#possible bipolar

[cherryredmistakes]

You don’t understand you don’t you can’t nobody can because nobody wants to

#girlblogging #girlblogger #girl blogger #mental illness #help i’m so tired #grays diary #anor3xic #an0r3x14 #manic pixie dream girl #eating problems #attachment issues #ana ed #body disphoria #not pr0 just rant #possible bipolar #possible bpd #undiagnosed bpd #bpd splitting #borderline splitting

[heymacy]

IAN GALLAGHER + his journey with bipolar disorder

╰┈➤ “At times, being bipolar can be an all-consuming challenge, requiring a lot of stamina and even more courage, so if you’re living with this illness and functioning at all, it’s something to be proud of, not ashamed of." - Carrie Fisher

#happy world bipolar day to all my bp babies #(more thoughts at the end of the tags) #shameless #shamelessnet #shamelessedit #ian gallagher #cameron monaghan #*macygifs #bipolar disorder #hello pals how are we doin #i made this gif set in july of 2023 and never posted it because 1) i was terrified to share it and potentially see Bad Takes in the tags #and 2) because my hyperfixation was waning. and while both of those things are still mostly true (the fixation comes and goes) #i feel like it's really important to share as ian's bipolar storyline was not only so vital to his character it was a bit of representation #that isn't often given to the disorder and those (like myself) who live with it every single day #world bipolar day is a day where we can both celebrate ourselves and our resilience and also raise awareness of the reality of the disorder #which is both terrifying and beautiful at its core. this disease is not a death sentence or a sentence to an unfulfilled and miserable life #while there are challenges galore when it comes to balancing life with this disorder it IS possible to live a full and productive life #and i think it's really important to have representation of that in media - and while shameless dropped the ball on a LOT of storylines #over the years THIS is the one they really fucking nailed and i am incredibly grateful #i first started watching shameless while in the midst of a major depressive episode and i was later (finally) diagnosed during an extended #hypo/manic episode - this show and ian's storyline got me through so much and made me feel so seen and validated in my struggles #world bipolar day is also vincent van gogh's birthday (happy birthday buddy) who was posthumously diagnosed with bipolar disorder #and who experienced both depressive and hypo/manic episodes during his lifetime (and was regularly institutionalized) #it takes a lot of help and support to keep us going. it takes the support of our family and friends and *most* of all #it takes patience and kindness and understanding - which is so so so easy to give if you are willing to love and listen #so please. be willing. listen to our stories. be patient with us. show us love without conditions. support us in any way you can. #we are worth it #i promise #anyway. that's really all i wanted to say. happy world bipolar day to those who celebrate (me) and may all of us living with this disorder #go on to live happy fulfilling beautiful magical lives

[dorianbrightmusic]

PSA

-OCD is not a synonym for neat or preoccupied with tidiness. Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder is all about distressing intrusive thoughts and rituals (compulsions) used to combat those thoughts.

-Intrusive thoughts are not synonymous with silly things I want to do. They're deeply upsetting, often taboo mental apparitions. Letting them win is the last thing anyone wants, and nobody is immoral for having them. (See 'impulsive thoughts' if you need a term.)

-Anorexic is not a synonym for thin or emaciated. The majority of anorexic people have OSFED atypical anorexia – that is, their BMI is above 18.5. You cannot judge the severity of someone's illness by their appearance. (If you're worried about someone, look out more for rapid weight loss than thinness, even when it's occurring in someone in a larger body. 10kg in 10 weeks is never a good thing.)

-Eating disorders are not synonymous with just anorexia and bulimia. Anorexia is an ED, but it's nowhere near the most common. Bulimia is an ED, but again, not the most common. Together, they do not constitute the most common. The most common ED is binge-eating disorder, and the second most common is atypical anorexia, which is one of many, many OSFED categories. Those living with ARFID, pica, night-eating syndrome, rumination disorder, subthreshold BN, subthreshold BED, and orthorexia all deserve dignity, compassion, and acknowledgement. Remember: EDs are not necessarily thin, and never glamorous.

-Schizophrenic is not a synonym of all over the place, abnormal, unpredictable, dangerous, or crazy. Nor is schizoid or schizotypal. Folks with schizophrenia spectrum disorders live with hallucinations, delusions, disorganised thoughts/behaviour, and/or catatonia. They are far more likely to be victims of violence than perpetrators, and go to huge lengths to act okay even when distressed by symptoms.

