#or do all the chores myself again

[miutonium]

Malewife gibs morning kiss mwa mwah 🥰🥰🥰

#drew this for myself because i want these dorks to kiss again 🤧🤧🤧 #dont worry the girls are at school heehee #im just obsessing over the thought that Utonium wakes up early to do house chores in his silly frilly pink apron #and chloe just sleeps until late morning and they just kissy all day akshskajslskslajsla #also just love the idea that chloe sleeps wearing just an old tshirt and her undies like i do that all the time lol #asukart #selfship #selfshipping #selfship art #self insert art #self insert oc #self insert x fictional other #si x canon #oc x canon #professor utonium #ppg professor

[newfeeling77]

i get so frustrated with ppl who wont just fucking help themselvessss. obviously theres a spectrum of pain and subsequent ability when it comes to mental illness but ive known so many people specifically gay people who let themselves live in squalor all while going to therapy taking medication and claiming to take care of themselves. thats the thing self care is NOT doing nothing, self care is actually doing the dishes sorry. its taking the trash out. calling the doctor and making an appointment. being an ADULT. i live with two people in their mid to late 20s who only do a chore once every few weeks and if i ever deign to bring it up i get either aggressive or apologetic responses about depression and struggle. as if im not constantly struggling. i force myself to do things bc they make me feel better… me and you are not all that different. ignoring your human life maintenance or outsourcing it to other ppl is the biggest form of self harm thats become normalized in certain communities

#btw if i go to your house n its a fucking mess it’s disrespectful sorry. to me #like again it’s so normalized in gay spaces from my experience. like oh don’t worry abt cleaning the bathroom its just friends from the bar #coming over. #like um no im sorry im not a fucking animallllll #sorry im angry abt chores today n that post set me off. #if everyone in my house did their fair share itd be incredible #its mostly my sister’s boyfriend but atp i cant tell if theyre really struggling or just stupid. its been 3 years living w them. #he straight up just throws his fast food trash on the floor all around him in his office doesnt give a fuck #i cant ask him to do anythinggggg he treats it like a personal attack #like if youre actually this incapable of taking care of yourself you need to go to the psych ward . #its the constant weed smoking like theres not one second of the day they arent high #and they dont shower enough either whole house stinks sometimes. id kill myself but good for them i guess

[machidielontheway]

so i "did nothing" today of what i had planned (groceries, 'mental health walk') but i also : - did the laundry - put away the dry cloth of the previous laundry run - waxed (which i wanted to do yesterday so i'm glad i did it now) - practiced my instrument (twas not great as it was a bit mindless, but i finally found the source of one recent sound problem) - washed my hair - did a little callisthenics - downloaded some songs to begin making a collection - learned that even if i'm not feeling it, putting the right song WILL give me the energy necessary to do the thing. i do not need to want to hear the sound for it to work.

so even if i didn't do a "specific activity" outside i still did things and that's good !

#3615 my life #this post comes from the fact that i always 'ruin / waste' my holidays by doing 'nothing' #when i want to do 'things' #and i'm beginning to see/add nuances to what is things and nothings and what feels like doing or not doing #it was sunny today (as much as it can be lately.) and in general i'm dog holding it's leash about it #and if i don't go out i feel like i shot myself in the foot and is doubly sad #but i thought about it and actually didn't want to go truly it was not uuuh i saw it again lately. it was not demand avoidance #because it's fucking wimdy and i hate the wind and behinf outside in the cold wind #so actually i was much happier home #day did not happen how i planned it but in the end i don't feel like i fucked it up. i did things that made me feel good #and or will help me later #and i shouldn't ask too much of myself. like for cleaning : one thing a day is already great ! all in it's time. #that's how the brain learn it's not a chore and is able to do it more readily and agreeably the next time

[authoralexharvey]

It's my mother's birthday and all I can think of is all the ways she traumatized me growing up.

