#only comes out when im asleep

[ao3-crack]

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#archive of our own #ao3 stuff #ao3 quotes #archive of our own quotes #fanfic #fanfic quotes #funny #ao3 #ao3 tags #Author Has No Plan And It’s Causing Her Problems #how dare you call me out like this #it’s not like I’ve been staying up an extra hour every night trying to write a single one shot #bc the only time my fucking brain wants to come up with the next part of the plot #is when im already cozy in bed and halfway to being asleep

[jfkisonthemoon]

they honestly couldve done so much with junpei beheaded/dismembered and im disappointed that it ended up just being mira. so much of his character and his relationship with akane is characterized by his lack of bodily autonomy, and him being openly beheaded during the nonary games would be the ultimate example of this. its perhaps the most brutal death in the game, and it never really gets explained or developed beyond the one puzzle that we get with it. junpei has been shown repeatedly to be subject to akane's plans or follow her blindly and i just think that would have been a really interesting angle to approach his beheading from. junpei has willingly signed up for nonary games in two different timelines just because he knew he would see her. he was infected with a deadly virus trying to find her. he grew desensitized to death as he took underground jobs to try and find her. his safety always comes second when shes in the picture, and his beheading wouldve been a prime opportunity to 1. exploit his willingness to let himself die/be injured for her and 2. make akane confront the fact that her confidence that junpei will always follow after her is not necessarily a positive thing.

#zero escape #additionally wasnt mira supposed to be asleep?? like i know she didnt get the forget juice but didnt she still get knocked out? #but also!! none of her other kills were like that! none of them were dismembered and she didnt touch junpeis chest #so even that reasoning doesnt make sense #kinda feels like a copout to keep the shock of junpei being disrespected in such a way - to have his very body turned into a puzzle #a puzzle that akane is forced to solve!!! without knowing that what shes looking for is his head - him! #theres so much potential there and they just didnt do anything #im not even saying that akane should have somehow been responsible for that death - only that not having her really grapple with it is such #a missed opportunity #i still fucking LOVE the imagery of it though. i really think its the epitome of the representations of his lack of autonomy #he loses all of vlr. quark. 45 years of his life. because akane decides this is best for him. he dies repeatedly trying to find her. #because she believes that she knows what will keep him safe #and turning junpeis body into a puzzle posthumously is a fantastic example of his lack of control over his body #its like hes literally become a doll. hes jumpydoll - not junpei. hes subject to these games even after he has died. #he gets no peace. no respect in his death. not when hes in these games. not when hes in the shadow of akanes whims and games. #i still love the imagery. i think it was one of my favorite parts of ztd and is honestly now a core tenet of my Junpei Understanding #but i was disappointed in the lack of narrative weight that specific death had. for him to be one of the first dead? for it to be in such a #brutal manner? like come ON. the character analysis for junpei and akane and their relationship is RIGHT THERE. all you had to do was put i #in the game #but nope. #they just handwave it as something mira did. #and dont bring up the details ever again because. plot point solved? #anyway. ive been thinking about junpei imagery and bodily autonomy a lot. obviously. #zero escape spoilers #mak no peeking #marydontlookatthis

[belleski]

apparently all of ‘For the future’ got leaked, so for the next 16-17 days this is no owl house zone. we’re on a 16-17 day long owl house quarentine

#not to be dramatic or anything but im devestated #i alreadyyy knowwww that some pullock with a youtube channel that only post clips of disney tv shows with 8 million subs or smth #is gonna post a video with a massive spoiler tumblnail and a massive spoiler title in capital letters #and there is going to be now way to avoid that because you cant block youtube topics i dont think #this has happened to me at least 3 times now #like im sorry but im asleep when episodes come out!! so when i wake up people have already edited together perfect little spoiler vids like! #please dont?! im not talking to anyone is particular im kinda just venting about timezones now lol #anyway - stay safe out there famsquad #and if you send me spoilers i will block you im sorry

[cyeayt]

Back on my bullshit answer my questions

while doing some rudimentary research for this poll it has come to my attention that pins and needles are a feeling felt while the limb is asleep, not the period of intense sensation/tingling/sensitivity experienced while it comes back online. or maybe it's both? the stuff i read referred to it as tingling that happens while the limb is pinned/under pressure/numb. i cannot find anything that references what i have come to think of as "the agony" but ive referred to it as the pins and needles in the options for this poll anyway.

