit the courage he needs to tell Firestar and Leafpool that he wants to become a Medicine Cat Apprentice and he can prove he’s capable of doing it. After all, if a former kittypet can walk into camp and become a Warrior, why shouldn’t he get a chance? Though he can feel his clanmates doubt and pity him, Jaykit also feels Brightheart’s pride and confidence in him.

Jaykit’s nerves do get the best of him a few times, and he makes a few unfortunate mistakes, but overall does the job. Firestar questions how Jaykit learned all of this, and instead of outing Brightheart, he tells Firestar and Leafpool that a StarClan warrior taught him everything. This half-truth seals the deal and Jaykit finally becomes Jaypaw, Leafpool’s Apprentice.Jaypaw feels strange, unfamiliar emotions from Leafpool and Firestar is also still strangely hesitant towards Jaypaw’s apprenticeship, Jaypaw doesn’t know what to make of these emotions other than assuming that they still don’t believe he can do it. Jaypaw burns with anger and determination but tries not to let it discourage him.

As we reach the climax of this book, the clans still go through with the all day Gathering, but this time Jaypaw, Lionpaw, and Hollypaw are enjoying the Gathering together. Before the Gathering begins the siblings have a heart-to-heart where they each apologize for not being there for each other. For the first time, Jaypaw feels his siblings look at him with pride. He confesses that Brightheart was the one who helped him learn everything. And while Lionpaw has recovered a bit from his shame of attacking Graystripe, he’s still a bit withdrawn, but Hollypaw and Jaypaw are just happy to have gotten an apology from their meat-head brother. 

Another thing to note is that throughout the book, we would still get introduced to Breezepaw and Heatherpaw. Lionpaw in particular has had a few confrontations with Breezepaw. And at the end, Breezepaw still nearly dies until Jaypaw feels his distress through his power and he, Lionpaw, and Hollypaw go save him. 

The clans celebrate Jaypaw, Lionpaw, and Hollypaw heroics and things end on a nice little note about finding where you belong, teamwork, and communication.

Only, now we get the epilogue. Ah ha ha! That’s right. There’s no prologue to this series, only epilogues. Firestar is receiving a dream from StarClan. Instead of any particular StarClan cat visiting Firestar, he can only explore a hostile and dark forest, and the words of a thousand ancestors cry out, “Beware. Three will come, kin of your kin, who hold the power of the stars in their paws.” Firestar wakes up in a cold sweat as he hears commotion outside his den. We, as the readers, now realize that this took place several moons ago as Firestar sees Leafpool and Squirrelflight walk into camp with Jaykit, Hollykit, and Lionkit as newborns and Firestar looks on with uncertainty.  

Okay, that was a lot of set up, and some definite changes, but I’m hoping that all of this will strengthen the narrative and characterization, AND give us some juicy foreshadowing of things to come.

#warriors #power of three rewrite #warrior cats #the sight #jayfeather #hollyleaf #lionblaze

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

man the alliance generals in ag are just so fun and good natured

this guy's out here ready to celebrate for gm/the end of the war and he's celebrating with his whole gang

drinks and cheers and happy alliance soldiers!!!

#DCB Three Hopes Run #love their positive vibes in this route. the way they see the end of the war in sight #and are like hell yeah let's party and be friends. if this were houses it'd be vw too but like #since it's the opposite in gw and it's super tense and uncertain it makes ag the only good vibes route #and i love when they have positive things to say like this that aren't about hurting others #it feels so powerful coming from the alliance side too who didn't have much contact with gm/the church/etc #and the way he says ''reclaimed'' is the difference between ag and the other routes in hopes #bc in those ones they're the ones attacking. they're not reclaiming but instead claiming #in sb they claimed and then reclaimed ig? in a way? but it's still taking from someone else first #this guy is happy to have gm back to its rightful residents. like. good for him #good for him being happy to have a place's rightful residents back at home and being happy for the war to end

[reddzartz]

The Sight, 2021

#warrior cats #warriors #warrior cats fanart #power of three #the sight #hollypaw #lionpaw #jaypaw #hollyleaf #jayfeather #lionblaze #i sold this one for $420 a couple years ago heheh

[t4twnyclaw]

@lionblaze03-2  We know the cats are obviously in the wrong and that in this scene (and the entire book really) they exist to be antagonistic towards Jaypaw specifically-- in order to push him towards becoming a medicine cat and for his own anguish. We understand that. We understand the cats that are ableist towards him and characters like him, are obviously in the wrong.

What IS wrong and what upsets me and many others, is the fact that this ableism is so violent and prominent in a CHILDRENS BOOK. It’s the same issue with Spottedleafs Heart, Onestar’s Confession, and even Pinestar and Leopardfoot’s relationship. We know that the predators in these relationships are bad, they’re not supposed to be good. What the problem is that these books have pedophilia and grooming overtones and undertones in a Childrens book- where children will read this and normalize these behaviours, or like me not see the problem with this.

