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crisiscutie · 1 year
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Hello Hello! owo
Thank you for your amazing work and please keep going with it! You're doing an incredible job ! ❤
I was wondering... If you feel comfortable to answer this question: How well would Sephiroth (may I ask for the domestic Sephiroth you wrote in your pre-Nibelheim AU? I need some fluff please ;^; ) deal with a darling that struggles a lot with their Anxiety/Panic disorder?
Thank you so much in advance!
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Hey hon, thanks for your kind words and the ask! ❤️ And no problem! Writing content that dives into the psychology of our favorite characters and how it shapes their relationships is a joy of mine, so please, ask away! That's a great question!
To begin, the darling and Sephiroth would definitely be each other's comfort person. For him, the darling knows that he is still exploring very different sides of himself. Being in a relationship, a life away from Shinra, healing from past trauma and his inevitable fatherhood. That is a lot for him to process. The darling themselves are processing a lot of events. They're on Shinra's hitlist, pregnant with their top (deserted) operative's children, forced to leave other loved ones behind, and their inevitable parenthood... On top of struggling with their anxiety/panic disorder.
It's a daunting period for both individuals... As we already know about Sephiroth, he finds comfort and familiarity in those who he feels are similar to him and those who are in similar predicaments like him, so he'd be perceptive and even more protective of a darling suffering from an anxiety/panic disorder. How? Well...
Sephiroth will often include them in his meditation exercises. He'll stray away from the ones he uses specifically for warfare, since those are obviously not geared toward a pregnant civilian.
He would also give his darling plenty of reassurance, letting them know they are capable of anything they set out to do. He wants them to treat themselves with the same warmth and compassion they give to him.
He'd wrap an arm around them and pull them close, like a shield whenever they start to feel unsafe and need that physical affirmation.
I'd imagine he and his darling love to go to the outskirts of the village, just as the sun is rising and spend time in the wooded clearing. They'll feel the cool morning air brush against their skin and listen to the sounds of nature. They'll be in peaceful silence, embraced in each other's arms.
Sephiroth is a straightforward man. He'll tell his darling what needs to be done or if something needs to happen. He will hide nothing from them (except his own darkness, initially) and will always be frank with them in the face of any problem.
It's great when they both find new ways to manage their anxieties as parents. Since they don't get a lot of chances to travel due to their lives on the run, staycations are the best way to get away. Sephiroth puts in effort to make these experiences peaceful and memorable. Expect stuff like him taking his darling and their adventurous children to explore the woods during the day and watch the twinkling stars in the night's sky at dusk.
And it's really beautiful how the darling still gives Sephiroth the same support, despite the difficulties they face with their anxiety disorder! That resilience, patience and devotion are exactly what Sephiroth needs in a darling. Two hurt persons finding solace in each other and motivating each other to be the best they can be is absolutely amazing! Together they have endured so much, and they will continue to do so, no matter what comes their way. There are, however, areas of improvement for Sephiroth to work on.
Even though Sephiroth has a high level of empathy (despite the emotional isolation and trauma he faced in his formative years and early adulthood, which is bloody amazing and warrants a discussion of its own), Sephiroth may do and say things at times that may trigger the darling, but by no means, he will never do it to hurt them. It's actually good that he's an observant man. He'll pick up on cues when the darling is upset with him and/or his actions and he will do what he can to rectify his wrongs. I can't see him being a common offender since his empathy and shrewdness would make him aware of the darling's triggers. But sometimes, I can see him lacking tact when being honest and like I mentioned above, accidentally trigger them.
Also, he's going to be quite protective of his darling and may snap at others for triggering them, plus it's really just bad for expectant persons to have induced anxiety on top of what they already experience. And that's just if it's accidental. He'll learn that his darling doesn't like things getting heated, even if it's in their defense, so he'll uncover other subtle methods of getting someone to stop triggering them, like flashing that signature Crisis Cutie frown or positioning himself in front of them (thus directing the attention toward him) to make the other parties stop.
If someone were to deliberately provoke his darling and not stop, they would soon feel the depths of despair. It would be so hard for him to control his intense anger in front of his darling. If he can just barely manage his anger, he'll take the darling to a secure area, and turn the antagonizer into a human kabob later.
With his constant words of encouragement, he may unintentionally overwhelm the darling. He'll tone it down if he can catch himself.
Overall, I would say Sephiroth would deal with it very well because of his empathetic and analytical nature. The Crisis Cutie earns an A-!
Also, I need a nickname for that domestic AU.
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toytulini · 3 years
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I find it funny that when shadow is in my room he'll just, sleep, so peaceful and chill, but apparently when hes in my parents room or my brother's room, he's all wound up and rambunctious and bitey but in an excited friendly way? Idk why but like when hes in my room hes just. Snzzzzzzzz
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anemo-writes · 3 years
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I heard that you write for scaramouche :0 so can i request a soft cuddling headcanon for scaramouche 👉👈 thanks OwO have a great day!
yes, that’s right!! i hope i captured his personality right though, this is the first time i’ve wrote for him,, i may have made it a little angsty in the beginning but i promise you it’s really fluffy in the end (ᗒᗣᗕ)՞ i just really like writing angst hehe.. i know this might be a little ooc though, so beware and feel free to criticize me !! THIS GOT SO LONG—JUST SKIP TO THE BOTTOM TO READ THE ACTUAL CUDDLING HCS HAHA
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Scaramouche having a soft cuddling session with his S/O
Let me just say,, cuddling is extremely rare with him. He can’t help but view it as something that makes him feel vulnerable, which he hates. Although he doesn’t particularly dislike the way your arms wrap around him and the way that he finds it easier to sleep in that position, the two of you still don’t cuddle very often :( Other forms of physical affection are also rare with him, and it’s mostly you who showers him with affection—while he doesn’t mind it most days (he especially enjoys it if it happens in front of Childe, just so he can hear him whine about it), he finds it extremely annoying and overbearing him with you overstep your boundaries, especially if he’s stressed or busy.
peep the keep reading line— it got way too long because i couldn’t stop writing LOL
It really doesn’t help that you’re extremely touch-starved from the lack of attention and affection he’s shown you in the past few days (since he’s been involved in a lot more missions than usual ) when he snaps at you for visiting the workplace in an attempt to spend some time with him—you didn’t mean any harm. “Are you too blind to see that I’m busy, Y/N? Go find someone else to bother in the meantime, will you?” He says, turned away from you, failing to notice the way you feebly run out of building. He wouldn’t spare a second glance, assuming that it would all be fine when he met you back at your dwelling; after all, l you were used to his back-handed comments, right? Surely you would understand that he was under a bit more stress than usual—right?
Wrong. That night, you went home alone, touch-starved and a mess. Maybe it was the lack of affection making you this emotional, or maybe it was the fact that he had embarrassed you in front of so many subcoordinates, people you knew for Barbatos’ sake! He’s slightly surprised when you don’t answer the door later that night, despite the light in your bedroom still being on. He figures you’ve gone to sleep, so he leaves with a second thought. It’s only after two weeks of you ignoring him does he realize, “did I do something?”
He’s a human too, and humans can get touchstarved at some times—especially when you haven’t made an effort to show him any form of physical affection in the past two weeks! He’d rather pair up with Tartaglia to carry out the Tsarita’s orders than admit it to you, but he does miss you—somewhat. Don’t get me wrong, he knew when he accepted your confession that he would have to deal with things like this, but keep in mind that he’s probably never even thought about being in a relationship prior to you asking him out (especially with the way he treats other people; yes, he’s very well aware that he could be a lot nicer to his people, but does he care? no.) But I’d like to think that at least a little part of him is insecure about how his other harbingers view him, but we’ll save that for enough time—
But the thing that bugs him the most is that the people around him have noticed—it’s hard not to, really, when you turn a blind eye to whenever he tries to make conversation with you. Childe constantly bugs him about it too, which makes it even worse. “Trouble in paradise~?” The ginger would taunt, only smirking when Scaramouche huffs in response, too wrapped in his thoughts to come up with a witty remark back. He can’t help but feel frustrated; why were you getting mad over such a stupid little thing? This wasn’t the first time he’s said such a thing to you, so why? Why were you so upset at him that you couldn’t even spare a glance at him? As much as he hated to admit it, he had to do something before it got worse.
And so the brilliant plan of ambushing you in your home was created! Really, there’s no need to applaud; he already knows how great it is! However, under the layer of confidence that he displays, a little part nags at him; he knows that there’s always the possibility of you not forgiving him for whatever he did this time. He’d never say it but a little part of him is scared to lose you.
You let out a loud sigh as you entered your apartment, kicking off your shoes as you walked into the main room. It was another long day of ignoring your boyfriend. Could he even be called that anymore? You thought to yourself, before tensing up at the sound of approaching footsteps from your bedroom.
“Took you long enough,” An exasperated voice rang from within the shadows, the figure stepping into dim light of the moon to reveal your boyfriend. “I was beginning to think you got kidnapped on your way home or something.” He crossed his arms across his chest, staring you down with an unreadable gaze.
“What are you doing here, Scaramouche?” You asked, a bitter ring to your voice. “I thought you were busy. Surely someone as busy as you couldn’t spare time to drop by my house—so why are you here?” As much as you hated to sound so bitter, what else could you do? It took two weeks for him to realize that you were ignoring him, and suddenly he comes to your house and pretends everything is okay? How does that work?
“I’m here because...” Scaramouche said, walking towards you until your back hit the wall, your eyes wide as he extended his arm until his palm hit the wall. He was close enough for you to feel his steady breathing against your neck—you tried to push him away, but he kept you trapped within his arms. “I needed to say that I was sorry.”