#There Was the Year She said I ruined her BDay Because I Came out as Bi #There's The One Time I tried to Tell Her I was NB and She Scoffed at Me #There's the Time She Threatened to Report me to the Police and Make Sure I Could Never Have Animals Again #Because Our Ferret's Water Bottle was Broken and I Didnt Know Until She Screamed at Me #When I was 12 She Said I Ruined Her Life by Being Born #When I Cut Myself and She Found Out She Made me Sit with Her and Plan What to do WHEN not IF she Found My Body #When I Tried to Kill Myself She Made it All About Her #I Did Choir for One Year and Stopped Because She Never Came to Concerts and Acted Like it was the Biggest Chore to Even Come Get Me #The Time She Accused me of Lying to my Fiance About Being Abused Because He Told Her I Have Panic Attacks When She Yells #All the Times I had to Be her Personal Therapist For Her Love Life #She Likes to Make Me Do Karaoke to Show Me Off #She Refused to Help Me Get a License #When I Told Her I Wanted to Live with Dad She Said My Bros Would Come With and theyd Never See Her Again #She Constantly Badmouthed Him Wherever She Could #Made Me Mad At Him Because He Wouldnt Be at My Birthday Parties (because Military) and Try to Make it Seem #Like He Wasnt There on Purpose #Would Refuse to Help Me with School and then Berated me for Failing #When I DID Ask for Help She Would Do it All then Yell at Me for Making Her Do it #Constantly Compared me to My Older Siblings Who I Didnt Even Know Yet and Made me Resent Them #I Took Care of My Brothers Growing Up. Not Her. But she Acts Like that Never Happened #A Bunch of Other Shit I Cant Even List #I Was Her Doll. Her Mini-Her. And Because of That my Bros Got it a Lot Worse #Anyway I have to See Her Today and I want to KMS #alex has the floor #tw: suicide #tw: abuse

[pegasusdrawnchariots]

the eternal question: is scheduling w friends as an adult That Hard or am I just bad at it

#4 different people have left me on read today; 1 cancelled our plans 4 hours before we were due to meet #I've been sitting home alone for 2 days going insane. looking forward to One (1) coffee date & that fell through #idk why I'm taking it so hard this time I'm usually fine!! but I find myself wishing I didn't have the day off I wish I did have work :( #like it's tiring yeah but it beats sitting here not knowing what to do w myself #& I'm working all weekend & only leaving the house to see the doctor. oh joy #I've been productive ironing writing fixing the car. that's not the problem #I had 4 social plans this month. that's it #that's like seeing each friend once a month!! I can't keep this up!! #is this the norm for adulthood? :( #& on one level I don't want to bother people or be clingy #but on another level I'm baffled that they don't get lonely too #the news has not shut up abt the Loneliness Epidemic since 2021 #but if it's true why do so many people take so long to reply when I reach out? if they reply at all #I'm not going anywhere w this. idk #just one of those days #everything so fuck everybody suck :( #boomers got it right w the whole showing up unannounced at people's houses for a social call with a pound cake #now I have to go through 5 layers of bureaucratic bullshit to see a friend #assuming they don't cancel the day of ofc (((((: #I just wanna be like hello knock knock I am here. tell me abt yr life today & listen to mine & eat this cake #& the worst is when people are like 'I'm cancelling bc I'm tired xx' #OK A) u knew we had these plans for two weeks #but B) I'm tired too! I still love u ur still my friend! let us be tired together! #'I won't be social today I'm tired' my love we could watch movies in silence we could knit we could ball yr socks. idc #'I have to do the big shop today sorry' so do I!!! let us do the groceries together!!! #every time I've pushed someone to come out when they felt depressed or to let me accompany them when they were doing chores #they were like u know what I'm so glad u did this. thank u. this is way better than how I had planned this night to go #& I'm like any time!! I love u!! #& then it just happens all over again next time oh sorry I'm cancelling I'm busy I'm tired #like did u forget what a nice time we had last time? what changed? :(

[chiropterx]

No matter how much Man-Bat may like you, he's still very much a wild animal at heart and capable of turning on even his best friend should they stand between him and food or worse, between him and Francine. She is the only person he refuses to harm under any circumstance, making it wise to tread carefully whenever his ex-wife is involved.

