#poetry: how does it feel

[trainingdummyrabbit]

maybe we'll try again next time.

#pikart #projmoon #(LONG TAGS..) i talk a lot about that latter part of poems of a machine but the first chorus never fails to break my heart too #i can never remember what ive talked about and what i havent so ill do it again anyway. #specifically the line 'so here i lie; reading you my poetic stupid rhymes.' especially in conjunction with the very first lyric. #all this built up... mess and madness; concepts of impossible scope and importance for just a few words. #its the desire to express a truth outside of your reach. to tentatively try to identify; to speak; and only managing so much. #clumsy; basic; small; but it still holds a piece of your heart anyway. its not enough; but its real; its tangible; and thus important. #am i making sense? its the first steps into writing poetry / into self expression / into self acceptance / into healing and growing. #and the implication these words are being shared; despite all of this; despite all of Her. augh. #i really do think a lot about th stark difference btwn her Knowledge and her Experience. how she feels she Should function vs how she Does. #knowing how something should be vs how it Is. yknow. #anyway Oops ! Lyric Rambling In The Tags Again ! <33

[carlyraejepsans]

I’ve started watching Utena because of you. What. Is going on

HI. WELCOME TO THE CLUB, watch the trigger warnings. but yeah, revolutionary girl utena veers more and more towards surrealism the further you get into the series. it often and voluntarily forfeits narrative/logical consistency in favor of visual storytelling, metaphors and symbolism. i was just talking about it with nic the other day, and if the story weren't so harrowing, i would recommend it to everyone who wants to get into literary analysis, because it is SO packed with symbolism EVERYWHERE that it actually encourages you to try to decode it.

whatever you think utena is about, it is NOT. you can't go in and treat it like your 49293th classical shoujo. utena is a firework show of visual symbolism and it very rarely, if ever, explains itself to the viewer. it refuses to handhold you, but it never berates you for trying and getting it wrong either. there is SO much handholding in modern day media, but utena trusts its viewer to take away something meaningful from itself and to piece its message together on their own. it's one of my favourite pieces of media of all time just for that

#it's almost closer to a poem and to poetry than to a story in the sense that we think think about today #you see why ye standard transformative fandom was never able to take hold with utena? #my suggestion is try to actively analyze what's going on and the symbols presented to you as you go along #find recurring motifs. utena deals a LOT with cycles and repetition (they were playing into their budget limitations and did it brilliantly #what objects keep returning. what characters are they associated with. how do they relate to the irl systems of power the story criticizes #what does the white rose mean #^ had a lot of fun trying to figure that one out. i landed on something other people in the fandom also got but then nic told me his take #and yeah they basically pried my third eye open with a crowbar. #this anime made me want to try out symbolism and allegories in my own works #it's so fucking good #but hey if you finish it and still feel like you didn't get 90% of that you can go to nic metanarrates' blog and check out his rgu tag #basically 50% of the fandom posts are visual and narrative analysis. the other 10% is breathtaking art. the remaining 40% is memes #BUT! wait until you're finished..watch for spoilers #rgu #answered asks

[jazzyjesse]

scary messes me up so bad because its like looking at an old photo of myself.

shes a teenage girl. shes pulling away from her interests. she just wants someone to Care. she feels unseen. she doesn't to have to care anymore. she's scared. she feels worthless. she just wants an adult to care about her. she's convinced herself her friends hate her. her only worth is based on her skills and she can't ever do anything right.

she's a teenage girl.

#kitty talks #dndads #dungeons and daddies #scary marlowe #beth may #i just finished episode 31... #i was scary marlowe #i want to play soccer with her and she'll make fun of how bad i am #i want to sit her down and show her that it really does get better #i want to show her my poetry and my scars and tell her that im still here and she can be too #i just feel a lot about this character

[saw5]

SOPHIE was one of the most talented people of her decade idgaf

#the way her music makes me feel and the extent to which it does is like incomparable to anything else i listen to rn #i could write poetry about the feeling the experience the vibe #how many nights i've spent dancing in my room to it feeling both like some sort of robotalien and more in my body than i ever do outside #of the cathedrals and clubs SOPHIE builds

[littlestwritings]

i just found this from december. somewhat clumsily worded but i think it’s another example of me, out of practice, just trying to get my feelings down as quickly/directly as i could and not being able to face going back to edit, but it’s sweet to see

#and it is helpful #it does help me remember how i was feeling when i wrote it #writing #poetry #my writing

[incaelos]

mama pours me tea, and it brings tears to my eyes for the second time that night; her cruelty and her kindness both maim me. her kindness because I can’t hate her, not fully. and her cruelty because I can't love her fully either.