You blinked momentarily at him, silent with shock.
“Geez, was it that weird for me to say that?” Scaramouche rolled his eyes, backing away from your shocked figure. “Stop staring at me as though I’ve grown a second head.”
“Sorry, it’s just—I’ve never heard you say that before!” You spluttered, looking at him with wide eyes. “You mean it though...right? You’re not just saying it, right?”
“Ugh—yes, I mean it. Now,” He said, taking off his hat to place it on top of your head in an attempt to hide the light dust of pink growing across his cheeks. “Can we just...you know—”
“Cuddle?”
“Yes, that. Now get over here, you idiot.”
Again, cuddling is not Scaramouche’s thing, so expect it to be extremely awkward the first couple of times. He runs warm, so cuddling sessions don’t last very long when they do happen. He’s not too keen on physical touch, but he’d make an exception for you—in private, of course. He’d rather die than be caught cuddling with you in a public area, especially by the likes of someone like Childe; he’d never hear the end of it. Cuddling is reserved for only private, rare vulnerable moments—of course, it also applies to moments after arguments like the one shown above. Don’t call him out for it, because he will stop, but he’ll definitely play with your hair for a bit if you decide to lay down in his lap.
If you’re sitting on his lap, he likes to rest his chin on your shoulders; it’s the perfect opportunity to lay a peck on your cheek when you’re least expecting it—your flustered reaction that follows after has him smug about it for at least the next hour. He has you pulled up against his chest and his arms wrapped around your waist and if he’s feeling especially touch-starved, he’ll nuzzle !! into !! your !! neck !! Though, you can feel that smug smile against your neck as you try to push him away, flustered, which only fuels him to do it more~
If the two of you are laying side by side, it could honestly go either way; if he’s extra clingy, he’ll be the big spoon and literally hold you against him in a d e a t h grip. But if he’s feeling a bit insecure or vulnerable, he’ll let you hold him—of course, this is very rare, but it still happens! As said before, it’s extremely comfortable for him in this position and he can fall asleep quietly easily, as much as he hates to admit it.
After an argument or bickering, expect the sessions to last a bit longer than usual; even though it’s uncomfortably warm, he can’t bring himself to let go of you that easily (not that you’re complaining!) Sometimes, he’ll murmur stuff into your ear such as, “I didn’t mean it, okay?” or “Don’t you dare tell anyone about this.” It could go either way, really—
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iisuya-simps · 3 years
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Can I get Headcannons for Ichiro, Rosho and Jyuto with an S/O who’s an idol
A/N: ooooooh yes let's go :D
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Ichiro Yamada
Ichiro was at the convenience store to grab some snacks
when you both reached for the last bag of candy
"Sorry, I-"
his eyes lit up when they met yours
he knew exactly who you were
no, I'm totally not ripping this off from mlqc shut up
"Y-you're-" you cover his mouth with your hand
"Shh, don't blow my cover, otherwise we're gonna draw a crowd."
"Y-you can have the candy if you want! I'll get something else!"
"Why don't we just share it? Hehe."
*Ichiro blushes and SWOONS
you bought the candy and took a walk down a secluded road and bonded a bit
Ichiro loves how down to earth you are, this is like a dream come true
and when the candy is gone you both continue your conversation for an hour or so until your agent calls
"whoops, I have to get going. Here's my info if you want to reach out." You give him a wink as you round the corner to the black van
dID I juSt gO oN a dAtE wITh mY fAVoriTe IdOl??!
*head explodes*
after staring at the number you gave him for a few days he works up enough nerve to message you
"Hey uh, this is Ichiro Yamada, we met at the convenience store the other day"
"Oh hi, listen I'm in the area, do you want to meet up?" :)
You literally show up at his front door
"Y/N!!?" "Nice place you got here. My agent doesn't even know I left, hehe." "I'll be right back!!"
you follow Ichiro into his room to see him rushing to take all of his posters of you off his walls. aw, how sweet~
once caught he'll open up and show you his collection
after a few more surprise visits like this, you become close friends
then he's your secret boyfriend
Ichiro will help you practice choreo for shows
he might even teach you how to rap for fun
Jiro is probably very jealous when Ichiro introduces you to the bros
he can't help but gush about how amazing and talented you are
even though his brothers have heard this rant 12million times before he even knew you
he loves to watch you play dress up when picking out outfits for shows and events
he loves going to your photo/video shoots
seeing you get dressed up in all kinds of crazy clothes is exciting for the both of you
"Hey, hands off! I need this outfit wrinkle-free for the shoot!"
"I can always iron it after babe" ;p
when you show Ichiro a song that you wrote for him dumbfounded and a little teary-eyed
"I can hear all of the emotion you put into this... thank you" *big hug and kiss
when the tabloids start spewing fake facts about you Ichiro is going to be mad but try and keep his cool
"Ignore them y/n, just know that I think you're amazing"
but being an idol is very exhausting
after a long day, you may sneak away to the Yamada household to collapse on the bed in each other's arms and pass out
at the end of the day, Ichiro can't believe that he's with someone that loves and appreciates him as much as he does you
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Rosho Tsutsujimori
It was your dream to become an idol for years
you've been dating Rosho since highschool
he knew you would make it big because you were the best student in theatre, dance and choir
you even got first place in the school talent show for your singing and dancing routine
Rosho was finishing his bachelor's degree when you got signed to a label and went on to become of the biggest idols around
not only is Rosho an amazing boyfriend and support
he may even help manage some financial matters that your agent doesn't handle
Rosho is first to hear your songs when you come up with them
you always confide in him for new song ideas
mostly because you cant stop humming around him
"I can't help it Rosho, you're my muse"
he blushes brightly not knowing how to accept the compliment
one of his students asked why he had a charm of you on his desk
he said he was a really big fan
"What? You Mr. Tsutsujimori? *then proceeded to quiz him the rest of the class
"Please settle down now." "But what about-" *sigh*
If the press is spreading lies about you Rosho will try and talk you down
"Calm down, it's not worth it y/n, let them think whatever nonsense. I know the real you and that's all that matters."
he will help you prep for concerts making sure you eat properly, get enough water and do stretches and voice exercises
the farthest he got to see you live was backstage
which was still a pretty big feat for him considering
he doesn't know how you deal with being surrounded by crowds all the time plus perform in front of them...
you inspire him to work on his stage fright and public speaking
even if its just little things
he is in awe of you and loves the fact that you worked so hard to get to the place you were today
he finds your idol persona just an extension of yourself
he knew that you weren't just a cute bubbly idol
but an intelligent cute bubbly idol :p
Rosho is so touched when you sit him down and show a song you wrote for him
"Is this really for me? y/n... it's amazing. Thank you so much"
he prefers to stay at home for dates as opposed to going out and possibly having someone recognize you
even though your lives are completely different you still
you'll have deep chats about life and your future
you love and support each other the best you can and have a beautiful relationship
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Jyuto Iruma
You first meet Jyuto he pulls you over on the highway for speeding
"License and registration miss."
He noticed you in full hair and makeup then raises a brow
"Please sir, I'm going to be late for my concert. I'll pay any ticket you give me but I just need to get to the stadium"
"I suppose I can let you off with a warning, if you give me a front-row seat"
"Follow me officer" *wink
He tails behind you to the stadium and the guards wave you both through
"I'm not a bodyguard y'know."
"I know, but you can be my police escort!"
your agent yells at you for being late and you scurry around backstage when you trip over a loose cord!
luckily he catches you in his arms
"Ooh, sorry sir. I've always been a bit of a clutz..."
he tries his best to bite back a flirty come back to keep it professional
but says it anyway
"Fallen for the officer already have you?"
you were drawn to his dry wit and charming personality
Halfway through the concert, you come backstage to see him getting ready to leave
"Hey I'm still on duty so I can't stay, but you're really talented and I enjoyed the show so far."
he hands you his contact card
"I suppose we could have a coffee sometime, after all, if you weren't there to catch me I would've sprained my ankle and the show would've been cancelled."
You're both pretty busy but find some time during the day to sneak away for a coffee date
one turns into two, then five
sooner than you know it the officer has won you over and you fall head over heels for each other *literally*
when you show Jyuto a song that you wrote for him he's going to be amazed
"Wow, I'm so thrilled that you feel this way, now come here so I can show you my thanks
*tackles OwO
If gossip comes out about you Jyuto will scout out the lowlife who write the article and bribe them to stop
"It's ok y/n, they'll know the truth soon enough."
"How do you dance in those heels all the time?"
"I wonder what else you can do with them..."
"Jyuto!!!"
Jyuto likes to listen to your music on the way home from work
You may not see each other as much as you want to
but when he sees you on the tv or the stage he knows how lucky he is to have you and he'll do anything to help support you and your dream
and the nights you do spend together are filled with longing and passion
it's a great way of relieving the stress of a hard day's work
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Thank you for reading!
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Obi-Wan Kenobi x Reader - Kiss prompt #1
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NSFW with kix needing some help from his “nurse?”
