#physically AND mentally

[nananarc]

i did a study of suit but ended up as simp art for Chrollo instead opps

#hunter x hunter #chrollo #chrollo hunter x hunter #chrollo lucilfer #fanart #that fucking bulge #because u know he has the biggest dick #physically and mentally

[scorchedmazes]

ok but think about it,, minho ran three years in the maze.

meaning he had a first day of running. a first week. a first month. a first year.

so,, imagine:

he runs the inner sections first. then gradually, he runs the outer sections. mostly alone at first, until alby decides they need partners.

each day his legs becoming more tired. more sore.

he hides it. he hides the pains in his sides as he runs. he hides the pain that shoots up and down his legs from overuse. he hides the fact that his lungs feel like they could explode if he runs anymore.

he hides all of that bc he’s the fastest runner,, which eventually leads to him being named keeper.

none of the gladers know that he spends the rest of his day/night massaging his legs and stretching. none of them notice how his face twitches in pain when he sits down or stands up after sitting for too long. none of them see how hard it is for him to hide his pain not only physically but mentally as well.

#the maze runner #tmr minho #he eventually got used to the pain and the more he ran the stronger he got #but those first few months had to be hard on him #physically and mentally #might have to write a fic ab this or smth #i started to run so this is lowkey me just projecting but shh #my headcanons #ari rambles ab minho (per usual)

[itsnautica]

honestly the amount of courage it must've taken arthur to admit that merlin might not even be alive anymore is rlly something.

gaius walks into the room and asks "where's merlin?" - we're talking about gaius, someone arthur respects and values the opinion of greatly, but more importantly merlin's guardian, his father figure. sure, "he's alive" is his first answer - the hopeful, optimistic, reassuring answer. the 'don't worry, i've got everything under control and it'll all be fine' answer. but then maybe he realises that could be a lie. he doesn't know if that's true, and maybe lying to gaius' face about it is worse than admitting his failure.

so he continues to look gaius in the eye and tell him merlin (who he lost, in the middle of the forest, injured, weak, unwell, surrounded by bandits) was still alive, last he saw of him. he's saying 'i don't know if he's alive anymore, i dont know how he is, where he is, if he's ok'.

it probably makes him sick to his stomach saying it out loud, but he has to state it plain and true. he has to tell gaius that his ward (read: son) may no longer be alive. that takes guts.

#just saying :/ #i think about this episode a normal amount #we deserved to see more of arthur being forced to acknowledge that merlin meant everything to him #that he couldn't lose him #of course we all knew that he knew #but this episode was delicious #arthur openly worrying about merlin is my roman empire #arthur is so strong and sexy #physically and mentally #package deal #i have so many fic ideas for this episode and i just dont know where to start #merlin #arthur pendragon #4x06 #merthur #text post

[ccasey0]

Okay, i have the first five stars. this took way longer than expected lol.

@allyheart707 is the one on Casey's tail. she is the star of sleep, and her bow carries dream arrows that grant those she shoots with it the dreams they will love the most.

@onlyhereforturtles is the fox looking at the black that Casey always leaves behind when he walks. They are a kitsune with markings that were surprisingly hard to get right. i was unable to add in all the stuff they mentioned, but i hope this is still acceptable.

@kitmay05 is the one waving at Casey. She is a small farmer who harvests shinedust and gifts it in little pouches to people in need. different kinds of shinedust has different qualities. she has a hoe that can be used for farming or whacking.

@cosmocafe is the goat floating at the top left. the only thing they mentioned was for the goat to have a scarf, so i made up a few little things while i was drawing. they can float and wherever they step they leave swirls of various different temperatures depending on the season. they help make the winter cold and the summer hot.

@icequeenabby is the little owl on Casey's head. she flies around the night sky while the other farmer stars are working to harvest the shinedust. she likes to fly underneath them and catch some of the stray dust on her wings. she will then happily fly around the newer shines that are just blooming and shower then with the dust to make them glow even brighter. she also has a stick. there isn't anything special about this stick. but she will kill you if you try to take it from her.

Whew, okay. that took forever. i still have two more stars to add to this, and then i wanna make individual drawings for each star. also, im calling the characters "stars" and the actual glowing dots in the sky "shines" so as not to get them confused with each other. I also want to add that i'm sorry if the stars don't look exactly how you guys described them. i did my best, and for some of the harder ones i just gave up and simplified them. at this point i'm too tired to change anything about it. oh. the explanation for why the stars are following Casey. sometimes, Casey will be walking through the Night sky to do something. sme of the stars see him and decide "oh! it's the Night Spirit! i bet i could help him with some stuff!" and they just start following him. they usually follow him around for as long as possible until he tells them to leave or to go do something. they will even follow him outside of the nighttime. Casey acts like he despises these little guys and their persistence. but he actually adores each one of them and will take a bullet to protect his tiny star bebes. the edgelord will never admit it though.

