#or with people i wouldn't trust with a fucking plush toy nevermind a real person

[deithe]

I know I'm an unempathtic cunt when I think this but she pisses me off so much when she in such a shit mood because she decided to go back talking to a guy I told her she shouldn't. I know she can do what she wants but when she ends up crying to me cause he's ignoring her/talking to another girl again I just want to hang up the fucking phone.

#i love her but sometimes i feel like trying to keep her from doing stuff is impossible #she's gone through a lot and ill never tell her this but. its draining #trying to keep up. with who she's talking to and whats happened and trying to tempt her into school #and I don't want to overbare cause she's a grown woman but i feel like i wouldn't be as good of a friend if i just didn't help her. even if #she thinks my help is stupid or overbaring or too much #not about mutuals. obviously. just in case anyone thought that lol #and then its the mood swings and the reckless behavior and i do that shit with her and Trust oir frienfs to at least watch after her #cause christ I don't ever want to have to fucking watch her do bath salts and then carry her up to bed #its scary #and she's got stuff going on but watching from the sidelines is so scary #I don't want anything bad to happen to her and i feel like im shouting at a wall #at least when she's with me or our friends we can watch her. but i hate when she's alone #or with people i wouldn't trust with a fucking plush toy nevermind a real person #i just #hngsjhjdhd #im being an ass but i genuinely don't know what to do #college is terrifying cause i wont be there to watch after her and i dont want her to be alone #ugh #phearsanta.txt #vent