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sladesssblade · 6 months

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I AM SO TIRED OF SEEING PORN UNDER THE ED HASTAGS

#i keep reporting but they just come back😭#disordered eating thoughts #@na rules #@nor3×14 #ed not ed sheeran #pro for myself #tw ed sheeran #ana trigger #th!n$piration #tw disordered eating #tw ed diet

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cannorexic · 4 months

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Ive been £D’d for about 5 years now and it’s waxed and waned but for about 2 years it was really bad. I wasnt even that small but i was mentally wrecked. And i really glamorize and nostalgia-tize my size and my suffering during that time because it feels comforting but sometimes i feel this deep hurt for myself as if im looking at another person. I cant even believe the lack of self worth and hatred it takes to do that to yourself. Sometimes i just wanna see that version of myself and hold her.

#I wonder if you can be traumatized by your own £D because i feel that headspace come back like i feel an active trauma headspace come on #ed not ed sheeran #ed not sheeren #light as a 🪶#light as a feather #i wanna ⭐️ve #i want to ⭐️ve #⭐️ving #⭐️rve #i need to ⭐️ve #💡as a 🪶#🕯️as a 🪶#you can always be thinner

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sk1nnysuccubus · 14 days

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sorry i havent been posting, been in the hospital

anyway, not counting my meta day on the 2nd with 1,500 cal (technically i only went that high bc i was following an ana diet, but still), i've been staying under 1,000 cal pretty easily

period is over but the scale still says i've only lost 2 lbs, which i KNOW isn't right, but whatever

#tw ana bløg #tw ed sheeran #tw ed but not sheeran #tw disordered thoughts #anabllog #tw restriction #@na motivation #back to being overly paranoid about my app not being accurate when it comes to calories in food #the salmon i had was supposedly a little under 400 cal #but i dont trust it it feels like 800 cal #and i just had another meal and i really wanna be sick because oh god what if it WAS like 800 cal #and now this meal is on top of that #i wouldnt be able to live with myself #i know REALISTICALLY there's no way the salmon was that much but im just so paranoid

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p4ppetsl4t · 1 month

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if i was skinny she would make time

if i was skinny she wouldnt forget

if i was skinny shed prioritize me

if i was skinny she would love me

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skinny-rexie · 5 months

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maybe this is just cope but i’m at the gym and every girl with a thigh gap also has the boxiest torso, or broadest shoulders

#tw ana diary #ana rant #edblr #ed not ed sheeran #ana #ana e mia #4norexi4 #4n0r3xia #ed bullshit #bulim14 #tw disordered eating #disordered eating thoughts #at the gym speed walking to my runway playlist and i can feel my thigh gap coming back #but now that i’m seeing all these boxy people with gaps i’m not so sure anymore #i’d bet they hit russian twists and their obliques like crazy though

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saraisgettingthin · 3 months

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Hello beautiful people, It's been a long while. I forgot about this account & made a new account but then I forgot the log-in to my new account & instead remember the log-in to this one. The last months I struggled with alcoholism & binge eating. I gained weight, I lost weight, I gained it again. Long story short my plan is to lose 10 lbs ( around 4,5 kg before my birthday ) which will be on March 17th. I also attend a concert on June 15th which I want to be skinny for. So here we go SW on 13/01/2024 - 65.4 GW for my birthday 17/03/2024 - 61.0 kg GW for the concert: 51.0 kg GW: 50.0 kg UGW: 45.0 kg I'm 172 cm tall just in case that it matters.

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lego-house · 1 year

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(Currently un relased song)

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YNMIDNY music video opening scene

#not me coming back to tumblr becasue no one i saw on ig was pulling up this comparison #and this is like the only place i post any fangikr things to #teddy sheeran #ed sheeran #sbtv #new song #-#subtract era #maybe subtract era #hopefully subtract era

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lavishly-languish · 1 year

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I can't change the world. But I can change myself.

You're not human when you're a fat human. Nothing you do is allowed. You can't be a barista running an account. You can't post about how you're happily married and in binge ed recovery. You can't dance. You can't go to amusement parks. You can't go on plane rides. You can't go up and sing on karaoke nights. You can't model. You can't be famous. You can't live.

You can't do any of these things without criticism and dehumanization. You're going to be reduced to your weight and size. As long as you're big, NOTHING you do will be without being told to lose weight or get skinnier. Nothing you do will be without people fundamentally treating you different and like you deserve less.

