#oof so what do we think of this one

[crazymecjc]

shuake week day 2 - new game plus

plus, bonus!

#shuake week 2023 #oof my art i guess #persona 5 #goro akechi #akira kurusu #shuake #this is soooooooo incredibly silly goofy #there was this one post floating around on Twitter abt how akira had a matching pair of gloves when he did ng+ #and I went “ok but make it bigger #and like it’s silly yes but it’s also the tragedy of repeating the same events with the hope that they’ll turn out differently #until you’re physically overwhelmed with the reminder that no matter what you do you cannot change the fate of the person you love #idk I’m Crazy abt them dude #the angst spawned out of nowhere tbh she was a last minute addition #also this whole thing is kinda sketchy and rough but like I work full time during the summer #and I think I’d explode if I was dropping a fully rendered piece every day #so here we are #still a fun silly time regardless I hope!! #if all goes well I’ll be back tomorrow with another :))

[july-19th-club]

one of the worst things about my period is that one of its favorite symptoms is Turbo Autism Meltdown Zone so not the fun kind of autism experience where you get to enjoy things more fully and completely and immserively than you'd ever think possible or where simply getting a chance to sort some stuff is absolute bliss but instead the evil inside and out kind where one little thing goes wrong and pushes everything over the edge and then you have to scream yourself raw for twenty minutes and if you stop screaming it makes everything worse . what i wouldnt give for tv autism rn where i just get mildly pedantic when im stressed out and say snooty things

#i mean i do also sometimes do that . but tv adult autism never includes The Scream that's just for little kids who dont talk #not that little kids who dont talk arent a valuable part of my community . i love little kids who dont talk and when they scream #we are brothers in shriek your heart out #but like. whoooof i havent had a serious meltdown like this since before i started my anxiety meds its weird to go so long without one #but also really i did not forget at all what it feels like #i think as an autistic person i relate to the camel more than any other beast #the straw comes down on my back and i bite some guys head off with my giant yellow teeth . and im like oof ok now i feel better

[orchideae]

Uncle Tian. The importance that is Uncle Tian. ... With a "cameo" of Yelan in the second half, exactly at 1:00, which is incredibly so very important if you really want to get a proper glimpse into her 'professionally'.

#[ important. important. important. ] #[ he's /so/ important. ] #[ he has so many lines that i'm gonna actually end up replacing numerous of yelan's current tags with because they... ] #[ embody her more than i realized. ] #[ he's such a peaceful man and she's quite a peaceful woman at the heart of herself-- but ruthless in what she does. ] #[ not a 'killing machine' by the way; not by any means. but the thing is; when you look at her-- you might THINK that she is. ] #[ she plays that line so incredibly well and while i'm not one to draw correlations-- ] #[ it really does make me think back to for example wriothesley during the final confrontation in his sq. ] #[ despite his history-- we don't know him as a 'mean' or 'bad' man. but in that moment; you don't know what he wants to do-- ] #[ to dougier. ] #[ and while yelan is different-- it's this reality of; she's explaining zhiyi the risks of essentially playing from both sides. ] #[ but then offers him a deal that either forces him to betray the other side. or at /least/ work with both. ] #[ which is exactly what she warned him against a moment prior. it's insanely dangerous for him; but she doesn't flinch. ] #[ if he gets hurt; from this scene alone-- you don't know whether she'd care or whether the outcome/reward would be worth it. ] #[ but also; every time uncle tian speaks and it's not often; his lines just play so well into how she operates. ] #[ that almost intimidating patience; the ability to just wait. and wait. it's literally like-- god. what video is it in; hold on. ] #[ “a spider doesn't need to be in the center of the web to feel the slightest vibration from each thread.” ] #[ /shakes everyone on the dashboard. ] #[ i hate that my two biggest muses have spider imagery but way differently so. well-- kind of. ] #[ but /this/ level of patience? oof. that's yelan. ] #[ but also-- 0:35. that ost. this version of the ost. help me. save me. ] #[ also yELAN WHAT DID YOU WHISPER TO HIM BY THE END. U G H. ] #[ ooc. ] don't try to make it logical or edit your soul according to the fashion. rather; follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly.

[esoterium]

ooooo! hi there!