also, fun fact: the night sky is a little world of its own! it may just look like the sky from the earth, but it is more of a vast expanse of white where all the night spirits live. and yes, i know what you are thinking. "white? shouldn't it be black?" well, It is a mix of both. Wherever the upper spirits walk, the leave black footprints that spread like markers bleeding into paper. the blackness will eventually all drip away and land on the border between the celestial realm and the mortal one. then it just stays there, making the sky look black to everyone below. the Shines are bright enough to be able to shine through the backness though, giving the look of a night sky. also, only spirits can go through the borders alone. any mortal has to have celestial help to get to the celestial realm.

it might be a bit until i work on this again since i have a ton of work to do, family staying at our house for the eclipse, a bunch of other drawings i wanna get done, and way too little sleep to function properly. so yeah, imma sleep for a bit. catch up on some stuff. and then i will likely start up on this again. ALSO!! feel free to make this digital and add your own stars to this! i'd love to see what other people can come up with for this!

info on the au can be found Here! oke, bye now. hope you like it!

#Wow. #fuck #this week has DRAINED me #physically and mentally #i really really hope you guys like this #and that's two “reallys!” #i spent n excessive amount of time trying to get everyone to look right #haha #typing is hard when you are tired #Also i promise i will draw the two that are left #i just need a nap and some more coffee #maybe a fried egg or two #Spirit AU #Oc #Moot Stars!! #that is their official name now #even though not all of them are even Moots of mine #lol #Goodnight #:)

[zootopiathingz]

About the anon that was confused, let me just say the show leaves us pieces of Charlie and Alastor and we just put them together!

And isn’t that what makes shipping a non-canon pairing so fun!

No but seriously, with the interactions these two have had, few as they may be in the actual show, how can you blame us? The way they just look at each other was enough to make me go “mmm yeah they’d be down so bad for each other”

#sorry this was a short response but I am so tired lol #physically and mentally #hazbin hotel #hazbin ships #charlastor #radiobelle #asks #anon ask #lady luxo asks

[lordacne]

is anyone else having a really bad time?

#physically and mentally #spiritually as well #feeling like the dumbest 26 y/o teenage girl out here

[basil-except-writing]

ouuggghhhh I'm thinking about dark choco again...... lack of content is killing me.....

#dark choco #cookie run #crk #cookie run kingdom #dark choco cookie #he hurts me #physically and mentally

[marachronicallycrochets]

Don't you just love when your leg goes numb from the knee down and you can't move it at all 😃

I am in pain

Plus my thumb hurts and it goes up into my neck and head? It's so weird. It's such a sharp pain. I don't understand what it is but I think it's related to my POTS and possibly EDS? Can some tell me if EDS can relate to muscle and nerve pain??

#why my leg doing this #chronic illness #chronically ill #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #chronically disabled #mental health #mental illness #chronic disease #chronic disability #chronic nausea #chronically in pain #physically disabled #physical disability #physical health #physically exhausted #physically and mentally #mentally disabled #mental disability #mentally unstable #positive mental attitude #actually mentally ill #mentalheathawareness #mentally exhausted #mentally tired #invisible disability #invisible illness #potsie #pots #pots syndrome

[scarperseus]

Not me coughing up a storm and shivering like a madman.

I'm literally Jekyll in Transformation right now

#I now feel him on a deep level #When will this agony end?? #rants #being sick sucks #Physically and mentally #jekyll and hyde #scarstuff

[failbrothers]

struggling tonight

#my sister n nephew are over #and shes pregnant again #and everyone is doing so many things #and i did nothing all day and im beat and i took a nap #and my sister is going out rn #and i just feel inadequate again #also im getting sick #i feel like ill never be able to have a family bc of how little i can take #physically and mentally #which depresses me #and yeah #i feel lonely #and empty #and sick #good night

[novatix]

glad that i learned to be optimistic about life in general years ago bc on days when i am struggling and doubting and etc, there is still a little hope

#i am not doing so hot atm #physically and mentally #dl

[flowerflowerflo]

somebody plan my funeral i dont think im going to be with u guys much longer (i have a headache and a sore throat) (iwant a pink coffin with ribbons pls!!@!!!!#!!!!!!)

#girlblogging #female insanity #sillyposting #<3 #i am going to explode #i am unwell #physically and mentally #i just 😭😭😭😭

[softdom-energy2]

Will things ever get easier?

#exhausted #physically and mentally #I need a fucking break #ffs #it’s just one thing after another #this has not been a good year at all #sad hours #personal

[crucifixinhell]

*staring at draft* Bruce... is not in enough pain

#crucifix talks #physically AND mentally #I'm thinking about how much chronic pain he must have from poor injury recovery and overuse and bad joint protection #poking Bedrock with a stick

[wasabi-beeeeatz]

He Isn't Gone.. He Can't Be Gone

He was tossing and turning. The Right Hand that is. He was aching up a storm. Everything he did, even the tiniest of things, sent flares of pain up his spine and to his brain. This blasted gloom caused all of this pain.

He woke up in a cold sweat, trembling. He wrapped his safe hand around his throat to try and make himself calm down. His breathing was shallow. Too shallow. He moved his hand down to his side and looked at where his beloved Kohga would lay. The Top Banana wasn't there due to the illness Sooga got the last few weeks. He got up off the mattress and put on his skin tight jumpsuit, clipping on his mask. Of course it would lift up off his face due to his slight snout. He has to kidnap a tailor and force them to make him a custom mask that actually fits.

