#other people dont seem to have that much of a problem

[inkyray]

https://www.reddit.com/r/tarayummysnark/s/GNCNcC6cTc

i don’t even really dislike tara it’s just so hard watching this bc i can relate to alyssa sm and it completely turned me off from her completely

also watching stuff about jake johnny and tara wasting food is also very ignorant when with inflation many people can’t even get enough food on their tables

i do wanna point out this was apparently a drunk episode, alcohol definitely alters ur brain to do compulsive things, just want to get this out of the way.

as someone who deals w depression and anxiety i think the way alyssa handled it was pretty mature. and if you take taras personality accountable, you should understand that she's a loud person who most of the time speaks her mind. now im looking at this from an adults pov, idk about yall. i definitely do think what she did was really insensitive and a dick move, but we cant act like, under the influence or not, had a thought in mind and hadn't done that before.

everyone has their flaws and something shitty about them, just because tara is more chronically online than others, doesn't mean you should feel entitled to immediately hate her for slipping up. just because you see them online doesn't mean youve got them all figured out lmao, alyssa seems to know tara in a way people through the internet don't. if alyssa has problem with it, than it's completely valid, but it wouldn't really make sense if someone on the internet felt the need to constantly point it out

as for the jake and johnnie and tara wasting food thing, i dont have much to say since i literally dont watch a single one of them, but ive always agreed that wasting it is wrong, but i think instead of getting angry about it, we should educate them about it lol

#tara yummy #johnnie guilbert #jake webber #matt sturniolo #chris sturniolo #nick sturniolo #nicolas sturniolo #sturniolo triplets #christopher owen sturniolo #christopher sturniolo #sturniolo fanfic #the sturniolos #sturniolo #jake and johnnie #johnnie and jake #matthew sturniolo #matthew bernard sturniolo #sturniolo x reader #sturniolo edit #sturniolo fluff #sturniolo imagine #chris sturniolo x reader #chris sturniolo x you #the sturniolo triplets

[thebigqueer]

unrelated to that rb but im thinking about it and i dont think piper liking jason was ever a forced heteronormativity thing i think she genuinely liked him

#like i relate to her so much cuz like i also like guys and even though at this point in my life im more attracted to girls ive never #considered my guy crushes as 'not knowing i was queer' i think i genuinely liked them #but also the concept of piper not dealing with her internalized amatonormativity hits sooooo hard like i didnt even think of it like that #the fact she moved on from jason so quick too. not that she needs to always feel sad for him but it had to have been like at max 4 months #which isnt to say people cant move on its just for your ex bf dying that seems so quick to me #her turning to romance again to help her problems because its just what shes always been led to believe #especially as a daughter of aphrodite.... wow many thoughts. want to put her in the microwave #in other news i totally admit as cute as her and shel are it was definitely forced as a way to 'show' she was queer #but she didnt need a girl to show she was queer she could hvae just told it honestly. not everyone who finds out theyre queer is immediatel #in a relationship and you dont always need a relationship to realize youre queer #sorry that post got me thinking about other things lol #piper mclean #riordanverse

[claitea]

spills a bunch of ns on the floor

#pokemon #pokemon bw #pokemon black and white #n harmonia #pokemon n #clai's art #did you know. that i like n. a lot. verrrry much #personal thing: i dont get why reshiram fits n at all? #everyone seems to have a preference about which dragon n should have but i dont get reshiram #n had such drastic motives because he was Lied to his whole life. ghetsis only showed n pokemon that were harmed by humans on purpose #so that n was blind to the fact that the majority of pokemon are fine with humans and like living with them #so while n had the best intentions and honestly believed pokemon were only going to be hurt by humans. and some Are #it wasnt the whole truth. the world n wanted ignored the Real truth that pokemon and humans can coexist with no problems if they try #so zekrom fits him better because it was n's Ideal world not a world built on Truth #protag with reshiram consequently makes more sense because protag shows n the truth. that pokemon can be happy with humans #maybe it is because i played black/black 2 so i'm used to zekrom with n and reshiram with me. but i genuinely dont get it #anyway thats my rambling about which twin dragon n should have #if someone Could explain why reshiram fits n i'd like to hear i'm genuinely curious about other people's reasoning!! #anyway. n my beloved. my first favorite since i played bw for the first time 12 years ago until emmet and ingo knocked him to third lmao