// so i'm off work for the next two days. then work a day. then off two more! woohoo! listen. i'm excited! that said! i have a couple small family obligations to take care of in the afternoons these next two days but other than that? i plan on being home, here and just chilling/vibing and hanging with whoever. hope you are all safe and snug tonight.

come say hi on discord if you like. writingwhatever is the name. plop some memes from my memes tag: esoteriumemes if ya wanna! or request some memes from a muse in the reply function below. or just ask for me to plop in ya inbox and i'll wing it! idc! i'm just in a good mood. :D

much love to y'all! happy holidays if that's your thing!

ps. spent the night bathing the poor doggos cause i think the little one picked up some fleas off the people at the vet that cut her nails. they don't look like they got to the other two furbabies, thank goodness. so i think i got em early. doing all the bedding right now. thank goodness for dawn on hand and some burt's bees. i think we got it. if not? looks like come tues. it's flea stuff time. since the vet's closed. oof.

#if i didn't answer any messages. #this is what i was doing. #but at least they're clean kiddos! #and all sparkly! #i am picking up new pillows from target tomorrow #just in case. #washed everything else in bleach. #so i think we nailed it. #hopefully! #she just went on the 20th! #oof! #not good! #one from the writer's desk (ooc)

[wtfcl0ud]

i wish i was making this up for shits and giggles but i went to an anti bullying campaign with the kid who was like bullying/abusing me at the time mostly bc i didnt want to be in a relationship with them and we got uh like pins n those bracelets etc n every time i see them i remember the bad things n it's just funny ahah myb i shld get rid of them

#it's one of the last? only things tht like triggers those memories #my head has forgotten it mostly #interacting w/ her affectionate does not really make me think of it either #but those stuff do #that was such a day lol sigh #i had made the 'abuser' a gift lmao ouch #then later when we got back to school god shit happened #i ran away n hid in the library oof it was sigh damn #yolo amirite #i wasnt blame free #well i mean idk tht's what she said #god why am i crying #i mean i nvr hit her or threw things at her or purposefully tried to manipulate her n emotionally abuse her #so at least i dont hv tht on my conscience #i said smth mean publicly as a retort n i felt so guilty after it i cried lmao #anytime i told her no not tht she listened but she wld get mad at me for it anyways #i wld go make up bc i was scared sigh #damn tht was fucking hell but we were 17 n things like tht happen when ur 17 n she wsnt malicious #she was just being hurt herself #she said tht bc i was new i wld just use them for what i needed #which even tho not my intention i guess held some truth based on my actions #but it was like tf u want me to do idek where the bathrooms in the school are or the rules n all tht shit #im not asking bc i want to use you for info im asking bc i need to kno n u 'befriended' me #sorry im socially awkward n struggle at making friends tht doesnt mean im using u lmao sigh #i genuinely hope she's ok tho n doing better sigh #cloud nonsense #ignore me

[foxgloveinspace]

saw your tags on my post and i hope you find that ‘spark’ to really go feral over sleep token again! they’re so much fun to be batshit crazy over, there’s just so much going on and they all seem like such genuine dudes i can’t get enough

that post was sparked by seeing a video of vessel sobbing through the end of ascensionism and like i was so done for after that. like physically shaking so i figured i needed a break for a bit 😂

also i think that altar sounds like an awesome idea! as soon as i move my dresser into my new place i’m setting up an altar on it

1). i am trying so hard to get it back, for real for real. I lit the candle I associate with them this morning, and thinking about the *altar thing has helped a bit.

2). share a link👀?? if you still know the video?? even if you don't know the video still, maybe send some others?? I would like to be a menace over them lol.

3). * I am now going to info dump to you about my sleep token altar a bit. Cause I am thinking too much about it lmao.

(readmore cause this got long and something... 'tragic' happened.)