#🦇 || musings #🦇 || headcanons #Disappointed myself again with a lack of writing #I did a little but not all I wanted #Got roped into chores then just felt bummed out bc shitty weather #Well at least some got done and muse is going strong #In all seriousness Man-Bat is fucking DANGEROUS #He could be grooming you one minute and if you do something he does not like he might bare his fangs at you #And he can't tell you not to do the thing #Just running on animal impulses #Luckily it's pretty easy to read his body language and he usually gives warnings before he strikes #Usually #Stuff like flattened ears and puffy fur while staring hard #Also spread wings #All the unfriendly signs #Definitely do NOT hurt or attempt to hurt Francine HE WILL COME FOR YOU SO BADLY #I need to write Francine but I'm so bad already goshhh #Man-Bats are generally very protective towards their own okay??? #If he sees you as part of his 'colony' you'll be protected too #Unless you piss him off lol

[yelloworangesoda]

gotta get off the internet and only interact irl with people who were 30 before they got their shit together i cant keep doing it like this

#like this being. feeling like i have no future and nobody likes me #‘youre only 19’ only goes so far when i dont know any other fail 19 year olds #im not gonna be a damn dentist for sure but like. and ive said this a thousand times. what am i gonna do. i cant live a worthless nothing #life where i work a shitty job i hate. i have to like something #i hate my art. i hate my lack of creativity. my art is so bland i just dont think its in me anymore #i finished. and i hate it #i have other hobbies. i like to cross stitch. i like to sew. i like to paint. i like to make dolls. do you see the common theme here #i have a few more than that i technically could do but i cant create anymore and it kills me. i want to. i constantly want to but i cant #it doesnt help that even if i havw ideas i dont even want to do them #i was gonna draw some characters from a game i played when i was little but i just #didnt want to. at no point did it not feel like a chore #ill try to go to new mediums! its fun to mess around and then itll feel boring again and going back doesnt feel any better #idk. googling it is useless. ive tried all the things. for years. ive been TRYING to draw consistently and like. doodles are fine theyre fu #but theyre not what i want to do i want to make something im proud of. i drew almost every single day for like 2 years #and its not burnout bc its been like. 2 more years! and ive barely wanted to at all!!! #i want to be creative and i also want people to recognize it. different complaint but it sucks so bad #i feel like nobody likes me. still. nobody cares about what i do. nobody would care if i stopped #like except me but i can only support myself so far!!!! im so tired of it!!!! someone PLEASE be here for me and just say ‘hey i love this #drawing :)’ like you have no idea what that would do for me #not always. but yknow especially if its been a while. if you like it. if you dont like it :( idk. you should tell me that too i guess #yknow so i can have some confirmation so i dont feel like im crazy. idk. dont actually id never go online again. i would probably. well. #i dont like to say the words #simons spouting #vent :(

[sysig]

I'm almost finished with this notebook with it's horrible paper, and I just finished the first page of my Big Project

#Oh yeah - it's all coming together #Hgggg I am so sick of this notebook! It's wack as fuck! #It has made editing a Chore for the past eight months >:0 Not fun or meditative At All #Even worse is that the paper feels good to draw on but the cleanup is just! Awful! #I've just been completely ignoring my non-lined homemade notebook because it feels bad to draw on lol #The rest of the doodles for this year - yes that's how far the queue is backlogged rn lol - are still on that paper #But at least I'm like ><this close to being done with it ugh #I've got two blank pages and then like three half-doodled on pages that I'm planning to just knock out #It looks so weird 'cause the pages are all out of order lol - the first page was in March and the last in November #But like the next page after the first is /also/ November lol #Like it's largely in chronological order but it jumps around quite a lot! It was an interesting experiment #I also think it's funny since the first page got some fandom stuff that didn't come back around until now but it Looks chronological lol #I think I'll do it again but with some modifications - if I run out of steam/interest/motivation then I can fill it in however I want #Keeping it on-theme is fun but I find myself pushing ideas when I don't actually have any :P That's no good #It's not Always bad - I like quite a few of my spacefiller ideas! But if anything that just proves that finishing things out to make room- #Well like I said it was fun lol #And! As stated! I finished the first page of my big behind-the-scenes project! >:3c #Man I haven't worked on a comic proper-like in uhhhhh #It's gotta be at least five years lol geez #It's been a weird rhythm to try to fall into lol I'm Way out of practice - but it's nice to see it come together! #Lotta steps to get it into the shape I want - hard to sustain - but slowly and surely I've got this one :) #It'll be good to finally have it Out haha