[redrockbutch]

The thing I hate the most about Christmas is that it has the simplest, most obvious holiday gimmick ever (give and get presents) but the Christmas Lovers™ just. Refuse to accept that this could possibly be a factor in why people who aren't children like Christmas over other holidays like sorry but you live across the street from your parents I dont believe that you literally only ever see your family But One Day A Year on Christmas, so the whole "I just love being with family uwu" schtick is so fucking transparent just say you like presents!!! Just say it!

"Oh the strange mystical unnameable magic of Christmas..."

Yeah that's presents and enforced Christianity and it's never been mystical or strange

#I have had two people in my life ask me about Christmas traditions with my family when not forced to do so by a questionnaire of some kind #every year everyone I know asks me what I got for Christmas #THE PRIORITIES ARE NOT OBFUSCATED IN ANY WAY #Cassidy.txt #I genuinely and truly would have so much less of a problem with people acting like I'm a serial killer for thinking Christmas is overrated #if they would admit that they like it mainly bc of presents #but instead I'm painted as a hater of humanity bc I think Santa Claus is fucking stupid and pointing out you could do literally every singl #'Christmas activity' whenever you want but you dont. you ignore your parents who live across the street until it's FB photo time. #so I guess there's also a kind of Christmas lover who just likes the social cache floating around this time of year #if it seems like I post about this a lot it's because everyone ignores it whenever I have brought it up interpersonally in any way :) #if you dont like Christmas you get social ostracization #FROM ADULTS? #You asked if I'm excited for Christmas and just said 'not really' and then we dont talk for three days #it's just a fucking day you could give people presents and do stuff together whenever you wanted! #put down the hallmark channel. it's just a fucking day like any other. you give everything your own meaning and I find none in it and #that takes nothing from anyone!!!! #I will say the funniest thing is hearing people describe why they like Christmas #and realizing they're just describing having time off of work #yes they're anti union they always are 🫶

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#so i survived my 1st week as a phd student. it's interesting. im not sure how i feel #the negatives are that i forgot how much stress being around people causes me. as a research assistant i was able to be on my own schedule #and go into the lab at odd hours so i never had to see anyone. but now im in classes and teaching and have a shared office #classes are tolerable stress wise so long as im sitting on an edge. i only feel a lil like im dying. teaching makes nauseous beforehand. #which is odd bc im not really worried while im doing it or before im doing it. i thibk its just that i have to interact ans i kno im a #mediocre teacher bc id rather die than do the back and forth of asking questions and u should teach interactively #i like to break down complex idea and help people with problems but i was not build to teach in classrooms. i get knocked off points when #i give class presentations bc i cant make eye contact lol. so that'll b annoying this semester. and its just so hard to function in an #office space. idk its weird like i dont even feel it that much while im there its just like a flashing *i need to leave* alarm. and then #when im alone its like a physical weight off of me. and i cant tell if thats what's draining my energy or if ive just cycled into a low #energy lul bc im just like. i wanna sleep. and for me thats always a sign that somethings wrong. i dont feel that bad mood wise but its #like there's a rock weighing me down as im trying to tread water. so those r the big negatives. the positives r that #i do enjoy being back in school. i love the structure of it. but im also self destructive abt structure so well see how it goes. but my #lab mates seem nice as does my advisor. i feel a bit bad bc ill have to learn genome stuff from the ground up. and today i was trying to #convey ideas to him like an insane person. bc i dont have enough background to talk fluidly abt my prospective project and i have a picture #of what i mean but not all the details. hopefully i made some sense. i think the idea is cool. and thats the other really positive thing. #the papers i have to read associated with this project r waaaaaaaaaay more interesting than anything i ever had to read for my masters. like #they're the types of papers i would force other ppl to read for lab meetings. so im optimistic abt not hating it by the end haha #yay for being excited abt science. but i guess thats the other thing i feel bad abt. like im interested but haven't read a lot to prep bc #i cant express how difficult dyslexia makes things but also i cant control how interested in things i get so i bassically banned myself #from reading papers im actually interested in like 3 years ago bc in retrospect i was prob going thru a hypomanic episode #and i was like reading papers abt microbes in Antarctica all day and not working on my stuff. and i just remember walking into the lab at #like 5am to trasfer alage with tears streaming down my face bc i was just like. i cant have this nice thing and b functional. it has to stop #so i just created this weird barrier in my mind where im not allowed to read fun papers. so its odd to b reading them now for work. its odd #also i was walking to my office worring abt things and then i saw some moss growinf around the edge of the sidewalk and it made me wanna cry #bc i am an extremely normal individual. i have normal feelings abt photosynthesis. but anyway yeah. its been interesting #hopefully ill stay optimistic. next week we have a orientation for new grad students. and i might have to drive like an hr away. hate that #the driving i mean. not the orientation. that should b fun #unrelated