(a little.. background, I am currently irl in the closet for everything including witchy stuff lmao) So far my idea for stuff on it includes: a small back prism, a small whale statue, a small apple pendant (each to represent the three albums). A bottle of oils (the little one I made, but also maybe something like the prayer oil we talked about). The candle I associate with them. I'm kicking around getting the incense holder if it comes back in stock on their website. bones/teeth (wolf, I'm thinking wolf). I'm thinking it'll be a little place on my main/working/creative altar. I might also try to find a tarot deck that i associate with them, I think that would be fun. something else I have been thinking about, but it would be so freaking expensive to do, is making a rosary with the 'offical' -

shit.... fuck shit fuck. I think I just spoiled myself on accident cause of google. I didn't see much but i think an old pic of vessel came up, but fuck google man. I went to google the official scythe pendant and google change sycthe (yes misspelled like that) to members for some reason, I am so confused and actually mad. Ok. I think I have forced my brain to forget. worst google fuck up ever.

ok, so ... trying to move on... I want to make a rosary with the official scythe pendant, some tahitain pearls and some black amber beads. I think that would be so pretty, and nice to hold and maybe wear. ( i know traditionally you don't wear them, but like.... I am making one to a band/fictional god lmao, it's not traditional at all.) but that would be very pricy for a piece of jewelry and I would probably never wear it cause of that haha. it would be like 400$ to be able to get the supplies.

#grumping ahead about the thing that happened in the end of this no spoilers i wouldn't do that to you. #I think I know one first name now. I am pissed. fuck google. I probably know what Vessel looks like fuck.... no spoilers but personally? #i am correct he's pretty. #I have never been so anger at google in my whole life?? why did it do that??? it took the top search from scythe to MEMBERS///// #I have never been more angry about being right about someone being pretty in my whole life fucking fuck. #ok I'll stop complaining it had to happen eventually but i'm pissy now *grump*. #I think.... I've already blocked it from my mind already... I think I know IV's first name tho?? or III's. Poo. I know it was down the list #so it wasn't Vessel's name. ugh. That was so upsetting and especially after the stress of the afternoon. Ugh. #our oven is borked and is putting out co2. so we have no oven for christmas oof. i was gonna make cinnamon rollsssss man. I'm sad. oh well. #I have calmed down by the time I am posting this. but dang I'm very upsetty spaghetti about that. honestly more upset about this then the #oven haha.

[quilleth]

The devil is whispering in my ear that I should use a different base for Vanora and I'm like please can you not? The doll head I ordered isn't even here yet, so I can't really judge based on the few blank images I could find!

But on the other hand......

#quill's bjd adventures #brain that kind of thinking is what got us into this mess. you stop that #i already paid for her at least let her get here before we make a definitive decision *please* #torn between thinking it's a good thing impldoll hasn't released the new muscular girl yet and but i need one 👀 #if the head gets hete and i dont think it will work i can go back to plan a of making her 1/4 scale! #i can't do that if i listen to the shoulder devil telling me to order the new 1/3 girl body and a switch muhyl for faolan #i do really like some of the switch heads and milktea rose for him but oof theyre so expensive T_T #vanora #faolan

[lionblaze03-2]

Just wanted to let everybody know: ancient ties has tools now

want to comprehend this post? tags. Why did I write it all in tags

#What is ancient ties? WELL FINALLY #See uhhh ancient ties is my main warrior cats oc universe. With fanclans entirely populated with full lineups #And stories planned out through two arcs. #The first arc consists of two comics and a short epilogue converging the two and setting up arc 2 #Well. It SHOULD. It doesn’t YET but it WILL I’m. Working on things #We originally got 2 chapters out I believe but. An artist left the team and that would significantly change the style #Because I let them sketch and line after my paper boards! So I’m gonna just. Remake the whole thing from my boards #My book of eligible scripts #I can read them and I’m the only one that needs tooooo #Then the second arc is just one gigantic comic plan. Oof #Prequel also possible. If I let myself think too much there WILL be a third arc so. #Gotta try and focus my brain so I can just get one thing done. Just one comic would be good. #The first planned one is Twisted Bonds (the subtitle. It’s under ancient ties still) and it shooouldnt be too more than ten chapters #I THINK. Which is like 30-70 pages each give or take. Avg 50 #POSSIBLE. Very possible for a creature that only works weekends and fridays #I need a passion and I will make it. I demand you all begin to get invested in my universe I promise I’ll make stuff #I’m doing concept art for real I prommy #warriors #warrior cats #shameless advertising #for a series that doesn’t exist nonetheless! But it will so get excited and stay tuned please. I want to share them so much #warrior cats oc #warrior cats fanclan #wc fanclan #upcoming #upcoming comic #OH YEAH I NEVER TALKED ABOUT THE FUCKING POST. Uhhh #Yeah there’s tools now! Each clan gets unique ones. I’m gonna give them unique jewelry and some jobs too I think #Have some more fun. Less close to canon more silly and individually unique #Like. For example cavernclan (where tb takes place) is allowed gemstone names and. Probably gemstone stuff

[lightfulonion]

tagged by @skijjiki THANK YOU!!! <333

List 4 characters you match the energy of!