NSFW: fives eats you out from under your desk while a commander tries to talk to you!
nsfw prompt w/ jesse - they catch their s/o pleasuring themselves and see their lewd expressions and sounds; jesse teaches them some patience
hello! can i have a nsfw prompt with fives? reader is his s/o and she gives him a lap dance for him? fives takes care of her ;)
nsfw with wolffe asking his s/o if he's making them feel good
NSFW for captain rex and s/o where the s/o is pleasuring themselves when rex walks in and they're super embarrassed and tries to apologize when rex decides to help them
NSFW Jesse eating out mechanic reader while she’s bent over fixing something?
for the nsfw request! Echo talking dirty to reader at inappropriate (and appropriate) times 💙
Nsfw prompt with Cody - Cody saves reader and she repays him for his heroic act
nsfw prompt for echo - his s/o wears very revealing clothing around him and echo can't take it anymore and rips off her clothing. thanks
NSFW request: teasing Jesse in front of the shinies and he orders them to clear out so he can fuck your face 😜
NSFW: Fives x reader where it’s the readers first time please? Thanks!
i’d like to request a nsfw prompt with echo? his s/o always sends him lewd photos of herself for him when he’s away, and when he’s coming back she sends him a picture with her in his favorite set of lingerie. thank you❣️
Idk if it’s canon but I feel like Jesse is a bit bigger than your average clone? I was hoping for the NSFW prompt you could write something about him having a size kink and teasing the reader by saying dirty things throughout the day! Thank you!
NSFW with Rex where the reader made him jealous and he snaps? Thanks Love
nsfw prompt - reader is wolffe’s s/o; s/o rides/sits on her commander’s face ;)
Can you do a NSFW with Cody where he just teases her throughout the whole day please? Thanks.
Jesse smut pre order 66
nsfw with wolffe when the reader enjoys teasing
wolffe fucking his s/o inside a laat gunship? thank u❤️
NSFW: could you please do one where the reader is Cody’s first time?? I’ve never seen it done before, and your writing is amazing I thought I’d as you!
Nsfw of Wolffe fucking the reader.
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kaeyas-beloved · 3 years
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Hi!! May I request some fluff headcanons for Fyodor from bsd with a female s/o and they both have two cute daughters? owo
Hello Anon! You may absolutely request this (and thank you so much for doing so)! Thank you for your patience and I hope you enjoy :D
*Quietly chants “soft Fyodor, soft Fyodor, soft Fyodor!”*
Also I hope it’s okay that I made the two daughters twins!
And I’m really sorry if these aren’t the best because I’m still getting the hang of doing HCs and Fyodor is one of these characters that I’ll write for while still being a bit unsure of his character... So I’m sorry for any OOCness, if it’s not fluffy enough or just not good altogether T_T There’s some fluffy bits but still if they you can always come back and request again!
~~~ Fyodor & a F!S/O w/ Twin Daughters
First and foremost - Fyodor had little to no plans to start a family with you. Not because he didn’t love you, but more so because he’s a busy man with his ‘purging of ability users’ plan
Though the day that you told him you were pregnant a new feeling blossomed in his chest
It wasn’t anything grand but he felt a twinge of happiness mixed with some form of pride as the smallest of smiles graced his face
Not a sadistic smirk or a teasing smile but a real one
Dare we say, he may have been excited for what was to come.
Planting a soft kiss on your lips he uttered a “what a pleasant surprise” before going on with his day, you doing the same
And for the next little while nothing changed in your daily routine, almost like he was never told that he’s got a baby on the way
You knew better, this was just how Fyodor was 
Really though he’s working from the shadows and making sure you stay safe, ranging from sending out one of his men to watch over you anytime you go out to just out right eliminating potential threats that are spotted
Fyodor also (subtly) spends just a little less time on his computer as well
A little more than half way through the pregnancy, when a bump has appeared, you two were in bed, back to back and your hand was on your stomach 
Then you felt it
“Fyo!” you called his name, voice a whisper in the dead of night as you sat up. He hummed, turning over to face you, “give me your hand” watching silently as you guided his palm to where yours was just a few seconds ago, Fyodor waited for something to happen.  
And then he too felt it - a strong kick
“It means he’s healthy” he told you simply, looking up into your shining eyes. Oh he’ll never forgot the way you looked that night with a smile that lit up the dark room spread across your face
When the due date drew near, it’s in his best interest when he tells you that he wants you to stay in the house less anything happen to you or the babies
Right - oh you should’ve seen the momentary (and I mean momentary) wide-eyed, shocked look on his face when he was told that he wasn’t going to have one kid but two - both of them being girls too!
When the two little bundles are born surprisingly Fyodor is the one that takes care of them quite a few times when one or both start to cry at ungodly hours of the night
Usually he’ll tell you that you can go back to bed and that he’ll calm them down since he’s up and awake anyway, allowing you the much needed sleep.  
Another surprise? Fyodor can calm his daughters easily. You’ve chalked it up to it being the slightly serene and calming aura he gives off. It’s a trait you’re very thankful for in these situations
During the times that he might be just lounging on the couch (assuming he does such a thing from time to time) Fyodor will let one or both of his daughters sleep on his chest (if he can manage)
When they’re a little bit older Fyo’s a fan of having them sat on his lap while he works at his computer, humming and gazing down at them if they want his attention
You once told him off for having them near a screen so much and so close too, claiming that it’ll damage their eyes
As a form of affection/praise Fyo tends to pat their heads a lot
Is the absolute king at not giving into their puppy dog eyes or pleading smiles 
They want sweets before dinner or want to stay up past their bedtime? Hahaha nope~
He might even tease them with this too. Like he’ll act like he’s thinking about saying yes then go and plainly say no with a teasing smile or something along those lines 
Something he does let them get away with though is wearing his ushanka
Just the mere sight of one of his little girls enjoying wearing it has his a tiny smile emerging and lavender coloured eyes softening the slightest, appearing almost relaxed
That was until both his daughters began to fight over who go to wear it and you and Fyo had to go and buy them their own
MEANING THAT THEY NOW MATCH AND IT’S THE CUTEST THING EVER! 
You’ve tried to sneak a picture but Fyodor never gives you an opening T_T
100% plays the cello for them as a form of entertainment or as a lullaby on nights when neither of them can fall asleep
Also might teach them how to play the instrument if they show any interest in it
Can also teach them skills that he thinks will help them in the world they live in, like how to catch someone in a lie or how to outsmart them
Concerning his... occupation in the underworld, Fyodor doesn’t outright expose them to it, but also doesn’t make a huge effort to shield his daughters from it either
However, that in no way means that if anyone, anyone thinks it’s a good idea to lay a single finger on his family that he’ll let them get away with it.
Lets just say that they won’t escape without proper punishment 
I believe that Fyodor is the kind of dad to allow his kids to roam free, they can do nearly anything they please of their own free will (if that makes sense). 
Like they can go anywhere they’d want to when they’re older, they can have whatever hobbies they please and Fyodor wouldn’t mind what it is
But! That excludes his daughters finding a s/o - perish the thought entirely 
Even if they do get one expect them to have a very thorough background check done on them. Fyodor will know everything about them to ensure his little girls are safe
And if he finds even one thing wrong or believes that this s/o is just using his kid? Someone’s getting a visit from Mr. Rat Man (and no likes when that happens)
Bottom line Fyodor is a relatively mellow dad that will tease his daughters but still be there to comfort them (like the lullaby bit) and try to keep them safe in his own Fyodor Dostoevsky way 
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I hope these were okay and sorry again if they weren’t!
Right now requests are open [check my bio though to be sure]! Don’t forget to check the rules too for the fandoms/topics I write for (which are linked in my masterlist)!  
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utapriyanderes · 2 years
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I really loved that fantasy au with heavens that you wrote about a few months ago! Since it's spooky season, what are some scenarios with vampire eiichi from that au? I'm really curious to know more about him and what it's like being his darling owo Thank you!
I’m happy you enjoyed it! Thank you for the ask and here you go~!
(Edit: After I finished writing this and went to look back at your ask I noticed that I really only wrote one scenario instead of like a run down of the relationship so if you would like more/would like to reask than just send it in and I’ll happily redo! Either way, I hope you still like this!) ~ ~ ~ ~
Your first week at the castle was spent being locked up in your room. Your room was by far the most lavishly designed room in the castle. Everything in it was made for and inspired by you, so it fit into everything you liked. If it was under normal circumstances then you would’ve probably loved to have slept in that room, but considering that you're newly turned and refusing to drink any sort of blood leaves you… quite enthusiastic about all of it. Eiichi would also come over to greet you every night. Right once twilight hit, midnight, and right before dusk was about to make it’s arrival. Everytime he would offer his blood to quench your thirst or offer you something to eat or drink since you might still have some of your human cravings. Though he ended up leaving with no response. During the times he wasn’t asking you if you needed anything he would be busy prepping empty rooms in the castle to fit your every need and want. A room for each of your hobbies, a garden made (with the help of his younger brother) for you to relax in, and even rooms just for the two of you to be together and spend time in each other’s company.
Eiichi knew that eventually you would come out and talk to him, and if worse comes to worse he’ll have to find a way for you to drink his blood just to make sure you won’t die. Though by the end of the week you were already peeking out into the hallway hoping he wasn't there. Then when the coast is clear you make your way out. You walk down the hall trying to ignore the emptiness in your stomach and the dryness in your throat. The feeling of your new fangs wanting to pierce flesh and the craving on your tongue for that sweet metallic red liquid.
You’ve tried your best to ignore it, but the cravings, the wantings grow stronger everyday. You even tried to refuse them by biting yourself in hopes your blood would be able to satisfy this hunger. Except that isn’t enough. You need something else. So you travel down into the deepest, dirtiest, darkest parts of the castle in hopes to find some rats or other small rodents crawling around.
Then as disgusting as it may be, you pick up that said rodent, and bite into it. You suck until the animal is completely dry. The feeling of dirty brown fur in your mouth and on your lips doesn’t even bother you considering how hungry you are. The only thing you taste is it’s blood which tastes absolutely awful, but does its job to quench your hunger.
Once done you place the small lifeless creature back on the ground and say a small “thank you”. You then move around in hopes to find another creature to help fill you up, but then, as soon as you find another and start to make your way to grab it. A cool hand like your own catches your wrist.