#mother daughter relationships are so complex sometimes #I think about this quote so often #how can you get over this kind of bond? #and to feel this way yet know that the daughter does not escape the mother experience anyway #poetry

[ante--meridiem]

Extremely confidence boosting to me that every time I've read my poetry out loud in public at least one person has come up to me afterwards to say they like it. More confidence boosting than people telling me I'm good at anything else which usually just feels very awkward because poetry is something I don't feel I can self evaluate at all because I know how easy it is for something to accidentally come out cliched/overwrought.

#personal #this sounds like a brag and I guess I can't say it isn't but it does feel very reassuring #context here is roommate talked me into reading something for a poetry reading thing he organised #which was mostly a bad time because the room was extremely overstimulating & very little of it was in English #(which to be clear: I don't expect everyone to cater to English speakers or anything. it's just that roommate assuring me I'd understand #enough to make it worth it was integral to talking me into this) #(I now think he overestimated how much Swedish I speak) #(not enough to understand an even slightly complex poem that's for sure) #but people did like my poetry & that was a huge ego boost #enough different people have compliment various enough selections of poems I wrote on enougn occasions that I'm starting to think I might #actually be good at this #which is dangerous. stop boosting my ego before I do something dumb like think I might be good enough to try publishing #< only half serious

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

start over/do-over/mulligan/repeat

I want to move out and learn to play bass

with nobody watching me

I want to grow up and stop being watched

I want to feel like I’m free

to be whatever and love what I want

to go where I want and be something I love

but mostly I just want to leave

to start over and relearn the things that I’ve loved

to re-make them my own

I want to move out and move on from this town

and be who I want, alone

with no one watching and no one who cares

I want to keep what I’ve lost to regain

to love what I love again

I want to grow up and leave something behind

but mostly I want to be shown

the way to live and how to love

and stop losing everything I own

I want to grow up and move out of this house

play an instrument for an audience of none

~ xoxo, Love yoU (when you’re not listening)

#i guess i’m just voicing how i feel about the way my brain works and my feelings work via the imagery of #I Can’t Fricking Learn To Play An Instrument With My Parents Looking Over My Shoulder #their interest and opinions in me and what i do make me not want to do it #my dad was going to teach me and the entire time we discussed this i was trying not to cry #i can’t learn things with someone watching over my shoulder i just want to teach myself!! give me a laptop with youtube and a practice amp #and i’ll be good i promise i’ll be good i don’t want to play how he does anyway!! i just want to teach mySELF to play bass 😭 #Lu rambles #Lu writes #sometimes i think i could write poetry #adulthood woes #alternative title: ‘’reset’’

[neptunesenceladus]

thinking about Themes and Motifs and how Tone can be conveyed through the layout of the page

#in other words: #thinking about dress rehearsals by Madison Godfrey #i want to say it’s really post modernist #in how it explores the self and how it conveys that with more than just prose #brilliant book if you ever feel like some poetry and prose that will rip you apart #i feel like rus and rowan would both enjoy it #many of the pieces are written in fractured lines which perfectly show in a visual way the feelings #photography teacher had us do an essay on wether art is defined by the artist or the audience #and i feel like godfrey does a really good job of telling you what they feel and mean by it #and then letting you decide what it makes you feel and means to you #so you get two definitions #the artists and the audiences #and each audience would have a different definition of it cause the stories it tell won’t apply to anyone #because of the theme of performing womanhood and sense of self #so some people will be looking through a window while reading it #while others are inside the room #which them makes me think of a room of one’s own essay/speech #which i need to reread #sorry for the essay in the notes #it’s cause i’m not confident about my own words to write and actual essay #en thinks thoughts #also this was supposed to be about how the work is typeset but i got so sidetracked #this is why my literature essays were never an a grade #i get too sidetracked

[britneyshakespeare]

Oh my God. People are reblogging a poem I wrote and posted when I was 15 years old lol.

