#or idk maybe I’m tired of being me

[twinstxrs]

idk if this is accurate but i’ve felt like in previous seasons riz & gorgug have been one of the inter-bad kids dynamics we’ve seen the least of & this season has been so great in that aspect. gorgug having helped make some of riz’s magic gear. riz helping gorgug with his studies. the shared birthday party. gorgug’s gift to riz being something he himself made to protect riz. riz’s gift to gorgug being something he illegally grabbed to protect gorgug. gorgug who utilizes rage to put his body on the line for his friends & riz who will take deep levels of mental stress for his friends. even though it was within the context of a joke, riz calling gorgug an “absolute sweetie.” like yea they might not be in a band together or both part of a presidential campaign team or owlbears teammates, but they’d go to war for each other, because they’re best friends.

#riz gukgak #gorgug thistlespring #fantasy high #dimension 20 #fantasy high junior year #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #these kids are all so self-sacrificing but i do think riz gorgug are the most clear (& juxtaposed) self-sacrificers #riz will mentally tear himself to pieces and get lost in cases and take on ungodly levels of stress for those he loves #gorgug will use himself as a human shield. he will take hit after hit if it means his friends are okay. #and they’d both do the other thing too. riz would let himself get hit for gorgug. gorgug would pull all nighters & take stress for riz. #even if mechanically they can’t or it wouldn’t make sense. they would if they could. #also #the starstruck barry mechanic of being a guard is so gorgug. it’s soooo gorgug like that’s literally him #anyways love this tall green guy & this short green guy so much #especially because gorgug is tall & considered intimidating but protective in a deeply kind way #while riz is short & underestimated but protective in a deeply vicious way (affectionate) #i hope this makes sense but i think riz is primarily ‘i would kill for you’ & gorgug is primarily ‘i would die for you’ maybe #this does not mean gorgug would not kill for riz or riz would not die for gorgug. they both would. #but those are the primary ways their love manifests due to the nature of their strengths/personalities. To Me #idk this is all just me saying stuff when i should be sleeping 😭 #sorry if i missed a riz gorgug moment in the main post btw i’m tired

[funky-bird]

furries are fucking awesome man reblog this post if you think furries are awesome

#in a discord server a bunch of people have been talking about furries a lot lately and like. #yes I’ve heard of furries before yes I’ve seen furries before #like it’s cool it’s whatever they’re doing they’re thing ok #but I drew that fursona a while back because of it. i just thought it would be fun #and while I don’t consider myself a furry that fursona is the only sona design I’ve ever made hat I’ve actually liked 🥹 #and now me and my friends are just using it as my sona? because I like it!! and it makes me so happy :] #there’s something so magical about fursonas. about just being a silly animal! and I wish they did not get so much hate. #they do not deserve it AT ALL #Idk why I’m typing this I usually don’t make posts other than art or reblogs. maybe it’s just cause I’m tired #but I love furries. they’re cool and I wanted to talk about that. #drawing myself as a cute mousegirl has done something to me and it’s something so beautiful and magical

[chipistrate]

Look I dislike gregbot as much as the next guy but hear me out 4 a sec

Gregory being a CCbot but he reeeeally doesn’t like it and does everything he can to distance himself from CC, doing his best to be the exact opposite of him, try to forget he’s not flesh n bone and was just created to replicate a dead kid, etc

And CCs spirit just has to watch, as even the robot made to replicate him, doesn’t want anything to do with him.

