#please i would start SOBBING.

[lotus-pear]

do you ever think about how in the day i picked up dazai side b dazai had to lie emotionless and soulless—like a corpse, almost—beside the man that gently brought him in, nursed his injuries, held him while he was in pain? he had to keep those suffocating bandages around his entire face, lest this man gain some sort of recognition for the little boy he saved. he had to lay there curled in the fetal position, bleeding and in pain, perhaps thinking about how, in another life, this man cooked for him, tried to build up his strength. read to him to pass the time while he curled up against him like a child listening to a bedtime story. played cards with him. saw through the heartless mafioso. the ruthless killer. and instead saw a boy.

imagine knowing this man, the man who saved you in more ways than one, was going to die one day all because he knew you. because he reached his hand into the darkness and plaintively, like a small child wanting a parent's touch, you grasped back desperately. imagine thinking all of that while that man is just a stone's throw away, making coffee in the next room just like he used to for you in another life. the scent, although you've never been here before, is reminiscent of home. and the tune he's humming? it's the silent melody that plays through your mind seven years later, for the last time as you fall backward off the building with your arms out like an embrace. but, hey. that man is alive. he's happy, although he never knew you. you can die with no regrets.

#guys i actually cannot stop thinking about oda and dazai someone save me PLEASE. the day i picked up dazai ruined my fucking life #dazai makes me so fucking miserable every time i see him in beast i just start fucking sobbing #absolute TRAGEDY of a character #he was fucking fifteen in this. and he knew the entire time. he knew oda would die. before even meeting him #bsd #the day i picked up dazai #ermmm found this in my drafts and i wanted to post it sorry guys i sound emo asf

[milimeters-morales]

top ten reasons to live: this !!!!!

#BIG BROTHER/SISTER OF THE NEIGHBORHOOD MOMENT ‼️‼️‼️ #once i have enough space in my mind to redraw this it’s OVER for you #literally sobbing crying he may not be good with like baby babies but toddler babies? so older brother…. it’s almost as if… he’s gonna be- #(taken out back and shot like a horse) #please this is so adorable i’m gonna DIE. bro how did pavitr not fall in ANY sort of love here is beyond me bruh. #unless…. (the aro flag starts becoming more visible over a low quality jpeg of pavitr) #but no seriously i would hand my life over. my soul. #miles is just such a sweet and caring guy like omg. he’s literally LOVE ITSELF. #miles morales #spiderman #spider man #across the spiderverse #across the spider verse #atsv #spiderman atsv #m&m posts #reblogs on again

[bonefall]

it is healing to come onto this blog and see basic respect for diasbility after being in other corners of the fandom and reading the words “snowkit could never be a warrior because he wouldnt know what anything is. he wouldnt even know what a clan is because nobody could explain it to him” said in full seriousness

Im..... That statement is so ableist I cannot even imagine the worldview you'd need to have in order to come up with that.

They really think the only way anyone learns anything is through verbal-speaking-words-noises? No one has ever observed something before? Not even once?

This is beyond touching grass, this person just fell out of the fucking Jurassic Period when all they had was ferns and stegosaurs.

I just...

OH YES. I remember my first day of Society Lessons as a hearing person, where the everything was explained to me. Via Audiobook. FIRST they spoke and said, "you are standing on the ground." It was a life changing revelation, and the world began to spin.

But it did not stop.

THEN they said, "there are fingers on your hands." The sensation of flesh and bone crackling into existence is indescribable, but I did not yet know pain, until they told me, "that hurts." I began screaming immediately.

And yet... it continued.

They explained so much. Chairs. Tables. Walls. The sky. Frogs. Ionizing radiation. Breathing. I was told all of it, in one sitting, and only then did I understand. Only when my ears were bursting with normal hearing knowledges, did they begin... my final test.

A strange wall-chair-finger emerged from the sky-of-the-wall, stood on the ground several times, until it was in front of me. A second one came behind it, this one slimmer. The audiobook gave these things names;

Human. Father. Mother. Door. Walking. It was completely impossible to know what these things were until that very moment.

