#poison in my veins

[poison-in-my-pen]

A Piece of Mine

A/N: After watching S10: Epi 21 and then rewatching S10: Epi 4. A thought came to me, how would Dante's girlfriend react to seeing his unbounded rage?

The car ride home was quiet. I gazed at the images out of the passenger side window that was blurred by the rain. Was I overreacting? I’ve never seen him enraged like this before and it unleashed a hurricane in my head that he doesn’t know about, whose name I haven’t thought about until this moment. Dante’s stoicism, his gentle voice, his shyness, his vulnerability, his pensive stares, it all endeared me to him. But was all of that a facade to counter the rage that lived beneath the surface of his being? Was my judgment clouded because of it? I should've seen it, why didn't I see it? I’ve been here before, but this was not then, Dante is the complete opposite of him, or is he? 

"Babe, let me explain." His voice pulled me from my melancholy reverie. He reached out and rested his hand on my knee. 

I instinctively pushed his hand away, “don’t touch me.”

The acid in my voice caught us both off guard, I felt him stiffen next to me and my anger rushed forth like a tsunami wave because how dare he flinch when I just saw him bring a man twice his size down to his knees, hands in prayer as if Dante was his God begging for mercy. How dare he!

“Everything was a lie.”

“I never lied to you.”

“How did I miss this? How could I have been so stupid?”

“Babe, please.”

“You never get angry, you don’t raise your voice, not once when most people react, you just…I shrugged and trailed off. “How can someone as shy as you have this level of rage inside of them?”

He pointed at himself, “I never said I was shy, you assumed that because of my quiet nature. I’m a guy, all guys have different levels of aggression, it all comes down to how you choose to deal with that pent up anger. The gym, boxing is the way I release most of that energy and you are never around to see it, so I understand why you’re reacting like this.”

I scoffed, “you can’t possibly understand how I feel. Have you ever killed anyone with your bare hands?”

His fingers tightened on the steering wheel, “anyone can kill another with their bare hands.”

“I’m not talking about anyone, Dante, I’m talking about you? Have you killed a man with your bare hands?”

He looked at his hands for a beat, his eyes flashed over to me piercing my own before they turned back to the road. His expressive eyes spoke sentences, but his lips replied with one word. “No.”

“But you could?”

“Any cop can, anyone in law enforcement can, man or woman.”

“Again with the deflecting.”

I gazed out the window watching his reflection as the car stopped and he turned off the engine. He closed his eyes and rolled his neck to the right,  the way he does when he becomes exasperated, then to his left; he opened his eyes and exhaled. He turned to me and unhooked my seatbelt. I opened the car door, stepping out before he had the chance to open his door and get to my door. He hated when I opened my own door and I slammed it shut knowing it would add to his exasperation that was building. 

I didn’t have the key, so I waited as he opened the door to our apartment. I stepped in front of him, kicked off my shoes and continued down the hall, feeling his presence behind me as he followed me into the bedroom. 

“You want the truth?”

“Yes.”

I had my back to him, he spun me around and took a step forward into my personal space and before my brain could relay the action to my body, he spoke, coolly “don’t move.” With his dark eyes fixed on my face, I felt the energy in the air shift as the heat from his body coalesced with the cold chill that escaped my core and scraped across my spine. 

I could taste the peppermint scent emitting from his lips, I felt myself sway hypnotically, one kiss would end this argument. 

“Are you afraid of me?” My breath hitched, my internal goddess hissed, yesssss. I shook my head. His lips brushed against my ear and I shivered, “I need to hear you say it. Remember, use your words.”

Those three words transported me to another time, our first time where he held me under a similar trance that I was unprepared for, where my body no longer belonged to me, but to him. 

I found my words hidden behind my ribcage. “No.”

“No, what?”

The air became thick.

My body hummed. 

“No, I’m not afraid of you.”