[momochiiee-reblogs]

Being screamed at for things that aren't my fault seems to be a norm in this house

There's cookware scattered an dirty? Guess who gets blamed for it? The exact one that almost never has spoons for cooking in the first place

I live cleaning the trail after me so they won't have any reason to scream at me, but my brother leaves absolute messes behind him and the screams are for me

Fuck off

#momochiiee mussings #then people ask why it's almost impossible to hear me walking around #I've grown used to avoiding at all costs being noticed and leaving anything that can tell I was through there #when I get up from the table I'm always told to put their dishes in the dishwasher as I am putting mine #then the days I'm not around no one fucking cleans the table after themselves and I am still the one that gets called dirty and messy #my room is a mess YES. but the rest of the house isn't my room and therefore Isn't my living space and I must make sure I do not litter #I clean my own room when I have the spoons for it and refuse for anyone else to do it for me. it's my mess and I must deal with it myself #why do they insist I am to blame for their own mess of the kitchen when I barely have the energy to cook once a month??? #and it's not like they don't entrust other chores to me #but I digress I'm just mad because I've been blamed for the mess my dad and brother did and blamed on me just because I went there #every time I happen to have the energy to cook they complain about my cooking or blame messes on me even if I handwash & put away everything #it would be nice if they spared a fucking word of appreciation every now and then #I'm not asking them to call me endearingly but at least to not spit on any tiny effort I manage to make... or blame me for their mistakes #I'm starting to see how as soon as I am rendered jobless mid December I'll start to get screamed at again more often #and get the I'm a nuisance treatment because I can't afford basic stuff anymore #it's going to be a long year for sure... but I must put my all on the intensive classes so I can score a good job #If I manage... I will finally be able to get out of here and have my own space without any more screams #and without them brushing off my sensory triggers every time I try to explain how certain things and situations get me anxious af

[aroacehanzawa]

rant

#i am sooooo annoyed with my flatmate #who never cleans or does anything for the household or rather her idea of 'cleaning' is wiping down the surfaces maybe twice a year #never cleans the kitchen surfaces after cooking except she only does a mass meal prep like once a month and then leaves a mess #while knowing that i always clean after myself and i cook like every other day so i end up hacving to clean her mess too #because if i point it out she'll be like oh it wasn't me #we only have one other housemate but they're a postgrad who is rarely home and mainly eats ready meals #seriously this person is disgusting like they will leave a pile of dirty dishes for weeks #and they even leave the sink dirty after washing the dishes??? #like i get that you don't always have time or energy to do chores because of mental health or studies #but this person dropped out of uni like she isn't even studying meanwhile i have four exams to study for rn #i just think that when you're living with other people you have to put an effort to keep communal spaces clean and be considerate #like i've been cleaning the bathroom almost all the time this semester so i finally asked her to do it and she said she'll do it today #i got home and she only bleached the toilet so i was like how come you didn't clean the sink? #and she was like oh i just bleached the toilet so now i'm taking a break and watching a youtube video :) #like?????????? and then she never continued the cleaning?????????? #she also keeps wearing shoes indoors like idc if ahe wears shoes in her room but i've said again and again to please not wear shoes indoors #in the hallway/kitchen/bathroom because it's disrespectful in my culture (and we have CARPETED floors) #and she keeps doing it and even steps inside my room with shoes #or when the other day i was sweeping the kitchen floor and she just walked in with her shoes and didn't even more away when i was cleaning #my good friend actually lived here too before she got fed up with this person and moved away #because this person lied to us so much about how often they clean things and basically gave the wrong impression #she also broke my spatula and lied about it and ate my friend's food and lied about it and used up my ingredients and lied about it #and also complained behind my back that i was 'so annoying' for not answering the intercom when HER packages were being delivered??? #and she claimed that i was cranking up the energy bill because i keep the heating in my room at a normal level during winter #because she likes to keep her room freezing cold and she also keeps her room in pitch darkness and would complain #that me having the lights on in my room like a normal person increases the energy bill??? like yeah that's literally what i'm paying for? #she also got mad at me for throwing out a literally MOLDY sponge because she was 'still using it' like FOR THE DISHES? THAT WE EAT FROM??? #i am so sick and tired of this person i cannot wait to move out in 3 weeks