-Schizophrenic is also not a synonym of multiple personalities/volatile. For the disorder involving having different facets of personality that are generally unaware of each other, see Dissociative Identity Disorder, and even then, don't assume it's a) dramatic as it is in the movies; b) evil; or c) trivial. DID is a trauma disorder.

-Delusional is not a synonym of wrong. Nor is it the same as this politician/friend is saying something I do not like/that is potentially dangerous. Delusions are false, fixed beliefs held despite evidence. And generally, folks with delusions don't tend to proselytise them. I know that certain politicians have beliefs that seem to persist in the face of evidence, but nevertheless, we don't need to stigmatise mental illness further to call out poor political/social behaviour. If you need a word for the pundit spewing potentially dangerous content, use 'dangerous' or 'wrong', but don't call them delusional.

-Bipolar is not a synonym of all over the place or fluctuating results. Bipolar disorder involves mood states that, even in the rapid cycling form, tend to last at least 3-4 days (mania) and weeks (depression). If you need a word for the weather, use 'British' instead.

-Psychotic is not a synonym of evil. Psychosis is losing touch with reality, whether it be through hallucinations or delusions. It doesn't make a person bad or violent. It's just a neurological phenomenon that may be distressing. It's also relatively common: 6-15% of people will hallucinate in their lifetime.

-ADHD is not a synonym of just quirky/scattered/forgetful/unfocussed/lazy/careless. ADHD is fundamentally a disorder of being able to choose where to direct attention, rather than of just I can't focus. If someone can't tune out the noise of the crowd, but can't prevent themself focussing on something trivial because their brain is wired that way, it's not laziness or just being quirky/scattered.

-Autistic meltdown is not a synonym of temper tantrum.

-Borderline is not a synonym of harridan.

-Narcissist is not a synonym of abuser.

-Mentally ill is not a synonym of volatile or bad person. This doesn't mean we have to make something artificially positive out of mental disorders. If there is good to be found in certain disorders, great; if there is nothing positive about living with certain others, that doesn't make you any less real or resilient than anyone else. It's okay to have complex feelings about your own disorders. It's okay to feel exhausted or frustrated by a disorder. But never should anyone have to face stigma.

#vent post but also important #ocd #intrusive thoughts #eating disorders #eds #schziophrenia #delusions #bipolar disorder #bipolar #psychosis #adhd #bpd #npd #cluster b #mental illness discourse #i want to make this for a couple of reasons: #a) i have intrusive thoughts (and possibly inserted thoughts) and they're awful #b) i've had OSFED and seeing the AN = thin stereotype is... frustrating #c) so so many people live with the other disorders on this list and don't get help and support because of stereotypes #d) so long as stereotype persists the medical system will not acknowledge the needs of its patients #e) while i don't have the right to speak over anyone with any of these disorders i can at least try to start a conversation #those of you with the above disorders: feel free to correct me if i stuffed up a detail #nt people you may interact with this post #everyone: feel free to add more to the list

[swamp-adder]

canon quotes in support of the "Holmes is bipolar" theory

Nothing could exceed his energy when the working fit was upon him; but now and again a reaction would seize him, and for days on end he would lie upon the sofa in the sitting-room, hardly uttering a word or moving a muscle from morning to night. -- STUD

He was bright, eager, and in excellent spirits, a mood which in his case alternated with fits of the blackest depression. -- SIGN

Holmes could talk exceedingly well when he chose, and that night he did choose. He appeared to be in a state of nervous exaltation. I have never known him so brilliant. He spoke on a quick succession of subjects,--on miracle-plays, on medieval pottery, on Stradivarius violins, on the Buddhism of Ceylon, and on the war-ships of the future,--handling each as though he had made a special study of it. His bright humor marked the reaction from his black depression of the preceding days. -- SIGN

[...] as I have mentioned somewhere in these incoherent memoirs, the outbursts of passionate energy when he performed the remarkable feats with which his name is associated were followed by reactions of lethargy during which he would lie about with his violin and his books, hardly moving save from the sofa to the table. -- MUSG

Holmes had spent several days in bed, as was his habit from time to time [...] -- 3GAR

Sherlock Holmes was a man, however, who, when he had an unsolved problem upon his mind, would go for days, and even for a week, without rest, turning it over, rearranging his facts, looking at it from every point of view until he had either fathomed it or convinced himself that his data were insufficient. It was soon evident to me that he was now preparing for an all-night sitting. -- TWIS

He paced restlessly about our sitting-room in a fever of suppressed energy, biting his nails, tapping the furniture, and chafing against inaction. -- BRUC