“Good.” He wrapped his hand around my neck and his thumb pressed lightly against my jugular, feeling my pulse hammer jacking against the pad of his thumb. “Yes, I can kill a man with my bare hands. When I was younger, I had this rage within me, an anger that made me lash out at any and everyone who looked at me the wrong way. Growing up the way I did, you never knew who would do you harm, so I had my guard up all the time and then I went to juvie.” He nudged my chin with his hand, “look at me.” I gazed at him, the green edges of his hazel eyes softened, “the rage you say you see is not the same rage that had a hold on me then. What you saw was rage controlled, I control it, it doesn’t control me. My psych eval says I’m nonreactive, which is true for the most part. There are situations like the one you saw tonight where I come close to the edge, but I will never step over. Now if someone did something to you or my mama,” he shrugs, “then who knows.” He dropped his hand to his side, “but, these are not the hands of a killer, these are the hands of your Danty, I’m the same man you met when you clumsily fell into my arms.” 

I laughed and he laughed as we both remembered that moment, the mood in the air shifted, the energy was still charged but it swung to the opposite direction.

This time I reached for him first, lifting his shirt and pulling the buckle to his belt. “I’m sorry for overreacting.”

His fingers trailed upwards under my dress, pulling my panties down to my ankle, he knelt down on his knees and lifted my leg over his shoulder, tossing my underwear across the room. He kissed my thigh, the warmth filled my apex. “Am I forgiven?”

I nodded. My eyes closed giving in to the sensation of his stubble against my inner thigh, his kisses stopped and my eyes flew open to find him staring up at me, “use your words.” 

“Yes, you are forgiven.” I said aloud.

He didn't have to speak his hazel eyes with the green edges became liquid gold, his fingers pushed against my opening and my warmth trickled onto his fingers. I moaned, grabbing his head. He lifted me up onto the edge of our bed, while he remained kneeled on the floor, his hands firmly pinned my wrists to my side, while his head was bowed at my altar.

“Dante, I screamed.

I could feel him smiling and I heard his voice in my head before he spoke.

“Use your words, baby.”  

Post note: Dante's character is a fun one to explore. Not guaranteed that I'll write more fics, but this was fun to write....

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[ninjachill339]

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#bayside #bayside music #poison in my veins #music #bands #band #march #2023 #lyrics #Youtube

[a-timeless-dimension]

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#this is why i dont try to feel my feelings anymore #its just hollowness surrounded by ??????????????????????????????????????????? #poison in my veins

[whumpypepsigal]

Nancy Drew s04e10: “Tristan doesn’t have a while, he has six hours to be exact.”

#whumpedit #nancydrewedit #nancy drew #whump #tristan glass #henry zaga #poisoned #collapse #pain #screaming #held #support #dark veins #groaning #heavy breathing #weak #worry #magical wound #my gifs #nancy drew spoilers #the first gif… i know it was a brief moment but nancy dressing him up for a sec there gave me a rush of whumperflies #i wished that scene was longer… caretaker dressing up a weak whumpee gets me weak every. time.

[aceofwhump]

"I am a serpent. Horse-biting…poison-toothed."

-The Sandman 1x04

#sandmanedit #the sandman #the sandman spoilers #the sandman netflix #dream of the endless #tom sturridge #whumpedit #1x04 #mod post #my gifs #snakebite #poisoned #dark veins #bloodshot eyes

[one-way-dream]

man. it is really funny when people say "ohhhh taylor swift can't fly commercial there will be too much chaos and attention :( it's just not possible" Yes She Fucking Can.

one of my parents has been working as a security screening officer at an international airport for the past 20+ years and you know what they do when celebrities (with a fanbase 2x or 3x the size of her own) show up for commercial flights? they go about business as usual.

yes there are a handful of people that ooh and ahh and yes some want autographs, but most of the time people are just trying to keep things moving and are too preoccupied with catching their own flight and simply aren't interested in getting arrested for harassing a celebrity. and, let's be honest, i'm sure taylor is old enough to take care of herself and know when someone is bothering her too much.

she has literally no excuse. she does not need a private jet that coughs up pollution that's worth a small country. get a grip.