I watch a human dip a hook into water and produce a fish, and I recall my Society Lessons where they called that "fishing." I am decked in the face by a nefarious hooligan, and I have only the audiobook to thank when I know I have been "punched" by a "bad guy." It was only the magic of verbal-speaking-words-noise that made me understand that there are "other people" and that they "do stuff."

Sometimes, even, in "groups."

Before the Society Lessons Audiobook, I knew nothing. I was pure, innocent, uncorrupted by concepts such as "parents" and "door." I am grateful every day that there is no such concept as "being shown things" or "simple logical reasoning" or "looking."

Blessed be those amongst us who escape the horrors of the Society Lessons Audiobook. I pray that you never learn what anything is. Be free! Free as a bird, which also knows nothing and famously cannot learn. 🤗

DEAF/HOH FOLLOWERS I'm losing my mind do you want me to bump a 'Hearing Disabilities Herb Guide' to the top of my priorities? Something you can use to bludgeon whackadoodles like that. This is ridiculous

Obviously not a MEDICINE guide but like; common causes of hearing disability in clan cats. Accommodations for hearing loss vs congenital deafness. Actual difficulties of not having that sense Clan-by-Clan. Debunking of misconceptions like... not being able to learn APPARENTLY.

#bone babble #Fennelposting #Obviously the answer is 'theyre incapable of THINKING' but like... they do know snow has a line right #In the book. He figured out. A word. Through observation. #He says 's'all right' because he knows it calms ppl down #He did not need to hear the magic words 'You can make noises at others to influence them' #Like a fucking tutorial tip #Im going to start keeping a JOURNAL of ''times people have been weird about snowkit specifically'' #Ableism #cw ableism #I could also link to the pawspeak thing so it's all in one place #I wrote this last night and put it in the queue and I laid awake thinking of this... #What do they think happens when someone goes to another country where things aren't written/spoken in a language they know? #Do they think they wouldn't be able to figure out anything? Do they think the tourist would just perish #Would they collapse in the streets of Berlin sobbing? #Happened to me. Went to England and they called it a Car Boot Sale instead of a Flea Market and I died to death #AND if I did make that guide please tell me if there's any other weird misconceptions you need to see in it #I know that ONE of them is going to have to be that. like. deaf people make noise. #theyre actually quite loud because they don't know they're making noise #and people with hearing loss do not suddenly forget how to speak. #and people born deaf dont talk like cavemen #cw body horror #tw body horror #EDIT: OOPS sorry I have such an astonishingly tolerance for body horror I did not realize that counted as body horror

[undefeatablesin]

You know what? Fuck you. *Bloodbornes your Pinnochio again*

#sin scribbles #(hi im back from finishing ng++ on lies of p and now i have nothing left to do so my vacation in krat is over) #(ive since changed my mind. now i have literally every amulet every weapon and a grand total of 420 levels LMAO MAYBE I WILL DO THE DLC!!!) #(when the dlc eventually and inevitably comes out that is) #(but for now i have returned to yharnam and thought itd be funny to do a pino run bc i am simple and easily pleased.) #(watch the joke fully be on me when i get attached to this hunter and he just becomes his own thing tho LMAO) #(ahhhh....bloodborne. i missed ye dearly) #(as much fun as i ended up having with lop once entering ng+ lmao) #(oh yeah my new adhd meds came in today so wish me luck!! i may be finally able to return to my art properly now!!!! AAAAAAA) #(should i livestream the pinnochio run 😂 i feel like that would be fun. i still mean to start streaming i just been...so waylaid) #(so much has happened!!!) #(unironically love this boi already tho tbf) #(he does have his freckles.....) #(as much as i love ruza and aloysha and as much love as i put into their profiles omg they are kitted out 2 the max) #(did you see people modding the bloodborne gear into lop tho lmao genius stuff i love mods i wish i had the pc version tbf) #(ANYWAY HI!!! OMG HOW ARE YOU ALL i feel like its been years since i was actually active here sobs) #(adhd is a hell of a curse for my hubris)

[that-foul-legacy-lover]

I HAVE AN IDEA, FREN…

imagine Tartaglia accidentally reunites with his childhood friend//crush but it's not one he really intended on expecting?? he ends up hearing that there's going to be a weapon of war but he didn't expect it to be them.

straight up looking like a tired half-abyssal creature that can switch forms, but is slowly in the process of losing who they once were because of the long-term effects.