[lucithornz]

I am definitely behind on my writing schedule. It has just been one thing after another this week for me and it's taken all my free time. So I haven't gotten to make as much progress as I'd like.

But this weekend is looking good to get caught up a little.

#But I do get to do that fanfic author thing #had to take my dog to the vet twice because she is still having problems #my insurance company decided to revoke my migraine treatment(5 hours on the phone yesterday woooo) #had to reschedule a work trip due to weather #got sick myself (I'm fine probably) #due to all of this I got so behind on household chores #most important is my furbaby getting better #everything else is just noise #oh also going to war with my neighbors again but what else is new #anyway back to writing I need to escape into

[crybaby-bkg]

I hate saying this but I’m genuinely so mentally checked out of school right now and I hate it so fucking bad bc it makes doing even the simplest tasks so fucking difficult. I’m loving my mythology class bc it’s what I love to learn about but everything else feels so hard and heavy and burdensome. I have less than a month left but good lordt everything just feels so overwhelming and like I can’t keep up or retain anything and I hate it

#I’m so frustrated #I’m just looking at all my work ready to cry bc I just don’t have it in me anymore #I’ve always hated school but being checked out is a whole other feeling #then my computer has a virus so it makes doing work #that I already struggle with doing even harder #I just need a really long break #I feel like I can get back to being myself again #but for now I’m so drained #and everyone irl keeps making me feel like shit for being so depressed and not doing anything #bc I’m putting all my energy into school and I don’t have it to give anywhere else!!!!! #how can I be creative and exercise and basic household chores if all my work is zapping out all of my energy!!!!! #I’m just so tired #sorry for the rant #tw: vent #—in store chit chat! 🍫

[oikasugayama]

h...how is the next chapter doing? 👉👈

i've got written a single word since i posted the last chapter, BUT the next chapter already has 7k+ of content and is mostly planned out so when I do sit to write it out it'll come fast, don't you worry <3 (i've got a busy weekend ahead of me but I want to get back to writing next week!!)

#ask answered #i gotta panic clean my house tomorrow morning/afternoon #ppl are coming over to look at my furnace again #i have guests coming tomorrow evening #i'm all crampy and mopey so i'm giving myself the night off #but really if i would just do the chores now it would be less pressure tomorrow

[asbestieos]

just barely holding back from screaming at my roommate and girlfriend for the smallest pettiest non-transgression (no one unloaded the dishwasher or took out the trash while i was at work) #bpdbaddie

#i forgot what my vent posting tag was #battery acid suffering #there we gp #i just want to draw but everything i draw is shit and i have a bajillion chores to do as always #and then i want to kill myself but then im like no i dont. im just tired and upset and lonely #i need a good good cry again #cry on my living room floor #rhat i still need to vacuum like ive been planning to all week #..all past two weeks

[tasmanianstripes]

Menstrual pain should be taken more seriously than it currently is, people suffering from it shouldn't be dismissed or accused of overreacting because "it's just a period"

For most of my life, I've suffered from debilitating menstrual cramps. Some days it was bad enough that I couldn't move, couldn't even speak, just cry and scream for hours until the painkillers finally kicked in, and it'd often leave me feeling weak, exhausted and like I was on the verge of passing out. I have to take the strongest non-prescription medication on the market and it still just makes my pain bearable enough that I can function; hell, even my prescription drugs sometimes weren't enough.

Despite this, I was often ridiculed by my peers and accused of faking it so I can get out of school or work, and I've had medical professionals refuse to help me because "it's just a period" and "it'll pass on its own". I've had to beg people to go get me painkillers and they'd usually start an argument or roll their eyes at me and complain the entire time. It was a constant problem and the only person that's ever taken my pain seriously was my mother.