#might be playing with fire here but i am at my limit with these takes like. do you think shes the only one dude #the private jet-ification for millionaires and billionaires is injecting straight poison into the veins of this planet #and you want disabled people to make do with paper straws that barely serve their purpose??? #tax these fucking people for once and then see how much they love their joyrides like holy shit dude #anyway. sorry #tee.xt

[neuromantis]

there's a point to me saying that i am not a good person. that i am damaged and unlikeable and insane and toxic. that i did absolutely terrible shit to a lot of people.

and every time people deny it, i wonder why, because it's true.

but also every time people deny it, it hurts like hell.

i want someone to finally see me. i want someone to stop trying to make me feel better about it by denying it. because that's the absolute truth. and you denying it makes me feel like shit.

i want someone to finally see me for me and love me even if i am broken or evil or whatever.

because i am so done with people in denial. because the person who keeps telling me all these things, that i am smart, that i am sane, that i am kind, that i am beautiful, that i am strong, that i am good, no, more than good, actually "perfect"... that person fucking makes me vomit in my mouth. how can he claim to know me and love me "despite everything" if he won't even accept who i actually am? if he doesn't know a thing about me?

#i tried telling him that i am a schizophrenic. you know what he said? ''you can't be! you're so reliable and so smart and so sane!'' #''someone must have fooled you because the doctors are so evil and you're so pure and innocent so you believe them'' #and maybe i am that to you because you still intend to use me #but anyone with eyes would see clearly. that i am NONE of these things #i am so tired of people seeing what they want to see and trying to push that on me #i'd kill for a person to tell me ''i get it. and you are broken. and you are a monster. but i still love you'' #because denial... insistence on me being Good just sounds like his words just like that terrible poison in my veins #and that only counts him... but being worshipped as a goddess of everything Right and Good just because he wants to fuck me... #just makes me want to vomit. just makes me want to fucking kill him and myself

[redrumrecords]

TAKE A PEEK: SIN DANYI AT FANSIGNS !! | [ENHYPEN 8TH MEMBER]

✧ SEATING POSITION:

Somehow she always ends up between Heeseung and Jay or Jungwon and Sunoo. Is usually in the first few seats in the lineup that Engenes would greet.

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✦ HER MOST ASKED QUESTIONS:

"Are there any genres or styles of music you'd like to explore in the future?"

"Any upcoming projects or collaborations that you're excited about?"

"Do you have a favorite track from your discography?"

"What inspired you to write [SONG NAME]?"

"Who's your bias in Enhypen/[GROUP NAME]?"

"What's a good song recommendation?"

"Is there a specific artist you would love to collaborate with in the future?"

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✧ MOST PROMINENT GIFTS:

Glasses!

Heartfelt Letters ♡♡

Foreign Foods/Drinks!! [Her favorite gifts to get if she had to choose]

Funny little headbands; usually it's animal-related.

Photocards of groups she's said she likes.

She will refuse to take them but Engenes are insistent.

She's gotten a lot more face chains and jewelry in the last few comebacks.

A few Engenes have given her games for her Nintendo Switch or other gaming consoles

Another item she will refuse or jokingly pout at but will accept and she promises to post whenever she plays them!

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✦ HER DEDICATED FAN CAMERA:

Best believe she will spot them in any crowd no matter the size. Always points to herself first to make sure they're filming or taking pictures of her. Might try and pull whoever is next to her into a photo or two. Likes playing jokes or jokingly refuses to do some poses but will do them anyway.

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✧ INTERACTIONS WITH ENGENES:

⚬ THOSE GREETING HER: It's like reuniting with a childhood friend! Absolutely lives for fans who tell her about their lives and any gossip or tea that is happening. The vibe is increased tenfold about that when she's next to Sunoo; they are known as a gossip duo. Is fully willing to do fan service but does draw the line with some actions that would make her uncomfortable. When given gifts she jokingly hoards them so the staff won't take them. If she's been given food or any drinks she will offer some to the Engenes who greet her throughout the day. On occasion, it will be something she doesn't like or has things she is allergic to but she doesn't want them to go to waste so she gives them to those who would enjoy them! Makes sure to spot the Engenes who give her accessories to wear so they can take their pictures of her wearing them!