[sereniv]

just venting

i mean whats the end goal for any of them

the politicians, the rich

to start a world war? to cause an uprising? an economic collapse? an unlivable planet? chaos?

bc thats whats going to happen

everything is being stretched so fucking thin that they will have nothing left for themsleves, they will have destroyed everything and then what??

wait until the last possible minute to either die from natural causes, vices, or kill yourself??

like what is the end goal? world domination? (im talking about the rich and politicians in general)

bc if its power that only goes so far. same with money.

even if you enslaved the whole world it wouldnt last. it cant it just is literally impossible

this kind of shit is finite, being a terrible person has a limit

they want to feel so powerful but is there an end?

but i guess they literally are just riding the wave until they die.

i just cant wrap my head around it

and its so fucking hard to give up. i want to give up so bad and just stop caring and just focus on whatever i want and get in that shitty richy politician mindset

because i dont believe in accountability after death, but i cant.

even with the anger and wanting these people dead and this strong beyond words feeling of hate for them i still cant fathom and understand the hate they have for everyone who isnt them or like them

if they all dropped dead im celebrating

but if i had a choice between them changing all of a sudden and them dropping dead id choose change

how does someone become like them how does that hate and anger grow so much that it practically oozes out their pores

i cant help but not give up and i cant help but have hope

their ways are not sustainable and everything is already breaking and i hope it breaks soon like full on. whatever that means

#because all thats happening right now is trying to hold together a cracked dam #just pull the fucking walls down #anyway i really hope enough people dont vote for biden #i obviously dont want trump #but there needs to be SOME consequences to his actions #there needs to be SOMETHING #i saw a little girl dead still holding a piece of bread in her hand #i saw half a baby #the terrorizing in ukraine the terrorizing in sudan the congo palestine #its too much it hasnt felt this much before #like everyday every hour is like #is bisan still alive? is motaz? is wael? #and i dont want to be one of those people that like #yknow. talks about how the Opression of others affects them #bc i never know how it sounds when i vent like does it seem like im making it about me or is it just venting #its just everytime I eat everytime i run water from the tap everytime i turn on the heat or watch a funny video i cant stop thinking of wha #is happening. and i mean i always have that problem in cold and hot weather with houseless people. #but it feels wrong to witness and it feels wrong to not think or remember #im not going to change anything as an individual. and im doing what i can but it just feels like #idk. #it just feels bad being able to vent and then just #go and scroll #like change the topic reblog a soybean rat #ugh

