#please. i just want my meds :(

[medi-bee]

These are the guys who have total martial control over the center of the galaxy? are you sure?

#my art #spore #grox #spore game #3 foot tall fucked up alien cats #grox really just walk around like O_O . in PUBLIC #i wish spore fanfic was more popular i want to read about their space society. who said that #kicking my feet and spinning and smiling while thinking about alien biology and culture again #im not arguing with an alien with giant baby doe eyes. whatever you say beautiful #hey. gamer grox that bullies and gets bullied by other alien gamers. but that’s just a theory #they are like invader zim to me #have you guys actually listened to their voice files on the wiki #they’re sooo cool. like their voice boxes have been entirely replaced with cybernetics #with ​the glitches and stutters. honestly deserves more attention #if i had meds it'd be over for all of you #ignore my insane notes please #space playstation (completely normal playstation but drawn from memory) #trying to get a feel for how i want to draw these freaks #i say. like i have plans to draw them again #whatever maybe i just wanted to draw little guys. that doesnt mean im going to make a grox oc or anything #wipes sweat off brow #the internet is so crazy you can just draw whatever and post it. and sometimes people will even like it

[having-conniptions]

Trying to put my feelings for Tommy Kinard into a post but all I can manage to put into words is AAAAAAAAAARGHHH and PLEASE and THANK YOU and then AAAAAAAAAARGHHH again

#im over here like marry me destroy me hold me gently throw me around smile at me just once please or give me that intense stare #i want to explode into stardust #i swear if i get adhd meds and they make me feel stuff less intensely i dont want them #bc my brain is so deliciously stimulated by everything thats going on up in there rn #911 abc #911 spoilers #bucktommy #tommy kinard

[moeblob]

im still very sick and lets just say it aint goin well.

(please let me be healthy soon)

#i couldnt think of anyone to draw of my ocs or fanart or whatever #so i just drew me staring into the distance with my really red nose from blowing it so much. #woe is me guys i hurt all over #and i messed up with pain meds because WHY do we have two different looking bottles of ibuprofen with different labels and pills #and then also tylenol off brand #i thought i was alternating between advil and tylenol but nah im just taking dose after dose #of ibuprofen yesterday and now im having chest pains which i dont think are related #but the breathing pains on top of my back pains on top of my wheezing and coughing throat pains are like please i need meds #i want to not be miserable by christmas #how have i been with my parents for like 4 days and all of them have been me being v sick

[xysidhequeen]

Current count since I last slept: 41 hours.

I think I've capped out at 46 before, I'm not sure because my worst fit of insomnia had me in no position to check times. But I'll say 46. So if we hit 48 we're setting personal records!

#i do not want to actually be awake #my body just physically cant process stress #'oh zee why cant you be in a car?' #this. this is why #and you might think: 'oh this cant be because you were in a car!' #it is. it so totally is #and also stress #but mostly i blame being in a car #everytime i get in a car i get sick #motion sickness vertigo dizziness insomnia #my body is violently against automobiles #which is actually so annoying because i finally own one of my dream cars #and wanna know when i last drove my baby? #A YEAR AND FIVE FUCKING MONTHS AGO #Also please for the love of fuck do not suggest anything to help me sleep #i. have. tried. it. #when im dealing with insomnia like this the only way it stops is preceiotion strength meds or my body calms itself the fuck down #no teas no melatonin no meditating no lettuce water no hot milk NOTHING will work #and also even prescription strength meds dont always work when its like this i have woken up like two hours after taking some b4 #when my body doesnt want to sleep it will not sleep #you can tell how little sleep im running on based on how unhinged these tags are

[mattodore]

lovesick

#hi 👋 i have a hospital appointment in two hours that i'm nervous about so here i am in my screenshots folder staring at mattodore #i really shouldn't be typing rn but i'm. a ball of nerves. like actually keep me in your thoughts... like please. jsfdhnkj #also i think i'm gonna start reblogging things untagged here for a little while........... bc like. #i really shouldn't be typing it fucks with my arms so bad..... i say as i'm typing #but ykwim like that's why i've just been avoiding tumblr lmao #um so if you for some reason care abt ppl not tagging reblogs of other people's sims content uh idk what to say bc i'm gonna do it anyway #so expect that from me until i (hopefully) get meds again #also............ i have not started editing theo's bday edit and it's literally tomorrow. Scream . #i finished the poses tho <3 but yeah... we laugh and cry #i want to say i'll just start editing after i get back from the hospital but. well. #it's okay tho bc if i'm late for theo's bday edit that's understandable bc of the Illness but also #matthias's bday edit was like a week late anyway so lmao #also no caption bc idk i can't think #wait nvm listen to this song #river dipping #ts4 #matthias evanoff #theodore doe #a burning house to live in #echthroi