Mild: limb has muted sensation but can be moved and used carefully, pins and needles begin almost immediately after limb is moved from whatever position caused it to fall asleep. Pins and needles not painful and do not appear painful, and last a few seconds, person affected is capable of speech and moving other parts of their body during pins and needles, which last a few seconds.

Middle intensity: limb is numb or partially numb and can twitch but not be moved precisely. Pins and needles begin a few seconds after limb is unpinned or when it is moved. Pins and needles not painful but intense and appear uncomfortable, taking a lot of the affected person's attention/capacity. they last between 5 and 7 seconds.

Intense: limb is numb and cannot move/be used, pins and needles begin 5-7 seconds after the limb is unpinned. pins and needles are intense and may be painful or not painful but 'unbearable', causing the affected person to cry out, grimace, or otherwise appear to be in pain. Person cannot speak or move their other limbs during pins and needles, which last 10 or more seconds (without shaking) and have residual tingling for a few seconds after limb regains movement/becomes bearable to move

obviously this all depends on how long the limb was pinned but just answer whichever is the most common for you, and if you want you can put in the tags what positions make your limbs go numb/how you deal.

#polls #poll #tell me your secrets #idk i was just shaking out my hand but im sick/tired rn so i was actively crying out and was thinking #that limbs falling asleep/pins and needles are a very common and intensely unpleasant experience #and its kinda fuckin weird that we as a society dont talk about it more #and that it can be brushed off or be a single line in books n stuff #and like theres a lot of things that get done dirty in books for how intense/scary/dangerous they are irl #like the first time i got the wind knocked out of me and thought i was dying cause its only ever described as #getting the wind knocked out of you #rather than you can't feel the air coming in and out of your lungs #and the only way you can tell youre not dying is that you aren't experiencing air hunger #which can happen when you are dying in certain situations so fuck if i know #and like headrush like i see new colors/lose track of reality/twitch or faint when its real bad and in books its always like #a bout of dizzyness or some shit #and before i get called out yea i know what an iron deficiency is #also rip to all book characters who've been knocked out for several hours after a head injury or passed out from blood loss lol #anyway #then theres shit like my psycosomatic faux asthma symptoms or swallowing issure or the foot thing that are unique to me as far as i can tel #and boy howdy does that suck shit #but to conclude #bodies are weird why dont you tell me how yours works.

[tiredstressedemotionalmess]

the problem is im sleepy but not tired and ive been awake for like an hour so now im Bored and i wanna Do Shit but its three am and truly all i want is to go back to sleep but i CANT

#PLEASE GOD MY HEADACHES GONNA COME BACK IF I STAY UP #ITS GONNA COME BACK IF I SLEEP IN TOO LATE TOO #BASICALLY I THINK IM FUCKED AND IM OUT OF THE ONLY MEDS THAT WORK SO REALLY I THINK MY BEST HOPE IS TO FALL ASLEEP RIGHT NOW #AND PRAY MY ALARM WAKES ME UP AND I ACTUALLY LISTEN AND GET OUT OF BED WHEN I NEED TO #yeah no thats not gonna happen im fucked im accepting my fate return of the headache is inevitable because life is full of pain and misery #happy fucking easter im gonna lay in the dark and stare at the celing until the sun rises i guess

[a9saga]

this past summer after my sisters and i saw big time rush for the second time i had a dream that we all met them and diana, in an effort to make logan laugh, made a very uncomfortable and out of character h*tler joke

#anxiety dreams are funnier than i am #i wouldn't come up with this when i was awake this is only the type of worrying i do when im asleep #i dont know where that came from #i would wanna claw my eyes out #james is jewish! #big time rush #shut up kaily

[mute-call]

srry my pg playlist is making it impossible not to think about mikerophone so. literally all i can picture rn is ghost!pg sitting on mike's desk, chatting away with him on the phone during shifts & when mike comes in on off hours. your long distance boyfriend who's right next to u 🥺

#the themes of only finding happiness after you die etc etc etc #m.ike not having to go through the horrors Alone #pg doing everything possible to make sure he survives and it works. #not wanting to say goodnight but it's literally past 6 in the morning & he has another shift that night #m.ike falling asleep at the desk & pg just ~~playing f.naf~~ managing the door controls for him to keep him safe instead of waking him #i honestly imagine it would be REALLY easy for pg to handle the others if he can sense when theyre coming or smthin #m.ike bringing little gifts & finding them moved around the next day #the back room becomes kind of a nice cozy living space w them #making the best out of the worst etc #im . soft. about. them #// #(as always i default to s.chmidt not being a.fton #but this isnt NOT about a.fton for interactions where ages work out!) #;ooc