[girlscience]

speaking of being slow. i wish i was a faster writer. i can write and i can write well, but it takes me significantly longer than nearly everyone i know. i just cannot get words out as easily as other people seem to and it is so frustrating all the time. i am working on editing my resume right now for applications. this is the third day i have worked on it. all i have needed to do this entire time is change the format to fit grad school rather than a job and add my recent work history. this isn't even two pages long. i have been working on it for 3 and 1/2 hours tonight and it's still not done. ITS NOT EVEN 500 WORDS APPARENTLY. i want to cry

#it doesn't help that the vast majority of my friends are writers or english or lit or poli sci majors #my sister did pr and communications #everyone was always writing papers and presentations and speeches #i VIVIDLY remember my last semester at college sitting down with my sister to do work #cause we were home from covid. and in the several hours we were sitting there she got a seven page paper done #and i didn't even finish one page #i just cannot write the way other people around me seem to be able to #i dont know why it is so much harder for me than other people #i always felt bad when i did group projects because i would be working as hard as i could... and i just wouldn't finish the same amount #as the other people because i just couldn't make the right words that fast #and i am already stressing about it for grad school because everyone talks about how grad school is so paper and presentation focused #people say its easier because you dont have to do worksheets or tests and instead you just have to write #(and im doing a thesis masters so i will have to WRITE) #but... the worksheets and problems and tests are what i am good at #that is what comes naturally to me. noticeably so. #but writing??? i am going to struggle #and i already know it. as always..... why am i doing this again? #why do i think i am going to be good enough for this?? hahaha #god i just need to get this resume done so i can start the painful process of writing my personal statement

[thekingofchungus]

taika watiti ruined my life

#ofmd s2 #so ive heard we dont like ed slander over here #sorry to hear that cause you're gonna have to not read the rest of these tags in that case #i loved this show when i started it and i still appreciate it i just. there are Things #there are Things that i dont Get and theyve taken one of the romantic leads that had so much going for him and theyve just massacred him #at the expense of one of my other favourites ( not an izzy apologist. he did literally nothing wrong ) #and idk something about a visual encapsulation of how the show seems to think his partner just needs to Fix Him just eroded me #i dont have it in me brother i dont know how i can get through the rest of this #you fuckign take people's toes you're not a tragedy ur the fuckign problem......i cannot

[theygender]

Yeah sure growing up abused may have left me with permanent scars on my psychological state that I'm still working to unpack, but on the bright side it gave me the ability to give a thoughtful in depth analysis of Roald Dahl's Matilda and all of its adaptations

#rambling #i love matilda so much. its such an important story to me. its literally just an abused childs power fantasy #where she gets to get back at the people who hurt her and protect other kids and then get a new loving family and everything is alright #my gf and i just watched the movie adaptation of the musical and we have Opinions on it. some good and some bad #so weve been discussing it and analyzing different parts of it #and its kinda nice to get to use my history for something good #to be able to give thoughtful analysis on how the changes they made in this adaptation have changed the allegory for abuse in the story #from the perspective of someone who grew up with that #and to just. have that be normal. my gf knows my history and its not gonna stop the conversation if i say #'this change works well for trunchbull's character bc it makes her seem more like a real life abuser' #'this detail is very subtle but it really captures some tiny part of the experience of growing up with an abuser' #'i dont like this bc it detracts from the narrative of the main character feeling alone and makes it less relatable to abused kids' #'i dont like this because while it IS something that happens under abuse it detracts from the fantasy where the kids all win together' #idk. of course everything that happened to me as a kid was awful and should not have happened but like #for a long time i had this problem where i didnt know how i was ever supposed to be okay about that #like no matter how much therapy i go through it will never UN-happen. it will always still have happened and it will always have been awful #and i couldnt figure out how i was supposed to recover from that besides 'bury it and try your hardest to never ever think about it' #and. i think maybe this is it. yes the abuse i went through was awful. thats kind of the whole thing about abuse #but. its also just a fact of my life. im better NOW. but that will not change what happened then #the abuse was awful. but the fact that i am an abuse survivor is a neutral fact. the same as any other fact from my childhood #its just a fact. a part of my past. and maybe being able to talk about it that way is... good for me #i dont have to break down when i think about it bc im okay now. my partner doesnt need to stop me and express sorrow for me bc im okay now #i can talk about my past in a neutral way and use my life experience to analyze movies #the same way that i used my experience of growing up in arkansas to analyze hollywood hillbillies when we watched it together #theyre both just two facts of my life. and analyzing movies is fun #that woman has no power over me anymore and hasnt for many many years. im okay now #abuse mention #child abuse mention #request to tag