“Angel… rats blood won’t fill you. Drink from me, I promise I’ll taste better,” Eiichi’s voice can be heard coming from right behind you. You clench your hand and roughly pull your wrist out of his grasp. You turn around to face him with as much hatred and betrayal as you can. Eiichi tries to move closer towards you, but you take a step back. Eiichi doesn’t move towards you again, but he does tilt his head to the side and raises a sharp claw to it.
“(Y/N)... here.” Eiichi cuts a small part of his neck so blood is coming out of it. The scent of his blood hits you instantly. All too quickly that hunger comes rushing back and you’re left even hungrier than before. As you stare at him you try to resist with all your might. You don’t want to drink his blood, you don’t want to become a monster like him, but his blood smells so sweet. Part of you wants to lurch forward and drink to your heart's content, but the other part of you is struggling to hold onto your humanity. So Eiichi seeing this debate inside of you takes a step forward. You don’t move back. He takes another step and grabs both your wrists. He places your hands on his arms and then grabs you gently by the back of your head, wrapping his other arm around your waist. You stiffen as you mentally try not to give in to what he’s doing, but when he brings his neck closer towards your lips you can’t help but to finally give in.
You latch your lips onto the wound and drink up as much as you can. As soon as the blood touches your tongue you’re melting into his embrace wanting more. His blood smells and tastes so incredibly divine. When the wound starts to close up on itself, you sink your fangs into him for more. You can’t and won’t stop, not until you’re full from his blood. You’re holding onto him tightly, as your gulps and gasps for air drown out whatever noise is in the dark place you two are at. Then as soon as you’ve had enough you’re licking up the blood that surfaced to the top after your puncture holes healed on his skin.
Afterwards you move your head away and you can feel Eiichi staring at you. You don’t meet his gaze, but can feel him stroking your head ever so gently before placing a chaste kiss on the top of your forehead, “Do you feel better now?” Is what he asks you. This question causes you to become aware of what you’ve just done. You don’t know how to feel. You gave into the monster, but you feel so much better now. You can’t believe how good you feel just from drinking his blood. So you end up giving him a small nod. You can hear a “good” come from him before your surroundings change drastically in front of you. You’re now in an extravagantly decorated room that looks to be a lounge. You’re pulled onto the nearest thing, being a red velvet couch, but are instead placed onto your master’s lap.
He moves a hand to grab your chin so you can face him. He moves his face quite closely to yours and says, “I’ll teach you everything you need to know. So, now we’ll be able to fully understand one another. Let’s live for eternity together, in our own special Heaven.”
At the end of his words you feel cool metal getting placed on your wrists. Gold cuffs with red jewels sparkle, but you know exactly what they are. Shackles. To keep you here beside him, forever.
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Missing You: Jack, Epel, Sebek
Requests are open! Whoop! May I request hcs for Jack, Epel, and Sebek on how they would react to their f! S/O wearing their hoodies/jackets? Perhaps even taking a nap on their beds while you're at it hehe- Poor s/o had been missing them as they were busy nowadays because of a pile of tests. They missed their warmth so they went ahead to their room first, snuggling their jackets, and curling up on the bed. Cute fluffy scenario for them cute bois UwU thanks if you do this! OwO ♡♡
Ahh, yes. You are one of the uwu/owo legion, anon. Also I got this like 30 min after I open requests, sooo... kinda surprised. You’re fast.
Sometimes I’m like “Sebek good boy... Hold gently like hamburger” and other times I’m like *fist banging on the table* “I Be mean to loud cabbage boi!!!!!!” This one is very firmly in the first category.
Anyway, on to the fluff.
Jack
Your boyfriend had been working really hard to get good grades in this testing season. You supported him, but you were also getting lonely. You missed his hugs.
You also missed the his jacket that he would lay over your shoulders whenever you got too cold. You couldn’t steal him away from his classroom, but you damn well could steal his jacket.
Actually, now that you thought about it, he had other, non-uniform jackets in his room. And blankets. And pillows. And they would all smell like your wolf.
That decided it. You went to Jack’s room and started poking through his closet. An oversize hoodie, two blankets, and three pillows later, you were happily curled up in his bed.
You were half asleep when the door opened and Jack came in. Needless to say, he was rather surprised at seeing you in what looked almost like a nest on his bed.
You hold your arms out to him and say, “I missed you, so I came here.”.
He lays down next to you and gives you one of the hugs you have been craving. “I just have one more test to get through. What do you say to a date tomorrow?”
Epel
Epel had been forced to spend all of his free time studying for exams, including a test Vil had set on the whole first year’s knowledge of potions and poisons. You sympathized with him but at the same time you missed his warm presence in your day to day life.
You missed his rants about Vil, his spur-of-the-moment puns, his apple carvings, and most of all his affection towards you.
You decided to wait for him to finish up his last exam in his room. Vil successfully avoided, you slipped inside
When you shut the door and took the time to look around, you spotted a big fleece jacket tossed over a chair that looked too nice to resist. One thing lead to another, and soon your had nestled yourself in a small cocoon of blankets.
And then Epel walked in fuming about Vil this and poisons that and how Trein is honest-to-god evil. He didn’t even notice your presence until you called out.
When he got over his surprise, his expression softened. Your boyfriend walked over and sat on the bed next to you, still ranting but not as much.
He quieted down entirely when you laid your head on his lap and kissed his fingertips. After a moment, he sighed and said, “What’s done is done I guess, and that’s the last of them.”. Then he looked down at you and added, “Shall we leave this stuffy castle, then? I hear there’s something new at the Monstro Lounge.”
Sebek
Your boyfriend had been veeerrry busy over the last week, and unlike normal, it absolutely nothing to with Malleus or even Diasomnia in general. No, it was exam season.
You had just finished your last exam and wanted to go find Sebek and steal him away somewhere for some well deserved cuddle time. But alas, he was nowhere to be found.
With a sigh, you head in the direction of your dorm. After a few minutes of trudging along, an idea hits you and you shift your path towards your boyfriend’s dorm.
You slip through the controlled chaos that is the normal state of the Diasomnia dorm and into Sebek’s bedroom. You can see how stressed he’s been by the less-than-perfect order in his room. Normally it’s so neat you have trouble believing that a teenager lives here.
But this had its advantages. There’s a temptingly soft sweater on the floor, and the bed is already messed up.
So, naturally, you tuck yourself into a comfortable corner with plenty of pillows.
When Sebek comes in a quarter of an hour later, he stops in the doorway and stares in shock. He rapidly recovers, however, and flops out on the bed next to you.
“I should have known to look for you here.” He opens his arms and beckons to you. When you comply with his request, he settles you on his comfortable chest and rubs up and down your back.
“Can it just be us for the night? I missed you.” His controlled words do nothing to hide the blush creeping up his cheeks.
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So hi. This is my first ever written & shared headcanon so it might be missing a lot lol. As long as y’all enjoy, I could care less how I wrote it! So here have a Wolf Gavin~! 💙🐺💙 (who doesn’t love a good wolf boi~? ^//^) and yeah this totally was not influenced by his spicy halloween karma before i read his date owo EnjOy!!
< WEREWOLF GAVIN HC >
APPEARANCE
brown ears are sharply pointed, soft and fluffy to the touch
ears display all the kinds of emotions he might be feeling: flattened for sadness or anger, erect for alertness or curious, etc.
loves his ears to be scratched and rubbed, but won’t say so or deny his joy when MC sees his tail wag slightly
he didn’t want his wolf ears pierced, but had to in order to be accepted into a pack
slit amber eyes, they practically glow in the dark
has an incredible sense of smell and will blush at MC’s scent, but try to hide it
is extremely sensitive to stronger smells
will actually gag or choke on strong smells he doesn’t like; he cannot stand them
his tail is huge and will wrap around MC to either keep her warm or close around her to protect her from danger or guide her away from it
pointed canine teeth i.e. fangs
heightened sensitivity in hearing, eyesight, and scent
his full form is exactly like a normal wolf except bigger; MUCH BIGGER; like the size of a pick up trUCK 😳
brown fur with traces of white on chest and front paws 🐾
lone wolf attitude is now magnified
one time MC managed to sneak up on him and startled him that he yelped/yipped in surprise ☺️
STORY
he was chained up and left by his pack because he betrayed them for not participating in an all out killing spree (killing a village of humans)
“You have the heart of a human…not a wolf’s. Of course that’s no surprise since you were turned rather than born…therefore be cursed with a human heart and face a world that will not accept you on either side; human or wolf!”
his pack magically bound him to the castle and encased his true strength within a crystal heart; his task (or “curse” really) in being bound to the castle is that he must find his place in the world
Gavin believes his place to be in a pack so he must figure out how to regain his strength from the crystal heart in order to find a new pack
he guards his crystal heart so that it does not fall in to the wrong hands as it also holds the power to influence him
the crystal heart could or could not be a part of his curse
MC ventures into the castle for research and clues to her past lineage and stumbles upon the crystal heart
Gavin walks in on MC and almost attacks her
MC shields herself, but then manages to connect the dots that he either needs the crystal heart for something or...