[united-under-skyfall]

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#i think one thing i really didn't prepare for w overnights is just how fucking lonely it is. like yeah 80% of the reason i took it was to #get away from customers but like. it worked. and the night shift team is v v small. there's only 4 of us and we've never been scheduled all #at once yet. and usually we're running around on completely opposite ends of the building going long periods of time without #radioing each other. and then i come home all amped up and the rest of my house is still asleep. and then when they wake up #it's just to get ready and go and we don't really have time to talk. and by the time they get back i'm sleeping #and it's my first night off and i can't fuck up my whole schedule i worked so hard to switch over to w them flipping me all over the place #so now i'm just like. sitting in the half light trying not to wake anybody up not doing anything. the only places near us open are #gas stations and i can't exactly loiter there and what would i do even if i could. and it's too cold to go for a walk or to the park #or something. and i feel like i haven't talked to another human being about something that wasn't related to work in years #and it's only been a week. #and we can listen to music or podcasts or something but our carts and machines are so loud you miss half of it. and we can't hold #super long conversations when we ARE in the same room for the same reasons. plus we all want to die so none of us feel like talking. #and just. im tired and lonely and want to sleep and im already regretting this but i'd feel bad for backing out now when they have so #few options and i volunteered for it in the first place #and then there's also like. even just doing my usual solitary thing at home feels so much more isolated bc there's not the noises #of other people existing nearby. the nearest signs of life are some coughing and then a car on the other side of the block #just. what am i even doing here. #tag ramble

[hella1975]

my mum will say the nastiest rottenest things to me and then she’ll calm down and be like ‘sorry 😝’ and ill move it on bc it’s not worth getting her angry again but inside im like babygirl maybe u have some anger issues maybe

#at one point she was like ‘do you think im mean?’ and I was MAD mad at this point and both of us mad is never good #bc we’re just trying to hurt each other for no other reason than to know we’ve got through to the other #so I was like ‘YES I think you’re mean’ ‘but only when I’m angry’ ‘that doesn’t justify it’ ‘but you agree only when I’m angry’ #and I didn’t know what she was getting at so I was like ‘yeah?’ #THIS BITCH GOES ‘huh I can live with that’ LMAO??? #anyway I moved out of my uni room today and a year ago when I moved IN me and my mum rowed the entire time #and it’s a real sore point for me bc it was her saying how cold I am and that she basically doesn’t like how I’m turning out #(direct quote) #and me saying how her temper ruins everything and she can’t see sense #and low and behold we effectively had THE EXACT SAME ARGUMENT today a year later #‘your lack of empathy astounds me. I despair of you’ (that’s a new one. 11/10 word choice she didn’t need to go so hard with that) #and me going back with ‘I hate you when your angry’ and very dangerously close to ‘your just like your mother’ territory #shits and giggles! #I’ve just had a nap bc we’ve been up since 4am and she came upstairs #and I fully pretended to be asleep bc I know that means she’s come to apologise #which means she’s actually taken a second to BREATHE and stop being so fucking angry #and low and behold it returns all logic and critical thinking skills to her #and I’ll have to forgive her because I do genuinely hate her when she’s angry #and it’s just not worth holding onto so I’ll take an out if she gives it me #but it’s soooo frustrating and unnecessarily upsetting for BOTH of us #and I hate that we still fucking do this and I’ve got a whole summer of it and I can’t just go back to uni now and yeah #live love etc #delete later #don’t reblog

[perilegs]

i have a text document open while i'm doing my current replay of my canon warden so i can write my thoughts down as i play so i won't forget important things about her character and. im reading what i've written down so far and i am going to make myself cry right this second. why did i write "zevran looks like home"

#like. before i started this rerun of ati mahariel i only had a small amount of text. da keep tapestry. and a playlist for her #but now i have so much text ahhhh #i like this bc i know im making tje exact same decisions as the #first time around i played her. but now that i don't have to figure out who she is while playing i get to deepen her a bit and its so much #fun #how long will it take before i write about the parallels i realized she has with morrigan and zevran. #hopefully not too long bc god i love thinking about her #i know this game series and especially origins has been so very dear to me for so many years now #but i always enjoy it when i replay the games and get in an extra dragon age mood #bc if i have a fixation i dont have to spend time deciding what to think of when falling asleep etc. it just comes to me naturally #like there are Obvious downsides to having hyperfixations but im also having a lot of fun #leevi liveblogs #i think i had a point but i got sleepy and now im just rambling #good night. i will be thinking of ati in bittersweet situations xo

[fox-mulder-gets-pegged]

The funny thing about owning a cat with severe anxiety and (suspected) brain damage is sometimes things that were ok yesterday are now far far far too scary today.