[meateater-lamb]

(dont read the tags actually)

#vent #god this year has been so fucking hard man #and things have been so strained with my friend #and i love them so much. theyre my best friend. but at this point are they? #cause they just keep getting pissed at me over everything #and acting really weird #and theyve just. turned into this unendingly angry and negative person to the point i feel like i can barely talk to them anymore #they are so short tempered which i mean they always have been but just not with ME yknow #like they for ten years were always so kind to me and weve always gotten along well #until the last like year #and i know theyre in a bad place but jesus theyve made it so hard to even hold a conversation anymore #and i mean i think things will get better if they can get out of their current situation. i really think we can go back to normal but just. #not til then. cause they seem like the only coping mechanism they use is pure fucking anger #and now theyve started directing it at me and im just. getting tired. #i cant tell if they are purposely pushing me away or not. but thats whats happening either way. #and its awful bc i just feel like its all my fault. like im not good enough #im not helpful enough im too annoying im just. not good enough care about anymore #they make me feel like none of my problems are important anymore and like i shouldnt even mention it if im struggling #meanwhile all they do is vent and rant and im really really tired but i dont think i can say anything #im trying to open myself up to being social with people other than them again. #they used to be my best safe space but now they arent anymore #but im still going to be there for them the best i can cause they dont deserve to be abandoned when theyre struggling #but i just hope they can get in a better place and idk. realize theyre kinda being a dick all the time #ugh idk #dont read this shit i just need to get my thoughts straight idk. #i was scrollin when i started thinkin abt this thats the only reason im writin on here abt it #probably gonna delete it in an hour anyway #moon

[navramanan]

I go through these short periods of time feeling very okay and good even only bc i distract myself from what pains me until it catches up again and the cycle repeats itself

#i think it's verrrrrrrrry close to catching up again after i've had normal 2 weeks lol #so many ifs and buts and would things be better had i made a different decision lived in a different place or time etc #but i'll never now i'll always only have the here and now and the unchangeable past #and the very incertain scary future i'm trying so so so hard to be hopeful about but seeing things as they are right now. i really dont kno #i can only fake it to some point. i cant fake it till i make it. i'll fall apart countless times and then wont make it anyway #i feel like. i feel like all the circumstances i've been in have all always been against me #like i'm the only unlucky one among the people i know #i try so so so hard to remind myself that people who seem to have it so much better have their own problems too #but then also i remember something i wrote down once as a teen. the phrase you typically hear #''i have been battling (?) with this problem but am lucky enough to have a support system / loving friends etc'' #and idk how right i am with thinking this way but no matter what problems you have. #it's the toughest thing to lack deep connections with at least 1 person ideally like 3 i guess bc it's such a fundamental thing #you know having someone you can ALWAYS turn to without feeling bad and you know that they can and do turn to you too #and i do have a few wonderful friends i love so so much but i feel and know that no one needs me like i need them #every friendships feels so fragile to me. no one depends on me turns to me for advice or to vent etc #and when i feel like i need to do any of those things i cant turn to any of them #there's still inevitably a sort of disconnect i feel #and it terrifies me that i'll never find someone i connect with on a deeper level and it's mutual and we both can depend on each other #and there are no boundaries no shame no unspoken words #i dont know how true any of my feelings are but. but yeah #nesi rants

[rohirric-hunter]

Confirmed weapon (not bow) drop in The Goblin-Town Gauntlet, being one of the few missions that spawn infinite enemies that actually drop loot (and offer legendary XP). I wonder if it might be worthwhile to just farm this mission instead of jumping between multiple other missions.