“I’m tasked with guarding it…” he tells her, but MC thinks there is more to it so she makes it her mission to figure that out
MC keeps the crystal heart on her person at all times in her brown satchel bag
Gavin is puzzled why MC keeps coming back to spend time with him; he was also very surprised that MC approached him when they first met
as MC continues to possess the crystal heart Gavin’s ice wall around his own heart begins to thaw and melt
eventually MC learns that the crystal heart holds the power to influence Gavin; so she may or may not use it to gain snuggles and/or affection from him to which he reluctantly bends to her will at first, but warms up to her
MC learns that he changes with the phases of the moon; a full moon he is transformed for the whole night until sunrise, a half moon half night, quarter moon quarter night so forth and is not scared by his full form
MC loves to snuggle with him in his full wolf form on cold snowy nights; he does it to protect her, keep her warm and happy; he is extremely happy that she is not scared of him in his full form
will not hold still while MC tends to his wounds (a few scratches) he got while rummaging around the castle
he acted confused when MC threw a stick one time while they were outside; she was disappointed until she busied herself with something and then turned around to see the stick she had thrown by her feet…
...MC looked at Gavin; he stared back blankly, “what?” and she just chuckled to herself
after a long time together Gavin starts to realize that he doesn’t want MC to leave his side; he hates it when she leaves for a long period of time as he’s worried about her
“I’m a hunter,” he tells her. “A hunter is a better protector than your average person, don’t you think?”
Gavin does tell MC about his curse and why he never leaves/cannot leave the castle; he explains that the story of Red Riding Hood is mostly made up but actually true; his pack killed Riding Hood’s village and her white cloak was stained red with blood from being killed
“Hence,” Gavin explains, “Red Riding Hood”
“And most people pair the wolf who killed Riding Hood and her village…to me,” Gavin sighs
“Well,” MC says quietly. “I had that suspicion, but everything they say about you in the village is wrong. You’re not a bloodthirsty monster…you are just…you.”
“But why did you stick around?” Gavin asks the question he wants answered the most
“Because…I like you.” MC smiles shyly. “You’re funny and kind…you have your own feelings and you deserve to be free like everyone else not trapped in this castle so I stayed because I wanted to help you lift the curse and escape.”
I am incredibly lucky to have her… how is it that our paths crossed? She made our encounter possible…and I couldn’t be more thankful…
in turn MC tells him about her past: “I’m actually a surviving descendant of Riding Hood…and I came here to find the truth about my family line’s disappearance which unfortunately was due to your past pack killing them all.”
Gavin is shocked. “How…?”
“My grandmother was still very young, but she was away from the village at the time of the mass killing and she managed to escape into the woods to the next village over.”
“Riding Hood was my great grandmother.”
Gavin apologizes for his pack’s behavior, but MC brushes it aside saying it wasn’t his fault nor should he be apologizing on their behalf
later that night was a new moon and knowing that Gavin gets antsy when she’s away, MC stays the night with him
at that time some men come to kill Gavin upon hearing the “Legend of Wolf Castle”
MC hears the men and goes to try and peacefully dissuade them from their intent but ends up getting hurt
Gavin is on top of a man like white on rice upon hearing MC’s cry
he cradles MC in his arms, “She had nothing to do with your sole mission of seeking ME out!” his voice drips with anger, “So why did you hurt her?!”
with his teeth and fangs, he cinches the front of MC’s dress with the cord to suppress the light bleeding
MC takes out the crystal heart and hands it to Gavin; he takes it
“I know… you’ll make the right choice,” her voice rasps
his eyes turn to the remaining men…his slit pupils become fine lines, brows furrowing, fangs bared with the cinch cord and blood
“For I will stain your cloak red...” he says only for her. “Red with the blood from my heart…that beats only for you now.”
he crushes the crystal heart to a thousand shards with his bare hand and regains his true werewolf strength
Gavin’s curse is broken by MC as she becomes his new pack and he is the alpha…or rather Gavin realizes that he doesn’t need to be in a pack to be happy, but to have someone he loves by his side
and have someone who loves him
Who says monsters cannot love?
Fin.
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I wanna hear abt ur ocs owo 👉👈🥺
AAAA omg bless u you’re a peach <3
I would love to tell you about my OCs I’m like Charlie It’salwayssunny over here I’ve got boxes full of OC stuff I’m just dying to talk about. I’ll put everything under a read more so anyone that’s not interested can just skip past here cause I’m about to get RAMBLY okay let me tell you about my beloveds
Okay so by far my favorite creative project right now is my novel that I’ve been planning on & off since January of 2019, the working title is Villainous, it’s like the most refined and likely to actually go somewhere of all my story ideas and I swear this thing holds my entire soul
The actual story is a play on the classic Career Woman RomCom setup except her name is ~Magnate~ and her big city career that never gives her time for love is ~Supervillain~
unfortunately I don’t have any art of her or any of the other characters yet because good super designs are difficult to nail down, but I’m working on it!
Anyway Magnate is amazing and a bit of an ass and I like her so much <3 She’s a big time supervillain that uses the high tech gadgets she creates for your standard robberies heists kidnapping the mayor the usual. Her parents were shitty white collar criminals that on top of being totally uninvolved in their daughter’s life embezzled from their numerous charity organizations, leading her to be suspicious of anyone that calls themselves a hero + giving her a whopping case of trust issues and a loose grasp on ethics, cuz hey, morality may be a ruse but the power and prestige sure aren’t. She's worked hard and climbed the ladder and made a name for herself as a kickass supervillain, and she plays cool and dramatic but underneath all the bravado she’s just an endearingly awkward nerd who wants a friend, which is where the next character comes in~
So for plot reasons Magnate joins up with another even more infamous supervillain to get a spot as his right hand woman in his plan for world domination, and she’s fine and everything’s business as usual until she’s told that she has to work with another person he’s recruited for her part of the plan to do biochemistry stuff synthesizing the compounds they need while she engineers the tech components, and so enters best boy Dr. Bodhi Bright who crashes into her carefully curated life and ruins everything in the nicest way :)
listen, I LOVE this guy he’s weird he’s a weirdo, just a chill funky lil dude with the most incomprehensible moral compass on Earth. Because of their job he and Magnate have to spend a lot of time together forcing Magnate to actually socialize for once beyond hurling quips at her nemesis, and right of the bat Bodhi completely throws her off her game vis a vis her supervillain image with just his whole deal. He’s this sweet polite guy who’ll talk about a death ray in the same casual tone as the minutiae of city parking, he’s new to the villainy thing and he just thinks Magnate is cool. Bodhi thinks he’s just good at reading people but he actually has minor latent empathic abilities which let him pick up on Magnate’s bravado and so he’s just...not intimidated by her at all. He completely circumvents the whole ‘big evil supervillain’ thing and just talks to her like they’re normal coworkers. And it’s not like they can just find somebody else to replace him so Magnate’s forced to respond and build an actual relationship and rapport with someone for the first time in ever. So they get closer and become actual friends, Bodhi starts calling her ‘Meg’ because Magnate kind of sounds like Margaret, and she lets him. Meg shows him the ropes of villainy, and just sort of learns to be a person again through working & developing this friendship with him, remembering what it’s like to be genuinely happy and excited about her everyday life and care about more than just her job, to open herself up to care about other people at all, and this is a romantic comedy so of course as the story progresses they fall in love and just—GAH I love their relationship so much they're so good for each other I could talk about them forever and I’m literally writing a book about it so like yeah they’re great. my darlings <3.
Here I’ve got some memes to give a better impression of their dynamic
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I've only really got one other important character left to talk about aside from Meg & Bodhi's boss (he's literally the worst & the major antagonist for the book that's all that needs going into for now otherwise this thing is just going to reach unwieldingly more rambly and specific heights) and she's the secondary antagonist, superhero extraordinaire and Meg's nemesis AmaZing (get it? like amazing? except it sounds like amazon? cuz she's a lady superhero—) in a shocking turn of events this woman is the best person out of any of the people here and also the most well adjusted, she is also a very interesting character to me and I could probably pull a whole other book out of her character if I wanted to. AmaZing’s real name is Zoe Amison, before she was a hero she was a professional ballerina with a kickboxing hobby that she used to keep in shape, her first night out I think she was just straight up dressed in her costume for Firebird or something. She has superhuman strength and agility, her powers manifest with these bursts of golden sparks and arcs of electricity which she can direct as a close range weapon, basically she’s very good at the big punchy aesthetics. She’s known as one of the best superheroes in terms of like who they are as people, she tries to help rehabilitate the supervillains she fights, including Magnate, even though most of them have none of it, any money she gets from her hero work she donates back to the community so she can contribute more than just punching muggers, and she does a lot of activism and charity events on the side. She makes most of the money she needs to eat and whatnot in the cornerstore she inherited that her family’s owned for generations, and she lives in the apartment above the store with her girlfriend because YES she’s a lesbian YES her girlfriend is trans YES they are disgustingly in love and YES they own a cat named Petal together. (Her girlfriend’s name is Callie (short for Calliope) she’s a nurse and patches Zoe up when she gets hurt on the job)
And there is so much more I could say about this thing but that’s about all I can muster right now in terms of like a basic overview of these characters. Thank you so much for this ask dude this was so fun to do!!
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bound-writings · 4 years
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Chai tea for Best Boi Teru, please?? OwO❤️❤️
yess!!!! ngl teru and tsukasa are competing for my best boy.. but im leaning more to teru... nwjeoe3 send help they are gonna be the death of me
Teru - Chai Tea
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I like to think that Teru is quite romantic. He knows what he’s doing, and he knows actually what you like. Teru is a great listener, so whenever you ramble on about things that may seem pointless to others, he’s always paying attention. Anything his beloved says has great importance to him. So even though he may not be looking at you while you're speaking, don’t be disheartened! He’s always listening to you. Of course, he gathers all the information you say, including if anything’s bothering you. In a relationship, no matter how tired he is, Teru will always try to make your life easier because he loves you. Struggling with school? He’ll help you with homework and study with you. Need someone to talk to? He’ll lend you his shoulder and let you talk away. People bothering you? Death for them.