⚬ THOSE IN QUEUE WAITING: When she has gaps between Engenes she'll write on pieces of paper and show them. Usually, it will be the typical questions of if they've had anything to eat or drink, or if they were hot where they were waiting. Other times it will be fun little 'ice-breaker' questions. If she looks in the crowd and sees signs or fans holding their phones toward her after confirming they're filming her so she doesn't feel stupid she'll do a few little poses or write back answers on blank paper if it's nearby. Does lil games of rock, paper, scissors or cham cham cham!

#; ─── DRUNK ON YOUR POISON IN MY BLOOD VEINS || [ENHYPEN ADDITION] #; ─── DRUNK ON YOUR POISON IN MY BLOOD VEINS || [ENHYPEN 8TH MEMBER] #➴. ─── EVEN WHEN YOURE NOT HERE YOURE HERE | [EXTRA EXTRA PRODUCTIONS] #➴. ─── HELP HER SHE’S DYING FROM HEARING THE TRUTH! | [REDRUM RECORDS] #enhypen 8th member #enhypen addition #fictional kpop company #fictional idol community #fictional kpop community #kpop group addition #oc group addition

[bogkeep]

obviously i did a Block & Delete but several weeks ago i got an ask accusing me of spending hundreds of dollars on tumblr checkmarks, which is just funny and plain wrong. what i actually spend hundreds of dollars on is life size giant salamander plushie

#i mean it was euros but it's all the same to me. sorry i didn't solve world hunger #the fact that it's been weeks and i keep coming up with with witty and self-justifying replies in my head is the internet poison coursing #through my veins #YES i got most of my checkmarks in exchange for sketch commissions #but also yes i make several frivolous purchases because i can do so and i wish to enjoy my life. #choosing what i do with my own money is actually very important to me! #i'm not a CEO!!! im a student and previously hotel receptionist!!!!

[postalninja]

Hey Ninja! For your ao3 wrapped ask :)

15) What WIP are you taking into next year with you?

20) Which work of yours have you reread the most?

29) Favorite line/passage you wrote this year?

15 - All of them? *weeps* Listen, this was not the year for finishing WIPs, unfortunately. But I did get closer to the end of The Head That Wears The Crown... albeit that final chapter continues to give me le struggle. Hoping to make some more progress on it in the next three weeks, but I'm not holding out hope of finishing it before 2024. 20 - If we're talking specifically works that I've written this year, then probably either Memories Seep From My Veins or The Sweetest Poison. It's hard to say, though, because I do tend to reread my fics multiple times, and those are both somewhat recent but particular favorites of mine. 29 - I think I'm going to pick something as yet unpublished! A tiny snippet from one of the handful of scenes I have down for chapter 29 of THTWTC: The colored glass cast an ethereal quality over the conflict, rendering the slaughter into a kaleidoscope of violence. The trampled snow was pink in some places, blue in others, the blood of those slain a deep purple upon the multi-hued pastel landscape.

#answering asks #ao3 wrapped 2023 #not my most prolific year for fic #but i did a ton of writing for school so that's why! #myth blossom #the head that wears the crown #memories seep from my veins #the sweetest poison

[poison-in-my-pen]

Urge to write Kang fanfics.

Anyone interested in reading them?

#poisoned pen #poison in my pen #poison in my veins #poisoned ink #fantasy fiction #marvel fanfiction #fan fiction #avengers fanfiction #poisoned veins #fanfic #marvel fandom #kang the conqueror #Kang the conqueror fan fic #Kang the conqueror fanfiction #nathaniel richards #Nathaniel richards fan fic #Nathaniel richards fanfiction

[ear-motif]

made a stupid mistake at work yesterday and now i think im going to crawl into a hole and die

#I MISS MY OLD ADDERALL MAN THIS STUFF AINT DOING SHIT FOR MY RSD #like i know its irrational to be emotionally paralyzed by one mistake but its v hard to stop #it feels like there is poison in my veins ! #delete later #thats the lizard brain

[whumpypepsigal]

Nancy Drew s04e10: “Seems like he’s gonna be okay.”