[baconcolacan]

I refuse to believe Edward Eddsworld doesn’t have battle scars from being a cat dad

#neil talky #IM A CAT DAD #AND IM FULL OF SCARS AND SCRATCHES #Parmesan had that GALL the absolute CAJONES #TO FIGHT ME LIKE I WAS GONNA SKIN HIM ALIVE #BC IM GIVING HIM MEDICINE THATS GOOD FOR HIM BC YKNOW #HE BROKE HIS BONES???? #I was holding him so gently but he SLAPPED THE MEDS OUT OF MY HAND #then YOWLED #PLEASE my son this is goof for you I just want you to be well 😭😭😭

[peaches2217]

“I wanna come back when I’ve got some more fics done!” he says, then crawls back with absolutely nothing to show for her leave of absence

#not for lack or trying! I’ve gotten work done! just not… nearly as much as I wanted #but I miss everyone and isolating myself as a productivity measure is unhealthy #so uh. I’m back! and still quite useless! forgive me #but hopefully getting back into the swing of interacting with content now that I’m steady on my meds again will fan the flames! #which is to say #please don’t unfollow me just yet I’m working as hard and I’ll do my best to work harder as I can I promise #peaches screams into the void

[tuesdayinthedas]

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#days like this I wish i didnt just decide to raw dog life #i want anti anxiety meds so bad rn #i legit got 2 hours sleep #my body jept jerking me awake just as i was about to doze off #and all today nauseous #heart pounding #just put me down folks #please

[ask-faeddsworld]

*starts speaking animalise* (translation: would you guys want a peach?)

#mod tuna #ew fae au #eddsworld au #eddsworld fae au #by all accounts faeddsworld is on indefinite hiatus at the moment. all us mods are adults with lives #and having to do all the art myself was really taking a toll on me especially those damn comics? good lird #BUT I DO WANT TO COME BACK TO THIS BLOG SOMEDAY OK!!!!!!! once i get on adhd meds and figure out whats so wrong with me. #anyway i kept seeing this particular ask in my inbox every time i checked it and it just. it lives in my brain for no good reason. sorry. #please enjoyer image or whatevger. us mods say hi

[angelnumber27]

Oh sick turns out actually MULTIPLE of my meds have gone up in price.

#again. #I literally already couldn’t afford them #at this point I might have to just stop taking the more expensive ones... #but going off meds you’ve been on for a minute cold turkey is a horrible horrible horrible idea #and I fuckin need them AHHH #idk what to do #the prospect of having to go off my suboxone my adhd meds prozac or seroquel is terrifying #if anyone wants to buy content please please dm me #I need help I was not expecting this raise in price :/ #medications #ugh #American health care system is a fucking joke

[dkmshaboogie]

Howdy once again folks, I return from the grave of professional school almost a doctor and with my first attempt at published smut!

This work is inspired by @distant--shadow's western AU artwork that absolutely rots my brain in the most delicious way (Please let me know if you don't want this out there!)

I hope you enjoy and that my writing hasn't suffered too much the past 3 years!

#critical role campaign 3 #crc3 #imogen temult #laudna #imodna #imogen x laudna #critical role fanfiction #Okay I think that's all the tags I want for this #Please be gentle with me I literally just had to get this out of my brain #I'm trying to kickstart myself back into writing and apparently this was the thing that got stuck in there #Had to knock it out of there as quick as possible #Hopefully my professor doesn't still look for my stuff <_< #anyway if you read this far have a lovely rest of your day #drink some water #take your meds

[caramel-mocha-latte]

Hi hello!!! Sorry for the lack of posts recently, I've just been dealing with some pretty bad depression

And uhhh! I am currently unable to afford meds rn so I'm just gonna...

points at my $5 headshot commissions again

and even link my cashapp. Only $3 extra for a tiny on your shoulder now for my commissions! No charge for having a big hand patting your head or something cause it's actually easier to add than a tiny for me lol

https://ko-fi.com/mocha_latte/commissions

https://cash.app/$Astakoi

So uh.. if any of you want anything/just want to help me out, yeah I'd appreciate it a bunch!