HELLO FREN, I LOVE YOUR IDEA :D

no, no, no, no, no- that couldn't be you- it can't be you. the you he remembers was kind and cheerful, a ray of sunlight in the cold land of Snezhnaya. but the person before him- the thing that looks like you- simply stares passively at your feet, deadened and silent, Dottore smiling horribly behind you

your eyes are as lightless and dull as his own, and Childe hates that

he tries to bring you back, calling your name and holding your hand during the sparse moments he's left alone with you, but you never react, other than monotonously saying that you're waiting for the Doctor to return, and Childe wants to cry- even more so when it's revealed you have your own Abyssal form much like his own, despite how it pains your body to use

he needs to get you out, immediately- so he counters your Abyssal form with his own Foul Legacy, holding you down in hopes of wearing you out until you transform back, despite how you thrash and hiss. you blink when he lets out a soft croon, and suddenly he notices a tear trailing its way down your cheek. a spark of hope flares to life in his chest as he leans in, speaking in a growling, yet gentle voice

"hey... hey, it's just me. it's just Ajax. you're okay, you're okay."

you start crying in earnest before your Abyssal form is whisked away and you slump in Ajax's arms, dead to the world. Foul Legacy purrs soothingly, holding you close, claws tracing the countless scars littering your body. the Fatui must've done this- how dare they- how dare they twist you into a mere weapon- you, who he treasures more than anything else, and a threatening hiss slips from his throat, his grip tightening around your limp body

and Ajax stands and flees from the palace, leaving behind Childe and Tartaglia and all that comes with his Harbinger status

#genshin impact #childe #tartaglia #foul legacy #foul legacy childe #genshin tartagalia #genshin childe #genshin tartaglia #chit chat #anon #oh this is SO delicious #he cares about you so much he's horrified they would do this #he almost starts sobbing when you don't recognize him #the name 'ajax' does stir some faint memories #and you feel safe with foul legacy for some reason #i love this please send more asks with this <333 #short scenario #other's stuff #FAVE

[bittersweetresilience]

talking to both @keeperofthebox and @moonieratty today somehow combined into me cooking up a sentitwin infinity train au where one twin is the reflection of the other

specifically, félix (lake) has been living as adrien's (tulip's) reflection for their entire lives. when adrien boards the train, félix realizes he has an opportunity to escape. he double crosses adrien when he enters the chrome car and switches their places, but they ultimately reconcile and switch back. adrien sets félix free from the mirror world so he can be his own person and they separate.

félix meets kagami (jesse) and duusu (alan dracula) while on the run from mirror police. kagami is dealing with her own perfectionism and familial reasons for being on the train. they help each other with their problems, overthrow the tyrannical chrome car state, and figure out how to get félix a number so they can both leave the train and be together in the real world. they run into chloé and lila (grace and simon) on the way.

meanwhile, after helping félix escape, adrien continues his own adventure in navigating his emotional repression, father's disappearance, and mother's death. his primary companions are tikki and plagg (one-one), who used to be conductors of the train. they were secretly ousted a year ago by gabriel (amelia), who is mad with grief and trying to create a car to bring émilie (alrick) back. this significantly complicates adrien's cathartic journey, especially because nooroo (the cat) is interfering with him on gabriel's orders.

finally, adrien confronts gabriel in the conductor's car over how to cope with grief. while adrien succeeds in restoring tikki and plagg to their rightful position and leaving the train, gabriel has dug his own grave and is left behind to make reparations or die.

sometime afterward, chloé and lila have an adventure of their own, wherein meeting zoé (hazel) changes the progression of chloé's life.