And I can't change the world. I can't change the fact that people are assholes. I'm only one person.

But I CAN change myself. I can change my body. I can go back to being skinny like I was before. I can win back people's empathy, people's patience, people's kindness. And the skinnier I get, the more people CARE. If I'm severely underweight, people know I'm sick and will want to help. If I'm severely OVERWEIGHT, no one wants to help. I'm lazy. I'm a whale. I should die.

This is why I starve myself. This is why I go to bed with excruciating pain in my entire abdomen. Why I wake up SOBBING after having nightmares about eating food. Why my only source of happiness is seeing the number drop on the scale and my body becoming smaller and smaller. Food won't bring me happiness. Food won't make people see me as worthy. It will only do the opposite. I grew up depressed and hating myself. I hate myself so much that the only love I can find is through others. If I don't have that, I have nothing. NOTHING.

This is why I starve. I want my poor ancestors to look at me and be disgusted that I willingly choose to starve when they didn't have the choice. I just want to be loved. And I will ONLY find love and happiness when I'm skinny. Not just skinny. Skin and bones. Severely underweight. I will be dainty and elegant and breakable and peak femininity. I want to look like a strong breeze will kill me. I want people to look at me and immediately call social services to take me to a hospital where I will continue not to eat. Because then the world around me will see how fundamentally broken I've always been, and how I will never be fixed. I want to die young, and I want to die as a tragedy. I want to die as a statistic. I want to die as a cautionary tale to the world.

I want to become so skinny that I die.

So I can't die yet. I can cut and burn myself all I want, but I can't die yet. No killing myself. Not until I'm skinny.

I can't change the world, but I can change myself.

#my ramblings #ed but not sheeran #pinning this as a reminder to myself #report me all you want. you won't change a thing <3 #i'll keep coming back #this is my life's work #i need to die before i'm 25 #and i'm gonna die skinny babes #stay safe all of yall out there. there's nothing left for me in this world besides this.#but your story is different #if you can recover. recover.#if you can continue to live. continue to live.#not me though. don't try to help me. don't try to save me. i don't want to be saved.#it's MY life and I GET TO CHOOSE AND HAVE THIS CONTROL OVER IT

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myskin-n-bones · 2 years

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I’m fasting from yesterday until Sunday… I wonder how long it’ll take my roommate to say something. She can’t technically do anything… so I shall do my best to ignore her assholery.

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cherrydi3tcoke · 2 months

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day 4:

I'm terrified of being skinny-fat

and im terrified i won't actually like myself at my lowest

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deadorgandonoteat · 7 months

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Schedule for tomorrow

Breakfast

Lunch

6PM snack

Night milk

#tw ed sheeran #and nothing else than that #will come back to look at it later

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coral-cory · 11 months

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GUYS!!!!!!

Guess who went to the Ed Sheeran concert this past weekend.........ME!!!! I DID!!!!!!! bro that was FUCKING AWSOME!!!!!!!!!

Come someone convince Ed Sheeran to come back to Florida....please.....i'm begging you.

#ed sheeran #mathematics tour #florida #music #i love him sm #pls come back #i'm begging you

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schmope-is-dead · 1 year

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I’M GOING TO DIE. I HAVE “SHAPE OF YOU” BY ED SHEERAN STUCK IN MY HEAD. I HATE THAT MAN

#karkat.txt #‘THE CLUB ISN’T THE BEST PLACE TO FIND A LOVER SO THE BAR IS WHERE I GO’#WHY WOULD YOU WANT TO LIMIT YOUR DATING POOL TO PEOPLE WHO DRINK #IF YOU REPRODUCE IT’LL BE A MIRACLE IF YOUR KIDS DON’T GET AN ADDICTION THEMSELVES #ALSO WHO ARE YOU EVEN FLIRTING WITH???#PEOPLE OUT WITH THEIR FRIENDS?? PEOPLE DRINKING ALONE??? THE BARTENDER????#ALL OF THOSE ARE TERRIBLE OPTIONS #THEN THEY FUCK IN THE BACKSEAT OF A TAXI #LEGALLY THEY ARE NOW SEX OFFENDERS #I HOPE ED SHEERAN GOES BACK TO BRITAIN OR HELL OR WHEREVER GINGERS COME FROM

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