Top Left: Yachi Hitoka from Haikyuu!!

Top Right: Stede Bonnet from Our Flag Means Death

Middle: Usopp from One Piece

Last: Jiro Sakana from Sakana

This took me so long for the sole reason of not knowing myself good enough apparently shajdgshhj Let's not talk about how many times I had to redo this because I wasn't satisfied..... (it was 4 times u_u)

I picked all of them for various personal reasons but mostly because almost all of them have anxiety lol

Also because of their hero's journey and their role as characters but that's a little too sentimental for me rn lol lmao

This was hard!! But it was also a good chance for me to reflect a little! Thank you so much again for the tag!!!

i tag @horson, @livingonyoghurtandspite, @raph-red-fan and @clementinethekitten in case any of you want to do it!! (∩^o^)⊃━☆

#please tell me if the IDs are bad in any way this is my second time writing them and i'm still not very good at them ^^' #onion talks #get tagged #i was so so tempted to just post haikyuu and mob psycho's logos and counting it as 2 characters... it was so hard to just pick orz #i love these kinds of questions tho #they always make me think about what i find the most relatable in characters #i almost picked tsukishima at one point but there were a few more relatable ones oof #hirugami from hq and serizawa from mp100 were here at the first draft BUT i don't know them all that well yet #i need to finish both of these manga but i do know enough about them to (almost) put them in this list soo #ANYWAYZZ #please read sakana!!!! it's my favourite comic ever and it's currently on hiatus till the end of the year probably and it's really good!!!! #my favourite character there is taisei but we don't share as many similarities as with jiro and I WISH I WAS HIMM #as well as suga and reigen and hinata and bokutou #ANYWAY I AM RAMBLING AGAIN #thank you so much skijjiki for tagging me again i owe you everything (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ) #if you are reading this btw i always read your username as sky + the greek word for cicada so that's you in my mind now #THANKS AGAIN BYE #queuing this to leave a little breathing room between tagged posts

[albatris]

quinn doesnt even need to kiss nat in the reuben march arc its literally just for the Sheer Stupid Thrilling Drama of it all

#like they have their Explanation. for why it was a Necessary Strategic Important kiss #but also i think its just that they thought itd be spicy and fun #....... #or the much more oof idea that they just figure they might not get another shot 'cause one or both of them r about to die #but it is still kind of funny #like no nat you don't understand this is a TACTICAL kiss #but really quinn is like ''oh nat is super unhinged rn you know what would be super fun for me to do'' #bc like. LOOK. the explanation quinn spins together after the fact is not technically UNREALISTIC like it makes sense..... kind of #its just probably unnecessary #like in terms of ''i am literally this close to fucking snapping and losing complete control'' nat had it covered #it is Extremely obvious quinn is just making up some bullshit excuse on the spot ffjdffjd #probably in reality its half ''i am in desperate love w this idiot vampire and idk if either of us will survive this so why the fuck not'' #and half just nat looking wildly feral and unhinged and already half monster mode and quinn just being a lil bit into it #anyway quinn is a dramatic idiot thx for coming to my ted talk or whatever #''reuben march arc'' its just fun to call stuff ARCS. book one. its book one #a rental car takes a left down rake street and disappears #quinns plan is stupid. quinns plan is so absolutely risky and dreadful and homoerotic and we love them for it <3

[judyalvqrez]

the way people are once again removing all the nuance and moral greyness and complexity out of the last of us, but especially joel miller’s character is kinda concerning lol