He cares so much about you. He makes sure to compliment you daily and is the type to send you those good morning text messages. If you’re ever having one of those bad hair days he’ll definitely be down to just sit down with you, comb and brush in hand. He has a lot of experience with messy hair, he has to deal with Tiara every day! He would comb any knots out of your hair with the utmost care, trying not to yank too suddenly or cause you pain. He would recommend some shampoo and condition as well (how else do you think he keeps his hair so soft?) He is actually a quite motherly and caring lover. The only time he may seem overbearing is if you mingling with supernaturals or if you’re injured, and well, given his personality, you can’t blame him. He appreciates you on the daily, peppering your face in kisses.
Teru likes to give gifts to you. It can’t be anything too big or extravagant, unfortunately, he doesn’t want his fangirls to notice and badger you for dating him. So the presents tend to be small but meaningful. He might give you one of those spirit bracelets he wears so those pesky supernaturals won’t bother you, or perhaps a new clip for your hair. He tends to buy things that remind him of you impulsively so you might have a little section at home just dedicated to all the presents you’ve received from him.
A lot of time is spent in the student council room. No one can bother you two in there, and Teru usually kicks Akane out when he wants to spend some time with you alone. There’s actually a lot of things you can do in there. Whether it’s you two eating lunch together (he likes to tease you by feeding you) or Teru taking a break by napping in your lap while you finish some paperwork for him. He is pretty affectionate in private and doesn’t hesitate to kiss you and whatnot. He loves seeing you all flustered and blushy because of him! He also likes to tease you by flicking your forehead playfully (not to be mean, it’s an act of caring and affection from him) and also ruffle your hair, and then smooth it out. Expect a lot of head pats as well.
Teru would like to take you places but most of the time he can’t because he doesn’t want people to interrupt and spot you two, or he’s just too tired to go anywhere. That’s why most of your dates are spent in the comfort of his home. He feels slightly guilty that he isn’t able to treat you to something special but it quickly washes away at how affectionate you are. It’s just you two lounging around in his bedroom, you forcing him to take a break and relax for once. He likes to lay his head in your lap or chest, while you massage his scalp and run your fingers through his locks of hair. Sometimes you like to read books together. Specifically, Teru likes it when you read aloud to him because your voice is so soft and soothing to him. Your voice is like a melody to him, he cannot help but crave it. A lot of times your voice has lulled him into a much-needed sleep. He is honestly quite chill when it comes to relationships.
Sometimes he likes when you spend time with his family as well, Kou and Tiara. You and his siblings are the most precious people to him so he loves when you two get along! Whether it’s you two just watching Kou and Tiara play in the background or the four of you having a movie night of some sort, y’all are bound to enjoy yourselves.
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starl1ght-child · 4 years
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could I ask for a one shot request of a cayde x f!reader with the prompt "Score for me. I'm up one!" "Where did you learn to count?! We're even." please owo?
Snail, I read this and I immediately thought of Cayde and the reader meeting up at a bar after a long day of work, paying darts, making bets, taking drinks, getting tipsy… just lots of fun vibes.
perma tag list : @mail-me-a-snail @shins-wife @speed-boop @threevie @squadnos @daggerthegamer @reaped-winnower @lady-efriyeet @eris-horn [for some reason it won’t let me tag you :c]
Cayde-6 x F!Guardian Reader - Bullseye
Saw you re-enter Tower airspace.  Meet me at the bar?  20:00.
That message was from Cayde and you smiled to yourself as your Ghost read it off to you.  The two of you met up regularly, it had been your ritual every day since the Red War, but you’d just stepped foot in the Last City after a three-day long mission.  Needless to say, he missed you.  And you missed him.
You didn’t even stop at your apartment to change.  You wanted to see him so, so badly, you practically ran to meet him there.  You went straight past the Postmaster and practically ran to the elevator that led down into the Last City.  The air was warm with the coming summer when your feet hit the pavement.  A short walk into the City later, you were shouldering your way through the door of one of the many local bars within a mile of the Tower.  The moment the door closed behind you, Cayde-6 looked over his shoulder directly at you.  His expression brightened; you smiled as you strode across the room towards him.
“There she is!”  Cayde cheered as he pulled back a stool for you.  “Come in, come in, take a seat.  How’s my favorite Guardian doing?”
You laughed softly at his grandiose gestures.  “I’m fine, Cayde,” you laughed.  “A bit tired maybe.  Happy to be home…”
Cayde ordered you a drink as you sat down on the barstool.  “It’s been quiet here without you.”
“What are you saying, Cayde,” you teased, “did you miss me?”
Cayde chuckled as you took a sip of the drink that was placed in front of you.  “What can I say?  You take all of the excitement with you when you leave.  Tower’s boring without you ‘round.”
You hummed softly as you leaned over and bumped your shoulder against his.  “So, what’s the plan for tonight, Cayde?  Or are you just going to keep feeding me drinks until I’m drunk?”
“Darts.”
“What?”
Cayde waved a hand out in front of your face and there were red and black darts between his fingers.  “A good ol’ fashioned game of darts.  Loser takes a shot.”
Your skeptical face slowly grew into a smile, and you downed the rest of the drink in front of you.  “Alright, I’m game.  I’m going to kick your ass though.”
The night went on, the drinks were flowing, the bar slowly grew more crowded and louder with music, chatter and laughter.  You and Cayde had spent nearly three hours at the darts board, betting drinks, laughing, chatting, catching up.  You twirled the dart in your fingers before balancing it between two and tossed it at the board.  You cheered and hooted when it made its mark, though it wasn’t a bullseye, it was a high score.  Alcohol had started to intoxicate your brain and you were tipsy.  “Beat that one, Cayde!” You laughed as you leaned back against the table next to you.
“Oh I will, Guardian, this match is gonna be all mine, just you watch.”
He tossed his dart and it landed on the bullseye.  He laughed and threw up his hands.  “Score for me! I’m one up!”
You laughed as you walked back over to him.  “Where did you learn how to count? We’re even.  This is matchpoint, cowboy.”  You picked up the last two darts and walked back over to the Exo to hand him his.  “How ‘bout we throw at the same time, yeah?”
“Fine, fine, but this one is still mine,” he teased as he took the dart out of your hand.
“Mmm… I’d like to see that.”
You two leveled your arms and counted down from three, then tossed at the same time.  And this time you hit the bullseye.  
“Yes!  Victory is mine!”  You hooted as you jumped up in celebration.  “Time for you to drink!”
Cayde laughed as he picked up a shot from the table and toasted to your victory before he downed the drink.  “C’mon, Guardian, let’s get outta here.”  Cayde’s hand placed gently on your back as the two of you walked out of the bar into the night air, which had grown nice and cool for a summer evening.  Once you two were alone, his arm wrapped around your back and his hand rested on your hip.
“I had fun tonight,” you said softly.  “I missed you.  Ever since the war…” You sighed softly as you leaned your head on his shoulder.  “I don’t like being away from you either.”
“It’s not easy on me, either,” Cayde admitted.  “Zavala may have given me some more flexibility when it comes to leaving the Tower, but I worry when you’re out there without me.”
“Well then maybe you should come with me more often, I could use a partner.”
“Y/N, you’re one of the best the Vanguard has, you’re just sayin’ that so you can spend more time with me.”
You laughed.  “Is that such a bad thing?”
“Not at all.”  Cayde’s hand squeezed your side gently as he pressed his mouth piece against your forehead.  The two of you were approaching the Tower elevator where you would part ways for the night so he could attend to his duties and you could get some rest.  “Not at all, y/n.”
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sleepy-exe · 3 years
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Shapeshifter AU - 7
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Iwaizumi x f!reader
<< Part 6 | Part 8 >>
Summary: Y/n goes to the park with Iwaizumi and finds a shapeshifter friend. Mizuki wants to know about this guy Y/n has been spending time with.
Word count: 1.8k
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Warnings: none
Genre: sfw (18+ regardless), shapeshifter au, strangers to lovers
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Part 7: We Could Be Friends
Y/n and Iwaizumi made plans to go to one of the forest parks nearly a week ago. But due to busy schedules, they didn't have any free days line up until now. This was the first time in awhile Y/n had been to a park in the forest in a long time. Which meant she wasn’t exactly the best guide. Luckily the park had marked paths through the area versus her usual running wild anywhere between the trees. Seeing sunshine through the trees may have been even prettier than the moonlight at night, tucked behind the treetops.
Used to the quietness of nocturnal animals and lack of any people, this area felt like another world even though they weren’t too far off from one of her frequented nighttime spots. Walking alongside Iwaizumi, she found herself almost constantly catching the sounds and movements of birds and small critters that she wouldn’t normally get to experience. She tried not to get distracted too much anytime Iwaizumi started talking. But with the new sounds and different scents through the trees, she couldn’t help but get distracted some.
“I thought you said you’ve been out here before,” Iwaizumi questioned, breaking her trance of the world around her.
“Huh? Oh.” She realized she had really slowed down her pace but quickly sped up again. “Yeah, but it's been a minute. It’s so.. alive here.”
“Alive? Isn’t fall kind of the opposite,” he said, crossing his arms. “And I mean, it's nice out here, but the way you keep looking around.. It’s like you’ve never seen such a place before.”
She laughed nervously. “Well, the last time I was out here I didn’t notice so many animals.”
He looked around, trying to spot something in the trees or fallen leaves, but other than a squirrel and a couple of birds he couldn’t find anything that could possibly be so interesting. But he decided not to argue. “Right,” fingers tapping his left bicep.
Soon they came across a stream off to the side of the designated path; likely the same stream that ran through where she sat with Sakusa a couple of weeks ago. Y/n took it upon herself to lead them off the path towards it. As she sat down in the leaves, Iwaizumi stood next to her, eyes narrowing. “Aren’t we supposed to stay on the paths?”