Seriously, it isn't right that I have to deal with 2-3 days of debilitating pain and nobody around me treats it seriously. Not even my doctors.

And I'm not even the most severe case out there, I'm lucky that my cramps only last a max of 3 days and respond to medications. There are people out there who have to deal with worse.

Seriously, just please start taking menstrual pain seriously. Just because it happens every month doesn't mean it's any more bearable or less serious than any other pain. The pain this severe isn't normal, it's a medical condition and it should be treated seriously. It's even more fucked up that this sort of pain is often a symptom of some underlying condition yet even doctors don't treat it seriously.

#thylacines can talk #my lighest periods are like 6 on the pain scale #my heaviest periods are more painful than thathat time i broke my ankle #and when i mean debilitating i MEAN IT. I. Cannot. Function. #on my usual periods i cannot move from my bed at all. i cant do the usual chores around the house. cant even make myself food or grab a #drink. i need somebody else's assistance to even function. i just have to wait the 2 or 3 hours it usually takes for my painkillers to #finally kick in and when they do im still in pain. it just goes down a lot in severity so i can at least function but i still avoid most #work and going out for the first 2 to 3 days to not aggrevate it. seriously its not fun and im pissed off that so many people act like #total cunts about it when its? clearly not normal??? seriously my dad threw a fuckin temper tantrum when i asked him to go buy me #painkillers because we ran out and i couldnt move. well my mum had to call him and ask him because i was just crying and couldnt even speak #properly. he was just complaining and whining about it and kept asking me why i couldnt go when i was just curled up in my bed and sobbing #and people in school would always give me dirty looks and talk shit behind my back about faking it and being lazy whenever i got a period #during school and had to sit in the corner and try not to make any noises while my mum had to leabe job so she could pick me up #we were studying advertisement and marketing so we were split into two groups. one group would usually have marketing or something like #that while the other had graphic design. so like one group would have marketing on monday and another on friday for example #so i usually would leave and join the group that had a lesson in our main classroom because there was a corner where i could sit next to #the window and rest while not disturbing the class. since our nurse was a nurse in two different schools so she wasnt there all the time. #and then id hear from my two friends that the girls from my group ALWAYS shittalked me when i left. saying that was blowing it out of #proportion and was just lazy and trying to get out of class. that class was so fucking toxic. #anyway this rant is brought to you by me once again having to lay in my bed and try to pass the time by thinking about stupid shit while #dying from pain. it took a long tome to write because my hands were shaking and i got dizzy a few times but i mamaged. #my painkillers FINALLY kicked in so. HALLELUJAH. #being in a bearable amount of pain feels borderline euphoric after three hours of bullshit #it still wasnt the worst just a 7 on the pain scale

[cheekblush]

need a lobotomy asap <3

#i have a horrible migraine once again #but i know it's self inflicted bc i spent the whole day in bed on my phone... #when i was supposed to be studying 😐 #i hate myself so much #i have a test on tuesday and an exam on thursday and i only have this weekend to properly study and i've just wasted the whole saturday.. #.. just rotting in bed giving myself a migraine #and i know i won't manage to revise everything tomorrow bc it's soooo much... #why do i always do this to myself i truthfully hate myself so much like i have no discipline #but i also just want to rest on the weekend bc the school/work week is already exhausting enough #i feel so stupid complaining about this bc i know people who get so much more done than me + manage to have a social life #and here i am with absolutely no social life and i don't even manage my tasks and chores i'm constantly overwhelmed #simply existing takes up so much of my energy like i am tired all the time idk how other people do this i'm just not made for all this #i have absolutely no energy!!! and i know it's the untreated depression but i just feel like such a lacking person in general #this makes me think of that kafka quote.. #'i could've built the pyramids with the effort it takes me to cling to life and reason' yeah... that's how i feel all the time #the other day on my commute to school i saw this beautiful sunrise & all i could think about was su*cide like i almost bursted out in tears #like... i am just not meant for this world for this life... i am not well.... #☁️