#i told myself i wasn't gonna get into the discourse but i was reading through some of the posts and comments in the tlou tag and... oof #like i get it i could write whole essays about my feelings on this story and its characters and the ending ect. #but a lot of people are already getting annoyingly defensive of every single one of joel’s actions #literally stripping him of all of the flaws and complexities and moral greyness that make him such a great character #why are yall turning him into a clean cut selfless hero that did everything right like that's so boring #what’s most frustrating is how people are completely ignoring ellie’s perspective in all of this #some even just pushing her entire character aside in favor of joel #only bringing her or her trauma up when they’re trying to justify something joel did #and treating her like an accessory to his character when you should be reflecting how his actions are gonna affect HER #i hate to break it to yall but if you bring this highly romanticized version of joel into the next season #yall are NOT gonna have a good time #it happened once and it will happen again and i know the inevitable backlash is gonna be twice as bad this time that’s why im concerned #anyway those are just my two cents that no one asked for if you see me posting any type of discourse again pls shoot me lol #and please don't think i'm a joel hater either those people are just as annoying they're just in the minority i think especially on tumblr #why can't we just enjoy joel for the morally grey complex and honestly fucked up and tragic man that he is #it's like joel defender this joel hater that let's just be joel enjoyers #or joel lovers that'd be me because i love him with all my heart 🥺 #especially hbo joel like his characterization was so good he just hits different and honestly i prefer him over game joel #and i do enjoy the occasional ''joel is innocent/did nothing wrong' memes/jokes i think they're hilarious and ultimately harmless #(also the joel/abby memes but that's another story sjafhksaf) #this was more about the people writing almost whole ass dissertations or actively starting arguments in their fervent need to defend joel #okay im done lol #lucy rants #i tried to keep this little rant as spoiler free as possible because there's no way in hell im tagging this asjfknsa this was more for me #if you read this whole thing through the end: hi i hope your day was good and if it wasn't i hope it's great tomorrow :)

[egg-and-wet-toast]

I love water types but I love my wife more who loves Grass Types, so obvs I'm gonna join whatever team they do

#splatoon #it's a game and honestly as long as I can play with them I'm happy #i remember seeing a post in the plaza last splatfest where someone complained about being on team fun #and threw their friends under the bus and im like oof #what a bad take to do publicly kid #like no one forced you to do anything #can't relate lol i love my wife and would do anything for them #plus splatfests are fun but ppl can get so srs about them #cough red vs blue cough #we are looking for matchy names #i wanna have a slightly cursed name but they want to be cute so i think the real splatfest choice problem is that lol /jk #being Wet Toast isnt enough lol

[outahell]

today is going to be chaos ,  i see .

#⌜ / 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐎𝐅 𝐏𝐔𝐏𝐏𝐄𝐓𝐒 › ooc #one of my dogs ran down the stairs and slipped on the floor and did the splits #she was howling in pain when we got her up and our other one started howling #i don't think he realised he could do that #but she's fine now it just freaked her out #but now we're all stuck with the 'that could have happened when we were out' stress #we've devised a way to make sure they don't have access to the stairs when we're out now tho but oof what a morning #but our dogs are huge like taller than all of us when they stand on our back legs so it was a struggle to lift her up #their back legs* we don't all walk around on our hands and knees pFFT #and she's the lighter one #big heckin doggos <3 #they're borzois look the breed up if you don't know them you'll love them <3 #it's not even 10:30 am and i'm kjfdhfg #p a n i k

[impossible-rat-babies]

it’s my birthday I get to have terrible brain rot over ffxiv ships

#owen plays ffxiv #boy howdy I’m feeling a WAY #thancred and eyrie got a tag so I feel better. subject to change but I like it nonetheless #anyway I miss my boy. can’t wait to see him again #heavensward thus far is just. feels like being back at square one but in a different way #it’s just…both knowing there are allies around but feeling the loss of the other scions really badly #and not just me missing thancred it’s missing all of them #plus I like thinking about it in eyrie’s headspace as this other point of loss for them in their life #recalling how no matter what it still stings. the years do nothing to soften the blows #deep down they know everyone isn’t dead but to not have them around is rough #and they’re. very much protective over alphi and tataru #this is all that’s left. starting over in a new place #and it still has this bleakness to it #anyway brain rot time: i am going to create a narrative so self indulgent #I am plotting out a timeline that ends in ???? but I’m still living #anyway thancred suggests the hidden passage way in the game and eyrie. still like OOF off the adrenaline #says just like oh thank the twelve I could kiss you thancred #and it’s like that OH moment not the italicized Oh #we aren’t there. maybe not ever but shoosh #but it all got left on that awkwardness. this sort of weirdness of feelings #that eyrie has had kicking around since after the ultima weapon deal #tangent: in a way they were content to let the crush/infatuation slide by and content to be an observer #a friend. someone who cared and remained above their feelings out of respect #content to watch thancred do this thing #because eyrie is his friend and that’s how thancred is #but it’s just. there’s this earnest way about eyrie where that remark is genuine #so there’s this weird sorta impass of feelings going on #coupled with the fear and worry about what happened #at least on eyrie’s end #ANYWAY I’m going to bed imagining canon noncompliant the two of them meeting again