#Chip Chatter #I’m tired as shot amuse me for a second #shit* #I don’t like Gregbot as a theory- but I’ll amuse it every once in a blue moon #idk maybe some angry CC potential here #dude is fed up and just starts annoying Gregory #“your new name is so similar to mine. and you still claim you aren’t me. #<- going with his name being Garret cause it works better here

[zootopiathingz]

It’s feeling like a fucking loser hours✌🏻

#vent #my friends just never have time for me anymore #I’m so tired of being the only one to text first and ask to hang out #I feel like I’m being so needy #but like. #I’m the only one that tries #it’s exhausting #idk am I selfish for wanting just one friend who makes time for me every now and then #maybe I’m the problem idk #vent post #lady luxo rambles

[xjustakay]

hmmmm

#feeling very. Hm. #idk like #Tired to my bones rn #and some of it is fandom and some of it is Life #but i think i’m gonna turn anons off for a little while #bc i’ve liked some of the interactions lately but some of them have also been…… #well yk #i’ve deleted a number of them too bc i just don’t have the patience #but like i’m overwhelmed enough as it is with life #i don’t feel like coming on here and being overwhelmed with weirdness or downright meanness too #so yeah #idk i’m just feeling Emotional and Tired #so if you try to send anons and find you can’t sorry ig #just haven’t felt Great about the way people have been talking to me #or treating talking to me as a means to use me for shit either bc that’s also happened in the last few days :) #so yeah that’s all #shut up kay #maybe deleting this later idk

[amazingmsme]

Why do you not have a tag for your weird tickling/tickler stuff? I don't want to be mean, it's just I really hate seeing them and there's no tag to block.

I try to keep everything sorted by fandom, but if it’s really that big of an issue, I guess I can start tagging things. I know my blog is a hot mess, I know I need to keep it organized better, but I can’t really find it in me to try & get things organized. One of these days tho, I do plan on bringing some order to this dumpster fire

But if you really think it’s that weird, you can always just… leave. My interest is clearly not yours, & that’s fine! To each their own & all, but that is the kind of content I post the most. Not the only thing, but it is the majority (what can I say? I started young, built up a brand, & now people Expect Things™️)

I’m sorry if you found me through the normal tags & ended up at the freakshow lol

#asks #anon ask #tfb community #ok but like #if you think it’s so fucking weird no one’s forcing you to stay #idk bro i’m just so fucking tired #i know it’s stupid & i shouldn’t #but messages like these just make me feel so ashamed & like i’m some disgusting freak no one understands #idk it’s just the mortifying ordeal of being known #or something like that #but i can just feel the judgment coming from people like this #like ‘you’re a fucking freak but i won’t say it outright’ #it’s just heavily implied #idk maybe i’m reading too much into it #but these kinda asks always seem caked in judgment

[canisonicscrewyou]

You know. A lot of the times it really doesn’t feel like it at all. But Ohmygod am I trying and trying and trying and trying and trying and I am. Tired. But I have to keep trying and that’s fucked up.

#idk I’m just tired of being in burnout all the fucking time it makes me forget how to be a person and drop everyone and everything I like #I have been trying to make myself reach out to someone outside of my apartment and job once a day at least #I am trying to do the chores and tasks I dislike and have been putting off #the anxiety is being worked on. slowly but surely. maybe. #I think the whole ‘haha I forgot how to be a person entirely’ isn’t as bad as it was even like. a month ago.

[mushed-kid]

i don’t think i can ever be really close to anyone

#im so #ugh i cant stand myself #i think im way too attached to my family and i cant imagine ever getting that close to someone else #i just feel weird around people and i wish i didnt #and im not very aocial and i know that my friends hate it #and maybe its partly because im a twin and im not used to being without her #and now we’re growing up and i’m not with her as much because she’s like idk being normal and doing stuff and im not #i just feel like i cant be alone because i cant do anything #but i want to be alone so i can do stuff without having other people around becuse i liek beign alone and i get tired of people no matter #i cant even write what i feel cuz i dont know #and maybe its just late and i haould be asleep cuz im tired all the time but im alone so i can do stuff but also im alone:/ #other people are different than me in a way i don’t understand and idk why but i cant bond with people frfr #and im a very difficult person i know that but i just wish i could get close to people in the way they seem to be with each other #but i just. dont like people #but also i love people and i hate being alone im just kinda private #i just dont get why im not like others😭 #why am i different than everyone else