Case in point, yesterday the wet food dish was bringer of Food and Yum, today it's so so so so scary too scary can't go near it please feed me with a different bowl or I'll cry and cry and cry.

#honestly? #relatable #she (and the other two cats) are from an abuse situation and considering when they picked her up #her teeth were kinda jacked up and shes scared shitless of quick or sudden movement #im pretty sure she musta got kicked in the head or something #like when u look in her eyes u can tell that point A and point B aren't connecting #and she does some weird behavior stuff which is why i think brain damage #but she is loved and well cared for here #it's ok that she'll never be a lap cat and that if u try to pet her more than a few times she starts crying #she's safe here and ill meet here where she is #honestly when we adopted her we thought well we're never gonna see that cat #figured she'd find a little hidey hole and only ever come out for food and bathroom breaks #but nah she'll sit on the back of the couch #and if she thinks my mom's asleep she'll climb on top of her and make just thee most intense biscuits of all time #so i think she's happy here #even if sometimes her fear wins out

[lunarflare64]

I think the amount of jobs should be doubled, in the sense that people have to work half as much, but I also think it should be doubled again, in the sense that the world needs to stop focusing on you diurnal fuckers so that nocturnal folk can actually do things aside from just working night shift during dark hours

#one of the most frustrating things i swear #i might not be able to work because of my other disabilities #but i know other people with my sleep disorder could really use that kind of flexibility #plus nighttime is just boring on its own #cant exactly go for a bar for breakfast or lunch but those would be my only options if i went out while im nocturnal #lunch is midnight people! stop making it the ultimate closing time >:T #oh to have a 24 hour society #unfortunately it cant be happening anytime soon because capitalism is shit #and there would be no protections stopping people from being forced to work 16 to 24 hour shifts #fucking hell #FUCK DIURNAL PEOPLE AND FUCK CAPITALISM LET ME DO THINGS DURING MY 'DAY' FOR FUCKS SAKE #its 11pm and im bored #imagine being able to go to a library rn #would be nice to be able to do food shopping without being sleep deprived too #and doctors visits! i have a lot of appointments and theyre really hard on me because of the way my sleep disorder is #im getting a ton of testing on my heart done in just over a week and by then ill be fully nocturnal and its gonna be so hard to coordinate #im used to waking up in the middle of the 'night' for things but when it comes to medical testing theres so much i have to specify #because otherwise itll be inaccurate #like if they looked at me like a normal person a spike in heartrate at 8am would be moving about to start the day #but if they looked at me like me a spike at 8am is an intense jump while im falling asleep #i know what ive got is rare but still #why dont people think about these things?

[kawaiianimeredhead]

Tried to make heart shaped peppermint patties for a work party tomorrow. Made a decent mess of the kitchen but they have been made

#not pictured here tjo because i got so tired #i didnt use a decent amoutn of the inside dough like part #because i got tired of cutting them #used the recipe b dylan hollis used in his tiktok #i didnt eat a full one but i ate the inside part when i had the extra dough and i ate some of the chocolate when i made a mess of it #and they were good so fingers crossed altogether its good #got a cute heart shaped place im gonna try to set them up in tomorrow before i bring tjem #wish i had little tongs so people can pjck them ip easier #but that is currently not my problem #my feet hurt and i shoukd sleep because i have work in the morning #but i consumed a decent amount of sugar and in general am sorta anxious #and also unsatisfied because i was playing a video game and kept stepping away for other things #so not only did i not play as much as i wanted nick has gotten ahead in it with a lot of the gear so i feel like i missed out #dont mind me #tag rambles #theres a noise in my bathroom ish area thar sounds like a drip sort of sound onto like plastic maybe #and its really annoying because the immediate place i tjought it wad coming from its not #so its either in the walls or its on the other side in halies room but i have no way to really know because i dont wanna investigate atm #but i do now have to listen to it until i fall asleep

[maddiescars]

God FUCKING dammit I give up.