#lotro #of course it only comes around once every 10 days but hey #only problem is i think that while they definitely dont have a zero drop rate they do seem to have a reduced drop rate #and i stopped recording drops in general as it was just eating into too much of my time #i tried to automate the process by setting up a batch and some macros but it wasnt working right #so basically i had to type everything out manually #and because of increased complexity i couldnt even make it a super easy entry process like with stafishsticks #idk ill crunch some numbers with regards to this instance in particular and then make my decisions about it #ive farmed it for li xp before but thats a whole different animal #also if anyones wondering the only missions ive got confirmed bow drops in at this time are abberations of nature and riches of sundergrot #gotta run drof about a bit more and see if she really does get more #but im sort of caught up in things now because i decided to get her her li and that questline always takes longer than i think it will #i actually would not mind if they decided to uncouple the seeker of deep places trait from that questline #because i would like to sit back and enjoy it but i never do #on account of im usually breezing through in an attempt to get seeker of deep places for some other reason #just make it autobestow at level 45 or 50 or idk grant the trait when you finish the first quest in the questline #so that people can just do that and then go barter lis from the archive

[astrxealis]

okay i'll seriously stop now (just a maybe) anyways please get into milgram listen the songs watch the mvs and all! <3

but just to ramble a bit: fuuta really is. so similar to the viewers/es

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #⋯ ꒰ა milgram ໒꒱ *·˚ #he's a twt user and kinda chronically online LMAOOO okay but to be serious. he doesn't really realize the #real world consequences of his actions until it's too late. and in the mv he so obviously shows regret and all #there's a scene where he's looking at his self from before doing the spraypaint again and tbh yeah dudes sadistic w that kinda thing #sadistic but in sort of a good way in a sense that he wants to deliver justice. but then things escalate too far as well #<- probably starts calling out people for the smallest things. not anymore about justice #or it still is about justice but even in the littlest of things... anyways yeah he likely starts it but then the others r the ones #who put more flame to the fire. i think he has problems w attention too so this kinda yk. makes him feel seen... or idk how to phrase it #bcs dude spends most of his time online right? the whole gaming thing might be an escape from reality in that he #likely doesn't have much friends if any at all (he also doesn't really get along w anyone in the prison. but i think he is a good person bc #he cares for haruka bcs hes younger). hmm. fuuta knows what's the deal with milgram #anyways yeah i think it is all just so interesting. he's definitely regretful and feels guilty and also... he's hinted at stuff #uhm. worrying. stuff. if yeah? idk how to phrase it but i think it is safest to really vote him innocent (also he deserves it imo) #he still needs to improve w some stuff but then again i dont think we should be Extremely Harsh #yk scruntinizing everything. voting him guilty again for a 'small' yk. not that what hes doing is negligible but i mean that he's #starting to improve (even if his... mental state is getting worse it seems) and it feels wrong and is exactly what he calls out #es/the viewers for if we vote him guilty for the smallest of mistakes/injustices even when he's yk. getting 'better' #sorry for terrible explanations here i hope it makes sense oml #i dont think fuuta meant anything bad fr. and then the drama audio w es like... agh wait im putting that aside for now bcs goddamn #i think there's smth to do w. Pressure. ofc. duh. LMFAO. maybe peer pressure to join in the cyberbullying #he likely didnt mean for it to escalate but maybe he started losing himself in it all w a sort of hero complex #ahhh trying to tie together stuff from the 1st trial and 2nd trial is complicated bcs the two have similar but different themes