#i have no idea how they found it #i saw someone liked it a few days ago and i was like. well weird but whatever #im not offended it's just a few extra notes #i keep my poetry blog at this point bc it's a helpful archive for me to look back on a body of my work #heaven knows i don't really need the attention #and if i did... well id just be shit outta luck wouldn't i #tales from diana #it's a free verse i wrote and posted in january 2015. i was a sophomore in high school! #im just happy it was one of my 'i have undiagnosed mental illness' poems and not 'im hopelessly in love w that senior boy' ones #those were my 2 themes back then. at least that i knew how to write sincerely #it's not that that was ALL i had for range. but it was all i really cared about lol. #how detached i feel now from that shy baby poetess. strange! #i read those poems and i remember writing them very well but they don't feel like me. #now im at the age where im more mature and my sense of self is more stabilized #and ive written literally thousands of poems so very often the act of writing one does not feel significant to me. #i look through my notebooks from my 20s and im like 'i don't remember writing this but thats definitely me' #strange. never be an artist

[obstinaterixatrix]

also mom was running down some of the drama she’s been experiencing for years in her high school wechat group, and it is… astounding how terrible her self-proclaimed rival is at social chess. well first of all, they didn’t even know each other in high school? they weren’t in the same class? mom says they never talked before so she doesn’t know why this other woman is so obsessed with her, but this woman has been going to all of mom’s close friends and sending messages just slandering mom’s character and talking about how mom’s obsessed with attention and a terrible person and whatever ANYWAY. oh, warning for death, but like, a while ago one of mom’s close friends had a husband who passed, and this lady offered mom’s friend condolences, and mom’s friend was like ? I don’t know this person? and a little bit after this lady asked mom’s friend to have lunch and this lady was like ‘oh you shouldn’t be friends with that woman’ blah blah and it’s just. HER HUSBAND DIED????? YOU’RE TRASHING THIS WOMAN’S FRIEND TO HER FACE AFTER HER HUSBAND DIED???? AND SHE DOESN’T KNOW YOU???? AND HER HUSBAND *JUST* DIED????? and she keeps doing this too, like, going to mom’s close friends and trying to get them against mom but since they’re *mom’s close friends* they just send screenshots of the convo to mom and go like ‘hey so this happened’. she even, like, had a dinner or something with people and made them swear to never talk to mom ever again (one of the people there immediately messaged mom with a picture of everyone there and A DIFFERENT guy had lunch with mom on a trip to the US) (mom directly confronted him like ‘so what about the promise to never speak to me again’) (LMAO???) anyway this lady’s high school ex is apparently one of the heads of the organizers for the high school group (?) and mom had a dinner with him a while ago so she’s apparently holding onto a photo of them meeting up in case she, and I quote, “wants to toss a bomb into the groupchat”

#my ramblings #I actually don’t know if this is the same woman who just randomly started attacking dad #anyway another way she was bad at social chess #was one of mom’s friends does poetry #and I think one of them references mom’s record at the high jump #I think because after she graduated they stopped doing high jump #so Mom Has The Record Forever #but anyway she apparently messages him like ‘how could you write that it hurt my feelings so so bad’ #‘if I ever did anything to hurt you can’t we work it out’ etc #and he was SO pissed he messaged mom immediately #I think a lot of mom’s friends tend to either wait a while or wait until they’re in person to bring it up #but he was just SO mad #anyway SHE’S SOOOOO BAD AT SOCIAL CHESS SHE’S REALLY REALLY BAD AT IT #WHY PLAY AGAINST A LOSING GAME????? #well we’ll probably never know why this woman’s insanely jealous over mom #death ment /// #long post #well more like a text wall but w/e

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

rereading the worst scene I have ever written in my entire life and why did harrison have to drag lonan so hard here:

The sound of Lonan’s voice is like crashing into a concrete wall.