[jokaarija]

end of the year rant

#what i want from the new year is to finally have friends #idk someone that actually cares about me #i’m tired of being alone #but knowing me i’ll eventually isolate myslef again because who in their right mind would want to be my friend #yeah i have avpd 🙃 #i’m already dreading some things that are gonna happen next year #just hope that in between all of that something good will happen to me too #i’m happy i had my fandoms this year otherwise it was pretty meh #feel like i’m standing in one place not rlly going anywhere with my life #which sucks i mean weren’t these supposed to be the best years of your life lol #anyway nye makes me super anxious so i’ll just enjoy esc250 #manifesting my favorites placing well and why not maybe we’ll have a new winner hehe 👀

[deityofhearts]

this is so funny

#deity dialogue #uhhhh #my basic deal is that like #I think I’m getting better at it I don’t try and befriend people I don’t like unless I have to (irl for work) #but like idk I’m terrified of everyone including (especially) my own friends hating me #I already do feel unwanted in these relationships especially given how past friendships have gone #but like Im doin my best like I genuinely like all the people I talk to #if you’re someone i talk to regularly or whatever I do like you #doesn’t change that I’m afraid you don’t like me #idk #Sandy just said she’s proud of me I’m gonna cry #like idk I use to be like really cheerful and peppy and nice and maybe I still am #but I have a problem with being a people pleaser and wanting to be liked so bad that I do it at my own expense #and I still do that (mostly irl and at work again) #but it’s tiring and it’s killing me and it’s caused me to be in a lot of painful toxic relationships and to also be a toxic person #and so I’m trying not to do that anymore like #idk just look at the funny screenshot #discord

[dashiellqvverty]

i do think the amount of comparisons between black sails and ofmd - both favorable and unfavorable tbh - is a little out of hand lmao like even before the flint vs stede poll there was a lot of it and its like. they are completely different shows with completely different goals. i just saw someone call ofmd a "black sails ripoff" and honestly what the fuck are you talking about. is black sails a pirates of the caribbean ripoff?? is there only allowed to be one television show about pirates and everything else is a copy?? or is it just the fact that there are also gay characters in it? im just like there are PLENTY of real and good criticisms why does it always come back to this. let them exist separately

#if this post gets too many notes i’m deleting it. it’s not an ofmd stan post please don’t ignore the last bit #i do not want the hardcore stans getting ahold of this and then ppl interpreting ME as one 😬 #the post thats going around thats like calling it 'a comedic version of black sails' you mean a comedy about pirates???? #yeah they use the same characters bc they are...... real pirates........ #like i know (or have to assume) its not 100% literal and maybe i am being autistic about this but i still just get. tired of it. #AND IM NOT SAYING YOU SHOULD LIKE IT OR NOT COMPLAIN ABOUT IT OR NOT MAKE FUN OF IT #shit on it and the fanbase to your hearts content but this just gets on my nerves like. idk man #then on the flip side there were ppl saying if you liked ofmd you should watch black sails!!! which like. idk. #ofc i would rec black sails to anyone bc its fantastic. but i wouldnt rec a gritty drama to someone based solely #on the fact that they enjoyed a comedy. #full disclosure i am an ofmd enjoyer! i love taika and had been excited about the project for a long time. i dont 'participate in fandom' #bc i do not like The Fandom and i havent been all that enthusiastic about the show since it was actively on/had just aired #but like i am not saying i like the show so dont talk bad about it. i am saying theres lots to say about the show #so why do we always make it about black sails #r.txt #ofmd #for ppls blacklists lmao

[kai-keda]

I feel like it’s totally fair at this point to say that a majority of the problems in LMK’s writing come back to the crew being too heavily involved and close to fan content.

Note to self for the future:

Getting involved in a fandom of your own property may seem like fun, but it’s best you wait until after your part in the story is done.