[moodr1ng]

i think the core of what is bothering me recently is that i feel a lot of people claim theyre for bodily autonomy, they believe theyre for bodily autonomy, but when push comes to shove theyre only for bodily autonomy if the autonomous decisions are things they already believe to be either morally okay, completely beneficial, or at the very least a net neutral to the persons health or well-being. and thats still not bodily autonomy. the truth is that you dont support bodily autonomy if you shame smokers, if youre disgusted by addicts, you dont support bodily autonomy if your fat acceptance bears the limit of “as long as theyre healthy”, and theres a LOT to be said about the people who think that displaying physical self-harming behaviors means it should be okay to forcibly hospitalize you/restrain you/other forms of abuse from the medical system - and more examples still.

that doesnt mean that anything anyone chooses to do with or to their body is always fine, healthy, or that there should be no attempts to help people, to heal people, to get people out of addiction or to help them cope in non-harmful ways. but if your idea of doing that is to morally judge the person who is engaging in a harmful behavior with their own body, and then to make them stop that behavior by force, thats still violating their bodily autonomy is what im thinking

#re: the part abt fatness btw it might seem odd in the middle of other examples #but there are in fact fat people whose weight causes them pain or health problems and who are only fat bc they eat more #and that still doesnt mean they deserve to be shamed for their diet or forced to eat less #i personally am not directly having health problems due to my health but ik also i dont have the full mobility i had when i was thinner #im only fat bc i eat too much! no other reason. im a binge eater and i eat a lot of junk food. #if fat acceptance stops at me then thats not fat acceptance is it #97

[icewindandboringhorror]

Begrudgingly trying to look for a new phone because my current one (which I’ve had for 8 years) is having some issues but like......hhh.. Every person I know who has a newer phone like.. theirs SUCKS lol.. you can’t take the back off/battery out, some you can’t even change out the microSD because apparently they expect you to just use evil ~~cloud storage~~ or whatever nonsense, they come with so many apps built in which you can disable but not fully delete (wasting space on the phone), can’t control when updates happen, one of my friend’s has to be connected to the internet just to get voicemails??? like having to be connected to wifi or mobile data just for some BASIC functionalities is insane (I prefer to keep my internet disabled at all times unless using it, hate the idea of just being internet connected constantly in the background and having all these apps sending and receiving data and giving dumbass notifications when I’m not even actively using them), SOME of them don’t even have a built-in GENERIC notes app or media player (like I’m just supposed to download spotify instead of using my collection of youtube to mp3 files?? lmao) or photo viewer (I know someone who doesn’t have a generic ‘photos’ app, just “Google Photos’ which prompts them to make an account and login every time they open the wretched thing), etc. etc. etc. 

Genuinely, if it weren’t for my need to be able to use the internet to map and check bus directions/look up things on the go when needed, organize/transport files, and take photos on a whim when I may not have my camera with me - I would legit just get one of those basic non-smart phones where you can only text and make calls lol ... alas... ToT