#whumpedit #nancydrewedit #whump #nancy drew #tristan glass #henry zaga #poisoned #dark veins #pain #screaming #heavy breathing #black eyes #eyes #magical healing #weak #hand holding #support #comfort #cared for #my gifs #nancy drew spoilers #this whole episode asdfffgghhkkllll so so good #*intense whumperflies* #think there are three more episodes left of this last season #so i wish they give us ace whump as good as tristans pretty pleeeeeease

[ramiraez-a]

𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐞𝐜𝐭 𝐪𝐮𝐨𝐭𝐞𝐬 : 𝐦𝐢𝐜𝐤𝐢 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐥𝐥 . ( @cordelliism )

-- 𝘮𝘶𝘵𝘶𝘢𝘭𝘴 𝘮𝘢𝘺 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘵 / 𝘳𝘦𝘣𝘭𝘰𝘨 --

#┆༺☆༻ ┆ — clever as hell and she’ll eat you alive ⌗ 𝘤𝘰𝘳𝘥𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘪𝘪𝘴𝘮 . #┆༺☆༻ ┆ — the days of our delights are poison in my veins ⌗ 𝘷𝘪𝘴𝘢𝘨𝘦 . #┆༺☆༻ ┆ — my palms and fingers still reek of gasoline ⌗ 𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘢𝘱𝘣𝘰𝘰𝘬 . #answered tbt . #headcanon tbt .

[horrorofthebeast]

"generational curses were broken the moment I turned to God my mind is sound and Jesus is truly the way to salvation and eternal life. I can only pray that the Spirit of God reveals tge truth to you in due time and make you whole in Jesus name! I fell asleep, but stay blessed!"

#'i fell asleep' #this is me after i asked him if he read/watch my sources #im not going to talk to this guy any longer keeps using bible verses as 'evidence' that schiz people are because they dont believe in God #ive told him countless times that i do not believe in his religion #oh boy this stuff goes so deep in the veins. whole system has gotten use to the poison

[redrumrecords]

TAKE A PEEK: BASIC OVERVIEW OF HER PERSONAL PHONE  |  SIN DANYI [ENHYPEN]

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THE PHONE:

TYPE + MODEL: iPHONE 14 

COLOR: Light Grey/White

CASE: A simple clear case with a parallel black and white eye pattern is her usual go-to for her cases !! Additionally, she has a fully clear case where she likes to put polaroid photos or photocards of her friends.

EXTRA: N/A

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HER LOCKSCREEN + BACKGROUND:

Her family dog Gizmo !!

They adopted him from a family friend when she and her family moved back to Vancouver before she and her family permanently moved to Seoul, South Korea.

Gizmo lives with her family while she lives at the dorm with the boys.

Whenever she is sad or having a hard time she likes to Facetime her parents to see him.

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One of the last photos she took with former I-LAND participant Sakura while the two were filming for the show !!

The two are the closest out of the seven female trainees throughout the whole show.

She occasionally changes the home screen between this photo and a couple other ones that they've taken or she has taken while out on adventures during free days.

She HATES a cluttered home screen.

Has most of her apps categorized into a respective folder; besides the main ones used on her first home screen.

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LOCKSCREEN + BACKGROUND TEMPLATE CREDITS: All credit goes to @/hosiieok on DeviantArt !!

#; ─── DRUNK ON YOU POISON IN MY BLOOD VEINS || [ENHYPEN ADDITION] #; ─── DRUNK ON YOU POISON IN MY BLOOD VEINS || [ENHYPEN 8TH MEMBER] #➴. ─── HELP HER SHE'S DYING FROM HEARING THE TRUTH! | [REDRUM RECORDS] #➴. ─── EVEN WHEN YOURE NOT HERE YOURE HERE | [EXTRA EXTRA PRODUCTIONS] #fictional idol community #fictional kpop community #fictional kpop company #oc group addition #kpop oc group addition #kpop group addition #enhypen addition #enhypen 8th member