She looked up to him and smirked before bringing her attention to the water. “So? What, we might get yelled at? It’ll be fine.”
He watched her for a moment, then sat beside her. “I really don’t want to get kicked out of a park.”
She snickered. “Do you think this is any worse than showin’ up after dark? It’s fine! Just sit here and listen.”
He followed her command. “..The birds?”
“Hmm. Yes, but not just those. You can hear the water move, the breeze shuffling leaves, and there’s either squirrels or chipmunks running around the trees and ground.. Just sit here and relax, listening and being in nature.” She looked around to where she heard each sound as she spoke.
But he can’t hear every sound that she can. “Yeah, I guess I can do that..”
She took the chance to stubbly take in the new sights and sounds, getting better attuned with her lively-to-her surroundings. They stayed like that for a few minutes, before she looked over to him and realized he had been staring at her. Her eyes widened for a split second. “Come on.” She shoved his shoulder with a playfully grin before standing and dusting off her pants. “We’re like what, half around this trail?” She grabbed his arm and dragged him back towards the path with her.
They walked along the path for a while. Watching squirrels run about and climb trees, listening to everything Y/n had pointed out.
Her phone started buzzing repeatedly, so she slipped it out of her pocket to check what’s going on.
>> From ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “r u out on that date yet?”
>> From ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “u said that’s today right?”
>> From ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “when am i going to meet him”
>> To ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “not a date. i told you that”
>> From ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “i barely know anything about him n dont even know what he looks like >:(“
>> From ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “come onnnnn i wanna see this guy that managed to get ur attention”
She chuckled. “It’s Mizuki.”
“How’s she?”
>> To ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “as if you and sakusa didnt get my attention”
>> To ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “what’s wrong with me having a new friend?”
>> From ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “yeah but sakusa was all but forced into our friendship and i forced my way into your heart so whooo forced this lil friendship-thing? Who do i have to thank for helping socialize our Y/n”
She gave an exasperated sigh. “Apparently dying to meet you.”
He raised his eyebrows and slid his hands in his pockets. “You talk about me to your friends?”
“Mmm.. Well, it's hard to keep things from her. It seems like she always finds a way.” She crinkled her nose as they passed a plant that had a strong odor to her, though Iwaizumi didn't seem phased. “That and she saw me texting ya the other day and had to ask questions.” She shook her head. “The ever curious, Mizu’.”
He laughed. “She sounds.. interesting to have around.”
She giggled. “She’s high energy, but she means well. She’s just curious.”
>> To ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “wow”
>> To ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “i am capable of making friends on my own you know”
>> From ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “uh huh and i’ll get to see him when?”
>> From ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “why are you hiding him ;P is he that hot that you want to hide him away lol”
>> From ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “love u”
“Maybe you should introduce us.” He bumped into her, grinning.
“If I do that she might drag you on last minute adventures. Which could range from running around downtown or staying in. But mostly out.” She gave a half shrug.
“That almost sounds like a complaint,” he said.
She waved a hand defensively. “Don’t get me wrong, I love the city and coming out here, but I prefer staying in more than she does.”
“Maybe we should have stayed in then.” He looked her over, noticing she was no longer looking around constantly. “Though you seem.. Not so overwhelmed now.”
She blushed in embarrassment. “Ah- Hmm, I’d say more like.. Deeply enjoying.. This place.”
He looked unimpressed by her poor explanation. “Uh huh.”
She cleared her throat and their conversation paused as they made their way to the end of the path. Enjoying the sights and sounds around them in the process.
“But really, I do love her and love having her around.” She giggled quietly to herself. “There’s not a dull moment with her. I may have to raise her spirits from time to time, but she can do the same for me.”
He smiled softly. “Sounds like you’re good friends.”
She hummed an agreement. “Maybe I will introduce you sometime.”
>> To ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “love you”
>> To ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “You became friends in college, right?” He tilted his head towards her.
She shook her head. “Yeah. We were both business majors and had a couple of classes together.. my second year, I think. And well, she has a way of befriending anyone. So next thing ya know, we were friends.”
Approaching the parking lot, they stopped to chat. Not having plans for if their little outing stopped here or not.
“Do you ever do anything other than go for walks or to bars in your free time?”
“I go out to eat,” she said matter-of-factly, then looked around the lot in front of them until she spotted her car. She found Iwaizumi’s green Tacoma several cars down from hers in the process.
He nodded slowly. “Okay.. but if those three things suddenly didn’t exist what would you do?”
She shrugs nonchalantly. “Guess I’d die.” She smirked.
He rolled his eyes and pointed to his truck. “So you don’t want to go to grab a bite then?”
“You have found my one true weakness,” she says dramatically with a hand on her chest and a sarcastic grin.
He shook his head. “Come on, follow me. There’s a little cafe not far from here, if that’s your thing. I can give you the address.”
She happily agrees at the promise of food and they head for her Civic. She drops into the driver’s seat and leaves the door wide open while Iwaizumi gives her the address. Once she has the GPS ready to go, he walks around the car to head for his truck. Kicking one leg outside the car, she texts Mizuki, deciding to entertain her with a selfie of the two from the beginning of their walk.
>> To ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “here”
>> To ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “Attachment.jpg”
>> From ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “ooohh!! owo”
>> From ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “he is HOT! no wonder you’re keeping him around”
>> From ‘My Best Bitch <3’: “you met at that bar?? damn maybe i should have joined you lmao”
Hopefully that’ll keep her happy for a bit.
“Hmm?” Blur of orange to her right catching her interest. A gorgeous red fox had appeared while she was preoccupied, walking around the open driver’s door. Her eyes widened at the sight. Foxes typically stayed away from her, but she was almost only ever out here as a wolf, so that’s only to be expected. The fox sat on the pavement, giving her a cheerful tail wag. She cooed, “Hey there lil’ fella.”
Immediately the fox’s ears pulled back, and she swears its face scrunched. Not a minute later the fox swiftly hopped into her car and onto her lap, completely catching her off guard.
“Ho?” She squinted. How strange. She would have never imagined such behavior from a wild fox; though there is a shifter that looks oddly similar that probably would crawl in her lap if given the opportunity. He does have the same set of face markings..
The realization of the situation hit her. “Oh! No no, hey! I’m not alone here!” She quietly scolded the shifter in her lap, looking over to where Iwaizumi had parked but she couldn’t spot his truck passed the other cars from here. “Ah shit, do you need a ride home?” She asked the fox shifter just before he hopped into the backseat.
“Okay, uh, hold on.” She quickly dialed Iwaizumi, “Hey, uh, sorry, um.. No, no.. A friend just got a hold of me and needs me to take them home.. Ah, no! He’s fine, just- ..Actually, can we just change locations? ..Yeah, no, he's remotely close to where you live, kinda, so if you want to go anywhere around there, I can meet you when I’m done or something.. Yeah, yeah! I think I know that place..” She peered into the backseat at the fox. Cupping the microphone and sighing, she whispers to the fox, “You’re lucky I love you.”
Back to the phone, “Okay! I’ll see you there! Sorry, again!” Hanging up, she started the car. “Stay down until we hit the highway. Don’t shift yet either.”
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Homework Time
Okay okay. I’m supposed to make a list. 
The negative thoughts. Negative thoughts.
It’s my homework. I know  I could do this privately but whatever. In for a penny, right?
And after reading Lan Zhan’s update…… Well I’ve got lots of negative thoughts.
Lan Zhan, this does not mean stop posting or that you should sugar-coat what happened. This is gonna suck for both of us but it’s what we need. 
And after the pain I caused you it’s the least I deserve.
Okay. Anyway...
So I’m supposed to write out my negative thoughts  and what triggers them. Like the ones that happen a lot. I’ve been adding to this list through the week but since my next session is today I may as well post it as ‘done’ now, huh?
This… uh… this is gonna be a bit depressing I guess. So ignore this if you want. It’s apparently supposed to help me process. 
I Am Not Good Enough:
I can’t measure up.
I don’t deserve this.
He is out of my league.
He deserves better.
Triggered By: This tends to be triggered when Lan Zhan does something particularly kind for me. Like things that I can’t reciprocate. When I just have to receive without having to pay it back. I feel like I should be paying it back. 
Frequency/Intensity: This comes up occasionally and tends to pass quickly - Overshadowed by more positive feelings of love, happiness, and gratitude. Can creep up later again when it’s quiet at night.
Im Useless: 
I’m not good for anything.
I’m no help to anything
Nothing I ‘own’ is mine
I provide nothing
I only take
Triggered by: When Lan Zhan spends money on me or gives me gifts, and when I try to do something nice for Lan Zhan involving money I realize that all of my money is from him. Even what I earned from the cafe is from him. I’m spending his money on him. I don’t have any talents to provide for him instead so it’s all I can do.  Everything I own no matter what it is now is from him. 
Frequency/Intensity: Generally a couple times a week. It’s not overwhelming but it makes me feel guilty the entire time we go out somewhere. It makes me feel like I’m nothing but a burden. Or like I’m some sort of weird pet. 
My Fault:
I cause pain to others. 
I will mess this up.
I deserve my pain
I break everything I touch. 
I am nothing but trouble.
Triggered By: Literally any time I do anything that mildly inconveniences anyone. If I cause problems for others I feel it in my soul.
Frequency/Intensity - Constant. Was getting better but has increased 100 fold since the RE incident. I now have nightmares of hurting Lan Zhan. I haven’t told him - Sorry Lan Zhan. I didn’t want to wake you up because it feeds into the ‘my fault’ problems. Intensity varies from mild to debilitating. 
This Can’t Last: 
This is too good to be true. 
I’m too happy - Will end soon. 