#miraculous ladybug #infinity train #this crossover is only going to be intelligible to two people maximum but nevertheless i am releasing it from my brain #also it ended up not even being about sentitwins i just went full in #not sure what to do with atticus i thought of marinette but it would be sad to leave her on the train #don't inquire about tuba please i don't know who she could be and i will start sobbing #and what about rymin you ask? well. here is my proposal. somehow amenath #🍞 #🌖 #🌃 #miraculous train au

[crest-of-gautier]

thinking very hard about eggstra work for chill season, i just have the strangest feeling that it'll have a charger + blaster in the line-up and that it'll coincide with reload's release just to laugh at me....

#lizz.txt #most of the eggstra works so far have been at the start of the month with the exception of the first (middle of the month) #i'm REALLY REALLY hoping that the eggstra work happens in the 26th-28th of january because PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE #I WANT TO PLAY RELOAD IN PEACE SO BAD LIKE.. i know reload is not going to grow legs and suddenly leave me but #i want to see mr. mochizuki so bad my beloved... #i mean ofc i can play eggstra work and reload simultaneously but sOBS WHAT IF I LIKE THE EGGSWORK LINEUP #bet that the charger is going to be squiffer specifically to spite me because squiffer and i are having a lil dance #but also i welcome any charger as long as it's not the goo tuber lolol i can't stand that thing sorry #i would be so happy if the blaster is something like s-blast but like as long as it's not clash blaster i'd be happy i think #if they decide to put the eggstra work on marooners bay i might limit my time with it but it might be good practice... #i do love slammin jammin junction though.. ohh... they should announce eggstra work.. for ME.... #regardless of when eggstra work takes place i think i will have a lot of fun with both it and reload #im mostly just posting this bc it'd be funny if i get hit with the ball of prophecy teehee #every time i post about squiffer it's like squiffer goes out of its way to prove me wrong or spite me its hilarious to me

[that-bi-bitch-writes]

y'all can't be seeing what im seeing

#let me just pretend cringe doesn't exist for a moment #bark bark barkk #im howling and snarling #i would suffer a good number of trials #full on sobbing #darling please #*nobody by mitski starts playing* #okay #im done now

[thegreatestheaver]

planning courses for the next semester is not for the weak

#WHY IS EVERY SINGLE CLASS GOING ON AT THE SAME TIME. #WHY DO WE ALL START AT 9AM AND NOT GO PAST 11AM. PLEASE #please just strart at 1pmplease plase palseasee #i dont wanna take only 3 classes next semester but like erm. #mostly because im a little picky abt my professors. less so for electives but classes im worried about (SPEECH) #ive been pushing speech off for the longest time because i have crippling social anxiety 99% of the time. so i made sure i got a good prof #uhgghg #theres this one prof who does a lot of erm i think sociology classes yeah #she is so chill and nice and uses my prefurred name and pronouns (i really need to get my name chaged in the system uhghgh) but she did uh #the reverse grading and i hated it. everyone did. she was so nice and understanding.. #one time i went 2 talk to her about my missing work (chronic pain and fatigue had me bed bound for days on end) and she literally just said #erm u have an A so u dont have to do it. #>@>>@>/1/1/?!?!? #live saver. i had a breakdwon in her office i was literally sobbing telling her about my health issues. it was really hard because i never- #-really talk about it. i didnt realize how hard it would be when i finally did #anywasy what was i saying. yeah i love her so much but not her grading and teaching system. but idk maybe ill try it again she has a gender #-and sexuality class i kinda wanna take because im a professional faggot

[blubary]

I'm so sad about the lack of fanfic for Little Hope on ao3. Like, I want an angsty sad hurt/comfort daylor fanfic. But everyone knows I won't write it because I love them too much. I want Daniel getting upset about something and Andrew and Taylor helping him calm down. But I wouldn't know where to start with a fanfic like that lol