[foxgloveinspace]

Me: yeah I’m not that big of a fan of birds.

*loves ravens crows and tufted titmouse’s*

Me: well…. Maybe I’m not a fan of parrots??

#very much so #idk what I’m doing with this #when I see a tufted titmouse I get so happy!!! I saw one yesterday I think?? #little gray birds with puffs on their heads… #there’s also a family of crows that sometime live in my back yard!! #I wish I could befriend them but they are so far out there idk if they would accept treasure from me #I see them when I do the dishes and I know it’s gonna be an ok day when I see them #they haven’t been around tho cause it’s been so hot out #I hope they come back in the fall🥺 #since I’m info dumping: the feral kittens that live on my front pourch have stopped running and I’m able to pet the biggest one!! he’s #black and white and we named him Munchi. #their mother cat is sooo wild but I have touched her back twice now!! #the kittens are so dumb tho when the water bowl is empty they curl up in it😭 #sadly I can’t bring them in when I get them tame. if I could keep my cats inside I would without a moment of hesitation #but my mom will not let me. she doesn’t want any inside animals. #oof. #when I leave I’m taking Moose Marmalade and Munchi with me. and maybe all the others but Jam and Smelly Cat don’t get along #and also… 11 cats is a lot oof #Moose Marmalade Notch Jam Smelly Cat Rock Stripes Munchi Mallow Boo & the unnamed one #she’s a tortoise shell and I haven’t thought of a name for her yet #wow. this is a lot of info dumping

[twilightsparasite]

.

#my post #mine #it’s actually so surreal now to think about what I thought I wanted for my life #the fact that I was so willing to spend my life with a complete buffoon who showed no interest in sharing a life with me was just so so so #heartbreaking to go through. But now that I’ve taken this time to reflect on our behaviors #it’s obvious that I wanted the relationship and he didn’t and that’s totally fine! I’m most upset that I allowed myself to believe in lies #it’s hard staying apart of reality when someone that delusional is living with you #a part * #wow. #just mind boggling really. I’m so much happier and healthier now. #don’t get me wrong #it’s amazing talking to R right now and I adore our flirty banter but I don’t think I’m ready for another heartbreak or to lead him on. #woah. I always word vomit on here haha 😂 and forget that I’m doing it #while I’m doing it lol 😂 #anywho! I’m just thankful to have my memories with R to reflect on. I knew there were good men in the world. I just had to get away from the #bad ones. And that’s what I was In ThE PrOcEsSss of DOiNnG!! #so glad I broke up with my ex and finally accepted the reality that he isn’t good for me and we don’t mix. #the clarity feels ethereal though. I’m so excited to figure out where things are at with R soon and then go from there #oof! which skirt shall I wear today ☺️ #I got 3 new skirts yesterday and a wicked awesome scarf and some earrings.! man I’m such a lil fashionista now #finally dressing how I’ve always wanted too :) #okay I need to shut up #I could talk for hours haha 🙃 #I’m so annoying sometimes but this is my blog! and I enjoy my small escape :) I’ve earned it #after dealing with nerve issues for the past near 7 months because my ex choked me and like a little bitch now forced both of us to have to #live with the horrors he created. I think I’ve earned my place in vomiting emotions into my little tumblr blog #I’ve accepted what happened. will never understand it because it’s a foolish delusion if you believe him to be a good guy or even capable #I’ve thought it over so many times. he had no one in his life supporting him like I was and he snapped when I was no longer an ‘object’ he #could use #so he panicked and does what his pea brain thought he had to do which was eliminate the ‘threat’ being me because he could no longer control