It was not a long journey from Winchester to Thor Place, but it was long to me in my impatience, while for Holmes it was evident that it seemed endless; for, in his nervous restlessness he could not sit still, but paced the carriage or drummed with his long, sensitive fingers upon the cushions beside him. -- THOR

"My dear Watson, you know how bored I have been since we locked up Colonel Carruthers. My mind is like a racing engine, tearing itself to pieces because it is not connected up with the work for which it was built." -- WIST

#obviously multiple interpretations are possible #but i've occasionally seen people ask what the basis is for the bipolar interpretation #so here ya go #sherlock holmes #acd holmes

[opens-up-4-nobody]

I feel like I'm losing my mind. Like this has to be a thing right? It's a thing I experience at least. Please please please tell me abt ur experience if u do 🙏

#all the literature i find is like yeah pmdd can be mistaken for bipolar but then they dont talk abt mania or hypomania #so im like ??? wtf is happening? #i mean i wasnt looking that hard but its still weird to me bc i tell my mum i possibly had a hypomanic episode and she instantly was like #hm could b hormones and she was 1000% percent right bc it happens mostly in the days before bleeding starts #so like i cant b the only one out there. and it doesnt happen all the time. and usually its not that extreme #like id say its mostly just elevated mood and it mostly just lasts like 3 days or so. so i dont think it counts as hypomania. but thats wha #ill select bc i had one time that felt so fucking crazy it felt like there was something seriously wrong with me. it was fun tho #before i crashed so hard i had to leave work in the middle of the day bc i couldnt stop crying lol #anyway. im curious #menstruation #pmdd #pms #its always depression this depression that. why the fuck do i wanna run around in circles screaming until i die? riddle me that batman

[braindamaged007]

#it do be like that #mentally unstable #mentally fucked #mentally exhausted #it do be that way #mental disorder #mental health #trauma #truama be like #bpd problems #bpd sucks #bpd meme #bpd #bipolar disorder #being autistic #possibly autistic #actually autistic #autism #adhd brain #adhd #adhd life #memes #lol memes #dark comedy #darkhumourmemes #dark memes #dank humor #dark humor #dank memes #meme

[aropride]

i'm doing great actually never been better i could kill god i'm doing incredible i've never been scared in my life. tune in later tonight when i start talking about how fucking bad i'm doing. does anyone know what the reason for a rapidly shifting view of my current mental state would be cuz i have genuinely no clue how i'm doing

#text #im not bipolar i'm just microdosing being fucking insane and then also intense intense urges to get really into bad coping #mechanisms again #cuz like bipolar mania is like. a week at least to like several months right? i'm not doing that i'm doing something different. anfd faster #wait i didnt explain why i said that cuz like i Know that sounds like mania But its not cuz like . its faster #and not as intense id ont think as mania would be #Well its probably fine i'll be back to normal in a couple hours and then i'll be doing really bad again which is fine #when iw as like 10 i thought i was bipolar but it wasnjust cuz i didnt know that 'feeling happy sometimes' was still possible with #depression. like ithgouht if i was happy ever i couldbt be depressed. because i was 10 and didnt know anything #WHATEVER i'm fine i need to do my homrwork

[mayasdeluca]

I don’t know if any of you watch A Million Little Things but that episode just wrecked me. I can’t remember the last time I cried so much at an episode of TV 😭

#a million little things #can't believe next week is the last episode ever #such a good show #also the wlw ship discussed having a baby and one of them has bipolar disorder #and brought up possibly passing the gene to the baby #and i thought of the anons on here who always bring that up...they would've loved the convo

[kirks-slutty-red-tights]

whats up gamers. i dont think its a good sign for my mental health that one small negative interaction with a stranger online that i dont even know or care about has made me go from Whimsical Happy Joyous Silly Nothing Can Go Wrong to The World Is Ending And It's My Fault.

i think i hauve bye polar discorder

#ollievores little ramble time #vent post #tw vent #mental illness #possibly #maybe bipolar?? #not sure #autistic

[cherryredmistakes]

Mania is fun I guess but sometimes I forget how freeing and comforting depression and mood swings are

I can truly dive in to my madness and not feel the need to stop it or “fix myself” I can just simply be

I can sleep, I can eat or not eat

I have control now

#mental illness #girlblogging #girl blogger #girlblogger #severe depressive disorder #depressive episode #possible bipolar #possible bpd #manic #manic depression #manic episode #xoxo gray #grays diary