#this is a simile that in my poetry workshop we might say isn't quite symmetrical enough #BUT IS IT FUNNY YEAH #not that I care to critique the line because literally not the point of this book but since we're here and I mentioned the symmetrical thin #LET'S TALK ABOUT IT BC IT'S ONE OF THE ONLY THINGS I LIKED #ABOUT MY POETRY WORKSHOPS (this is a joke if my prof ever sees this) #anyway so basically entails having a simile where the comparison doesn't feel quite accurate to what it's describing #that can entail accuracy in tone size etc #like for example here it's hard to grasp how a voice can BE like crashing into a wall #bc the senses here aren't quite symmetrical (hearing the sound of a voice VS feeling or seeing something crash) #ANYWAY not saying I don't think it works it's just a neat thing I learned that I actually do like and think you can use #intentionally too....... but I'd never thought of the symmetricality (? lmao) of similes before #& I think it's made them stronger #a revision could be adding a verb that makes the simile more congruent btw #like “HEARING lonan's voice is like crashing into a wall” etc bc the verb hearing is symmetrical with the “image” (in this case sound) #that a crash makes..... anyway this has helped me when i'm like why tf does this simile not work #ANYWAY RANDOM CRAFT CHAT IN THE TAGS AS WE LAUGH AT LONAN HAHAHA YOUR BOYFRIEND HATES U etc

[nowandthane]

female cousland x cailan "wildest dreams"

taking requests for poetry <3

a figure turns the corner her face veiled by shadow a visiting shade come to haunt these halls she trespasses on my dreams and they turn to nightmare i cannot have her

thanks for the prompt!

#whoops i feel like this went angstier than 'wildest dreams' implied i am sorry #its cause my old hof was a cousland who had a thing with cailan and this was based on that #dragon age #dao #cailan theirin #cailan x cousland #cousland #my poems #dragon age poems #poetry asks #asks #anonymous #idk how well im doing with these prompts but it does feel good to just make myself write again #so thanks again <3

[benevolenterrancy]

Odd, for as weird as it seems... Klink probably belongs better within the realm of Napoleon rather than that of the 2nd World War. But even then... Let's say Klink wears a Prussian Uniform, and Hogan and gang in their nations respective uniforms from the era... Honestly I can't imagine how that would go. Because think of it, Technically Newkirk is allied with Klink and Schultz, with LeBeau being aligned with Hogan, Carter, and Kinchloe....

But weird Napoleonic geopolitics aside, the uniforms themselves would look very dashing.

tbh i have NO knowledge about historical uniforms of basically any shape or form but i do enjoy this concept, absolutely adore people using their niche interests to create the wildest and coolest au's. you're so right about klink...

#hogan's heroes #newkirk #peter newkirk #corporal newkirk #klink #wilhelm klink #colonel klink #tbh please expand on this i'd love to read more #i remember studying how military poetry changed pre- and post-wwi and honestly klink feels almost like he embodies that concept #like the difference between the charge of the light brigade and dulce et decorum est #he's someone living in the era of the latter but has the mentality of the former and it sure does mix into a ridiculous cowardly slurry huh #i'm not sure if that makes a lick of sense but there's my stream of conscious while i'm also trying to concentrate of dnd #these uniforms are probably comically wrong but c'est la vie #my art

[pansypr3p]

you are not free from the beauty and wonder and comfort of the world just because you are afraid of it you are not free from the happy moments no matter how desperate and hungry you may be you are not free from experiencing the beauty of everything just because you are so focused on you and them and us and we you are not fucking free from the everpresent hope that resounds around you you are. not. free. not from it. no matter how dystopian or bleak or depressing or hard or horrible or terrifying or angering or disgusting. you arent fucking free. from the beauty. of the world. let it comfort you. you seek it from everyone and everything but the thing that can give it to you: yourself. you can accept you will not escape the wonder or the beauty or the comfort. if you keep running in search of the beauty, the wonder, the comfort, it may be you never find it was right behind you. like a dog on your heels. it wants you to see it. it wants you to accept it. like you want to be accepted. the world and yourself are your first friends. please pay them a visit for me.

#poetry #fired this off in like 5 minutes. i feel a little crazy right now i had to right something #my point. is that there is always something in you and around you #not another person #that will give you comfort #other people and your relationships are beautiful and comforting and wonderful #but they will never save you like you and the world can #dont be you vs the world #i dunno #does anyone understand this #writing #words #etc #hope #also sorry for the weird punctuation that is legit just how i write #i could edit it but it doesnt feel right . so um