#PLEASE LITTLE HOPE ANFIC WRITERS #RISE #lmaoo #anywho #I also want John and Angela getting married #but why would I write that I don't like them that much #I want Andrew being a sad babe and John being their for him #father son relationship yk #BUT I couldn't think of how to start that fanfic #lol #sorry for ranting #BUT PLEASE #also if I get super desperate for fanfics #I might just read my own #*crying and sobbing* #lmao #I just want some sad daylor #the rant ends here #if you read all this #wow #if i saw a post like this I'd get lazy and be like #“ugh I am NOT reading all that” loll #rant #little hope #fanfics #ao3 #grrrr

[thisloev]

tag limit hit ho gayi yaar

#haan toh main kya bol rahi thi. #haan unhone sab itna jaldi kiya cheek pe kiss bhi kiya i was like arey please no aap rakho itne saare paise i can't 😭 #cause she already bought me that hoodie for like 700 rs #she was like i can't be here for your birthday na #bhai meko toh rona hi aa gaya itna saara pyaar i swear mere parents ko iska 1% bhi nahi hai mujhse😭😭 #and money has been tight bachpan se cause shit happened in like 2013 or something and since then we've all been single #mindedly striving for highest paying jobs best education and now that she's finally there (touchwood) #i think it means a lot to her being able to spend money freeely for her loved ones #and with her idk i do believe that she loves me yes because she said ek baari when she was crying because kuch kuch hua tha #but also attending meeting office ki online rote hue sob karte hue kyunki parents time dekhkar thodi na ladte hai #and i didn't know how to help her and i knew they were. fighting subah se and she hadn't eaten anything so i made her cornflakes ka doodh #(her fav) and gave it to her table pe but it just made her sob much much harder and she couldn't drink it😭 #but later on she said ki im so thankful i have you mujhe dikh raha tha ki you wanted to help but you didn't know kaise karu still you tried #and just you being there was enough in that moment #like i don't know why im thinking all this today maybe because bua is here home and she was home that time too it happened in front of her #all this she's the only person who knows what kinda shit dad does #and just. past few weeks i really genuinely wanted to kms like i would sit in morning class and i would look down at my hands and see the #veins and think one cut and it would all be over you're so tired i know you can rest now #it got so bad that i started wearing full sleeve clothes only so i couldn't look at them #but now. i won't say it's completely gone that feeling but like #i want to live because so many plans i have to with my sister how can i leave her alone #like not just for her but for me for us i want us to be happy together like we planned #like yk us as a unit doing things we've always dreamed of visiting places and bachelorette parties and clubbing and living with her and her #bf/husband when i need somewhere to run to and going on a no budget shopping spree and storing ice cream tubs in our house #like they used to do in american movies and her having kids me getting over my disgust for them helping her raise them clean them being #the masi and #I DON'T KNOW OKAY OMG😭 #i felt so loved finally after a long time SACH MEIN real way mein #oh pata hai she also offered to pay mere tui ki fees bc i was complaining to mom ki papa kaise taunt maarte hai😭 #like it's 20 fucking thousand waise toh kam hi hai but as a salaried person it's still a lot 😭

[the-void-has-questions]

Pros of checking the Wiki when one of my blorbos is in danger:

Comfort in seeing that the status says “alive”

Cons:

What if it doesn’t say “alive”?

#spoilers for hfth 117 #seriously #I am. so scared. #look I’m on episode 117 of hello from the Hallowoods #and. god. #riot my dear. I am genuinely starting to believe that you’re not going to make it out of this. #I always thought you would die on this mission #but I hope you don’t #I’ll miss you too much please don’t die #sobbing (not really #yet)) #OH MOTHERFUCKER. #FUCKING HELL. #NOW IM SOBBING #FUCK #hello from the Hallowoods spoilers #hfth spoilers #hfth 117 #also this happened with moth I wanted to know how moth was doing #so I looked at moths wiki and it said ‘dreaming’ and I LOST MY MARBS. #AUGH!!!!!