Gonna try to get back into posting more art :> and do a few artfight things before the month ends

#hate to promo commissions or even ask for anything but uh... i am not super good without my meds and will not be paid until august 5th #some irl issues (one being my health lmao) + needing gas has me very broke rn though #commissions #donations #self promo #g/t #giant/tiny #g/t community #<- i still love drawing g/t stuff! #ooo i should draw tiny honkai star rail stuff- #anyway please feel free to commission g/t stuff! idm throwing a hand in the headshot somewhere or something to show size difference #wont get into detail on irl stuff so i understand if you guys dont want to donate anything!! and if you cant commission reblogging helps #not forced though #i do hate guilt trips a lot so im not gonna do that shit #my situation isnt life or death... worst comes to worst ill just get my meds when paid! #oh also going through some gender crisis stuff lol #anyway lol sorry for the tag ramble these posts make me nervous

[theghoulboysblog]

thinking about releasing my drafts cause i have like 192 of them and i think they are kinda funny but most of them aren’t shane and ryan related and are kinda just my inner thoughts AGH 😭

#TW: RANT AND ANXIETY TALK #but i like yapping but i don’t want people to get annoyed AGH #don’t want people thinking the ghoulboysblog has stopped ghoulboys-ing #i know there is no way to talk too much on my own blog #but my brain is still like #“what if people followed you for strictly shane and ryan content and you are annoying them” #like i KNOW no one really cares i don’t think #but my weird brain likes to convince me that i am annoying people AGHH #i have an anxiety disorder and people pleasing tendencies if ya can’t tell 🥲 #sorry for this rant i am just SO STRESSED ALL THE TIME OVER EVERYTHING!!! #and honestly it’s exhausting sometimes #even with meds

[mochiwrites]

blegh

#delete later #this is me just yelling into the void for a moment #but god I think I need to look into doing smth about my meds #:))) been on a steady mental health decline since at LEAST august #and it’s only gotten worse since the new year started cries #I’m trying to do homework and I can’t even focus on it #struggling so bad #but I don’t. trust anyone to actually talk and I’ve been pulling closer to myself #so I just bury myself in school and writing and distractions (there aren’t many) #I don’t know I think I’m tired #really tired of how things have been #how alone I feel #life has genuinely felt exhausting lately #all of my relationships feel so superficial with the exception of like. a small few #I want deeper connections but lately I feel like I’m just not built for friendship #it really feels like I’m just not supposed to have friends because I’m not a good one or I’m not a good person and I just Exist #in loneliness #and that hurts SO bad #can it please get better already #please #between online and irl I am at my limit T-T #ANYWAYS. back to being productive and doing stuff

[lesbianralzarek]

ugh. my father insists on telling the family group chat whenever i take a lil half-step towards being a functional adult. "oh, ella is learning how to drive in the snow! also, did you know that shes taking a class to become a pharmacy technician?" dad im 25. your next youngest daughter is starting a master's program. shut the fuck up, not everyone needs to know i couldnt drive in the snow until now

#PLEASE just forget i exist #ill let you know if i ever become a homeowner and therefore 1/4th as successful as everyone else #not infrequently i look at my peers and remember that autism is actually. like. a significant disability #and that the vast majority of people diagnosed with autism are unemployed #and it. uh. doesnt make me feel better about myself #it used to be a 'hey. compared to your real peers you arent lagging behind at all!' #but now its 'you are statistically unlikely to ever pull yourself out of this rut and into a position where you feel #comfortable asking for the love you want and nearly all of your friends have had' #its at least partially the meds but i feel aggressively nauseous #immediately after posting this i entered the crying and throwing up and acting visibly hysterical in front of others #*phase. the phase of screaming crying throwing up. not screaming yet but ive got a drive coming up and i plan on #screaming in the car

[oscillating-fan-whore3]

I dont think anyone actually likes me. I try too hard for no reason.

#im pathetic with people who i rlly want to please #i try and i try and i try and then no one ever cares i put my heart and soul into everything i try so fucking hard to be liked and no one #cares if i just died right now would anyone even be bothered to come to a funeral #if i killed myself tonight would anyone really care #i know where rhe meds are ive done this research i know how many it wpuld take to kill me i just want to stop trying so hard and hurting for #five fucking minutes idec abt being skinny rn i just need it all to stop i hate myself i hate myself i fucking hate myself #i wish someone woudl just fucking kill me i really wish #imagine how easy itd be idk #gnna try and get drunk soon idk i wanna try jt out b4 i give in and do drugs or somethin #vent post