They’re tolerating me
He will regret this.
He will resent me.
I’m bound to fail. 
Triggered by: Random. It accompanies great bouts of happiness. I will be in a wonderful mood and suddenly get the ‘waiting for the other shoe to drop’ emotions. - fueled by past experience
Frequency/Intensity: Less frequent now but very intense. Sours positive emotions by turning them to dread and negative anticipation of when the happiness will leave forever. The happier and more positive the original emotion, the more intense the switch. 
I’m Not Worth It:
No one should care about me. 
I don’t deserve this happiness.
I am nothing. 
I am pathetic.
I’m worthless.
I need to try harder to make up for them having to tolerate me.
Triggered: Constant. This feeling is underneath everything I do at every moment. I feel the need to prove myself or to be worthy of other’s time which causes me to overcompensate. In my youth it made me a show off. Now it makes me overwork myself to the point of exhaustion. Generally so low that it’s more or less subconscious but I know it’s there if I think about it. 
Frequency/Intensity: - see above-
Appearance:
My scars are disgusting. 
He’ll be disgusted 
Don’t let him see
Don’t let him touch them
Disgusting.
Triggered: Whenever I see his eyes move to my neck or shoulder. I know he sees them. I feel like I’m not attractive anymore. And he touches them. Don’t force yourself. I know they’re hideous. I don’t want to tell you because I don’t want to make you feel bad. But you don’t have to force yourself to touch them. Or look. The one on my back was already bad enough but these…
Frequency/Intensity: It’s… not every time we get undressed but it is most of the time. Normally I can get past it once things get more.. Heated. But when I see them myself by looking to my shoulder or in the mirror… that’s when the smoke comes back. Looking at my hair and my scars. This one is new and harder for me to deal with because I’m not used to this kind of insecurity. I used to be attractive and I can still pull it off but… I wondered for a long time if Lan Zhan noticed all my new shirts had higher necks. Well I guess he’ll notice now because you’re reading this, aren’t you? I’m sorry I can’t talk about these in person. I’m working on it. I’m sorry. 
Okay that’s…. That’s enough….
I realize a lot of these are rather…. Related. I broke them into sub-categories based on more of how that particular thought makes me feel, but I know a lot of them kinda…. Overlap. 
There are… more. I know there are. But my defense mechanism is to not think about them. Lock them behind those doors I used to talk about. So….
Well this is what I can do for now. 
…………..
I don’t like this….. I’m…. 
Ugh…. Okay be a big boy Wei Ying. Go ask Lan Zhan for cuddles. He likes your cuddles. He likes you. Go cuddle your husband. It’s not an inconvenience. 
Okay. I’m gonna ask Lan Zhan for cuddles now instead of sitting by myself pretending I don’t feel like shit right now. :D See? I’m learning. 
@i-am-gusu - Cuddles plz. owo
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ajokeformur-ray · 4 years
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Hey...? I’m here for a matchup for both Arthur and Joker pls? OwO I’m 19, and I’m 5’0. I’m plump, because of my breasts and hips, so it’s curvy?? But I’m super insecure, and shy. I love drawing, reading and writing. I have anxiety, I keep all the negative emotions buried, because I don’t want anyone around me to carry the same emotional baggage w/ me. Anyway, I’m also a loner at school. My past experiences give me a hard time to trust ppl. I hope these are enough. Love your matchup thingy
Thank you, my love! I hope that you enjoy this!💝
Total wc: 1, 580.
Arthur // wc: 801.
There is an eight inch height difference between yourself and Arthur which means he has increased protectiveness over you. It is not because you are small that you are weak, but Arthur even still loves nothing more than to fold his upper body into yours; drawing you so completely into his chest and keeping you safe. You melt into his body so easily and Arthur likes to rest his chin on the top of your head, his arms tightly around you, or to rest his forehead on the curve of your shoulder,periodically turning his head so that he can kiss your neck if he wants something more intimate and comforting in nature. The both of you are insecure and shy, so it takes a fair while for the both of you to get a relationship going. However, Arthur can sense in you a kindness, a goodness, which other people don’t carry on their sleeves like you do, and he gravitates towards you like a moth to a flame. With you, however, he is not burned, but nourished and loved, cherished and treasured. One thing is for sure, and that is that he loves all of you for precisely who you are and he wouldn’t want you any other way than how you are right now, reading this. You are his one and only and he loves you so deeply and so completely.
You are artistic and creative and Arthur gravitates towards that, so musically inclined a soul is he and though he wouldn’t ever ask, he would like to read the things which you write if you are willing to share it with him. Sometimes he wants to share his journal with you and he will invite you to sit on his lap while he reads to you, his strong, dark brows furrowed as he reads it out, his sea green eyes darting up periodically to see your reaction to his thoughts. When you engage in your creative hobbies, Arthur likes to join in by way of you spending time together separately. You will be sat on the worn sofa with an old film playing quietly on the television, and Arthur will be sat at the small kitchen table writing in his journal. Occasionally will he read out a joke and if you laugh, he will add it to his show. Your reactions to his comedy ends up tailoring his performances to your sense of humour over the months. Arthur knows well what it means to be anxious, and he never thinks of you any less for it. He only understands, and he reassures you whenever and wherever possible, and even with his own struggles he puts you first. You keep your emotions to yourself, as does Arthur, though for different reasons. Even so, the two of you learn to open up and to trust one another. There is no burdening of the other person, when the other person is only too willing to help you carry your emotional baggage. You grow together and you live together and Arthur can only wonder how he lived at all before he had you in his life. All he knows is that now he has you in his life, he never wants to go back to the time before such a miracle; you’re his everything.
You’re nineteen and Arthur worries that he’s too old for you; he’s almost if not actually twice your age, but you don’t let it deter you! You’re a fully consenting and informed adult, as is Arthur, and you know yourself and your mind. You love him and you show him every single day, so strongly that not even his demons, shouting at him daily, can convince him otherwise. Arthur can relate you being alone even in a crowded place, for he has been socially isolated for his entire life. You have had bad experiences in the past which have impacted upon your present, especially when it comes to friendships and trusting people, and Arthur understands that all too well. It isn’t easy but he does what he can to help you to learn to trust him, and in teaching you does he end up relaxing as well. It takes time, for the both of you are shy, but there’s something in his smile, something about Arthur, which you can’t put your finger on, and it’s the very same for Arthur when it comes to you! You really grow together slowly and then all at once and neither of you would have it any other way. Two lonely souls, one destitute city, and a whole lot of love makes for a tale worthy of the big screens; made for each other are you! Arthur loves you for all of you and that has never and will never be any different!
Joker // wc: 779.
By the time, some months later, Arthur comes home dressed in a three piece crimson red suit, greasepaint smeared and his hair a mess, the two of you are fully comfortable with one another. Changed though he may be and unpredictable is his nature, one thing remains the same and it is this: Arthur loves you for all of you. He adores all of you and if ever you become physically insecure, Arthur is there to reassure you. Fussed is he not with his partner’s appearance, just so long as you are safe and comfortable within your own self, and he often is insecure of his own appearance. He feels like he could be stronger, richer, and someone all around better for you, and even as Joker does he have these same insecurities. These insecurities are both worn them like armour so they can’t be used to hurt him and being shed by him at the same time. A walking contradiction is he. You are insecure and shy and by now, Joker knows how to reassure you, how to protect you and how to be there for you, even through the haze of his now non-medicated mind. There is nothing that he won’t do to protect you, dearheart, you’re his greatest treasure and his strength, his joy and his saving grace. You’re his entire life and he will spend the rest of his showing you the true depth of his devotion to you.
You are creative and whereas Arthur used to want to ask if he could read the things you have written or view the things you have drawn, Joker now expresses it clearly. He will come up behind you when you’re sat on the worn sofa drawing or he will slide up on the bed with you, and those strong arms clad in crimson will curl around your waist or your shoulders. “Can I see, darling?” or “that’s a lovely look on your face, doll. What’s it about?” His voice is soft and raspy and if you say yes, then he breaks out his journal and the two of you spend long hours sharing your artistic works together and talking about your inspirations and your feelings about certain things. If you say no, then Joker shrugs it off and he will simply ask you at a later date. it’s not that he pesters you about it, but you can’t say no every time; you will say yes eventually and he can be patient. You have anxiety and Joker knows you. He knows you and from a single glance can he almost always accurately read you and your mindset. He knows how to help you and he knows when to help you. He has his anxieties, too, and with him werewolfing out on the streets often, it can cause your anxiety to spike, especially when he is gone for all hours of the day and night without so much as a note, but he always makes sure to come home to you. You are his one and only, the only one who makes sense to him, and you’re his home. Joker is unpredictable and there is no telling what will set off his outbursts, but by this stage in your relationship, you’re safe with each other and Joker always encourages you to talk to him. “Come on, talk to me,” is his usual soft plea. He wants to be there for you; he lives for you. A problem shared is a problem halved, and if you keep sharing each half as it decreases in size, then soon there’s no problem at all!
You have been deeply hurt in the past, as has Joker, and the two of you have built up a relationship of mutual trust and respect, from which blossomed love so intense that the both of you wonder just how you survived without each other in the past. The both of you help and support one another and it’s not easy; some days it’s infinitely harder than others, but it’s worth it because of the love which exists between the two of you. Joker sees you, he knows you, he loves you, and there’s nothing that he wouldn’t do for you; just as there’s nothing you wouldn’t do for him. You are so so supportive of each other and so in love that any outsider’s looking in have their hearts broken in the best way just from seeing how tender you are with each other. You’re much younger than Joker, but he doesn’t see that; he only sees the woman he loves, the woman who loves him, and that’s all that matters to him: always you.
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