[valerijworlds]

Is it just me or are the people with the most terrifying cruelest intrusive thoughts the same people who'd literally Cry if a bug got smashed? (It's me, im the people with the most terrifying cruelest intrusive thoughts who cries when a bug gets smashed)

#im not even talking some pretty summer bugs im talking straight up roaches #and rainworms. those ve been making me broken every time it rains since forever #ocd #intrusive thoughts #even the possibility of a bug getting smashed somewhere.. even the Possibility #bipolar

[dog-girl-zezora]

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#personal #hey guys i forgot i was bipolar for a little while #im trying to take this as like. positive as possible. #just because i am showing signs of past behavior does not mean i have not grown #i cope better. i am stronger now. the feels are the same but i am better i know i am #... but it does still hurt just as bad #its hard to argue with a feeling #the feeling hurts and makes your brain try to agree with it. until you cant argue that its wrong #its always. wrong. #i am bigger than my emotions i am worth more than the sadness my chest feels #it will pass and i will be okay very soon #I am loved. #... i love you.

[cherrysnax]

okay this is meant to be said with no like judgement or anything. my mom hasn’t showered for an extensive amount of time. weeks. maybe months. how do I help her? is there anything I can do to help her or like. should we just let her be

#it’s getting to the point where my little brother and my cat are having reactions to her #my cat. #and she has bipolar depression so be kind #I may not like the bitch but this is very morally neutral #I just think she’d feel better if she showered or bathed #she says she can’t even look at herself in the mirror because she’s so disgusted by herself #and idk if it’s physical or mental but it’s bad #my older brothers also don’t shower #but I don’t care about them #but yeah I get not showering. my hygiene is the first to tank when im depressed but like. it’s been a month #maybe. I don’t have a good grasp on time #my mom will prolly get mad or cry if I bring it up to her so I. wanna be as gentle as possible

[finalcreacher]

shoutout to the girlies that has either bpd or bipolar but none are properly being treated cause even your psych isn't fully sure what the root cause of it is so you might be coming down from a hypomanic episode but you feel weird telling people that cause you aren't officially diagnosed with anything that would have that so you're just constantly in this awkward state of being

#vent #not exactly a vent but???? #bpd #bipolar ii #like my psych thinks it might be bp to some extent cause of my family history #but she also sees my concerns and understanding of myself through the possibility of bpd #so were just like.... keep a watch on all this #ANYWAYS #entirely spurred on from being on the come down of what others always say is manic behavior / typical of a manic episode soooo....

[braindamaged007]

#oh god oh fukck ohoogd #oh my god #social anxiety #social issues #social problems #anxitey #anxious #mentally unstable #mentally exhausted #mentally fucked #bipolar disorder #actually bipolar #bpd meme #adhd brain #adhd life #adhd #being autistic #actually autistic #autistic feels #possibly autistic #lol memes #sorry lol #lol #lololol #meme #memes #dank humor #dank meme #dankmemes #relatable memes

[kenobihater]

goddamnit. am i actually having a sexuality epiphany because i'm recognizing myself in a fictional cringefail vampire man. you gotta be kidding me

#in my defense being both on the ace spectrum AND hypersexual is a bit of a confusing thing to experience #maybe i'll feel different abt it later but for rn i think that explains a LOT #for real this explains why i don't care about sex 90% of the time but when i do it's like going 0 to 100 in .2 seconds #oh my god. oh my fucking god i used to think gray asexuality was silly bc 'everyone feels that way' oh my GOD i'm a fucking idiot #head in hands bro. cannot believe i was that fucking stupid as a teenager. i was THAT CLOSE to getting it 😮‍💨 #i should talk to my therapist abt this... i haven't talked to anyone abt my hypersexuality ever bc its such a stigmatized symptom but damn #i'm not gonna blame my bipolar for this or anything but damn did it make this possible answer SO much more obscured in my mind #like... damn. i feel so flabbergasted by this #i keep saying damn in the tags. dude this revelation has rendered me without the proper words to convey my emotions......... #i'm gonna be fine but rn i feel all kinds of off kilter from this realization. and i'm still doubting it even so! but it would make SO much #sense!!!!!! ugh i haven't questioned any aspect of my sexuality in earnest in years i genuinely forgot how much it sucks #like yeah there's relief maybe? but also just confusion and annoyance abt my past blindness #god. this is a huge tag ramble i think i'm gonna stop talking now #len speaks