He tried to clip on his twin swords belt but he winces in pain as he fell back onto the bed. His breathing was frantic as his eyes darted around the room. No sunny meals. Nothing to keep the miasma's effect at bay. It was killing him on the inside out. He croaked out a few selected words as he curls up into a tight ball and let out his pent up sadness and grief.

"Master Kohga.. I have failed you. I am a disgrace.."

The cold was creeping into the room as he forces himself to roll onto his back. He must not let this gloom get to him. He mustn't. He has to live through this. He has to carry his Kohga's weight, ALL of it. But yet his strength was dwindling. He felt hollow inside as the gloom howls and screeches on him.

How foolish he was to fall for that Phantom's trick. How foolish he was to go down the pit. To look for his beloved husband in the Depths. He made a scroll, feathered pen and inkwell appear from a weakened cloud of smoke and frantically wrote down words in messy handwriting, folding the scroll and blowing onto it.

{ "Master Kohga, please come to me. I desperately need you right about now." }

He waited for hours. His health getting dangerously low. His eyes were closed with his arms spread out. He faintly heard a familiar poof of smoke and a familiar voice. He opened an eye and saw him. Master Kohga. He gave out a sigh of relief.

"Oooh Sooga.. you look terrible. Here. Eat now. I cannot afford to lose you!"

The smaller Yiga rummages through his large frill and pulls out a golden tinted banana and peels it, feeding it to the slowly dying larger Yiga.

The Right Hand only could take a few bites before weakly placing a hand on Kohga's wrist. All the color was drained from his face as he was slowly slipping away from the realm of the living.

"Master Kohga... please make sure I live on through spirit. I am afraid my time is—"

"NO! You are NOT leaving me alone! NOT NOW NOT EVER! NEVER EVER! You WILL live through this! You hear me, you big dork?!"

No response came from the larger Yiga as his hand slipped from the smaller Yiga's wrist. His breathing was way too shallow, almost ghostly. His eyes closed again as he lets out a low humming sigh.

"Sooga...? You're making me worry.."

#aoc sooga #yiga husbands #yiga clan #master kohga #kohga x sooga #glory to master kohga #loz sooga #sooga #man i literally cried when writing this #Don't worry. Sooga's still alive #he's just... not feeling the greatest #physically and mentally #He made his husband worry about him

[freepassbound]

Have you ever tried dating apps?

I have an account on one (for the last... year?) - I wouldn't say I've really tried, this time around? I wrote a profile but haven't been back to finalize it, never uploaded the six photos it wanted - and I haven't paid for it.

I did make a go of one - I guess it would be five years ago now? On the same site, actually - and did date someone for several months (almost half a year).

Right now I'm in a place where I don't really feel like my mental health is consistently in a good enough place, or that, between moving to teaching full-time again and still doing four or five hours of tutoring a week, I have the kind of available time I'd want to be able to devote to someone (which honestly isn't true from an outside perspective, but that's how it feels - and the mental health plays a big role in that).

And it just seems like there is nothing about dating sites, or apps, or whatever, that isn't a direct thrust into my biggest anxieties - I hate pictures of myself; I hate having to write very short, unnuanced, uniformly positive descriptions of myself (and I don't particularly like that that's all I get on other people, either - I want to see more about people, not less); I hate having to message first; and I hate, hate, hate having to make instantaneous yes/no decisions, which is how all of them seem to work now... I want to be able to dwell on it while I look at other people, I want to be able to say "I don't know" and come back and look again later, dammit! It's the Tinderization of the online dating ecosystem, and it's awful.

(And all of which is almost certainly why I still cling to the idea of meeting someone here - this place is a far better expression of ourselves than any dating site will ever be, you can follow and like and reblog from someone for ages, there's no pressure to post photos...)

One day I might really try again. I have no idea when that will be. I'll probably have to force myself to - I never really feel ready for it. The site that I have tended toward recently basically gutted itself and removed or heavily reduced the features I liked most about it, so I probably need to think of alternatives - which I should probably do anyway, because looking in more places is always better, right? But it'll still be awhile.

#I mean even aside from the whole D/s aspect #there's a *reason* my main fantasies involve a lady literally grabbing me and making me hers #the idea of the whole process of meeting strangers and dating just scares the hell out of me #and so I dream of somehow... avoiding it #and constantly come up with reasons to avoid it #like feeling I don't have the time #or feeling I need to work on myself #physically and mentally #or feeling like the sites won't work for me #(and yes I'm intentionally not mentioning which site I'm on) #even the only time it actually worked it wasn't how it's 'supposed' to go #she messaged first #and her icebreaker was 'what are your biggest kinks?' #which I somehow managed to answer honestly 😅 #and... bang zoom away it went #...I don't have a lot of confidence in that happening again #free floating anxiety #thank you for the question though #I imagine there has been a distinct undercurrent of... lonlieness?... in my tags recently that sparked it #asks #it is what it is