Heck, iirc, a lot of issues with the Dragon Ball Super dub stemmed back to “Christopher Sabat wanted to make a joke that fans on twitter would giggle at” so this isn’t even the first time I’ve seen this sort of thing.

This is just the most obvious example of it.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m still really into LMK and I still do think it’s awesome. I still like the writing of the show and I still have faith that they can salvage this and pull back from “implying fanon they like”. It’s just that with every new bit of the show that comes out, my fan content is feeling less like “What if I expand on this concept?” and more like fix-it fics

#lego monkie kid #Monkie kid analysis #lmk analysis #Kai keda analysis #I’m just tired #I haven’t got up on the subs because I’m too worried atp and really just want to wait for the English version #I already have a friend in my ear constantly telling me #‘you’re not gonna like this bit teehee’ which is super discouraging #idk - maybe there’s more deep psychological reasoning to me retreating into my silly crossover concept #I’m starting to lose steam on Memories of Malice even cause it’s feeling less like a labor of love of the characters #and more like me expressing frustration with how these characters flaws are being handled

[saturnsuv]

so at what point does the relationship anxiety go away

#it’s going on 3 weeks now which i know isnt that long but its the longest i’ve ever consistently seen a guy #but i still simply do not believe that he actually likes me or that this is real #i keep getting fully convinced that he’s tired of me or he doesnt want to talk to me anymore or he’s just changed his mind #and this particular anxiety has been worse since the last time i was at his apartment bc i had a panic attack on his floor over smth #he was very sweet and helpful about it and he literally didnt show any signs that this turned him off from anything but i’ve still #convinced myself he doesn’t want me anymore bc i was too much #i keep getting worried that i’m being too much like i’m being too clingy or taking up too much of his time #and i know it’s unfair to him bc he hasn’t done a single thing to make it seem like he doesn’t like me or he doesn’t want to do this #it’s all been overwhelmingly positive signals. but historically positive signals mean nothing guys will still turn around and ghost no #matter how much they say they’re into me or they enjoyed themselves or even if we literally had plans #maybe its just that im on my period idk #we’re supposed to go on another date tonight but i’m like convinced he’s going to cancel

[sunforgrace]

I know it’s heavily disputed about the extent and canon veracity of cas “picking up on dean’s longing” and what exactly that even means or entails. but thinking about that period after jack offscreen raised cas from the empty and before dean died.

#he sat on that floor ignored sam’s calls put his head in his hands and wept. is the thing. he ran up those stairs #i myself am undecided on the meaning and extent of that whole aspect the longing thing i mean and well i think it’s honestly the result of #initial planned arc turned network season renewals network legacy juggernaut with multiple writers and show runners with a range of. #quality and a not insignificant amount of retcons or logical and lore clashes #but as it is I think I’ve arrived to it being not much more than how it was described. informal prayer. perhaps to some extent not #not purposeful more involuntary the way thoughts can be. but also not just feelings experienced in your own headspace or all thoughts #I’m on a saying not very much with a lot of words kick tonight on account of the sleepy tired on low hours of it all but there is a thread #there that could be worth picking at. maybe. idk. at the end of the day that finale was really fucked up in a lot of ways! so my brain will #keep inventing new ways for me to poke at it. what’s that post about bad content with some worthwhile aspects inviting more #poking at than good and satisfying and well written enclosed works because well they already said all the things and said it well? is the #thing? or something like that. i have a headache tonight can you guys tell

[gonzogender]

Full meltdown trying to refill my adderall every couple months >:^)

#out of the trying not to sh again phase at least now I’m just empty and hopeless kdhdhd #genuinely so so tired tho like I’m trying to hold on to the things I love and enjoy and it’s just making me guiltier about being like this #like maybe I could fix everything and have an easy time and still not feel better bc im permenantly sick or whatever #idk I have stuff to do today too I don’t have time to be stuck on the floor sobbing #mine #dl