[leefl00f]

grr…grr…grah..! >:(

How do you guys even draw the silly murder bots in such a cool way and yet I’m still struggling?!/j

#no because seriously #I can’t…I can’t get them to look right #they look like abominations #Others look like literal angels #grrrr #its not fair! #*starts trashing my room in artistic rage* #*sobs in a corner* #floof speaks #sfw tk blog #sfw tk community #non tickles but I just want people to see #i’m looking at Jsh30n #tirkras #and Aylover #y’all are so cool and I would love to have an art style like yours (respectfully) #someone please help me learn how to draw the sillies ;-; #please

[chenyann]

WAIT YESNO GONE TOO!?

#Yall fake hoes didn't even bother to tell me!!(I'm joking I love yall) #Yesnooo I know we didn't interact as much pookie but I treied to like every post I could and come back into ur inbox every so often 😭😭 #Especially the food related ones #Please it's too early for me to start sobbing #Bro I didn't even know until I kept staring at my following trying to see which one of yall blocked me- #Yesno pleasee ur art was always so cute and you made me so happy 💞 #And ur food always looked yummy 😔 #I swear I didn't love u just from ur food #I hope yesno is good #All these beautiful people are leaving in a flash.. #If only I could keep yalls beauty a bit closer... #Now if another one of my moots leave all hell is gonna break loose from me and this blog #It's okay if yall block me that's fine but deactivating ur tumblr would have me sobbing. LEEP UR BEAUTIFUL WORK ON THIS APP OR WEBSITE #EVEN THOSE TINY RANTS #But this is about yesno. #Lowkey- yesno was the coolest of the mutuals. #I pick favorites here guys #Yesno just always brought off very cool vibes and a vibe of someone you didn't know how you met but love them alot

[lafilleestmorte]

Nam hae e my beloved

#Nam hae e #aroace headcanon #she really just!!!! rejected both of them #i am particularly envious of how she maintains her closeness with both of them despite their feelings #like if my closest friend said that he wanted to stop being friends i would immediately bURST into tears #because not experiencing romance can make you feel so worthless when someone you love doesn't want your friendship either #but when geon ho started laughing i SOBBED #didn't think they would actually let it happen #i am surprised and pleased #sun jae #crash course in romance #geon hu

[hollisofficial]

[said theu gritted teeth and streaming tears] i hate tou guys that make ladyklok/ fem pics of them but make em all look big breasted thin waisted and big lipped and sexy faced i truly do

#can yoh please please please please give skwisgaar tiny flat tittys and a cardboard ass please immbegginyo #please if fem pickles actually has decent hair im going to kill you that thing has deflated breasta and is still balding im going to beat yo #u like an ap. fem pickles looks like she snorts crack every day for fun hallowed eyes and everything PLEASE #dont even get me started on fem murderface i ahte you even more want to bash you head in PLEASE #every pic is lik ovhhuujhhhgghhhhhoooughhjjj heres mrs slimthicc queen uh s thick thighs save lives erm bustwatermwllons between leg s letsg #give her like a little tummy idkn but we still gotta make her face sexYOURE COWARDS. COWARDS COWARDS COWARDS COWARDS COWARDS AND I HATE YOH #ph ywah i made femmm muurxerface its just a lady with a big jaw and a little pudge . oh yeah because im SSUUREEEEEE thag would mke sense in- #universe oh eevevrrybody would thjnk shess soooooo ugly KILLS YOU KILLS YOU JILLS YOU KILSS YOU #PLEASE MAKE FEM BURDERFACE UGLY PLEASE IM BEGGINGOTU SCREAMING ON THE FLOOR [making out with murderface][making out with murderface][making #CRYING WAILING SCREAMING SOBBING #i dont even have anything to say abt nathan and toki. im speechless tbh #the world if people recognized that girls have different body shapes too [utopia picture] #fem mf has facial hair . fucking cowards. and her pussy smells like sour milk. thank youuuuuuuuuu🫰 #m.