#like i just hate simplification i hate everything being online i hate making accounts i hate cloud storage #i hate not having full control and customization of my experience i hate being forced to be connected #to the internet i hate siri or ok google or whatever the hell i hate being sent random notifications #i didnt ask for because the phone updated by itself and downloaded or enabled some shit i never wanted on there #i hate doing anything on a mobile device and everything being an app when desktop useage is so superior and so much easier #to process and do things that way and jthat i cant even open the back if i want to or change out sim cards like you used #to be able to or all this extremely easy and perfectly normal stuff that USED TO BE a function forever but it's like choice is gradually #being removed... w h y #Its the same thing with websites being oversimplified like WHY take away options and functionality to 'streamline' things and make them #more 'mobile friendly' when previously there has been both a mobile and a desktop version of websites for a long time?? #what is the problem with having MORE choice? if people dont WANT to utilize the extra options and functionality then allow them #to choose to simplify things #but if people WANT increased choice and customization then the options are still present #what if i WANT a more detailed complicated ~difficult to navigate~ view of a website?? what if i want to send 45 paragraphs #of text instead of short quick messages and emojis chat style where pressing enter sends a message instead of just doing a line break #etc. etc. which yes now I'm getting away from the topic of mobile phones and just speaking in general lol but its like #I just feel frustrated that everywhere I go it seems like things I used to be able to do which were USEFUL and functional - now the option #is gone or limited or made worse. And it's not just being afraid of change like some new things are fine when they make an experience #BETTER and actually HELP but like what the hell is helpful about having 4GB of my total 8GB built in storage #taken up by pre-installed apps that I literally cannot delete and that is space I will never use.. ??? and some of the other #changes it's like.... ok?? and for WHAT?? lol #AND i know like.. you can hack your phone and make your own changes to it and stuff but I shouldnt have to do that!!! #it should be EASY to customize and have it function however I WANT it's literally something I'm PAYING for..!! #and that cloud storage shit I do not care HOW the world changes you are never going to talk me into storing important stuff on some #fucking server somewhere that I don't have control over. same thing with live service or online fucntioning video games. I will find every #possible work around to keep 'physical' copies of anything that is actually important to me. 2087 in the word war 5 google amazon #fire world wasteland I'm still going to be clinging to my little usb stick in an undergound tunnel listening to 70 yr old mp3s #and playing downloaded copies of games that are mine that i payed for and own and can play however whenever i like lol #ANYWAY .. hggh.........maybe I can find a good 2018 or 2019 phone on ebay instead of buying a new one in store #would still be an upgarde technically since mine is from 2014 lol

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Love atheist communities that hate Christianity but reproduce every single issue Christianity has right down to the racism, wild misogyny, and of all fuckin things evangelizing atheism by sending religious people rude ass 'gotcha' type reactionary content to like idk, recruit people to atheism the way Certian Brands of Christian recruit literally anyone to their religion.

Like yes this atheism is what I see a lot of white men participating in, but like how dense do you have to be to only ditch the GOD part of religion and nothing else while claiming you're intellectually superior to religious folks like a great many incredibly talented and smart people in various sciences weren't religious?

#winters ramblings #its so funny that the so called 'skeptic' communities on youtube and reddit claimed ti be SOOOOO skeptical of things #but never took a fuckin second to check their misogyny or racism and badically applied shite christian values to everything they do #but think they arent doing that because they openly denounce god. like bestie youre doing ALL the same shit i have a problem with #in teligious spaces except you have the balls to claim youre inherently smarter and more intellectual #which is why youre SO SMART you cant figure out how to be a halfway decent human being #like its so funny when i see athiests like this around where it feels like religion is the only thing they felt held them back #and not in the ways PoC queer people and women deal with- THEIR athiesm is usually rooted in #'christians told me i was black because i have the curse of ham and thats fucking racist as shit' or some other discrimination event #plus your average religious truama and in my case just a lack of desire to participate in religion and also no belief in it #but then you have white dudes whove never had a real problem in their life doing all the same shit as them Nasty Christians they rail on #without a H I N T of the irony while also wondering why it is that their spaces seem so... homogeneous lmao #almost like women PoC and queer people know all you did was reject the GOD bit not any of the underlying discrimination tendencies #no need for them to unpack that i guess because theyre Very Smart Skeptics they dont seem to think #that they believe just as much dumb shit as any religious or non religious folks out there except theyre insufferable about it #also the nonsense of science being inherently opposed to religion like tell me you know nothing about the history of science #without saying you have NO IDEA what youre talking about. so much science was trying to understand gods creations #science and god arent diametrically opposed to each other and in fact went hand in hand for a long time #not as much any more but ill bet a huge number of scientists are still religious because being smart #doesnt mean youre an athiest like HELLO youre not smarter than anyone for not believing in god #the same way you arent smarter or better FOR believing in god lmao