#i cant stay long i tell him. i have school tomorrow i tell him. okay he says. just come over we'll have fun he says #i go over and he starts acting all melodramatic and refuses to tell me whats wrong until i ask him four fucking times #talks at me yet again about how im failing him as a girlfriend #damn dude just fucking break up with me already. #he only keeps me because im his shrink #he calls and i come running but heaven forbid i tell him how slur reclamation works when he ASKS ME ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!! #i cant fucking win. he needs to leave. he needs to break up with me because ill never be who he wants me to be #and im not gonna change to be who he wants because then ill become suicidal #dude is not stupid but damn man how the fuck am i supposed to do anything at all when every six weeks you drill me for something #something central to myself that i don't even do on purpose #i already know im not gonna marry this dude I don't know why i stick around #hes hot as hell and nice as all get out but dude isn't funny and makes me listen to music i hate #he makes me waste my time with him nonstop i was supposed to be asleep by now every time i make something cool #he hounds me until i make it for him too i cant even run and hide because he'll hunt me down and get all pissy #that im not mouthfucking him as much this week and is something wrong??????? communication is key honey u have to TELL me well shit man #how the fuck dp you expect me to tell you when you're the problem?

[dbphantom]

Man you know I'm fucking stressed when I start having sleep paralysis episodes again lmao

#Cruddy rambles #This time I saw a big ol demon kitty lounging on the chair in my room and heard someone banging on my bedroom door and turning the knob #The worst part of these is when I try to talk and I physically cannot even get a sound out #I always wondered. What it sounded like to other people #Because to me in the half asleep state I am screaming with a closed mouth and all that's coming out is like. Those whisper yells. #But I imagine it's making next to no noise at all. Which sucks bc like. I'd at least LIKE help if it were possible #Not that I want to just start screaming randomly in the middle of the night. But being able to call 4 help would be nice. #Sigh... #Anyway. Yeah. That was a great experience 10/10 do not recommend #It's funny how I had 1 (one) sleep paralysis experience at college. And now that I'm home I'm having them on the reg again #Funny how that works. I'm sure it's unrelated. #They're not even that scary bc Im half asleep for them. they're just panic inducing bc they're loud and I can't move and I hate it #SO loud. It's always lots of banging. One time I heard my Grammy laughing from that same chair while something huge and with many limbs #Banged all across my closet doors from every direction. Fuckin rude #I've also only ever had 1 physical hallucination and it was the college one #A demon walked into my dorm room while my friends slept in the common room (initially I thought it was one of them coming in to wake me up) #And walked over to the side of the bed and stood there and stared at me until it started shaking the bed violently and laughing #And I just kinda rolled over and fell back asleep despite the shaking and laughing bc like. What u gonna do #I have to emphasize that you're barely conscious during these which is why ur brain hallucinates in the first place #So literally ur only action is to force yourself to wake up but deal with the horrors (like I did tonight) or just. Fall back asleep #Which is my usual option but I couldn't fall back asleep bc I'm hungry #I'm gonna go tho. I'm tired af and I wanna try to sleep some more b4 I have to get up today #I just came here to calm down bc talking calms me down and well. I can post here without bothering anyone with dumb messages. #So I'm go back to sleep now #Goog nite

[hermitagereheadcanons]

Sooo feeling good about my knowledge now, wanna write something. Any particular pairs/prompts? Or any tips that might help me not mess up and accidentally offend someone? :D lol

Oooh, I'm not good at writing prompts. I've always been big on a character being worried about their friends' perception of them changing if they tell them about their regression, if that's something that interests you

As for tips, I'd say just keep in mind that no two people will have the exact same experience with age regression, and you don't need the character to check a certain number of boxes to be considered a "real" regressor. All age regression is, at its core, is the person's mind regressing to a younger state, and there's no specific activities or feelings or aesthetics that make it more or less valid.

I'd love to see what you write, feel free to tag me or send a link if/when you post it :)

#im so late to this hgjksdgh #i think i was asleep when it was sent #not a headcanon #pumacat83 #im actually really not good at coming up with isolated agere headcanons or prompts #i do better with the context surrounding it #for example how the character feels about it and how it fits into their life #it doesnt look that way because of my near-constant stream of isolated agere headcanons lol #but thats pretty much always been the case #(it's also why i dont tend to seek out agere fic - ive had less than ideal experiences reading it because most people abandon #characterization for it and it stops feeling like it's about the character theyre writing. so i basically only read it if i already #like the author or if someone recommends me the fic)