I’m not disgusted by what Oakfur said (i am) I’m disgusted that the authors added it to a childrens book. Like it or not Warrior cats is like a childrens book, war and kitty-fights are one thing but pedophilia, ableism, xenophobia etc are issues that MUST be written delicately and in a specific way in which warrior cats does not do.

#txt #ableism #this is about the sight and the power of three arc specifically

[hoodie-prince-kid]

I think Olivia, Huey, and Azure should all go on adventures together. They would literally be the trio ever.

#Azure as the navigator #Huey as the braincell #Olivia as the fighter (with the vellumental powers) #But also all three of them would love travelling #Huey is amazed by the sights in the world #Olivia hasnt gotten out much and has so much to see #And Azure has a huge sense of wanderlust and loves getting lost #Maybe i'll write smth abt this when i finish tok. Who knows?

[siixkiing]

To add, Macaque does not care for ErLang either...just as hostile in fact 83

#Loss of Powers | {OOC} #The Scrolls | Mun Menu {Post} #I mean TBF; there is zero stuff between them in JTTW for obvious reasons of course XD #BUT given his history with Wukong in the LMK stuff; he probably holds the same contempt and loathing for ol' three-eyes same as Wukong #No hesitation; will unleash the sass and such on him on sight #Might want to get physical but needs a reason to get physical; will be cordial in a back-handed way #He will drag him in the classiest way and leave no survivors UwU

[negative-corgi]

Ah yes F i r e s t o r m

From the Power of Three: The Sight ch.24

#warriors books #warrior cats #erin hunter warriors #power of three #the sight #erin hunter #po3 the sight

[arthur-r]

okay hi it’s been 24 hours since surgery so i think the anesthesia is officially all gone, hi everybody i don’t have a tumor anymore which is the best thing that’s happened to me in like a month. and i’m not supposed to go out and work or anything for 3 to 5 days which means i’m basically just hanging out

#yesterday was terrifying oh my friggin god i had an iv and everything and doctors treating me like a little kid #and i’m pretty sure the anesthesia was in the thing they gave me to breathe even though they said it was gonna be in the iv because it didnt #start working until i breathed it in which means the doctors lied and i don’t like it when doctors lie and it felt like my heart was stopped #but i guess it started back up after i fell asleep but it was terrifying while it lasted but that was just a couple seconds #and then i spilled my guts to the nurse after and i’m just really hoping it doesn’t cause me troubles someday cause i’m not sure what i said #except for the stuff that i wrote down right after which included something about getting married which i don’t think i want to do i just #have been watching a lot of married at first sight with my mom and i’ll blame it on that #and also apparently i kept asking her if her job is good and suggesting i should do her job because it seemed super fun #which. anesthetic nurse?? clearly not for me if i have any of my wits about me at all #anyway i’m back now and probably good but still not allowed to drive and stuff so sorry if i end up being ridiculous again #but yeah hi good morning my parents have not been leaving each other alone it’s been at least an hour of shouting per day the past #three or four consecutive days at least. i think more than that cause there have been really early mornings consistently that wake me up #so i’ve just been trying to power through that and it gets extra hard when i hadn’t had surgery yet and always thinking about it #although now i had my surgery yet and i’m just thinking about medical bills and how the guy called it unusual and now that he removed the #tumor he’s sending it to the lab to be investigated and what if it wasn’t benign or what if it’s gonna be chronic or what if so many things #and so it’s not really done hanging over my head. especially with this zig zag scar that might never leave #in other news my mom took me thrifting on thursday to make up for being heading into surgery and i got some red corduroy pants #which are similar to my orange red jeans except for they aren’t tiny and hard to feel good about my weight in #which is nothing about actual weight because at this point i am so comfortable with any type of weight for myself and of course others #it’s just that self consciousness is stored in wearing too tight clothes and knowing everyone around you thinks you look ridiculous #anyway just bought red pants that fit me better than my other ones ever had. and now i can maybe sell some of my blue jeans i can’t do those #i only wear grey and red and tan jeans and my one pair of yellow joggers no matter how hard i try i can’t deal with the blue ones #so having another pair of red stuff will do really well for me i think. but now i’m hyper focusing on those jeans to stop thinking about the #other stuff going on in my life. and i’m sorry shdhdf the point is i’m here now and probably good as far as cognizance goes #i feel like if i’m able to think of the word cognizance off the top of my head i must be good. so yeah hi!!!! #it’s good to be here. i’m sure i’ll delete this later. ask me to tag this there’s so much stuff going on in it cause i’m just talking #hospital tw #surgery tw #weight discussion

[9ragonmew]

GRAYSTRIPE !?!?

#personal #wc #pg 142 #warrior cats #power of three #the sight #spoilers #i literally knew it